Ive been willing to write you its been a while.
I havent had time but mostly I am not yet emotionally responsible to write about you or us.
I want to mean truthfully all words I choose, specially because this is the first letter I write to you since we are apart.
In fact I want to ask you to please not throw away all the letters I wrote to you (as well the ones you wrote me) so the kids can read it to me when Im old.
The truth is that I did a lot of crying since I met you. I suffered being with you, and I suffered being without you.
All in all I understand we burned out and it all happened to prove we were not meant to be.
But at this point I just want to embrace both the love and the tragedy of our story as something inevitable.
I equally loved you as I hated you. But Im very proud of the effort I put into this relationship, of the kids we made and the struggles we went through.
We are now apart with two kids to raise. I never thought that stealing a kiss from you would lead to this - it was by far the most consequential impulsive act of my life.
Maybe Kai and Inca cosmic force made me do it so they could be born.
I was crazy ‘bout you Dennis and I have no doubt I still love you and always will, in a very different way but coming from the same place it was born.
I met you and I thought I could help you and fix it for you. Not only I made that my goal but I made that my life. In the efforts to help you find yourself, I lost myself.
I gave you all of me and I hope that forever you will carry in your heart the light I tried to put in”
(An unfinished letter to Dennis - 2015) 📝
Goodbye Old Man # 25
Life. Life is full of choices that we make. Choices have the power to change our life. It can make us fall to the ground or rise up to the point where the life is on our side. It’s all in our head. Never neglect the one who falls. Help them to rise up again. The way you live is in your hand.
Sorry I haven’t posted anything in approximately one hundred million years, I’ve spent the past week trying to get even one of my Hawaii pics to download from the enigmatic abyss that is iCloud 👁☁️ While 863 photos seem to be lost forever, the good news is I was able to save these four very candid and very real photographs of myself and Pudding going to the beach, which are 100% not from google images how dare you 🌸⚡️💿