I feel that a part of me has always longed to be in love, even when I didn't know what it meant.
And now that's it's actually happening to me I don't really know how to feel or how to go about it. It's such an amazing thing and I don't want to mess it up, or to just fall in love with the idea of being in love. But oh my god. I love him. I love him. I love him. I think I'm always going to love him. His smile is burned into my mind, his eyes shine through my body, his lips feel like a heaven I never knew existed, and his love makes me never want to die.
Every day I feel more and more blessed to know someone as wonderful and beautiful as him.
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Frusciante left the RHCP for the first time in 1992, while the band was in Japan to promote BSSM. During this period John became more addicted to drugs.
After his friend River Phoenix died in October 1993, John became more depressed. He stopped playing guitar, stopped painting and became a full-time drug addict.
At the time he claimed to have 400 “ghosts” in his head telling him what to do.
He probably should have died in 1996 after a terrible OD.
That same year, he was kicked out of his house for not paying his rent. Temporarily housed in the Chateau Marmont hotel – famously, the rock star-friendly hotel in which comedian John Beluishi died for a cocktail of drugs – the guitarist was visited by Robert Wilonsky, a reporter from the Phoenix New Times, who said :
“His upper teeth are nearly gone now. They have been replaced by tiny slivers of off-white that peek through rotten gums. His lower teeth, thin and brown, appear ready to fall out if he so much as coughs too hard. His lips are pale and dry, coated with spit so thick it looks like paste. His hair is shorn to the skull; his fingernails, or the spaces where they used to be, are blackened by blood. His feet and ankles and legs are pocked with burns from unfiltered Camel cigarette ashes that have fallen unnoticed; his flesh also bears bruises, scabs and scars. He wears an old flannel shirt, only partially buttoned, and khaki pants. Drops of dried blood dot the pants.”
In January 1998, the voices in his head told him that if he kept doing drugs he would die. When Flea visited him at his home and asked him to rejoin the band, Frusciante began sobbing and said "nothing would make me happier in the world."
Frusciante rejoined the band in 1999, after Navarro left.
Despite his experience as an addict, Frusciante does not view his drug use as a "dark period" in his life. He considers it a period of rebirth, during which he found himself and cleared his mind. #johnfrusciante#redhotchilipeppers#anthonykiedis#flea#hillelslovak#chadsmith#bloodsugarsexmagik#californication#mothersmilk#onehotminute#followforfollowback#bytheway#everlybear#nirvana#kurtcobain#davegrohl#foofighters#laynestaley#riverphoenix