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The other day’s lunch was baked beans with rice 🍚 •
My first day here was really difficult ‘cause my meals were REALLY weird 😅😬 and ❗️MTW❗️ I feel like I’m just ruining my parents holidays and I don’t deserve being here because I didn’t know what to have for afternoon snack as all the shops were closed and my parents were planning going to a restaurant, which I didn’t want to. Then I said “the problem is that is too early and everything is closed” and my dad told me “No marta, the problem is you that you don’t want to go anywhere” and I just feel so guilty 😞🤷‍♀️ ❗️ETW❗️
Sorry for being negative but right now I can’t be positive 💕
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The other day’s lunch was baked beans with rice 🍚 • My first day here was really difficult ‘cause my meals were REALLY weird 😅😬 and ❗️MTW❗️ I feel like I’m just ruining my parents holidays and I don’t deserve being here because I didn’t know what to have for afternoon snack as all the shops were closed and my parents were planning going to a restaurant, which I didn’t want to. Then I said “the problem is that is too early and everything is closed” and my dad told me “No marta, the problem is you that you don’t want to go anywhere” and I just feel so guilty 😞🤷‍♀️ ❗️ETW❗️ Sorry for being negative but right now I can’t be positive 💕 • • • #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #edrecovery  #snack  #beatinganorexia  #beatingana  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #ed  #edwin  #edfam  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #fuckana  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #lunch  #dinner  #nightsnack  #morningsnack  #afternoonsnack  #snack  #breakfast  #vegetarian  #fearfood 
It’s nice to feel appreciated at work... I would imagine 🤷🏻‍♀️ And of course, the unsolicited opinion of my ED pipes up: feeling stressed? You know what will help? Calorie restriction! Thanks for that, you douche canoe! .
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It’s nice to feel appreciated at work... I would imagine 🤷🏻‍♀️ And of course, the unsolicited opinion of my ED pipes up: feeling stressed? You know what will help? Calorie restriction! Thanks for that, you douche canoe! . . . . . . . #anorexiarecovery  #workstress  #customerserviceproblems  #biteme  #eatittobeatit  #edsoldier  #nourishnotpunish  #recoveringaussies  #anorexianervosarecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #againstana  #edwontwin  #strongnotskinny  #edcommunity  #mentalhealth  #prorecovery  #anorexia  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #eatingdisorderawareness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #adultanorexia  #adulteatingdisorder 
Supper/dessert after work was a grilled cheese made with two different vegan cheeses, and some chocolate 🍫😋😊💪 #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #vegananorexiarecovery #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #gainingweightiscool
Tea tonight (wayyy earlier on) before work was my usual noodles and steamed buns 😋👍 #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #vegananorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit  #gainingweightiscool #strongnotskinny
Beach day ☀️ My mom took these pictures without me knowing and honestly the first thing I thought when I saw them was “ASHDKAKIFHWNQ my thighs!!!! i’m a pale ghost! i’m huge!!” But then I looked a little closer and saw that I actually look so happy. Genuinely happy. And I think that’s more important than the size of my thighs. Nothing else really matters if you aren’t happy. That was something I never was in the depths of my eating disorder. I might not always love my body now, but I am grateful for what it can do for me. For how it allows me to fully experience this beautiful adventure called life. I know none of this would be possible if it wasn’t for recovery.
Beach day ☀️ My mom took these pictures without me knowing and honestly the first thing I thought when I saw them was “ASHDKAKIFHWNQ my thighs!!!! i’m a pale ghost! i’m huge!!” But then I looked a little closer and saw that I actually look so happy. Genuinely happy. And I think that’s more important than the size of my thighs. Nothing else really matters if you aren’t happy. That was something I never was in the depths of my eating disorder. I might not always love my body now, but I am grateful for what it can do for me. For how it allows me to fully experience this beautiful adventure called life. I know none of this would be possible if it wasn’t for recovery.
💜🦋A note to the girl who will wake up tomorrow morning, inevitability hating herself for eating all the cereal and oatmeal and rice and starch the day before. ***Never feel guilty for giving yourself food. You are nurturing your body for health and happiness.*** You can not go back now, this first month is only the beginning. Everyday you are getting closer and closer to getting your life back, to getting your health back both mentally and physically. One day your weight will redistribute. One day you will have energy to focus as non food related aspects. One day you will no longer have to spend hours worrying and planning around food. One day you will find true happiness. Skinny does not equal happiness. Health does. One day This mental obsession will dissipate. I KNOW IT IS SO EASY TO RESTRICT AND FEEL SO GOOD but did it honestly? no. You are not a normal eater. Do not feel ashamed for taking your medicine. Getting back to a healthy weight is the first step. Don’t fear it!!Again, skinny does not equal happiness. Your health, relationships, goals, and laughter equals happiness. And I want to be able to laugh and live carefree once more.🦋💜 // be proud that you ate that fear food. It’s the only way to overcome these ED rules. Love yourself. Although it may seem like torture at times, you are doing this because you love yourself. And that you don’t want to return to that hellish insanity. Tbh I don’t even believe a single word I’m typing right now, but I know one day I will. Anyways, I hope that you will too😚💕 // #virtualhug #anafighter #eatittobeatit #eatandrepeat #nourishyourbody #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery
💜🦋A note to the girl who will wake up tomorrow morning, inevitability hating herself for eating all the cereal and oatmeal and rice and starch the day before. ***Never feel guilty for giving yourself food. You are nurturing your body for health and happiness.*** You can not go back now, this first month is only the beginning. Everyday you are getting closer and closer to getting your life back, to getting your health back both mentally and physically. One day your weight will redistribute. One day you will have energy to focus as non food related aspects. One day you will no longer have to spend hours worrying and planning around food. One day you will find true happiness. Skinny does not equal happiness. Health does. One day This mental obsession will dissipate. I KNOW IT IS SO EASY TO RESTRICT AND FEEL SO GOOD but did it honestly? no. You are not a normal eater. Do not feel ashamed for taking your medicine. Getting back to a healthy weight is the first step. Don’t fear it!!Again, skinny does not equal happiness. Your health, relationships, goals, and laughter equals happiness. And I want to be able to laugh and live carefree once more.🦋💜 // be proud that you ate that fear food. It’s the only way to overcome these ED rules. Love yourself. Although it may seem like torture at times, you are doing this because you love yourself. And that you don’t want to return to that hellish insanity. Tbh I don’t even believe a single word I’m typing right now, but I know one day I will. Anyways, I hope that you will too😚💕 // #virtualhug  #anafighter  #eatittobeatit  #eatandrepeat  #nourishyourbody  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery 
So this is my first non food photo!! Obviously it had to be one of Zip bc lyfe. I woke up today in a very “fuck it” mood about my food today. I’ll have what I want. There are som foods that I HAVE to have dairy for my bones or else (bc I have osteopenia) I could get osteoporosis! I don’t want that. No. No. No. this morning for breakfast I had overnight oats with a bit of ice cream 😂 for lunch it’s gonna be a challenge of jam sanga!! Nervous but I know I can do it!! Xx lovelies 
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So this is my first non food photo!! Obviously it had to be one of Zip bc lyfe. I woke up today in a very “fuck it” mood about my food today. I’ll have what I want. There are som foods that I HAVE to have dairy for my bones or else (bc I have osteopenia) I could get osteoporosis! I don’t want that. No. No. No. this morning for breakfast I had overnight oats with a bit of ice cream 😂 for lunch it’s gonna be a challenge of jam sanga!! Nervous but I know I can do it!! Xx lovelies #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #anaorexiawho  #anorexia  #yum  #food  #iamnot1in5  #foodisfuel  #foodporn  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #livelovelife  #recovery  #selfcare  #anorexiawarrior  #healthyfood  #recoveryisworthit  #beatingana  #lovefood  #fooddiary  #edfighter  #anorexiasurviver  #recoverydiary  #recoveryisworthit  #foodislife  #prorecovery  #inpatient  #outpatient  #fuckanorexia  #nourishnotpunish 
Evening snack was three weetabix @weetabixofficial, 300ml oat milk🥛 @oatly, some blueberries and some strawberries 🍓
I’ve started packing as we’re going to see some family friends Friday-Sunday and then going to see some other family friends from Sunday to Tuesday. I also watched the movie ‘Letters to Juliet’ which is completely adorable😍
I hope you’ve had a lovely evening and well done for making it halfway through the week💗

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Evening snack was three weetabix @weetabixofficial, 300ml oat milk🥛 @oatly, some blueberries and some strawberries 🍓 I’ve started packing as we’re going to see some family friends Friday-Sunday and then going to see some other family friends from Sunday to Tuesday. I also watched the movie ‘Letters to Juliet’ which is completely adorable😍 I hope you’ve had a lovely evening and well done for making it halfway through the week💗 #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #edrecovery #nourishnotpunish #healthynothungry #edcommunity #recovery #edwontwin #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #foodisfuel #eatingdisorderrecovery 
Struggling tonight had a small snack of two crackers and butter but stomach is cramping to a bitch might be still constipated but not sure. Probably going to consume more meds than food tonight.... Panicked. 
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Struggling tonight had a small snack of two crackers and butter but stomach is cramping to a bitch might be still constipated but not sure. Probably going to consume more meds than food tonight.... Panicked. #food  #eatittobeatit  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #anorexianervosa  #ed  #anorexiafighter  #recoveryisworthit  #edwarrior  #ana  #strongnotskinny  #edfighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafight  #anorexiarecover  #beatana  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiasucks  #anarecovery  #anorexic  #prorecovery  #edfamily  #recoveryispossible  #recoverywin  #depression  #bulimiarecovery  #anorexiasoldier  @bruceleetags
I made a raw tiramisu from an @unconventionalbaker recipe and it was amazing! I didnt have a 6 inch pan though so mine is longer so the layers arent very thick! I chose to make it after my huge success from @sayuri_healing_food in bali and this one was good but in a whole different way! It was a lot denser than the other one and had a different texture(more like actual tiramisu) so i rly want to know their recipe!
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Im so fake happy🙃
I made a raw tiramisu from an @unconventionalbaker recipe and it was amazing! I didnt have a 6 inch pan though so mine is longer so the layers arent very thick! I chose to make it after my huge success from @sayuri_healing_food in bali and this one was good but in a whole different way! It was a lot denser than the other one and had a different texture(more like actual tiramisu) so i rly want to know their recipe! #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #anawarrior  #beatana  #2fab4ana  #anasucks  #anafighter  #eatittobeatit  #prorecovery  #recoverymotivation  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodinspo  #healthyeating  #balancednotclean  #strongnotskinny  #vegan  #whatveganseat  #veganeats  #veganfoodshare  #veganinspo  #veganfoodporn  #nourishnotpunish  #nourish2flourish  #strongnotskinny  #thrivenotsurvive  Im so fake happy🙃
Sorry for late update! Between lunch and dinner I had one apple and one cup of chocolate milk. Then taco was dinner... and we all know how that goes. I always overeat taco, but I just love it so much? But I guess it’s good that I overeat today since my other meals have been way to small. Had also so sugarfree chocolate and soya chocolate milk after dinner too.
Tomorrow I’m going to see my therapist, and I’m kinda looking towards it and kinda not. Tomorrow I’m going to tell I’m that I really want to recover and that I want to work with that, but I’m scared that he won’t believe that I’m ready because I’m struggling so much now.  We will see how it goes..
Good night!
Sorry for late update! Between lunch and dinner I had one apple and one cup of chocolate milk. Then taco was dinner... and we all know how that goes. I always overeat taco, but I just love it so much? But I guess it’s good that I overeat today since my other meals have been way to small. Had also so sugarfree chocolate and soya chocolate milk after dinner too. Tomorrow I’m going to see my therapist, and I’m kinda looking towards it and kinda not. Tomorrow I’m going to tell I’m that I really want to recover and that I want to work with that, but I’m scared that he won’t believe that I’m ready because I’m struggling so much now. We will see how it goes.. Good night!
Today was a really good day for shopping with friends ☺ looking at myself in mirrors is really hard though, realizing my body isnt as stable and sturdy as it used to be. after pushing it to the point of breaking trying to heal it and recover again is really hard, hopefully in the next few months I'll go up a few sizes and shopping will be easier though.  the future is always full of possibilities 😃 
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Today was a really good day for shopping with friends ☺ looking at myself in mirrors is really hard though, realizing my body isnt as stable and sturdy as it used to be. after pushing it to the point of breaking trying to heal it and recover again is really hard, hopefully in the next few months I'll go up a few sizes and shopping will be easier though. the future is always full of possibilities 😃 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anarecovery  #anasucks  #eatittobeatit  #recovery  #prorecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #bodypositive  #edfam  #vegan  #vegetarian  #recoveryisworthit  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #mentalillnessisreal  #stopthestereotypes  #iamnot1in5 
Very late dinner was pizza and garlic bread and a glass of water. I can't drink that cordial anymore because it has aspartame in and now I have a head ache 🤒

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Lunch after my post SoulCycle nap // my favorite sandwich with cream cheese, tomato, lettuce, cucumber, and avocado along with an unpictured juice😍
I spent some time before eating making card and writing a letter to that instructor because she has been such an inspiration in recovery and in life. I don’t draw (or do any type of art for that matter), but I only had blank cards and I figured it would be better to give it a go 🎨 Even though they didn’t turn out perfectly — but then again, what is perfect in art🤷🏻‍♀️?? — but I really enjoyed making them. I’m still quite tired but I know if I take another nap, I won’t sleep at all tonight which would suck😒 I’m not too sure what my afternoon plans are, but I’m willing to bet they won’t be too interesting😂
Lunch after my post SoulCycle nap // my favorite sandwich with cream cheese, tomato, lettuce, cucumber, and avocado along with an unpictured juice😍 I spent some time before eating making card and writing a letter to that instructor because she has been such an inspiration in recovery and in life. I don’t draw (or do any type of art for that matter), but I only had blank cards and I figured it would be better to give it a go 🎨 Even though they didn’t turn out perfectly — but then again, what is perfect in art🤷🏻‍♀️?? — but I really enjoyed making them. I’m still quite tired but I know if I take another nap, I won’t sleep at all tonight which would suck😒 I’m not too sure what my afternoon plans are, but I’m willing to bet they won’t be too interesting😂
To say that I am feeling loved is an understatement. I did SoulCycle this morning and it was my 200th ride so they made me a banner and put it out on the front desk. Everyone was so kind and had the nicest things to say before class☺️ During class, the instructor kept calling me out and talking about why she (and all of the other morning riders) love me and will miss me when I leave (I was a bright red tomato the whole time🤦🏻‍♀️) She also told everyone to ride tomorrow morning because it will be my last ride before I go to college😱 Class felt so good — I was LIVING for the long runs and dance moves. When I was leaving, the front desk woman gave me a goodie bag as a congrats/going away present🎁 One of the other riders gave me the nicest card and a courage key (look it up😊). Basically, everyone made me feel like a literal princess when I wasn’t expecting anything. I’m really going to miss everyone at the studio😔
To say that I am feeling loved is an understatement. I did SoulCycle this morning and it was my 200th ride so they made me a banner and put it out on the front desk. Everyone was so kind and had the nicest things to say before class☺️ During class, the instructor kept calling me out and talking about why she (and all of the other morning riders) love me and will miss me when I leave (I was a bright red tomato the whole time🤦🏻‍♀️) She also told everyone to ride tomorrow morning because it will be my last ride before I go to college😱 Class felt so good — I was LIVING for the long runs and dance moves. When I was leaving, the front desk woman gave me a goodie bag as a congrats/going away present🎁 One of the other riders gave me the nicest card and a courage key (look it up😊). Basically, everyone made me feel like a literal princess when I wasn’t expecting anything. I’m really going to miss everyone at the studio😔
So this morning I had weigh in and group. I found group really helpful and it was lovely seeing everyone again after having a few weeks off. We have a new co-facilitator and she’s really nice. She’s recovered from anorexia and it’s actually really encouraging to see what life could be like with full recovery. -
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We focussed on thinking about thinking today and I think it’s such an important part of recovery (medal for the most uses of the word think in a sentence goes to me😂). No you can’t control what thoughts you have or how frequently you have them but it is up to YOU to choose which thoughts you act on and which you don’t. A thought is just that - a thought. It can’t physically make you do anything, only you can do that. I think we all need reminding of that at times! -
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So this morning I had weigh in and group. I found group really helpful and it was lovely seeing everyone again after having a few weeks off. We have a new co-facilitator and she’s really nice. She’s recovered from anorexia and it’s actually really encouraging to see what life could be like with full recovery. - - We focussed on thinking about thinking today and I think it’s such an important part of recovery (medal for the most uses of the word think in a sentence goes to me😂). No you can’t control what thoughts you have or how frequently you have them but it is up to YOU to choose which thoughts you act on and which you don’t. A thought is just that - a thought. It can’t physically make you do anything, only you can do that. I think we all need reminding of that at times! - - (TW - talk about weigh in) Weigh in was okay, I maintained this week despite increasing my intake and my therapist was not impressed 😬 The plan is to continue on the same plan for the next couple of weeks and see what happens. She said I really need to try and cut down on the amount of exercise / compulsive walking I am doing though as that won’t be helping matters. - - I hope you all sleep well lovelies 🌻🌻- - - #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #eatingdisorder  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #EDrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #food  #eatittobeatit  #nourishtoflourish  #edfamily  #recoverywarrior 
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So today, it’s pretty tough. I’m bloated and tired. I feel heavy and not so good. But yanno it’s part of being human. Healthy Women get periods. And I have mine, it’s normal to feel a bit cruddy. But I’m gonna fight back and I’m going to build up excitement for a 5 day trip away with my bestie! I’ve packed and I’m so excited. I’m also quite nervous 😟 but I know that I am strong and capable. I will live in the moment and eat what I want, when I want. It’s in times like this that we need to focus on grounding ourselves and using distractions!! Brain teasers are my saviour and cuddling my kitty x be strong fam. We can win this battle 
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Hey 👋 —————————— So today, it’s pretty tough. I’m bloated and tired. I feel heavy and not so good. But yanno it’s part of being human. Healthy Women get periods. And I have mine, it’s normal to feel a bit cruddy. But I’m gonna fight back and I’m going to build up excitement for a 5 day trip away with my bestie! I’ve packed and I’m so excited. I’m also quite nervous 😟 but I know that I am strong and capable. I will live in the moment and eat what I want, when I want. It’s in times like this that we need to focus on grounding ourselves and using distractions!! Brain teasers are my saviour and cuddling my kitty x be strong fam. We can win this battle #mevsanorexia  #jjvsanorexia 
First time trying this @halotopuk flavour (my Tesco finally got in some of the different flavours!) so #pintparty for n/s plus popcorn and an options mint hot chocolate... and so the night before my ED appointment dread sets in 🙃
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Forever super nervous about social eating today at group.
Forever super nervous about social eating today at group.
Having Almond Ezekiel Cereal, Milk, and a Banana🥜🍌🥛
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Morning snack is this vegan and gluten free banana bread from a plant based cafe which was amazing as they make everything from scratch !! But today I almost got admitted back to hospital as my blood results came back and they weren’t good as they said my kidneys are really bad and may have permanent damage!!! This really freaks me out as I feel like I’m going so well but from the doctors on Monday my heart rate is dangerously low, low temperature and now my kidneys!!! i may have to stop doing my sport for a bit but even thinking about that kills me as it’s such a motivator and my coach told me how much stronger I am!! So confusing but I’m definitely not going back so I need to turn my stubborn head against Ana!!
Morning snack is this vegan and gluten free banana bread from a plant based cafe which was amazing as they make everything from scratch !! But today I almost got admitted back to hospital as my blood results came back and they weren’t good as they said my kidneys are really bad and may have permanent damage!!! This really freaks me out as I feel like I’m going so well but from the doctors on Monday my heart rate is dangerously low, low temperature and now my kidneys!!! i may have to stop doing my sport for a bit but even thinking about that kills me as it’s such a motivator and my coach told me how much stronger I am!! So confusing but I’m definitely not going back so I need to turn my stubborn head against Ana!!
Morning! Breakfast was a MASSIVE bowl of Nutri Grain with Almond milk, a bowl of farmhouse gold pot set strawberry yogurt with a sliced banana and a glass of orange juice. 
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Morning! Breakfast was a MASSIVE bowl of Nutri Grain with Almond milk, a bowl of farmhouse gold pot set strawberry yogurt with a sliced banana and a glass of orange juice. I hope you all have wonderful days 🌼 x - - - - - #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #edcommunity  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edwarrior  #eatittobeatit  #fuckana  #foodisfuel  #gainingweightiscool  #healthynothungry  #keepfighting  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthwarrior  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish  #prorecovery  #Recovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #Recoveryistheonlyoption  #strongnotskinny 
This is me, at three years old, having a particularly bad body image day and contemplating behaviors while I waited for my swimming lessons.
I have an insane memory and can remember all the way back to when I was a couple months old, but this is the first memory I have of having thoughts about anything, and it just happens to be a thought about my body.
Three or four is the age most kids begin to become aware of their body’s shape and size and how much space they take up. It is also when their personality is starting to develop, but that was taken away from me really young and didn’t have my real personality until I was 16 years old. I had a fake personality. Most people with eating disorders know how much it robs you of your personality. I was so preoccupied with my thoughts that I’d avoid people and drawing attention to myself. My isolation caused people to not talk to me or befriend me, which led me to believe that everyone hated me, and it was a vicious cycle. I never had any creativity and even when hanging out with friends I was so consumed with my thoughts that I had trouble doing anything fun with them. I was healthy on the outside, but dull and lifeless on the inside.
Of course, my disorder only got worse from there, but when I started recovery I was so scared because that was all I had ever known. I didn’t know what it was like a live a happy life without obsessive thoughts and I thought that my eating disorder was literally part of my personality. I was sent to ERC Denver in the fall of 2016, with no intent to get better. However, when I was released I was a new person. I was happy and bubbly and I made so many new friends. I found passion and hobbies and I was fairly decisive. I was laughing all the time, made jokes sometimes, and talked to people about anything but my body and demons. My body almost didn’t matter anymore, because I loved what was on the inside. I was free and I loved it. I was who I’ve always wanted to be, who I’ve always supposed to be.
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This is me, at three years old, having a particularly bad body image day and contemplating behaviors while I waited for my swimming lessons. I have an insane memory and can remember all the way back to when I was a couple months old, but this is the first memory I have of having thoughts about anything, and it just happens to be a thought about my body. Three or four is the age most kids begin to become aware of their body’s shape and size and how much space they take up. It is also when their personality is starting to develop, but that was taken away from me really young and didn’t have my real personality until I was 16 years old. I had a fake personality. Most people with eating disorders know how much it robs you of your personality. I was so preoccupied with my thoughts that I’d avoid people and drawing attention to myself. My isolation caused people to not talk to me or befriend me, which led me to believe that everyone hated me, and it was a vicious cycle. I never had any creativity and even when hanging out with friends I was so consumed with my thoughts that I had trouble doing anything fun with them. I was healthy on the outside, but dull and lifeless on the inside. Of course, my disorder only got worse from there, but when I started recovery I was so scared because that was all I had ever known. I didn’t know what it was like a live a happy life without obsessive thoughts and I thought that my eating disorder was literally part of my personality. I was sent to ERC Denver in the fall of 2016, with no intent to get better. However, when I was released I was a new person. I was happy and bubbly and I made so many new friends. I found passion and hobbies and I was fairly decisive. I was laughing all the time, made jokes sometimes, and talked to people about anything but my body and demons. My body almost didn’t matter anymore, because I loved what was on the inside. I was free and I loved it. I was who I’ve always wanted to be, who I’ve always supposed to be. 🌻continued in comments 🌻
Night snack tonight was a bag of Chex mix ( so yummy)  2 @higgidy feta and red pepper rolls 😋😋 and a @eatvive lemon 🍋 burst #vegan #proteinbar 💪🏻 gonna try and get to sleep before results tomorrow - so scared 😞 #eatittobeatit #ed #anawho #pornfood
Night snack tonight was a bag of Chex mix ( so yummy) 2 @higgidy feta and red pepper rolls 😋😋 and a @eatvive lemon 🍋 burst #vegan  #proteinbar  💪🏻 gonna try and get to sleep before results tomorrow - so scared 😞 #eatittobeatit  #ed  #anawho  #pornfood 
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Current status...”uninspired” 😏  Maybe it’s the heat, maybe it’s the smoke, maybe it’s lack of sleep, maybe it’s just part of life... 🤷🏼‍♀️ So, what do you do when you are uninspired, in a funk or feeling stuck and sluggish? . 
1.  Start with water. Drink 8-16 oz because dehydration often mimics as fatigue, lethargy, depression or hunger. 
2.  Make yourself a cup of coffee. Maybe it’s just me but a cup of coffee always lifts my spirits!☺️☕️
3.  Write down three things your thankful for. (Mine includes a happy toddler despite her blah mom😉) 4.  Do one thing on your to do list. You won’t feel like it but do it anyways. You’ll feel better afterwards because you been slightly productive. 
5.  Move your body. Walk, run, workout, stretch, dance, do whatever feels best to move your body. Your body in action will begin overpower the inertia of being in a funk. 
6.  Laugh and then drink more water. (Because water is always a good idea).☺️ . 
What do you do when you’re feeling off or uninspired?
Current status...”uninspired” 😏 Maybe it’s the heat, maybe it’s the smoke, maybe it’s lack of sleep, maybe it’s just part of life... 🤷🏼‍♀️ So, what do you do when you are uninspired, in a funk or feeling stuck and sluggish? . 1. Start with water. Drink 8-16 oz because dehydration often mimics as fatigue, lethargy, depression or hunger. 2. Make yourself a cup of coffee. Maybe it’s just me but a cup of coffee always lifts my spirits!☺️☕️ 3. Write down three things your thankful for. (Mine includes a happy toddler despite her blah mom😉) 4. Do one thing on your to do list. You won’t feel like it but do it anyways. You’ll feel better afterwards because you been slightly productive. 5. Move your body. Walk, run, workout, stretch, dance, do whatever feels best to move your body. Your body in action will begin overpower the inertia of being in a funk. 6. Laugh and then drink more water. (Because water is always a good idea).☺️ . What do you do when you’re feeling off or uninspired?
Quick, easy, and delicious lunch & afternoon snack today 🌟
I’m about to head to work for some silks & lyra time, so just thought I’d pop in and remind you all how lovely, deserving, and worthy you are. Always. All the time. No exceptions.
You do not have to do anything spectacular at all to be worthy of love. You are inherently worthy. Just the fact that you exist is spectacular in and of itself. I’m drinking a cup of chai rooibos tea with coconut milk right now, and here’s my #teabagwisdom for today: “You are born wise. You are born complete.”
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lunch -> big Cobb-style salad of romaine, sugar snap peas, purple cabbage, cucumber, tomato, shredded carrot, grilled sweet corn, quinoa, a few cubes of potato, turkey breast, avocado, a hard boiled egg, fresh goat cheese, chopped beet chips, toasted pepitas, Cholula, and homemade three vinegar salad dressing
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snack deetz -> nice cream made of frozen bluebs, blackberries, strawberries, and peaches topped with a crumbled salt-free brown rice cake
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#anorexiarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryfood #recoverywarrior #recoveryfamily #eatittobeatit #nicecream #fuckeatingdisorders
Quick, easy, and delicious lunch & afternoon snack today 🌟 I’m about to head to work for some silks & lyra time, so just thought I’d pop in and remind you all how lovely, deserving, and worthy you are. Always. All the time. No exceptions. You do not have to do anything spectacular at all to be worthy of love. You are inherently worthy. Just the fact that you exist is spectacular in and of itself. I’m drinking a cup of chai rooibos tea with coconut milk right now, and here’s my #teabagwisdom  for today: “You are born wise. You are born complete.” ✨✨✨ lunch -> big Cobb-style salad of romaine, sugar snap peas, purple cabbage, cucumber, tomato, shredded carrot, grilled sweet corn, quinoa, a few cubes of potato, turkey breast, avocado, a hard boiled egg, fresh goat cheese, chopped beet chips, toasted pepitas, Cholula, and homemade three vinegar salad dressing - snack deetz -> nice cream made of frozen bluebs, blackberries, strawberries, and peaches topped with a crumbled salt-free brown rice cake - #anorexiarecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #balancednotclean  #strongnotskinny  #healthynotskinny  #prorecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryfood  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryfamily  #eatittobeatit  #nicecream  #fuckeatingdisorders 
meh bad lighting but a fabulous dinner, and even better with a friend round. I had summer pudding for dessert and now we’re watching the fabulous “travels with my father” with jack Whitehall! Catch you all later xx #risotto #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery
meh bad lighting but a fabulous dinner, and even better with a friend round. I had summer pudding for dessert and now we’re watching the fabulous “travels with my father” with jack Whitehall! Catch you all later xx #risotto  #recovery  #recovering  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recoverywarrior  #beatana  #fuckana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #edfam  #mentalhealthawareness  #orthorexia  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #prorecovery 
Sooooo... I can’t tell if I killed leg day or of leg day killed me. 🍑🔥 I am DONE. BUT, I had SO much fun, totally crushed it, and (other than tearing up a little because my butt was on FIRE) truly enjoyed it all. THAT is how my attitude should be for EVERY session. No more punishing myself with exercise. I’m done with that crap. 🙅🏻 once I was done, I made my way home after stretching out, just got in my headbands and a shakey handstand practice (my whole body is so sore 😅), and am SO hungry for lunch right now. I can’t Ben tell you how ready I am for some post-workout fuel! I am having: my classic loaded salad made with baked chicken breast (in African smoke seasoning) over romaine lettuce with carrot, cucumber, garbanzo beans, almonds (raw- my FAVORITE), feta crumbles, organic hummus, and sriracha for the top! 😍👅💦 This is going to be soooo perfect for after that session! I am PUMPED! 🙌🏻 Overall, I am feeling really happy! My breakfast was bomb, my training session was great, my lunch is goin to be delicious, and I get to be home to help my sister and her friend for now! I think we’re going to get our eyebrows done later, too! 👊🏻 I have some kombucha to try later on, but I’ll post that on my story for y’all to see! It’s a minty flavor (I think), so I’m curious to try it! 🤷🏻‍♀️ Anyways, I’d LOVE to hear what you all have planned! Here’s to it! ✨ #foodisfuel #fuelyourbody #realfood #healthyeating #healthyliving #healthylifestyle #gainingweightiscool #girlgains #gains #fitfam #eatittobeatit #eatgoodfeelgood #healthyeats #fuelyourbody #foodisfuel #gainingweightiscool #norestriction #morechiaplease
Sooooo... I can’t tell if I killed leg day or of leg day killed me. 🍑🔥 I am DONE. BUT, I had SO much fun, totally crushed it, and (other than tearing up a little because my butt was on FIRE) truly enjoyed it all. THAT is how my attitude should be for EVERY session. No more punishing myself with exercise. I’m done with that crap. 🙅🏻 once I was done, I made my way home after stretching out, just got in my headbands and a shakey handstand practice (my whole body is so sore 😅), and am SO hungry for lunch right now. I can’t Ben tell you how ready I am for some post-workout fuel! I am having: my classic loaded salad made with baked chicken breast (in African smoke seasoning) over romaine lettuce with carrot, cucumber, garbanzo beans, almonds (raw- my FAVORITE), feta crumbles, organic hummus, and sriracha for the top! 😍👅💦 This is going to be soooo perfect for after that session! I am PUMPED! 🙌🏻 Overall, I am feeling really happy! My breakfast was bomb, my training session was great, my lunch is goin to be delicious, and I get to be home to help my sister and her friend for now! I think we’re going to get our eyebrows done later, too! 👊🏻 I have some kombucha to try later on, but I’ll post that on my story for y’all to see! It’s a minty flavor (I think), so I’m curious to try it! 🤷🏻‍♀️ Anyways, I’d LOVE to hear what you all have planned! Here’s to it! ✨ #foodisfuel  #fuelyourbody  #realfood  #healthyeating  #healthyliving  #healthylifestyle  #gainingweightiscool  #girlgains  #gains  #fitfam  #eatittobeatit  #eatgoodfeelgood  #healthyeats  #fuelyourbody  #foodisfuel  #gainingweightiscool  #norestriction  #morechiaplease 
So tonight I made a #glowbowl 🍲 with broccoli 🥦 and courgette 🥒 fried in aminos 😋 roasted butternut squash, and some absolutely amazing butter beans cooked in garlic, salt, pepper, and parsley 🌿 (tasted like garlic bread 🥖) Today I’ve managed to do quite a lot of work on my painting 🎨☺️ and I’m quite pleased, but shattered sadly 😪 
MTW

I’m only eating around 1000 cals again as my parents are forgetting all my snacks and I’m skimping.... I’m really scared, I have the worst brain fog 🌫 chest pains are getting worse, and I’m exhausted.... ugh I’m so angry with myself. I know I need to sort things out but I feel like I can’t until I get weighed. 
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On the bright side I bumped into my friend, and I haven’t seen her in donkeys years so that was lovely, even tho I worry about her a lot 💕

Stay strong angels 💗

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So tonight I made a #glowbowl  🍲 with broccoli 🥦 and courgette 🥒 fried in aminos 😋 roasted butternut squash, and some absolutely amazing butter beans cooked in garlic, salt, pepper, and parsley 🌿 (tasted like garlic bread 🥖) Today I’ve managed to do quite a lot of work on my painting 🎨☺️ and I’m quite pleased, but shattered sadly 😪 MTW I’m only eating around 1000 cals again as my parents are forgetting all my snacks and I’m skimping.... I’m really scared, I have the worst brain fog 🌫 chest pains are getting worse, and I’m exhausted.... ugh I’m so angry with myself. I know I need to sort things out but I feel like I can’t until I get weighed. ETW On the bright side I bumped into my friend, and I haven’t seen her in donkeys years so that was lovely, even tho I worry about her a lot 💕 Stay strong angels 💗 #edfamily  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #edwontwin  #foodheals  #foodshouldnotbefeared  #foodisfuel  #foodisnottheenemy  #iamnotmyed  #youcandothis  #youarestrongerthanyouthink  #dontgiveup  #fightthethoughts  #nourishnotpunish  #veganeats  #foodphotography  #vegannoms  #iamnotmyed  #strugglingalot  #anarecovery  #eatittobeatit  #deepbreaths  #relapseisnotanoption  #restrictionisnottheanswer  #youarestrongerthanyouthink 
I may or may not be slightly obsessed with cats.... Some day maybe I’ll be able to add kittens of my own to the mix. 
Meow!
I may or may not be slightly obsessed with cats.... Some day maybe I’ll be able to add kittens of my own to the mix. Meow!
all I’ve done this summer is rewatch orange is the new black but no regrets
all I’ve done this summer is rewatch orange is the new black but no regrets
Night snack was branflakes, almond milk and apple! Back to work tomorrow for 3 days and then looking forward to my day off with my bf on sunday! Night all🌛 #snack #nightsnack #kelloggs #branflakes #recovery #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianerovsarecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #edwontwin #edwarrior #edsoildier #edfighter
🇩🇪 Hey Hey! Heute waren wir ja wie gesagt wieder zum #Abendessen bei unserem Lieblingsrestaurant und ich hatte wieder Salzkartoffeln🥔 und einen gemischten Salat🥗. Ich habe ehrlich gesagt nicht so viel zu schreiben, mir geht es nicht ganz so toll heute. Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Abend ihr Lieben!🌻
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🇺🇸 Hello Hello! So as I said we went out to our favourite restaurant for #Dinner tonight. I had salted potatos🥔 and a mixed salad🥗. Tbh I’m not in a really good mood today so I don’t want to write a long caption for now. Have a good night loves!🌻
#Foodblog #Eatingdisorderrecovery #Anorexianervosa #Bulimia #Edrecoveryfamily #Eatittobeatit #Foodisnottheenemy #Iamnot1in5 #selflove #Anawho #bodypositivity #Strongnotskinny #Mentalhealthawareness #Magersucht #Youcandothis #Fight #Selflovewarrior #foodisfuel #nourishtoflourish
🇩🇪 Hey Hey! Heute waren wir ja wie gesagt wieder zum #Abendessen  bei unserem Lieblingsrestaurant und ich hatte wieder Salzkartoffeln🥔 und einen gemischten Salat🥗. Ich habe ehrlich gesagt nicht so viel zu schreiben, mir geht es nicht ganz so toll heute. Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Abend ihr Lieben!🌻 • • 🇺🇸 Hello Hello! So as I said we went out to our favourite restaurant for #Dinner  tonight. I had salted potatos🥔 and a mixed salad🥗. Tbh I’m not in a really good mood today so I don’t want to write a long caption for now. Have a good night loves!🌻 #Foodblog  #Eatingdisorderrecovery  #Anorexianervosa  #Bulimia  #Edrecoveryfamily  #Eatittobeatit  #Foodisnottheenemy  #Iamnot1in5  #selflove  #Anawho  #bodypositivity  #Strongnotskinny  #Mentalhealthawareness  #Magersucht  #Youcandothis  #Fight  #Selflovewarrior  #foodisfuel  #nourishtoflourish 
I managed to eat this yoghurt with one cookie on top today and I ate soup.... TW - 370cals and exercised and burnt 500cals and I did an workout and muscle train so I hope I loose weight 😥  #recoveryishard #fightana #eatittobeatit #anorexia #edfight #anorexicrecovery #recoverywin #fearfood #recoveryisworthit #edfam #tasty #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #fuckana #miarecovery #bulimia #anorexianevosa #hateana #eatingdisorder #relapse #struggle #edstruggles #ed #ana #hatemyeatingdisorder
I managed to eat this yoghurt with one cookie on top today and I ate soup.... TW - 370cals and exercised and burnt 500cals and I did an workout and muscle train so I hope I loose weight 😥 #recoveryishard  #fightana  #eatittobeatit  #anorexia  #edfight  #anorexicrecovery  #recoverywin  #fearfood  #recoveryisworthit  #edfam  #tasty  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorder  #fuckana  #miarecovery  #bulimia  #anorexianevosa  #hateana  #eatingdisorder  #relapse  #struggle  #edstruggles  #ed  #ana  #hatemyeatingdisorder 
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For #dinner I had this large fried beef steak with peas plus the usual sweetened natural yogurt (unpictured).
Good night ✨
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Night snack tonight

Today was one of those days! Work was tough felt like a fish out of water but it is only day two I guess

Then left work got to my bike and found that I had a completely flat back tyre. Cue the really long walk home pushing a bike most of the way to a bike shop.

But yeah one of those days. Potentially one of those weeks cause yesterday was super tough, saying bye to the best gramps i could have ever asked for

#anorexia #anorexianervosa #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eattolive #eattogrow #foodisfuel #adultswitheds #prorecovery #nevergiveup
Night snack tonight Today was one of those days! Work was tough felt like a fish out of water but it is only day two I guess Then left work got to my bike and found that I had a completely flat back tyre. Cue the really long walk home pushing a bike most of the way to a bike shop. But yeah one of those days. Potentially one of those weeks cause yesterday was super tough, saying bye to the best gramps i could have ever asked for #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #eattolive  #eattogrow  #foodisfuel  #adultswitheds  #prorecovery  #nevergiveup 
No Machine Leg & Booty Workout 🍑🔥
Had those days when you have everything planned out but do the total opposite 🤷🏻‍♀️
& If you struggle with single leg deadlifts your going to love the first one! 🙌🏻
TAG A FRIEND 👯‍♀️
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Sin máquinas entrenamiento de piernas y glúteos 🍑🔥
Tenía esos días cuando tienes todo planeado pero haces todo lo contrario 🤷🏻
¡Y si luchas con los deadlifts de una sola pierna, te va a encantar el primer exercisio ! 🙌🏻
👯‍♀️TA️GUEA UNA AMIGA!
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Credit @dianaruizfit  @dianaruizfit
No Machine Leg & Booty Workout 🍑🔥 Had those days when you have everything planned out but do the total opposite 🤷🏻‍♀️ & If you struggle with single leg deadlifts your going to love the first one! 🙌🏻 TAG A FRIEND 👯‍♀️ . Sin máquinas entrenamiento de piernas y glúteos 🍑🔥 Tenía esos días cuando tienes todo planeado pero haces todo lo contrario 🤷🏻 ¡Y si luchas con los deadlifts de una sola pierna, te va a encantar el primer exercisio ! 🙌🏻 👯‍♀️TA️GUEA UNA AMIGA! . . . Credit @dianaruizfit @dianaruizfit
So I'm a bit nervous about writing this post because it's not a subject I've talked about on here before, but it's something that's impacting me massively at the moment and it's also something I feel some people might benefit from hearing.
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Just over a year ago, I was diagnosed with severe osteoporosis. The cause? All the years I've spent underweight, missing periods and just generally not fuelling my body adequately - in other words, the many years I've had suffering from an eating disorder. I won't go into all the numbers and classifications, but essentially my bone density is around 40% lower than what it should be - which means my bones are in an extremely bad way.
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It's taken a while, but I HAVE been making progress. I've put on a significant amount of weight - one of the most important things for trying to build bone mass after an ED - and I've recently regained my periods. But I've also been suffering with more and more back pain and more and more neck pain. I'm still underweight, and just last week? I fractured a rib. From rolling over in bed.
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The pain has been excruciating. I can't move or breathe or cough or sneeze or laugh or even cry without being in agony, which doesn't really leave many options. But worse than the pain has been the feeling of utter hopelessness. As far my weight goes and my relationship with food, I'm in the best place I've been in nearly a decade, but now it feels like too little too late. Is this really what I'm facing? A life where I can't even roll over for fear of breaking a bone? I'm so angry. At the doctors, at myself, at this stupid stupid illness.
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I'm not writing this post just to scare people. I think most people KNOW that if they don't give the bodies the nourishment they need, they will ultimately suffer. Bodies are remarkable things, but they're not magic. I'm not naïve enough to think this post alone will push people to recover, either. I've said it before and I'll say it again: eating disorders are NOT A CHOICE. You can't just decide to be done with one any more than you can decide to get one in the first place. It doesn't work like that. [Cont'd in comments]
So I'm a bit nervous about writing this post because it's not a subject I've talked about on here before, but it's something that's impacting me massively at the moment and it's also something I feel some people might benefit from hearing. 🔹 Just over a year ago, I was diagnosed with severe osteoporosis. The cause? All the years I've spent underweight, missing periods and just generally not fuelling my body adequately - in other words, the many years I've had suffering from an eating disorder. I won't go into all the numbers and classifications, but essentially my bone density is around 40% lower than what it should be - which means my bones are in an extremely bad way. 🔹 It's taken a while, but I HAVE been making progress. I've put on a significant amount of weight - one of the most important things for trying to build bone mass after an ED - and I've recently regained my periods. But I've also been suffering with more and more back pain and more and more neck pain. I'm still underweight, and just last week? I fractured a rib. From rolling over in bed. 🔹 The pain has been excruciating. I can't move or breathe or cough or sneeze or laugh or even cry without being in agony, which doesn't really leave many options. But worse than the pain has been the feeling of utter hopelessness. As far my weight goes and my relationship with food, I'm in the best place I've been in nearly a decade, but now it feels like too little too late. Is this really what I'm facing? A life where I can't even roll over for fear of breaking a bone? I'm so angry. At the doctors, at myself, at this stupid stupid illness. 🔹 I'm not writing this post just to scare people. I think most people KNOW that if they don't give the bodies the nourishment they need, they will ultimately suffer. Bodies are remarkable things, but they're not magic. I'm not naïve enough to think this post alone will push people to recover, either. I've said it before and I'll say it again: eating disorders are NOT A CHOICE. You can't just decide to be done with one any more than you can decide to get one in the first place. It doesn't work like that. [Cont'd in comments]
Dinner was @mortaste chicken 🍗 , sun dried tomato 🍅 and basil sausages, a piece of brown bread, cucumber 🥒 and some plum tomatoes 🍅 
I’ve been rewatching Mamma Mia this evening as hopefully I’m going to see Mamma Mia 2 in the cinema🤞
Hope you have a relaxing evening and have had a good Wednesday 💗

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Dinner was @mortaste chicken 🍗 , sun dried tomato 🍅 and basil sausages, a piece of brown bread, cucumber 🥒 and some plum tomatoes 🍅 I’ve been rewatching Mamma Mia this evening as hopefully I’m going to see Mamma Mia 2 in the cinema🤞 Hope you have a relaxing evening and have had a good Wednesday 💗 #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #edrecovery #nourishnotpunish #healthynothungry #edcommunity #recovery #edwontwin #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #foodisfuel #eatingdisorderrecovery 
#nightsnack was so so good though ngl i felt so stuffed aft that! anyway, i had a packet a strawberry milk🥛 🍓, oatmeal topped with one entire mini tub of peanut butter (!!!!!!! huge fear !!!!!!!!!), a lindt intense orange chocolate, strawberries and passion fruit (which i saved from dinner), three chunky hazelnut cookies 🍪 and then for the last part, swipe to see the pReTtIeSt dessert i’ve had!!! it was a rose almond cream dessert which was so pretty and yummy 👌🏻and today’s oatmeal is by far the best i’ve had 
#afternoonsnack was a challenge of a blueberry sponge cake ice cream sandwich  #anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #anarecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #anorexiafighter #ed #food #foodisfuel #nutrients #calories #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny
#nightsnack  was so so good though ngl i felt so stuffed aft that! anyway, i had a packet a strawberry milk🥛 🍓, oatmeal topped with one entire mini tub of peanut butter (!!!!!!! huge fear !!!!!!!!!), a lindt intense orange chocolate, strawberries and passion fruit (which i saved from dinner), three chunky hazelnut cookies 🍪 and then for the last part, swipe to see the pReTtIeSt dessert i’ve had!!! it was a rose almond cream dessert which was so pretty and yummy 👌🏻and today’s oatmeal is by far the best i’ve had #afternoonsnack  was a challenge of a blueberry sponge cake ice cream sandwich #anorexiarecovery  #edwarrior  #anarecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexiafighter  #ed  #food  #foodisfuel  #nutrients  #calories  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny 
I wish I liked to cook. I’ve tried to like to cook. The reality is I just don’t - so the easier prep the better for me.
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I’ve recently added vanilla protein, peanut butter, banana smoothies as a snack because I want more protein in my life. I also recently decided to go purchase a reusable straw to do my small part in helping the planet.
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Then I found this pineapple bottle instead and, well, the rest is history. Happy drinking 🍍!!!
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I wish I liked to cook. I’ve tried to like to cook. The reality is I just don’t - so the easier prep the better for me. . I’ve recently added vanilla protein, peanut butter, banana smoothies as a snack because I want more protein in my life. I also recently decided to go purchase a reusable straw to do my small part in helping the planet. . Then I found this pineapple bottle instead and, well, the rest is history. Happy drinking 🍍!!! . Join me with your reasons for recovery using #letscountthereasons  . . . #alwaysabeing  #recovery  #recoverycoach  #recoverycoaching  #edfree  #edfighter  #edfam  #edsolider  #edsurvivor  #recoverywarriors  #prorecovery  #recoverywarrior  #antianaclub  #recoveryisworthit  #edwontwin  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryforlife  #bedrecovery  #ednosrecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #beatana  #bopo  #bodylove  #recovered  #edrecovered  #recoveryhope  #ilovepeanutbutter  #ihatecooking  #eatittobeatit 
this was my dinner and fuck it looked great and tasted great 😍😍 so i have some FULL FAT HUMMUS (i always used to have reduced if i had a choice), an avocado, cherry tomatoes, falafels and a mix of spinach and peas (it’s great, trust me) 🥑🍅 anxiety is through the roof both about food and results day (next thursday for me) ngl im just anxious 24/7 atm and i havent felt this anxious since exams tbh so things arent too good tbh x
this was my dinner and fuck it looked great and tasted great 😍😍 so i have some FULL FAT HUMMUS (i always used to have reduced if i had a choice), an avocado, cherry tomatoes, falafels and a mix of spinach and peas (it’s great, trust me) 🥑🍅 anxiety is through the roof both about food and results day (next thursday for me) ngl im just anxious 24/7 atm and i havent felt this anxious since exams tbh so things arent too good tbh x
#snack is a slice of toast with strawberry jam my favourite a @fiberone lemon bar and of course a cup of tea with one sugar and milk.
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Hope everyone's day has been/is good.😊😊
#snack  is a slice of toast with strawberry jam my favourite a @fiberone lemon bar and of course a cup of tea with one sugar and milk. . Hope everyone's day has been/is good.😊😊
Told you night snack would pretty much be back to back... it makes me feel like garbage and I will probably work it off... it was a cocoa twist bar and I just hate myself for it and just wished all these timings would be perfect again... #eatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #recovery #edrecovery #ed #food #eatittobeatit
Hello everyone 🥗
Yummy lunch described as “beautiful” by a @so_and_sew1 (: was avocado, spinach, hummus, cucumber, orange pepper and @goshfreefrom falafels!
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Hello everyone 🥗 Yummy lunch described as “beautiful” by a @so_and_sew1 (: was avocado, spinach, hummus, cucumber, orange pepper and @goshfreefrom falafels! • • • • #spinach  #cucumber  #avocado  #falafels  #gosh  #greatfooduk  #hummus  #hummusaddict  #beautifulfood  #pepper  #orangepepper  #veggie  #vegan  #vegetarian  #lunch  #veggielunch  #veganlunch  #vegetarianlunch  #edrecovered  #anorexiarecovered  #eatittobeatit  #counthappinessnotcalories  #prerunlunch  #nourishdontpunish  #bethebiggerbully 
morninggg! i have now been in school a full week and am desperately craving fall. i want pumpkin spice! and orange leaves! anyway, things are pretty good rn and i’m hoping to keep them that way. this time last year i was deep into my ed and i am not going back to that. i whipped up this breakfast in response to my desperate need for autumn!
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morninggg! i have now been in school a full week and am desperately craving fall. i want pumpkin spice! and orange leaves! anyway, things are pretty good rn and i’m hoping to keep them that way. this time last year i was deep into my ed and i am not going back to that. i whipped up this breakfast in response to my desperate need for autumn! - bfast 👉 pumpkin spiced oats with almond butter
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I've had a very bad day 😓 
TW i ondly managed to ate 710 kcal and i've burned 250 of those i feel like a failure. TWE

But i hope tomorrow will be better 😥🤗 #anorexia #Anorexie #Anorexianervosa #ed #edwarrior #edfighter #recovery #recovering #recover #progress #Magersucht #sport #fit #fitness #healthy #eat #Magersuchtrecovery #exercise #fitness #eatittobeatit #stronger #Anorexic #relapse
I feel like when i make pasta it's normally more sauce than pasta! You feel me?
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Here are 2 stages of recovery!
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1.Food is fuel
Here is when you have to literally  force yourself to eat meals or snacks and have to keep reminding yourself that food is your medicine. This normally is most present at the beginning of recovery or in a relapse.
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2. Food is so much more than fuel
This is normally only in the end of recovery. It's when you understand that eating wholefoods etc are good for your body and fuel you but you learn that food is memories with family and friends. It's taste and feeding your SOUL. 🍩It's nostaglia when you eat your favourite childhood snack. It's when you understand that you eat 5 meals in a day or only 1 because of your time schedule! Food can be your medicine/fuel in recovery or when you are ill but as soon as you learn that food is so much than that, is the moment that you truly start living!
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I feel like when i make pasta it's normally more sauce than pasta! You feel me? ' Here are 2 stages of recovery! ' 1.Food is fuel Here is when you have to literally force yourself to eat meals or snacks and have to keep reminding yourself that food is your medicine. This normally is most present at the beginning of recovery or in a relapse. ' 2. Food is so much more than fuel This is normally only in the end of recovery. It's when you understand that eating wholefoods etc are good for your body and fuel you but you learn that food is memories with family and friends. It's taste and feeding your SOUL. 🍩It's nostaglia when you eat your favourite childhood snack. It's when you understand that you eat 5 meals in a day or only 1 because of your time schedule! Food can be your medicine/fuel in recovery or when you are ill but as soon as you learn that food is so much than that, is the moment that you truly start living! #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #anawarrior  #beatana  #2fab4ana  #anasucks  #anafighter  #eatittobeatit  #prorecovery  #recoverymotivation  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodinspo  #healthyeating  #balancednotclean  #strongnotskinny  #vegan  #whatveganseat  #veganeats  #veganfoodshare  #veganinspo  #veganfoodporn  #nourishnotpunish  #nourish2flourish  #strongnotskinny  #thrivenotsurvive 
Snacking earlier:
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Sometimes I wish I could just have press a button and make all of this go away. Make all the pain stop and the struggling cease. I want there to be an easy way out but as time has gone past I’ve realised there is only one way out, and that is through it. But that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. We can either let recovery break us or we can let it make us. We can take stuff from it and flourish. Although recovery is the hardest process you may go through, it may also be the most worthwhile. You learn about yourself and what you have to look forward to in the future, you learn what’s worth fighting for, you learn to love yourself. These are some of the most important lessons you can learn. So don’t feel ashamed in recovery, because when you fail at being anorexic you win at life 🏆
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Stay strong everyone 💛
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Snacking earlier: -chocolate buttons 🍫 • Sometimes I wish I could just have press a button and make all of this go away. Make all the pain stop and the struggling cease. I want there to be an easy way out but as time has gone past I’ve realised there is only one way out, and that is through it. But that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. We can either let recovery break us or we can let it make us. We can take stuff from it and flourish. Although recovery is the hardest process you may go through, it may also be the most worthwhile. You learn about yourself and what you have to look forward to in the future, you learn what’s worth fighting for, you learn to love yourself. These are some of the most important lessons you can learn. So don’t feel ashamed in recovery, because when you fail at being anorexic you win at life 🏆 • Stay strong everyone 💛 #anorexia  #bodydysmorphia  #anxietydisorder  #anorexiarecovery  #edfam  #edcommunity  #strongnotskinny  #nourishtoflourish  #eatittobeatit  #blogger  #foodblogger  #lifestyleblogger  #youtuber  #foodambassador  #foodporn  #anasucks  #ed  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryforboobs  #prorecovery  #positivebean  #bethechange  #staystrong 
(This may be triggering for some 💕) In both of these photos I am struggling. But on the left, I was one month into ‘recovery’- I was constantly skimping on food, lying to my family and secretly exercising. On the right I am putting up a fight, challenging thoughts and learning to nourish my body. Looking at these photos, I’ve seen how far I’ve come not only physically but mentally. In 7 months Ive been able to gain 6kg & I have 7kg to go until I’m weight restored :) it has been a very bumpy road but I’ve made it this far and grown as a person because of it. I still have far to go mentally but I’m not as spaced out, cold and anxious as I used to be. I have made many achievements, from holding a conversation with someone to challenging fear foods which have made me stronger and happier. Though I am napping a lot (which is a huge win for me) I have more energy to do things like going out to see my friends and going for little walks down my street. On the left, I was almost sleep walking everywhere, my long, tiring walks and runs were fuelled by only a couple grapes or half of a small apple. I have now learnt to fuel my body properly on active and non active days. I’m going to keep going, I will fight through my relapse urges, re-feed my body and see where it takes me. / I hope you’ve had a lovely day 💛 (I was really nervous to post this) 
#ed #edrecovery #edfam #edsoldier #edsoldier #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anawho #anorexia #anaisnotme #anafighter #anarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiafighter #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiawarrior #nourishnotpunish #nourishtoflourish
(This may be triggering for some 💕) In both of these photos I am struggling. But on the left, I was one month into ‘recovery’- I was constantly skimping on food, lying to my family and secretly exercising. On the right I am putting up a fight, challenging thoughts and learning to nourish my body. Looking at these photos, I’ve seen how far I’ve come not only physically but mentally. In 7 months Ive been able to gain 6kg & I have 7kg to go until I’m weight restored :) it has been a very bumpy road but I’ve made it this far and grown as a person because of it. I still have far to go mentally but I’m not as spaced out, cold and anxious as I used to be. I have made many achievements, from holding a conversation with someone to challenging fear foods which have made me stronger and happier. Though I am napping a lot (which is a huge win for me) I have more energy to do things like going out to see my friends and going for little walks down my street. On the left, I was almost sleep walking everywhere, my long, tiring walks and runs were fuelled by only a couple grapes or half of a small apple. I have now learnt to fuel my body properly on active and non active days. I’m going to keep going, I will fight through my relapse urges, re-feed my body and see where it takes me. / I hope you’ve had a lovely day 💛 (I was really nervous to post this) #ed  #edrecovery  #edfam  #edsoldier  #edsoldier  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anawho  #anorexia  #anaisnotme  #anafighter  #anarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiafighter  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #nourishnotpunish  #nourishtoflourish 
Dinner was insanely late to the point where I thought of skipping it like what's the point? It was sweet potato and chickpea soup and a fruit salad.

This was only meant to be a light meal but I still feel stuffed as hell. I just feel like I'll explode.

We went boat sighting after snack and had a longgg drive back.

#eatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #recovery #edrecovery #ed #food #eatittobeatit
Dinner was insanely late to the point where I thought of skipping it like what's the point? It was sweet potato and chickpea soup and a fruit salad. This was only meant to be a light meal but I still feel stuffed as hell. I just feel like I'll explode. We went boat sighting after snack and had a longgg drive back. #eatingdisorder  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #edrecovery  #ed  #food  #eatittobeatit 
TW IF YOU SWIPE!!!! So I’m eating for the first time today right now. I moved into my new apartment yesterday. It’s beautiful here and I live on a golf course. However, with my new apartment comes all these new mirrors. I’m alone here too. It’s scary because I’m scared of myself. The pictures of me were taken last night. I didn’t recognize myself in these new mirrors. Am I actually sick? What scares me is that I’ve learned to live like this with my eating disorder that prolonged starvation, avoidance of non fruits and veggies, and needing to exercise has become completely NORMALIZED for me. I did not think I had a serious problem. I feel fine most of the time. In my opinion my body looks healthy and I want to lose weight. Then last night, I looked in the mirrors here all alone in my new place and it all hit me. Maybe I need some serious help. .
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TW IF YOU SWIPE!!!! So I’m eating for the first time today right now. I moved into my new apartment yesterday. It’s beautiful here and I live on a golf course. However, with my new apartment comes all these new mirrors. I’m alone here too. It’s scary because I’m scared of myself. The pictures of me were taken last night. I didn’t recognize myself in these new mirrors. Am I actually sick? What scares me is that I’ve learned to live like this with my eating disorder that prolonged starvation, avoidance of non fruits and veggies, and needing to exercise has become completely NORMALIZED for me. I did not think I had a serious problem. I feel fine most of the time. In my opinion my body looks healthy and I want to lose weight. Then last night, I looked in the mirrors here all alone in my new place and it all hit me. Maybe I need some serious help. . . . . #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #recovery  #mentalhealth  #edrecovery  #health  #wellness  #prorecovery  #anarecovery  #foodisfuel  #eatittobeatit  #bodypositive  #bodiposi  #morethananumber  #foodie  #inspiration  #healthylifestyle  #vegan  #veganeats  #veganrecovery  #plantbased  #plantpowered  #anorexia  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #juicing  #smoothie  #watermelon 
Lunch today was absolutely amazing- Apple & Peanut Butter Oatmeal🤤
I haven’t eaten Oatmeal since my mum took over my meals which was over a month ago, so this was especially good because I had been craving it for so long! #ed #edrecovery #recovery #recoveryroad #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosaawareness #eatittobeatit #bodypositivity
Afternoon snack is a few frozen watermelon cubes and some trail mix I threw together with popcorn, kashi cereal, and nuts! Also had the two more of the belvita biscuits (unpictured)
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I’m feeling a little guilty because it feels like I’m eating a lot to Ana but I know I’m just eating a little of a bunch of different things. And my extreme hunger is really bad right now.
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#recoveryisworthit #eatittobeatit #recovertolive #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recoveryishard
Afternoon snack is a few frozen watermelon cubes and some trail mix I threw together with popcorn, kashi cereal, and nuts! Also had the two more of the belvita biscuits (unpictured) - I’m feeling a little guilty because it feels like I’m eating a lot to Ana but I know I’m just eating a little of a bunch of different things. And my extreme hunger is really bad right now. - #recoveryisworthit  #eatittobeatit  #recovertolive  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #recoveryishard 
#nightsnack 😊 etwas Gemüse schadet nie ... Vor allem als Lückenfüller nicht👌
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Ich habe mich etwas ausgeruht und jetzt lese ich noch etwas bevor ich dann mein Schulzeug für morgen packe 😇🙈...wir haben morgen 2 Stunden Sport bei einem meiner Lieblingslehrer 😁...das wird super😉😂...bin schon gespannt was er zum Einstieg in das neue Schuljahr machen möchte 😏
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#nightsnack  😊 etwas Gemüse schadet nie ... Vor allem als Lückenfüller nicht👌 . Ich habe mich etwas ausgeruht und jetzt lese ich noch etwas bevor ich dann mein Schulzeug für morgen packe 😇🙈...wir haben morgen 2 Stunden Sport bei einem meiner Lieblingslehrer 😁...das wird super😉😂...bin schon gespannt was er zum Einstieg in das neue Schuljahr machen möchte 😏 . #anorexia  #anorexialoses  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiawontwin  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ana  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #recoverylose  #recovery  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eattolive  #strongnotskinny 
Middag som jag gjorde nyss👇
Linsbiffar, en blandning av spenat och grönkål, quinoa, paprika och SÅS på turkisk youghurt och vitlök😁

Jag har känt mig så konstig hela dagen idag, varit trött, orkeslös och inte haft någon energi till någonting. Så innan funderade jag på om jag kanske inte fått i mig tillräckligt med protein och de näringsämne jag behöver som vegetarian på sistone? Jag vet inte, men jag bestämde mig iallafall för att göra en riktigt bra och näringsrik middag😊 TILL OCH MED MED SÅS, för jag vet att jag behöver det även om det tar emot!

Jag känner verkligen att jag vill bli frisk just nu. Jag vill bli frisk så att jag kan få börja träna och bli vegan. Det är vad som inspirerar mig och får mig att fortsätta👊

#äs #ätstörning #ed #eatingdisorder #edrec #edrecovery #fuckana #battle #food #recovery #eatittobeatit #snack #dinner
Middag som jag gjorde nyss👇 Linsbiffar, en blandning av spenat och grönkål, quinoa, paprika och SÅS på turkisk youghurt och vitlök😁 Jag har känt mig så konstig hela dagen idag, varit trött, orkeslös och inte haft någon energi till någonting. Så innan funderade jag på om jag kanske inte fått i mig tillräckligt med protein och de näringsämne jag behöver som vegetarian på sistone? Jag vet inte, men jag bestämde mig iallafall för att göra en riktigt bra och näringsrik middag😊 TILL OCH MED MED SÅS, för jag vet att jag behöver det även om det tar emot! Jag känner verkligen att jag vill bli frisk just nu. Jag vill bli frisk så att jag kan få börja träna och bli vegan. Det är vad som inspirerar mig och får mig att fortsätta👊 #äs  #ätstörning  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #edrec  #edrecovery  #fuckana  #battle  #food  #recovery  #eatittobeatit  #snack  #dinner 
No exaggeration, this Galaxy Ripple has been sat in my fridge for about 5 months waiting for me to eat it 😂 I used to eat them all the time but it has been years and years since I allowed myself one. So tonight was finally the night that I tackled it for pudding and it was every bit as delicious as I remember! I sense Ripples night might feature heavily in my future recovery.... #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #chocolateislife #galaxychocolateisthebest #pudding #fuckyouana #recovery #recoverywin #fearfood #recoveryisworthit
No exaggeration, this Galaxy Ripple has been sat in my fridge for about 5 months waiting for me to eat it 😂 I used to eat them all the time but it has been years and years since I allowed myself one. So tonight was finally the night that I tackled it for pudding and it was every bit as delicious as I remember! I sense Ripples night might feature heavily in my future recovery.... #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #chocolateislife  #galaxychocolateisthebest  #pudding  #fuckyouana  #recovery  #recoverywin  #fearfood  #recoveryisworthit 
#Dinner was tuna steak with broccoli, asparagus and 4 potato smilies 🐟🥦🙂 #anorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit #healthy #edrecovery
Good morning everyone. It’s gonna be a good day💕 - Having an Apple, Almond butter, and a Strawberry Banana Smoothie🍓🍌🍎🥜
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Good morning everyone. It’s gonna be a good day💕 - Having an Apple, Almond butter, and a Strawberry Banana Smoothie🍓🍌🍎🥜 - - - does anyone else feel like life isn’t really real and you don’t actually have a future cuz that’s how I feel lately🙃 I know it stinks but one day we’ll all find true happiness with our lives - - - - - #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #breakfast  #apple  #almondbutter  #smoothie  #strawberrybanana  #nakedjuice  #ateitall  #allfoodisgoodfood 
Dinner tonight was tildas mushroom rice, crabsticks and a cherry Bakerwell mullerlight! #dinner #recovery #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexianerovsarecovery #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #edwontwin
Tonight’s dinner were these amazing cheese spaghetti with rucola and tomatoes 🍅😋 Now i‘ll probably watch some Netflix as im home alone, have a good evening guys 💗💗 ————————————————— #ana #anorexia #eatittobeatit #food #recovery #ed #recoveryisworthit #spaghetti #tomatoes #rucola #cheese #🍅 #🧀
🌟my #nightsnack tonight is a #mango and #apple school bar and a cup of #fullfat milk(!!!!)
🌟my mind isnt a fun place to be
🌟i wish it was but its not
🌟i have a lot of things that i remember but i really dont want to 🌟and i also have a lot of things i cant remember that i wish i could
🌟sometimes when im really low, my mind sends this pain down to the rest of my body
🌟and it feels like a black hole, engulfing me
🌟and it bloomin hurts
🌟people always say "tell me what i can do to help" 🌟and the answer is always i dont know
🌟because if there was any chance of me stopping this pain, i would
🌟but theres nothing
🌟i cant do anything to stop the hurt
🌟maybe some day ill heal
🌟when you get a pain it hurts but then it dies down or you get used to it
🌟so im just left here, just waiting to see what will happen
💗Stay safe and have a good evening💗
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🌟my #nightsnack  tonight is a #mango  and #apple  school bar and a cup of #fullfat  milk(!!!!) 🌟my mind isnt a fun place to be 🌟i wish it was but its not 🌟i have a lot of things that i remember but i really dont want to 🌟and i also have a lot of things i cant remember that i wish i could 🌟sometimes when im really low, my mind sends this pain down to the rest of my body 🌟and it feels like a black hole, engulfing me 🌟and it bloomin hurts 🌟people always say "tell me what i can do to help" 🌟and the answer is always i dont know 🌟because if there was any chance of me stopping this pain, i would 🌟but theres nothing 🌟i cant do anything to stop the hurt 🌟maybe some day ill heal 🌟when you get a pain it hurts but then it dies down or you get used to it 🌟so im just left here, just waiting to see what will happen 💗Stay safe and have a good evening💗 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anasucks  #dontletanorexiawin  #goawayana  #beatana  #food  #eat  #eatittobeatit  #foodshouldnotbefeared  #freefromed  #foodismedicine  #depression  #recovery  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #prorecovery  #foodislife  #nourishtoflourish  #nourishnotpunish  #food  #eat  #snackandsmile  #mentalhealth 
Instagram vs. reality. Both are me just at different moments, different angles. Don’t compare yourself to what you see on instagram. Behind every yogi’s instagram are unseen moments that look more like the second picture. But we should embrace these “imperfect” moments as well. They’re all part of life. Just because they aren’t perfect, does not mean they aren’t valuable or worth celebrating. 
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Instagram vs. reality. Both are me just at different moments, different angles. Don’t compare yourself to what you see on instagram. Behind every yogi’s instagram are unseen moments that look more like the second picture. But we should embrace these “imperfect” moments as well. They’re all part of life. Just because they aren’t perfect, does not mean they aren’t valuable or worth celebrating. Tags - - - - - - - - #mindfulness  #breathing  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #recoverywin  #bulking  #selflove  #instafit  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #healthylifestyle  #holistichealth  #protein  #training  #train  #weightrestored  #yoga  #fit  #fitness  #fitnessmotivation  #fitfam  #healthy  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #yogi  #dairyfree  #intuitive  #fearfoodchallenge  #intuitiveeating  #camelpose  #imperfect 
White nectarine pie 😋
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