has been a huge part of my journey.
The constant in my life. Granted I have certainly turned to whatever music fit my mood and spoke to me where I was at. Most of the time that was really dark, #heavystuff . My music choices reflected that. But I still hold all those favourite songs and lyrics in the heart of my soul today. I generally try and #feed my #heartandsoul with more positive music now. But I'm a #feeler so I still #divedeep into that cold shit once in awhile. This is my #songoftheday . Reminiscin' over a decade ago to when I was recording the radio #billytalent#tryhonesty to a #cassette tape lol. #technology#advance#thinking#reminiscing#itsalongwaydown#selflove#introspection
"I stumble through the wreckage rusted from the rain
There’s nothing left to salvage, no-one left to blame
Among the broken mirrors I don’t look the same
I’m rusted from the rain, I’m rusted from the rain
Dissect me ’til my blood runs down into the drain
My bitter heart is pumping oil into my veins
I’m nothing but a tin man, I don’t feel any pain
I don’t feel any pain, I don’t feel any pain
I’m rusted from the rain
Go on: crush me like a flower rusted from the rain
Come on: strip me of my power, beat me with your chains
And if I’m the King of cowards, you’re the Queen of pain
I’m rusted from the rain, I’m rusted from the rain
You hung me like a picture, now I’m just a frame
I used to be a lap dog, now I’m just a stray
Shackled in a graveyard, left here to decay
Left here to decay, left here to decay
I’m rusted from the rain
This special girl made me a mom, my first baby , Lindsey. Lindsey and I share a bond that is incredibly special.
Larry was in the Air Force and we lived away from our families, I was a young military wife trying to find my way. I longed to spend my days with someone that would love on me.💞
Yes.... I know I was thinking about myself , I would wait daily as he would leave for work for him to return so we decided to try for our first child. Lindsey and I grew together, I could spend hours holding her and playing. She had this contagious laughter that would bring a joy over me like nothing I had ever felt. Still to this day , she makes my sides hurt from laughing so hard.
At the time Lindsey was born , we lived in Fort Walton Beach. Lindsey and I spent a lot of time at the beach, lots of sand and this girl came out with paddles, she could swim like the fish.
Larry had to travel a lot, sometimes for 2-3 mos at a time away, Lindsey has always had a love for the outdoors so I begin finding a love for planting flowers, caring for our lawn . 🌸
Now, remember I said in earlier post that I tried my hand in multiple businesses . I started a lawn care service , but not alone. Lindsey was 3 years old and she was my sidekick. She had a small mower and she would go behind me with hers. When I played in the dirt, she really played in the dirt. 🌱
You always hear people say about certain individuals " She will care for those around her fiercely ". We all want to be more like that person.
Meet Lindsey. 💞💞 My protector.
She stands firmly on her own two feet, I am just behind her should she ever need me.
My Lindsey girl, I didn't give you the gift of life, Life gave me the gift of you 💞💞.
Pay attention to the people around you. Things are not always what they seem and abusive relationships are not as simple as you think from the outside looking in. Here I am embarking on this journey of healing after extreme abuse. It’s so hard but I’m starting to resurface and breath again. I’m here and I’m ready to divulge every detail about what has happened to me. The people who love me had to be patient and help me see the truth about abuse and about my dark past.
No she shouldn’t stay if she’s being abused but try to remember that unless you’ve been through it, you have no idea how the path was that got her there. It’s not that simple. Until she calls it what it is (abuse) she’ll call it what it’s not. I did, until I finally faced the truth. My sister laid it all out for me and then my counselor and psychologist confirmed it. The confusing manipulation that thrives in an abusive relationship is almost impossible to get out of. Now I know. And let me tell you I will never judge another woman who’s in one and doesn’t leave his ass. I will love her where she’s at and try my hardest to offer hope and strength and build her up. If she trusts me and allows me to shed light on the truth of her situation I will with love and tenacity to help her have the strength to get out. Do you know someone who is possibly being abused? Have you been in an abusive relationship? Are you still? Do you need help? There is hope. I can help you find professional resources to get out and to heal. Ones that helped and are helping me! DM me if you feel no light at the end of your dark tunnel. You are not alone. .
This boy, this kid, this child = my ❤️ and soul. Words cannot express how proud I am to be his mother and how proud I am of him each and every day. He has a heart filled with happiness and love. He makes you feel better when you are sad just by seeing his smile. I am truly the luckiest mom in the world and love seeing him grow into this amazing person. He has developed a passion for music and loves to play hockey. He has a deep sarcasm that I can’t even get angry with because I know exactly where it comes from. I love his wit and sharp sense of humor. He has every bit of me that’s good and then so much more that is better. I have no idea where he gets his patience and his ability to be so care free. I am so proud of you Madden Robert ❤️ Happy Birthday 12 🎉🎂🎈 🎊 #love#morethanwords#mylittleman#happybirthday#tothemoonandback#heartandsoul#proudmommy
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
I love how God pursues our hearts, even at stop signs. He grew a vine of hearts on a signpost I stop at many times a day. There is something sacred about seeing God’s creative beauty along our daily path. He could have grown a vine with thorns here, but He chose to lavish my eyes and soul with more beautiful hearts than I can count. These bright green living hearts remind me of His great fully alive love for me. There is no sign of thorns. Only love remains. Living love. Lord, thank you for enduring the thorns so we can have eternal hearts of love! #hearts#heartandsoul#soul#beauty#watchforhim#look#stopandsee#hisglory
~ Freiheit oder Sicherheit? ~
„Sei wer du bist, und sag, was du fühlst. Denn die, die das stört, zählen nicht, und die die zählen, stört es nicht.“ [Theodor Seuss Geisel]
Für mich steht fest, nur wenn ich mein wahres Ich zeige, kann ich glücklich sein, mein Leben und meine Träume nach meinen Vorstellungen leben...🧘♀️☀️🗺 Mir ist bewusst, dass mich auf meinem neuen Weg Menschen verlassen, aber auch neue Menschen hinzukommen 💕 Alles hat seinen Sinn.. 🙏🏻
Mir Regeln von Anderen vorsetzen zu lassen, die sich für mich wie ein Gefängnis anfühlen & mein Leben, von jemand‘ Anders bestimmen zu lassen, NEIN!, dieses Leben will ich nicht mehr! 🙅🏼♀️
Lieber gehe ich den Weg der Ungewissheit, nur so kann ich meine unendliche Freiheit spüren 🦋 Ein Gefühl, welches mir viel wichtiger, als das Gefühl der Sicherheit ist...
Wenn du dein Ziel klar vor Augen hast, musst du den genauen Weg dorthin nicht kennen... 💫 Vertrau‘ Dir einfach! #vedaharmonie