Finely to post the second part!
Are remember the first one? (If not, go read it or re-read it.) Are you remember how I tell you that is hard to be foreigner? Well, this is harder.
To be foreigner in your own country is painful. First, if you never moved before and you feel like this, is like you can't see more than what is in front your nose. It is painful, because you don't know why you don't belong here and yet, you don't know more than that, than your country.
Even when I was a child, my father joked about how I will move from this country someday, because he saw that I don't belong here. I didn't understand him back than.
Everything that "normal" child wanted to do, I didn't. I always wanted something more.
When I was a teenager, I really was angry at the mentality of my country. Why people do that, think like that, don't understand me.
But I still didn't understand.
When I was a student and I was employed in the same time, something happened in my head. I finally understand. I don't belong here. That's it.
I never felt, that my country did something for me, that I was respected for everything I did to be better student, better worker, better human. Than, you stop trying. This is the sad part. You stop trying. And many many people feel like this. Not in my country, but in the world.
But also, this is the part, when you understand that home is not always what you know it is or you think it is. If you want something else or more, you need to make sacrifices.
But this is not the case for other people, this is my experience and many people had the opposite experience and this is what makes us human and unique.
The point is, listen to your heart. Follow it. Take the risk. You will always have your home country. And you can do it on your own. 💛
(Maybe part three is coming soon!)
It's beginning to look a lot like..
I can't resist a whole bag of clearance paperwhite bulbs for $1.31 and so we have been relishing the beautiful green that just burst a bit of white gorgeousness last night. We planted them several weeks ago in clear jars and have marveled everyday at the amazingness that are roots! Proof that beauty and delight don't have to cost much. Like our crochet-covered rocks from homes where we have lived. A little creativity goes a long way to make simple things quite amazing and meaningful.
What little bits of creativity are you enjoying today?
Here are some amazingly beautiful #elecampane blossoms from early this summer. I’ve been leaning hard on this plant for the past few days. As many of you know, we have been dealing w an owner move in (no-fault) eviction at my home. It’s been pretty stressful. As soon as we finalized the paperwork, it was like the adrenaline crashed and the bug that it had been holding off laid into me. I work at a hospital so I often catch the bugs going around no matter how hard I try. This year the stress of a sudden and unwanted move has me run down. Fortunately this wonderful plant has been a tremendous ally for me. I’m working with this plant to keep the cough at bay and as a preventative from it dropping into my chest and becoming an infection. On a spirit level, this plant is a good one for support with the grieving process—which has been in full force with the loss of our beloved home. I’m looking forward to feeling better soon and continuing the packing and moving process. Been sitting with the wisdom of my body telling me to rest after the long race we have been running and the race that lies ahead. My heart and prayers go out to everyone who is facing the holidays without a home. It’s cold outside, even here in the bay. I pray for a world where resources are better shared and everyone has a home. I pray for an #Oakland that celebrates and makes room for all the amazing people who grew up here and made it the wonderful city it is #elecampane#elecampaneroot#herbs#herbalism#herbalist#herbalistsofinstagram#grief#loss#home#homeiswhereyoumakeit#fuckthebayareahousingcrisis#fuckgentrification#endhomelessness#cold#cough#coldandflu
Day 7 of December Reflections: Home
I’ve made so many homes in my life. It’s a process I adore- Creating space that houses the people and things I love.
It’s funny that for someone who is such a homebody I love moving and traveling so much.
I’ve moved pretty much every year or two for the last 20 years- sometimes more.
I try not to get too attached to things- many objects I adored have been passed onto friends and strangers alike. I always manage to have new and wonderful things come to me.
Home really is where your heART is 💖✨
We have now been home in California for 2 months, in less than a month we will be back in South America to continue our journey. While I am so excited to get back on the road, NorCal is truly a beautiful place and never stops amazing me, and I will be sad to leave.
Walking into the weekend like 💃🕺
Actually we’re sitting in the car.
As we drive to Michigan for a wedding this weekend we can’t help but reflect on the last 2 years. Yes, we are so excited to be reunited with some friends this weekend, but at the same time, Minnesota is definitely home now.
I remember when we decided to move, we agreed to two years. I’m glad we did. If we had just committed to one, we might be out ✌️ It takes TIME to make a new place feel like home.
Where do you call “home”?
Ren waved and said “hey” to all the animals today @riverbankszoo but by far his favorite was the fishing cat. He sat there waving and talking to the cat (which appeared to like Ren too) for a good 10 minutes. He even called it a cat when he saw it (kinda, sorta) 🐈 . .
Thrifted his Grinch sweater and ski hat a while back at goodwill and he’s actually wearing another thrifted grinch onesie under it. .
And people say there's no available housing in Teton County... Came across this glorious ski in-ski out studio A-frame on JHMR yesterday! It's complete with breathtaking views, no windows or doors, a shred-able roof and a structure made of WOOD (real sturdy) | 📸: @mtlancaster | #tailpress#Aframe#homeiswhereyoumakeit#homelesslife
I cannot believe we are 5 days into December already. Working on focusing my mind evaluating where I’ve been and where I want to go, so I need your help.⠀
Share with me your fav personal development books or tools relating to parenting, marriage, wellness, building your best life, etc!⠀
Since taking the leap to a journey to be a better me, I have grown in so many ways. Not every day is super productive, but I don’t want to ever give this up. If I’m not continuing to grow, than what am I doing to be the person God intended me to be!⠀
I decided 6 months ago that I have one shot at creating a life I love & being a person I love. Instead of creating new resolutions at the beginning of each year, start today. What are you going to do with TODAY?
After a very long break, @myblueberry.house is back! We've been busy traveling the world for a year (👉🏻check out our adventures @myblueberry.adventures) and then needed a moment to settle in everyday life. But now with Christmas coming up we are in full creativity mode. This week is Christmas cookies baking week. Every year, we meet with old school friends to bake bags full of different cookies. A lovely tradition. And because we missed the baking day last year, we look forward to it all the more this year.