Few things are as cathartic as time with my girlfriends. (The food and bubbly helps!) 🍾
I'm so lucky to have friends with whom I can share my joys, frustrations, successes and insecurities. They listen, console, encourage, and celebrate. They shine the brightest light on my life. ❤
This is so hard to post… I’m up 15.8lbs from my lowest weight in July.
I know I’ve mentioned a few times about the roller coaster I’ve been on this summer. Two of my dogs, my senior dogs. My heart dogs were diagnosed with cancer. This summer has been the hardest summer of my life with constant vet appointments and the roller coaster of good days and bad days. It’s been 12 days since we lost Luke and I fell off the deep end. Really destructive habits have come in like a freight train and I’m trying to climb my way out of this hole that I am in. I KNOW in my heart that I have to take care of myself first but that doesn’t change the emotional turmoil this situation has put me in.
I keep saying TODAY is the day. I’m going to make the choice to choose real foods/whole foods. TODAY I’m going to choose to nourish my body and put my health first. But then something happens and I’m stressed out or emotional again and that drive goes with it. I almost fear posting that TODAY, again, I’m recommitting because I don’t want to set myself up for failure.
Yesterday I posted about my struggles in a small group of ladies that understand me and are on a journey towards emotional balance and a developing good relationship with food along side of me. It was a bit freeing to lay all my cards on the table and be honest with about how badly I’m struggling. I woke up today with a renewed energy and for the first time in weeks I didn’t want to drive headfirst into the sugary carb filled bakery item sitting on my counter. I walked right by them and didn’t care.. THAT felt so empowering.
So I’m here.
I’m raw and unedited.
I’m taking things one day, one meal at a time. .
My problems with eating right -- or eating at all -- are now an everyday nightmare. It's exhausting to see gorgeous food all over Instagram and in real life, and not want to eat it, because you just can't make the time to open that door in your brain. For both comic relief and as an active attempt at eating right, I'm going to become one of those people who takes pictures of everything she eats. Please focus on the comic relief part, because that's what a lot of it is going to be. Featured here, a lone roti, a fistful of capsicum and potato sabji, a bonsai apple. Dinner, the first square meal of an 11-hour workday.
So this is the SW chicken paella recipe from their website but I didn’t use chicken, used chorizo (3 syns per portion, the recipe makes 4 portions) and prawns instead. Making sure this actually does as FOUR portions as it’s suggested, now I’m back on EE I don’t want to go back to overeating free foods. So here is 1/3 speed and the other portions are ready for the freezer/fridge. Also decided to stop using my medium Emma B pasta bowls for dishes like this, far to easy to pile more in without really noticing! On 7.5 so far today ☺️
Rooibos & Barley Fig Bars
One of my favorite things about the fall is getting the oven going again. Some days that means sourdough bread, some days it means cookies, cakes, granola, or any number of other treats. Some of the best days bring both.
These were a first for me, inspired by my mother telling me about the recent fig bar kick she'd been on. I had a jar of mission figs that had been asking to be cooked with (many had tough spots that made them disappointing out of hand). So, the opportunity came for me to put them to good use in these nourishing and rich cookies. The recipe was a tight adaptation from The Natural Baker, by Henrietta Inman.
She has a number of hearty baked goods in there, largely featuring wholegrains and fruits. She has quite a passionate creativity in her approach that I find at once to have the heart of tradition as well as a modern appreciation for how even sweet treats can be wholesome.
So, there I went, with a cooked fig and citrus filling within a pastry crust of barley and spelt flours, all accented with looseleaf Rooibos tea. The tea's delightful flavor didn't come as far forward as I hoped, but I was very happy with the final products, particularly once they had cooled and set up a bit the refrigerator.
The gingersnap dough I had left over from my father's birthday at the end of september- in the spirit of oven lovin, I trayed them out too.
Thanks to Mom, Dad, and @henriettainman for the baking inspirations!
What were some of the first things you've brought out from your oven as baking season comes into its own once again?
'Jasmine bouquets' (ช่อมะลิ) - or so the menu says. Chicken. Peanut paste. A touch of flavoring. All neatly wrapped in this 'jasmin-like' arrangement. That's flour, of course. Good presentation idea, but the flour was way too thick for this to be enjoyable. The price for these patels. It's a mother's day special that doesn't please the family's matriarch. Don't order it 😅 #whatpraiyaeats#fooddiary#instagood#foodporn#photography#travel#foodie
This noodle. Pure bliss. The broth, beautiful. Sweet with dried shrimp + crab with a salty touch whose source I couldn't quite place. I was contemplating just pouring the rest of the broth in my water bottle to drink it on the way home. It's that incredible. The noodle here is distinctive with its texture and size. You can taste eggs on the tip of your tongue. Highly recommend! It's right behind the tourists' favourite - tricked eye museum. Go check it out ❤ no vegetarian options though 😅 #whatpraiyaeats#fooddiary#instagood#foodporn#photography#travel#foodie
Prefered breakfast in Phuket. Noodle with spicy curry (using the term very loosely here) of your choice. Blood. Chicken. Too many bowls of vegetable side dishes to count. Young bananas. Beansprouts cooked in two ways. Local Manpu leaves. There are also boiled eggs, deep fried chicken (you gotta fight for these delish babies) wings, and spicy fish cake (rich with herbs, coconut milk, and generous chunks of fish). All yours. Spicy and so satisfying. It's a big rowdy family affair.
เรื่องขนมจีนเป็นเรื่องใหญ่มาก การมากินขนมจีนที่ร้านแม่ติ่งก็เรื่องใหญ่ ต้องวางแผน มาช้าเหลือแต่ตีนไก่ในขนมจีนนะจ๊ะ ถ้ามาเร็ว มีไก่ทอดที่กรอบแต่เนื้อฉ่ำ ออกมาจากครัวเป็นล็อตๆ ออกมาที ลูกค้าต้องรีบลุกมาหยิบ ถ้าช้าหมดแน่ มาทีละ 5-6 ชิ้นเอง ขนมจีนแซ่บและมีหลายน้ำ.กินเดี่ยวก็ฟิน กินผสมปนๆ ก็เริ่ด ห่อหมกปลาอร่อย ปลาเป็นชิ้นๆ โหดมาก นี่รีวิวจากคนที่ทั้งชีวิตไม่เคยชอบห่อหมกใดๆ 😅 มีความบุฟเฟ่ต์ ตักเองเอาเท่าที่ชอบเลยยย 🏁 กิจกรรมครอบครัวมาก ❤ ถ้าชอบความแซ่บ ทางนี้เลยค่ะ