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Should have been “home” hours ago. Except - I don’t have a home I have a room in a pub with a company where I’m not wanted or welcome. I’m so out of love with everything right now and feeling so dejected. It’ll get better though right? #iusedtobepositive #coping #notverywell #whycantpeoplejustbenice #justwanttobehappy #wineworks
Dessert was this and I use to love eating these every once in a while so I decided to have one. I'm pretty proud as their was lower opinions their but I know I wanted this so I went for it :)) weigh in tomorrow... super nervous but hoping I gain 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 hope you have a great day xxx
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#fighter #unwell #afraid #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #beatana #justwanttobehappy #fighter #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recovering #anorexia #anorexic #mentalhealth
Dessert was this and I use to love eating these every once in a while so I decided to have one. I'm pretty proud as their was lower opinions their but I know I wanted this so I went for it :)) weigh in tomorrow... super nervous but hoping I gain 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 hope you have a great day xxx -------------------------------------------- #fighter  #unwell  #afraid  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #beatana  #justwanttobehappy  #fighter  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #anorexia  #anorexic  #mentalhealth 
All I want is nothing more...
And all I need is...
#alliwant #kodaline #musiclover #musicaholic #somefeelings #neverknowwhattoexpect #justwanttobeloved #justwanttobehappy 
#มนต์นมสด #ลูกป่วย #พ่อจัดให้ #วิถีบูชิโด
Jisoo - 🌸have a good day🌸
Me- 🌸 i always have a good day when I see you 💕
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#BLACKPINK #asifitsyourlast #stay #boombayah #whistle #playingwithfire #ddu_du_ddu_du #foreveryoung #jisoo4d #jichu #jisoo #jennie #jendeukie #NINICAM #rose #chipmunk #rosieposie #lisa #limario #strongmaknae #lisaoppa #justwanttobehappy #justwanttoshare #BLINKS #exo #bts #gfriend
fruit with breakfast was this big juicy royal gala apple!! i'm pretty proud of myself as normally i'd have raspberrys but nope 🙅🏼 big juicy apple for me!! 🍎 today hasn't been great so far, i was distrot earlier but i'm better now. i have weigh in tomorrow.., here's hoping i gain.. i really need to. having meal time support all week, super awkward 😬 but what can i do? oh also thank you for 300 followers! never thought i'd get past 100 honestly. i might post something personal but i'd need to go on private if i did because nobody knows about this account. i hope you have a great day 😌 --------------------------------------------
#fighter #unwell #afraid #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #beatana #justwanttobehappy #fighter #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recovering #anorexia #anorexic #mentalhealth
fruit with breakfast was this big juicy royal gala apple!! i'm pretty proud of myself as normally i'd have raspberrys but nope 🙅🏼 big juicy apple for me!! 🍎 today hasn't been great so far, i was distrot earlier but i'm better now. i have weigh in tomorrow.., here's hoping i gain.. i really need to. having meal time support all week, super awkward 😬 but what can i do? oh also thank you for 300 followers! never thought i'd get past 100 honestly. i might post something personal but i'd need to go on private if i did because nobody knows about this account. i hope you have a great day 😌 -------------------------------------------- #fighter  #unwell  #afraid  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #beatana  #justwanttobehappy  #fighter  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #anorexia  #anorexic  #mentalhealth 
This is 1 of 2 posts I'm doing tonight.
I have to admit that the past few days I've not exactly been my usual self. I've felt like crying over EVERYTHING and just feeling like a complete failure with everything. 
I've lived in my current property for around 5 or 6 years, despite trying my absolute hardest to get out of here, NO ONE will give me a chance!! Where I live now is also where my ex once lived, where alot of the abuse happend and where that one night where he decided to TRY and kill me. My local council wouldn't allow me on their housing list despite me sending them all the reports of what had gone on and how my ex knows I still live here but they still expected me to live here. It wasn't until early this year that they have finally accepted me on their list, however, I'm looking at a 5 - 7 year wait before I even make it to the top of their list! By that point Isabelle will be alot older and wouldn't of had the memories of playing in a garden or a paddling pool after school like most of her friends do now. Local estate agents want ridiculous amounts in fees and are so strict on their regulations, they won't look twice at my application. It doesn't matter how much we decorate or what new furniture we buy, the memories and flashbacks are STILL going to be there! It pisses me off seeing others moving around a good few times, getting any property they fancy, yet they've not had a history of domestic violence or abuse but are in the same situation as me with everything else..?! Seriously, how?! Some I'm genuinely happy for, others, not so much.
I feel like I'm failing as a parent, a girlfriend, a friend and a daughter. I've considered giving up posting because what's the point anymore? I feel like I'm doing nothing more than just annoying people by posting my own thoughts and feelings because who even actually cares? I feel boring, plain, dull and not as exciting as others. I feel like I'm constantly waiting for that break in life that I want so much and have been doing what I can for years for it to happen, but in reality I'm 90% sure it won't ever happen - not to someone like me. This isn't a pity post, I've just needed to rant to get things out there.
This is 1 of 2 posts I'm doing tonight. I have to admit that the past few days I've not exactly been my usual self. I've felt like crying over EVERYTHING and just feeling like a complete failure with everything. I've lived in my current property for around 5 or 6 years, despite trying my absolute hardest to get out of here, NO ONE will give me a chance!! Where I live now is also where my ex once lived, where alot of the abuse happend and where that one night where he decided to TRY and kill me. My local council wouldn't allow me on their housing list despite me sending them all the reports of what had gone on and how my ex knows I still live here but they still expected me to live here. It wasn't until early this year that they have finally accepted me on their list, however, I'm looking at a 5 - 7 year wait before I even make it to the top of their list! By that point Isabelle will be alot older and wouldn't of had the memories of playing in a garden or a paddling pool after school like most of her friends do now. Local estate agents want ridiculous amounts in fees and are so strict on their regulations, they won't look twice at my application. It doesn't matter how much we decorate or what new furniture we buy, the memories and flashbacks are STILL going to be there! It pisses me off seeing others moving around a good few times, getting any property they fancy, yet they've not had a history of domestic violence or abuse but are in the same situation as me with everything else..?! Seriously, how?! Some I'm genuinely happy for, others, not so much. I feel like I'm failing as a parent, a girlfriend, a friend and a daughter. I've considered giving up posting because what's the point anymore? I feel like I'm doing nothing more than just annoying people by posting my own thoughts and feelings because who even actually cares? I feel boring, plain, dull and not as exciting as others. I feel like I'm constantly waiting for that break in life that I want so much and have been doing what I can for years for it to happen, but in reality I'm 90% sure it won't ever happen - not to someone like me. This isn't a pity post, I've just needed to rant to get things out there.
This is 1 of 2 posts I'm doing tonight.
I have to admit that the past few days I've not exactly been my usual self. I've felt like crying over EVERYTHING and just feeling like a complete failure with everything. 
I've lived in my current property for around 5 or 6 years, despite trying my absolute hardest to get out of here, NO ONE will give me a chance!! Where I live now is also where my ex once lived, where alot of the abuse happend and where that one night where he decided to TRY and kill me. My local council wouldn't allow me on their housing list despite me sending them all the reports of what had gone on and how my ex knows I still live here but they still expected me to live here. It wasn't until early this year that they have finally accepted me on their list, however, I'm looking at a 5 - 7 year wait before I even make it to the top of their list! By that point Isabelle will be alot older and wouldn't of had the memories of playing in a garden or a paddling pool after school like most of her friends do now. Local estate agents want ridiculous amounts in fees and are so strict on their regulations, they won't look twice at my application. It doesn't matter how much we decorate or what new furniture we buy, the memories and flashbacks are STILL going to be there! It pisses me off seeing others moving around a good few times, getting any property they fancy, yet they've not had a history of domestic violence or abuse but are in the same situation as me with everything else..?! Seriously, how?! Some I'm genuinely happy for, others, not so much.
I feel like I'm failing as a parent, a girlfriend, a friend and a daughter. I've considered giving up posting because what's the point anymore? I feel like I'm doing nothing more than just annoying people by posting my own thoughts and feelings because who even actually cares? I feel boring, plain, dull and not as exciting as others. I feel like I'm constantly waiting for that break in life that I want so much and have been doing what I can for years for it to happen, but in reality I'm 90% sure it won't ever happen - not to someone like me. This isn't a pity post, I've just needed to rant to get things out there.
This is 1 of 2 posts I'm doing tonight. I have to admit that the past few days I've not exactly been my usual self. I've felt like crying over EVERYTHING and just feeling like a complete failure with everything. I've lived in my current property for around 5 or 6 years, despite trying my absolute hardest to get out of here, NO ONE will give me a chance!! Where I live now is also where my ex once lived, where alot of the abuse happend and where that one night where he decided to TRY and kill me. My local council wouldn't allow me on their housing list despite me sending them all the reports of what had gone on and how my ex knows I still live here but they still expected me to live here. It wasn't until early this year that they have finally accepted me on their list, however, I'm looking at a 5 - 7 year wait before I even make it to the top of their list! By that point Isabelle will be alot older and wouldn't of had the memories of playing in a garden or a paddling pool after school like most of her friends do now. Local estate agents want ridiculous amounts in fees and are so strict on their regulations, they won't look twice at my application. It doesn't matter how much we decorate or what new furniture we buy, the memories and flashbacks are STILL going to be there! It pisses me off seeing others moving around a good few times, getting any property they fancy, yet they've not had a history of domestic violence or abuse but are in the same situation as me with everything else..?! Seriously, how?! Some I'm genuinely happy for, others, not so much. I feel like I'm failing as a parent, a girlfriend, a friend and a daughter. I've considered giving up posting because what's the point anymore? I feel like I'm doing nothing more than just annoying people by posting my own thoughts and feelings because who even actually cares? I feel boring, plain, dull and not as exciting as others. I feel like I'm constantly waiting for that break in life that I want so much and have been doing what I can for years for it to happen, but in reality I'm 90% sure it won't ever happen - not to someone like me. This isn't a pity post, I've just needed to rant to get things out there.
1_6_ dua ketul yg macam2 ragam ..sorang ego yg sorang lagi degil..(sebab tu jugak lah asyik kena marah)😅😂😆 #loveu 🎊🎉💞#@syuk_ferish #mylove #singa #snowcamera #flowerboy #inikanraya #rayake4 #anniversary #justwanttobehappy #happyending
What do I want in my life? Just being sad till I die? Or do I want to do something else? Something that matters? I have to do something. DECIDE! #decide #fear #fightingdepression #justwanttobehappy #searchingforhappiness #life #daretolive #daretolove #loveyourself #sadness #lonely #cynwritings #cyn✍🏼
dessert was a galaxy ripple 🌌 
maybe tw
i'm not even going to lie, today's sucked. i didn't have breakfast because my mind set was horrible. i was talking so suicidal... so that sucked.. iv not really felt great at all today. i also had "meal time support" today. and when i say it was awkward that would be an understatement 😂 i have till thursday to really make a change, so i'm going to try my absolute best. earlier i was just thinking about how i need to increase, and went through to the kitchen and got 200ml of nesquick💪🏻💪🏻!! pretty proud of myself 😅 i hope you have a great day xx
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#fighter #unwell #afraid #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #beatana #justwanttobehappy #fighter #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recovering #anorexia #anorexic #mentalhealth
dessert was a galaxy ripple 🌌 maybe tw i'm not even going to lie, today's sucked. i didn't have breakfast because my mind set was horrible. i was talking so suicidal... so that sucked.. iv not really felt great at all today. i also had "meal time support" today. and when i say it was awkward that would be an understatement 😂 i have till thursday to really make a change, so i'm going to try my absolute best. earlier i was just thinking about how i need to increase, and went through to the kitchen and got 200ml of nesquick💪🏻💪🏻!! pretty proud of myself 😅 i hope you have a great day xx ----------------------------- #fighter  #unwell  #afraid  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #beatana  #justwanttobehappy  #fighter  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #anorexia  #anorexic  #mentalhealth 
~ Everyone is fighting for something and I just want to smile! 😁😁😁 #happy #happytime #happythoughts #smile #blonde #polishgirl #poland #love #pink #positivevibes #laststory #justwanttobehappy #saturday #tb #diabetes #lifelover #thankful #happymoments #summer #pushandpull
Okay.. That smirk😏.. Its kill me 😵.. And her smile at the end 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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#BLACKPINK #asifitsyourlast #stay #boombayah #whistle #playingwithfire #ddu_du_ddu_du #foreveryoung #jisoo4d #jichu #jisoo #jennie #jendeukie #lisa #rose #parkchaeyong #jenlisa #jensoo #chaelisa #chaesoo #smirk #justwanttobehappy #justwanttoshare #like4like #love #fff #BLINKS
我的端午節日❤️
Ps: bamá nói: “tụi tui xấu quá, đừng có chụp”, tui chụp bất chấp 🤣
#withmylove #tếtdiệtsâubọ
#justwanttobehappy 
#yy
So i have a really bad time, but like im trying and i hope you do It too!💛 I need you in this world, beacuse all of you is import in this world!💘 #dontknowwhattodo #givingup #dontknow #wanttobebetter #fuckthisworld #iwillgiveupsoon #trying #selfharm #suicide #eatingdisorder #depression #mentalhealth  #notgoodengough #youreimportant #justwanttobehappy #goodbye
" duu-duu-duu-duuu
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#misssomeone #speasialmoment
#justwanttobehappy
📸: bunda @afrianiangelica
“ If you're gonna break my heart, just break it and if you're gonna take your shot, then take it. Take it. If you made up your mind, then make it. Make this fast” 
#brettyoung #lyrics #citytocountry #countrygirl #music #lyrics #smilethroughitall #giveup #justwanttobehappy #brunette #hazeleyes #smile #bullshit #phoenix #takemeback #yyc #yycbabes #calgary
But like everything I’ve ever known, you’ll disappear one day. So, I’ll spend my whole life hiding my heart away❤️ #igiveup #justwanttobehappy
But like everything I’ve ever known, you’ll disappear one day. So, I’ll spend my whole life hiding my heart away❤️ #igiveup  #justwanttobehappy 
I already know what I already know
Let it go
Shut up shut up
Fed up
Give me a break
You do not understand yet?
#mondaymorning #sundaynight #iknow #fedup #mood #justwanttobehappy #beingpeaceful #justiwant #theoffspring #shutup #givemeabreak #candoit
breakfast was 40(!!!) grams of cereal!! over the last month iv only been having 30g but today i finally followed the meal plan!!
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so, yesterday i went swimming!! iv not went in months. i stayed in for an hour with my sister & cousins. not gonna lie i was freezing so i don't think i was quite ready yet but it was fun going on the slides 😂. i'm pretty upset, because everyone's saying maybe it's best if i go to the hospital and get better 😢 do they want me gone? am i really that much of a burden? 😔 i want to try my best to do it at home... lately (maybe tw) i haven't even been reaching 1400 calories and i'm meant to be reaching 2000. but i really really am trying my hardest. i need to beat this horrible disorder, it's taking over my life. i'm constantly constantly sad all the time. i cry on a minimum twice a day.. that isn't living.. i think i need to start drinking some of my calories... as much as i hate it it may well could be the only way to stay out of hospital 😔. it's also father's day, and since sadly my dad has a gambling problem he won money and is possibly taking us out for lunch. all the other years we came to his house and he either ignored us or told us to f'ck off... so at-least we're seeing him this year? anyways i hope you have an amazing day xx
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#fighter #unwell #afraid #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #beatana #justwanttobehappy #fighter #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recovering #anorexia #anorexic #mentalhealth
breakfast was 40(!!!) grams of cereal!! over the last month iv only been having 30g but today i finally followed the meal plan!! -------------------------------------------- so, yesterday i went swimming!! iv not went in months. i stayed in for an hour with my sister & cousins. not gonna lie i was freezing so i don't think i was quite ready yet but it was fun going on the slides 😂. i'm pretty upset, because everyone's saying maybe it's best if i go to the hospital and get better 😢 do they want me gone? am i really that much of a burden? 😔 i want to try my best to do it at home... lately (maybe tw) i haven't even been reaching 1400 calories and i'm meant to be reaching 2000. but i really really am trying my hardest. i need to beat this horrible disorder, it's taking over my life. i'm constantly constantly sad all the time. i cry on a minimum twice a day.. that isn't living.. i think i need to start drinking some of my calories... as much as i hate it it may well could be the only way to stay out of hospital 😔. it's also father's day, and since sadly my dad has a gambling problem he won money and is possibly taking us out for lunch. all the other years we came to his house and he either ignored us or told us to f'ck off... so at-least we're seeing him this year? anyways i hope you have an amazing day xx -------------------------------------------- #fighter  #unwell  #afraid  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #beatana  #justwanttobehappy  #fighter  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #anorexia  #anorexic  #mentalhealth 
Part of afternoon snack was SWEET and salted popcorn!! I'm pretty proud of myself, as I only normally go for salted but everyone else was getting popcorn so I thought- why not?? I do feel incredibly guilty, but what can I do? Hope you have a great day xx
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#fighter #unwell #afraid #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #beatana #justwanttobehappy #fighter #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recovering #anorexia #anorexic #mentalhealth #mealplan
Part of afternoon snack was SWEET and salted popcorn!! I'm pretty proud of myself, as I only normally go for salted but everyone else was getting popcorn so I thought- why not?? I do feel incredibly guilty, but what can I do? Hope you have a great day xx ---------------- #fighter  #unwell  #afraid  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #beatana  #justwanttobehappy  #fighter  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #anorexia  #anorexic  #mentalhealth  #mealplan 
每个人放下自己的自尊之前,都会三思而后行吧~
最在意的事是对自己没有亏欠对别人也没有亏欠就够了~
不需要委屈自己而去讨好别人就是对自己有个很好的交代了~为自己加油而努力用心地做自己的本分也是最好的选择~别忘了把正能量的态度拿出来啊! 加油吧

#为自己在加油站打卡❤
#有时候我不笑不是我不开心而是我想认真地三思而后行
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#justwanttobehappy #findyourownway #improvemyself #forbetterfuture #forfamily #forkids #fortheloveone
每个人放下自己的自尊之前,都会三思而后行吧~ 最在意的事是对自己没有亏欠对别人也没有亏欠就够了~ 不需要委屈自己而去讨好别人就是对自己有个很好的交代了~为自己加油而努力用心地做自己的本分也是最好的选择~别忘了把正能量的态度拿出来啊! 加油吧 #为自己在加油站打卡 ❤ #有时候我不笑不是我不开心而是我想认真地三思而后行  😊 #justwanttobehappy  #findyourownway  #improvemyself  #forbetterfuture  #forfamily  #forkids  #fortheloveone