The year was 2001. I just got married and was so excited about the future. Yet that nagging feeling wouldn’t go away. What if he left me because I wasn’t beautiful enough. Because of my deformity. So, I took the plunge and had the surgery. I got a breast implant in one of my breasts to correct something that I viewed as hideous. I was ashamed. I wasn’t perfect. But this would fix everything and make me happier. Right?
My husband said I didn’t have to do it. He loved me anyway I came. But I was so insecure about how I looked that I decided to have surgery to correct my flaw.
They said it was safe. It was a new kind of implant- part saline, part silicone. I was even part of a study.
But it didn’t make me feel more beautiful or worthy. In the end I still didn’t like how I looked. I actually regretted having the surgery because I often had pain in that area and numbness all the time. Too late to turn back.
Then I listened to the Medical Medium radio show yesterday and wasn’t happy at all with what I heard. In the back of my mind I knew the truth, but never wanted to face it.
Implants are unhealthy for the body. They are after all a foreign object and are seen as such by the body. Implants are not tested throughly enough and actually contain metals in the solution. They off-gas as well which is not good at all.
Did my implant cause my eczema, POTs symptoms, nausea, dizziness, tightness in my chest, chronic fatigue? Yes and no. The out gasing and heavy metals from the implant is food for viruses which can exacerbate any condition. The viruses in the body cause the illness. The implants create food for them.
So, am I going to have the implant removed? Not now. When I get stronger. Just not yet. So, what am I going to do? Follow the anti-virtual guidelines in the Medical Medium protocol- zinc, Ester C, B-12, Cats Claw, Lemon Balm...
I have learned that I’m beautiful just the way God made me. And so are you. Breast implants are dangerous and not worth the risk of you getting sick. Your health is EVERYTHING. If you are thinking of getting breast implants- DON’T. It’s not worth the risk. Please share my story and pass this message on. ❤️
After weeks of healing progress, I've hit my first big flare up. My throat and glands are so swollen that I can't talk for more than a minute. I'm exhausted and achy. My stomach is in knots.
Flare ups are scary. They feel like they're never going to end. But I know this one will. I know that I'm still healing, even if it isn't linear. I know that I am even now able to do things that I couldn't do before.
I choose gratitude over disappointment. I'm grateful that I can read books again. I'm grateful that I can go up & down the stairs. I'm grateful that I can see the moon from my bed. I'm grateful for a husband who never stops caring for me. I'm grateful for ALL THE TEA. I'm grateful that I'm healing. Even when it looks like this.
Have you been seeing doctor after doctor trying to find out why you have such extreme fatigue? •
Have you been told that your blood tests came back normal? •
Did your doctor then give you a diagnosis of chronic fatigue syndrome and tell you that you will have to live with it for the rest of your life? •
If so, then you are no doubt one of the millions of frustrated patients who were left feeling hopeless. But take heart, because it is very likely that your real diagnosis was overlooked.
A common cause of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is Hypothyroidism!
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Making progress on the Guaifenesin Protocol.🦋
The Guaifenesin Protocol Check list is a must!
Learn to recognize Salicylates and blue Dye !
We must avoid these while on the Guaifenesin Protocol for Fibromyalgia symptom reversal.
Check this IG post for info on blockers that stall the clearing on the Guaifenesin Protocol.
🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋 Salicylates block the affect of the Guaifenesin to encourage the release of the phosphates that build in the cells. You may as well not take Guaifenesin if
you aren’t changing all your beauty products, etc to Salicylate free ones.
You DO need to check all your beauty products; inactive and active ingredients in all meds, vitamins, protein powders, eye drops, pain creams, flavors, Toothpaste, dental floss(mint), mouthwash, shampoo, conditioner, hair spray, perfume, any sprays that touch your skin, hair gels, mousse, etc, body wash, hand soap, bubble bath, dish soap for washing by hands (unless you use gloves), deodorant, antiperspirant, lotion, sunscreen, face wash, face creams, makeup, makeup remover, Razors (aloe strip), shaving cream, mosquito repellent, nail polish, nail polish remover, aloe in toilet paper and tissue and anything else you can think of that goes on your skin! Gardeners must wear gloves!
You need all these products without blue dye and without Salicylates in them. They WILL block your Guaifenesin from working. You can do it !
Once you get rid of the products you are on your way for the protocol to work for you and begin to reverse and clear the phosphates that build in your cells that cause the pain and fatigue associated with severe fibromyalgia.
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"Through her eyes I saw - Her vision guiding my hands to paint & draw.
Trusting my inner guidance & allowing my imagination to birth her into life.
I now see - all that was meant for me. Unfolding. Unravelling. I leave all that does not serve my soul. Connected with my highest truth I become whole." 💜
Ajna - Third Eye Chakra 💜 the 6th body of work in my Chakra Mandala series (the journey that began a couple of years ago & are finally being completed with splashes of watercolour!)....🎨💙💜
I trust my Inner Guidance
I am Intuitive and connected to my Inner Vision
I take responsibility for creating the life of my dreams
I trust that my life is unfolding exactly as it is meant to
I let go of limiting beliefs and old thought patterns
I have access to unlimited possibilities
I love and accept myself
Next on to...Crown Chakra Mandala 💜
《To Flu Shot or Not to Flu Shot》
I’ll cut to the chase, for ME the answer will always be NO.🙅🏻♀️
Here are a few reasons why:
⠀⠀⠀💉1. The flu vaccine contains dangerous and toxic adjuvants like aluminum, mercury and formaldehyde which can penetrate the blood brain barrier leading to neurological dysfunction.
⠀⠀⠀💉2. The flu vaccine has been shown to incite AUTOIMMUNE responses.
⠀⠀⠀💉3. The efficacy rate of the flu vaccine is incredibly low (even without considering the risk).
⠀⠀⠀💉4. Due to something known as “viral shedding”, you are actually more likely to spread the flu if you get the vaccine.
Did you know that in 1986 the US government effectively released vaccine manufacturers from any liability concerning vaccine injured patients by creating a “vaccine court” to pay off those affected while keeping the drug companies out of federal court?
💰To date they’ve paid out about $4 Billion. And do you know who paid that money? The drug companies? No. You did.
I recently moved and had to find a whole new team of doctors. Upon meeting my new GI doctor, whom I had waited 2 months to get an appointment with (a fact he was quick to remind me of when it became clear I had a few more questions than his typical patient), he was incredulous that I had never gotten a flu vaccine. In fact, he practically threatened not to treat me if I refused to get one.
His term “refuse” implied that his “orders” were to be followed, and how dare I have a contrary opinion.
But the thing is, I don’t go to my doctors for orders, I go for advice. And honestly at this point, I just go for blood work and cancer screenings.
I certainly don’t go to be bullied into making healthcare decisions that go against my research and better judgment.
Now I say all of this to encourage you to look into the things your doctor is “ordering” you to do. Doctors are not the keepers of information. And they certainly don’t know your body better than you.
I beg you to inform yourself. Do your own research, make your own healthcare decisions. And with flu season upon us, this is a great place to start. 💪✨
🐆🐆🐆 I’m deliriously tired from lack of sleep over the past few nights and selectively using my only spoons to try on clothes (if you know me, you know). I really thought I had my sleep under control for a few weeks because I was sleeping ~10 hours a night and while mornings were rough I felt somewhat alive (!!!) when I woke up. The past few nights I’ve been waking up around 4am-5am alert and exhausted, and not able to fall back asleep despite trying for hours. 🛏 I’m SO much more exhausted and emotionally unstable during the day when this happens, and my lymph nodes are very painful. I suspect the HPA Axis/ANS are off and my adrenals and cortisol are out of whack somehow. Tonight I’m going to try going to bed earlier because my acupuncturist said 10pm-11pm is an important time for the adrenals. I’m also going to try some nighttime meditations. Open to all theories/ advice!! I need my sleep & corresponding sanity back. Xo🖤 #mecfs#myalgicencephalomyelitis#chronicillness#chronicpain#invisibleillness#chronicfatigue#chronicfatiguesyndrome#spoonie#spoonielife#butyoudontlooksick
All the energy in the world to look semi decent for an hour or so...the chronic life. Sometimes it's worth it and sometimes you wish you hadn't. This is when we had the heatwave - i was merely going to the beach but staying in the car...crap mobility...I'll save that story for another day
You guys! Ouch!!! Yesterday I did my first workout with weights since before my accident. I felt it in my piriformis (a muscle in your booty that extends into your hamstrings and back) even before the workout was over. It's a muscle I've been struggling with in recovery. But I started feeling it in my quads by the evening. And today I'm moving like an old lady! I dread going to the bathroom but have to ask the time because I drink a lot of water. Ok goodness!
I know the pain will pass. I remember feeling like this every time I've worked at getting back into regular exercise. The thing is, it hurts so much that if I were just doing this in my own I probably would have just rested today. But I'm not alone. I'm running a virtual boot camp and have committed to exercise every day this week. And, I just started a fit club and knew I had friends planning to join me for today's workout. And when I have people counting on me I'm not going to let them down!
And that's really the reason I started coaching. I had found that when I got a group of friends to commit to doing a nothin and fitness program with me, for the first time in my life, I was consistent. I didn't let excuses derail me. While that accountability isn't the only reason I have to coach now, it even the main one, it is one of the reasons I'm so grateful to coach. Because I know I can come up with lots of reasons not to put my health first. Legitimate reasons. But when I'm committed and accountable I almost always find a way to reach my goals!
Do you have someone it something that helps you stay committed and accountable?
My absolute go to’s!
I try an tackle my ailments and keep my general health up through supplements.
I try and have the best diet I can through food but my body doesn’t always absorb the nutrients. Also with me not eating fish, eggs or meat I need a good Omega 3, B Vits (especially B12) and a multi vit that contains high levels of the vitamins and minerals I need plus some aminos. I have been taking Myo-Inositol and folic for my PCOS and trying to help my fertility and prepare my body for pregnancy.
Second shaker full of liquid gold or mom crack as I call it!!
I am not ashamed as I have this pesky thing called chronic fatigue syndrome and I have crashes about this time everyday and feel the intense need for a nap!!
This is my keep going mid day drink LOL
Sigh. Relief. These words were spoken to me today. In that moment, the clouds started to part. Truthfully, I feel like I’ve been going backwards and getting sicker. Very little do doctors understand what I’m going through and at times it seems answers won’t ever come. Today I spent time with a doctor that not only suffered with what I am now but healed and is now helping many people. Only, there wasn’t a prescription pad or cure. I was reminded my body heals itself when supported. Something I’ve known all along but it just rang extra true today! In the last 3 weeks, I’ve spent most of my time in bed, have had to leave my job, and have found it challenging to walk from one room to the next. It’s frightening and debilitating. Logic tells me I’m getting worse but the truth is my body (in its genius form) is healing. I will be well again because I will support it to heal. If you’re faced with a chronic health condition and have thoughts that creep in that you’ll continue to get worse, do these three things: 1. Trust God 2. Believe your body is healing. You’re not getting sicker 3. Learn how to support your body to heal! #chronicfatiguesyndrome#healthandwellness#dnrs#neuroplacticity#healing#hypothyroid#paleo#cfs#myalgicencephalomyelitis#organicfoods#wellness
This is what graded exercise does to some one with M.E..nearly kills them..in my darker moments I wish all those naysayers within the medical profession globally could live in that body too right and bottom left.. the misery is excrutiating and the self loathing destroys self esteem..let's not forget being bed bound all but. I may be smiling but behind those eyes all I'm thinking about is death. Wake up medical folk.M.E is Real .A shrink graded my intelligence at top 5% and my mind as completely stopped balance and fully aware of my situation without anger or malice or hatred or bitterness..He , and three others, asked how I managed it.Simple. I no longer fear Death. And the book . Tibetan book of living and dying dried my tears and embrace my Destiny without wishing I could be either my old self. Or be someone else. #mecfs#chronicfatiguesyndrome#chronicfatigue#exhaustion#death#buddhism
Chronic illness ain't fun. Even less fun: when documentary producers intentionally set out to make you look stupid & crazy. I was not one of the patients filmed, but I appreciate their struggle. Please TELL NETFLIX TO CANCEL THE SERIES 'AFFLICTED.' More info at the LA Times: https://tinyurl.com/suckitNetflix
In 1991 Feb there was a blizzard in Britain that last two weeks freezing up most of the UK..after the first week I decided I'd like to drive to n.w Scotland and take some photos although I live 350 miles away. My then wife begged me firstly not to go ,then seeing I was hell bent on going,begged me not to tell her parents as they'd drag her away and get me sectioned. You see, I had been 22hrs a day in bed by now for 18months and the mind kind of goes somewhere else. What had I to lose?I wanted to die anyway. So..smashing my body to more pieces by the time I'd got to Edinburgh in Scotland I had incredible flue like symptoms. . Everywhere we went the motorways were down in places to one lane or roads blocked..but I figured west coast would be fine.it was. To cut a very long story short I got M.E.. on top of everything else. But. I got a few photos.here they are. #mecfs#fatigue#chronicfatiguesyndrome#chronicfatigue#scotland
So true. Atleast of me. My CFS took hold just after my GCSEs. When yes I had balence in my life (well compared to now) but in the lead up to exams I stopped climbing, dog walking with the fam, going to church! Because I had to study. I was predicted straight A's and I wasn't on target for that. Understandably because my secondary school years were far from easy. It's no wonder I didn't reach my academic potential. I went from C's and B's in Jan/Feb mocks to 2A*s 4As 2Bs and 2Cs. But still there was that part of me that felt I hadn't tried enough. A levels, AS I got 80-100% in most exams because God did I push myself in the lead up to exams.
A2 I had expectations to uphold and my CFS was worse than it had been before. I had to take a step back and again didn't reach my academic potential. Dropping from A's in AS exams to getting C's and Ds in A2 exams still affects me today.
Fast forward to uni, my focus was more on being a perfect person. Doing all the things. The job, the law activities, the degree, the social life. So obviously my first year grades suffered. Because I'd messed up (got 2:2s) in all my coursework exams I was not giving myself a break. Despite the fatigue. Despite endo pain being so bad that I was crying in the library toilets.
2nd year comes along. I start with the perfect person. 2 committee positions, job, other social activities and doing all my reading and seminar prep (go me!) But it wasn't working. I had to cut the majority of my life outside of law. Which fueled the perfectionism. I WAS SO INTENSE! And I got a first. But that only made my health worse.
It's only Tuesday and already I'm aware that I'm not well enough to be the law student I want to be. I expect myself to be. The overactivity of the last couple of days has started catching up. I can't do 4 modules and a dissertation. But I also can't quite face taking a year out. My family understand so little that they would hold it against me forever.
Why don’t they get it?
It’s not just our family and our friends that don’t understand, it’s our own medical professionals.
If you’ve ever been turned away from A&E or misdiagnosed you’ll understand what I’m saying. It takes a toll.
Living with #invisibleillness is hard enough, but to not have it recognised, to not have it accepted? That’s a whole extra level of pain right there. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I’m on a mission to create a community, an online village, because being surrounded by other women who totally get it when I say today sucks, means more than most can understand.
Do you get it?
Hey guys 👋, I’m back from a lil hiatus on here. My health is fickle at the best of times but recently every time I try to pick myself back up I burn out and collapse in a heap again ☺️. Anyone else experience this? Anyways, this green spinach and nana smoothie bowl was pretty epic. I snuck some 🥑 in there too obviously 😉.
not the most aesthetically pleasing meal, but soooo tasty 😍 i’m going home on thursday for the weekend so wanted to just use up what i have in the flat - i messaged @livsfoodlife and told her what i had in and voila! she hit me with this from @pinchofnom 🙌🏼 she’s a good woman. never had this before but it was super easy to make and delicious! syn free using the cheese as my hex A. got the other half left over for tomorrow’s lunch too 😍🙌🏼
I've uploaded this to push myself to get the story up this week. These pics are referenced in main text appearing soon..I'm aware that for every living being theirs a road mapped out for each as individual as a snowflake .but. ,that also there will always be a few bumpy parts to Navigate.. here's one of my bumps. ,And a picture of a car crash 🙄😆 oh...and forgive the dick pose in the bottom right corner..it's relevant to next post #mecfs#fatigue#chronicfatiguesyndrome#chronicfatigue#exhaustion
This week I celebrated my 100 days post stem cells . The past three and a half months have been the hardest but most important days of my life as my stem cells are adapting and multiplying in their new home . Everyday I see improvements some big and some small .. when I was told sit tight for a year this was the hardest part of my treatment but I have to remind myself Rome was not built in a day either is a new immune system . I can’t thank the people enough that has stuck by me everyday especially the past few months . I also cannot thank INFUSIO and my medical team enough for given me my life back I don’t know how I can ever repay them . 💚💚 This is the happiest I have ever been and I am enjoying every minute of my new life and I wanted to thank the people that helped me get here . Remember there is always HOPE (Hold on Pain Ends ) 💚💚💚
#infusiofrankfurtgermany#infusiobeverlyhills#lymediseaseawareness#stemcells#fibromyalgia#lupus#chronicfatiguesyndrome#invisibleillness recovery#thebestisyettocome ❤️
When you're not feeling your best, what's your go-to outfit?👚
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