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It's the day. Final edits before we go into recording sessions.
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#hyperventilating #cripplinganxiety #ohgodohgod #audiodrama #audiodramasunday #finaldraft10
When you have Phone Anxiety, or really just anxiety in general... actually don’t even text me either✋🏼😴
When you have Phone Anxiety, or really just anxiety in general... actually don’t even text me either✋🏼😴
Haha my mouth is so numb after the dentist -Rose
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#memes #dank #meme #dankmeme #humor #deadmeme #yeet #tumblr #millenial #millennialhumor #lol #haha #oof #lmao #😂 #darkhumor #cripplingdepression #anxiety #cripplinganxiety
It’s ok if all you do today is survive #TheGoddessHer 🦋✨⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ••••••••••⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #awakening #higherself #spiriuality #enlightenment #cripplinganxiety #supportsystem #meditate #higherawakening #gratitude #happiness #godfidence #manifest  #deppression #lawofattraction #goddessvibes #soulcravings #soultribe #soulpick #mentalhealth #emotionalsupport #emotionalstability #anxiety #mentalhealth #empowerment #traveltribe
It’s ok if all you do today is survive #TheGoddessHer  🦋✨⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ••••••••••⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #awakening  #higherself  #spiriuality  #enlightenment  #cripplinganxiety  #supportsystem  #meditate  #higherawakening  #gratitude  #happiness  #godfidence  #manifest  #deppression  #lawofattraction  #goddessvibes  #soulcravings  #soultribe  #soulpick  #mentalhealth  #emotionalsupport  #emotionalstability  #anxiety  #mentalhealth  #empowerment  #traveltribe 
Jazz cures the soul, but it'll never cure my crippling autism. 
#meme #jazzforthesoul #solotilltheend #yote #cripplingautism #cripplingdepression #cripplinganxiety #cripplingeverything #👌👌👌 #ayylmao #internalscreaming
Working hard and hardly working at @darcys_kirkwood with my mama and auntie #cripplinganxiety #mentalhealth #emotionalsupportdog #dogsatwork #ottawadogs #613dogs
A refillable prescription for Xanax. #cripplinganxiety
byyyyyye lol
byyyyyye lol
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You left me breathless. You took me by surprise. You made me feel special. You opened your heart. You opened my eyes. I took your hand. You kissed mine. 
I open my eyes and it’s all gone. 
You’re still there, but you’re not. You left my heart out to rot. Painfully aching and yearning for you. 
You’re never coming back, are you?
#myheart #mypoorheart #love #inlovewithhim #hehurtmyheart #willieverbethesame #iwantyou #ionlywantyou #sad #sadness #love #heartache #cripplingdepression #cripplinganxiety #neverbethesame #brokenheart #loveisreal #loveissopainful #whydidyouhavetogo #youllneverknow #whydontyouwantme #ineedyou #illneverbethesame #crying #sohurt #youhurtmesobad
🥀🥀🥀 . . You left me breathless. You took me by surprise. You made me feel special. You opened your heart. You opened my eyes. I took your hand. You kissed mine. I open my eyes and it’s all gone. You’re still there, but you’re not. You left my heart out to rot. Painfully aching and yearning for you. You’re never coming back, are you? #myheart  #mypoorheart  #love  #inlovewithhim  #hehurtmyheart  #willieverbethesame  #iwantyou  #ionlywantyou  #sad  #sadness  #love  #heartache  #cripplingdepression  #cripplinganxiety  #neverbethesame  #brokenheart  #loveisreal  #loveissopainful  #whydidyouhavetogo  #youllneverknow  #whydontyouwantme  #ineedyou  #illneverbethesame  #crying  #sohurt  #youhurtmesobad 
Crippling Anxiety is a favorite of last weekend’s launch and we totally get why! Lavender, lemon and frankincense natural oils are a nice mix for relaxing— even this sassy cat thinks so! The burn time on this 10oz soy candle ranges 45-55 hours and smells like the self care your therapist keeps telling you to do. It’s not exercise and eating right, but this candle just might help you relax. ✨✨✨✨✨ #apocalypticco #apocalyptic #seattlecandles #soywax #handpouredcandles #cripplinganxiety #lavender #lemon #frankincense #reusable #sustainability #womeninbusiness #womeninbusinesswa #seattle #womenownedbusiness
Crippling Anxiety is a favorite of last weekend’s launch and we totally get why! Lavender, lemon and frankincense natural oils are a nice mix for relaxing— even this sassy cat thinks so! The burn time on this 10oz soy candle ranges 45-55 hours and smells like the self care your therapist keeps telling you to do. It’s not exercise and eating right, but this candle just might help you relax. ✨✨✨✨✨ #apocalypticco  #apocalyptic  #seattlecandles  #soywax  #handpouredcandles  #cripplinganxiety  #lavender  #lemon  #frankincense  #reusable  #sustainability  #womeninbusiness  #womeninbusinesswa  #seattle  #womenownedbusiness 
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#meme #dread #cripplinganxiety #lmao #joke #memes #dankmeme #likes
Summer 2017: When someone sticks a camera in my face and asks me to “act natural.” .
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#cripplinganxiety #photofearr #hystericallaughing #butcryingontheinside
So simple, yet so much truth- balance is always key!

By Benjie Escobar

#art #meaningoflife #stateyourpurpose #venndiagram #narcissism #cripplinganxiety #callingallcreatives #balance
Sometimes taking a half day for mental health looks like gardening and sitting on the porch with my animals. #cripplinganxiety #exhausted #chronicillness
Wednesday is (still) for the boys. #cripplinganxiety
IT’S OFFICIAL! Apocalyptic Co candles are available for purchase!!! To celebrate our official launch, we are GIVING AWAY a LIMITED EDITION candle! To enter, follow @apocalypticco like this post, and tag two of your besties who could use something bright in their lives. ✨ Winner will be announced June 9th. In the mean time, make sure to head over to our site to check out the scent profiles, order your faves, or just get one of each. DM with any questions! 🖤  #apocalypticco #womeninbusiness #seattle #madeinamerica #candles #seattlecandles  #giveaway #smallbusiness #soycandles #darktimes #absentfather #distantmother #cripplinganxiety #callyourcoven #therapist #creativetherapist
IT’S OFFICIAL! Apocalyptic Co candles are available for purchase!!! To celebrate our official launch, we are GIVING AWAY a LIMITED EDITION candle! To enter, follow @apocalypticco like this post, and tag two of your besties who could use something bright in their lives. ✨ Winner will be announced June 9th. In the mean time, make sure to head over to our site to check out the scent profiles, order your faves, or just get one of each. DM with any questions! 🖤 #apocalypticco  #womeninbusiness  #seattle  #madeinamerica  #candles  #seattlecandles  #giveaway  #smallbusiness  #soycandles  #darktimes  #absentfather  #distantmother  #cripplinganxiety  #callyourcoven  #therapist  #creativetherapist 
°•ι нαтє ιт ωнєи σтнєя ρєєρѕ ¢αℓℓ му вєѕтιє, тнєιя вєѕтιє 😬•°
°•тαg уσυя вєѕтιє~•°
°•иєω тнємє, ωнαт ∂'уσυ тнιик? ι ∂σи'т яєαℓℓу ρяєfєя ρυттιиg ιи тнємє ∂ινι∂єяѕ твн•°
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#antisocial #quotes #anxiety #depression #aesthetics #aesthetic #greenaesthetic #prick #cactus #cacti #bestie #bestfriend #quotesandsayings #aestheticquotes #cripplinganxiety #followforfollow
°•ι нαтє ιт ωнєи σтнєя ρєєρѕ ¢αℓℓ му вєѕтιє, тнєιя вєѕтιє 😬•° °•тαg уσυя вєѕтιє~•° °•иєω тнємє, ωнαт ∂'уσυ тнιик? ι ∂σи'т яєαℓℓу ρяєfєя ρυттιиg ιи тнємє ∂ινι∂єяѕ твн•° - - - - #antisocial  #quotes  #anxiety  #depression  #aesthetics  #aesthetic  #greenaesthetic  #prick  #cactus  #cacti  #bestie  #bestfriend  #quotesandsayings  #aestheticquotes  #cripplinganxiety  #followforfollow 
Anything to help me through another day of #cripplinganxiety bought on by #controlissues after another #sleeplessnight
Two years ago at my #babysisters’ #graduation #dancing in circles to oldies, having #thetimeofourlives with one of the #best men I know. 
Thank you #joe for all that you have done for us, the #lessons on #kindness #generosity #forgiveness and #humility 
Also, for the #cripplinganxiety we all have now too 😂😂😂 We love you.
Introducing you to my friend, drake, bc we have something in common today. #knots #stomach #dragon #snake #drake #brain #doodle #creep #creepdangle #cripplinganxiety #nobiggie #tgitamirite
Going through ups and downs all the time I created this page to share my everyday struggles with anxiety, which can be crippling. But I am learning to to cope one day at a time. And hopefully this page will help others dealing with the same issues I deal with too. I will keep everything real and share my issues with weight/body dysmorphia too. #anxiety #cripplinganxiety #breathe #bodydismorphia#weightloss#weightmanagement#junkfoodlover#onedayatatime#hereforyou#hereforme#help#youarenotalone
Going through ups and downs all the time I created this page to share my everyday struggles with anxiety, which can be crippling. But I am learning to to cope one day at a time. And hopefully this page will help others dealing with the same issues I deal with too. I will keep everything real and share my issues with weight/body dysmorphia too. #anxiety  #cripplinganxiety  #breathe  #bodydismorphia #weightloss #weightmanagement #junkfoodlover #onedayatatime #hereforyou #hereforme #help #youarenotalone 
Does your school ALSO get a mister softee truck to come to campus? ...again #whyhm #myhm #icecream #softserve #sprinkles #vanilla #melting #warmweather #fielding #mrsoftee #truck #highschool #elite #cripplinganxiety #thanksobama
°•ℓєgιт нαρρєиє∂ уєѕтєя∂αу...{ι тнιик ιт'ѕ вєттєя ιf ι ѕтαят α∂∂ιиg ωαтєямαякѕ}•°
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#mood #antisocial #cripplinganxiety #moody #blackaesthetic #anxiety #quotes #lonely #loner #aesthetic #aesthetics #ugly #worthless #deep #deepquotes #pathetic #love #onesidedlove #heartbroken #truestory #fallinginlove
I have always suffered from moderate social anxiety, and that makes my life extra difficult being in the medical field. But I'm able to fake it well enough that people around me have no idea that I'm dying inside😂 but jokes aside, an estimated 12% of US adults experience social anxiety at some point in their lives, most of them rating it moderate and females > males. This alarming number tells us that this disorder is more common than we think it is. P.s this is an original!

#socialanxiety #palpitations #cripplinganxiety #medicalmemes #medicine #medstudent #funnymemes #cornyjokes
I have always suffered from moderate social anxiety, and that makes my life extra difficult being in the medical field. But I'm able to fake it well enough that people around me have no idea that I'm dying inside😂 but jokes aside, an estimated 12% of US adults experience social anxiety at some point in their lives, most of them rating it moderate and females > males. This alarming number tells us that this disorder is more common than we think it is. P.s this is an original! #socialanxiety  #palpitations  #cripplinganxiety  #medicalmemes  #medicine  #medstudent  #funnymemes  #cornyjokes 
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#mood #antisocial #antisocialbutterfly #cripplinganxiety #moody #black #anxiety #quotes #lonely #loner #aesthetic #aesthetics #notgoodenough #trying
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#antisocial #anxiety #quotes #depression #cripplinganxiety #antisocialsocialclub #antisocialbutterfly
You’re forever alone, in your thoughts in your death, in your birth. So sit back and enjoy it, because people suck. #hazeleyes #georgia #beautiful #blue #bluebuttonup #prettygirl #prettysmile #cutie #happiness #fuckhumans #antisocial #cripplinganxiety #lol #blackhair #sunshine #❤️ #🌞 #18 #perfecteyebrows #longhair #beautifulday #2in1 #like4like #follow #follow4follow #like #makeup #beverlyhillsanastasia
Beautiful as the Royal Wedding was, three days on for some reason it has left me feeling emotionally exhausted and anxious about my own future with my boyfriend. I’m playing the waiting game for a proposal and babies, which for someone who is only just a little younger (35, almost 36!) than the new Duchess of Sussex leads to a lot of my anxiety about future. I think I was so genuinely excited for these two strangers and the day was filled with what I genuinely feel was love that I feel a little like the green eyed monster too!?!! WHY!?!!! Why can’t I just look on it and not apply it to my own self. Everyone and every situation in life is different!? I’m not mean spirited and I really loved their stunning day!! What’s followed are friends and unknown people on Instagram posting about their own weddings and I just feel like the only person on the planet who’s not married....which is ridiculous!!
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Problem is, the boyfriend is now seemingly upset and annoyed with me that I’ve been miz and down and asked for Sunday for quiet whilst I tried to process my own head about the prospect of a marriageless and babyless future with him!? How was I wrong asking for time out so that I didn’t get into an argument with him!
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Anyway....I think it’s time I head back to the gym....but not for another two days whilst I give my ankle a bit of a break, not sure what I’ve done to it but there’s a swelling, and needless to say my anxiety makes me desperately worried it’s the ‘Big C’!?!! Rational thought goes out the window with my anxiety!! Mind you it’s just my luck something like that happens to me whilst everyone I know and love seems to be pregnant with baby number two....and that’s another green eyed monster story!??
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So peeps, is anyone else feeling worn out after the incredibly beautiful wedding? Or is it just pressure or the moon phase I the UK affecting us all!?
Beautiful as the Royal Wedding was, three days on for some reason it has left me feeling emotionally exhausted and anxious about my own future with my boyfriend. I’m playing the waiting game for a proposal and babies, which for someone who is only just a little younger (35, almost 36!) than the new Duchess of Sussex leads to a lot of my anxiety about future. I think I was so genuinely excited for these two strangers and the day was filled with what I genuinely feel was love that I feel a little like the green eyed monster too!?!! WHY!?!!! Why can’t I just look on it and not apply it to my own self. Everyone and every situation in life is different!? I’m not mean spirited and I really loved their stunning day!! What’s followed are friends and unknown people on Instagram posting about their own weddings and I just feel like the only person on the planet who’s not married....which is ridiculous!! _ Problem is, the boyfriend is now seemingly upset and annoyed with me that I’ve been miz and down and asked for Sunday for quiet whilst I tried to process my own head about the prospect of a marriageless and babyless future with him!? How was I wrong asking for time out so that I didn’t get into an argument with him! _ Anyway....I think it’s time I head back to the gym....but not for another two days whilst I give my ankle a bit of a break, not sure what I’ve done to it but there’s a swelling, and needless to say my anxiety makes me desperately worried it’s the ‘Big C’!?!! Rational thought goes out the window with my anxiety!! Mind you it’s just my luck something like that happens to me whilst everyone I know and love seems to be pregnant with baby number two....and that’s another green eyed monster story!?? _ So peeps, is anyone else feeling worn out after the incredibly beautiful wedding? Or is it just pressure or the moon phase I the UK affecting us all!?
My face when people start talking about flat earth. .
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#idk #human #cripplinganxiety #jaja #boricua #selfportrait
How beautiful is this #nofilterneeded sunrise though? 
This has been one of the roughest weeks I can remember. 👎I've worked too many weird shifts at work that were unplanned for 👎 Meaning I haven't really slept well
👎 Which led me to not doing a full workout yesterday, I instead walked for an hour or so 👎 Which also means I've been wanting to stress eat everything in sight

BUT I saw this sunrise this morning and reminded myself of a few 🗝️ concepts:
👍 Today is a new day and even though my morning hasn't gone well that doesn't mean the rest of the day can't turn around
👍 Just because I skipped one workout doesn't mean that all of my progress is lost 👍 I have a God who forgives me for how I've acted the past few days and who will always love me

Up until a year ago I never would have had those thoughts. 🚫 My anxiety would have caused me to eat everything I wanted and then feel like 💩 because of it 🚫 I would have wanted to give up because of missing one day of a workout
🚫 I would have felt like a failure and like I let myself down 
One year later and I can finally see positives in these types of situations. One day won't determine my week. 
If I could help you have an understanding of how to turn around this mindset, would you be interested in knowing more? 
Drop a 👍 below and I will reach out to you or send me an 📧 at coachhannahhormann@gmail.com . .
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#sunrise #nofilter #worklife #workgrind #onedayordayone #motivationalpost #cripplinganxiety #stresseating #emotionaleating #thirstythursday
How beautiful is this #nofilterneeded  sunrise though? This has been one of the roughest weeks I can remember. 👎I've worked too many weird shifts at work that were unplanned for 👎 Meaning I haven't really slept well 👎 Which led me to not doing a full workout yesterday, I instead walked for an hour or so 👎 Which also means I've been wanting to stress eat everything in sight BUT I saw this sunrise this morning and reminded myself of a few 🗝️ concepts: 👍 Today is a new day and even though my morning hasn't gone well that doesn't mean the rest of the day can't turn around 👍 Just because I skipped one workout doesn't mean that all of my progress is lost 👍 I have a God who forgives me for how I've acted the past few days and who will always love me Up until a year ago I never would have had those thoughts. 🚫 My anxiety would have caused me to eat everything I wanted and then feel like 💩 because of it 🚫 I would have wanted to give up because of missing one day of a workout 🚫 I would have felt like a failure and like I let myself down One year later and I can finally see positives in these types of situations. One day won't determine my week. If I could help you have an understanding of how to turn around this mindset, would you be interested in knowing more? Drop a 👍 below and I will reach out to you or send me an 📧 at coachhannahhormann@gmail.com . . . . . . #sunrise  #nofilter  #worklife  #workgrind  #onedayordayone  #motivationalpost  #cripplinganxiety  #stresseating  #emotionaleating  #thirstythursday 
*Me is in a good relationship with someone who does not flat out ignore me* Me- But are they sUre they like me. -Rose
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#memes #dank #dankmemes #coke #cokacola #cocacola #pepsi #pepsiisgross #cokeisbetterthanpepsi #lol #oof #haha #lmao #soap #anxiety #cripplinganxiety #cripplingdepression
Exactly where i need to be #cripplinganxiety #whereisfran
this is an accurate representation of myself every morning at school. when asked with the question “nakatulog ka ba?” i wouldn’t normally reply with words.. instead, i’d look at people with this pair of eyes. now..... months had passed, but my eyes remained just.... the same 🙃 (however.. no wonder.. cause who on earth casually posts at midnight, right?)
this is an accurate representation of myself every morning at school. when asked with the question “nakatulog ka ba?” i wouldn’t normally reply with words.. instead, i’d look at people with this pair of eyes. now..... months had passed, but my eyes remained just.... the same 🙃 (however.. no wonder.. cause who on earth casually posts at midnight, right?)
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From around the age of 17 to 20 I used to model.
I was constantly asked questions like “if you have anxiety how is it you have the confidence to model” and “if you’re so insecure about your body and yourself how is it you pose in front of a camera” 
I could never explain properly how I was able to do something that a lot of people would find nerve racking despite my mental illness, but I’ve come to realise that living with mental illness isn’t simple.
I can do some things confidently and there’s things I just can’t, I think with modelling for me it was an escape.
I got to wear beautiful clothes and lingerie and receive photos of myself afterward and that might seem shallow to some but ya not, receiving those pictures is what kept me going.
I had genuine fun on shoots and seeing that in physical form reminded me to keep fighting. 
I never got paid for my work, it was always tf based but I worked hard always, I put my all into it because I loved it and it made me feel free even when I felt incredibly trapped by the darkness of my mind. 
So when you see someone who has a mental illness doing something that they love and enjoy with little to no anxieties surrounding it, don’t question it, don’t make them feel like a fraud, don’t tell them they can’t possibly be mentally ill if they are able to do something that you or others would find anxiety inducing, we are all different.
We all work in different ways, I couldn’t get up on stage and speak to an audience but if I know someone who does that and they live with mental illness, I won’t question it because it doesn’t take away from the fact that they fight every single day to stay alive, for themselves! 
Modelling gave me purpose and structure also and that was really important for me to have.
I’ve lived with intense anxiety, depression, bpd and Cptsd long enough to know that everyone’s triggers are different.
Be kind, always! ✨
#model #pinup #pinupgirl #pinupmodels #anxiety #cripplinganxiety #depression #bpd #bpdblogger #youngerme #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalillness #keepfighting #borderlinepersonalitydisorder
From around the age of 17 to 20 I used to model. I was constantly asked questions like “if you have anxiety how is it you have the confidence to model” and “if you’re so insecure about your body and yourself how is it you pose in front of a camera” I could never explain properly how I was able to do something that a lot of people would find nerve racking despite my mental illness, but I’ve come to realise that living with mental illness isn’t simple. I can do some things confidently and there’s things I just can’t, I think with modelling for me it was an escape. I got to wear beautiful clothes and lingerie and receive photos of myself afterward and that might seem shallow to some but ya not, receiving those pictures is what kept me going. I had genuine fun on shoots and seeing that in physical form reminded me to keep fighting. I never got paid for my work, it was always tf based but I worked hard always, I put my all into it because I loved it and it made me feel free even when I felt incredibly trapped by the darkness of my mind. So when you see someone who has a mental illness doing something that they love and enjoy with little to no anxieties surrounding it, don’t question it, don’t make them feel like a fraud, don’t tell them they can’t possibly be mentally ill if they are able to do something that you or others would find anxiety inducing, we are all different. We all work in different ways, I couldn’t get up on stage and speak to an audience but if I know someone who does that and they live with mental illness, I won’t question it because it doesn’t take away from the fact that they fight every single day to stay alive, for themselves! Modelling gave me purpose and structure also and that was really important for me to have. I’ve lived with intense anxiety, depression, bpd and Cptsd long enough to know that everyone’s triggers are different. Be kind, always! ✨ #model  #pinup  #pinupgirl  #pinupmodels  #anxiety  #cripplinganxiety  #depression  #bpd  #bpdblogger  #youngerme  #mentalhealthadvocate  #mentalillness  #keepfighting  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder 
I can’t credit this image, but I got it from Pinterest and it sums up my mood PERFECTLY!!
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One of my main ‘struggles’ and actually what causes a lot of my anxiety and depression is the family drama in my world. On the face of it I am SO fortunate and I SHOULDN’T let it get to me, nor do I know why I give it airspace but I do. However I find the unbelievable double standards surrounding me and my older sister SO hard to deal with. Everyone clocks to her, praises her, supports her, encourages her, and more or less acts and thinks she’s the second coming, whilst I stand on the side lines.
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I moved into a beautiful home my boyfriend was fortunate to buy, and she and my parents haven’t visited and don’t talk about it, don’t encourage or show interest in it because it’s not where they’d like me to live, whereas my sister is the polar opposite and I had to listen as my mum soaked my sister’s move day and new home with sheer joy and happiness and how I ‘MUST visit’..... it hurts and I don’t understand it.
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My counsellors over the years have told me it’s because she NEEDS the encouragement and support whereas I’m independent and can do things myself but that doesn’t seem fair! In my life now when my sisters are married with almost two children down and I have no ring or children and crippling anxiety instead I don’t know what IM supposed to do to get any support. I asked my father years ago for help with a loan for a deposit ‘no,because if I have to do it for you I have to do it for your sisters’ and without so much as a blink when my older sister asks he helps with their deposit and yet I’m supposed to be happy?! I could go on and on with more examples but I’ve already written too much for Instagram!
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How do I get past this and ignore the double standard bullBLEEP? It hurts me SO much and I get into trouble for not jumping for joy and showing an interest in my sister!? I just don’t see why I should....
I can’t credit this image, but I got it from Pinterest and it sums up my mood PERFECTLY!! _ One of my main ‘struggles’ and actually what causes a lot of my anxiety and depression is the family drama in my world. On the face of it I am SO fortunate and I SHOULDN’T let it get to me, nor do I know why I give it airspace but I do. However I find the unbelievable double standards surrounding me and my older sister SO hard to deal with. Everyone clocks to her, praises her, supports her, encourages her, and more or less acts and thinks she’s the second coming, whilst I stand on the side lines. _ I moved into a beautiful home my boyfriend was fortunate to buy, and she and my parents haven’t visited and don’t talk about it, don’t encourage or show interest in it because it’s not where they’d like me to live, whereas my sister is the polar opposite and I had to listen as my mum soaked my sister’s move day and new home with sheer joy and happiness and how I ‘MUST visit’..... it hurts and I don’t understand it. _ My counsellors over the years have told me it’s because she NEEDS the encouragement and support whereas I’m independent and can do things myself but that doesn’t seem fair! In my life now when my sisters are married with almost two children down and I have no ring or children and crippling anxiety instead I don’t know what IM supposed to do to get any support. I asked my father years ago for help with a loan for a deposit ‘no,because if I have to do it for you I have to do it for your sisters’ and without so much as a blink when my older sister asks he helps with their deposit and yet I’m supposed to be happy?! I could go on and on with more examples but I’ve already written too much for Instagram! _ How do I get past this and ignore the double standard bullBLEEP? It hurts me SO much and I get into trouble for not jumping for joy and showing an interest in my sister!? I just don’t see why I should....