Soo, dass war heute Abend mein #nightsnack ich hatte vorher noch einen anderen, der hat mir aber leider garnicht geschmeckt. Zum Glück war ich heute noch bei Kaufland und hab mir noch das Eis von @oppobrothersde mitgenommen.
Ich muss sagen, dass ich ein wenig skeptisch war, weil ich mir dachte, dass das Eis im Vergleich zu anderen Vanilleeis deutlich weniger Kalorien hat. Bei vielen von diesen kalorien/carb/fett reduzierten, gehypten Lebensmitteln denk Ich mir : was für ein Murks, das schmeckt einfach scheiße und auch wenn es gesagt wird, dass es genauso schmeckt, wie die Vollfett ect Sachen ist dad Schwachsinn.
Ich hab mir eine lange Zeit auch immer eingeredet das schmeckt gleich oder vielleicht sogar besser um einfach weniger Kalorien, Kohlenhydrate etc zu mir zunehmen. Mittlerweile greife ich immernoch ab und zu darauf zurück, aber ernähre mich eben nicht mehr nur noch von diesen Lebensmitteln.
Das Eis von Oppo war für mich nicht nur aufgrund dessen interessant, sondern einfach weil ich es mal ausprobieren wollte, um zu sehen ob ich ihm auch den Stempel : "Hat zwar 60% weniger Fett, aber schmeckt auch Scheiße " geben werde, oder ob es wirklich gut schmeckt.
Ich muss sagen, ich bin nicht der größte Vanilleeis-Fan, aber dieses Eis ist das geilste Vanilleeis was ich je gegessen hab😂😂 und das sage ich nicht um es mir einzureden, damit ich nicht auf die höher kalorischen Dinge zurückgreife, sondern weil es einfach mega lecker war🤤
Soo eigentlich wollte ich hier aber garkeine Eisreview machen, sondern von meinem Tag erzählen, aber ich bin echt ultra müde, ich denke ich mach das Morgen, also Gute Nacht!💗🌚
Wanted to make a post about something I'm also still struggling with. Body dysmorphia.
Shoutout to all those people who also struggle with this shit.
So yes, I'm weight restored Buuut this doesn't mean I'm "cured". Sometimes I have those days we're body dysmorphia is hitting me really hard and I feel like poop. I just focuse on a special body part or parts and this gets bigger and bigger and looks gross. (I think the ones who also got it will know this feeling). One example was this morning. I got dressed up and looked into the mirror. I didn't saw my whole me, I was just focusing on the weight I gained. Expecially on my thights. Buuut there is a place in my head where I know this is wrong, where I know I'm not fat. I may have gained weight but that's a good thing. All in all I want to tell you that I still have those bad days even I don't post about it that much. I just try to get thought it, not focuse on this part of my life.
The last days were hard again because I dealt a bit with extreme hunger and so on and I started thinking about restricting again. But everyday I choose recovery again and tell myself to not restrict. I think that's the point. Choosing it over and over until this part isn't in your life anymore. I've made so many accomplishments in my recovery. I have days where I don't count calories, I have days where I eat more than 3000+ cals even I'm weight restored, I'm not restricting anymore. I'm not stepping on the scale anymore. Yes I still have fears. I'm not perfect and also not recovered. But this is my journey and I will go on with this 🙌💪🏻
BTW maybe going to post more often again :) (of I have time to)
Been a shit day so TW didn’t end up having the fruit from breakfast, morning snack I skipped, lunch I only had half the sandwich, afternoon snack I only had the pot of custard, dinner is pictured I left most of the egg as my mum hid cheese in it, night snack was a biscuit and a custard pot
Hit 2000 💪 Nightsnack is a hot choc (10g options + 200ml Semi skimmed milk) 🍫🥛 80g Strawberries 🍓 Toast with 10g flora light 🍞Rice pudding pot 🍚🥛And a digestive chocolate flapjack 🍫
Feeling guilty about the flapjack because my head is convincing me it’s “empty calories” 😕
Evening all 💕 another good day! It’s been a bit harder today as the ward has been quite loud and distressing but I’m really trying to just remember I am here for me and I’m on my own recovery journey. I get so easily triggered and around dinner time shit kicked off and I had so many chances to duck into the bathroom or run out the front door... but I didn’t. I was SO tempted too... but I just thought about how far I’ve come and how proud I’m making everyone- including myself. So I sat with the urges, yes there was tears but it passed and I’m looking forward to a new day tomorrow too 😊
I have my ward round tomorrow and for the first time I’m actually excited for it as I’ve done SO well if I do say so myself😜😆 I had a one to one with my named nurse, who is my age & I can relate to her in many ways and she said to me “as a nurse you are making me so proud” and my psychologist also said “you’ve come leaps and bounds in just a week” it’s so good hearing praise from your treatment team 😇😋
I went to a group on my own today... it was literally just me and the art therapist haha! But I made this vision board. I went for the idea of what would I be giving up if I kept this eating disorder. Little spark of motivation to see on my bedroom wall 💜✨ I’m going to one group a day now😌 literally never been to one until this week. I feel like a whole new Luce!!
I’m going to ask if I can go on the walks they do morning and afternoon tomorrow, also ask for reduced hour after time as atm it’s 1 hour and a half and I feel im able to manage it just for the hour and not have strong urges. I’m also going to ask for time out on Friday with my aunty(s) 😆 feel like I can actually ask things now haha!! Still having to choose recovery every single day but that’s okay because I am STRONG enough 💪🏼
Just had a shower, put my lush sleepy moisturiser on, got my jammies on and about to have supper. Sweet dreams all♥️ keep fighting for a life of FREEDOM & HEALTH as we all deserve it. Each and every one of us. Love Lucy xo
My boyfriend and I went to the Christmas Markets on Monday evening and it was absolutely perfect. Not going to lie I’m feeling incredibly festive now and CAN’T wait until Christmas🎄✨
While I didn’t build up the courage to try any of the food I’m still glad I made the effort to go and experience it. It seriously was so lovely to even just walk around all of the stalls.
It was even more amazing to watch my boyfriend try all of the food. Not going to lie...I was kinda in awe of him. He saw what he wanted, had it and didn’t think twice about it. In the space of about 30minutes he’d had chocolate covered strawberries, a chilli hotdog AND a hot chocolate with marshmallows and cream. And he even then went home and had a normal dinner afterwards. There was no restricting, no crazy day at the gym, no compensating. He just simply lived in the moment and I can’t wait until I can join in with him. Thankfully the markets run basically right up until Christmas so I’m determined to at least try one thing by the time December rolls around🤞🏻
day 33 lunch outing: some sushi 🍱with tofu, cucumber 🥒, and avocado 🥑, and a side of edamame and i finished it all but 3 of the sushi’s!! also got some vegan dark chocolate ice cream for dessert and I FINISHED IT ALL! that’s the first dessert i’ve ever finished AND it was on an outing!! it was good even though it was a little salty because i was crying into it 😂
Hallo meine Lieben! Hier seht ihr mein Frühstück das ich letzte Woche zuhause hatte 😍
Da konnte ich etwas länger als nur übers Wochenende nach Hause fahren und es war einerseits echt schön, aber ich habe auch gemerkt, wie es mir nicht wirklich gut ging so "lange" wieder da zu sein...Ich bin dann immer total gestresst, obwohl ich meine Familie ja echt über ALLES liebe...hat die Erfahrung auch schon mal jemand gemacht?
Breakfast was porridge! 🌿🐰 made out of almond milk (40ml) oats (22g) cinnamon and one piece of 70% dark chocolate
Easy and delicious because I’m presenting finals at the university ☕️
El desayuno fue porridge/ colada! 🌿🐰 la hice con leche de almendras (40ml) avena (22g) canela y una pieza de chocolate oscuro al 70%
Fácil y delicioso ya que estoy presentando finales en la universidad
2015 -> 2017 -> 2018
God taking pics of your own back is a skill I do not possess 😂 Had a lovely weekend in terms of seeing lots of family & friends, but physically I’ve been feeling so weak, having to sit down several times after breakfast whilst putting my make up on because I’m weak and dizzy, stairs making my legs ache like crazy. Trying to use myself as motivation, this time last year I was about half a stone lower than the NHS BMI calculator says I should be but I was more or less at a healthy weight and had so much more energy to exercise and do the things I love and no less body confident than now even at almost a stone and a half (ish) heavier. Trying to use the weak feelings as motivation to be less strict on myself, I want to be able to make the ladies at Zumba jealous again with my constant jumping around 😝 #tt#edfam#transformationtuesday#fitfam#instafit#edrecovery#instahealth#eatittobeatit#bikini#beach#wellness#mindfulness#anorexiarecovery#foodismedicine#adultswitheds#tuesday#motivation
I feel like the ED is trying to capitalise on the fact I didn't manage to gain this week - it's been one of those days where it feels like there's a massive brick wall "NO" against eating. And it's bloody frustrating because I keep thinking how there's no real reason why today should be extra challenging; it feels like going backwards and like I'm a failure.
On days like this we have two choices. We can get drawn into a narrative of "not good enough at recovery so there's no point trying" - and the ED wins. Or we can respond to its nos with a great big yes, and power on through. Bite, chew, swallow, repeat.
Much love to anyone struggling today 💜
Image reposted from @theblossomrevo1
Hey ihr ❤
Sorry, dass ich mich so wenig melde und so wenig Nachrichten beantworte aber ich bin zurzeit viel unterwegs und unter der Woche meistens erst gegen 6 Uhr zuhause ❤ aber ich werde am Wochenende wieder eure Nachrichten beantworten ☺
Ich hoffe ihr hattet einen schönen tag🙃
GEIL, GEIL GEIL🤤🤤
Ich bin grade erst nach Huase gekommen und hab gesehen, dass meine Sachen die ich bei @mymuesli bestellt habe angekommen sind😍 ich freu mich da so drauf, hab auch schon mal ein bisschen probiert, die schmecken soo gut. Ich dachte mal, ich mach das, weil Müsli für mich irgendwie echt schwierig ist, ich aber auf der Suche nach nem guten Müsli war und jetzt hab ich gleich so viel, außerdem fand ich die Idee, dass man sich da einen eigenen Spruch draufdrucken lasaen kann mega schön, da habe ich direkt mal was motivierendes genommen!
Ein Post zu meinem Tagesablauf kommt später, muss erst noch einiges für die Schule machen🙄
BREAKFAST: @one1brands peanut butter chocolate cake.
What a flavour!! Haha!! Was delicious- wish I hadn’t been driving so I could of taken a pic of the bar. Had this lovely pattern on the top! I’m not sure I’ve tried one of these before but it was bloody great and I’ll defo be having another!! PS: can we all take note that I’m driving today.... I’m over trains! 🤣