This isn’t a post I wanted to share, but it’s what it has to be😩 we’ve been struggling with money so much, we’ve just been living off the student loan but we’re struggling to find jobs even though we’re both applying for god knows how many jobs😓
No matter how many surveys I do or things I sell we just cannot make ends meet. We can just about afford to pay our bills and that it, no money for food or anything😓
We’ve already borrowed about £500 from family but we can’t borrow anymore, this really is a last resort.
The credit card will strictly be for bills, and we’re going to pay it off as soon as we can, but I can’t help but feel like I’ve been defeated by it all. I really feel like I’ve failed😓
I think John isner deserves a huge amount of respect for putting up a decent show last night. Receiving news that one of your best friends has passed away must be horrible to deal with a John posted a lovely tribute to his friend on Instagram. All credit to John for putting up a good show despite that terrible news. #isner#defeated#roundrobin#nittoatpfinals ( Getty )
#nofilter there’s just something so #raw and #honest about this photo (no matter how trainwrecked I look) I have had a very rough few weeks. I keep saying I am having a bout of the #existentialcrisis yet I’m a #survivor and a #warrior (as my dear sweet friend once said) and so I bring you this... beyond all the glitz and glamour and #livingthelife is a girl who is #lost#broken and a bottle and a half deep in #redwine feeling #defeated and pondering the #meaningoflife and what exactly her #purpose is. No this is NOT a cry for help- this is just a photo I took of myself in one of my darkest moments after drinking red wine, chain smoking and contemplating my life’s purpose. There’s something beautiful about the #darkcircles under my eyes ( #hardwork ) my #disheveled appearance ( #stress ) my #winestainedlips ( #selfmedication ) and the look of complete and utter #confusion in my brain. I’ve been here before. I’ll get out of this funk- I KNOW I will. ...and I share it to say, “you know what? You will too!” My life has been one hell of a roller coaster ride. More good and blessings than I can measure- yet I STILL have my #shittydays (where I spill coffee all over myself and drop my phone in a puddle of mud and gravel among so many other things I care not to disclose- it’s just been a #badday a #badweek at that) and yet I still pull out my inner #scarlettohara and say to myself, “I won’t think about that today. I’ll think about that tomorrow. After all, tomorrow is another day.” #yougotthis#bestrong#youarenotalone#youareneveralone#tomorrowisanotherday
I grew up wanting to conquer the world but never thinking I was good enough. It often felt like I was taking one step forward and two steps back. That was years ago, it took a long time to change my old habits. Most days, I'm a positive thinker, a glass half full kinda girl!
Today was a tough day for me. Life is hard and today got the best of me. I'm tired, I feel defeated but, I do know tomorrow is a new day and I'm gonna rock it. 💪
The biggest terd of a car I have ever owned is finally out of my life. Wish I could say it was a love/hate relationship. What a negative experience my 1st venture into #porsche land has been. Learned a lot though and that's what I need to focus on.
“He brought me out into a broad place; he rescued me, because he delighted in me.” Psalm 18:19
Through the filth. Through the grime. Through the downright dirt I was covered in, knowing OF Jesus, but not really knowing Him at all, He brought me out into a broad place, and He rescued me. Why? Because THROUGH all the filth, through the tear-filled eyes of His broken daughter, He saw what only He could see. Not who I had become and what I had done, but who HE created me to be, and who I one day WOULD be.
Friends, I can't tell you how many times I still ask Jesus to rescue me from my own ways like He did that day. To cleanse me. To help me. I can't tell you how many times, I, myself, go back into the broad place He saved me in, on my knees before Him again, broken, just needing to be near Him.
I know when I need to be rescued. I know what it feels like to have nothing between God and I, and when there is absolutely something between Him and I that I haven't dealt with. I know when I need to deal with something I’ve done or, what I have not done.
Life will have so many ups and down, and if there is one thing I cannot keep sharing about enough, is that Jesus isn't a one time decision you make when you are 8. Jesus is the oxygen mask we need every day, to live free in a world that so desperately tries to keep us in chains. Jesus is what has the power to wipe us clean of all those stains, the ones that we need cleansed from, every. single. day.
He brings you into broad place. He rescues you. Simply because He delights in you. And THAT, that is the radical and immense love of your Savior.
And every day He waits, ready to cleanse, and ready to help each one of us back up again. ❤️