Life is not always black and white and can be especially confusing when you deal with mental illness. I often feel that I am black and white but in the sense of being two different people. Is it possible that I am bipolar? Yes, but I am not sure if this is the case. The last few days I have been remembering some of the crazy things I have thought and done. Strange enough I used to think these things were normal, and even stranger, some people even thought and think that my behavior was normal. Not everything is spiritual when it comes to your mental state. So many people, including myself, forget this and are very narrow minded because of fear. Growing up as a child, my parents would call me the girl with the curl in the middle of her forehead. In other words, when I am good I am very good(high..no dope) and when I am bad(low) I am very bad. Attention seeking and loving highes were always contrasted with despairing feelings and a morbid fascination with death. I was always a little "odd". I used to think I was called to do something great and save the world. That I was "especially chosen". The older I got the more this turned into a religious theme. At 12 I thought maybe I was the Virgin Mary or that people thought I was. These delusions sound like mania to me. As I grew to my late teens I changed so completely that Grace no longer existed. I don't believe it was because I simply converted. I think there was an underlining cause. I became so extreme that I would pray for 4 hrs a day and would try and make it even harder by staying completely still and kneeling on concrete in 100 degree weather. In college, with even migraines and severe back pain, I would sleep on hard wood floor with no pillow or blankets and get only 5 hrs of sleep. I HAD to get up at 4am every morning to pray. I suffered greatly from depression and anxiety and thought I was supposed to live Hell on earth. I gave up family and friends and went on my own "religious" adventure that lasted up to 7 years. There are too many stories to tell of what went on during this time. I'm now trying to balance myself. I hope one day stigmas on mental health and lack of understanding will be forever buried.
I think our problem is not epistemological or metaphysical, but psychological and above all moral and spiritual. In our new electronic phantasmagoria, people have become indifferent to the notions of truth and reality. And this disposition has not been forced upon them: they have chosen it quite willingly. The interest of many is not truth and objective reality but images and sensations, and the rapid advance of technology enables us to create images and sensations of astonishing power.
Any ‘reality’ is as good as any other. You choose! Seems? Nay, ‘tis.
Unfortunately, this world of willed illusion becomes also, by the operation of political correctness, a world of willed delusion. People don’t merely choose what to look at; they choose what to believe. Postmodern philosophers and theologians deny Mr Hancock’s (or God’s) truth and objective reality: they speak approvingly of things being ‘true for you’ or ‘true for me.’ And of course this just means we can’t talk about truth at all. The philosophers and theologians have been guided by the politicians who tell them not to insist that there is such a thing as the objective truth – because to do so might offend someone who holds to ‘a different truth.’ Welcome to the world of equality and diversity. We have replaced the gospel of St John with the gospel of Pontius Pilate.
This is not going to end well. If we are no longer concerned to inhabit reality but instead we evaluate any image, any sensation, only insofar as it appeals to us, then we have no escape from a world of ubiquitous delusion. Jesus Christ referred to this activity as blasphemy against the Holy Spirit – which he declared to be the only unforgiveable sin. Unforgiveable because it is impossible to repent of it. If you say, ‘Lies be my truth’ and ‘Delusion be my reality,’ then you have chosen paranoid psychosis, madness – hell Via Spectator
1. 모순되는 증거에도 좀처럼 바뀌지 않는 고착화된 믿음
2. 개인의 교육, 사뢰, 문화적 배경과는 관계없이 반증 증거에도 불구하고 바꾸지 않고 고집스럽게 유지하는 틀린 믿음
정상과 비정상의 경계는 어디인가
우리 주변에 만연한 망상은 무엇일까요.
‘미스터노바디’에 나온 대사가 생각난다. “넌 자꾸 나에게 무서운 곰을 없애달라고 하는데, 곰은 어디에도 없어. 내가 너에게 해줄 수 있는 건 아무것도 없는 것 같아.” #skeptic#magazineskeptic#delusion#misternobody
You are to me as much as I am to myself. You are not separate than I. We are one. Once we grasp this unity in being and feel the love that connects us, though the oneness of consciousness we can embrace the love we share deeply within us. When I criticize you I am criticizing myself. When I ask you to educate yourself I am asking the same of myself. When I disagree with you I am also disagreeing with myself. When we look at each other in these lens, to remove the other completely there’s no room to take offense or be offended. There’s no room for emotionally charged and destructive debates. No room for attack on character and hateful disrespectful comments. There will only be space for open, honest, respectful exchange of thoughts and opinions. No condensing, no arrogance, none of it. Only the spirit of empathy, understanding, compassion, and giving ourselves (not the other, there is not other) the benefit of the doubt. Once we come to grasp, embrace, and follow this truth, not reality, not philosophy, not fact, not belief, not something to be proven, but simply to accept and be, our world will change. Our perspectives and perceptions will shift, towards togetherness and embracing our (not others) differences. Our attitude and speech will change. We will be inclusive not exclusive. Accepting not dismissive. Full of humility not arrogance. We know more about ourselves as a collective rather than thinking some of know more about each other than others. This doesn’t mean all problems will stop to exist, there won’t be any conflicts, but what will happen is that we will take responsibility and ownership of all conflicts and problems that arise, equally so we will also enjoy and give credit to all of us together for overcoming these conflicts and problems, because they never were truly what we call them. They are challenges and tests to help us grow and become better, all together. Continued below 👇👇👇
Flew down to LA for this fun experience last night. This company turned the abandoned building in the second photo into an interactive stage and we were all a part of the play, time traveling, running from ghosts, following Mayan gods ... it was awesome! #delusion#theblueblade