Bueno, pues esto es lo que os quería anunciar ‼️‼️ He inaugurado mi blog y ya he publicado mi primera entrada.
Cuento allí una parte de mi historia que es bastante dura y que hasta ahora había mantenido en secreto, aunque seguro que a algunos no os pilla por sorpresa del todo... Mi lucha contra la anorexia. Me cuesta mucho abrirme sobre esto y todavía no me puedo creer que lo haya hecho... pero quiero mostrar las maravillas que Dios ha obrado en mi vida y espero poder ayudar a otras personas que estén sufriendo, al igual que a mí otros me han ayudado.
También hablaré por supuesto de comida, ejercicio, fe y todo lo que suelo publicar en esta cuenta! 😊
Pongo el link en mi biografía para que los que queráis podáis acceder.
Ah. Y aviso! ⭕️ en los próximos días cambiaré el nombre de esta cuenta a swallow_the_world.
Well, this is what I said I was going to announce yesterday ‼️‼️ I’ve started my blog and I’ve published my first post. .
There I tell a part of my life story that’s quite harsh and that I had kept secret from most people I know in real life until now... My fight against anorexia. It’s really difficult for me to open up about this and I still can’t believe I’ve done it... but I want to show the wonders God has worked in my life and I hope I can help other people who are suffering, the same way others have helped me.
Of course I’ll also talk about food, fitness, faith and everything I usually publish in this account 😊
Link is in my bio for those of you who want to give it a read. (To read it in English just select EN in the top right corner of the website)
Oh and be aware ⭕️ that in a few days I’m going to change this account’s name to swallow_the_world.
Question: “I worry about becoming overweight/obese after recovery as I used to be before! Im afraid of letting go restriction as I felt miserable at a higher weight and it's clearly NOT healthy! What should I do?”
Firstly, I do not claim to be an expert on weight, I teach about eating disorder recovery. But to answer this question I want to cite an experiment from the book “Health At Every Size” by Linda Bacon.
The HAES study:
70 woman were chosen for the study. All of their BMI was over 30 so it fit the medical definition of “obese”. Most of those women had already tried numerous diets throughout their life and yet none of it ever worked and they were desperate to come to this study in the hopes that it would be a study aimed at weight loss. But it wasn’t.
The women were randomly divided into 2 groups:
The Conventional Diet group - They receiver conventional messages about dieting and towards their bodies. They moderately restricted fat and calories, monitored their food using a food diary and weighed themselves weekly. They were encouraged to walk and participate in other forms of exercise. They learned to count fat grams, understand food labels and shop for food. They were taught about the benefits of exercise and behavioral strategies for success. They were encouraged to lose weight slowly. This group was led by an experienced dietitian.
The HAES (Health At Every Size) group - Their initial meeting focused on body acceptance and self-acceptance and to lead a full life as possible, regardless of weight. The goal here was to first disconnect their feelings of self-worth from their weight before jumping in to talk about food, activity, or other lifestyle choices. This group was led by Linda Bacon (the author of the book).
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Happy friday! 🤗 What are you up to this weekend? // I also wanted to share someting helpful about recovery. Recently I have found myself reminding this to many people who I have talked to. They have been in recovery maybe for a full year but still don’t feel they are eating normally. .
And very often what I find out is that they are still very much shaming their eating, trying to “stop the binges”, thinking “ok I can eat chocolate, but only this much”, or feeling guilty, shameful after eating and resorting to diet mindset and mental restriction or even relapses over and over.
And then thinking, “why is my hunger not normal after a year in recovery?”
It’s not about the length of time you think you have been “in recovery” but more about have you really let go?
Because you can be “in recovery” for 5 years even, but if you don’t let go, normal eating and full recovery cannot happen.
You need to give yourself an unconditional permission to eat. If you are not doing it, then there is no way your body can recover and give you normal hunger cues. Never focus on “how to stop this hunger” but rather think “am I really giving myself an unconditional permission? Or am I still controlling it, holding on to the ED rules and “shoulds”, not letting myself be free around food?” this is really what you should be focusing on.
You have to let go of the diet mindset, mental restriction, "good and bad food" thinking, and thinking “I should eat this and only that much". .
The more you try to control something, the more it ends up controlling you! The more you try to limit, the more you will be compelled to eat it, the more you crave it.
NEW VIDEO is up on my YT 👏🏻🎬Recently I have heard this question more and more:
"But what if I have a physically demanding job and cannot rest so much in recovery?"
"But I have kids to take care of so I cannot just lie in bed all day but need to be active because of those important commitments!"
"I am about to finish university and have soo many exams coming up that I have no time to relax and take time off!"
Yes, I totally get it. Even though I do recommend to take time to rest as much as possible in recovery, to sleep more, to relax more, I completely understand that many people do have commitments they need to engage in and cannot just quit, not because their ED wants them to stay active but for genuine real reasons.
So in today's video, I will give you my answer that is quite general, but what I would advise in this situation. Link in bio! <3
The story behind this insta⁉️ - - -Pt. 1
Hace unos años, tener un desorden alimenticio no era tan común para nosotras como lo es ahora. Sí, veíamos los videos de anorexia que ocasionalmente nos enseñaban en la escuela, pero lo veíamos como algo lejos de nuestra realidad. No obstante, un tiempo después nosotras fuimos víctimas de lo mismo, caímos en aquello que pensábamos que era imposible caer. 🤾🏻♀️Y no fue hasta que nos dimos cuenta de lo que teníamos que nos ayudamos mutuamente, aceptamos el problema y decidimos que no era una vida miserable lo que queríamos; nos queríamos recuperar. Y aquí es cuando se empezó a ver el cambio. 🙌🏽 To be continued... (next post) 💕#strongfident#strongisthenewskinny#girlsthatsupporteachother#edrecoverycommunity
Just under 23% of Americans get enough exercise 🙈SAY WHAT. .
Get moving!! Endorphins are so good for you and you’ll live longer too!
Whether it’s a walk with your dog, a HIIT workout in the grass, or a YouTube yoga class, just do it. I promise you’ll feel so much better. .
I’m proud of myself today & I’m owning that self-pride! I’ve been struggling these past few months. I was slipping really hard for the last few weeks. I basically fell on my face about 3-4 days ago. I thought...”that’s it. I’ve officially relapsed. A mere 2-3 days...if that...before my 3 years”. BUT, with the help of some incredible recovery friends, I decided that 1 bad “fall” was NOT going to turn into a full-blown relapse.
I decided that I was NOT going to give up or throw in the towel. No. I WAS going to do the next-right-thing. I was going to own up (using non-triggering language with my friends) to what had happened. Because eating disorders & other mental health conditions thrive in secrecy. So I did. I told on myself. I listened to what my friends had to say. I took what they said to heart. And I did the next right thing. & damnit I’m PROUD of myself for that!
I could’ve easily given up on myself. I could’ve easily said “fuck it! I don’t give a damn anymore!” But I didn’t. 😁💜
I never thought I’d say this but I’m falling in love with living for IMperfection!
I grew up feeling the need to be perfect in everyone’s eyes.
I wanted to succeed in school and make my parents happy.
I wanted to hang with the popular crowd in college even if I didn’t feel like I fit in.
I wanted to be thin because I thought somehow it would make me “socially acceptable.”
I lived off lean cuisines, tried the Atkins diet and did cardio because I thought it was the ‘perfect’ thing to do
NEWS FLASH none of these were perfect for me or made me anymore ‘loveable.’
I wouldn’t trade any of the things I went through because here is what I’ve learned because of it:
💜Being successful in my career brings me joy and my parents support me regardless 💛Hanging with body positive women with dope souls has made my soul shine brighter
💚I’m socially acceptable no matter WHAT size I am
💗Diet culture exists and I respect those who are on one. However, I no longer feel the need to ‘also’ be on a diet because I know that is not where my mindset is at.
Living for perfection is MISERABLE in my opinion.
But we have to go through life to figure these things out.
I just want to remind you that whatever you feel isn’t ‘perfect’ is good enough just the way it is.
Your body, your mind, your career and your life is your OWN kind of perfection.
Sometimes I feel when I write captions on here that I either have to be ‘happy’ or ‘struggling’.
Truth is right now I’m just l i v i n g.
Life kinda feels like one big giant bubble right now to be honest.
I travel and come home for a few days at a time. I have no set routine at home or at the gym. Some days my diet consists of quest bars and coffee.
Some weeks I feel inadequate and feel like I’m not doing enough.
Some weeks I feel like I’m doing so much I forget what day it even is.
Sometimes when I travel, my ED thoughts go on overdrive and other times they aren’t even there.
I’m realizing all these things mean I’m l i v i n g.
I’m learning to be on my own and handle being a young woman in her twenties who is sensitive but strong.
Every single one of you on here are living.
I know sometimes you may feel lost or stuck in your journey, but you are never stuck.
You don’t always have to be happy or sad. You can just BE and that’s okay too.
Maybe today you’re good and tomorrow you’re off.
That’s okay. You’re living. I’m living. And life is gonna keep going. 💗