Meet my friend for the week, a cardiac event monitor. Not that we think anything is "wrong" just checking to make sure it's "normal" heart palpitations. At least it's not a month in July 😂 #btdt 🙄
In other news, Step 1, Day 1 of conquering fears and mentally making the gym a safe space again was successful. So thankful to an amazing friend who is willing to be by my side and out of her comfort zone to help me through mine and won't laugh at me if a panic attack or tears start. 😍 #realfriend#conqueringfears#mentalhealth#anxiety#gym#healthymind#healthybody#cardiachealth#cardiac#cardiacablation
Therapy, conducted by a professional who had a lot of empathy, was a violent experience to me. It reduced me to ashes. I had to look within myself; the possibility of forgotten physical abuse, emotional abuse, PTSD, emotional eating, social anxiety, fear of swimming, fear of escalators, fear of emotions. The #confrontation with so many buried issues was soul wrenching. I had to filter REALITY from my mind's 'constructed' truths. "Am I really a good parent?" "Will I repeat awful parenting patterns?" "Will my children love me?" I was a wreck. The more I looked into myself and the past, the more I read into school failures, the inability to have friends. It was very painful. The realisation of a hard past stung bad.
But then came the phase of reconstruction. That's when I began to rise from the ashes. That's when I began to ACCEPT and not LEAVE behind my past issues. I embraced them as having been part of life. I embraced the fact that I had had little power in most situations. I embraced the fact that God knew better and wanted me to just become stronger. And today, I am almost recovered. Reconstruction is a long process, but it does wonders. It is worth the pain of confrontation. You too can rise, you too can heal. Speak to a #therapist today.
Our emotions and thoughts influence our everyday choices and in consequence, yes you guessed it, our #pain .
As we have said before we a whole being, both physically and mentally and this are interconnected.
Did you know there is a connection between depression and pain? Those who suffer depression also have physical pain because of it. Pain is not only physical and psychological.
Nuestras emociones y pensamientos influyen en nuestras elecciones cotidianas y, en consecuencia, sí lo has adivinado, en nuestro #dolor .
Como lo hemos dicho antes, somos un todo, tanto física como mentalmente, y esto está interconectado.
¿Sabías que hay una conexión entre la depresión y el dolor? Aquellos que sufren depresión también tienen dolor físico causado por la depresión.
El dolor es tanto físico y psicológico.
So proud of this boy. I can't remember the last time he stroked Archie, he's had a fear of him for so long and recently other dogs, tonight he wanted to stroke him again and again 💓 #conqueringfears#autism
• I AM AFRAID OF HEIGHTS •
But a few weeks ago I climbed a 60 foot wall! While watching the video now, it looks so easy (it was the easiest climb in the building 🤣) but in the moment I was shaking and couldn’t really look down without getting scared. Adrenaline kept me on that wall. I wanted to stop 3 different times but pushed myself to go “a little further” and to my surprise, I reached the freaking top!
This wall is a metaphor for my life and current situation I find myself in. With the encouragement and support from genuine people around me, I pushed myself to make a scary change in my life! Today is the beginning of that change and I am welcoming this new chapter with open arms and a positive mindset. I will conquer this phase of my life just like this wall, and look back and realize how easy it was all along 😁 one step (or rock) at a time I will find my HAPPINESS, because anything else is not an option!! 📸: @_leviterrell_
🏆A little mini victory for myself🏆
I know this may sound super dumb to some of of you, but to me it means a lot. When I first started going to an actual gym, I WAS TERRIFIED. Scared people were going to judge my form, workout, clothes, etc. I got over those fears, yippee! But I had even BIGGER FEARS😱! I was terrified to workout in front of men & wouldn't leave the women's part of the gym. Within the last several weeks I had done 4 out the 5 things that scare me the most. Today I did the last thing that scared me the absolute MOST, and that was train in the advanced training room at my gym🏋️🏋️♀️. Where their we're even more men in there training, people who've been doing this a lot longer than me, I just never wanted to look stupid👨. After conquering these little fears (that were big to me) I feel so much better, & so much more comfortable! I'm just out here trying to grow ya know! And with out facing these insecurities, I won't grow! 🌱 ⭐"Your largest fear, is your greatest growth"
This song here, has blessed me this morning!!!!! If ur unfamiliar get familiar!!!!! I had the pleasure to meet this music giant in a studio 1x and he’s humble person that has earned the right not to be. 🔥🔥🔥 “Real Ghost” by @bigshiz
Beautiful girl, you can do tough things!!!
She asked me if she fell, would I catch her?
I told her I would always try...
But as parents we can’t always catch our kids if they fall. Sometimes we just need to let them find their own footing, their own handholds and their own path to climb to reach the top.
And the best thing we can do?
Cheer them on.
Try to be there if they falter.
But let them find their own strength to stand.
Help them find the courage to face challenges.
Show them that sometimes things are tough for you as well...
It’s ok to take breaks sometimes, as we all need them.
But to never give up, because the view from the top is amazing and succeeding at something that’s tough is soooooo worth it.
Truth be told, climbing to the top of that summit was a life lesson for us.
You. Can. Do. Tough. Things.
I’m going to support you all along the way, as you try. ❤️❤️❤️
I adore this book 💕 The illustrations are gorgeous and the feel of the book (texture weirdo here 🙈) is amazing not to mention the beautiful content inside. I felt it was time for a reread and everytime there is a different lesson in it for me! Do you read the same book more than once?
a friend asked if i wanted to sing in an upcoming music event. at first i said “no.” i haven’t really sang in front of anyone for about a decade😬. after high school i had a serious health scare & with that came anxiety + a lot of nervousness surrounding singing. but i thought about it & life is short & i don’t want anxiety to stop me from singing anymore. so i decided, why not?🤷🏻♀️🎤 here’s a clip from today (what i could fit in the 60 second limit) of me singing “nature boy” (what i’ll be singing for the event). even though it’s not perfect & i messed up some lyrics i decided to post it here. i figured if i did something “scary” like put a clip on IG then maybe singing for the event wouldn’t seem so bad❤️
EDIT: since i’ve gotten dms about this...the microphone i used is the studio series sl150. i really like it! i bought it after doing research about the best usb mics for vocals. p.s. studio series did NOT sponsor this post or gift me the mic.💯
Did you know that the International Association for the Study of Pain defines pain as being a sensory and an emotional experience?
Therefore #pain is both physical and psychological and either of them are less important and should be treated. Knowing how to handle pain is a discipline by itself. Stay tuned as we discuss about this topic this week!
¿Sabía que la Asociación Internacional para el Estudio del Dolor define el #dolor como una experiencia sensorial y emocional?
Por lo tanto, el dolor es tanto físico como psicológico y ninguno de ellos es menos importante y es necesario tratarlos. Saber cómo manejar el dolor es una disciplina en sí misma. ¡Estéis atentos mientras discutimos sobre este tema esta semana!
At first she was excited to climb up the stairs, upon reaching near the slide she was hesitant to go further seeing the design was new to her. She called us but it was too high for me to assist her (😂😂 vertically challenged) instead we encourage her to try it and slowly she sits at the top and started to glide.
That's how it started and now she wants to do it over again. She was able to do it for more than 5x before we head home. 🏡
I’m going to keep this short. In the past as you may see, I have dealt with my feelings in not the best ways. I am honestly happy now, and I want to talk about feelings and things in the right way and not the wrong way. So, here’s to new beginnings.
When I was young I remember I almost drowned twice on the same day. I became terrified of water, and couldn’t even submerge my head underwater. The weird thing is I always loved the ocean. It’s my happy place.
Yesterday my Ohana and I went out to a beautiful preserved beach in Oahu. They were all going to snorkel except for me, because I don’t know how to swim. The fam told me to rent snorkel gear and try it. This was the time to go for it.
My amazing cousin @lulu_ish took me in the water and literally held me the entire time as I attempted to snorkel. I held onto her, and she held my hand the whole time.
The second time I went in my myself and actually did it by myself! I was sooo stoked, I never imagined I could ever get over my fear!!! Thank you so much Lulu, this moment was a life changer for me and I am eternally grateful to you for helping me conquer this fear and check this off my bucket list!!! Love youuuu forever!!! ♥️ #conqueringfears#oahuvibes#hanaumabay#snorkeling#bucketlist#checkingthemoff
Most. Unreal. Shit. Ever.
I went bucket listin' today and conquered one of my most confounding fears: jumping out of a plane. I've tried so hard to imagine what this would be like, in part, to convince myself that there is no reason to fear it (what, with modern equipment, trained professionals, so-on, so-on.) Fear did not relent. In fact, #fear stuck around until the moment I #jumped .
Fear: of death, the unknown, the uncertain. It's something we all have, all day, every day, in practically anything we do. Today I learned what kind of experience you can have when you accept that there is simply no possibility of finally extinguishing fear. It's a force, a powerful one, and not always to be mistrusted. But fear will also be happy to tie your hands behind your back while it builds you a very safe cage to live out your days.
As many times as I've tried to imagine what jumping out of a plane would be like, there was a moment in my mind where the scene would just stop and I couldn't fathom what stepping off the ledge would be. Fear was the director of what I could possibly imagine. Today, I saw the moment just past the black. I felt the weightlessness of my body, and the capacity of my mind as fear, unsuccumbed to, left the room.
Sending a huge thank you to Brian, my amazing sky sherpa, and Claire, the aerial photography badass responsible for the photographic proof of my completely blown mind. Thank you both for this amazing experience. ❤️
I did something I never thought I’d do this weekend, karaoke! Huge shoutout to my roommate and platonic life partner @sssrah for singing my first song with me, @sipandspoonful for joining for the second and @mollyfarrari for turning 30 and throwing an awesome birthday! Here’s to doing things that scare you (no matter how small they are) it keeps you on the path to becoming invincible. #karaoke#girlsquad#conqueringfears
My niece is definitely cut from the same cloth. She has all of our strength, charm, athleticism, intelligence, resiliency, and focus. MAN!!! I was so impressed of how she handled 5 areas of competition today🤸🏽♀️🥉. She has grown and gained this fearless level of discipline, and its so IMPRESSIVE💓. I remember when she feared sliding down a slide, and I spent a weekend with her conquering that fear. I told her....we dont suffer from #fear in our family. If it's something we want...we just DO IT! She wasn't trying to hear me and vice versa. I knew I was going to win this battle tho😉. I made her get onto the slide. She made it to the top of the slide in tears, but she listened to me as I coached her. I had her to repeat after me the whole time...I HAVE NO FEAR OF THE SLIDE. THE SLIDE WAS CREATED FOR ME TO HAVE FUN ON IT. She cried the whole time, but she never stopped repeating me.
Then....she slid with her eyes closed. When she made it down, she opened her eyes and looked at me with so much excitement in her eyes and said....OMG!! I DID IT Aunty..let's do it again💯. BOOM!!! Simply LaKendra 💋
#selflove#selfdiscipline#conqueringfears#beastmode#gymnastics#girlsempowerment#blackgirlmagic#family ❤️ #aunty
And I ran... I ran so far away... I walked and jogged for a combination of 3.2km (2 miles) this evening. Alone. Major non scale victories right there man! I don’t even enjoy going for walks alone, but I went out, ventured to the school where my son plays soccer, and went for it. As I was going around the track, feeling the burn in my lungs, I thought about a lot of things, but two things in particular made me smile... 1) My dad used to run track and field on this very same track in 9th grade in the 1960s, and here I am learning to push myself to run!! 2) Last year it was a challenge to even walk, and my lungs had tried to fail me when I had severe bilateral pulmonary embolisms, so how amazing to be running and having lungs that weren’t quitting on me! Proud moments today! Bonus #nsv today was wearing a dress with just regular underwear and not the previously required bike shorts to prevent chub rub. #winningatlife#winningattitude#keto#fasting#fitness#healthylifestyle#conqueringfears
Growing up I never had a fear of heights, until I did a zipline in Spain with a dodgy harness and was flung across mountains without an explanation above a bunch of animal enclosures... From that point onwards I would freak out and tremble at anything to do with heights... Last year I read a psychology book and it said the only way to get rid of a fear or phobia is to confront it until you do not/ can not feel anxious about it any longer. 📖
So, sure enough last year I made a pledge to get rid of my fear of heights. I told all my family and friends and they all helped me to do so! 💕
My first experience was the tallest slide in Europe with my primary school bestie, followed by climbing the o2 with my beautiful school girlies, followed by parasailing with my friend in Tenerife, followed by flying in a plane over the blue hole with my travel bestie in Belize, followed by zip lining alone in Costa Rica, followed by floating in a hot air balloon with my uncle and now - finally, what I thought would be the most terrifying - a helicopter ride with my all time bestie over London! By the time I had got to the ziplining part of my journey (and got that over with) I really didn't feel scared anymore and today I didn't feel at all how I would have felt s year ago about getting into a helicopter. 🚁♥
I have an indoor skydive planned next week and if I like it, I am going to book the real thing. That'll be the true test, but I have a strong feeling it will be absolutely fine. ☺
Yeah, so, the moral of the story is; the book was right, if you're scared of something, you need to face it until you are scared no more. Overcoming fear is important for me, fear goes hand in hand with control. Love and freedom are on the other side. I choose the latter. ♥
The sky is the limit my friends! ☺