Its Friday. So..... Now on to the serious stuff. I'm in building season snd I'm struggling. Its hard seeing weight where I don't want it, its hard feeling the clothes tighter, and beings it's my 1st official build sesson its scary as fuck. But my awesome coach @iifym.bikinimomma truly showed me shes on my side and there for me . Im so thankful to have her supporting me. I know it's a process, a SLOW process, but it's a mental test too. Noone realizes the mental part is the hardest of all!!! Anyone can nail their macros , lift heavy shit, but keeping your head straight is hard!!! I'm just gonna keep swimming!!!! #keepswimming . #igotthis#flexfriday#badassmimi#bodybuilding#bodybuilder#sleekbikiniteam#figure2019
Day 6... happy girl. Went out with hubby for Mexican. We got fajitas for 2, I ordered a side of sour cream and shredded cheese. He ate the beans and rice and the shells that held the cheese and sour cream. I didn't even want chips. Most people that know me, knows I can't step away from chips. I sure did and the soft shells. I am satisfied. I feel full but not overstuffed. I know I can go out and still enjoy food!
Annie bringing a little shine in Athens this week! Always love seeing how she styles the Black Dee. Can’t wait to see how you style your new Hanner Clarke Handbag!
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Flashback Friday: The Many Fierce Faces of CB Feelin Herself Friday. 👩🏼🦰👩🏻👩👩🏽 .
Lately I have found it powerful - and empowering - to scroll back through my photos over the years, to remember where I have come from, and the woman I have become *because* of where I started and what I’ve overcome/conquered over the years. Just in the last 7 years, I have lost my father, lost myself for a time in a horribly abusive and demoralizing relationship, began the long journey of my mom’s Alzheimer’s, moved out of the first home that felt like home in a long time, said goodbye to friends who moved away, quit my job, said goodbye to a city I called home for 19 years, and have temporarily moved back to my hometown where I am battling emotions, enormous mental and physical tasks, closets full of skeletons and a whole host of past demons. .
I often find myself feeling lost lately. Floundering. Grasping for something firm to hold onto. I know the strong, powerful, fierce Alpha is still here...she’s just buried under so many layers of...life and reality and sadness and worry and obligation right now. But I know she’s still there. And seeing these old photos holds that reminder right up close. And so, I unapologetically post these many fierce faces for flashback Friday. To remind me I’m still there. ✊💃🏻🧜♀️♥️
#topnine What can I say about 2018, it started out absolutely amazing. Had a great summer and now it's ending the shittiest way possible, but that's ok, bring on 2019...That's going to be my year. Fresh start, clean slate, new beginnings. I got this. ❤️ #freshstart#bringon2019#newme#igotthis#itllbealright
Which bar are you going to be at tonight?
🎉 The one that pushes you further to your maximum potential
❌Or the one that makes you feel like garbage tomorrow?
🎉The one that gets you stronger
❌Or the one that adds into the insecurities of unwanted belly fat you’re trying to lose?
🎉 The one that helps you attain your fitness goals
❌ Or the one that sets you another step back?
🔥 We all want to feel like our best self but will we do what it takes to get there?
🤷🏼♀️I know where I’ll be, where will you be?
I was excited to start Keto. I needed a change so bad, I needed to change my eating habits or nothing was going to work. I’m such a picky eater it’s insane. I’m trying to go without a cheat day and today was a struggle... I turned down subway and Panera, that was a big thing for me. I was starving, but I was strong and turned down the carbs. As soon as I came home from shopping I rushed to cook up some eggs and sausage. Rolled it in a @cutdacarb and ate them so quickly it was unbelievable. I have a goal and today I saved that goal. It may not be a big deal to other people but it was a big deal to me!! #keto#ketonewbie#nocheatdays#goals#lifestylechange#saynotocarbs#cutdacarb#eggs#wraps#igotthis
Brave, I can do. I worried that I would feel humiliated by the way my family handles things(my mother’s passing)and me. But humiliation, it seems, afflicts only those seeking perfect, infallible appearances.... illusions and images. I am not afflicted in this way. At all. Even a little. I am soooper undeniably imperfect, mistake making and brave AF. #blessed#humility#wisdom#imperfection#quote#igotthis#yougotthis
Yes, this is me keeping it Real! Here's my inner warrior (don't mess with her😎)! I need to exercise and it's in the basement is where I go. Since my injury (TBI), the gym is no longer an option for me (way too much stimulation for me). Which is Ok because that's where I first started my fitness journey at the age 12, doing my aerobic exercises (that was fad back then) with 5lbs and 10lbs weights in my parents' basement.
This time around, it's better because I have Keiser M3i spin bike to keep my cardio up because aerobics and jogging aren't an option for me at this moment. I still need to work on my coordination, balance and stamina. All of that takes a lot of energy and effort. What I must remember is that my brain (and neck) are still healing and that's where most of my energy goes. Therefore, all I can do is to continue taking baby steps everyday and believe that it will all work out in the end.
That’s my “I got this” face. .
Life has thrown some fire over here lately; and although it took some time to find my new groove with it. I’m feeling like there’s nothing I can’t handle. .
I’ve been having a really rough time mentally/emotionally lately. And it’s like the switch started to turn on this week. I felt lost with direction in juggling all the hospital time and life as it was before. How do I keep up and not be so tired; yet continue to support the kids and Mike through his battle? I was sitting in it and trying to figure it out. And I’m finally there. I think I had to sit there. Bathe in it. In the mud for a bit. And then one day last week I thought to myself; if you go down with this...where does that leave you when all is said and done? And as soon as I pictured it...that moment. EVERYTHING CHANGED. I decided that I am NOT going down with it. I just had to get better at scheduling and moving things, but most importantly...I have to be where I am fully when I am there. If that’s the hospital. Fully there. If it’s with the kids. Fully there. If it’s work. Fully there. If it’s ME TIME. Fully there. That sounds simple, but it is NOT simple. I was in those places but my mind wasn’t. My mind wandered to dark places everyday. What if’s. Worst case. And honestly; I needed to do that to get here. To be able to stand here in this place and feel the confidence that I can do this. And do it all very well. We are always where we are supposed to be. We are learning. Getting stronger. Figuring it out. There’s purpose in these moments. Look for it. Find it. Decide if you’re going down with it or if you’re going to rise up. .