Hello, everyone. This is Paige Megan Hawley @paigemeganhawley and this is my first post of the week at @fotofemmeunited
It was four years ago since I was raped. This is when I found myself as a photographer and an activist.
Photography to me has been a healing process. At the time of this traumatic event, I was undertaking my degree in photography. I did not let this monster win and take over my life, I battled my through the court process while completing my studies.
I turned to the camera, exposing myself and my story to the world and to me this was a bite back to my predator who caused me pain, I wanted to show through my photographs that he hadn't beaten me, that I was no longer his victim, that I had power over my own body.
My aim through the project The Aftermath was to hope that other victims could relate to these images and be inspired to speak out. This series of work reflects back to after I was raped, including me bathing to reveal cleanliness after being made to feel dirty. In some of the works I have used a slow shutter speed to reveal anxiety through the image of my experience.
Images attached: The Aftermath 1& 2, both taken in 2014/15.) Photographing and developing film was my way of beginning to heal, which lead on to my projects “Process” and “STOP”, developing the negatives by stopping the process, the development stages define my healing process of the after effects of rape. I created self-portraits using a 35mm film camera, I had forensic fingerprints on my body, giving indications of the violation which had taken place.