Story of my life, I feel depressed and tired because I found pictures of my parents' wedding and I've never seen them before, it was in 1986 so I let imagine how people people have changed, the ones who passed away, the breakups, etc..
And idk there is that one picture I can't stop watching, it's a pic of my my parents with siblings, one of my mom's sister, one of my dad's sister, and his brother. And it's shocking to me to see my dad and his bro together, because it's a long story I can't tell on the internet but they're not close anymore ! I met him once when I was a young.. It's a very personal thing. No one knows my dad has siblings, especially a brother ! They are extremely close together. I really can't tell what happened, but it broke our family. And idk, I can't stop thinking about that pic. They look so much alike. It's very confusing because that guy is like a stranger to me but my brain is like "dad?". I am having a panic attack by writing this. It makes me sick. I personally have SSAD so it triggers my phobia. Idk it's really weird. In fact I found that pic a week ago, but I was too shocked to talk about it. That's why I haven't finished to edit the video on my other acc !! I literally spent my week thinking about it. I don't know if some of you understand that feeling when you watch family pictures and there is physical appearance involved. That's the first time I've seen a pic of his brother as an adult. There is that one picture on my dad's desk, when they were young. And another one 10 years ago at their dad's funeral. It makes me really sad to think they met twice in 30 years : at their parents' funeral. So in 1998 & 2009. I hate the fact that we always meet distant family members at funerals. It's heartbreaking to say goodbye, because you know you won't see each other until one of us die. Back to my dad.. well he even told me to not call his siblings if he dies. It's hard for me to accept the fact that I have a toxic and broken family. I've always wanted to have close family members.
Gosh sorry for that long text about my family. I'm sorry. I'm just shocked and sad.
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