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I’m sorry, I’m really a mess right now.  I’m trying my best to get it together some how... this week has been difficult and we are switching constantly and very emotional. Holidays are always so hard. #dissociativeidentitydisorder #mentalhealth #dissociation
Can you believe it? We’re still alive! Real life has been a lot to deal with lately so we’ve been focusing on real life and trying to spend less time on our phone in general. We’ve been dealing with home invasions, stalkers, and whatever else I said in this video post and amnesia has already erased for my personal stress management. 🙈🙉🙊🙏 I wanted to give a shoutout to @kristinchronicles because Kristin’s DID homeschool #7daysofpersonalgrowth daily challenge has been helping me find different ways of thinking about how I take care of me. I promised Kristin a week of posts at least a month ago and I’m still holding onto those posts. Tonight I’m enjoying a lovely glass of wine in my cold but quiet apartment. #dissociatedmind #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #trauma #recovery #homeinvasion #gunsinamerica #domesticviolence #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #dissociativeidentitymovement
Can you believe it? We’re still alive! Real life has been a lot to deal with lately so we’ve been focusing on real life and trying to spend less time on our phone in general. We’ve been dealing with home invasions, stalkers, and whatever else I said in this video post and amnesia has already erased for my personal stress management. 🙈🙉🙊🙏 I wanted to give a shoutout to @kristinchronicles because Kristin’s DID homeschool #7daysofpersonalgrowth  daily challenge has been helping me find different ways of thinking about how I take care of me. I promised Kristin a week of posts at least a month ago and I’m still holding onto those posts. Tonight I’m enjoying a lovely glass of wine in my cold but quiet apartment. #dissociatedmind  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociation  #trauma  #recovery  #homeinvasion  #gunsinamerica  #domesticviolence  #cptsd  #cptsdrecovery  #dissociativeidentitymovement 
⚠️Trigger warning⚠️
||Who the fuck am I||
Who am I?
A waste of space,
I want to die,
And leave no trace.
What am I?
Zero emotion,
Im a guy,
A ticking explosion.
Who the fuck am I?
Im losing my fucking mind,
I no longer try,
Motivation is hard to find.
What the fuck am I?
I have little purpose,
I cant even cry,
Ignore the fact I fucking cuss.
Im sorry what did you say?
That my issues mean nothing?
If I have a problem I should just pray?
Big or small my pain means something. 
No, I wont apologise,
Yes Im a fucking asshole
I wont hide it behind a disguise,
I dont want to be fake for its my personality you stole.
Its your fault for pushing me into feeling like I have to change to be perfect,
Its my fault for allowing myself to  drop,
But it is not my fault that no matter what Im a reject,
Tell me, why would it matter if my heart were to stop?
Just hit a vein?
Sure Ill hit three,
Not cause im insane,
But because thats just me.
Im a depressed life form,
That doesnt matter untill Im dead,
Causing an emotional storm,
I dont care, for I feel nothing instead.
My medication is making me wired,
I cant control anything,
Im just fucking tired,
I want to end my suffering.
Who am I?
Im invisible,
Just another guy,
Whos thought process is indescribable.
What am I?
A boy who isnt anybody's type an ugly man,
My eyes become dry,
Maybe... I can...
Who the fuck am I?
Down my cheek falls one single tear,
I just want to fucking die,
Yet I am stopped by fear...
What the fuck am I?
Unaware of if I should leave or stay,
All I do is sigh,
Ill keep trying till I succeed one day..
#depressed #depression #poem #poetry #sad #anxious #anxiety #vent #whoamI #lost #confused #suicidal #emotions #alone #scarred #affraid #idontmatter #insane #imsorry #hurt #pain #dissociation #thoughts
⚠️Trigger warning⚠️ ||Who the fuck am I|| Who am I? A waste of space, I want to die, And leave no trace. What am I? Zero emotion, Im a guy, A ticking explosion. Who the fuck am I? Im losing my fucking mind, I no longer try, Motivation is hard to find. What the fuck am I? I have little purpose, I cant even cry, Ignore the fact I fucking cuss. Im sorry what did you say? That my issues mean nothing? If I have a problem I should just pray? Big or small my pain means something. No, I wont apologise, Yes Im a fucking asshole I wont hide it behind a disguise, I dont want to be fake for its my personality you stole. Its your fault for pushing me into feeling like I have to change to be perfect, Its my fault for allowing myself to  drop, But it is not my fault that no matter what Im a reject, Tell me, why would it matter if my heart were to stop? Just hit a vein? Sure Ill hit three, Not cause im insane, But because thats just me. Im a depressed life form, That doesnt matter untill Im dead, Causing an emotional storm, I dont care, for I feel nothing instead. My medication is making me wired, I cant control anything, Im just fucking tired, I want to end my suffering. Who am I? Im invisible, Just another guy, Whos thought process is indescribable. What am I? A boy who isnt anybody's type an ugly man, My eyes become dry, Maybe... I can... Who the fuck am I? Down my cheek falls one single tear, I just want to fucking die, Yet I am stopped by fear... What the fuck am I? Unaware of if I should leave or stay, All I do is sigh, Ill keep trying till I succeed one day.. #depressed  #depression  #poem  #poetry  #sad  #anxious  #anxiety  #vent  #whoamI  #lost  #confused  #suicidal  #emotions  #alone  #scarred  #affraid  #idontmatter  #insane  #imsorry  #hurt  #pain  #dissociation  #thoughts 
“Messages From Her” — Sabrina Claudio @sabrinaclaudio 
#depression #anxiety #ptsd #dissociation #blur #blurry #slow #fog #photo #photography #series #numb #sabrinaclaudio #messages #from #her
Meta analyzing personal trauma pattern : scientific sacred witness : healing harvest from harm ::::
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decoding depth of innocence taken : deeply shaken : activist author awaken ::::
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compiling first public meta analysis of 'freeze' Tonic Immobility ('playing dead') trauma response in humans & translating academic jargon into lay-persons terms.
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Why? Because I freeze, go into tonic immobility, & disassociate when traumatized.
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FREEZING IS A TRAUMA RESPONSE. . :::: Trigger warning sexual assault ::::
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I have frozen as a trauma response several times in my life - most notably when my virginity was taken by rape. Had i known that freezing is a natural automatic response to trauma I would have avoided years of shame & guilt. Not to mention the social isolation of not speaking what had happened for far too long.
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Tragically once I did share I was questioned in an accusational manner whether it was really rape with retorts and cross examination such as 'why didn't you scream, try to escape, or fight back?' and 'why didn't you report?'.
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I didn't report because the system does not support victims and in fact actively discourages and disparages holding perpetrators accountable. Check out the research and recent headlines for proof of systemic & cultural biases that are just now beginning to shift into awareness & justice.
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Existentially exhausted by this toxic culture of victim blaming. Completing composition of 'CosenZ Consent' as a Curriculum for Connection to evolve our collective understanding of trauma & to share healing paths that have helped me.
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Today I realized my personal healing & continued learning is profoundly important as there is no established treatment in the literature for this prognosis, elevating the importance of my creation of one method in SomasenZ.
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Cont in comments.
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#trauma #freeze #Fight #flight #traumaresponse #tonicimmobility #freezing #playingdead #rape #sexualassault #assault #ididntreport  #victimblaming #survivor #rapesurvivor #assaultsurvivor #toxicculture #consent #education #metaanalysis #scienticliterature #science #healingrape #traumahealing #therapy #dissociation #review #scientificreview #psychology #PTSD
Meta analyzing personal trauma pattern : scientific sacred witness : healing harvest from harm :::: . decoding depth of innocence taken : deeply shaken : activist author awaken :::: . compiling first public meta analysis of 'freeze' Tonic Immobility ('playing dead') trauma response in humans & translating academic jargon into lay-persons terms. . Why? Because I freeze, go into tonic immobility, & disassociate when traumatized. . FREEZING IS A TRAUMA RESPONSE. . :::: Trigger warning sexual assault :::: . . . I have frozen as a trauma response several times in my life - most notably when my virginity was taken by rape. Had i known that freezing is a natural automatic response to trauma I would have avoided years of shame & guilt. Not to mention the social isolation of not speaking what had happened for far too long. . Tragically once I did share I was questioned in an accusational manner whether it was really rape with retorts and cross examination such as 'why didn't you scream, try to escape, or fight back?' and 'why didn't you report?'. . I didn't report because the system does not support victims and in fact actively discourages and disparages holding perpetrators accountable. Check out the research and recent headlines for proof of systemic & cultural biases that are just now beginning to shift into awareness & justice. . Existentially exhausted by this toxic culture of victim blaming. Completing composition of 'CosenZ Consent' as a Curriculum for Connection to evolve our collective understanding of trauma & to share healing paths that have helped me. . Today I realized my personal healing & continued learning is profoundly important as there is no established treatment in the literature for this prognosis, elevating the importance of my creation of one method in SomasenZ. . Cont in comments. . #trauma  #freeze  #Fight  #flight  #traumaresponse  #tonicimmobility  #freezing  #playingdead  #rape  #sexualassault  #assault  #ididntreport   #victimblaming  #survivor  #rapesurvivor  #assaultsurvivor  #toxicculture  #consent  #education  #metaanalysis  #scienticliterature  #science  #healingrape  #traumahealing  #therapy  #dissociation  #review  #scientificreview  #psychology  #PTSD 
-Artist: @littlearthlings -
I’ve been struggling a lot recently, but today was especially trying. Last night a lot of emotions came up for no particular reason, which triggered self harm urges that had been dormant for several months. I fought them the best I could, but I knew I needed some help so I texted the crisis text line (text HOME to 741-741) and talked with a crisis counselor for about 40 minutes until I felt okay enough to try and sleep. I hoped the morning would give me a clearer mind and that the day would be okay, but instead, about 30 minutes after I woke up, I crashed even worse than last night. I tried to leave my house to go to my classes, but every time I tried to get up, I had another breakdown. I had no motivation or reason to go to class and I had the classic heaviness in my chest of depression that made everything feel meaningless. I called my local crisis line and talked with someone for a little over an hour which made me feel a little less alone/hopeless and also helped me develop a plan for getting to class. I reached out to everyone in my support system to let them know what was going on. My therapist gave me a call to check up on how I was as I headed to class and told me to check-in later as well. Despite immense difficulty with functioning today, I made it through. I moved my therapy session a day earlier to tomorrow since I still feel pretty terrible. I’m proud of myself for reaching out when I felt so bad. Doing that showed myself that I was worthy of being taken care of and that I deserved to feel better than I did. .
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Suicide hotlines: 
U.S. 1-800-273-8255
U.K. 116 123
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#depression #depressed #anxiety #anxious #panicattacks #anxietyattacks #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #selflove #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealth #livingwithmentalillness #selfharmrecovery #depressionrecovery #anxietyrecovery #recovery #recoveryishard #ptsd #dissociation #cptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #bodydysmorphia #bdd #endthestigma #iwillrecover #childhoodtrauma
-Artist: @littlearthlings - I’ve been struggling a lot recently, but today was especially trying. Last night a lot of emotions came up for no particular reason, which triggered self harm urges that had been dormant for several months. I fought them the best I could, but I knew I needed some help so I texted the crisis text line (text HOME to 741-741) and talked with a crisis counselor for about 40 minutes until I felt okay enough to try and sleep. I hoped the morning would give me a clearer mind and that the day would be okay, but instead, about 30 minutes after I woke up, I crashed even worse than last night. I tried to leave my house to go to my classes, but every time I tried to get up, I had another breakdown. I had no motivation or reason to go to class and I had the classic heaviness in my chest of depression that made everything feel meaningless. I called my local crisis line and talked with someone for a little over an hour which made me feel a little less alone/hopeless and also helped me develop a plan for getting to class. I reached out to everyone in my support system to let them know what was going on. My therapist gave me a call to check up on how I was as I headed to class and told me to check-in later as well. Despite immense difficulty with functioning today, I made it through. I moved my therapy session a day earlier to tomorrow since I still feel pretty terrible. I’m proud of myself for reaching out when I felt so bad. Doing that showed myself that I was worthy of being taken care of and that I deserved to feel better than I did. . . Suicide hotlines: U.S. 1-800-273-8255 U.K. 116 123 . . #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #panicattacks  #anxietyattacks  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #selflove  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealth  #livingwithmentalillness  #selfharmrecovery  #depressionrecovery  #anxietyrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryishard  #ptsd  #dissociation  #cptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #bodydysmorphia  #bdd  #endthestigma  #iwillrecover  #childhoodtrauma 
We are very tired today.
We are very tired today.
(found on the "DID I meme that?" Facebook page. I find most of my d.i.d memes there lol)
Noticed I have quite a few followers now with d.i.d so now I can post d.i.d memes without feeling awkward :'D
Liiiiit

#sad #depression #memes #mentalillness #mentalhealthmemes #depressionmemes #depressed #schizophrenia #psychosis #ptsd #ptsdmemes #bipolar #bipolarmemes #dissociative #dissociation #dissociativeidentitydisorder #didmemes #dissociationmemes #schizo #schizoaffective #schizomemes #schizophreniamemes #anxiety #anxietymemes #meme #selfharm #suicide #suicidal #therapy #therapymemes
(found on the "DID I meme that?" Facebook page. I find most of my d.i.d memes there lol) Noticed I have quite a few followers now with d.i.d so now I can post d.i.d memes without feeling awkward :'D Liiiiit #sad  #depression  #memes  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmemes  #depressionmemes  #depressed  #schizophrenia  #psychosis  #ptsd  #ptsdmemes  #bipolar  #bipolarmemes  #dissociative  #dissociation  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #didmemes  #dissociationmemes  #schizo  #schizoaffective  #schizomemes  #schizophreniamemes  #anxiety  #anxietymemes  #meme  #selfharm  #suicide  #suicidal  #therapy  #therapymemes 
That sexy girl with the cleaver in the middle on the left, that’s my ass bitch. Also just so you know the right side of my head is shaved and I don’t have a heart tattoo I just liked it, I do have that piercing and gages. I’m a vampire, I don’t feel the cold, I’m a biker bitch. I’m lesbian, and I don’t like guys like at all, I have a brit-type accent and I’d love to hunt in the streets of London. Sucking the blood of unfaithful and ignorant men. I can transform into any bat species “inside” and sometimes I think that the body’s fangs extend and I like to be a tease and bite into our lip trying to extend them when Zo fronts. Honestly I am really only chill with Nelly I’m not much into socializing. And I love biting, very hard. -Emella.
#didsystem #numb #dissociation #dissociate #dissociativeidentitydisorder
That sexy girl with the cleaver in the middle on the left, that’s my ass bitch. Also just so you know the right side of my head is shaved and I don’t have a heart tattoo I just liked it, I do have that piercing and gages. I’m a vampire, I don’t feel the cold, I’m a biker bitch. I’m lesbian, and I don’t like guys like at all, I have a brit-type accent and I’d love to hunt in the streets of London. Sucking the blood of unfaithful and ignorant men. I can transform into any bat species “inside” and sometimes I think that the body’s fangs extend and I like to be a tease and bite into our lip trying to extend them when Zo fronts. Honestly I am really only chill with Nelly I’m not much into socializing. And I love biting, very hard. -Emella. #didsystem  #numb  #dissociation  #dissociate  #dissociativeidentitydisorder 
(Possible trigger warning🤔) Hello! I decided to create this page today, to share all of my stored mental health quotes and memes and tips, they are taking over my personal Instagram, so this will be more efficient and more fun! I also need everyones help and I want to help all of you in any way I can. I am 26 years old, from New York. I suffer from extreme anxiety, extreme social anxiety, panic disorder, severe chronic depression, ptsd, dissociation disorder and mild OCD. My life is hell, I cant lie, its hell every day. Most days I wish I wouldn't wake up if I'm being honest. But every day I do wake up, so I have to push on. I dont know how I do it most days. Half the time I'm so dissociated that I'm on auto pilot. The other half I'm doing anything I can to avoid all public places and social interactions and trying to remember to breathe becuse I have this weird phobia that I'm going to forget how to breathe🤷🏻‍♀️. I'm a fucking mess. I'm 5 weeks clean from self harm and it may be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, I might relapse, I dont know. Also, I'm not a writer by any means so this might be one of the most uninteresting bad grammared things you have ever read. Oops. I'm going to post on here maybe once a day, I would love to hear your stories and help in any way I can. Feel free to comment, dm anything you feel comfortable with! I'll get back to you asap! Also 99% of the stuff I post will not be original because I'm not that creative, but I'll give credit if I know the original creators. If you have something you would like me to repost, tag or dm me! I guess that's all for now! ❤ 
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #anxietymemes #anxietyquotes #depressionquotes #depression #depressionawareness #panicattack #panicdisorder #socialanxiety #ocdawareness #ocd #ptsd #ptsdawareness #disociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #selfharm #selfharmawareness #recovery #followme #iloveyou
(Possible trigger warning🤔) Hello! I decided to create this page today, to share all of my stored mental health quotes and memes and tips, they are taking over my personal Instagram, so this will be more efficient and more fun! I also need everyones help and I want to help all of you in any way I can. I am 26 years old, from New York. I suffer from extreme anxiety, extreme social anxiety, panic disorder, severe chronic depression, ptsd, dissociation disorder and mild OCD. My life is hell, I cant lie, its hell every day. Most days I wish I wouldn't wake up if I'm being honest. But every day I do wake up, so I have to push on. I dont know how I do it most days. Half the time I'm so dissociated that I'm on auto pilot. The other half I'm doing anything I can to avoid all public places and social interactions and trying to remember to breathe becuse I have this weird phobia that I'm going to forget how to breathe🤷🏻‍♀️. I'm a fucking mess. I'm 5 weeks clean from self harm and it may be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, I might relapse, I dont know. Also, I'm not a writer by any means so this might be one of the most uninteresting bad grammared things you have ever read. Oops. I'm going to post on here maybe once a day, I would love to hear your stories and help in any way I can. Feel free to comment, dm anything you feel comfortable with! I'll get back to you asap! Also 99% of the stuff I post will not be original because I'm not that creative, but I'll give credit if I know the original creators. If you have something you would like me to repost, tag or dm me! I guess that's all for now! ❤ #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #anxiety  #anxietymemes  #anxietyquotes  #depressionquotes  #depression  #depressionawareness  #panicattack  #panicdisorder  #socialanxiety  #ocdawareness  #ocd  #ptsd  #ptsdawareness  #disociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociation  #selfharm  #selfharmawareness  #recovery  #followme  #iloveyou 
Rock bottom is the solid foundation on which I built my life ❤️ Thank god for that. I was so guarded, so wounded and so afraid. We get sick so we can get better.
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#depression #anxiety #ocd #bipolar #dissociation #bpd #scizophrenia #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #fear #bravery #alldaeanswers #selfloveclub
If your heart is racing, breathe through it, in the spot that it lives in your chest, and wait for the wisdom that lies within you ❤️
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#depression #anxiety #ocd #bipolar #dissociation #bpd #scizophrenia #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #fear #bravery #alldaeanswers #selfloveclub
You are a human with a system that is out of whack. Remember that your symptoms are intelligent and if you listen closely to what your body is trying to tell you, you may find a very important message. 
#depression #anxiety #ocd #bipolar #dissociation #bpd #scizophrenia #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #fear #bravery #alldaeanswers #selfloveclub
haaaaaaaa bitch you think i can’t procrastinate self improvement? watch me avoid this meme. look i put a rainbow on it.
haaaaaaaa bitch you think i can’t procrastinate self improvement? watch me avoid this meme. look i put a rainbow on it.
Yesterday I dissociated really bad, so I thought it would be good to share something about grounding to help others and myself #grounding #dissociation #anxiety
Yesterday I dissociated really bad, so I thought it would be good to share something about grounding to help others and myself #grounding  #dissociation  #anxiety 
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By the last time in the car
Then I already knew
At the time I laughed
I didn't know what to believe
Couldn't stay for you
What a strange way to lose
Take you, I couldn't take you
Don't confuse being set free
With being discarded and lonely
I tried to tell you we never change 🖤🖤🎶
#dillinger #dissociation
. . . . By the last time in the car Then I already knew At the time I laughed I didn't know what to believe Couldn't stay for you What a strange way to lose Take you, I couldn't take you Don't confuse being set free With being discarded and lonely I tried to tell you we never change 🖤🖤🎶 #dillinger  #dissociation 
and another portrait reflecting mood mixed with some physical traits!! this one is meant to represent one of many forms of my dissociation! the incredibly "dead" emotionless eyes is a pretty important part of this piece to me! 
#artistsoninstagram #queerartist #spoonieartist #art #traditionalart #sharpie #sharpieart #ventart #portrait #dissociation
How do I find my fursona I wanna become the true me for 2019
How do I find my fursona I wanna become the true me for 2019
I’m actually not sorry but whatever! We’ve made some huge strides in the last few years in terms of how society views mental health/mental illness, but the fight is FAR from over. There is still so much stigma, ignorance, and misinformation floating around that even I get discouraged sometimes. But we’ve made it this far already, and there’s no way we’re gonna stop now😊✨
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I’m actually not sorry but whatever! We’ve made some huge strides in the last few years in terms of how society views mental health/mental illness, but the fight is FAR from over. There is still so much stigma, ignorance, and misinformation floating around that even I get discouraged sometimes. But we’ve made it this far already, and there’s no way we’re gonna stop now😊✨ • @activismqueen
Be proud of yourself for the little things! Maybe you were able to get up and take a shower today. Or maybe you remembered to take your meds, make your bed, go for a walk... anything positive that you do for yourself is a step in the right direction & I’m proud of you for that. If you’re having a really shitty day and you weren’t able to do anything at all, I’m still proud of you!!! You’re here & you got this. This shitty day will pass & you’ll still be great tomorrow.
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Be proud of yourself for the little things! Maybe you were able to get up and take a shower today. Or maybe you remembered to take your meds, make your bed, go for a walk... anything positive that you do for yourself is a step in the right direction & I’m proud of you for that. If you’re having a really shitty day and you weren’t able to do anything at all, I’m still proud of you!!! You’re here & you got this. This shitty day will pass & you’ll still be great tomorrow. • @frances_cannon
@courteneyrene // Hi, my name is Courteney! I’m 22 years old and from Anchorage, AK. •
I’ve been struggling with mental illness since the age of 12 after my older sister died by suicide. I’ve been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder (BPD) and PSTD. For so long I hid behind a smile. No one knew how bad I was struggling. I stayed silent and people thought I was the happiest person they knew.
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In June 2017, things got so awful and I couldn’t stay silent anymore. I was hospitalized for the first time and it was the beginning of a very long journey. Since then, I’ve had over a dozen suicide attempts and hospital stays, I’ve been in the ICU 4 times, I’ve spent over 70 days at a state institution and been through residential twice.
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I’ve been given up on by many mental health professionals. I’ve lost a lot of family and friends throughout this. People just don’t understand. I wish people knew that I didn’t choose this. Mental illness is not a choice. I wish more than anything I didn’t feel this excruciating pain every single second.
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I still struggle every single day. Life seems unbearable and I never know how I’ll make it through another day. I don’t see any hope. How can I when it feels like everyone has given up on me? I feel like I’m drowning. I feel like I’m suffocating.
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I take it second by second. Longing to one day feel happiness again. Waiting for the day where I’m not wishing to die. I’m fighting. I’m still here when I was for sure I wouldn’t be. There has to be more to all this pain. I just know there has to be.
@courteneyrene // Hi, my name is Courteney! I’m 22 years old and from Anchorage, AK. • I’ve been struggling with mental illness since the age of 12 after my older sister died by suicide. I’ve been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, borderline personality disorder (BPD) and PSTD. For so long I hid behind a smile. No one knew how bad I was struggling. I stayed silent and people thought I was the happiest person they knew. • In June 2017, things got so awful and I couldn’t stay silent anymore. I was hospitalized for the first time and it was the beginning of a very long journey. Since then, I’ve had over a dozen suicide attempts and hospital stays, I’ve been in the ICU 4 times, I’ve spent over 70 days at a state institution and been through residential twice. • I’ve been given up on by many mental health professionals. I’ve lost a lot of family and friends throughout this. People just don’t understand. I wish people knew that I didn’t choose this. Mental illness is not a choice. I wish more than anything I didn’t feel this excruciating pain every single second. • I still struggle every single day. Life seems unbearable and I never know how I’ll make it through another day. I don’t see any hope. How can I when it feels like everyone has given up on me? I feel like I’m drowning. I feel like I’m suffocating. • I take it second by second. Longing to one day feel happiness again. Waiting for the day where I’m not wishing to die. I’m fighting. I’m still here when I was for sure I wouldn’t be. There has to be more to all this pain. I just know there has to be.
I woke up today with familiar scenes playing in my head. It starts with a feeling. Nervous, sad, afraid. Then I can start to hear the scenes or even see them. Sometimes I feel them. Flashbacks. I can hear all the things they're saying. "You're worthless. An abomination. You'll never amount to anything." Time doesn't work the same. It's not linear. I can't remember when the praying started but I remember thinking "I don't even know if I'm gay. Sometimes I'm definitely not. I don't understand. I can't admit it. I can't deny it. What's wrong with me?" I started to lose my day to these flashbacks and worse. I started getting down on myself and saying she's right. I'm worthless. But then I started painting and I got my day back. My name is Regina and I'm gay. My twin, Mindi, is straight. I guess you could call us alters, but we're people just like you. Anyway, sometimes we kinda mix together. It's called co-consciousness. Finally finding the answers in our diagnosis has helped me so much. I still have a long way to go but at least I can shut that bitch up. Anyway, I'm calling this one "Hey mom, I don't think your holy oil worked." Regina 😘😘
I woke up today with familiar scenes playing in my head. It starts with a feeling. Nervous, sad, afraid. Then I can start to hear the scenes or even see them. Sometimes I feel them. Flashbacks. I can hear all the things they're saying. "You're worthless. An abomination. You'll never amount to anything." Time doesn't work the same. It's not linear. I can't remember when the praying started but I remember thinking "I don't even know if I'm gay. Sometimes I'm definitely not. I don't understand. I can't admit it. I can't deny it. What's wrong with me?" I started to lose my day to these flashbacks and worse. I started getting down on myself and saying she's right. I'm worthless. But then I started painting and I got my day back. My name is Regina and I'm gay. My twin, Mindi, is straight. I guess you could call us alters, but we're people just like you. Anyway, sometimes we kinda mix together. It's called co-consciousness. Finally finding the answers in our diagnosis has helped me so much. I still have a long way to go but at least I can shut that bitch up. Anyway, I'm calling this one "Hey mom, I don't think your holy oil worked." Regina 😘😘
Hello everyone! I just wanted to take a minute and share a great story with you. It’s not often we get to read an accurate story about DID written by someone who ACTUALLY has it and knows what it’s like. Ouroboros is captivating, beautifully written, and the art is just as amazing. I HIGHLY recommend this story. So please, go check out @samowen819 and their story that is breaking the DID stigma. Give them a follow and check out their patron page too! A link is in their bio and I will be providing the link in mine as well. Thanks for reading and I hope you all are having a nice day! ((WARNING- not suitable for those under the age of 16)) #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativeidentitydisorderawareness #dissociation #dissociative
Hello everyone! I just wanted to take a minute and share a great story with you. It’s not often we get to read an accurate story about DID written by someone who ACTUALLY has it and knows what it’s like. Ouroboros is captivating, beautifully written, and the art is just as amazing. I HIGHLY recommend this story. So please, go check out @samowen819 and their story that is breaking the DID stigma. Give them a follow and check out their patron page too! A link is in their bio and I will be providing the link in mine as well. Thanks for reading and I hope you all are having a nice day! ((WARNING- not suitable for those under the age of 16)) #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociativeidentitydisorderawareness  #dissociation  #dissociative 
Some things hit close to home... suicide... most of the time we hear about this when it’s to late. 
Statements like “I didn’t know he/she was suffering”, “it’s selfish”, “why didn’t they tell me”, “why why why”, “I could have prevented this”, “if only...” First of all no it’s not your fault neither it’s the fault of someone who tried or committed suicide. 
It may seem selfish but trust me when you hit rock bottom and your thoughts take this dark path it SEEMS like the only choice. 
Keep in mind for those who are struggling YOU DO HAVE A CHOICE AND YOU DO HAVE A VOICE. You don’t need to act! 
For those who have lost someone to suicide, I’m deeply sorry for your loss! 
Know that it’s not your fault, in that moment in that second the suffering was harder than the believe. 
I’m not saying life is a fairytale and everything is gonna go easy but whatever that seems to difficult right now will pass. 
I love you and I care for you ♥️ #suicideprevention #suicide #suicideawareness #depression #mentalhealth #loss #grief #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #5in1 #metoo #recovery #recoveryispossible #endthestigma #thistooshallpass #takecare #takecareofyourself #grieving #sadness #youmatter #youarebeautiful #believeinyourself #bpd #mbt #dissociation #anxiety #trauma #youarenotalone
Some things hit close to home... suicide... most of the time we hear about this when it’s to late. Statements like “I didn’t know he/she was suffering”, “it’s selfish”, “why didn’t they tell me”, “why why why”, “I could have prevented this”, “if only...” First of all no it’s not your fault neither it’s the fault of someone who tried or committed suicide. It may seem selfish but trust me when you hit rock bottom and your thoughts take this dark path it SEEMS like the only choice. Keep in mind for those who are struggling YOU DO HAVE A CHOICE AND YOU DO HAVE A VOICE. You don’t need to act! For those who have lost someone to suicide, I’m deeply sorry for your loss! Know that it’s not your fault, in that moment in that second the suffering was harder than the believe. I’m not saying life is a fairytale and everything is gonna go easy but whatever that seems to difficult right now will pass. I love you and I care for you ♥️ #suicideprevention  #suicide  #suicideawareness  #depression  #mentalhealth  #loss  #grief  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #5in1  #metoo  #recovery  #recoveryispossible  #endthestigma  #thistooshallpass  #takecare  #takecareofyourself  #grieving  #sadness  #youmatter  #youarebeautiful  #believeinyourself  #bpd  #mbt  #dissociation  #anxiety  #trauma  #youarenotalone 
The campaign to fund the printing of Zen & the Ephemeral, comic about wellness & spirituality (or, How to Lose Your Mind to Find Wisdom) has reached above 3000$ so I drew this celebrate! See the link in the bio for more!⠀
#zen #spirituality #meditation #yoga #ghosts #paranormal #dissociation #psychology #comics #graphicnovels #kickstarter #campaign #crowdfunding #selfpublished #indiecomics #montreal #quebec #ndg #canada art #artist
Edited pic (obs lol): Made a new video & blog post live talking about grounding techniques for dissociation ✨ What is dissociation? “The splitting off of a group of mental processes from the main body of consciousness, as in amnesia or certain form of hysteria.” Link in my bio & IG stories. ALSO, follow my story today! I’m going to be vlogging later! ✊🏼 #mentalhealth #dissociation #groundingtechniques
Edited pic (obs lol): Made a new video & blog post live talking about grounding techniques for dissociation ✨ What is dissociation? “The splitting off of a group of mental processes from the main body of consciousness, as in amnesia or certain form of hysteria.” Link in my bio & IG stories. ALSO, follow my story today! I’m going to be vlogging later! ✊🏼 #mentalhealth  #dissociation  #groundingtechniques 
Hello everyone! I just wanted to take a minute and share a great story with you. It’s not often we get to read an accurate story about DID written by someone who ACTUALLY has it and knows what it’s like. Ouroboros is captivating, beautifully written, and the art is just as amazing. I HIGHLY recommend this story. So please, go check out @samowen819 and their story that is breaking the DID stigma. Give them a follow and check out their patron page too! A link is in their bio and I will be providing the link in mine as well. Thanks for reading and I hope you all are having a nice day! ((WARNING- not suitable for those under the age of 16)) #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativeidentitydisorderawareness #dissociation #dissociative
Hello everyone! I just wanted to take a minute and share a great story with you. It’s not often we get to read an accurate story about DID written by someone who ACTUALLY has it and knows what it’s like. Ouroboros is captivating, beautifully written, and the art is just as amazing. I HIGHLY recommend this story. So please, go check out @samowen819 and their story that is breaking the DID stigma. Give them a follow and check out their patron page too! A link is in their bio and I will be providing the link in mine as well. Thanks for reading and I hope you all are having a nice day! ((WARNING- not suitable for those under the age of 16)) #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociativeidentitydisorderawareness  #dissociation  #dissociative 
Today I did one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I finally reported the abuse I went through. It was extremely uncomfortable, but the police woman was so lovely and very patient. I’ve spoken to police a few other times about different things and they have always be amazing. This was just the start of the healing. Thank you so those few who have been with me the last few days. 💕
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#mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #depression #depressed #anxiety #PTSD #trauma #bpd #eupd #rapesurvivor #rapeculture #suicideawareness #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #survive #sexualassault #sexualabuse #survivor #bpdrecovery #relapse #voices #dissociation #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #recover #recovery
Today I did one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I finally reported the abuse I went through. It was extremely uncomfortable, but the police woman was so lovely and very patient. I’ve spoken to police a few other times about different things and they have always be amazing. This was just the start of the healing. Thank you so those few who have been with me the last few days. 💕 • • • • #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthawareness  #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #PTSD  #trauma  #bpd  #eupd  #rapesurvivor  #rapeculture  #suicideawareness  #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #personalitydisorder  #survive  #sexualassault  #sexualabuse  #survivor  #bpdrecovery  #relapse  #voices  #dissociation  #suicidal  #suicidalthoughts  #recover  #recovery 
I've made posts on Facebook that are long enough to be some University type major paper important and professional about this. I'm constantly rambling and fighting and going off. Ain't no one can stop me I will fight to the death on this.
Also therapy went really well I talked about difficult things and made some good progress and accomplishments eyyy

#sad #depression #memes #mentalillness #mentalhealthmemes #depressionmemes #depressed #schizophrenia #psychosis #ptsd #ptsdmemes #bipolar #bipolarmemes #dissociative #dissociation #dissociativeidentitydisorder #didmemes #dissociationmemes #schizo #schizoaffective #schizomemes #schizophreniamemes #anxiety #anxietymemes #meme #selfharm #suicide #suicidal #therapy #therapymemes
I've made posts on Facebook that are long enough to be some University type major paper important and professional about this. I'm constantly rambling and fighting and going off. Ain't no one can stop me I will fight to the death on this. Also therapy went really well I talked about difficult things and made some good progress and accomplishments eyyy #sad  #depression  #memes  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmemes  #depressionmemes  #depressed  #schizophrenia  #psychosis  #ptsd  #ptsdmemes  #bipolar  #bipolarmemes  #dissociative  #dissociation  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #didmemes  #dissociationmemes  #schizo  #schizoaffective  #schizomemes  #schizophreniamemes  #anxiety  #anxietymemes  #meme  #selfharm  #suicide  #suicidal  #therapy  #therapymemes 
Source: @whole_embodied_therapist ・・・
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Logic & reason require a part of our brain called the frontal lobe (if your fist represented your brain, the upper part of your knuckles would be the frontal lobe). It’s a wonderful part of our brain & part of what makes us humans...AND it can get shutdown when our bodies perceive we’re in danger (eg- trauma response).⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Also trauma isn’t stored in our frontal lobe- it’s stored in the limbic system (if you put your thumb inside your fist- that roughly represents your limbic system). It’s deep inside your #brain & it’s concerned with taking in sensory input, & sends back out emotional responses. It’s very concerned with alerting us to danger. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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(Fun fact: it’s a #RELATIONAL part of our brain. Our limbic system is created, shaped & reshaped in relationship!)
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Lots of broad strokes/ overgeneralization of brain- so what’s the take away?!? When someone is activated by trauma- logic & reason aren’t super helpful because that part of the brain is offline. What helps? CONNECTION.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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It can be connection to our surrounding, to our bodies, to #compassionate parts of ourselves or to another human. These are all things our limbic system can understand & once we help the limbic system to calm & acknowledge there is no present danger, the frontal lobe can come back online & then we can problem-solve & logic again.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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#Trauma isn’t your fault & it’s not something you can logic your way out of... #connection & compassion are what’s needed. It’s okay to #struggle & okay to need help. You’re not broken. And you’re not alone. You are resilient.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Source: @whole_embodied_therapist ・・・ Logic and reason are good things, and they’re not super helpful when we’re activated by trauma.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It’s no one’s fault for not being able to be logical when activated by trauma- its actually just neurobiology. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Logic & reason require a part of our brain called the frontal lobe (if your fist represented your brain, the upper part of your knuckles would be the frontal lobe). It’s a wonderful part of our brain & part of what makes us humans...AND it can get shutdown when our bodies perceive we’re in danger (eg- trauma response).⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Also trauma isn’t stored in our frontal lobe- it’s stored in the limbic system (if you put your thumb inside your fist- that roughly represents your limbic system). It’s deep inside your #brain  & it’s concerned with taking in sensory input, & sends back out emotional responses. It’s very concerned with alerting us to danger. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ (Fun fact: it’s a #RELATIONAL  part of our brain. Our limbic system is created, shaped & reshaped in relationship!) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Lots of broad strokes/ overgeneralization of brain- so what’s the take away?!? When someone is activated by trauma- logic & reason aren’t super helpful because that part of the brain is offline. What helps? CONNECTION.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It can be connection to our surrounding, to our bodies, to #compassionate  parts of ourselves or to another human. These are all things our limbic system can understand & once we help the limbic system to calm & acknowledge there is no present danger, the frontal lobe can come back online & then we can problem-solve & logic again.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #Trauma  isn’t your fault & it’s not something you can logic your way out of... #connection  & compassion are what’s needed. It’s okay to #struggle  & okay to need help. You’re not broken. And you’re not alone. You are resilient.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #traumasurvivor  #traumarecovery  #cptsdrecovery  #ptsdwarrior  #notalone  #traumainformed  #compassion  #selfcompassion  #relationships  #connection 
Hey lovely people 💗 I had a very busy day today. Took a plane back home to Berlin and had to cuddle my cats afterwards until my best friend came over. I missed the kittens so much 😍 Today I decided that I will treat myself to a yoga & hiking retreat when I am stable enough. That’s another huuuge thing to look forward to and to recover for. What is your number 1 reason to recover? 😘 
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Quote of the day: “And the day came  when the risk to remain in a tight bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” - Anais Nin 🌺🌻
Hey lovely people 💗 I had a very busy day today. Took a plane back home to Berlin and had to cuddle my cats afterwards until my best friend came over. I missed the kittens so much 😍 Today I decided that I will treat myself to a yoga & hiking retreat when I am stable enough. That’s another huuuge thing to look forward to and to recover for. What is your number 1 reason to recover? 😘 _ Quote of the day: “And the day came when the risk to remain in a tight bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” - Anais Nin 🌺🌻
Ведь согласись, как странно
Что оба обещания бывают ложью:
"Еще увидимся" и "Это был последний раз"
Но все же без обмана
Таким как мы любить бывает сложно
Без панциря из этих нежных лживых фраз
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#Grammar_Narci
#grammar_narci_стихи
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#стихи #современнаяпоэзия #стихисосмыслом #стихиочувствах #стихиолюбви #поэзия21века #поэзия #occasionalpoetry #poetry #2amthoughts #нарциссы #нарциссизм #selfdestruction #токсичныеотношения #dissociation #bpd #npd #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #narcissism #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #emotionalabuse #toxicrelationships #emotions #feelings #copingmechanism
Ведь согласись, как странно Что оба обещания бывают ложью: "Еще увидимся" и "Это был последний раз" Но все же без обмана Таким как мы любить бывает сложно Без панциря из этих нежных лживых фраз 🤐🌸 #Grammar_Narci  #grammar_narci_стихи  ・・・ #стихи  #современнаяпоэзия  #стихисосмыслом  #стихиочувствах  #стихиолюбви  #поэзия21века  #поэзия  #occasionalpoetry  #poetry  #2amthoughts  #нарциссы  #нарциссизм  #selfdestruction  #токсичныеотношения  #dissociation  #bpd  #npd  #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder  #narcissism  #narcissist  #narcissisticabuse  #emotionalabuse  #toxicrelationships  #emotions  #feelings  #copingmechanism 
One thing we have always relished is a good book. Since we were young we have always thoroughly enjoyed reading. It provides a distraction from everyday stressors and helps immerse us in to the lives of powerful characters. Do you enjoy reading? What’s the latest book you are reading?
One thing we have always relished is a good book. Since we were young we have always thoroughly enjoyed reading. It provides a distraction from everyday stressors and helps immerse us in to the lives of powerful characters. Do you enjoy reading? What’s the latest book you are reading?
I did my hair and put makeup on and I feel a little more alive so I took a selfie or two 😂
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I’ve been so stuck with my physical health and my mental health recently, it’s been rough.
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#selfie #mentalhealth #mentalillness #bpd #ocd #eupd #depression #mood #dissociation #smallthings #recovery #mentalhealthawareness #awareness #selfharmrecovery #imok #ehlersdanlossyndrome #ehlersdanlos #zebrasneedzebras #zebrastrong #spoonie #unwell #overwhelmed
I did my hair and put makeup on and I feel a little more alive so I took a selfie or two 😂 - I’ve been so stuck with my physical health and my mental health recently, it’s been rough. - I also washed my hair for the first time in way too long ✌🏼 ↓ ↓ ↓ ↓ #selfie  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #bpd  #ocd  #eupd  #depression  #mood  #dissociation  #smallthings  #recovery  #mentalhealthawareness  #awareness  #selfharmrecovery  #imok  #ehlersdanlossyndrome  #ehlersdanlos  #zebrasneedzebras  #zebrastrong  #spoonie  #unwell  #overwhelmed 
Mental illness has a face. The face sometimes smiles to hide the confusion and turmoil inside. There is nothing wrong with the face. It looks normal. She looks normal from the outside. It's the brain inside the skin that is temporarily broken, split up into segments like a christmassy Terry's chocolate orange. The body did the yoga today. The husband drove the car as we can't drive. It was her first time breathing fresh air in many days. Imani isn't there in her head alone. She is curled up in a ball in the shadows asleep while us parts spring into action and speak for her and do the thinking and the doing. This is the first time we have had to run her business. We don't feel equipped, but we are trying hard and managing. Mental illness has no set face. The face is not a drooling mess of mashed up dripping stereotypes. I am me, and today we are her. She is a multiple, though she looks like there is just one of her because her alters/parts/identities have only one face to house us all. Thank you lots to Alex at HPY who (as always) was lovely before and after the class, making us feel comfy and safe.  Going to yoga when heavily dissociated was hard and nerve wracking and we pulled on her ponytail awkwardly when we tried to explain to Alex that things were not good and we were not well. We felt mad, because right now we ARE a bit mad, but this madness is a automatic coping strategy that works well when Imani most needs the cotton wool protection and company of all of us in the dissociative system. Our brain is overactive and busy and we are all tired even though the brain is mad and the face still smiles. Love us. X #summerSHINES #dissociation #alters #did #dissociativeidentity #dissociativesystem #traumadissociation #brainescape #brainfreeze
Mental illness has a face. The face sometimes smiles to hide the confusion and turmoil inside. There is nothing wrong with the face. It looks normal. She looks normal from the outside. It's the brain inside the skin that is temporarily broken, split up into segments like a christmassy Terry's chocolate orange. The body did the yoga today. The husband drove the car as we can't drive. It was her first time breathing fresh air in many days. Imani isn't there in her head alone. She is curled up in a ball in the shadows asleep while us parts spring into action and speak for her and do the thinking and the doing. This is the first time we have had to run her business. We don't feel equipped, but we are trying hard and managing. Mental illness has no set face. The face is not a drooling mess of mashed up dripping stereotypes. I am me, and today we are her. She is a multiple, though she looks like there is just one of her because her alters/parts/identities have only one face to house us all. Thank you lots to Alex at HPY who (as always) was lovely before and after the class, making us feel comfy and safe. Going to yoga when heavily dissociated was hard and nerve wracking and we pulled on her ponytail awkwardly when we tried to explain to Alex that things were not good and we were not well. We felt mad, because right now we ARE a bit mad, but this madness is a automatic coping strategy that works well when Imani most needs the cotton wool protection and company of all of us in the dissociative system. Our brain is overactive and busy and we are all tired even though the brain is mad and the face still smiles. Love us. X #summerSHINES  #dissociation  #alters  #did  #dissociativeidentity  #dissociativesystem  #traumadissociation  #brainescape  #brainfreeze 
Yup. Yup. Yup. Yup. Yup. And yup.😴😓 i haven't felt like this in years!!! .
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#bpd #hospital #borederline #emotionallyunstablebitch #personalitydisorder #mentalhealthuk #confused #depressed #dissociation #2018 #ihatemylife #ihatemyhead #trauma #triggered #trapped
On my way to therappyyyyy~
Wonder how my therapist is gonna react to all my new self harm oof. I mean... It ain't THAT bad but to a therapist it's that bad simply cuz I did it which is understandable I suppose lol

#sad #depression #memes #mentalillness #mentalhealthmemes #depressionmemes #depressed #schizophrenia #psychosis #ptsd #ptsdmemes #bipolar #bipolarmemes #dissociative #dissociation #dissociativeidentitydisorder #didmemes #dissociationmemes #schizo #schizoaffective #schizomemes #schizophreniamemes #anxiety #anxietymemes #meme #selfharm #suicide #suicidal #therapy #therapymemes
On my way to therappyyyyy~ Wonder how my therapist is gonna react to all my new self harm oof. I mean... It ain't THAT bad but to a therapist it's that bad simply cuz I did it which is understandable I suppose lol #sad  #depression  #memes  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmemes  #depressionmemes  #depressed  #schizophrenia  #psychosis  #ptsd  #ptsdmemes  #bipolar  #bipolarmemes  #dissociative  #dissociation  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #didmemes  #dissociationmemes  #schizo  #schizoaffective  #schizomemes  #schizophreniamemes  #anxiety  #anxietymemes  #meme  #selfharm  #suicide  #suicidal  #therapy  #therapymemes 
My school day was nice. Two teachers were great about my two week absence and let me pick the best way for me to study the things they studied while I was away. I still need to check with a few other teachers but I think I'll make it through. I can do the online courses later so I don't have to worry about them either. I spent the evening with my boyfriend, we ate at a Chinese restaurant and arranged some money and insurance stuff after. He's sleeping now here at my place, I'll do laundry and school work and go to bed next to him early too because I slept very poorly last night. I have a good feeling about school now, I just have to listen to myself, give me a break if I need it and if I have too much school stuff to do, I'll just contact the teachers and they'll give me some extra time. I can do this! 💪
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #dissociation #dissociativedisorder #traumaandrelationships #relationship #hope #fighter #recovery #selfcare #happiness #feelgood
My school day was nice. Two teachers were great about my two week absence and let me pick the best way for me to study the things they studied while I was away. I still need to check with a few other teachers but I think I'll make it through. I can do the online courses later so I don't have to worry about them either. I spent the evening with my boyfriend, we ate at a Chinese restaurant and arranged some money and insurance stuff after. He's sleeping now here at my place, I'll do laundry and school work and go to bed next to him early too because I slept very poorly last night. I have a good feeling about school now, I just have to listen to myself, give me a break if I need it and if I have too much school stuff to do, I'll just contact the teachers and they'll give me some extra time. I can do this! 💪 #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #dissociation  #dissociativedisorder  #traumaandrelationships  #relationship  #hope  #fighter  #recovery  #selfcare  #happiness  #feelgood 
To smash or not to smash?? That is the question we will be answering in our newest episode on The Incredible Hulk. We are also joined by the awesome hosts of Capes on the Couch, a podcast discussing mental health via comic book characters. We will be breaking down the character of the Hulk with a concentration on the standalone movie “The Incredible Hulk” with Edward Norton. But don’t worry if he’s not your favorite Hulk because we will also be touching upon the portrayal by Mark Ruffalo in the Avengers movies and Thor Ragnorak. We explore a variety of topics: anger management, anxiety, panic attacks, dissociation, PTSD, and toxic aggression; with the help of our guests. And make sure to check out our guest appearances on the Capes on the Couch episode about Hulk! #popcornpsychology #podcasts #podcast #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #hulk #theincrediblehulk #edwardnorton #brucebanner #markruffalo #theavengers #avengers #superheroes #hulksmash #angermanagement #anxiety #panicattack #panicattacks #dissociation #ptsd
To smash or not to smash?? That is the question we will be answering in our newest episode on The Incredible Hulk. We are also joined by the awesome hosts of Capes on the Couch, a podcast discussing mental health via comic book characters. We will be breaking down the character of the Hulk with a concentration on the standalone movie “The Incredible Hulk” with Edward Norton. But don’t worry if he’s not your favorite Hulk because we will also be touching upon the portrayal by Mark Ruffalo in the Avengers movies and Thor Ragnorak. We explore a variety of topics: anger management, anxiety, panic attacks, dissociation, PTSD, and toxic aggression; with the help of our guests. And make sure to check out our guest appearances on the Capes on the Couch episode about Hulk! #popcornpsychology  #podcasts  #podcast  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #hulk  #theincrediblehulk  #edwardnorton  #brucebanner  #markruffalo  #theavengers  #avengers  #superheroes  #hulksmash  #angermanagement  #anxiety  #panicattack  #panicattacks  #dissociation  #ptsd 
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Average leaders raise the bar on themselves; good leaders raise the bar for others; great leaders inspire others to raise their own bar.⠀
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Average leaders raise the bar on themselves; good leaders raise the bar for others; great leaders inspire others to raise their own bar.⠀ —Orrin Woodward⠀ ⠀ @Hart4Recoveryorg⠀ ⠀ #h4r  #wedorecover  #loveyourjourney  #itswhatwedo  #balance  #counselorlife  #abusesurvivor  #1in4  #dissociation  #cptsd  #ocdawareness  #personalitydisorder  #healing  #depressionsupport  #professionalhelp  #narawareness  #crazymaking  #strongwoman  #strongfirst  #strongissexy  #strongandsober  #strongisbeautiful  #strongmindstrongbody  #strongminded  #plantstrong  #balanceisthekey 
How I feel today is a big ball of nope. I’m having a v low day where I just don’t feel worthy of anything. I’m just lying face down, don’t have the energy to put clothes on or eat something, don’t feel deserving of my medication or personal hygiene. Definitely have had no attempt at human contact or contact of any kind. I don’t even want to smoke or get high because I’m not worth it. Even my most unhelpful coping strategies are too far, I don’t feel worthy of pain or torment. Today is just a big nope and that’s the only way I can explain it.
#eupd #bpd #dissociation #manichighs #worselows #ijustcant #idontwanttoo #someonepleasehelp #emotionalinstability #gonnabehereallday #nomovement #noemotion #help #no #nope #naw #allivegottosay #itsanofromme
How I feel today is a big ball of nope. I’m having a v low day where I just don’t feel worthy of anything. I’m just lying face down, don’t have the energy to put clothes on or eat something, don’t feel deserving of my medication or personal hygiene. Definitely have had no attempt at human contact or contact of any kind. I don’t even want to smoke or get high because I’m not worth it. Even my most unhelpful coping strategies are too far, I don’t feel worthy of pain or torment. Today is just a big nope and that’s the only way I can explain it. #eupd  #bpd  #dissociation  #manichighs  #worselows  #ijustcant  #idontwanttoo  #someonepleasehelp  #emotionalinstability  #gonnabehereallday  #nomovement  #noemotion  #help  #no  #nope  #naw  #allivegottosay  #itsanofromme 
@vicgabame working on dissociation, hip/glute loading, as well as both active and passive t-spine mobility.
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#tspinemobility #dissociation #hips #glutes #mobility #antirotation #golftraining #golfswingmechanics #strengthandconditioning #strengthtraining #musclebuilding #movewithintention #functionaltraining #strengthcoach #tampafitness #southtampa @oakspg @jacobs_fitness
Good morning everyone! Try not to make things more complicated than they need to be, breathe, you’re not responsible for the feelings or actions of others⠀
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#SickNotWeak #MentalHealthAwareness #mentalhealthadvocate #gym #carbs #healthycarbs #pun #meme #funny #laugh #adulting #parenting #memesdaily #inspiration #spiritual #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #anxietyproblems #ptsd #depression #cptsd #iggers #instamood #geek #geekygirl
Good morning everyone! Try not to make things more complicated than they need to be, breathe, you’re not responsible for the feelings or actions of others⠀ .⠀ #SickNotWeak  #MentalHealthAwareness  #mentalhealthadvocate  #gym  #carbs  #healthycarbs  #pun  #meme  #funny  #laugh  #adulting  #parenting  #memesdaily  #inspiration  #spiritual  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #dissociation  #anxietyproblems  #ptsd  #depression  #cptsd  #iggers  #instamood  #geek  #geekygirl 
TW: feeling helpless, sad, xmas
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This morning my husband brought up last xmas and I was adamant that he had stayed in the camper at my mom’s, and me in my bedroom. Like really convinced. But he didn’t, he stayed in my room and I stayed in my brother’s and he just looked so dramatically concerned and I felt so angry and sad that my memory is so unreliable, and I just excused myself, ran upstairs, and sobbed. It’s only 8 am. I don’t resent my parts but DID is really really tough to cope with sometimes😞 #DID #dissociativeidentitydisorder #anxiety #depression #dissociation #fragmentedmemories #music #adhd #dyspraxia #ptsd #cptsd #depersonalization #derealization #ednos #osfed #edwarrior #warriorofconsciousness #traumasurvivor #unreliablememory #badmemories #didsystem #psychology #mentalhealth #selfgrowth #selfhealing #healingjourney #icantbreathe
TW: feeling helpless, sad, xmas - - This morning my husband brought up last xmas and I was adamant that he had stayed in the camper at my mom’s, and me in my bedroom. Like really convinced. But he didn’t, he stayed in my room and I stayed in my brother’s and he just looked so dramatically concerned and I felt so angry and sad that my memory is so unreliable, and I just excused myself, ran upstairs, and sobbed. It’s only 8 am. I don’t resent my parts but DID is really really tough to cope with sometimes😞 #DID  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #anxiety  #depression  #dissociation  #fragmentedmemories  #music  #adhd  #dyspraxia  #ptsd  #cptsd  #depersonalization  #derealization  #ednos  #osfed  #edwarrior  #warriorofconsciousness  #traumasurvivor  #unreliablememory  #badmemories  #didsystem  #psychology  #mentalhealth  #selfgrowth  #selfhealing  #healingjourney  #icantbreathe 
Do you have loved ones around you struggling with addiction? Let this be a reminder to be encouraging and understanding. Be the one who spreads positivity, love, and kindness — only then you’ll help them win their battle.
Do you have loved ones around you struggling with addiction? Let this be a reminder to be encouraging and understanding. Be the one who spreads positivity, love, and kindness — only then you’ll help them win their battle.
Now I'm strong
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La última que comparto del proyecto de @cloudydonna 🖤
#sunlight #interior #portrait #dissociation #gladtobesadmag #impressamag #ifyoushit #myfeatureshoot #minititleltd #realwoman #delicate #freethenipple
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For the #herheartwinterforms prompt #thememorieswekeep ❤
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T h e  m e m o r i e s
I  k e e p ,  r e l e a s e
i n  i  m  a  g  e  s ,
d  o  n ' t  l  e  a  v e .

Whereto they should?
Subconscious  m o o d
t o  b  o  d  y ' s  route,
embedded  w e a v e .

Remember ,  dreams ,
physical  g  l  e  a  m
o f  scary  s e a m s ,
c o m e  interleaved.

D  i  s  s  o  c  i  a  t  e .
Numb up. Too  l a t e
I  grasped, t h e  bait:
a c c e s s  aggrieved.

F o r  p a s t  lives on .
I  g r i e v e ,  I  mourn
what once  w a s  torn,
p e a c e, be retrieved.
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Poetry & art along the scale of human emotions. Up 🏔️ and down 🌊. And @pi.und.anne for German poetry and @raven.and.the.desk for explorations in b|w.
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#creativejourney #arttherapy #piandanne #writing #poetry #poet #gedicht #dichter #poesie #poem #rhupunt #memories #thebodykeepsthescore #cptsd #complexptsd #dissociation #herheartpoetry #herheartforms
(Memories.) . . For the #herheartwinterforms  prompt #thememorieswekeep  ❤ . . T h e m e m o r i e s I k e e p , r e l e a s e i n i m a g e s , d o n ' t l e a v e . Whereto they should? Subconscious m o o d t o b o d y ' s route, embedded w e a v e . Remember , dreams , physical g l e a m o f scary s e a m s , c o m e interleaved. D i s s o c i a t e . Numb up. Too l a t e I grasped, t h e bait: a c c e s s aggrieved. F o r p a s t lives on . I g r i e v e , I mourn what once w a s torn, p e a c e, be retrieved. . . Poetry & art along the scale of human emotions. Up 🏔️ and down 🌊. And @pi.und.anne for German poetry and @raven.and.the.desk for explorations in b|w. . #creativejourney  #arttherapy  #piandanne  #writing  #poetry  #poet  #gedicht  #dichter  #poesie  #poem  #rhupunt  #memories  #thebodykeepsthescore  #cptsd  #complexptsd  #dissociation  #herheartpoetry  #herheartforms 
Und dann sitzt du da & die Angst klopft wieder bei dir an. Doch dieses mal kannst du nur Fliehen. Flucht zurück. Die Stimmung rast extrem runter. Der drang zum Bewegen ist enorm. Stunden umirrst du her. Versuchst ein klaren Gedanken zu fassen. Okey, dann doch noch eine normale Sache machen. Danach wieder Black Out. Nichts geht mehr. Du kämpfst einen Kampf, den du nicht gewinnen kannst. Du irrst umher, verwirrst dich immer mehr. Schwarz/Weiß denken an die Macht... gib ihm keine macht. Zu spät, jetzt kannst du nicht mehr umdrehen. Also nachhause gehen. Ins warme Bett legen. Decke über den Kopf. Nichts mehr sehen und nichts mehr fühlen. Das Zittern wird mehr. Du fühlst dich als Versager. #dissociation Schweigen...Schweigen.... du setzt eine SMS ab... in der Hoffnung dich hört jemand. Doch es kommt keine Antwort. Wut kommt in dir hoch. Auf dich... auf das was war. Mit einmal ist wieder alles egal. Es geht die ganze Zeit so hin und her. Zwischen Wut und Versager sein und Traurigkeit. Doch du willst nur einmal Stille haben. Bitterlich weinst du... weil du endlich Ruhe haben willst. Du willst das dich jemand in den Arm nimmt. Doch es ist nur deine Decke und dein Kissen da. Also weinst du Still für dich rein. Bis du einschläfst und die Sorgen für ein paar Stunden Vergisst.

LG annka (Text darf nicht kopiert werden) 
#schwarzweiß #borderlinepersönlichkeitsstörung #vermissen #zuviel #überfordert #respectdepression #RespectBorderline #depression #fuckdepression #fuckborderline #anspannung #angst #weinen #depression
Und dann sitzt du da & die Angst klopft wieder bei dir an. Doch dieses mal kannst du nur Fliehen. Flucht zurück. Die Stimmung rast extrem runter. Der drang zum Bewegen ist enorm. Stunden umirrst du her. Versuchst ein klaren Gedanken zu fassen. Okey, dann doch noch eine normale Sache machen. Danach wieder Black Out. Nichts geht mehr. Du kämpfst einen Kampf, den du nicht gewinnen kannst. Du irrst umher, verwirrst dich immer mehr. Schwarz/Weiß denken an die Macht... gib ihm keine macht. Zu spät, jetzt kannst du nicht mehr umdrehen. Also nachhause gehen. Ins warme Bett legen. Decke über den Kopf. Nichts mehr sehen und nichts mehr fühlen. Das Zittern wird mehr. Du fühlst dich als Versager. #dissociation  Schweigen...Schweigen.... du setzt eine SMS ab... in der Hoffnung dich hört jemand. Doch es kommt keine Antwort. Wut kommt in dir hoch. Auf dich... auf das was war. Mit einmal ist wieder alles egal. Es geht die ganze Zeit so hin und her. Zwischen Wut und Versager sein und Traurigkeit. Doch du willst nur einmal Stille haben. Bitterlich weinst du... weil du endlich Ruhe haben willst. Du willst das dich jemand in den Arm nimmt. Doch es ist nur deine Decke und dein Kissen da. Also weinst du Still für dich rein. Bis du einschläfst und die Sorgen für ein paar Stunden Vergisst. LG annka (Text darf nicht kopiert werden) #schwarzweiß  #borderlinepersönlichkeitsstörung  #vermissen  #zuviel  #überfordert  #respectdepression  #RespectBorderline  #depression  #fuckdepression  #fuckborderline  #anspannung  #angst  #weinen  #depression 
Homesick for the safety of my mind or scared to go back there? I have yet to decide ••• #death #sociopath #sad #smoke #anxiety #addiction #aspd #asylum #dissociation #depression #did #dysfunction #schizophrenia #schizoid #spd #life #cigarette #tumblr #trauma #help #hurt #lost #tired #Bpd #bipolar #adhd #avoidant #grunge #tumblr
@ Me
✗#trauma • #ptsd • #abuse • #fear • #mentalillness • #csa • #aesthetic • #hurt • #mourning • #lost • #soft • #emotional • #vent • #memories • #sickness • #dissociation • #pale • #poetry • #innocence • #bittersweet • #grunge • #help • #selfharm • #death ✗
✗#trauma • #ptsd • #abuse • #fear • #mentalillness • #csa • #aesthetic • #hurt • #mourning • #lost • #soft • #emotional • #vent • #memories • #sickness • #dissociation • #pale • #poetry • #innocence • #bittersweet • #grunge • #help • #selfharm • #death ✗
✗#trauma • #ptsd • #abuse • #fear • #mentalillness • #csa • #aesthetic • #hurt • #mourning • #lost • #soft • #emotional • #vent • #memories • #sickness • #dissociation • #pale • #poetry • #innocence • #bittersweet • #grunge • #help • #selfharm • #death ✗