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Every person living with anxiety is an anxiety warrior. This illness is horrible can zap you of all energy and will, it takes so much strength each day to live with anxiety and people should be recognised as warriors! .
Each and every one of you is an #anxietywarrior!
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthsupport #stigma #anxiety #depression #panicattack #bpd #bipolar #eatingdisorder #recovery #beatingagoraphobia #beatinganxiety #selflove #mentalwellness #selfcare #insta #instagram #life #instapic #timetotalk #mentalhealthwarrior #motivation #instagood #suicideprevention #likeforfollow
Every person living with anxiety is an anxiety warrior. This illness is horrible can zap you of all energy and will, it takes so much strength each day to live with anxiety and people should be recognised as warriors! . Each and every one of you is an #anxietywarrior ! . . . #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealthsupport  #stigma  #anxiety  #depression  #panicattack  #bpd  #bipolar  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #beatingagoraphobia  #beatinganxiety  #selflove  #mentalwellness  #selfcare  #insta  #instagram  #life  #instapic  #timetotalk  #mentalhealthwarrior  #motivation  #instagood  #suicideprevention  #likeforfollow 
📑Story Teil 6📑
😊Hey ihr Lieben,

Mein Nightsnack 🌛 ist Milchreis mit Banane und Kakao.

Ich möchte endlich meine Geschichte fertig erzählen😅, also Mal wieder ein Story-Post.

Letztes Mal habe ich damit aufgehört, das ich von meiner Ärztin in eine Klinik🏥 überwiesen wurde.

Ich bin direkt als Notfall dort aufgenommen worden, erstmal auf der normalen Kinderstation. Dort wurden meine Vitalwerte über einen Monitor dokumentiert. 
Ich bekam ganz normales Essen🍽, da erstmal alle körperlichen Ursachen für mein Untergewicht ausgeschlossen werden mussten😕, bevor es offiziell als psychisch eingestuft werden konnte. Da es aber quasi kein Gemüse🌽🍆 gab, habe ich an dem Tag fast nichts gegessen.
Nachts musste ich auf die Intensivstation, da mein Puls dort besser kontrolliert werden konnte. Dieser war so schlecht, dass ich des öfteren nachts aufgeweckt wurde😳, damit mein Herz nicht im Schlaf aufhört zu schlagen.

Am nächsten Tag wurde ich in die psychomatische Kinderstation aufgenommen, auf der ich dann 8 Wochen war. Dort musste ich anfangs auch dauerhaft mit dem Monitor kontrolliert werden😬 und nachts zum schlafen auf die Intensivstation.

Einen kleinen Einblick in meinen Krankenhausaufenthalt🏥 bekommt ihr dann nächstes Mal, aber ich werde nicht allzuviel darüber schreiben, denn es gäbe zwar enorm viel zu erzählen💬, aber ich rede ungerne darüber😓. Wenn ihr allerdings mehr darüber erfahren wollt, würde ich das schon auch hinbekommen.

Habt noch einen schönen Tag❤. #anorexia #ana #anorexie #esrecovery #edrecovery #edwarior #essstörung #magersucht #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryishard #recoveryisworthit #fightforrecovery #fightana #whatieat #whatieatinaday #mystory
#storytime #story #geschichte #milchreis #klinik #krankenhaus #psyche #banane #schokolade #herbst #therapie #nightsnack #snack
📑Story Teil 6📑 😊Hey ihr Lieben, Mein Nightsnack 🌛 ist Milchreis mit Banane und Kakao. Ich möchte endlich meine Geschichte fertig erzählen😅, also Mal wieder ein Story-Post. Letztes Mal habe ich damit aufgehört, das ich von meiner Ärztin in eine Klinik🏥 überwiesen wurde. Ich bin direkt als Notfall dort aufgenommen worden, erstmal auf der normalen Kinderstation. Dort wurden meine Vitalwerte über einen Monitor dokumentiert. Ich bekam ganz normales Essen🍽, da erstmal alle körperlichen Ursachen für mein Untergewicht ausgeschlossen werden mussten😕, bevor es offiziell als psychisch eingestuft werden konnte. Da es aber quasi kein Gemüse🌽🍆 gab, habe ich an dem Tag fast nichts gegessen. Nachts musste ich auf die Intensivstation, da mein Puls dort besser kontrolliert werden konnte. Dieser war so schlecht, dass ich des öfteren nachts aufgeweckt wurde😳, damit mein Herz nicht im Schlaf aufhört zu schlagen. Am nächsten Tag wurde ich in die psychomatische Kinderstation aufgenommen, auf der ich dann 8 Wochen war. Dort musste ich anfangs auch dauerhaft mit dem Monitor kontrolliert werden😬 und nachts zum schlafen auf die Intensivstation. Einen kleinen Einblick in meinen Krankenhausaufenthalt🏥 bekommt ihr dann nächstes Mal, aber ich werde nicht allzuviel darüber schreiben, denn es gäbe zwar enorm viel zu erzählen💬, aber ich rede ungerne darüber😓. Wenn ihr allerdings mehr darüber erfahren wollt, würde ich das schon auch hinbekommen. Habt noch einen schönen Tag❤. #anorexia  #ana  #anorexie  #esrecovery  #edrecovery  #edwarior  #essstörung  #magersucht  #eatingdisorderecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recoveryishard  #recoveryisworthit  #fightforrecovery  #fightana  #whatieat  #whatieatinaday  #mystory  #storytime  #story  #geschichte  #milchreis  #klinik  #krankenhaus  #psyche  #banane  #schokolade  #herbst  #therapie  #nightsnack  #snack 
Every person living with anxiety is an anxiety warrior. This illness is horrible can zap you of all energy and will, it takes so much strength each day to live with anxiety and people should be recognised as warriors! .
Each and every one of you is an #anxietywarrior!
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthsupport #stigma #anxiety #depression #panicattack #bpd #bipolar #eatingdisorder #recovery #beatingagoraphobia #beatinganxiety #selflove #mentalwellness #selfcare #insta #instagram #life #instapic #timetotalk #mentalhealthwarrior #motivation #instagood #suicideprevention #likeforfollow
Every person living with anxiety is an anxiety warrior. This illness is horrible can zap you of all energy and will, it takes so much strength each day to live with anxiety and people should be recognised as warriors! . Each and every one of you is an #anxietywarrior ! . . . #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealthsupport  #stigma  #anxiety  #depression  #panicattack  #bpd  #bipolar  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #beatingagoraphobia  #beatinganxiety  #selflove  #mentalwellness  #selfcare  #insta  #instagram  #life  #instapic  #timetotalk  #mentalhealthwarrior  #motivation  #instagood  #suicideprevention  #likeforfollow 
• Følelsen af mistillid • “Skarpe”  genstande • Hårnåle • Velkendte procedurer • Stress over fremmede mennesker • Fordomme om Borderline - og det at tage ansvar for egen sygdom • 👆🏻Alt det ovenstående har jeg skrevet noget om i et indlæg, som lige har ramt bloggen💭 Alt sammen noget, som fylder meget i mig; og som i særdeleshed kommer op til overfladen når indlæggelse på psyk kommer i spil. Hop ind og læs med (der er naturligvis link til bloggen i min biografi)!!!
• Følelsen af mistillid • “Skarpe” genstande • Hårnåle • Velkendte procedurer • Stress over fremmede mennesker • Fordomme om Borderline - og det at tage ansvar for egen sygdom • 👆🏻Alt det ovenstående har jeg skrevet noget om i et indlæg, som lige har ramt bloggen💭 Alt sammen noget, som fylder meget i mig; og som i særdeleshed kommer op til overfladen når indlæggelse på psyk kommer i spil. Hop ind og læs med (der er naturligvis link til bloggen i min biografi)!!!
As much as I’m in love with how I look here, I was sick. Here I was 117 and only ate meat and sometimes veggies. My diet was bland and miserable. Although I felt I was at my best, it didn’t make me happy, it didn’t fix the depression, it didn’t fix the anxiety, nothing. The only thing it did for me was being able to not run and hide from the camera. I see woman all over looking like this or even better/thinner. And I have come to realize and accept that I just don’t have the body type to be able to naturally maintain this type of physique without being unhealthy in my life style. What nourishes my body is more important than looking like the women I see on media. It’s easier to say it than believe it. But this is going to be one of my goals, to genuinely be content with a healthy sustainable life style 💕 #fit #eatingdisorder #bodydismorphia #health Follow me and my main squeeze @marielle_emily_fitness ! She is coaching me through this journey, and as I learn more I will be co-coaching with my best friend! Get psyched! #happy #thankful #grateful #love #coach #cocoach
As much as I’m in love with how I look here, I was sick. Here I was 117 and only ate meat and sometimes veggies. My diet was bland and miserable. Although I felt I was at my best, it didn’t make me happy, it didn’t fix the depression, it didn’t fix the anxiety, nothing. The only thing it did for me was being able to not run and hide from the camera. I see woman all over looking like this or even better/thinner. And I have come to realize and accept that I just don’t have the body type to be able to naturally maintain this type of physique without being unhealthy in my life style. What nourishes my body is more important than looking like the women I see on media. It’s easier to say it than believe it. But this is going to be one of my goals, to genuinely be content with a healthy sustainable life style 💕 #fit  #eatingdisorder  #bodydismorphia  #health  Follow me and my main squeeze @marielle_emily_fitness ! She is coaching me through this journey, and as I learn more I will be co-coaching with my best friend! Get psyched! #happy  #thankful  #grateful  #love  #coach  #cocoach 
Here’s a little story behind one of my favourite tattoos..
Two years ago today, I weighed roughly 37-43kg. I was really, seriously ill. I was struggling every day to even see how ill I was, my anorexia was eating away at me. I got this beautiful ink done, so every time I was obsessing over how my body looked, I would see this art work, something that reminded me that no matter how ill I am, how sad, no matter what I am going through. I will pull through.
The idea was to show myself the end goal, but to always have a reminder that I can get through anything, because somehow I knew I would get over my eating disorder. Two years later & I can still hear Dalila saying “she looks like she’s saying ‘fuck it!’ To all her worries.”
I’ve tagged the incredible artist, check out her work ♡
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#ink #inked #story #tattoo #tattoos #italy #italian #happy #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #mentalhealth #lfl #tumblr #instagram #inkstagram #inkstagirl #girl #instalike #instagood #art #grunge #grungestyle #style #photooftheday #potd #outfitoftheday #ootd
Here’s a little story behind one of my favourite tattoos.. Two years ago today, I weighed roughly 37-43kg. I was really, seriously ill. I was struggling every day to even see how ill I was, my anorexia was eating away at me. I got this beautiful ink done, so every time I was obsessing over how my body looked, I would see this art work, something that reminded me that no matter how ill I am, how sad, no matter what I am going through. I will pull through. The idea was to show myself the end goal, but to always have a reminder that I can get through anything, because somehow I knew I would get over my eating disorder. Two years later & I can still hear Dalila saying “she looks like she’s saying ‘fuck it!’ To all her worries.” I’ve tagged the incredible artist, check out her work ♡ . . #ink  #inked  #story  #tattoo  #tattoos  #italy  #italian  #happy  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #mentalhealth  #lfl  #tumblr  #instagram  #inkstagram  #inkstagirl  #girl  #instalike  #instagood  #art  #grunge  #grungestyle  #style  #photooftheday  #potd  #outfitoftheday  #ootd 
Holaaa 🤗 reaparezco con mi fresca merienda del día de hoy, superando fear food de nuevo: •Almohaditas de frutilla
•Banana •Ciruela y •Yogurt ser de vainilla.
¡Amo el verano y las frutas 😍! Estuvo riquísima mi merienda jaja ¡Y mañana voy a desayunar fuera con mi padre 😊! probablemente se venga alto recovery win o tremendo mentalbreakdown. Tengan lindo día dulce 💖.
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#diariodecomidas #foodie #beatana #beatingana  #anorexia #anorexianerviosa #tca #fuckyouana #fuckana #eatingdisorder #recoverywin #bodyrecovery #foodphotograpy #foodphoto #food #eat #eatforlife #enyojingfood #fooddiary #instafood #nodiet #norestrictions #cereales #healthy #healthyfood  #healthylife #merienda #snack #summer
Holaaa 🤗 reaparezco con mi fresca merienda del día de hoy, superando fear food de nuevo: •Almohaditas de frutilla •Banana •Ciruela y •Yogurt ser de vainilla. ¡Amo el verano y las frutas 😍! Estuvo riquísima mi merienda jaja ¡Y mañana voy a desayunar fuera con mi padre 😊! probablemente se venga alto recovery win o tremendo mentalbreakdown. Tengan lindo día dulce 💖. . . . #diariodecomidas  #foodie  #beatana  #beatingana  #anorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #tca  #fuckyouana  #fuckana  #eatingdisorder  #recoverywin  #bodyrecovery  #foodphotograpy  #foodphoto  #food  #eat  #eatforlife  #enyojingfood  #fooddiary  #instafood  #nodiet  #norestrictions  #cereales  #healthy  #healthyfood  #healthylife  #merienda  #snack  #summer 
Being in love.. 💕

Life is hard sometimes. Especially when you are in love.. 🙈

I’ve been through this “rollercoaster” for about.. 4 years now? 
I think i was about 11-12 when i for the first Real time fejl in love.. And it’s still the same person today ✨

He’s just.. I don’t know. He makes me so happy, and sometimes he drives me crazy, and makes me sad. He says things where i wonder sometimes, “why am i still in love with this guy?”. But i know he doesn’t mean it bad. He thinks it’s funny, but it hurts me.. A lot. And if he says it again, then i will tell him. Tell him how much it hurts.. It also hurts when you keep thinking that he doesn’t feel the same way, and that you doesn’t deserve a guy like him.. He’s so much better than me.. But i can’t. I can’t stop these feelings, even though i’ve tried.. He will probably never know this, and that also hurts me.. I wants to tell him how i feel so badly, but i’m too scared. Too scared to get dumped. It’s not even worth the try, or is it? 😔

Sorry for this guys.. haha. I just wants to be honest with you, and tell what’s on my mind lately 💗

Dessert was this skyr icecream with four mini chocolate chip cookies, an apple cinnaonroll & some hot chocolate with milk ☕️ Sleep tight beauties.. 🌛
Being in love.. 💕 Life is hard sometimes. Especially when you are in love.. 🙈 I’ve been through this “rollercoaster” for about.. 4 years now? I think i was about 11-12 when i for the first Real time fejl in love.. And it’s still the same person today ✨ He’s just.. I don’t know. He makes me so happy, and sometimes he drives me crazy, and makes me sad. He says things where i wonder sometimes, “why am i still in love with this guy?”. But i know he doesn’t mean it bad. He thinks it’s funny, but it hurts me.. A lot. And if he says it again, then i will tell him. Tell him how much it hurts.. It also hurts when you keep thinking that he doesn’t feel the same way, and that you doesn’t deserve a guy like him.. He’s so much better than me.. But i can’t. I can’t stop these feelings, even though i’ve tried.. He will probably never know this, and that also hurts me.. I wants to tell him how i feel so badly, but i’m too scared. Too scared to get dumped. It’s not even worth the try, or is it? 😔 Sorry for this guys.. haha. I just wants to be honest with you, and tell what’s on my mind lately 💗 Dessert was this skyr icecream with four mini chocolate chip cookies, an apple cinnaonroll & some hot chocolate with milk ☕️ Sleep tight beauties.. 🌛
"¡No más estigmas! #hablamossinmiedo"
@yotambienquisesercomoanaymia 🇪🇸
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Una de las ilustraciones para los #FondosLEV, con los que pagaremos terapias para jóvenes con trastornos alimenticios en Guatemala (y luego, ojalá, en toda Latinoamérica). Venderemos productos con estos diseños y el 100% DE LAS GANANCIAS se destinará a los fondos.
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No saben la ilusión que me da compartir el trabajo de Leire. 🙈 Esta es la IMAGEN OFICIAL del hashtag #hablamossinmiedo para combatir los estigmas de la salud mental.
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Leire (@yotambienquisesercomoanaymia) es una artista decidida a generar conciencia sobre los TCA. Si vos estás atravesando uno o conocés a alguien que sí, sus publicaciones te ayudarán mucho a entender las voces de estos trastornos y cómo vencerlas. ❤️💪🏼 ¡Mil gracias, guapa, por todo tu apoyo!
"¡No más estigmas! #hablamossinmiedo " @yotambienquisesercomoanaymia 🇪🇸 - Una de las ilustraciones para los #FondosLEV , con los que pagaremos terapias para jóvenes con trastornos alimenticios en Guatemala (y luego, ojalá, en toda Latinoamérica). Venderemos productos con estos diseños y el 100% DE LAS GANANCIAS se destinará a los fondos. - - No saben la ilusión que me da compartir el trabajo de Leire. 🙈 Esta es la IMAGEN OFICIAL del hashtag #hablamossinmiedo  para combatir los estigmas de la salud mental. - Leire (@yotambienquisesercomoanaymia) es una artista decidida a generar conciencia sobre los TCA. Si vos estás atravesando uno o conocés a alguien que sí, sus publicaciones te ayudarán mucho a entender las voces de estos trastornos y cómo vencerlas. ❤️💪🏼 ¡Mil gracias, guapa, por todo tu apoyo!
day 33 lunch outing: some sushi 🍱with tofu, cucumber 🥒, and avocado 🥑, and a side of edamame and i finished it all but 3 of the sushi’s!! also got some vegan dark chocolate ice cream for dessert and I FINISHED IT ALL! that’s the first dessert i’ve ever finished AND it was on an outing!! it was good even though it was a little salty because i was crying into it 😂
day 33 lunch outing: some sushi 🍱with tofu, cucumber 🥒, and avocado 🥑, and a side of edamame and i finished it all but 3 of the sushi’s!! also got some vegan dark chocolate ice cream for dessert and I FINISHED IT ALL! that’s the first dessert i’ve ever finished AND it was on an outing!! it was good even though it was a little salty because i was crying into it 😂
Hallo meine Lieben! Hier seht ihr mein Frühstück das ich letzte Woche zuhause hatte 😍
Da konnte ich etwas länger als nur übers Wochenende nach Hause fahren und es war einerseits echt schön, aber ich habe auch gemerkt, wie es mir nicht wirklich gut ging so "lange" wieder da zu sein...Ich bin dann immer total gestresst, obwohl ich meine Familie ja echt über ALLES liebe...hat die Erfahrung auch schon mal jemand gemacht?
Hallo meine Lieben! Hier seht ihr mein Frühstück das ich letzte Woche zuhause hatte 😍 Da konnte ich etwas länger als nur übers Wochenende nach Hause fahren und es war einerseits echt schön, aber ich habe auch gemerkt, wie es mir nicht wirklich gut ging so "lange" wieder da zu sein...Ich bin dann immer total gestresst, obwohl ich meine Familie ja echt über ALLES liebe...hat die Erfahrung auch schon mal jemand gemacht?
Bien le bonsoir tout le monde 🌟 J’espère que vous avez passée un bonne journée malgré la neige et le froid ❄️🌨
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C’est avec un énormeeeeee RECOVERY WIN et un peu de fierté je l’avoue que je viens vers vous ce soir 🙄 J’ai bien remarqué que je retombais dans l’engrenage en ce moment ..😣 Et ça c’est hors de question ❌ L’année dernière, à la même époque, j’étais hospitalisée 🏥 et j’allais passer les fêtes seule sans ma famille 😖🎄 Je ne veux plus revivre ça ! Et je sais que je dois casser mes habitudes, mes routines, qui me tirent petit à petit vers le fond ... Alors ce soir j’ai décider de me bouger et de travailler sur une de mes plus grandes peurs / phobies alimentaires : les plats cuisinés 🍝😰 J’ai réussi à mettre de la sauce sur mes pâtes et à mélanger mes ingrédients 💪🏻 Certes, il y a encore très peu de matières grasses je vous l’accorde mais j’ai franchis le pas c’est le plus important 🤗 Cela a été très difficile.. j’ai mis beaucoup de temps à manger et j’ai même pleuré (paniquée en voyant le plat 😭) .. Mais qu’importe je l’ai fait et maintenant que je suis CONTENTE de l’avoir fait ✅💪🏻🤩 Allez à votre rythme, peu importe ce que les autres pense, il ne sont pas à votre place ✨ Il n’y a pas de petits progrès ✔️
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Donc repas inédit pour moi ce soir 🍽 :
- Pâtes complètes sauce tomate 🍝
- Miettes de crabe 🦀
- Courgettes 🥒

PS : pour ma “sauce“ j’ai utilisé deux tomates 🍅 que j’ai fait mijoter avec sel, poivre, basilic et origan 🌿
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Mes parents étaient tellement surpris, heureux et fiers 😍 Ça enlève toute l’angoisse et les pleurs 😋 Je vous souhaite une agréable soirée, ne lâchez jamais rien, nous en sommes capables💫
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#anorexiarecover  #bio #nutrition #diététique #bienmanger #likeforlike #reequilibragealimentaire #recoveryispossible #pasta
Bien le bonsoir tout le monde 🌟 J’espère que vous avez passée un bonne journée malgré la neige et le froid ❄️🌨 ——————————————————— C’est avec un énormeeeeee RECOVERY WIN et un peu de fierté je l’avoue que je viens vers vous ce soir 🙄 J’ai bien remarqué que je retombais dans l’engrenage en ce moment ..😣 Et ça c’est hors de question ❌ L’année dernière, à la même époque, j’étais hospitalisée 🏥 et j’allais passer les fêtes seule sans ma famille 😖🎄 Je ne veux plus revivre ça ! Et je sais que je dois casser mes habitudes, mes routines, qui me tirent petit à petit vers le fond ... Alors ce soir j’ai décider de me bouger et de travailler sur une de mes plus grandes peurs / phobies alimentaires : les plats cuisinés 🍝😰 J’ai réussi à mettre de la sauce sur mes pâtes et à mélanger mes ingrédients 💪🏻 Certes, il y a encore très peu de matières grasses je vous l’accorde mais j’ai franchis le pas c’est le plus important 🤗 Cela a été très difficile.. j’ai mis beaucoup de temps à manger et j’ai même pleuré (paniquée en voyant le plat 😭) .. Mais qu’importe je l’ai fait et maintenant que je suis CONTENTE de l’avoir fait ✅💪🏻🤩 Allez à votre rythme, peu importe ce que les autres pense, il ne sont pas à votre place ✨ Il n’y a pas de petits progrès ✔️ ——————————————————— Donc repas inédit pour moi ce soir 🍽 : - Pâtes complètes sauce tomate 🍝 - Miettes de crabe 🦀 - Courgettes 🥒 PS : pour ma “sauce“ j’ai utilisé deux tomates 🍅 que j’ai fait mijoter avec sel, poivre, basilic et origan 🌿 ——————————————————— Mes parents étaient tellement surpris, heureux et fiers 😍 Ça enlève toute l’angoisse et les pleurs 😋 Je vous souhaite une agréable soirée, ne lâchez jamais rien, nous en sommes capables💫 ——————————————————— #healthymeal  #healthyfood  #healthyeating  #healthylifestyle  #recoveryfood  #instafood  #anorexia  #recoverywin  #cleanfood  #troubleducomportementalimentaire  #tca  #anorexierecovery  #anorexie  #fightana  #food  #edrecovery  #foodrecovery  #recoverywin  #anorexierestrictive  #nutrition  #anorexia  #fightanorexia  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecover  #bio  #nutrition  #diététique  #bienmanger  #likeforlike  #reequilibragealimentaire  #recoveryispossible  #pasta 
Guten Abend 🙋‍♀️
Heute begann mein Tag ganz gut,  aber dann hatte ich Therapie und meine Stimmung kippte wieder... Von "Mir geht es heute echt gut, Selfcare und Ziele vor Augen" zu "Aber irgendwie ähm es tut mir gut wenig zu essen, ich bin nicht krank und dünn genug, Ängste und ..." Mein Therapeut fragte mich worüber ich jetzt nachdenke  und ich antwortete mit Leere.. Wieder ein Leere im Kopf, ich weiß nicht, keine Ahnung, 1000 Gedanken aber irgendwie leer und nichts. Nach meinem Termin, musste ich noch einkaufen und hab für ein Fressanfall eingekauft. Ich denke mal es liegt am Stress, dass ich anfange mit Fressanfällen... Und ja, insgesamt habe ich heute 1500 Kcal gegessen was für mich sorry ein Fressanfall ist, da ich sonst sehr sehr viel weniger esse. Ich sehne mich nach wieder normal essen können 😭. Es tut weh ja sehr sogar. Es ist unmöglich, ich fühle mich wie ferngesteuert und Kommentare wie "Du verhälst dich wie ein kleines Kind, ISS DOCH EINFACH bla bla bla" Machen die Sache noch viel schlimmer... Vor allem von den Leuten die selber in recovery sind und es einfach besser hinbekommen mit dem Essen. Ich fühle mich so schlimm nachdem Essen. Fühle mich nach einer Mahlzeit gefühlt 20kg schwerer, nicht zu vergleichen mit gesunden Leuten die mit Humor meinen Oh jetzt fühle ich mich aber dicker bla bla... Ich schreie und weine aus Verzweiflung und fühle mich verloren. Ich bin allein, nicht zu vergleichen mit den Leuten die bei Mama & Papa wohnen.
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#vegan #veganfood #food #veganwerdenwaslosdigga 
#healthy #mentalhealth #edrecovery #edwarrior #edstruggles #eatingdisorder #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit
Guten Abend 🙋‍♀️ Heute begann mein Tag ganz gut, aber dann hatte ich Therapie und meine Stimmung kippte wieder... Von "Mir geht es heute echt gut, Selfcare und Ziele vor Augen" zu "Aber irgendwie ähm es tut mir gut wenig zu essen, ich bin nicht krank und dünn genug, Ängste und ..." Mein Therapeut fragte mich worüber ich jetzt nachdenke und ich antwortete mit Leere.. Wieder ein Leere im Kopf, ich weiß nicht, keine Ahnung, 1000 Gedanken aber irgendwie leer und nichts. Nach meinem Termin, musste ich noch einkaufen und hab für ein Fressanfall eingekauft. Ich denke mal es liegt am Stress, dass ich anfange mit Fressanfällen... Und ja, insgesamt habe ich heute 1500 Kcal gegessen was für mich sorry ein Fressanfall ist, da ich sonst sehr sehr viel weniger esse. Ich sehne mich nach wieder normal essen können 😭. Es tut weh ja sehr sogar. Es ist unmöglich, ich fühle mich wie ferngesteuert und Kommentare wie "Du verhälst dich wie ein kleines Kind, ISS DOCH EINFACH bla bla bla" Machen die Sache noch viel schlimmer... Vor allem von den Leuten die selber in recovery sind und es einfach besser hinbekommen mit dem Essen. Ich fühle mich so schlimm nachdem Essen. Fühle mich nach einer Mahlzeit gefühlt 20kg schwerer, nicht zu vergleichen mit gesunden Leuten die mit Humor meinen Oh jetzt fühle ich mich aber dicker bla bla... Ich schreie und weine aus Verzweiflung und fühle mich verloren. Ich bin allein, nicht zu vergleichen mit den Leuten die bei Mama & Papa wohnen. . . . #vegan  #veganfood  #food  #veganwerdenwaslosdigga  #healthy  #mentalhealth  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edstruggles  #eatingdisorder  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit 
so i’m just.. gonna stop eating I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore. i’m not even over weight.. it’s just i knew I used to be skinnier..
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#thinspo #skinny #thin #ana #anorexia #weightloss #thinspiration #depression #thinspiraton #bonespo #sad #mia #ed #anorexic #goals #fasting #depressed #eatingdisorder #diet #collarbones #thighgap #skinnygirl #hipbones #bodygoals #anxiety #anathinspo #aesthetic #fitspo #skinnygirls #bhfyp
so i’m just.. gonna stop eating I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore. i’m not even over weight.. it’s just i knew I used to be skinnier.. ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ #thinspo  #skinny  #thin  #ana  #anorexia  #weightloss  #thinspiration  #depression  #thinspiraton  #bonespo  #sad  #mia  #ed  #anorexic  #goals  #fasting  #depressed  #eatingdisorder  #diet  #collarbones  #thighgap  #skinnygirl  #hipbones  #bodygoals  #anxiety  #anathinspo  #aesthetic  #fitspo  #skinnygirls  #bhfyp 
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TW for suicide❗️When I attempted, I appeared fine. I was in work, and simply got up out my chair and walked out of the office as if to go and get a print out from the other room.
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Except I didn’t come back. I’d left all my stuff, gone outside, got in my car, and drove 4hrs to my chosen location.. ignoring countless calls from people concerned about my whereabouts.
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The rest of the nightmare unfolded from there. All I will say is clearly I am still here, and I was sectioned for 5 months.
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Things aren’t always as they appear ♥️🖤
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#paranoidschizophrenia #schizophrenia #schizophrenic #psychosis #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolar #anorexia #ednos #eatingdisorder #ptsd #ocd #insomnia #sleep #positivity #goals #selfharm #suicide #mentalhealth #meditation #sectioned #prayers #relapse #recovery #creative #quote #poetry #help
⠀ ✩ ⠀ Spot on 💯 I don’t think there’s anything else I can add. ⠀ TW for suicide❗️When I attempted, I appeared fine. I was in work, and simply got up out my chair and walked out of the office as if to go and get a print out from the other room. ⠀ Except I didn’t come back. I’d left all my stuff, gone outside, got in my car, and drove 4hrs to my chosen location.. ignoring countless calls from people concerned about my whereabouts. ⠀ The rest of the nightmare unfolded from there. All I will say is clearly I am still here, and I was sectioned for 5 months. ⠀ Things aren’t always as they appear ♥️🖤 ⠀ ✩ ⠀ #paranoidschizophrenia  #schizophrenia  #schizophrenic  #psychosis  #depression  #anxiety  #bpd  #bipolar  #anorexia  #ednos  #eatingdisorder  #ptsd  #ocd  #insomnia  #sleep  #positivity  #goals  #selfharm  #suicide  #mentalhealth  #meditation  #sectioned  #prayers  #relapse  #recovery  #creative  #quote  #poetry  #help 
Night snack is some ‘canoe biscuits’ (that’s what we used to call them when we were younger??) dipped in tea ☕️
Sleep well warriors xxx
#edrecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #edfam #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #2fab4ana #pissoffana #fuckana #food #prorecovery #anawarrior #recoveryisworthit #anafamily #adultswitheds #healthy #ed #vegan #plantbased #goodnight #teaandbiscuits
Night snack is some ‘canoe biscuits’ (that’s what we used to call them when we were younger??) dipped in tea ☕️ Sleep well warriors xxx #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edfam  #edfighter  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiafighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #foodisfuel  #2fab4ana  #pissoffana  #fuckana  #food  #prorecovery  #anawarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #anafamily  #adultswitheds  #healthy  #ed  #vegan  #plantbased  #goodnight  #teaandbiscuits 
i can do this 🙌🏼
i can do this 🙌🏼
She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving.
You know, covergirls eat nothing.
She says beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything.
What's a little bit of hunger?
I could go a little while longer, she fades away.
She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it
Oh that beauty goes deeper than the surface.
So to all the girls that's hurting
Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer.
The light that shines within. 🖤
She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving. You know, covergirls eat nothing. She says beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything. What's a little bit of hunger? I could go a little while longer, she fades away. She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it Oh that beauty goes deeper than the surface. So to all the girls that's hurting Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer. The light that shines within. 🖤
Venía súper acalorada en el bondi de vuelta al negocio así que decidí hacer una parada en Grido, porque necesitaba algo fresco, que me deje continuar con mi día, sin ponerme nerviosa, y a la vez continuar con los logros que vengo haciendo incorporando mejor calidad de alimentos.
Así que decidí pedirme "mi sabor favorito del verano" Frutilla al Agua 🍓 y así fue! Un helado de 125gr de frutilla al agua (dos bochas, al precio de una) 😂 $40.
Riquísimo! Muy contenta con mi postre tipo 16:30hs antes de llegar y ponerme a hacer muchos deberes que tengo para mañana
~•×❤️ו~ #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatforlife #eatingdisorder #fight #fightforrecovery #beatingana #beatana #fuckana #fuckyouana #fearfood #foodstagram #foodporn #norestrictions #eat#beatinganorexia #nomeloprohibo #nodiet #nofit #bodyrecovery #norestrictions #recoverywin #icecream
Venía súper acalorada en el bondi de vuelta al negocio así que decidí hacer una parada en Grido, porque necesitaba algo fresco, que me deje continuar con mi día, sin ponerme nerviosa, y a la vez continuar con los logros que vengo haciendo incorporando mejor calidad de alimentos. Así que decidí pedirme "mi sabor favorito del verano" Frutilla al Agua 🍓 y así fue! Un helado de 125gr de frutilla al agua (dos bochas, al precio de una) 😂 $40. Riquísimo! Muy contenta con mi postre tipo 16:30hs antes de llegar y ponerme a hacer muchos deberes que tengo para mañana ~•×❤️ו~ #anorexiarecovery  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatforlife  #eatingdisorder  #fight  #fightforrecovery  #beatingana  #beatana  #fuckana  #fuckyouana  #fearfood  #foodstagram  #foodporn  #norestrictions  #eat #beatinganorexia  #nomeloprohibo  #nodiet  #nofit  #bodyrecovery  #norestrictions  #recoverywin  #icecream 
Breakfast was porridge! 🌿🐰 made out of almond milk (40ml) oats (22g) cinnamon and one piece of 70% dark chocolate
Easy and delicious because I’m presenting finals at the university ☕️
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El desayuno fue porridge/ colada! 🌿🐰 la hice con leche de almendras (40ml) avena (22g) canela y una pieza de chocolate oscuro al 70%
Fácil y delicioso ya que estoy presentando finales en la universidad
Breakfast was porridge! 🌿🐰 made out of almond milk (40ml) oats (22g) cinnamon and one piece of 70% dark chocolate Easy and delicious because I’m presenting finals at the university ☕️ ••• El desayuno fue porridge/ colada! 🌿🐰 la hice con leche de almendras (40ml) avena (22g) canela y una pieza de chocolate oscuro al 70% Fácil y delicioso ya que estoy presentando finales en la universidad
Day 324- I feel like I have nothing worked out and attending a meeting today just reiterated how much I haven’t worked it out at all... Now I’m stressing that I don’t know what I’m doing with my career, my life or anything else as a matter of fact. I’m trying soooo hard not to binge tonight. Had a big salad for dinner with the hope of filling up. Trying distraction and all sorts. I’m overly anxious today and just worrying about everything... I have a GP appointment on Monday- not sure what to tell her. On a positive note, I succeeded at one of my skills today for the first time! Had 5 mins of feeling proud of myself. #gratitude #gratitudejournal #gratitude365 #QOTD #positivity #anxiety #depression #ocd #eatingdisorder #anorexia #bulimia #ednos #atypical #brainoverload #staystrong #beyourself #beyourbestself #lostinlife #lackingdirection #whatisthisadulting #cantadulttoday
Day 324- I feel like I have nothing worked out and attending a meeting today just reiterated how much I haven’t worked it out at all... Now I’m stressing that I don’t know what I’m doing with my career, my life or anything else as a matter of fact. I’m trying soooo hard not to binge tonight. Had a big salad for dinner with the hope of filling up. Trying distraction and all sorts. I’m overly anxious today and just worrying about everything... I have a GP appointment on Monday- not sure what to tell her. On a positive note, I succeeded at one of my skills today for the first time! Had 5 mins of feeling proud of myself. #gratitude  #gratitudejournal  #gratitude365  #QOTD  #positivity  #anxiety  #depression  #ocd  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #bulimia  #ednos  #atypical  #brainoverload  #staystrong  #beyourself  #beyourbestself  #lostinlife  #lackingdirection  #whatisthisadulting  #cantadulttoday 
For snack today (yes you heard right snack not breakfast because porridge is to yummy to only have once a day) I had porridge and a load of UNMEASURED berries which was really yum
#eatingdisorder #ed #eatingdisordered #anorexiasucks #anorexiasoldier #anorexiasurvivor #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexiabattle #beatanorexia #fuckanorexia #foodismedecine #foodisfuel #anorexianervousa #anorexianervosarecovery #make2018great #make2018shine #make2018count 
#vegan
For snack today (yes you heard right snack not breakfast because porridge is to yummy to only have once a day) I had porridge and a load of UNMEASURED berries which was really yum #eatingdisorder  #ed  #eatingdisordered  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiasoldier  #anorexiasurvivor  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiabattle  #beatanorexia  #fuckanorexia  #foodismedecine  #foodisfuel  #anorexianervousa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #make2018great  #make2018shine  #make2018count  #vegan 
Wuhuu morgen Feiertag!!
Heute hab ich
nicht viel unternommen. 
Liegt halt daran,
weil das Wetter 
nicht so wunderbar war.
Meine Mutter und ich 
haben uns zum Abendessen
"French Toast" zubereitet.
Hab noch gerade,
aus langeweile 
Mathematik Aufgaben geübt.
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#anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #recovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #ed #edwarrior #recoveryisworthit #food #mentalhealth #anxiety #edfighter #prorecovery #eatittobeatit #mentalillness #recoveryispossible #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #recoverywin
Wuhuu morgen Feiertag!! Heute hab ich nicht viel unternommen. Liegt halt daran, weil das Wetter nicht so wunderbar war. Meine Mutter und ich haben uns zum Abendessen "French Toast" zubereitet. Hab noch gerade, aus langeweile Mathematik Aufgaben geübt. ~~~~ #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #recovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ana  #ed  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #edfighter  #prorecovery  #eatittobeatit  #mentalillness  #recoveryispossible  #foodisfuel  #strongnotskinny  #recoverywin 
Fuck the bullshit, you’re better than that babes 🍍✨💜 #SavageBabe #ChasingPineapples
Ez a videó mély nyomot hagyott elveszett lelkemben.
#2k18 #haters #homofobia #rassism #socialmedia #trauma #stopit #depression #eatingdisorder #problems
Mi almuerzo de hoy fue en el patio de comidas de Easy Quilmes "Factory Center" que fuimos de imprevisto con mi vieja a comprar! Así que almorcé a las 14:00hs un #fearfood que estaba RIQUÍSIMO!
➡️Wok de Vegetales Mediterráneo (cebolla 🌰 pollo 🍗 arroz 🍚 zanahoria 🥕 morrón rojo 🌶️ y verde salteado con agua, sin aceite) ~Pedimos el menú en Gourmet~
Me salió $215, una porción súper Abundante, me aclararon si quería que sea preparado con o sin aceite, especifique sin, así que súper feliz.
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#anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatforlife #eatingdisorder #fight #fightforrecovery #beatingana #beatana #fuckana #fuckyouana #fearfood #foodstagram #foodporn #norestrictions #eat#beatinganorexia #nomeloprohibo #nodiet #nofit #bodyrecovery #norestrictions #recoverywin #wok
Mi almuerzo de hoy fue en el patio de comidas de Easy Quilmes "Factory Center" que fuimos de imprevisto con mi vieja a comprar! Así que almorcé a las 14:00hs un #fearfood  que estaba RIQUÍSIMO! ➡️Wok de Vegetales Mediterráneo (cebolla 🌰 pollo 🍗 arroz 🍚 zanahoria 🥕 morrón rojo 🌶️ y verde salteado con agua, sin aceite) ~Pedimos el menú en Gourmet~ Me salió $215, una porción súper Abundante, me aclararon si quería que sea preparado con o sin aceite, especifique sin, así que súper feliz. ~•×❤️ו~ #anorexiarecovery  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatforlife  #eatingdisorder  #fight  #fightforrecovery  #beatingana  #beatana  #fuckana  #fuckyouana  #fearfood  #foodstagram  #foodporn  #norestrictions  #eat #beatinganorexia  #nomeloprohibo  #nodiet  #nofit  #bodyrecovery  #norestrictions  #recoverywin  #wok 
Swipe for calories ----->
[not me]

Today went really well! I ate well under my limit thanks to the salad 😅 But honestly, call me crazy, I never knew salad had that little calories in it! 
Although most of today was great,  I woke up and found I still haven't lost any weight! I'm gonna try drinking more water from now often oof. Let's hope tomorrow I see some progress. 
#ana #anorexia #anorexianerviosa #ed #eatingdisorder #disorder #eat #eating #thin #thinspo #thinsporation #skinny #skin #hoodie #depressed #depression #anxiety #anxious #sad #binge #binging #bulimia #bulimic #mia #mentalhealth #pink #pinkthinspo #white #whitethinspo #fashion
Swipe for calories -----> [not me] Today went really well! I ate well under my limit thanks to the salad 😅 But honestly, call me crazy, I never knew salad had that little calories in it! Although most of today was great, I woke up and found I still haven't lost any weight! I'm gonna try drinking more water from now often oof. Let's hope tomorrow I see some progress. #ana  #anorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #disorder  #eat  #eating  #thin  #thinspo  #thinsporation  #skinny  #skin  #hoodie  #depressed  #depression  #anxiety  #anxious  #sad  #binge  #binging  #bulimia  #bulimic  #mia  #mentalhealth  #pink  #pinkthinspo  #white  #whitethinspo  #fashion 
I’m up 3 lbs from my last dr visit, and now I almost weigh enough to donate plasma for extra money. ✌️💵💉
I’m up 3 lbs from my last dr visit, and now I almost weigh enough to donate plasma for extra money. ✌️💵💉
i’m just waiting for some sort of notification that i’ve been reported and i’m prepared yet terrified ;’ #anamiatips #anamia #anamiaforever #ed #notproanything #thinspo #thinpos #handspo  #legspo #skinny #skinnyspo #thin #thinstagram #bones #tighgap #calories #anabuddy #ednos #eatingdisorder #anathinspo #notproana
Kleines Gruppenselfie mit Familie 😅❤😉 Die nächsten Wochen werde ich sie nur noch an den Wochenenden sehen, da ich in eine Kinder- und Jugend Psychatrie in Hildesheim eingeliefert werde.😵😔 Ich hoffe so sehr dass es dieses Mal klappt und ich endlich gesund werde.☺ Das ist das größte Geschenk dass ich mir selbst machen kann.🎁 So lange quäle ich meinen Körper schon und dass muss nun endlich aufhören.😕🚶‍♀️ Ich bin auf einer Reise um mich selbst wieder zu finden und um mich endlich lieben zu lernen.💖 Und auch an dich:👇 du bist ein wunderbarer Mensch, der es mehr als verdient hat von anderen und auch von dir selbst geliebt zu werden. ❤
Was immer euch auch belastet, lasst los.👋💪 Hör auf dich an Dingen oder Leuten festzukrallen, die dir nichts gutes wollen. Du bist mehr wert als die oder das
Denn du bist gut so wie du bist.❤💪😆 #loveyourself #eatingdisorder #bulimia #mia #family #love #happines #mut #seiduselbst #fighter ❤
Kleines Gruppenselfie mit Familie 😅❤😉 Die nächsten Wochen werde ich sie nur noch an den Wochenenden sehen, da ich in eine Kinder- und Jugend Psychatrie in Hildesheim eingeliefert werde.😵😔 Ich hoffe so sehr dass es dieses Mal klappt und ich endlich gesund werde.☺ Das ist das größte Geschenk dass ich mir selbst machen kann.🎁 So lange quäle ich meinen Körper schon und dass muss nun endlich aufhören.😕🚶‍♀️ Ich bin auf einer Reise um mich selbst wieder zu finden und um mich endlich lieben zu lernen.💖 Und auch an dich:👇 du bist ein wunderbarer Mensch, der es mehr als verdient hat von anderen und auch von dir selbst geliebt zu werden. ❤ Was immer euch auch belastet, lasst los.👋💪 Hör auf dich an Dingen oder Leuten festzukrallen, die dir nichts gutes wollen. Du bist mehr wert als die oder das Denn du bist gut so wie du bist.❤💪😆 #loveyourself  #eatingdisorder  #bulimia  #mia  #family  #love  #happines  #mut  #seiduselbst  #fighter  ❤
Got up with a horrid headache! So emailed my dance teacher to say I wasn’t coming in today and left my 9am lecture early to rest as it was so bad! After my rest I went to the library to do work on my Case Study! Spent the rest of the day doing this before going to bed early and I’m a Celebrity! Just hope this headache doesn’t develop into a head cold now!💕 Breakfast was a banana and yoghurt followed by a hot chocolate and some wheat biscuits! 💕Lunch was a Ham
a turkey subway!💕 Snack was a venti decaf almond milk macchiato!💕 Dinner was spaghetti hoops on toast with green beans, sweet corn and tikka turkey chunks !💕 Tomorrow is luckily my kind of day off! Got singing lesson 9:30-10 then going to Toby Carvery with my friend at lunch and spending the day doing work!! I’m so excited for my first ever Toby Carvery!!!!!! 💕☺️🌸 #edrecovery#anarecovery#challenged#foodisfuel#nourishtoflourish#eatingdisorder#feelthefear#loveyourself#selflove#bodypositive#treatyourself#live#laugh#love#iamstrong##gym#training#follow#beatana#calories#weightgain#acceptance#loveyourbody#behappy#breakfast#lunch#dinner#snacks#october#2018
Got up with a horrid headache! So emailed my dance teacher to say I wasn’t coming in today and left my 9am lecture early to rest as it was so bad! After my rest I went to the library to do work on my Case Study! Spent the rest of the day doing this before going to bed early and I’m a Celebrity! Just hope this headache doesn’t develop into a head cold now!💕 Breakfast was a banana and yoghurt followed by a hot chocolate and some wheat biscuits! 💕Lunch was a Ham a turkey subway!💕 Snack was a venti decaf almond milk macchiato!💕 Dinner was spaghetti hoops on toast with green beans, sweet corn and tikka turkey chunks !💕 Tomorrow is luckily my kind of day off! Got singing lesson 9:30-10 then going to Toby Carvery with my friend at lunch and spending the day doing work!! I’m so excited for my first ever Toby Carvery!!!!!! 💕☺️🌸 #edrecovery #anarecovery #challenged #foodisfuel #nourishtoflourish #eatingdisorder #feelthefear #loveyourself #selflove #bodypositive #treatyourself #live #laugh #love #iamstrong ##gym #training #follow #beatana #calories #weightgain #acceptance #loveyourbody #behappy #breakfast #lunch #dinner #snacks #october #2018 
candy and fruit for night snack because balance💁🏼‍♀️
nah i’m kidding, it’s just literally what i wanted.
balance isn’t planning out to eat x amount of candy and z amount of fruit, balance is listening to your body! certain nights my body will crave only candy and guess what the real me will give it,
just candy.
simple as that. because the real me and the future me will trust my body,
trust my thoughts,
my cravings.
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i’m currently watching brooklyn99 with my mom and sister (or well, we took a break from it because mom is helping her dye her hair) and we’re only on season one hehe
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tomorrow i have no school and i will probably spend most of my time doing homework.
yay😑
don’t worry though! i’m going to play cards with my dad and hopefully we’ll take my grandparents to the airport in copenhagen because they’re traveling to czech. my grandma is having some sort of presentation for her job and my grandpa is visiting his mom. i think she might not live much longer because it seemed that way when my grandma spoke about her and she’s about 96 years old... i don’t know her really because we don’t speak any languages that the other does and i’ve only met her very few times. but she’s a sweet lady and even though she was old, she seemed to be rather alert🙈
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now i’m going to have some tea and continue watching b99, have a lovely lovely evening and sleep well🌙
candy and fruit for night snack because balance💁🏼‍♀️ nah i’m kidding, it’s just literally what i wanted. balance isn’t planning out to eat x amount of candy and z amount of fruit, balance is listening to your body! certain nights my body will crave only candy and guess what the real me will give it, just candy. simple as that. because the real me and the future me will trust my body, trust my thoughts, my cravings. - i’m currently watching brooklyn99 with my mom and sister (or well, we took a break from it because mom is helping her dye her hair) and we’re only on season one hehe - tomorrow i have no school and i will probably spend most of my time doing homework. yay😑 don’t worry though! i’m going to play cards with my dad and hopefully we’ll take my grandparents to the airport in copenhagen because they’re traveling to czech. my grandma is having some sort of presentation for her job and my grandpa is visiting his mom. i think she might not live much longer because it seemed that way when my grandma spoke about her and she’s about 96 years old... i don’t know her really because we don’t speak any languages that the other does and i’ve only met her very few times. but she’s a sweet lady and even though she was old, she seemed to be rather alert🙈 - now i’m going to have some tea and continue watching b99, have a lovely lovely evening and sleep well🌙
I’m so grateful for people. There have been so many amazing, supportive, people who have come into my life. I was so scared to post my journey with an eating disorder, I was worried about who would see it, how they would react, and what people will think of me. I literally cried over the amount of love and support that I have gotten. Thank you everyone for the kind messages, the texts, dms, and phone calls! They mean the absolute world 💛 I’m so grateful for everyone in my life and for the people who have been supporting me through it all. Im super grateful for this guy. He’s my camera man, confidence booster, biggest cheer leader and best friend. I don’t know if I would have made it to this point without his encouragement and love!💛 plus, he’s stinking cute😍 Thank youuuuu Tyler and thanks to everyone who has reached out to me this week 💛 #spreadlove #eatingdisorder #overcometobecome #selflove #selfhelp #bulimia 
I would love us all to spread some positivity today! Tag someone in your life who you couldn’t live without!💛
I’m so grateful for people. There have been so many amazing, supportive, people who have come into my life. I was so scared to post my journey with an eating disorder, I was worried about who would see it, how they would react, and what people will think of me. I literally cried over the amount of love and support that I have gotten. Thank you everyone for the kind messages, the texts, dms, and phone calls! They mean the absolute world 💛 I’m so grateful for everyone in my life and for the people who have been supporting me through it all. Im super grateful for this guy. He’s my camera man, confidence booster, biggest cheer leader and best friend. I don’t know if I would have made it to this point without his encouragement and love!💛 plus, he’s stinking cute😍 Thank youuuuu Tyler and thanks to everyone who has reached out to me this week 💛 #spreadlove  #eatingdisorder  #overcometobecome  #selflove  #selfhelp  #bulimia  I would love us all to spread some positivity today! Tag someone in your life who you couldn’t live without!💛
Hi guys. I actually loved the movie.. it was so amazing and I just love Queen😍 alsl discovered a new fave snack. I hope you all had a nice day❤️
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Hi guys. I actually loved the movie.. it was so amazing and I just love Queen😍 alsl discovered a new fave snack. I hope you all had a nice day❤️ . . . . . #eatingdisorderrecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #edrecovery  #life  #eating  #harrystyles  #concert  #harrystylesconcert  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #mentalhealth  #depression  #love  #life  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #strong  #strongwoman  #selfhatred  #billieeilish  #donuts  #snow  #winter  #home  #love  #wisdom  #realtalk  #mood  #hate  #nature  #queen  #bohemianrhapsody  #freddiemercury 
Guess who has a lot of homework but haven’t done anything at all the last hours? Yeah me... I’ve seriously not done anything but taken a shower since I came home (I came home about 5pm and it’s about 9pm now). Which means I have a lot to do tomorrow cause I’ll probably not be able to do it on Thursday, and one of my homework’s is supposed to be done till Friday. I really need to do these homeworks, if I do them (and some other things), I have a big chance to get a lot better grades in some classes. It’s some “simple” things in some classes I have to do, then I have a big chance to a much better grade. It will probably be worth it ~S
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Guess who has a lot of homework but haven’t done anything at all the last hours? Yeah me... I’ve seriously not done anything but taken a shower since I came home (I came home about 5pm and it’s about 9pm now). Which means I have a lot to do tomorrow cause I’ll probably not be able to do it on Thursday, and one of my homework’s is supposed to be done till Friday. I really need to do these homeworks, if I do them (and some other things), I have a big chance to get a lot better grades in some classes. It’s some “simple” things in some classes I have to do, then I have a big chance to a much better grade. It will probably be worth it ~S . . #depression  #depressed  #depressive  #selfharm  #suicide  #eatingdisorder  #skinny  #hatemyself  #hatelife  #death  #depressionquotes  #quotes  #poetry  #anorexia  #anxiety  #starvation  #selfhate 
Hi guys,

Let's talk about Eating Disorder?

This photo is about 10 years old. And about 20 kg of difference. They considered me very pretty, with a great body and beautiful hair, but Manoela person went unnoticed. I felt bad with so much attention. It seems silly of me to complain about being beautiful, but it was very difficult. Everywhere the outside was more important than the inside. In job interviews with men, it was a pain in the ass, they'd hit on me. They grabbed me at parties.  Anyway, it was not cool at all. In 2009, when I started on lithium medication, for bipolarity, I gained 10 kg in 1 month. After more kilos came, I cut my hair very short and then, I was practically invisible. I went from drawing too much attention to getting very little. I'm not saying it's ugly to be overweight, far from it, because I find myself beautiful today, even more beautiful, because I have a healthier mind than I've ever had in my life because of bipolarity. I started with an Eating Disorder from the day I saw myself invisible. It was a great relief, but now I see myself with a sick body, a little diabetic and with other problems. So with this text, I want to show the various facets of eating disorders. It can happen to anyone and for various reasons. Let's take care of our minds! I am in therapy and in a moment of self-knowledge to be able to lose weight and stay healthy! I can not think that getting thinner it will all come back, because I have a different mind nowadays. I'm sure I'll be able to handle this when the time comes. But until then I'm dealing with this disorder. Eating too much... #eatingdisorder #mentalillnesses #bipolardisorder #psychoanalasis #psychiatry #psychology #mentalhealth #healthy #bodyimage
Hi guys, Let's talk about Eating Disorder? This photo is about 10 years old. And about 20 kg of difference. They considered me very pretty, with a great body and beautiful hair, but Manoela person went unnoticed. I felt bad with so much attention. It seems silly of me to complain about being beautiful, but it was very difficult. Everywhere the outside was more important than the inside. In job interviews with men, it was a pain in the ass, they'd hit on me. They grabbed me at parties. Anyway, it was not cool at all. In 2009, when I started on lithium medication, for bipolarity, I gained 10 kg in 1 month. After more kilos came, I cut my hair very short and then, I was practically invisible. I went from drawing too much attention to getting very little. I'm not saying it's ugly to be overweight, far from it, because I find myself beautiful today, even more beautiful, because I have a healthier mind than I've ever had in my life because of bipolarity. I started with an Eating Disorder from the day I saw myself invisible. It was a great relief, but now I see myself with a sick body, a little diabetic and with other problems. So with this text, I want to show the various facets of eating disorders. It can happen to anyone and for various reasons. Let's take care of our minds! I am in therapy and in a moment of self-knowledge to be able to lose weight and stay healthy! I can not think that getting thinner it will all come back, because I have a different mind nowadays. I'm sure I'll be able to handle this when the time comes. But until then I'm dealing with this disorder. Eating too much... #eatingdisorder  #mentalillnesses  #bipolardisorder  #psychoanalasis  #psychiatry  #psychology  #mentalhealth  #healthy  #bodyimage 
Message me, when you need an ana buddy, I’m always there for you 💞
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Supper! Tried the end of a piece of baklava my dad brought back from a middle-eastern bakery today. Cooked chili con carne with 11 different types of veg crammed in somehow haha! Today was okay, feel guilty about everything as per, but hopefully if I do some tidying or something like that I’ll feel a bit less lazy by the time I go to bed. #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderecovery #prorecovery #togetherwecan #healthy #eatforboobs #anxiety #depression #eatingdisorder #nourishnotpunish  #likeforlike #edwarrior #foodporn #nourishtoflourish #edarmy #fuckanorexia
Supper! Tried the end of a piece of baklava my dad brought back from a middle-eastern bakery today. Cooked chili con carne with 11 different types of veg crammed in somehow haha! Today was okay, feel guilty about everything as per, but hopefully if I do some tidying or something like that I’ll feel a bit less lazy by the time I go to bed. #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderecovery  #prorecovery  #togetherwecan  #healthy  #eatforboobs  #anxiety  #depression  #eatingdisorder  #nourishnotpunish  #likeforlike  #edwarrior  #foodporn  #nourishtoflourish  #edarmy  #fuckanorexia 
My mouth is on fire after this ready meal!! I had the BBQ shreds and beans with added veggies and it was lush but rather spicy!! Went to the gym and then Pilates so needed a really quick meal and this was perfect, plus it was reduced 💃🙌 I don’t like eating a lot of ready meals but the ingredients in @wickedhealthy meals are decent and they actually have substantial veggie meals compared to others...seriously some veggie ready meals are the size of a snack 🙈 Can’t wait to try all the other new ones now, specially as most no longer have coriander in!!
I hope you’ve all had fabulous days! Keep pushing to be the person you want to be, another day in limbo is just extra time wasted trying to find true happiness 🌺

#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #balance #edcommunity #healthylifestyle #weightgain #weightgainjourney
My mouth is on fire after this ready meal!! I had the BBQ shreds and beans with added veggies and it was lush but rather spicy!! Went to the gym and then Pilates so needed a really quick meal and this was perfect, plus it was reduced 💃🙌 I don’t like eating a lot of ready meals but the ingredients in @wickedhealthy meals are decent and they actually have substantial veggie meals compared to others...seriously some veggie ready meals are the size of a snack 🙈 Can’t wait to try all the other new ones now, specially as most no longer have coriander in!! I hope you’ve all had fabulous days! Keep pushing to be the person you want to be, another day in limbo is just extra time wasted trying to find true happiness 🌺 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #balance  #edcommunity  #healthylifestyle  #weightgain  #weightgainjourney 
Quick stir fry of chickpeas, zucchini, red bell pepper, spinach and brown basmati rice with Pumpkin and Sunflower seeds. Seasoned with herbs and garlic granules. 
Feel crap with body image, I compared myself to my thin mother and now feel 💩.
Goodnight. 
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #edfam #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #recovery #rice #healthy #healthynothungry #mealplan #strongnotskinny #nourishtoflourish #veganism #vegan #dinner
Quick stir fry of chickpeas, zucchini, red bell pepper, spinach and brown basmati rice with Pumpkin and Sunflower seeds. Seasoned with herbs and garlic granules. Feel crap with body image, I compared myself to my thin mother and now feel 💩. Goodnight. #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edfam  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #recovery  #rice  #healthy  #healthynothungry  #mealplan  #strongnotskinny  #nourishtoflourish  #veganism  #vegan  #dinner 
Pour ce soir : 
Carottes au four 🥕
Konjac🍚
Poulet et champignons 🍗🍄
Journée plus difficile aujourd'hui mais il en faut pour avancer.
#TCA #eatingdisorder #anorexie #anorexierecovery #food #healthy  #healthyrecipe #healthyfood #glutenfree #PumpUpPartner #fitfood #eatcleen #journalalimentaire #reequilibragealimentaire  #alimentationsaine #manger #mangersain #mangermieux #anorexiarecovery #sansgluten #anarecovery #petitdejeuner #breakfast #WBC #fitness #fitnessbody #workbodychallenge
Pour ce soir : Carottes au four 🥕 Konjac🍚 Poulet et champignons 🍗🍄 Journée plus difficile aujourd'hui mais il en faut pour avancer. #TCA  #eatingdisorder  #anorexie  #anorexierecovery  #food  #healthy   #healthyrecipe  #healthyfood  #glutenfree  #PumpUpPartner  #fitfood  #eatcleen  #journalalimentaire  #reequilibragealimentaire  #alimentationsaine  #manger  #mangersain  #mangermieux  #anorexiarecovery  #sansgluten  #anarecovery  #petitdejeuner  #breakfast  #WBC  #fitness  #fitnessbody  #workbodychallenge 
God loves you!
Give your life to Christ
Say Lord I confess my sins, and I make You my Lord and Savior.
From @joseph4inspiration

#Depressed #Loser #Sad #Blood
#Depression #Suicidal #Lonely #Ugly #Unhappy #kik #S4S #Like4Like #Unloved #Anxiety #Failure #Killme #Suicide #Worthless #Death #Hopeless #Unnoticed #Bleeding #Bipolar
#Cut #selfharmmm #Anorexia #Eatingdisorder #triggerwarning
Yes I know you dont need to remind me. 
And I'm having a really bad week ugh I just want to cut so bad but I'm really trying to distract myself by focusing on my friends.
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After dinner... I ate dinner.. I did.. I talked to my mom and i ate dinner, she says she understand my fear but also that fear does awful things and it our worst enemy and we have every moment power to shift our mind and every negative situation into positive one.. And today i did hormonal  blood test and it shows i have low progesteron and probably cystic ovaries.. So thats why i did not have period for 1 and a half year, but in Thursday im goin to best doctor privately and hopefully everything gets in its place 😊😊
#anorexianervosa #anorexia #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorder tingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #anawarrior #edfighter #edwarrior #prorecovery #realrecovery #recovery #recovering #edfam #anafam #edfamily #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverywarrior #eatittobeatit #fearfood #youdeservetoeat
#nightsnack  After dinner... I ate dinner.. I did.. I talked to my mom and i ate dinner, she says she understand my fear but also that fear does awful things and it our worst enemy and we have every moment power to shift our mind and every negative situation into positive one.. And today i did hormonal blood test and it shows i have low progesteron and probably cystic ovaries.. So thats why i did not have period for 1 and a half year, but in Thursday im goin to best doctor privately and hopefully everything gets in its place 😊😊 #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorder  tingdisorderrecovery #anafighter  #anawarrior  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #edfam  #anafam  #edfamily  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recoverywarrior  #eatittobeatit  #fearfood  #youdeservetoeat 
Colder days.. ❄️ School went okay again today, nothing special ☺️ My afterschool snack was strawberry/rhubarb yogurt with about half an apple & müsli 🌸

I’ve prepared breakfast and lunch for tomorrow, trying to switch up my posts 💞

Also today i bought the last christmas present for my dad, and then i bought some icecream.. Stay tuned 😏🙊 Keep smiling! 💫
Colder days.. ❄️ School went okay again today, nothing special ☺️ My afterschool snack was strawberry/rhubarb yogurt with about half an apple & müsli 🌸 I’ve prepared breakfast and lunch for tomorrow, trying to switch up my posts 💞 Also today i bought the last christmas present for my dad, and then i bought some icecream.. Stay tuned 😏🙊 Keep smiling! 💫
When you get a lovely and beautiful berry smoothie and dad complains about getting a juice with ginger, tastes mine and gets jealous🤦🏼‍♀️🍇
Who else loves smoothies?✨
When you get a lovely and beautiful berry smoothie and dad complains about getting a juice with ginger, tastes mine and gets jealous🤦🏼‍♀️🍇 Who else loves smoothies?✨
Spanish Potato Omelette with capsicum was for lunch. I don’t think this meal is popular outside of Spain but omg it is one of the most traditional things in here, and my grandma used to make it all the time when I was younger. It is AMAZING, recipe is here: 🥔6 to 7 medium potatoes (peeled)
🥔1 yellow onion (diced into 1/4-inch pieces)
🥔1/2 tablespoon salt (or to taste)
🥔2 to 3 cups olive oil (for pan frying)
🥔5 to 6 large eggs (the better the eggs, the better the tortilla)

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Chop the potato and onion, and place them into a bowl. Heat 2 cups of olive oil on a pan and place the potato-onion mixture (the olive oil should almost cover the potatoes). Whisk the eggs on a bowl and then throw them to the pan. Let everything cook and you’re good to go 🤩🚀 Happy Tuesday x
Spanish Potato Omelette with capsicum was for lunch. I don’t think this meal is popular outside of Spain but omg it is one of the most traditional things in here, and my grandma used to make it all the time when I was younger. It is AMAZING, recipe is here: 🥔6 to 7 medium potatoes (peeled) 🥔1 yellow onion (diced into 1/4-inch pieces) 🥔1/2 tablespoon salt (or to taste) 🥔2 to 3 cups olive oil (for pan frying) 🥔5 to 6 large eggs (the better the eggs, the better the tortilla) METHOD: Chop the potato and onion, and place them into a bowl. Heat 2 cups of olive oil on a pan and place the potato-onion mixture (the olive oil should almost cover the potatoes). Whisk the eggs on a bowl and then throw them to the pan. Let everything cook and you’re good to go 🤩🚀 Happy Tuesday x
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Get yourself a friend that brings you home ice cream on her way back from work because you’re having a tough time ❤️ As of next Monday, all my problems will go away. I hope. Last little push... love, pip xx #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #ana #beatanorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #edsoldier #edwarrior #edfamily #edfighter #edrecovery #recovery #recover #recoverforlife #recoverywin #recoverforhappiness #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #bodypositive #keepfighting #staypositive #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #nourishtoflourish #anorexia #ed #bodypositive #bodytransformation #mentalhealth #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit
Get yourself a friend that brings you home ice cream on her way back from work because you’re having a tough time ❤️ As of next Monday, all my problems will go away. I hope. Last little push... love, pip xx #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #ana  #beatanorexia  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recover  #recoverforlife  #recoverywin  #recoverforhappiness  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #bodypositive  #keepfighting  #staypositive  #mentalhealthmatters  #mentalhealthawareness  #nourishtoflourish  #anorexia  #ed  #bodypositive  #bodytransformation  #mentalhealth  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit 
more ballerina thinspo bc i’ve always been obsessed even though i don’t dance .
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anyway i’ve somehow been on track lately even though i feel like i’ve been eating too much. really anxious for thanksgiving...my family wasn’t going to have a dinner but they changed their minds 😔
more ballerina thinspo bc i’ve always been obsessed even though i don’t dance . . . . . . . . . anyway i’ve somehow been on track lately even though i feel like i’ve been eating too much. really anxious for thanksgiving...my family wasn’t going to have a dinner but they changed their minds 😔
I don't even want to speak today because it has all been a blur... whatever I have is getting worse
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#eatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #recovery #edrecovery #ed #food #eatittobeatit
I had dreams as big as the world, I had plans as deep as the ocean & I had ideas as high as the mountain tops, then I had him & failed to see I had the whole world right there in my hands.
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I nearly destroyed myself trying to do it all failing to see that he won't remember the sparkling bleached floors but that he will remember the day's I cried because I felt like I wasn't enough, the days i snapped because I was so stressed & the little moments I missed because although I was there I wasn't present.
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It's time to slow down, enjoy his tiny toes, rest my mind & let my battered body recover.
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I had dreams as big as the world, I had plans as deep as the ocean & I had ideas as high as the mountain tops, then I had him & failed to see I had the whole world right there in my hands. . I nearly destroyed myself trying to do it all failing to see that he won't remember the sparkling bleached floors but that he will remember the day's I cried because I felt like I wasn't enough, the days i snapped because I was so stressed & the little moments I missed because although I was there I wasn't present. . It's time to slow down, enjoy his tiny toes, rest my mind & let my battered body recover. . It's time to realise that, I AM ENOUGH 💙 . #lifestyle  #blog  #lifeblog  #corkblog  #blogger  #justme  #nini  #amievenablogger  #cork  #corkgal  #mommy  #momlife  #momsofinsta  #momsoftoddler  #toddlerlife  #recovery  #rest  #mindyourmind  #wellness  #wellbeing  #selfaware  #selfcare  #anxiety  #sufferer  #mentalhealth  #eatingdisorder  #thedarkroad  #roadtorecovery  #itsalongone 
addicted to veggies.🌶
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Guten Abend, ihr Lieben!🌈
Ich war heute wieder auf Arbeit und es war echt entspannt. Der normale Alltag eben und mittlerweile finde ich es sogar gut da zu arbeiten, weil ich einen geregelten Tagesablauf habe, was mir im Moment sehr hilft. Würde ich jetzt nicht da arbeiten, dann würde ich wahrscheinlich nur im Bett liegen und schlafen - zumindest ist das sonst so, wenn ich frei habe. Meine Mama hat sich heute krankschreiben lassen, wegen mir. Sie macht sich unheimliche Sorgen und ich weiß nicht, wie ich mich dabei fühlen soll. Ich möchte nicht, dass es ihr schlecht wegen mir geht. In letzter Zeit fällt es mir so unfassbar schwer etwas zu essen, ich hatte deshalb auch heute morgen eine kleine Diskussion mit meinem Papa, weil ich es nicht geschafft hatte zu essen. Meine Therapeutin hat mir noch immer nicht geschrieben, was mein Gefühl größer macht, dass ich ihr egal bin. :) -
Morgen ist Feiertag bei uns und ich glaube auch nur in Sachsen. Aber da bin ich mir nicht sicher.😅 Auf jeden Fall wünsche ich euch noch einen schönen Abend - morgen wird erstmal ausgeschlafen und ich versuche (!!!) ausreichend zu essen.🌊
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addicted to veggies.🌶 - Guten Abend, ihr Lieben!🌈 Ich war heute wieder auf Arbeit und es war echt entspannt. Der normale Alltag eben und mittlerweile finde ich es sogar gut da zu arbeiten, weil ich einen geregelten Tagesablauf habe, was mir im Moment sehr hilft. Würde ich jetzt nicht da arbeiten, dann würde ich wahrscheinlich nur im Bett liegen und schlafen - zumindest ist das sonst so, wenn ich frei habe. Meine Mama hat sich heute krankschreiben lassen, wegen mir. Sie macht sich unheimliche Sorgen und ich weiß nicht, wie ich mich dabei fühlen soll. Ich möchte nicht, dass es ihr schlecht wegen mir geht. In letzter Zeit fällt es mir so unfassbar schwer etwas zu essen, ich hatte deshalb auch heute morgen eine kleine Diskussion mit meinem Papa, weil ich es nicht geschafft hatte zu essen. Meine Therapeutin hat mir noch immer nicht geschrieben, was mein Gefühl größer macht, dass ich ihr egal bin. :) - Morgen ist Feiertag bei uns und ich glaube auch nur in Sachsen. Aber da bin ich mir nicht sicher.😅 Auf jeden Fall wünsche ich euch noch einen schönen Abend - morgen wird erstmal ausgeschlafen und ich versuche (!!!) ausreichend zu essen.🌊 - #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat  #warrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #triggerwarning  #anorexia  #struggling  #depression  #depressed  #deutschland  #selfharmrecovery  #selfacceptance  #selfharm  #selfharmmm  #germany  #prorecovery  #healing  #loveyourself  #loveyourselffirst  #leipzig  #neverstopfighting  #iwasnotbuilttobreak  #mentalillnesses 
Feels. Feel like I am in limbo trying to not use ed behaviours but my head telling me something else and sometimes it’s hard to fight.
Feels. Feel like I am in limbo trying to not use ed behaviours but my head telling me something else and sometimes it’s hard to fight.
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well, +0.2 kg not that bad after binge
getting my ahit together today ✊🏼
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I’m excited to share that my latest blog is now live on @projectheal. Check out their blog for how to get your needs met during ED recovery.

And for anyone thinking about fasting prior to Thanksgiving meals, DONT! Consider that NOT eating is NOT going to allow you to enjoy your meal with loved ones. In order to enjoy the day, the memories, the folks you are with, the Thanksgiving meal, and any fun you are going to need to eat ALL your meals. You GOT this!! (I understand that all family’s are different and that you may not have fun with them, and you may not want to make memories with them. You still need to eat all your meals to help you have the energy to set any necessary boundaries).
I’m excited to share that my latest blog is now live on @projectheal. Check out their blog for how to get your needs met during ED recovery. And for anyone thinking about fasting prior to Thanksgiving meals, DONT! Consider that NOT eating is NOT going to allow you to enjoy your meal with loved ones. In order to enjoy the day, the memories, the folks you are with, the Thanksgiving meal, and any fun you are going to need to eat ALL your meals. You GOT this!! (I understand that all family’s are different and that you may not have fun with them, and you may not want to make memories with them. You still need to eat all your meals to help you have the energy to set any necessary boundaries).
“You will be too much for some people. Those aren’t your people.” - Glennon Melton
“You will be too much for some people. Those aren’t your people.” - Glennon Melton
Ребята,мне нужно вам выговорится..
Лучше уж поздно чем НИКОГДА 
Я очень не хотела сюда появляться с нытьём но понимаю что я уже так не могу..
⠀
Да,я оправдываюсь,не знаю зачем и почему
(Наверное из за некого стыда(?) перед вами) 
но я пропадаю не потому что мне наплевать на вас.
⠀
Проблема-рпп..
Моё состояние мягко говоря фиговое.
Я полностью погрязла в рпп.
Я каждый день ребят,КАЖДЫЙ без исключений переедаю и после пью всякие таблетки для пищеварения(редко не пью тк нет иногда возможности)
из за внутренней тревоги.
Давление родственников...те стресс каждый день.
Самое фиговое то что я никак не могу контролировать своё кп..
Да я запустила себя и я не знаю что делать.
Я пробовала питаться нормально без дефицита калорий,правильно питаться и тд но ничего не выходило..
Я не могу так всё оставлять...
⠀
И у меня каникулы как раз я на этой неделе обязана что то решить с этим..не знаю как я решу,в хорошую сторону или нет(ограничивая себя) я буду тут писать каждый день для самоконтроля и даже если я буду на гране от срыва то будет на моей совести то что я показала свою слабость в сети и перед самой собой..
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И почему же я оправдываюсь перед вами?
За всё время ведения этой страницы-вы 
мне стали очень дороги.
Некоторые из вас меня поддерживали в трудную минуту чему я очень благодарна.Спасибо тем кто остаётся со мной даже когда меня тут долго нет.
Я надеюсь на вашу активность в дальнейшем тк мне важно знать что вы со мной,что я не одна..
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И все кто дочитал до конца напишите что нибудь в комментариях,какой нибудь смайл или что то ещё,очень важно😰🙏🏼 ⠀
*возможно я удалю этот пост,всё решите вы* 
Ну что же
начнём новую жизнь тут?
20.11.18..
Ребята,мне нужно вам выговорится.. Лучше уж поздно чем НИКОГДА Я очень не хотела сюда появляться с нытьём но понимаю что я уже так не могу.. ⠀ Да,я оправдываюсь,не знаю зачем и почему (Наверное из за некого стыда(?) перед вами) но я пропадаю не потому что мне наплевать на вас. ⠀ Проблема-рпп.. Моё состояние мягко говоря фиговое. Я полностью погрязла в рпп. Я каждый день ребят,КАЖДЫЙ без исключений переедаю и после пью всякие таблетки для пищеварения(редко не пью тк нет иногда возможности) из за внутренней тревоги. Давление родственников...те стресс каждый день. Самое фиговое то что я никак не могу контролировать своё кп.. Да я запустила себя и я не знаю что делать. Я пробовала питаться нормально без дефицита калорий,правильно питаться и тд но ничего не выходило.. Я не могу так всё оставлять... ⠀ И у меня каникулы как раз я на этой неделе обязана что то решить с этим..не знаю как я решу,в хорошую сторону или нет(ограничивая себя) я буду тут писать каждый день для самоконтроля и даже если я буду на гране от срыва то будет на моей совести то что я показала свою слабость в сети и перед самой собой.. ⠀ И почему же я оправдываюсь перед вами? За всё время ведения этой страницы-вы мне стали очень дороги. Некоторые из вас меня поддерживали в трудную минуту чему я очень благодарна.Спасибо тем кто остаётся со мной даже когда меня тут долго нет. Я надеюсь на вашу активность в дальнейшем тк мне важно знать что вы со мной,что я не одна.. ⠀ И все кто дочитал до конца напишите что нибудь в комментариях,какой нибудь смайл или что то ещё,очень важно😰🙏🏼 ⠀ *возможно я удалю этот пост,всё решите вы* Ну что же начнём новую жизнь тут? 20.11.18..
This is to all my girls & gals who have had a negative sexual encounter. Mine was what stemmed the roots of my eating disorder. We are not alone in this. We are survivors. 
I am learning to admit that what happened was a big deal, and not sweep it under the rug. Through this I can learn to love myself & forgive myself for what happened with him. I can reconstruct my life in recovery and move on from the years I lost to my mental illness. 
We’re not alone my loves 💗🖤 -Kay
This is to all my girls & gals who have had a negative sexual encounter. Mine was what stemmed the roots of my eating disorder. We are not alone in this. We are survivors. I am learning to admit that what happened was a big deal, and not sweep it under the rug. Through this I can learn to love myself & forgive myself for what happened with him. I can reconstruct my life in recovery and move on from the years I lost to my mental illness. We’re not alone my loves 💗🖤 -Kay