Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy
I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows
Doesn't really matter to me, to me
I am feeling okay but ... I am so tired, I am stressed about work, I am worried the kids are watching too much TV and not getting enough fresh air, I worry I spent too little time playing with them and too much time doing things around them, cooking, cleaning and tidying! I have so much to do and not enough time, I am avoiding the bedsheets, ironing and hoovering, the messy spare bedroom and dead plants in the garden. I am excited for Christmas but hate the never ending to do list. I have a pile of life admin paperwork to organise and a tonne of unfinished blog posts and craft projects I so desperately wish I could finish!
Wonder E wrote me this note the other day when she was feeling overwhelmed and unable to explain that even though she was feeling ok there was something else that was just not right.
I had no real explanation for her except that this is real life, we don't always feel great, happy and peaceful but you know what, that's ok.
I had a CT scan today to see if there is anything physically wrong with my noggin. I got a concussion a few weeks ago and ever since I’ve been getting headaches and even vomiting. I’m taking preventative medicine at the moment which is helping so much but the doc wanted to check there wasn’t anything else going on. I haven’t heard back from radiology so I am going to assume all is well! Although it’s a good thing, it’s also frustrating not knowing why I get headaches almost every day. Is it stress? My job? My eyes? My diet? Lack of sun? Who knows. Hopefully I’ll be feeling top notch on Sunday, when we leave for a short trip in Brisbane! #brisbanetrip#Scan#head#aches#health#cat#feelingok#stressed#holiday
I promised myself I wouldn't become one of those blokes that posts his workouts all the bloody time. Actually I didn't even want to post this, but today I hit a target. 122kgs down to 110kgs. So to celebrate I sweated my arse off. Then I weighed 110.2 because I drank so much water 😄. Next target:105kgs #FeelingOk
I have heard it so many times (hundreds) I think. I just don’t like my life. I am not happy with how much I earn, I get up in the morning because ‘I have to’, I don’t like (I hate ) my job, I am not happy with my partner, I don’t love them anymore.
But they are not changing.
They really want to, but they don’t.
Because of fear.
Because of their beliefs.
‘I am not going to earn much more’, it is normal to not earn so much money in Spain, my job is not ‘that bad’, ‘My friends are not really happy with their partners either.’
The reason why you may be feeling and thinking like that is because of 3 reasons:
- You have blockages from the past that make you think and believe you couldn’t do better ( you are doing fine enough and it is ok).
- Those blockages have created beliefs in you that don’t allow you to do whatever you really feel like doing. ( It is not about changing those beliefs, it is more about healing the wounds that made you have these blockages) so these beliefs disappear. *Be careful when someone wants to change your limiting beliefs straight away, they are not ‘the problem’, they are just symptoms or a kind of protection for yourself for what has happened to you in the past (changing them doesn’t really improve anything, you have to go deeper and understand why they are here in the first place).
- Attitude and real love for what you care and want to do. This is going to be your adrenaline, the gas and the energy that will drive you to wherever you want to go ( and it needs to be real, not any idealism b*llshit 🤭)
To do all this ( to create the life you really want) you should empty your ‘cup’.🥛:🧠? #mentesana#yogabarcelona#amarse#mentalhealthawareness#loveyourself#yoga#feelings#feelingok#emotions#amor#crecimientopersonal#crecer#psychology#holistichealing#holistichealth#motivation
Soooooo I ate meat today!! For the first time in months, I ate a very small amount of meat at lunch time. It was by accident. Since turning (initially vegan) vegetarian, I've probably eaten meat around 10 - 15 times. Sometimes I've really enjoyed it, but on the whole it's done nothing for me and certainly hasn't made me want to go back to eating meat regular. The longer I've been vegi, the wider the gaps between these meat eats. Today, whilst out and about in between appointments I grabbed what I thought was a cheese & tomato sandwich out of the fridge from the bakers to be toasted. Once toasted, I hopped back in the car and proceeded to scoff it whilst heading back to the office. I was starving. It wasn't tomato, it was salami. I ate it all and within an hour it had made me ill. It honestly had a very negative effect on my tummy, and I felt like shit! I obviously dealt with this in true "fattie style" by treating myself to chocolate 😂 .
Redeemed myself by completing a decent weights workout tonight though. .