I did waaaay too much last week. I am usually pretty good at pacing, years of practice, but sometimes things come along and before you know it you are breaking all your pacing rules and plastering over the exhaustion with caffeine and make up and a face that says, ‘I’m fine!’, whilst inside your body is crying out.
I am not sure if any of us #spoonies ever truly get used to our limitations. We always wish we could do more.
Such good advice.
Honestly had such a bad health day that I haven't made it out the clothes I went to sleep in 😂
But I did make a small dent in the mammoth task that is starting to find some bedroom organisation. It's so small and all my shelving and draws are broken so there's not space for everything. And I've been stressing over finding things for Columbia and general life. So I've been planning on a good clear out for ages but I've never started because I would never be able to do it in a day and I don't really know where to start.
But today I started. And I have a box of "NEEDS TO COME TO COLUMBIA" stuff being started. If not everything I'm packing (thinks I'm not gonna use before hand or if I do for an hour or two just so I know where it is and have a designated return place)
I just need more order in my life.
My bedroom where I spend my life.
Yes I got a pretty minimal amount done and what I accomplished in a few hours the healthy person could do in one. but I've been in lots of pain despite 2x 30/500 co-codomal every 4 hours and fatigue and related symptoms have been a bitch.
It's okay that it's not a pretty perfect bedroom, it's okay that it never will be because it's design is crap and broken furnature.
What matters is I've started, it's a step in the right direction.
Gonna rest now and maybe paint my nails cause shaved the thumb nail yesterday and it looks disguising so feeling litlke a bit of colour would take the attention away from the exposed swollen skin as a result of that little accident.
Having a low energy day and finding it hard to get on my mat! Currently in my bed 😴 Exercising when you have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is a constant balancing act. I know that moving my body makes me feel better and helps my CFS in the long term, but there’s always a risk of over doing it and paying the price afterwards. But that’s what I love about yoga - you can adjust your practice daily according to how you feel. So today I might just do some restorative yin yoga, and save the vinyasa flows and Ashtanga for another time, and that’s okay ✌️😊
This shirt says it all today.🤣
Running late to my first workout of a new program that my body adapted really well to the mini trial run of the last couple of weeks. Adaptation and recovery is a BIG Deal when battling adrenal/chronic fatigue.
Did your Monday roll out as planned?
These are the next things on my wishlist. I've wanted coconut bowls and spoons for so long, and come payday it might be time to treat myself. Also, if anyone has any experience with bamboo plates and bowls, can you please get in touch, as I am unsure on if they would be suitable for me. 🌿
Badezeit! 🤗😍 .
Aber leider nur für @who.the.fuck.is.fred, nicht für mich... muss unbedingt bald mal mit ihm an den Hundesee hier in der Nähe. Dann kann ich mit ihm zusammen baden. Das ist bestimmt großartig. 😁
Ich liege jetzt voll gegessen auf der Couch und lege mich gleich auf die Sonneninsel. Bin echt kaputt jetzt.
Musste zwei Stunden in der Werkstatt warten, eine allein nur, damit einer der Mitarbeiter sein Privatgespräch unterbricht und mein Anliegen überhaupt aufnimmt.
Merke: Zu Ämtern, Werkstätten und ähnlichem immer nur schick gekleidet und geschminkt.
In Latzhose und FlipFlops sehe ich noch jünger aus als so schon und keiner nimmt mich ernst. 🙄🤦🏽♀️ .
Entsprechend war ich dann in der größten Hitze in den Supermärkten und musste mich wahnsinnig beeilen, damit nicht alles direkt verdirbt. 🙈
Super anstrengend. 😥 Aber immerhin, hat mir Freds Herrchen die Werkstattkosten direkt erstattet und mir was für ein Essen drauf gelegt, er war nämlich Schuld daran, dass ich überhaupt in die Werkstatt musste. Glück im Unglück also quasi.😊 .
Später muss ich noch meine Tabletten sortieren und zu meiner Nachbarin, um mir zeigen zu lassen, welche ihrer Katzen während ihres Urlaubs was bekommt. .
Aber ansonsten mache ich heute gar nichts mehr... außer vielleicht noch ein bisschen im Stillen feiern, dass ich jetzt 2,5 Wochen Ruhe habe. 😂🎉😴 . . . . . .
Coffee break between medical appointments to scribble down thoughts & lose myself in the incredible #notestoself by Emilie Pine from @tramppress . I’ve already re-read ‘Notes on Bleeding & Other Crimes’ because it’s one of the most powerful essays I’ve read in a long time (which is something that could be said about this entire collection.) If you haven’t read it yet, I’d wholly recommend it - it’s honest, brave and completely absorbing.
Candida albicans (yeast) can be an underlying issue for many adults and even children (think behavior problems, mood changes, etc...) these days due to diets full of sugar, junk food, alcohol and even “healthy” food (including gluten free foods) that have WAY too much sugar in them! Dangerous heavy metals stored in the tissue such as Aluminum, Arsenic, Cadmium, Lead, Mercury, Beryllium and more create an environment in the body for Candida to multiply and grow where it permeates the cells and can even cause tumor growth. You can see from this picture how it actually looks like tentacles under a microscope. Yuk!
Leading a stressful lifestyle is like throwing lighter fluid into the mix😂
Candida, as well as heavy metals, can produce chronic fatigue, hormone disruption, thyroid issues, gastrointestinal and lots more including skin conditions of all types. When symptoms such as bloating, gas, indigestion, cramps and either diarrhea or constipation are present, it's also a clear signal that something is amiss in your digestive tract and possibly elsewhere! Another clue can be repeated ear infections, UTI’s or vaginal yeast infections.
Knowing what is going on at a deep, cellular level is important to resolving your symptoms and on your way to complete health. While I don’t normally test for Candida (some is normal to have in our digestive tracts), Hair Analysis testing with me will give you lots of answers and a place to start.❤️ It is not so much about the test as what to do AFTER the test that really counts.😊
Let’s find out what’s going on “behind the scenes” so you can feel better soon💚
HEALING is choosing to reconnect with ourselves, with nature and our destiny.
It is choosing to connect with who we can grow to become.
It is realising how important nature is in helping us up our alignment with the Divine Source.
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So it’s been an interesting week. I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed about how much I want to change and how hard it’s going to be to get to where I want to be.
I’ve had a few low days feeling quite hopeless/ depressed and fatigued. But I’ve also had some good days and managed to do a couple of social things and spend some quality time with friends which I’m grateful for.
I’m starting to become more conscious of what food I put in my body and learning the importance of nutrition and giving myself a better chance at being healthy. (Not easy when I am a massive sweet tooth and struggle with emotional eating and sugar cravings!)
My sleeping patterns have been all over the place again so I will try and focus on that this week.
Grateful to all the people who continue to support me through this journey. ❤️
Thought I’d show you guys this lovely little lady. Wanted to do a very real post and I hope it’s not going to sound like a rant, but there is a point to this; that it is OKAY to ask for help. I promise 🤗
I’ve been signed up for cat sitting for a while, but until now, hadn’t taken on any of them because I haven’t been physically well enough. After a year of trying to get my body to a more physically able place (unfortunately it’s becoming clear that despite weight gain, not much has changed), I tried to work again. Not that you can really call this work! Anyways, after my first day (which I drove there myself and did all alone), I got back and had an awful evening health wise. The worst I have had for a while, I could barely move or talk and couldn’t stand for longer than 30 secs to a minute because I would’ve thrown up. Yesterday, I had to ask my Dad to take me. He’s also having to take me there, and then drop me back Home today. Last year, I would have been petrified to ask and would have just spent every waking minute either worrying about asking for help, or feeling intense guilt if they helped me anyway. I pushed everyone away and wouldn’t LET them help me. I’m not even sure why. CONTINUED IN COMMENTS ⬇️⬇️⬇️
“The waves of the sea help me get back to me” - yesterday left me feeling pretty crushed by some huge emotional waves when I got home from my trip. It was expected but that didn’t make any less pleasant. Some days coping isn’t about scented candles, yoga, baths or affirmations. It’s raw, unnerving and pretty damn ugly at times. A part of you comes out that other people wouldn’t even really recognise is from you. Far from the functional, friendly person you usually inhabit. But its started to pass. Im hoping that the emotional waves are a little smaller the rest of the week. I’ve got lots of admin work to do but hoping I can make a nest and do most of it at home, and will only need to go into sort my classroom for one day.
Do you meditate? This morning my mind wandered A LOT but in it's wandering it uncovered 5 ah ha moments about the ebook I'm nearly finished. One was remembering a topic I'd completely forgotten to include (my #SomeNotNone strategy). Another was using my phone to take pictures of it displayed on my Ma's ipad looking pretty as a flatlay to share on here when it's finished. The others are less interesting but I was relieved to have realized them.
So meditation isn't just worthwhile if you empty your mind. You aren't bad at it if thoughts keep popping in one after the other. Let them come and go and observe them rather than getting too involved. I was tempted to start writing the bit about #SomeNotNone in my head and dreaming up flatlay ideas but I knew they could wait.
How do you go with meditating? Do you find it daunting and really hard to get on and do it?
Half the time I play a guided meditation and half the time I sit in silence.
Some days a sense of calm and quiet washes over me by the end which is the best.
Other times I feel less noticeable benefit pr even feel frustraed at how busy my head was.
But each time I try and feel glad I made the effort and added another virtual gold star to the practice.
Our mind is expert at providing excuses no to meditate today. It might even be the thing it is most effective at coming up with excuses for!!!
I meditate first thing in the morning. Then I start the day with a gold star.
Set the timer and sit there. Even if you stare at the wall or watch the clock tick the minutes down you get a gold star in my book.
If you haven't managed to even try to meditate recently set your timer for 5 minutes today.
Just do it. 5 minutes counts my dear. This is #SomeNotNone at its finest.
So how ace will it be if you actually stop and sit there for 5 minutes or through one track on the Headspace timer?
It 100% doesn't matter if your head is awash with thoughts the whole time. It is just day 1.
It takes years to be able to empty your mind for an extended time. Did you know that?
Meditation is practicing letting your thoughts come and go without judging them. And even that takes hours of practice.
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