❄️ What have I been up to? (I keep getting asked.) Well, I’ve been enjoying my #funemployment : trying to be creative, practicing my cooking skills, and working on the house. But I’ve also been spending time working on myself and healing from the year’s traumatic experiences at my ex-job. (I was experiencing many PTSD-like symptoms including terrible nightmares. I get that some people will never fully understand why...)
Lots of ups and downs, but overall I feel like I am making progress as the idea of working isn’t as scary as it had been one month ago.
Just watched/sobbed through #Dumplin on #Netflix this week, so I looked to #DollyParton for inspiration: “If you don't like the road you're walking, start paving another one.” Thanks to everyone who’s checked in with me. Glad to soak up these last few weeks of 2018. 🌟
I cried today. Someone said something off-hand that hit just the right cord, knocking the last one that was holding me up. I’ve been exhausted, endlessly tired, and on edge for a while now. That doesn’t mean that I haven’t had good moments, good conversations, or good connections - it simply means that there’s been a constant undercurrent that keeps trying to pull me down into it. Sometimes embracing all aspects of the journey toward achieving your dreams is the last thing you want to do, for it’d be so much easier to be able to just get over it, pretend like issues aren’t there, or go back to walking on the “normal” path. I found myself questioning today if it’s really all worth it - if it’s worth it to refuse to play games for approval, to walk holding my head high and not cave to external expectations, to continue committing to living a life today that my Future Self will thank me for. Because my current self is tired. Overwhelmed. Really just wants a nap. But I remind myself: this is included in what I signed up for, so it’s ok to be here. It’s ok to question the parameters of the life you’re creating for yourself. It’s ok to pause long enough to take a nice bath or sit, phone off, watching the horizon. It’s ok to accept where I am, for in accepting it I’ll be able to experience it fully and then truly leave, moving forward whenever I’m ready. I’m reminded that THIS is what it feels like to EMBRACE. It feels like acceptance, it feels like grace, it feels like feeling all the feelings and loving myself because of them not in spite. It feels like trusting myself enough to know that I’ll sense when to move from here, but for now, it feels like simply staying put. // words by #ISTfounder Carly J. Bell and photo by resident #ISTphotographer Alana of Lana Del Mar Photography #DreamAchieverCollective#itssomedaytoday
I’ve had two months of freedom, funemployment and all of the climbing I can get, so I should be totally fine with putting on real clothes and stepping back into the professional world. It turns out it is still hard. 📸: @andrewmillerstudio
As the end of the year approaches, it's good to reflect back and learn from our experiences. I personally chose to reflect back on the 12th, which is the day my mom passed away 28 years ago, and see if the life I've lived is something that would make her proud.
I was let go from my job in late March but was fortunate enough to have been provided a generous severance package. A lot of people would have gone right back into the workforce to collect a double a paycheck, but instead, I took the opportunity of extended time off to travel and explore.
Sure, I could have made some extra money and been in a better financial situation, though I don't doubt I made the right choice as I met new friends, reconnected with old ones and checked off items on my bucket list. We all overwork ourselves, rarely taking extended time off to refresh and take care of ourselves.
There's an art piece painted 'Live a Great Life' that I cycle past on the Lady Bird Lake trail in Austin, which reminds me to always to live your life to its fullest. If you've read this far, I encourage you to reflect on your 2018 and see where your life has taken you, and if you're living the mantra of "Live a Great Life'. Also, a huge thank you to everyone that has checked up on me since my funemployment began almost 9 months ago! I'm ready to rejoin the workforce and make an impact somewhere!
Funemployment is now in full swing and ironic to the name it can actually be more of a pressing time than it sounds. Figuring out your next move, or maybe you wanna stay awhile longer, where you will live, transportation, moving processes, and the list goes on. Instead of succumbing to the overwhelming list of to dos, I like to shift my focus on self reflection. What are the lessons I have learned during this time? Having gratitude for the relationships I have made and the ones that continue to grow. What goals have I met and the new ones I will set for myself. What are my future travel plans? Focusing on the things that keep me grounded like working out, yoga, meditating, reading, spending quality time with loved ones and exploring new places. This is a marathon not a sprint. Focus on the progress and and the rest will work itself out 👌🏼