Yesterday I was judged and attacked by a woman on FB who I don’t even know after I questioned her cynicism about the timing of Dr. Christine Ford’s revelation about Kavanaugh. I shared with her that as a rape survivor myself I can attest to the fact that it takes time, sometimes a very long time (10 years in my case), to even admit to ourselves that it happened to us. This is due to the heavy shame we carry with us. And wow repression and denial are powerful coping skills, for awhile anyway. This expectation by society that a woman should IMMEDIATELY charge a man for raping her is INSANE. (Or else it didn’t happen right? 🤬🙄) The statute of limitations in my case, in the state of Missouri, was TWO years; it took me TEN to even admit this to myself and then tell my therapist and husband.
I was and am still enraged that another WOMAN would attack me and question the way I dealt with, or in her opinion, DIDN’T deal with what happened to me.
So to all the other survivors out there: DON’T LISTEN TO THIS BULLSHIT!!! You deal with your own trauma HOWEVER you need to. In whatever timeline is right for you. You get to choose how and when you are ready to heal. It’s easy for people who haven’t been through this to judge and to say what’s “right” or “an appropriate response.” But for ME, I had NO desire to pay a lawyer a shit ton of $ and waste months of my life in court only to walk away with nothing changed. Except a drained bank account and no energy left to actually HEAL.
And to all of you judging Dr. Christine Ford, and in turn me: I wish you luck on your judgement day. You have no right or business judging someone for something you have NO idea about. You don’t know what it’s like to carry that burden around for a decade or more only to have what was essentially a breakdown and nearly have to quit your job because you feel so messed up inside and you’re in such pain you can barely function some days. So you can choose your blind politics or you can choose compassion for your fellow human beings. But I urge you to carefully consider which you choose - because only one choice matters in the end. And the truth is ALWAYS revealed.
📍 Mountain Lion Trail, 8,100ft
Spending this Monday morning day dreaming about our beautiful Sunday hike. Eight miles tired us out, but seeing the Aspens starting to change was well, well worth it. Fall is here! 🍁🌲☀️#teddygram#coloradical
After leaf peeping last year I had serious regret. Not only for the places I didn’t get to visit because I didn’t know they existed...but also because I had outgrown my camera. I was beyond frustrated to visit such beautiful places without being able to capture them properly. So I saved and I begged @milehighmagee to let me buy a new camera (as a trade off he got a mountain bike) and upgraded my lens when I could. I learned everything I could about photography and editing and hung out with people who knew more than me so I could ask all the questions. And while I’m still learning, I now have an even deeper love for beautiful places knowing I can capture a fraction of it.
Plus I’m pretty sure @milehighmagee had the time of his life mountain biking this year with James while @harmonycharleecummings and I went hiking with the kids. Then Sunday we all did a drive by peeping of this gorgeous spot...
While hiking the Raccoon Loop in Golden Gate Canyon State Park, we came across this boot overlooking a gorgeous panoramic view of the stunning, purple Colorado mountains. I couldn’t help but to think, “how random,” until I found this message on the back: “This show belonged to a man who love nature. He dreamed to be where you are now — only his shoe made the journey. Tomorrow is not promised to us. Use today wisely. Love God (ps. 83:18) with your whole soul, tell your friends and family you love them. Mend bridges. LIVE WITH NO REGRETS. Gen. 3:19–Job 14:14–Ps 51.” Something tells me I was meant to find this boot. 🌬🍂🏔🍁🌲🌾👞
Happy Fall Y’all!🍂🍁🍂
I really don’t care how basic it makes me, but I am a full fall fanatic. An autumn aficionado if you will😏
And I don’t just mean wearing flannels, sprinkling pumpkin spice into my iced coffee, and lighting apple cider candles; I do all of that stuff year round😂
But I’ve always been obsessed with the transition between seasons, and the passage into fall is definitely my favorite. The weather is cooler and typically mild, the colors are visually stunning, and there’s something about the smell of decaying detritus after the leaves fall that’s strangely intoxicating. It just feels cozy.
I’ll admit the fact that peak season is so fleeting in the mountains, while Denver still gets up in 80s well into October has been a weird adjustment compared to the Northeast, but I’m grateful that after 12+ hours of driving and 15+ miles of hiking this weekend I was able to see some of the best color Colorado has to offer!🍂✨🍂
Following your dreams is important and all, but I think a lot more about following my fears. The idea of fearlessness as a positive attribute is so strange to me. I understand some is semantics, but when people use it to describe me I have to wonder where I’ve went wrong.
I don’t want anyone to think I’m fearless. I’m afraid of tons of things. And I don’t try to “fix” that as much as I just try to accept it and do the thing anyway. And then maybe I’m not afraid anymore. But maybe I am. Along with all the other things. Because fear is a tool. It keeps us safe. It’s also a compass. Pointing us towards the things we should investigate more.
Because it’s not brave or courageous if you weren’t afraid of it. It’s literally the definition. And I’d much rather be described that way.
This is a Monday morning reminder to grab a cup of ☕️ and check your MindBody account. Be sure you have OPTED-IN for class waitlist notifications. Once you have checked your account, you will then receive text message alerts letting you know if you have made it into class and whether you want to confirm or cancel your spot. Don’t be that person that takes a spot and no shows! 🦊 Happy Monday!
The storms are chasing me!! Can’t complain when they’re creating cotton candy sunsets like this😍🌄 .
.Exploring and dispersed camping around our National Parks system is one of my favorite things to do in the non winter months. If you’ve never done it before or are planning a trip soon.. here are a few things to keep in mind. 👨🏻🏫
.Regulations may vary, but typically camping is limited to 14 days. The campsite must then be moved a minimum of three miles. Camping is restricted to 28 days in any 60-day period.🏕
.Dispersed camping is prohibited in areas such as developed trailheads and picnic sights.
.Do Not Trespass!!! Land within the national forest boundary are private or otherwise owned.
.The small black dots along roadways on the “Motor Vehicle Use Maps” indicate where dispersed camping is allowed.
Some areas allow camping only in designated sites.
.lots more to think about and plan.. but that should give you an idea of where to start as far as scouting locations to explore. If you have any other questions, lemme know .mor
Photo by: travl.mor
SOUL :: I’m on the edge. If we’re being honest here, this Monday morning has already gotten to me and it’s only 6am.
Last night I felt the seasonal depression kick in and I had to remind myself that the season has officially changed and my body and mind are feeling it.
So I’m taking things off my to do list. I’m being intentional with my time and looking for the joys. I’m trying not to look to the future because that’s where overwhelm sits and we aren’t getting along right now.
Today is gonna need a lot of tea, a lot of smelly candles and a couple good walks to clear the head. I can feel it already.