I was hesitant about postin this..but Im startin to feel this is part of my purpose in life..
If I told u when I was a infant.. I was passed around..physically n sexually abused in exchange drugs n money. treated like an experiment ..would u believe me?
Would u look at me any different? Would u look at my actions or words any different?
I PROMISE U. Everything I show yall on here is only the TIP of the iceberg.
N aint a man or woman on this earth goin tell me how I'm posed to deal wit wtf I been thru. I wasn't posed to make it this far. I might be lil extra at times ..but regardless what u may think u kno about me..98% of u readin this could NEVER IN YOUR FUCKIN LIFE imagine what I deal wit n have dealt wit everyday..mentally..n the physical complications I still deal wit to this day as a result of what was done to me.
And I'll speak on this shit ..and use my platform as much as I want..because its kids out here right now..at this very second that are bein born n raised in the same type circumstances I was..and alot of em don't have a voice. Or even if they do.. they're scared to speak out..because they've been threatened..or fear bein called crazy. Because the people who commit these acts convince themselves that it never happened.. n then the victims are left to deal with it on their own.
To keep it 1000.. ..sharing this shit on social media is the LAST thing I wanna do. I dont need a single like on this shit...I dont need no pity I just feel its only right.. cause maybe next time yall think someone might seem a lil off.. or u write them off as just bein "crazy" or "sad" lookin for sympathy..u might take a split second to think..u dont know WHAT THE FUCK goin on in their head or what they dealin wit.. an u never kno when they could SNAP.
I've finally accepted the fact that I died long before I ever got the chance to live n experience life or love. .
But even at this point.. feelin like I wanna shoot myself 1000 times in the face to stop all the thoughts n tryin to piece together parts of my past that my brain blocked out for so long.. I'll still NEVER let this shit stop me from goin out n livin MY LIFE again.
I hope some yall can do the same .
Loyal people like this status👀 •
Loyalty cannot be blueprinted. It cannot be produced on an assembly line. In fact, it cannot be manufactured at all, for its origin is the human heart-the center of self-respect and human dignity. It is a force which leaps into being only when conditions are exactly right for it-and it is a force very sensitive to betrayal.