@jillbsinger and I were in Edinburgh today for a meeting. Afterwards, we went to @scottishnationalportrait to see the Victoria Crowe exhibition, which ends this Sunday. This is Jill standing in front of a portrait of Ole Lippmann. He was the resistance leader and head of the Special Operations Executive in Denmark during the Second World War. The back story to this portrait - as well as the atmosphere surrounding it - stopped me in my tracks. Ole was instrumental in providing safe passage for Jewish refugees to neutral Sweden which resulted in6000 Danish Jews being able to escape. Aged only 27, he had to make the decision of asking RAF assistance in the bombing raid on Gestapo HQ in Copenhagen, knowing the threat to civilians. This was successful in that it destroyed Nazi documentation on resistance groups, killing many Gestapo and enabling the human shield of political prisoners to escape. One plane crashed, sending up plumes of smoke, obliterating the target and leading to the accidental bombing of a school, killing 56 children. When Victoria Crowe was painting Ole in 1997, he was phoned by the father of one of the children promising to one day avenge his daughter’s death. He had received this call every year on the girl’s birthday. I think you can read this in the painting.
I’ve spent most of my life fighting everyday to get through the days. At age six I lost my mom to breast cancer and ever since then I’ve had a hard time getting back to my feet. The children in my class didn’t accept me, found me different and weird and they had a great time chasing me around the school, fighting me, beating me, locking me in different closets and rooms and calling me all kinds of different names and telling me that it was a good thing my mom died. I’ve spent 13 years just getting through the day, and now when all the bullying has stopped and I’ve actually gotten some real good friends, I am left standing with the question “what now?” Before it was surviving. How do I live a normal life? How do I learn to live with all the pain, anxiety and anger inside me? I’ve been on the wrong track for so long that I don’t know who I am. I have had my downs where I would cut myself or even try to kill myself, just to relieve the pain inside... Because why should I live? No one liked me, I couldn’t get through exams or face an employee. I didn’t love myself...
Thankfully, animals and music has always been a big part of my life thanks to my dad who is my world. I wouldn’t be alive without him. Music has been my escape whether I play the piano or listen to whatever I want to listen to. Just like petting and caring for an animal.
This year I turned 25 years old. Something I never thought would ever happen. And ever since then something has happened inside. It’s like I see things a little clearer than before. I’ve found a music project that is trying to express through music how to find your way in life. That has become my quest. To figure out how to help others through their tough times in life. I can’t hold a job. I can’t pass school. But I can bring a smile and a hug to those around me whenever they need an extra hand.
I don’t know who I am, but I know who I’m not. I’m not like the kids in school. I’m not blind like the teachers. I don’t thrive on people’s misery.
I know the pain and I would never inflict others with that. Not even my worst enemy.
That is my goal. To be to others, what no one, but my dad, was to me.
-Helene (BPD, PTSD)
✎ If anything unites the contemporary art of the geographically and culturally diverse region of Scandinavia it is an artistic tradition marked by a mystical relationship to light and land.
✎ Art from modern Denmark forms part of the art of the Nordic Bronze Age, and then Norse and Viking art. We got a chance to experience both: contemporary and modern art.
✎ Some places that you should definitely visit in Copenhagen if you want to enjoy Danish art:
⠀ ◎The National museum
⠀ ◎The Statens museum for Kunst
⠀ ◎The Design museum
⠀ ◎Rosenborg Castle
os dias cinzentos com a chuva a ir e a vir. os dias de luz com o sol a aquecer. o não saber se vale a pena levar o casaco. o olhar lá para fora, ver o céu cinzento, vestir uma camisola e dizer que é um bom dia. ah o outono em Lisboa a lembrar o verão em Copenhaga 🖤
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