My problems and mental disorders are no one else's burden but my own. Anxiety is something I have no control over. No matter what you can do, like take a medication, it can make it even worse. My problems in life have affected everyone around me. It's my problem and my struggle. I have a condition called raynauds and its affected my life in a bad way. I'm an artist, I need my hands, I need my life. My life has been art. Its caused me some issues. I'm slowly losing feelings in my hands now. It's the stress that it all brings that really bothers me, the longer stress lingers the more likely anxiety will develop. I fight this every single day of my life. I've lost friends due to my problems. I've been labeled as crazy, dramatic, petty and selfish through all of this now. I'm doing my best as a person to be someone better in life, every day. Even through God, I pray that I could rid this pain I feel in life. I have my regrets and my feelings as a human being. I'm only human and can only do so much in life. I feel, anger sadness and guilt. Sometimes my heart wants to escape and my mind goes blank. It's no one else burden but mine. Support is nice and all but it's not something to be shoved down everyone's throats. I am who I am and I have my own issues just like everyone. Whether that's financial, family, friends, school and life, we all have our downfalls each and every day.
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You know you have worked with the best of the best when you have received a hand written thank you card. *Saving tears for future sets,,,,,but who am I kidding** Working on #itsnottheend of the brilliant mind of @chevellemuasfx taught me alot about the industry and alot about myself. I STILL have ALOT to learn. Everybody on set was AMAZING! I cannot wait to see the end project! Syd, I'm so proud of you for having the courage for putting this together and putting it forth! YOU GO GIRL!
Stop and smell the roses! 💐 •
I woke up this morning determined to workout and go to the gym myself and lift... but my body had other plans. I was exhausted and knew I needed to keep sleeping, so I did.
I instantly got mad with myself when I woke back up because I backed out of the gym but then got to thinking... I was listening to my body and what I needed after a nonstop week of preparing and playing while my parents visited.
Sometimes we have to realize that skipping the gym is NOT the end of the world. I’ll consider it a VICTORY as I was listening to my body. A few months ago I would push myself to make it to the gym on 4 hrs of sleep but that led me to exhaustion and injury.
Rather than being mad- Im changing my mindset to be happy since I listened and took the time off I needed. Now I will just make sure I don’t skip for the rest of the week, unless my body says so!
Keep in mind, I’m not skipping just because it’s the end of day and I don’t want to because I’m tired, I slept in because I got less than 5hrs of sleep and I’ve got a 10 hr workday ahead of me. Push yourself when you ‘don’t want to’ but understand the difference btwn wanting and needing rest. 💪🏻❤️
You have to choose one. Either finding the perfect moment or making the moment perfect— anonymous
It start with 4 people in one small bed— but it turns out only three us slept there, the other one left without saying anything. Bayangin aja gimana pegel badan kita saat bangun paginya karena nahan posisi yang sama agar kasurnya muat untuk 4 org.
Later we knew that cen @bungagracia , Karo @rpsurbakti , and I become one group in Pembinaan Klasis Bekasi-Denpasar. .
At first I don’t know how to blend in with them. They know each other for long time ago before I came. But eventually we make it. Now the formation have to change due to she @bungagracia found her true love. The other two? Still waiting for God answer. 😊 Even we are not Kartings anymore, we are still family. .
I will always love them no matter what people say about us. 😍😍😘
Its not the end. It is the beginning of our journey.
This is our story what about you?
Note: the last picture is the best😂😂
#kartings goes to #kartibay#familyinchrist#pembinaanklasis#pkpbd#mplpk2#ourstory#itsnottheend#godsdaughters#instastrory
It’s never too late. While you’re on this earth. You still have a chance. You still have an opportunity. To make things right, to apologize. To forgive. To love. To run back to Jesus. #thereistime#itsnottheend#hopeinjesus
Get guys I haven’t posted in a while. Honestly I didn’t know what I would say, or how I could own up to my downfall. My diet has since been gone and I barely even workout anymore, unless it’s whatever movement I get at work. I’m feeling defeated and so broken, and it’s worse knowing it’s all my fault and no one else is to blame for it. I talked to my mom about it the other day and she really lifted my spirits up. She told me I CANNOT give up on myself, even if I have gained weight. I have to push through this hump and bounce back. All I need to do now is get my motivation back, even though I’m exhausted from working 6 days a week. I can’t make excuses anymore like I do all the time. I can’t eat the way I have been, I need to go back to my fasting times and also bring back the healthy eating. I’m so bummed, but I know it’s not over. I just have to work on it and get it right to the point I never fall off. My biggest obstacle will be trying to balance going out and eating healthy while on vacation. My Colorado vacation was my downfall for me not eating during my fasting times, and from there on I kind of just slowly quit. I leave for Hawaii in 2 weeks and I’ve been trying to eat healthy again so I’m kind of nervous. If I end up not eating clean in Hawaii my new start “over” date for this will be the day we come back. I just need some encouragement because I’m feeling so depressed about it. #weightloss#fitnessjourney#losingweight#fallenoff#gettingbackontrack#rant#me#learningtolovemyself#upsanddowns#itsnottheend#icandothis#startingover#iwannafeelgoodaboutmyself
Today I had to lay my sweet Coco 🐻 Bear to rest. As I was on my knees crying out to the Lord in complete desperation , I heard him gently say” it’s time to give her back to me”. Although it was painful to hear and I didn’t want to accept it ,I knew he was with me in that moment of complete loss and he knew it was Cocos time and I had to let her go. I had to give her back to Him. We said our goodbyes and gave our beloved Coco back to Jesus. All life belongs to Christ. Thank you Lord for giving her to my family and allowing the 14 yrs of her life be such a wonderful blessing to us in so many ways. I’ll see you again mama. I love you and will miss you so very much! 🐩 🐾 🐾 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. -Matthew 5:4
Friday morning, I learned that one of my best friends from grade school had passed unexpectedly. I've been in shock and she's been on my mind ever since. She was one of the kindest, sweetest, gentlest souls I ever had the pleasure to know and call my friend.
Later I took a hike and reflected on her life during the sunset; shedding some tears while reminiscing about our friendship, and thinking of the pain her family must be enduring. I asked her if she could let me know with a sign that she's around and ok. 10 minutes later I noticed a single flower almost moving out of the corner of my eye. It was covered with about 20+ bumble bees that were all dying and falling off. I couldn't watch without doing something, so I took my energy drink and poured it on the petals and bees. Miraculously they all perked up and started to revive! Later that night I saw a post from my friend's father about how much Jen loved bumble bees and saw them as a sign of hope. She'd often stop to check them out in nature and said to "Bee-lieve!" I had chills because I didn't know that about her, so I knew what I experienced was my sign from her!
I do believe everything happens for a reason in this life, and there are no coincidences. Whether that be the people we meet, the places we end up, the good, the bad, everything; even the single flower covered with bees that I thought was so strange in that moment. I believe those we love and lose are still here in spirit and will show us, if only we are open to see it. Thank you Jennifer. Rest in peace dear old friend.❤️🐝 #life#death#signs#bees#bumblebees#believe#beelieve#hope#spirit#friendship#restinpeace#lifeanddeath#nocoincidences#afterlife#angels#flowers#hikingfind#pahiking#flower#beesonflower#lifeafterdeath # #soul#goodbyemyfriend#gonetoosoon#lifegoeson#signsfromtheafterlife#itsnottheend#wedontdie
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