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Guilty. Guilty. Guilty. I lived a life believing I was damaged goods because of trauma and other unfortunate events over the years. And I’m sure some of you can relate to these beliefs. .
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As I have over the last year gone through layers of my trauma and other things through EMDR, it has helped me move forward from things that kept me believing my past is who I am today. And other lies I believed because of my past. That I wouldn’t ever recover. I would always be depressed and upset. Well I’m living proof that you can recover and live a life not depressed. Yes, I have my days. But not like they use to be. .
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Also I am not discounting your past, so hear me out. Some things you may not ever get fully over. And even though the past hurts, we don’t have to allow it to define us today or tomorrow. We can find our new identity of who we want to be. .
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How can you today start allowing your past not to define you today? For me, I see myself as not a victim of my past but a woman who can overcome adversity. Share below ⬇️
#recovery #iamnotmypast #identity #newidentity #prorecovery #edrecovey #edrecovered #addictionrecovery #addict #aa #na #sober #sobriety #soberaf #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ednos #orthorexia #bed #haes #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #gad #ptsd #bpd #mdd #morethananumber
Guilty. Guilty. Guilty. I lived a life believing I was damaged goods because of trauma and other unfortunate events over the years. And I’m sure some of you can relate to these beliefs. . . As I have over the last year gone through layers of my trauma and other things through EMDR, it has helped me move forward from things that kept me believing my past is who I am today. And other lies I believed because of my past. That I wouldn’t ever recover. I would always be depressed and upset. Well I’m living proof that you can recover and live a life not depressed. Yes, I have my days. But not like they use to be. . . Also I am not discounting your past, so hear me out. Some things you may not ever get fully over. And even though the past hurts, we don’t have to allow it to define us today or tomorrow. We can find our new identity of who we want to be. . . How can you today start allowing your past not to define you today? For me, I see myself as not a victim of my past but a woman who can overcome adversity. Share below ⬇️ #recovery  #iamnotmypast  #identity  #newidentity  #prorecovery  #edrecovey  #edrecovered  #addictionrecovery  #addict  #aa  #na  #sober  #sobriety  #soberaf  #edwarrior  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ednos  #orthorexia  #bed  #haes  #mentalhealth  #depression  #anxiety  #gad  #ptsd  #bpd  #mdd  #morethananumber 
Double posting because I can't remember the last time I enjoyed making and eating food that tastes good 😋🤩 it's like a switch flipped that told me it was ok to love my body 💎💖 #edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #nourishnotpunish #fitness #lifting #normaleating #eggsfordays #progress
So today I took a break from my workout since I worked out 6 days this week 🙌🏻 But more importantly, today I really felt my #hungersignals ❗❗ I also slept the WHOLE NIGHT 😱 I didn't wake up at midnight "hungry" for a carby snack. I didn't crave coffee and I felt what #truehunger is. Another day of #progress in the books 📓🤗
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #fitness #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #nourishnotpunish #normaleating #mindfuleating
So today I took a break from my workout since I worked out 6 days this week 🙌🏻 But more importantly, today I really felt my #hungersignals  ❗❗ I also slept the WHOLE NIGHT 😱 I didn't wake up at midnight "hungry" for a carby snack. I didn't crave coffee and I felt what #truehunger  is. Another day of #progress  in the books 📓🤗 #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfam  #edcommunity  #bulimiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #fitness  #strongnotskinny  #foodisfuel  #nourishnotpunish  #normaleating  #mindfuleating 
Slowly but surely becoming more comfortable with my new calorie goal and physique 💪🏻 Learning to fuel my workouts and be strong!
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #nourishnotpunish #fitness #lifting
365 sunsets, 365 new chances 🌲🍃🌴🏔. #pnw #life #lifequotes #newchance #recovery #edrecovey
So I look like a potato 😫 But I had an awesome @bodbot workout using muscles I rarely use with crazy creative new workouts. Trick your muscle memory and change it up.  Btw,  the Retro at this location is literally my favorite 😍
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #fitness #musclememory #foodisfuel #powerworkout #fullbodyworkout #retrofitness
Tonight’s dinner is: chickpea pasta with fire roasted tomato and garlic sauce! Yummmmm #edrecovey #osfedrecovery #osfed #edrecoveryarmy #intuitiveeating #intuitiveeatingjourney #bodypositive
To have a beach body: have a body, go to the beach 👙🌊
To be a runner: run 🏃🏼‍♀️
Conquered another massive fear- running in a sports bra 🙊 With some more #jumpsquats 💪🏻👌🏻
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #fitness #squatsfordays #selflove #selfacceptance
Fun fact: I am absolutely TERRIFIED of  pasta 🤯  it's pretty high on the anxiety pyramid 😂 So, I built up my way there with #shitake noodles and 2 tablespoons of alfredo sauce 🤫 Oh yeah, and parmesan cheese because that makes everything better 😋
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #fearfood #pasta #overcomer
So, aside from the terrible camera angle, and doggo photo bomb 😂 #jumpsquats are my new favorite exercise 😍 Testing my limits everywhere 💪🏻👊🏻
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorder #naturewalk #fitnessmotivation #selfcaresunday #gluteworkout #trailrunning
Felt that this was important to clarify💓

ID: a text saying: “

Okay so i usually do these self care reminders when I post and which I from now on also will put in my highlights, and the core message in them is “drink water, eat, take your meds”. And I don’t know but if anyone with a binge eating disorder/another disorder that makes you need to eat less/differently sees this, I just want to apologise if the eating part is somehow triggering to you. 
I always try to say “eat if you haven’t in a while/if you’re hungry” for this very reason. What I mean is I want you to know that I see you, you’re valid and your illness is valid. I want you to recover, I want you to be able to eat the way you want to and enjoy the food you like. So, I tell you now: go drink your water and take your meds. If you haven’t eaten in a few hours/if you’re hungry, you should eat no matter what you’re struggling with bc food is important and hunger is your body telling you that it needs nutrition. 
I hope I made this clear and that you feel included in my posts. All the love💓” TAGS
#anorexia #bulimia #ortorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ortorexiarecovery #ed #shouldieatthis #eat #edrecovey #edwarrior #bodypositivity #binge #bingeeating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #proana #antiproana
Felt that this was important to clarify💓 ID: a text saying: “ Okay so i usually do these self care reminders when I post and which I from now on also will put in my highlights, and the core message in them is “drink water, eat, take your meds”. And I don’t know but if anyone with a binge eating disorder/another disorder that makes you need to eat less/differently sees this, I just want to apologise if the eating part is somehow triggering to you. I always try to say “eat if you haven’t in a while/if you’re hungry” for this very reason. What I mean is I want you to know that I see you, you’re valid and your illness is valid. I want you to recover, I want you to be able to eat the way you want to and enjoy the food you like. So, I tell you now: go drink your water and take your meds. If you haven’t eaten in a few hours/if you’re hungry, you should eat no matter what you’re struggling with bc food is important and hunger is your body telling you that it needs nutrition. I hope I made this clear and that you feel included in my posts. All the love💓” TAGS #anorexia  #bulimia  #ortorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ortorexiarecovery  #ed  #shouldieatthis  #eat  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #bodypositivity  #binge  #bingeeating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorders  #proana  #antiproana 
Great post @livelaughloverecover and great advice! Nature is a great healing agent.
#repost #edrecovey #caregivers #caregiversupport #recovery #hope #health #nature #healing
Read this quote every day to myself until I had the courage and determination to make a change. It’s been a long process, but I learned that having faith and patience is key😊 Welcome to my recovery journal! My name is Anna and I’m 13 years old from Illinois and I’m in ed recovery right now. Yes,  I have tonssssss of questions and I’m hoping that some others may be able to help me out along the way, but I’m also hoping to help others too by making this account💕 #edrecovey #recoveryquotes #faith #keepyourheadhigh #stepbystep #anorexiarecovery #strongnotskinny #fightyourfears #anorexiawarrior #foffed
Read this quote every day to myself until I had the courage and determination to make a change. It’s been a long process, but I learned that having faith and patience is key😊 Welcome to my recovery journal! My name is Anna and I’m 13 years old from Illinois and I’m in ed recovery right now. Yes, I have tonssssss of questions and I’m hoping that some others may be able to help me out along the way, but I’m also hoping to help others too by making this account💕 #edrecovey  #recoveryquotes  #faith  #keepyourheadhigh  #stepbystep  #anorexiarecovery  #strongnotskinny  #fightyourfears  #anorexiawarrior  #foffed 
I really hate #abday even more than #legday 😂😫 Its funny how things change. I used to be cardio all the way and struggle to get a half hour of strength training in. Now I'm COMPLETELY the opposite. I love #lifting and pushing my limits 💪👊
#edrecovey #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfam #edcommunity #bulimiarecovery #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #girlswholift #gains
I am recovering from bulimia, restrictive orthorexia, and body dysmorphia. 
8 weeks ago I was admitted into an Eating Disorder Recovery Program at Rogers Memorial Hospital. Recovery is a chaotic roller coaster of good days/bad days, but it’s amazing to feel the progress I’ve already made. At my lightest I would have NEVER posted a picture like this – but today I’ve found the courage to do it. 
I lost 48 pounds in 2017. As I was shrinking people complimented me and asked how I did it. I always smiled and responded, “diet and exercise”. But the truth? Self-destructive coping mechanisms and chronic starvation - that’s how I did it. My life was entirely focused on isolation and deprivation. My heart, thyroid, reproductive system, immune system, and brain were all failing - not to mention I was insanely moody and a nightmare to be with. I was a shell of the person I used to be and thought about nothing except for weight loss and self-hatred. It wasn’t until I had a bloody scare of a ruptured esophagus that I finally cried out for help. 
In recovery I’ve gained weight back – but I also gained my life back. I’m gaining confidence, happiness, purpose, and many things I’ve never had before. I chased unrealistic dreams of happiness for SO long, thinking that once I reached my “goals” I would FINALLY be at peace with myself. I was wrong. It wasn’t until I stopped chasing perfection and instead focused on my THOUGHTS and my CHARACTER that I began to be genuinely happy. No one loves you because of how you look. People love you because of your goodness, and your laugh, and your heart. It’s so much more rewarding to put effort into falling in love with your LIFE instead of falling in love with your body.  If anyone reading this is struggling with mental illness and feels stuck, I promise it can get better. I’m proof. I’m not going to lie to you and say I feel confident every day or that the darkness doesn’t creep back into my mind every now and then. I’m still a hot mess just trying to get by, but after spending so long in the dark it’s amazing to see that every day is getting a little bit brighter. #edrecovey #edrecoveryjourney #recoverypost #eatingdisorderrecovery
I am recovering from bulimia, restrictive orthorexia, and body dysmorphia. 8 weeks ago I was admitted into an Eating Disorder Recovery Program at Rogers Memorial Hospital. Recovery is a chaotic roller coaster of good days/bad days, but it’s amazing to feel the progress I’ve already made. At my lightest I would have NEVER posted a picture like this – but today I’ve found the courage to do it. I lost 48 pounds in 2017. As I was shrinking people complimented me and asked how I did it. I always smiled and responded, “diet and exercise”. But the truth? Self-destructive coping mechanisms and chronic starvation - that’s how I did it. My life was entirely focused on isolation and deprivation. My heart, thyroid, reproductive system, immune system, and brain were all failing - not to mention I was insanely moody and a nightmare to be with. I was a shell of the person I used to be and thought about nothing except for weight loss and self-hatred. It wasn’t until I had a bloody scare of a ruptured esophagus that I finally cried out for help. In recovery I’ve gained weight back – but I also gained my life back. I’m gaining confidence, happiness, purpose, and many things I’ve never had before. I chased unrealistic dreams of happiness for SO long, thinking that once I reached my “goals” I would FINALLY be at peace with myself. I was wrong. It wasn’t until I stopped chasing perfection and instead focused on my THOUGHTS and my CHARACTER that I began to be genuinely happy. No one loves you because of how you look. People love you because of your goodness, and your laugh, and your heart. It’s so much more rewarding to put effort into falling in love with your LIFE instead of falling in love with your body. If anyone reading this is struggling with mental illness and feels stuck, I promise it can get better. I’m proof. I’m not going to lie to you and say I feel confident every day or that the darkness doesn’t creep back into my mind every now and then. I’m still a hot mess just trying to get by, but after spending so long in the dark it’s amazing to see that every day is getting a little bit brighter. #edrecovey  #edrecoveryjourney  #recoverypost  #eatingdisorderrecovery 
You must do the things which you think you cannot do
#caregiversupport #caregivers #edrecovey #caregiverstress #edrecover #edwarrior
This was heaven😍 been to Hiltl yesterday for dinner, bc it was my b-day and had this delicious plate from buffey🤤 and also some brownies, blondies and blackies and quark, bc it’s important to treat yo-self😏 also had fresh raspberry lemonade and then walked through Zürich old town, which is sooo beautiful😍 have a great start into this week and bye!❤️ (btw do you also forget what day it is during summer holidays?😅)
This was heaven😍 been to Hiltl yesterday for dinner, bc it was my b-day and had this delicious plate from buffey🤤 and also some brownies, blondies and blackies and quark, bc it’s important to treat yo-self😏 also had fresh raspberry lemonade and then walked through Zürich old town, which is sooo beautiful😍 have a great start into this week and bye!❤️ (btw do you also forget what day it is during summer holidays?😅)
Written by me! Trust me, that feeling IS worth fighting for!! Audio description: 
A text saying “things that taste a lot better than skinny feels (if we don’t mind the fact that skinny doesn’t feel good for everyone)”
followed by amazing foods such as freshly baked cinnamon buns, food made just for you by a loved one, the beverage when you toast for something good, heartbreak ice-cream, and anything served with the liberation in eating wtf you want with no regrets.

TAGS
#anorexia #bulimia #ortorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ortorexiarecovery #ed #shouldieatthis #eat #edrecovey #edwarrior #bodypositivity #binge #bingeeating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #proana #antiproana #nothingtastesasgoodasskinnyfeels #strongisthenewskinny #skinny
Written by me! Trust me, that feeling IS worth fighting for!! Audio description: A text saying “things that taste a lot better than skinny feels (if we don’t mind the fact that skinny doesn’t feel good for everyone)” followed by amazing foods such as freshly baked cinnamon buns, food made just for you by a loved one, the beverage when you toast for something good, heartbreak ice-cream, and anything served with the liberation in eating wtf you want with no regrets. TAGS #anorexia  #bulimia  #ortorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ortorexiarecovery  #ed  #shouldieatthis  #eat  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #bodypositivity  #binge  #bingeeating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorders  #proana  #antiproana  #nothingtastesasgoodasskinnyfeels  #strongisthenewskinny  #skinny 
I've been lapsing for far too long. I think it's time to make a comeback. 
Recovery is full of ups and downs and it's important to try and not panic when you feel yourself start to spiral. Because no matter how much it may not feel it.... you can prevent that spiral from consuming you. 
I've spent some of this month back in hospital for infusions of potassium as I came close to my heart failing. Although I wasn't at my lowest weight, emotionally and mentally I felt rock bottom. Every day was again a struggle where I felt the breath was being sucked from me. 
But as I was once told.... ' you're not gaining weight, you're RESTORING IT' and that's the attitude I'm desperately trying to have. 
I wasn't built to be perfect. Perfect is a myth. And myth of being flawless. Well I think loving yourself comes down to a choice. You can decide to love yourself. Or even just like yourself if love is too much to ask, which it definitely feels too much for me right now.  Look in the mirror everyday and try and find 3 things that you like about yourself, in the hopes that it won't be the same thing everyday. Because mood is fluid,  I don't always hate my body shape, I have better days when I'm like ' meh' instead of wanting to claw at my skin. 
And right now, it's the meh days I'm fighting for. 
Maybe not the most inspirational post but this is where I'm at right now x 
Love you all 
#selflove #loveyourself #foodisfuel #foodisnottheenemy #antibulimia #antiana #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish #morethannumbers #dancedontdiet #livedontlimit #antianorexia #foodblog #mentalhealth #edrecovey
I've been lapsing for far too long. I think it's time to make a comeback. Recovery is full of ups and downs and it's important to try and not panic when you feel yourself start to spiral. Because no matter how much it may not feel it.... you can prevent that spiral from consuming you. I've spent some of this month back in hospital for infusions of potassium as I came close to my heart failing. Although I wasn't at my lowest weight, emotionally and mentally I felt rock bottom. Every day was again a struggle where I felt the breath was being sucked from me. But as I was once told.... ' you're not gaining weight, you're RESTORING IT' and that's the attitude I'm desperately trying to have. I wasn't built to be perfect. Perfect is a myth. And myth of being flawless. Well I think loving yourself comes down to a choice. You can decide to love yourself. Or even just like yourself if love is too much to ask, which it definitely feels too much for me right now. Look in the mirror everyday and try and find 3 things that you like about yourself, in the hopes that it won't be the same thing everyday. Because mood is fluid, I don't always hate my body shape, I have better days when I'm like ' meh' instead of wanting to claw at my skin. And right now, it's the meh days I'm fighting for. Maybe not the most inspirational post but this is where I'm at right now x Love you all #selflove  #loveyourself  #foodisfuel  #foodisnottheenemy  #antibulimia  #antiana  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #morethannumbers  #dancedontdiet  #livedontlimit  #antianorexia  #foodblog  #mentalhealth  #edrecovey 
Friday night dinner...Chinese feast tonight after a long, hot week! Scallops and salmon stir fry and a few duck pancakes 👌 absolutely yummy! 
#dinner #tea #food #foodie #foodpic #foodgasm #foodpost #foodporn #foodphotography #foods #foodblogger #homecooking #homemade #healthyfood #healthyeating #healthylifestyle #healthyfoodshare #ed #edfam #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovey #eatingdisorder #veggies #chinesefood #chinese #fridaynight #friday #tgif
Friday night dinner...Chinese feast tonight after a long, hot week! Scallops and salmon stir fry and a few duck pancakes 👌 absolutely yummy! #dinner  #tea  #food  #foodie  #foodpic  #foodgasm  #foodpost  #foodporn  #foodphotography  #foods  #foodblogger  #homecooking  #homemade  #healthyfood  #healthyeating  #healthylifestyle  #healthyfoodshare  #ed  #edfam  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edrecovey  #eatingdisorder  #veggies  #chinesefood  #chinese  #fridaynight  #friday  #tgif 
Dad got these for me when he came to visit. I honestly want to cry. I binged on them last night and just when i started to try to stop i find all this and ofc i binge binge binge. Tbh I’m desperate at this point 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Dad got these for me when he came to visit. I honestly want to cry. I binged on them last night and just when i started to try to stop i find all this and ofc i binge binge binge. Tbh I’m desperate at this point #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Started from the bottom now we here... In the first photo, I was heavily restricting my food intake, binging because I was in emotional pain and then purging once the guilt set in. 
In the second photo I am connected emotionally, spirtually and I know my worth. I eat to nourish my body. When I feel emotional pain I try to focus this on areas other than food or deprevation. I work on myself. I do not equate my worth to a number on a scale or likes on a selfie. 
Recovery isn't easy, I still battle with myself at times, but is it worth it? 100% yes! 
#recovery #edrecovey #wellness #health #mystory #myrecoverystory #mentalheath #ed #wellbeing #edsupport #selflove #selfcare
Started from the bottom now we here... In the first photo, I was heavily restricting my food intake, binging because I was in emotional pain and then purging once the guilt set in. In the second photo I am connected emotionally, spirtually and I know my worth. I eat to nourish my body. When I feel emotional pain I try to focus this on areas other than food or deprevation. I work on myself. I do not equate my worth to a number on a scale or likes on a selfie. Recovery isn't easy, I still battle with myself at times, but is it worth it? 100% yes! #recovery  #edrecovey  #wellness  #health  #mystory  #myrecoverystory  #mentalheath  #ed  #wellbeing  #edsupport  #selflove  #selfcare 
Didn’t run at all last week, and so didn’t feel like it today- I just feel fat and blobby and horrible, but I pushed myself to do it and feel much more positive now. Even though it was more or a plod than a run! Small steps again 🙏

#run #exercise #gym #roadrunner #outdoors #outdoor #running #runner #runnersofinstagram #runningmotivation #healthylifestyle #weightloss #weightlossjourney #fitness #fitnessmotivation #edrecovey #ed #edfam #smallsteps #selfcare #bedrecovery #nevergiveup
Didn’t run at all last week, and so didn’t feel like it today- I just feel fat and blobby and horrible, but I pushed myself to do it and feel much more positive now. Even though it was more or a plod than a run! Small steps again 🙏 #run  #exercise  #gym  #roadrunner  #outdoors  #outdoor  #running  #runner  #runnersofinstagram  #runningmotivation  #healthylifestyle  #weightloss  #weightlossjourney  #fitness  #fitnessmotivation  #edrecovey  #ed  #edfam  #smallsteps  #selfcare  #bedrecovery  #nevergiveup 
New day, new start (again 🙄) Goals for today:
No binge 🍩🍫
No restricting 🥒 
Run after work 🏃‍♀️
And most importantly, don’t give up! 🙏

#edfam #ed #edfighter #edrecovey #edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #bedrecovery #recovery #binge #bingeeating #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #awareness #struggle #struggleisreal #selfhate #selfcare #nevergiveup #healthylifestyle
New day, new start (again 🙄) Goals for today: No binge 🍩🍫 No restricting 🥒 Run after work 🏃‍♀️ And most importantly, don’t give up! 🙏 #edfam  #ed  #edfighter  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bedrecovery  #recovery  #binge  #bingeeating  #bingeeatingrecovery  #bingeeatingdisorder  #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #awareness  #struggle  #struggleisreal  #selfhate  #selfcare  #nevergiveup  #healthylifestyle 
Not feeling good at all my bingeing has been so horrible. Trying to eat good and not stuff my face with crap. So here is day 1 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Not feeling good at all my bingeing has been so horrible. Trying to eat good and not stuff my face with crap. So here is day 1 #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
This flavor of @kevitadrinks gets the Becca stamp of approval, easily. Delicious and probiotic goodness, the refreshing sparkling water quality that makes it so crisp tasting, it’s really great! I’ve only ever had one other flavor, so I’m thankful @brassdoss was able to pick this (and a pomegranate flavored one) up from @healthylifemarket today to bring home for me after church. This is NOT sponsored in any way, I’m just enjoying this and wanted to share. If you’ve never tried @kevitadrinks, you owe it to yourself to try it if you ever see it.😊💛
This flavor of @kevitadrinks gets the Becca stamp of approval, easily. Delicious and probiotic goodness, the refreshing sparkling water quality that makes it so crisp tasting, it’s really great! I’ve only ever had one other flavor, so I’m thankful @brassdoss was able to pick this (and a pomegranate flavored one) up from @healthylifemarket today to bring home for me after church. This is NOT sponsored in any way, I’m just enjoying this and wanted to share. If you’ve never tried @kevitadrinks, you owe it to yourself to try it if you ever see it.😊💛
Any tips for eating trigger/binge foods in moderation and without restricting them completely?? I am failing miserably at trying to be satisfied with a ‘normal’ amount of binge foods, as it just seems to end in a binge (though I have managed to stop the binge going on for days at a time). 🤷‍♀️🐷🐷😳😫 #binge #bedrecovery #edfam #edrecovey #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #weightloss #weightlossjourney #binge #bedrecovery #recovery #selfhate #moderation #urge #mentalhealth #mentalillness #awareness
Any tips for eating trigger/binge foods in moderation and without restricting them completely?? I am failing miserably at trying to be satisfied with a ‘normal’ amount of binge foods, as it just seems to end in a binge (though I have managed to stop the binge going on for days at a time). 🤷‍♀️🐷🐷😳😫 #binge  #bedrecovery  #edfam  #edrecovey  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #weightloss  #weightlossjourney  #binge  #bedrecovery  #recovery  #selfhate  #moderation  #urge  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #awareness 
Majorly overloaded on carbs today 😬🐷- eggs on toast for brekkie, ham salad wrap for lunch, best part of a pack of party rings as a snack and now meatballs and  pasta with homemade garlic bread for dinner. 
Feeling fat and bloated and really not good about myself. It never fails to amaze me how much effect diet has on the way I feel about my body. Not had many veggies today and I can totally feel the difference 
#dinner #carbs #allthecarbs #edfighter #edrecovey #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #edfam #eatingdisorderrecovery #bedrecovery #binge #bingeeating #bingeeatingdisorder #weightlossjourney #weekend #fridaynight #food #foodlove #foodie #foodpics #foodgram #foodporn #foodgasm #foodphotography #foodpic #pig #fat #fatty #selfhate
Majorly overloaded on carbs today 😬🐷- eggs on toast for brekkie, ham salad wrap for lunch, best part of a pack of party rings as a snack and now meatballs and pasta with homemade garlic bread for dinner. Feeling fat and bloated and really not good about myself. It never fails to amaze me how much effect diet has on the way I feel about my body. Not had many veggies today and I can totally feel the difference #dinner  #carbs  #allthecarbs  #edfighter  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #edfam  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bedrecovery  #binge  #bingeeating  #bingeeatingdisorder  #weightlossjourney  #weekend  #fridaynight  #food  #foodlove  #foodie  #foodpics  #foodgram  #foodporn  #foodgasm  #foodphotography  #foodpic  #pig  #fat  #fatty  #selfhate 
I was invited to be a guest blogger for everybodydeserverecovery.com. My article “A Film About Recovery Featuring A Black Woman” is now live on their site. It outlines the reasons why I decided to make my upcoming film. Please visit everybodydeserverecovery.com and give it a read 🙂
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#filmmaker #recovery #edrecovey #representationmatters #blackgirlmagic #blackwomeninfilm #blackexellents #womenofcolor #womeninfilm #raiseyourvoice #director #inclusion #ourstories #beheard
I was invited to be a guest blogger for everybodydeserverecovery.com. My article “A Film About Recovery Featuring A Black Woman” is now live on their site. It outlines the reasons why I decided to make my upcoming film. Please visit everybodydeserverecovery.com and give it a read 🙂 . . . . . #filmmaker  #recovery  #edrecovey  #representationmatters  #blackgirlmagic  #blackwomeninfilm  #blackexellents  #womenofcolor  #womeninfilm  #raiseyourvoice  #director  #inclusion  #ourstories  #beheard 
Well its 12 pm so its my birthday. I ate shit tons but its ok ive been binging everyday my birthday wont stop me lol. Last year i imagined my 18th birthday to be so much different than today. I imagined it being liberating because i would be off to college( if you have been following me you would know how that went). I imagined i would have stopped binging, had a healthy body in which I’m confident in. Most importantly a healthy mind. While i have not achieved any of those and actually even gotten further perhaps, part of maturing is accepting and attempting. So today i tell myself that its ok if I’m in a bad place and i accept the fact that i havent done anything i dreamed of doing but i will not stop trying and i promise myself that maybe one day ill be happy and healthy 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Well its 12 pm so its my birthday. I ate shit tons but its ok ive been binging everyday my birthday wont stop me lol. Last year i imagined my 18th birthday to be so much different than today. I imagined it being liberating because i would be off to college( if you have been following me you would know how that went). I imagined i would have stopped binging, had a healthy body in which I’m confident in. Most importantly a healthy mind. While i have not achieved any of those and actually even gotten further perhaps, part of maturing is accepting and attempting. So today i tell myself that its ok if I’m in a bad place and i accept the fact that i havent done anything i dreamed of doing but i will not stop trying and i promise myself that maybe one day ill be happy and healthy #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Dinner today. I finished and had second portions of the mussaka and spaghetti but not a binge just a little over eating 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Dinner today. I finished and had second portions of the mussaka and spaghetti but not a binge just a little over eating #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Woke up and had fruit for breakfast even though i feel so sick after last night. Telling myself i cant change the past and i gotta move forward. Tomorrow is my birthday and last year my wish was that my next birthday i would be healthy and happy with my body and i feel so bad that even after a whole year i have not only failed to achieve that but in fact so incredibly far from that

#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Woke up and had fruit for breakfast even though i feel so sick after last night. Telling myself i cant change the past and i gotta move forward. Tomorrow is my birthday and last year my wish was that my next birthday i would be healthy and happy with my body and i feel so bad that even after a whole year i have not only failed to achieve that but in fact so incredibly far from that #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Had a good dinner and tons of fruit to fill my belly at night because its my trigger binge time and guess what i got up and binged at 2am. Literally failed on day 2

#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Had a good dinner and tons of fruit to fill my belly at night because its my trigger binge time and guess what i got up and binged at 2am. Literally failed on day 2 #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Well my friends ive gained 9lbs on a 4 day vacation. How is that possible you ask? Well i had an open buffet breakfast lunch and dinner and snacks so there is your answer. I managed to eat 3000 cals of snacks just on my way back home so if fucking big, bloated, and gross. Trying to get my shot together like really really hard. So here is breakfast day 1 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Well my friends ive gained 9lbs on a 4 day vacation. How is that possible you ask? Well i had an open buffet breakfast lunch and dinner and snacks so there is your answer. I managed to eat 3000 cals of snacks just on my way back home so if fucking big, bloated, and gross. Trying to get my shot together like really really hard. So here is breakfast day 1 #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
LUNCH: spinach wrap, with prawns and greek yogurt, pepper and lemon and salad.
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What a busy morning! Dog booked in for her her jabs and booked into the kennel, thank you letter written and sent, dog walked, body balance attended, breakfast and lunch made and cleared away! House  tidied and even managed to send the gas and elec reading to the suppliers!! I mean if that’s not over achieving on a Monday morning! You should see what this afternoon has in store! -
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#manic #headlesschicken #rush #housewife #unemployed #lunch #sandwich #edrecovey #feedfeed #fooddiary
LUNCH: spinach wrap, with prawns and greek yogurt, pepper and lemon and salad. - - - What a busy morning! Dog booked in for her her jabs and booked into the kennel, thank you letter written and sent, dog walked, body balance attended, breakfast and lunch made and cleared away! House tidied and even managed to send the gas and elec reading to the suppliers!! I mean if that’s not over achieving on a Monday morning! You should see what this afternoon has in store! - - - #manic  #headlesschicken  #rush  #housewife  #unemployed  #lunch  #sandwich  #edrecovey  #feedfeed  #fooddiary 
I moss everyone here and felt like i needed to talk to all of you. This is just a glimpse of how the past weeks have been just loads and loads of food to the extend of almost passing out. I’m hopeless and tired. I’m on my way to a beach resort and i cant even get myself to wear shorts let alone a swimsuit. The resort offers free food 24/7 so thats even worse for me. I want to have peace with myself i want to be free and even if it takes weeks,months,or even years!! But everyday it seems more and more impossible. I am rock bottom but i still will try maybe not today or soon but i know ill get back to trying to recover I’m just drained and depressed at the moment i dont think now is possible to start

#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
I moss everyone here and felt like i needed to talk to all of you. This is just a glimpse of how the past weeks have been just loads and loads of food to the extend of almost passing out. I’m hopeless and tired. I’m on my way to a beach resort and i cant even get myself to wear shorts let alone a swimsuit. The resort offers free food 24/7 so thats even worse for me. I want to have peace with myself i want to be free and even if it takes weeks,months,or even years!! But everyday it seems more and more impossible. I am rock bottom but i still will try maybe not today or soon but i know ill get back to trying to recover I’m just drained and depressed at the moment i dont think now is possible to start #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
I've had pasta for breakfast for the past 2 days 😱😅 I've been waking up a lot later so it's more of a brunch but then I skip lunch so idk what this even be.. besides t-a-y-s-t-eeee 😋 #breakfast #pastaforbreakfast #anorexic #recoveredana #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #edrecovey #keepfighting #trysomethingdifferent #trytryagain #pushforward #staystrong #keepyourheadup
This was my lunch today 🙌🏻 leftovers from a graduationparty yesterday, salmon and potatoes 😋😋 #uns #ätstörning #ätstörningsrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #äs #eatingdisorder #ed #ednos #edrecovey #ednosrecovery
You have no idea how good this tasted 🤤🙌🏻🙌🏻 vegan meatballs, fresh potatoes and sauce 😋 #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorder #edrecovey #ednos #edrecovey #ed #ednosrecovery #eatingdisorder #äs #ätstörningsrecovery #ätstörning #uns
Just a glimpse of today. Honestly struggling not only ed wise but emotionally too. My relationship with my friends are horrible. Everyone at home is constantly fighting and I’m just in such a bad place mentally 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Just a glimpse of today. Honestly struggling not only ed wise but emotionally too. My relationship with my friends are horrible. Everyone at home is constantly fighting and I’m just in such a bad place mentally #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Ebbene, eccomi, non sono sparita 🙈
La mia colazione è sempre la stessa e i miei spuntini sono quasi sempre aggiunti al pranzo perché non ho tempo, per questo posto di rado. 😪
Oggi ho pranzato da mia nonna con:
-risotto ai funghi 🍄
-merluzzo e piselli 🐟
-peperoni 🌶
-un chilo di frutta mista 🍑🍒🍎
Ovviamente tutto condito e accompagnato dal tanto temuto pane.
Ora è il momento di SCORRERE LE FOTO ⏩⏩⏩
Ieri sono andata dalle dietiste (si, sono due), mi hanno misurata, pesata, controllata e tutto va più che bene! Ho preso peso, ho aggiunto centimetri al braccio (mio grande sogno, ho sempre avuto le braccia piccole), ho ridotto il gonfiore e il mio cuore sta MOLTO meglio.
Tutto ciò per dirvi che ad ogni esito che pronunciavano, tiravo un sospiro di sollievo e mi partiva il sorriso, quello di chi sta lottando e sta VINCENDO.
Credete in voi stesse, amatevi, non c'è cosa migliore! E vedrete che, quando starete meglio, avrete anche la mente più lucida e gioirete per i vostri progressi e per i vostri traguardi.
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#recoverywin #lunch #meal #bodycheck #health #healthyfood #healthybody #edrecovey #anarecovey #anorexia #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #bodypositive
Ebbene, eccomi, non sono sparita 🙈 La mia colazione è sempre la stessa e i miei spuntini sono quasi sempre aggiunti al pranzo perché non ho tempo, per questo posto di rado. 😪 Oggi ho pranzato da mia nonna con: -risotto ai funghi 🍄 -merluzzo e piselli 🐟 -peperoni 🌶 -un chilo di frutta mista 🍑🍒🍎 Ovviamente tutto condito e accompagnato dal tanto temuto pane. Ora è il momento di SCORRERE LE FOTO ⏩⏩⏩ Ieri sono andata dalle dietiste (si, sono due), mi hanno misurata, pesata, controllata e tutto va più che bene! Ho preso peso, ho aggiunto centimetri al braccio (mio grande sogno, ho sempre avuto le braccia piccole), ho ridotto il gonfiore e il mio cuore sta MOLTO meglio. Tutto ciò per dirvi che ad ogni esito che pronunciavano, tiravo un sospiro di sollievo e mi partiva il sorriso, quello di chi sta lottando e sta VINCENDO. Credete in voi stesse, amatevi, non c'è cosa migliore! E vedrete che, quando starete meglio, avrete anche la mente più lucida e gioirete per i vostri progressi e per i vostri traguardi. . . . #recoverywin  #lunch  #meal  #bodycheck  #health  #healthyfood  #healthybody  #edrecovey  #anarecovey  #anorexia  #anoressia  #anoressiaitalia  #bodypositive 
To keep this short and sweet: I’ve felt more relaxed and “natural” with food on this trip than I have in a very long time, and it’s been absolutely lovely.
To keep this short and sweet: I’ve felt more relaxed and “natural” with food on this trip than I have in a very long time, and it’s been absolutely lovely.
Had this as my last meal and was still hungry so i had 2 extra toasts with apricot jam then i just ate bread and Nutella out of the jar so thats that and tomorrow we have.A BIG DINNER WITH TONS OF DESSERT FUCK ME UPPPP. I will enjoy them because seasonal desserts are my favorite so i will enjoy them i will indulge but i am afraid ill binge 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Had this as my last meal and was still hungry so i had 2 extra toasts with apricot jam then i just ate bread and Nutella out of the jar so thats that and tomorrow we have.A BIG DINNER WITH TONS OF DESSERT FUCK ME UPPPP. I will enjoy them because seasonal desserts are my favorite so i will enjoy them i will indulge but i am afraid ill binge #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Today’s food choices werent great. I have bad body image and havent worked out in a week but ik its ok and this process takes a whole lotta time. Today i tell myself its gonna be ok its gonna be ok

#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Today’s food choices werent great. I have bad body image and havent worked out in a week but ik its ok and this process takes a whole lotta time. Today i tell myself its gonna be ok its gonna be ok #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Wanted to have this before my last meal as a snack so i would be satisfied and not binge but i didnt i ended up eating bread with cheese and jam and a few bowls of cereal. Like ive had worse binges but the feeling still sucks. As pissed as i am i promised to try to find one good aspect or accomplishment i did today and that is that i made it through the whole day and only binged in one meal which doesnt sound really good but i know its a tiny step so ill take it. From today ill take that i WILL NOT EAT OFF OF THE PLATES ON THE TABLE. I NEED TO SET MYSLEF PORTIONS. I’m gonna keep reminding myself 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Wanted to have this before my last meal as a snack so i would be satisfied and not binge but i didnt i ended up eating bread with cheese and jam and a few bowls of cereal. Like ive had worse binges but the feeling still sucks. As pissed as i am i promised to try to find one good aspect or accomplishment i did today and that is that i made it through the whole day and only binged in one meal which doesnt sound really good but i know its a tiny step so ill take it. From today ill take that i WILL NOT EAT OFF OF THE PLATES ON THE TABLE. I NEED TO SET MYSLEF PORTIONS. I’m gonna keep reminding myself #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Dinner was great i had mushroom steak over brown rice with grilled veggies and salad with italian dressing. No binge till now but its the night I’m afraid of 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Dinner was great i had mushroom steak over brown rice with grilled veggies and salad with italian dressing. No binge till now but its the night I’m afraid of #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
when you like vegan salad but you’re not a vegan so... 🌱🍗
I do admire the people who are vegans! It must take a lot of commitment!
so... this morning i had a thought and it was this:
Maybe I will recover. Maybe this is not worth it. Maybe I will fight so I can go to university and live independently without my parents worrying that I’ll turn into the ghost of moaning myrtle. Because who wants to be a ghost. With no energy, no life... maybe I should end this limbo of quasi-recovery and do it because i want to, not because my parents would not watch and let me slowly kill myself. this thought gave me hope but also pain... who am i without my Ed; i have been wondering that since i was thirteen. I know that I can be a better person. But I don’t know how to get there yet; I will fight this until I find the way.
when you like vegan salad but you’re not a vegan so... 🌱🍗 I do admire the people who are vegans! It must take a lot of commitment! so... this morning i had a thought and it was this: Maybe I will recover. Maybe this is not worth it. Maybe I will fight so I can go to university and live independently without my parents worrying that I’ll turn into the ghost of moaning myrtle. Because who wants to be a ghost. With no energy, no life... maybe I should end this limbo of quasi-recovery and do it because i want to, not because my parents would not watch and let me slowly kill myself. this thought gave me hope but also pain... who am i without my Ed; i have been wondering that since i was thirteen. I know that I can be a better person. But I don’t know how to get there yet; I will fight this until I find the way.
Dinner was an egg and bulgur my night snack wasnt so good i had a nutella sandwich and 2 cookies and a piece of cake. Its a tiny binge but I’m gonna call it overeating please be better tomorrow 
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Dinner was an egg and bulgur my night snack wasnt so good i had a nutella sandwich and 2 cookies and a piece of cake. Its a tiny binge but I’m gonna call it overeating please be better tomorrow #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Felt very bad today. Didnt go to the gym as i said and I’m fearful of binging and have high urges but I’m trying to stay mindful. Let me say its tough as hell but i am determined to have a no gym no binge day! Snacked on this and still wanted more so i had 2 chocolate cookies. 
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Felt very bad today. Didnt go to the gym as i said and I’m fearful of binging and have high urges but I’m trying to stay mindful. Let me say its tough as hell but i am determined to have a no gym no binge day! Snacked on this and still wanted more so i had 2 chocolate cookies. #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Wanna be completely honest with you guys so last post I’m moving on from my binge and trying to put my mind on positives which i still am definitely. But as i lay in bed all i feel is bloated full and hard stomach. I’m feeling guilt and pain but its what come with binging so I’m trying to breathe and think about what I’m going to do about tomorrow because today has happened and ended and guess what you can go back in time can you? No. So tomorrow is a new day and I’m fighting to get through this

#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Wanna be completely honest with you guys so last post I’m moving on from my binge and trying to put my mind on positives which i still am definitely. But as i lay in bed all i feel is bloated full and hard stomach. I’m feeling guilt and pain but its what come with binging so I’m trying to breathe and think about what I’m going to do about tomorrow because today has happened and ended and guess what you can go back in time can you? No. So tomorrow is a new day and I’m fighting to get through this #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
That focus tho. #treatyourself Thursday night ice cream. Sugar to keep me up for the #nbafinals #runnernotrunning #icecream #sickrunner #injuryrecovery #summerfeels #edrecovey #eatwithoutguilt
Im gonna pour my heart on this account so bare with me please. After coming back from my “break” i made it 2 days binge free and emotionally stable. Today i’ll be completely honest I binged and the feeling sucks so bad.But I won’t let this be me this is not who I am this does not define me I keep on repeating to myself I am a work in progress on days where I’ve been really bad I just let it take over the whole day maybe even the whole week. But today I am acknowledging that I made mistake that I messed up that I slipped up but I also want to praise myself for being with my family and laughing from the bottom of my heart and truly enjoying myself. Even though I binged even though I’m in a shit mood I still had a good hour today and I will hold on to that hour until the rest of my days,the rest of my week, and the rest of my month, and the rest of my life becomes like that. I WILL FUCK UP. I WILL GET UP. 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Im gonna pour my heart on this account so bare with me please. After coming back from my “break” i made it 2 days binge free and emotionally stable. Today i’ll be completely honest I binged and the feeling sucks so bad.But I won’t let this be me this is not who I am this does not define me I keep on repeating to myself I am a work in progress on days where I’ve been really bad I just let it take over the whole day maybe even the whole week. But today I am acknowledging that I made mistake that I messed up that I slipped up but I also want to praise myself for being with my family and laughing from the bottom of my heart and truly enjoying myself. Even though I binged even though I’m in a shit mood I still had a good hour today and I will hold on to that hour until the rest of my days,the rest of my week, and the rest of my month, and the rest of my life becomes like that. I WILL FUCK UP. I WILL GET UP. #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Yes to having chocolate on the day you worked out. Yes to having chocolate on the days you havent. Yes to having chocolate just because you feel like it👏 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Yes to having chocolate on the day you worked out. Yes to having chocolate on the days you havent. Yes to having chocolate just because you feel like it👏 #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Had a nice workout today after a good breakfast and lunch. Yesterday went well, i did have some fights with my sister that put me in a bad mood but I’m past that for now. Balancing food and working out is hard but I’m trying to fix this relationship step by step and not over do it or loose motivation. Listen to my body and partially healthy mind. Hope everyone has a good day❤️ #ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Had a nice workout today after a good breakfast and lunch. Yesterday went well, i did have some fights with my sister that put me in a bad mood but I’m past that for now. Balancing food and working out is hard but I’m trying to fix this relationship step by step and not over do it or loose motivation. Listen to my body and partially healthy mind. Hope everyone has a good day❤️ #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Breakfast today even though i look like crap after last night’s binge. Today I practice forgiveness. I forgive myself for what i did last night and wont punish myself 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Breakfast today even though i look like crap after last night’s binge. Today I practice forgiveness. I forgive myself for what i did last night and wont punish myself #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
The past few days have been all ups and downs. Had about 4 binge days which sucks since i got away from social media for this particular reason but whatever. This was the last of my binge today. I’m coming back but I’m back with self acceptance and kindness (I’m trying i hope this works) i am determined to try live normally and i know ive said this alot but everyday ill try again and on the days i wont even budge i know you are here and its ok to start the day after. First thing for tomorrow since its 3am and ive ended my binge with sickness. I will surpass the guilt. I will forgive myself. I will move on. 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
The past few days have been all ups and downs. Had about 4 binge days which sucks since i got away from social media for this particular reason but whatever. This was the last of my binge today. I’m coming back but I’m back with self acceptance and kindness (I’m trying i hope this works) i am determined to try live normally and i know ive said this alot but everyday ill try again and on the days i wont even budge i know you are here and its ok to start the day after. First thing for tomorrow since its 3am and ive ended my binge with sickness. I will surpass the guilt. I will forgive myself. I will move on. #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Ramadan is now so here’s a reminder for those of u who celebrate💓 n ofc this goes for everyone who fasts not just if u celebrate Ramadan!!
So remember to eat n drink when you’re able to and take your meds even if u fast bc your meds are given to u for a reason, they’ll make u feel better so pls don’t forget them
Stay safe💓

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Ramadan is now so here’s a reminder for those of u who celebrate💓 n ofc this goes for everyone who fasts not just if u celebrate Ramadan!! So remember to eat n drink when you’re able to and take your meds even if u fast bc your meds are given to u for a reason, they’ll make u feel better so pls don’t forget them Stay safe💓 TAGS #anorexia  #bulimia  #ortorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ortorexiarecovery  #ed  #mentalhealth  #shouldieatthis  #eat  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #bodypositivity  #binge  #bingeeating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorders  #proana  #antiproana  #ramadan  #fasting 
CIAMBELLONE DELLA DOMENICA.
L'ho preparato seguendo una ricetta di @giallozafferano, che prevedeva le gocce di cioccolato, ma vista la mia allergia a quest'ultimo  le ho omesse.
Non vedo l'ora che sia stasera per assaggiarlo!
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 #laduraverità è che per quanto si possa guarire fisicamente, non si è guariti fino a che non si risana la mente.
E non si risana la mente se non ci si riprende un po' fisicamente. 
È un continuo loop che va portato avanti costantemente, con tanta fatica, odiandosi e avendo idee suicide.
Fino a che non vedremo una luce, fino a che non troveremo una motivazione che non siano gli altri, la scuola, la famiglia, i medici.
La motivazione sarà la nostra vita.
Fino a che non sentiremo la morte abbracciarci, non guariremo.
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#dca #recovery #edfamily #ed #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #anorexia #edwarrior #edrecovey #anarecovery #menthalillness #food #foodporn #bake #bakery #cake #eat #eating #foodforlife #nourish #torta #homemade #handmade
CIAMBELLONE DELLA DOMENICA. L'ho preparato seguendo una ricetta di @giallozafferano, che prevedeva le gocce di cioccolato, ma vista la mia allergia a quest'ultimo le ho omesse. Non vedo l'ora che sia stasera per assaggiarlo! . #laduraverità  è che per quanto si possa guarire fisicamente, non si è guariti fino a che non si risana la mente. E non si risana la mente se non ci si riprende un po' fisicamente. È un continuo loop che va portato avanti costantemente, con tanta fatica, odiandosi e avendo idee suicide. Fino a che non vedremo una luce, fino a che non troveremo una motivazione che non siano gli altri, la scuola, la famiglia, i medici. La motivazione sarà la nostra vita. Fino a che non sentiremo la morte abbracciarci, non guariremo. . . #dca  #recovery  #edfamily  #ed  #anoressia  #anoressiaitalia  #anorexia  #edwarrior  #edrecovey  #anarecovery  #menthalillness  #food  #foodporn  #bake  #bakery  #cake  #eat  #eating  #foodforlife  #nourish  #torta  #homemade  #handmade 
Just in an hour i had 2 of this e grilled cheese and a pb&j sandwich and 2 buttered croissants and oh the whole tray of cookies. Adding 3477 to my daily intake. I want to kill myself this has gotten out of control 
#ed #edrecovey #edwarrior #edfam #freedom #edsoldier #edsurvivor  #eating #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anawho #beatana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #realrecovery #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #food #foodie #foodporn #fooddiary #foodblog #prorecovery #edcommunity #recoveryispossible #foodblogger #bed
Just in an hour i had 2 of this e grilled cheese and a pb&j sandwich and 2 buttered croissants and oh the whole tray of cookies. Adding 3477 to my daily intake. I want to kill myself this has gotten out of control #ed  #edrecovey  #edwarrior  #edfam  #freedom  #edsoldier  #edsurvivor  #eating  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #anawho  #beatana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodie  #foodporn  #fooddiary  #foodblog  #prorecovery  #edcommunity  #recoveryispossible  #foodblogger  #bed 
Leftover tacopie after a really good practice 😋🏋🏼‍♀️ #äs #ätstörning #ednosrecovery #uns #ätstörningsrecovery #recovery #ed #ednos #edrecovey #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery