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~ I have never met anyone more capable of greatness, than the badass people who have made the terrifying choice to recover from their addictions! ~
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~ No one chooses to become an addict or alcoholic as their life goal. I didn’t dream of spending so much of my life... in and out of consciousness, waking up dopesick and desperate... just to repeat that cycle over and over again; year after year after miserable year! ~
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~ I was running from the pain I was too afraid to face; trying to fill the absolute void I felt in my heart. ~
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~ What I did set as a goal, was to become free from my slavery to addiction! And I make a choice every single day to stay the course and stand my ground against all the things that once made me feel so fucking small, so handicapped... so broken. ~
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~ We are capable of much more than even we can see... once we free ourselves of from the prison of alcohol and drugs!
You guys are my family!
You guys are my heroes! ~
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#addictionrecovery #addictionawareness #breakthecycle #chooserecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #recoverycommunity #recoveryfamily #recoverywarriors #sobernation #sobermovement #soberfam #soberliving #cleanandsober #youarecapable #youareworthy #healyourlife #setyourselffree #inspiringpeople #odaat #wedorecover #believeinyourselfalways #nevergiveuphope #miracleshappen #iamproof
~ I have never met anyone more capable of greatness, than the badass people who have made the terrifying choice to recover from their addictions! ~ 👊🏼👊🏼 ~ No one chooses to become an addict or alcoholic as their life goal. I didn’t dream of spending so much of my life... in and out of consciousness, waking up dopesick and desperate... just to repeat that cycle over and over again; year after year after miserable year! ~ 👊🏼👊🏼 ~ I was running from the pain I was too afraid to face; trying to fill the absolute void I felt in my heart. ~ 👊🏼👊🏼 ~ What I did set as a goal, was to become free from my slavery to addiction! And I make a choice every single day to stay the course and stand my ground against all the things that once made me feel so fucking small, so handicapped... so broken. ~ 👊🏼👊🏼 ~ We are capable of much more than even we can see... once we free ourselves of from the prison of alcohol and drugs! You guys are my family! You guys are my heroes! ~ 👊🏼👊🏼 . . . #addictionrecovery  #addictionawareness  #breakthecycle  #chooserecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverycommunity  #recoveryfamily  #recoverywarriors  #sobernation  #sobermovement  #soberfam  #soberliving  #cleanandsober  #youarecapable  #youareworthy  #healyourlife  #setyourselffree  #inspiringpeople  #odaat  #wedorecover  #believeinyourselfalways  #nevergiveuphope  #miracleshappen  #iamproof 
S u n d a y s 🥐☕🍇🍊 #breakfast
Put the butter croissant on the toaster and it was even better 🤤
Afterwards I was so motivated that I already cleaned everything &made the laundry 💁‍♀️but now uni stuff..🕯
Have a nice Sunday y'all 👐
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#sundaybreakfast #breakfastinbed #buttercroissant #fruits  #cappuccino #coffeefirst #recoverywin #breakfastpost #breakkie #foodpost #fearfood #healthy #treatyourself #balanceiskey #foodisfuel #recovery #chooserecovery #recoveryispossible
S u n d a y s 🥐☕🍇🍊 #breakfast  Put the butter croissant on the toaster and it was even better 🤤 Afterwards I was so motivated that I already cleaned everything &made the laundry 💁‍♀️but now uni stuff..🕯 Have a nice Sunday y'all 👐 . . . . . #sundaybreakfast  #breakfastinbed  #buttercroissant  #fruits  #cappuccino  #coffeefirst  #recoverywin  #breakfastpost  #breakkie  #foodpost  #fearfood  #healthy  #treatyourself  #balanceiskey  #foodisfuel  #recovery  #chooserecovery  #recoveryispossible 
Coffee in my fave set 🥰 now off to cram study eeeeek super nervous for my radio exam but also feeling motivated to pull all nighters 💪 let’s go get ‘em ladies and gents 🙌

#recoverylife #vegetarianrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiawarrior #prorecovery #anorexiafighter #fearfood #recoverwin #beatana #edfam #anorexiarecovery #chooserecovery #chooserecoveryeveryday #fuckanorexia #edhope #healthyeating #radiatepositivity #kindness #eatwelllivewell #mindfuleating #vegetarianfoodporn #bekindtoyourmind #bekindtoyourself #happybodyhappymind #happiness #yummyfood #veggiefood #sundayfunday #coffee
Coffee in my fave set 🥰 now off to cram study eeeeek super nervous for my radio exam but also feeling motivated to pull all nighters 💪 let’s go get ‘em ladies and gents 🙌 #recoverylife  #vegetarianrecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #prorecovery  #anorexiafighter  #fearfood  #recoverwin  #beatana  #edfam  #anorexiarecovery  #chooserecovery  #chooserecoveryeveryday  #fuckanorexia  #edhope  #healthyeating  #radiatepositivity  #kindness  #eatwelllivewell  #mindfuleating  #vegetarianfoodporn  #bekindtoyourmind  #bekindtoyourself  #happybodyhappymind  #happiness  #yummyfood  #veggiefood  #sundayfunday  #coffee 
Good morning all. Had a fab nights sleep for once and I feel like I have a bit more energy. I’ve found some nice dresses in my wardrobe (floordrobe 😂😂) and I’m gonna try and make myself feel a little better by wearing them. I feel a little more “me” today - slowly but surely getting back to my irritating yet optimistic old self lmao. Have a great day. Xxx #positive #chooserecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #unnecessarypost
Good morning all. Had a fab nights sleep for once and I feel like I have a bit more energy. I’ve found some nice dresses in my wardrobe (floordrobe 😂😂) and I’m gonna try and make myself feel a little better by wearing them. I feel a little more “me” today - slowly but surely getting back to my irritating yet optimistic old self lmao. Have a great day. Xxx #positive  #chooserecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #unnecessarypost 
One of my favourite posts ☺️💖✨ swipe for porridge base ingredients AND a really satisfying video of tea!
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Honestly, I hadn’t planned for this morning to go this well. But I decided to film today for a study video (that will probably never be posted lol) which made me want to... I’m not sure... fit food around what suits me best, rather than fit what I do around food? It’s a nice thought, if not a rather terrifying one!
One of my favourite posts ☺️💖✨ swipe for porridge base ingredients AND a really satisfying video of tea! - - Honestly, I hadn’t planned for this morning to go this well. But I decided to film today for a study video (that will probably never be posted lol) which made me want to... I’m not sure... fit food around what suits me best, rather than fit what I do around food? It’s a nice thought, if not a rather terrifying one!
„For every kind soul you meet with a beautiful story to tell, may you know that you are worthy of being seen that way as well.“ 🌻
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Good morning on Sunday 🤗
I read this quote last night & still had to think about it when I woke up. 💭
A short sentence with a little message, that is forgotten way to often by many people. Even though self-confidence is so attractive, isn’t it? ✨
For me it’s time to rest today - rest to get the energy for a new exciting week ahead. And usually „me-time-days“ start with porridge 😛🥣
This one was made with my beloved multigrain oats, vanilla protein, coconut chips, roasted almonds and lovely summer berries. 🍓
How does your Sunday look like today? ☀️
I hope you’ll have a great time! 💛
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Guten Morgen am Sonntag. 🤗
Dieses Zitat habe ich gestern Abend gelesen und musste heute früh noch immer daran denken. 💭
Ein kurzer Satz, mit einer kleinen Botschaft, die leider von einigen zu sehr vergessen wird. Dabei ist Selbstbewusstsein so attraktiv, nicht wahr? ✨
Für mich heißt’s heute runterfahren und Energie für eine neue aufregende Woche sammeln. Und meistens beginnen solche „Me-time-Tage“ bei mir mit Porridge. 😛🥣
Dieser bestand aus meinen geliebten Multikorn-Flocken, Vanille-Protein, Kokosnuss-Chips, gerösteten Mandeln und frischen Sommerbeeren. 🍓
Wie sieht euer Sonntag heute aus? ☀️
Ich wünsche euch eine schöne Zeit! 💛
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Für meinen Porridge hab ich folgende Zutaten verwendet:
@koelln_deutschland - Multikornflocken (*prsample)
@heimatgut - Kokosnuss-Chips (*prsample)
@reishunger - Mandelblättchen (*prsample)
@purya.superfoods - veganes Vanille Protein (*prsample)
@davertorganicfood - Kakaonibs
„For every kind soul you meet with a beautiful story to tell, may you know that you are worthy of being seen that way as well.“ 🌻 ________
Good morning on Sunday 🤗 I read this quote last night & still had to think about it when I woke up. 💭 A short sentence with a little message, that is forgotten way to often by many people. Even though self-confidence is so attractive, isn’t it? ✨ For me it’s time to rest today - rest to get the energy for a new exciting week ahead. And usually „me-time-days“ start with porridge 😛🥣 This one was made with my beloved multigrain oats, vanilla protein, coconut chips, roasted almonds and lovely summer berries. 🍓
How does your Sunday look like today? ☀️
I hope you’ll have a great time! 💛
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Guten Morgen am Sonntag. 🤗 Dieses Zitat habe ich gestern Abend gelesen und musste heute früh noch immer daran denken. 💭 Ein kurzer Satz, mit einer kleinen Botschaft, die leider von einigen zu sehr vergessen wird. Dabei ist Selbstbewusstsein so attraktiv, nicht wahr? ✨ Für mich heißt’s heute runterfahren und Energie für eine neue aufregende Woche sammeln. Und meistens beginnen solche „Me-time-Tage“ bei mir mit Porridge. 😛🥣 Dieser bestand aus meinen geliebten Multikorn-Flocken, Vanille-Protein, Kokosnuss-Chips, gerösteten Mandeln und frischen Sommerbeeren. 🍓
Wie sieht euer Sonntag heute aus? ☀️
Ich wünsche euch eine schöne Zeit! 💛 ___________________ ᵂᴱᴿᴮᵁᴺᴳ |ᴬᴰ| Für meinen Porridge hab ich folgende Zutaten verwendet: @koelln_deutschland - Multikornflocken (*prsample) @heimatgut - Kokosnuss-Chips (*prsample) @reishunger - Mandelblättchen (*prsample) @purya.superfoods - veganes Vanille Protein (*prsample) @davertorganicfood - Kakaonibs
Tonight's snack was a (slightly melted) red velvet cupcake. It was a challenge for a number of reasons:
• Dessert = more calories, sugar, and fat
• It wasn't at my normal snack time
• I know I'm going to be having something sweet for breakfast tomorrow, which goes against Ana's rules that say I'm not allowed to eat any sugar tomorrow to 'compensate' for tonight
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I got through it, and it was delicious! And I'm going to eat whatever I want for breakfast tomorrow, because what I eat today does not dictate what I eat tomorrow 💪🏼 #fuckyouana ~
#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #vegan #eatittobeatit #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
Tonight's snack was a (slightly melted) red velvet cupcake. It was a challenge for a number of reasons: • Dessert = more calories, sugar, and fat • It wasn't at my normal snack time • I know I'm going to be having something sweet for breakfast tomorrow, which goes against Ana's rules that say I'm not allowed to eat any sugar tomorrow to 'compensate' for tonight ~ I got through it, and it was delicious! And I'm going to eat whatever I want for breakfast tomorrow, because what I eat today does not dictate what I eat tomorrow 💪🏼 #fuckyouana  ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #vegan  #eatittobeatit  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
mediterranean salad + kombucha for lunch while with my nanna 🥗👩‍❤️‍👩
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last time i went to Melbourne with my nanna i had a salad and cried in front of everyone because there was cheese on it. today i ate it and yes i did have thoughts of the oil and fats in it but i stayed present and tried to forget about it. i know salad isn’t the best choice for someone in recovery but i still find eating out difficult and this was still a challenge so 😅 anyway, i finished exams and am officially in year 12!! i feel good about how i went besides for my biology exam which i want to forget about 😂 but i can’t believe i’m finally in year 12. it’s honestly such a big achievement for me as i wasn’t sure if i was even going to pass and now look at me 😇 but yeah, i went shopping today and bought clothes that fit a healthy body and that’s okay 👍🏼 being healthy is a good thing and not something i should be ashamed of. healthy bodies are beautiful and deserve love. i haven’t treated my body with love for such a long time but slowly, day by day, i’m working on loving it. as the famous words from ed sheeran say “before i love someone else, i’ve got to love myself”. so i’m taking that advice and focusing on my recovery, my body & my future. it’s not selfish, it’s taking care of my wellbeing. hope you all are doing okay and sending my love 💓
mediterranean salad + kombucha for lunch while with my nanna 🥗👩‍❤️‍👩 - last time i went to Melbourne with my nanna i had a salad and cried in front of everyone because there was cheese on it. today i ate it and yes i did have thoughts of the oil and fats in it but i stayed present and tried to forget about it. i know salad isn’t the best choice for someone in recovery but i still find eating out difficult and this was still a challenge so 😅 anyway, i finished exams and am officially in year 12!! i feel good about how i went besides for my biology exam which i want to forget about 😂 but i can’t believe i’m finally in year 12. it’s honestly such a big achievement for me as i wasn’t sure if i was even going to pass and now look at me 😇 but yeah, i went shopping today and bought clothes that fit a healthy body and that’s okay 👍🏼 being healthy is a good thing and not something i should be ashamed of. healthy bodies are beautiful and deserve love. i haven’t treated my body with love for such a long time but slowly, day by day, i’m working on loving it. as the famous words from ed sheeran say “before i love someone else, i’ve got to love myself”. so i’m taking that advice and focusing on my recovery, my body & my future. it’s not selfish, it’s taking care of my wellbeing. hope you all are doing okay and sending my love 💓
"Due cose portano alla follia: l'amore e la sua mancanza"
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Arriva un momento in cui impazzisci. In cui non sai più dove sei, né chi sei. Ti guardi allo specchio e ti chiedi da dove sia spuntato fuori quel riflesso che vedi e che stenti a riconoscere. Quindi cominci a fissarti, ti impunti su determinati aspetti di te che prima non vedevi, e che ora vedi occupare lo specchio quasi da invaderlo totalmente. Quel riflesso ti fa male, quel riflesso ti fa crollare ogni certezza. Niente di ciò che ti circonda ha la minima importanza paragonato a quel difetto che noti su di te, un difetto che paradossalmente cambia ogni giorno, ogni ora. Prima gambe, poi pancia, poi braccia, poi viso; non ti vai mai bene, non sei mai perfetto come gli altri, perché loro sono così perfetti mentre io non riesco neppure ad assomigliare al mio riflesso? Così, ad un certo punto, ti vergogni di osservarti, provi persino un'irrazionale paura ad incrociare i tuoi occhi nella superficie riflettente, e un bel giorno non ti guardi più, per tanto, troppo tempo. E impazzisci. Impazzisci perché non vedi più niente, hai tagliato i ponti col mondo intero, e tutto quello che ti rimane é il peso della tua inadeguatezza, del tuo non essere capace a vivere come fanno gli altri. Sai però cosa ti dico? Che bisogna perdersi per ritrovarsi. Sì, che bisogna impazzire e arrivare al limite della follia per ritrovare il senno. Più che il senno, il coraggio di guardarsi dinuovo allo specchio, e guardarsi dritti negli occhi, assumendosi le proprie responsabilità. Solo allora l'amore che provi per la vita sarà più forte del tuo dolore, perché riuscirai a guardare negli occhi chi ti ha ucciso senza piangere. Pochi giorni fa mi sono guardata attentamente allo specchio, per un attimo ho intravisto i lineamenti della ragazza che non sono mai stata, e che ora ho tanta voglia di essere. Il mondo per me, per noi, sarà pure stato tutto nero, ma ragazzi, ci sono così tanti colori là fuori, basta avere il coraggio di guardarli, di vederli, e non vorremmo più lasciarli andare. 
#riflessioni #colours #ilmiopensieropositivo #ed #photooftheday #instafamily #anorexia #anoressia #specchio #iamnotmyillness #fuckana
"Due cose portano alla follia: l'amore e la sua mancanza" ° ° ° Arriva un momento in cui impazzisci. In cui non sai più dove sei, né chi sei. Ti guardi allo specchio e ti chiedi da dove sia spuntato fuori quel riflesso che vedi e che stenti a riconoscere. Quindi cominci a fissarti, ti impunti su determinati aspetti di te che prima non vedevi, e che ora vedi occupare lo specchio quasi da invaderlo totalmente. Quel riflesso ti fa male, quel riflesso ti fa crollare ogni certezza. Niente di ciò che ti circonda ha la minima importanza paragonato a quel difetto che noti su di te, un difetto che paradossalmente cambia ogni giorno, ogni ora. Prima gambe, poi pancia, poi braccia, poi viso; non ti vai mai bene, non sei mai perfetto come gli altri, perché loro sono così perfetti mentre io non riesco neppure ad assomigliare al mio riflesso? Così, ad un certo punto, ti vergogni di osservarti, provi persino un'irrazionale paura ad incrociare i tuoi occhi nella superficie riflettente, e un bel giorno non ti guardi più, per tanto, troppo tempo. E impazzisci. Impazzisci perché non vedi più niente, hai tagliato i ponti col mondo intero, e tutto quello che ti rimane é il peso della tua inadeguatezza, del tuo non essere capace a vivere come fanno gli altri. Sai però cosa ti dico? Che bisogna perdersi per ritrovarsi. Sì, che bisogna impazzire e arrivare al limite della follia per ritrovare il senno. Più che il senno, il coraggio di guardarsi dinuovo allo specchio, e guardarsi dritti negli occhi, assumendosi le proprie responsabilità. Solo allora l'amore che provi per la vita sarà più forte del tuo dolore, perché riuscirai a guardare negli occhi chi ti ha ucciso senza piangere. Pochi giorni fa mi sono guardata attentamente allo specchio, per un attimo ho intravisto i lineamenti della ragazza che non sono mai stata, e che ora ho tanta voglia di essere. Il mondo per me, per noi, sarà pure stato tutto nero, ma ragazzi, ci sono così tanti colori là fuori, basta avere il coraggio di guardarli, di vederli, e non vorremmo più lasciarli andare. #riflessioni  #colours  #ilmiopensieropositivo  #ed  #photooftheday  #instafamily  #anorexia  #anoressia  #specchio  #iamnotmyillness  #fuckana 
Night snack is a big win!! I had a piece of homemade chocolate biscuit cake with some blueberries, and it was so good! I’m trying to get myself to fully commit to recovery - it’s really hard, but I think I’m getting there? Maybe tomorrow I can really fight...
Night snack is a big win!! I had a piece of homemade chocolate biscuit cake with some blueberries, and it was so good! I’m trying to get myself to fully commit to recovery - it’s really hard, but I think I’m getting there? Maybe tomorrow I can really fight...
First meal at home for Thanksgiving break was avocado toast 🥑 sweet potato soup 🥣 and, of course, (unpictured) coffee with coconut milk whipped cream ☕ I went out to breakfast this morning and bought a red velvet cupcake to go that I am slowly regretting. I bought it, which means I have to eat it, and Lord knows sweets terrify me. But I've eaten desserts before and they didn't kill me, so I'm (kinda?) confident that I can survive it this time, too. If it'll kill Ana, I'll eat just about anything. ~
Have a good Saturday, everyone ☃️
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #vegan #eatittobeatit #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
First meal at home for Thanksgiving break was avocado toast 🥑 sweet potato soup 🥣 and, of course, (unpictured) coffee with coconut milk whipped cream ☕ I went out to breakfast this morning and bought a red velvet cupcake to go that I am slowly regretting. I bought it, which means I have to eat it, and Lord knows sweets terrify me. But I've eaten desserts before and they didn't kill me, so I'm (kinda?) confident that I can survive it this time, too. If it'll kill Ana, I'll eat just about anything. ~ Have a good Saturday, everyone ☃️ ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #bodytrust  #vegan  #eatittobeatit  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
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Anyone who's had one will tell you that there's nothing glamorous about having an eating disorder. They're not a diet. They're not a lifestyle choice. They don't make you more attractive or popular.
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They are serious mental illnesses & have the highest death rate of them all.
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I'll try & humour those of you who aren't convinced though & have a go at pointing out the most glamorous bits...
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🖤Shivering & feeling bitterly cold even though it's summer & you have a coat on.
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🖤Being pointed at & whispered about everywhere you go.
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🖤Retching so hard it hurts as you try to bring up every last mouthful of your tiny meal.
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🖤Writhing in agony because you've taken another huge overdose of laxatives.
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🖤Feeling compelled to exercise even though you've barely got the strength to stand.
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🖤Being so weak that you can't climb a flight of stairs without stopping.
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🖤Feeling terrified as your heart races in your chest at terrifying speed because you've overdosed on diet pills.
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🖤Being isolated because you dropped out of work/college & no longer go out with friends because it may involve eating & drinking.
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🖤Not being able to have a slice of your own birthday cake.
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🖤Lying awake in bed each night terrified that each breath will be your last because your heart is beating so slowly & weakly.
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🖤Having constant blood tests, ECGs & hospital admissions as your body slowly fails.
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🖤Looking in the mirror & feeling disgust at the sight of your 'fat' body.
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🖤Being so scared of your weight going up that you agonise over a single sip of water on a hot day.
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🖤Developing pressure sores because your skin is so thin that your bones break through.
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🖤Having to fight agonising hunger & raging thirst every single day.
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🖤Lying awake all night, every night because sleep never comes.
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🖤Watching your hair thin & fall out, your skin become grey & the life disappear from your eyes.
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🖤Having friends & family plead with you to eat because they're scared you're going to die.
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🖤Being told you're at risk of dying but feeling complete ambivalence & thinking it may be a better option than an ED.
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Still think eating disorders are glamorous? I didn't think so ✨💖💫
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. . Anyone who's had one will tell you that there's nothing glamorous about having an eating disorder. They're not a diet. They're not a lifestyle choice. They don't make you more attractive or popular. . They are serious mental illnesses & have the highest death rate of them all. . I'll try & humour those of you who aren't convinced though & have a go at pointing out the most glamorous bits... . 🖤Shivering & feeling bitterly cold even though it's summer & you have a coat on. . 🖤Being pointed at & whispered about everywhere you go. . 🖤Retching so hard it hurts as you try to bring up every last mouthful of your tiny meal. . 🖤Writhing in agony because you've taken another huge overdose of laxatives. . 🖤Feeling compelled to exercise even though you've barely got the strength to stand. . 🖤Being so weak that you can't climb a flight of stairs without stopping. . 🖤Feeling terrified as your heart races in your chest at terrifying speed because you've overdosed on diet pills. . 🖤Being isolated because you dropped out of work/college & no longer go out with friends because it may involve eating & drinking. . 🖤Not being able to have a slice of your own birthday cake. . 🖤Lying awake in bed each night terrified that each breath will be your last because your heart is beating so slowly & weakly. . 🖤Having constant blood tests, ECGs & hospital admissions as your body slowly fails. . 🖤Looking in the mirror & feeling disgust at the sight of your 'fat' body. . 🖤Being so scared of your weight going up that you agonise over a single sip of water on a hot day. . 🖤Developing pressure sores because your skin is so thin that your bones break through. . 🖤Having to fight agonising hunger & raging thirst every single day. . 🖤Lying awake all night, every night because sleep never comes. . 🖤Watching your hair thin & fall out, your skin become grey & the life disappear from your eyes. . 🖤Having friends & family plead with you to eat because they're scared you're going to die. . 🖤Being told you're at risk of dying but feeling complete ambivalence & thinking it may be a better option than an ED. . Still think eating disorders are glamorous? I didn't think so ✨💖💫 . . .
I’m choosing hope. I hope my brother does too. It is now up to him to help himself and I’m praying he is somewhere safe. I pray that the demons do not pull him away from seeking the help he needs...the only thing that can save him is that he somehow sees that there IS hope. No one is a lost cause if they truly want to recover. No matter what anyone has done, there is healing and redemption. You cannot judge someone because they sin differently than you. Everyone deserves a chance to live...I have hope that there still is a chance. Hope with me. 🌥
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#choosehope #chooserecovery #secondchances #secondlife #thereisalwayshope #mentalhealthawareness #drugskill #dontjudgeothers #judgenotlestyebejudged #hopeforthefuture #hopeandpray #alwaysmybrother #nomatterwhat #hopeisgreaterthanfear #nevergiveup
I’m choosing hope. I hope my brother does too. It is now up to him to help himself and I’m praying he is somewhere safe. I pray that the demons do not pull him away from seeking the help he needs...the only thing that can save him is that he somehow sees that there IS hope. No one is a lost cause if they truly want to recover. No matter what anyone has done, there is healing and redemption. You cannot judge someone because they sin differently than you. Everyone deserves a chance to live...I have hope that there still is a chance. Hope with me. 🌥 . . . #choosehope  #chooserecovery  #secondchances  #secondlife  #thereisalwayshope  #mentalhealthawareness  #drugskill  #dontjudgeothers  #judgenotlestyebejudged  #hopeforthefuture  #hopeandpray  #alwaysmybrother  #nomatterwhat  #hopeisgreaterthanfear  #nevergiveup 
Real Smooth ▪️ Aww yeah, van @healthypeople.official mocht ik hun nieuwe 🌱Vegan smoothies proeven, enneh...ik ben fan! 🤤 Deze ananas-kokos smoothie is heerlijk zoet en romig, maar ook de mango-banaan en de cacao-kokos-banaan zijn fantastisch😍 Heb jij ze al geproefd?🍍
Real Smooth ▪️ Aww yeah, van @healthypeople.official mocht ik hun nieuwe 🌱Vegan smoothies proeven, enneh...ik ben fan! 🤤 Deze ananas-kokos smoothie is heerlijk zoet en romig, maar ook de mango-banaan en de cacao-kokos-banaan zijn fantastisch😍 Heb jij ze al geproefd?🍍
"Loving your present isn't hating the experiences that shaped you"
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Buon sabato mes amis 🤗🤗 come state? Oggi per fortuna non mi sono alzata tardi 🙌🏼 e ne ho approfittato per passare la mattinata fuori con mamy 😊 poi mi sono preparata questo bel pranzetto con tripudio di zucchine 😅 ed ora studio un po' 🤓🤓 nel tardo pomeriggio spero di riuscire ad andare a fare scorta di yogurt 😂 voi cosa fate di bello?? Enjoy your day! 😘😘
#ciboitaliano #farfalle #zucchini #anoressiaitalia #edfighter #healthyfood #hakunamatata #menssanaincorporesano #healthydiet #beatana #eatbetternotless #eatittobeatit #saturday #fuel #foodaddict #foodblog #foodporn #edrecovery
"Loving your present isn't hating the experiences that shaped you" • • • Buon sabato mes amis 🤗🤗 come state? Oggi per fortuna non mi sono alzata tardi 🙌🏼 e ne ho approfittato per passare la mattinata fuori con mamy 😊 poi mi sono preparata questo bel pranzetto con tripudio di zucchine 😅 ed ora studio un po' 🤓🤓 nel tardo pomeriggio spero di riuscire ad andare a fare scorta di yogurt 😂 voi cosa fate di bello?? Enjoy your day! 😘😘 #ciboitaliano  #farfalle  #zucchini  #anoressiaitalia  #edfighter  #healthyfood  #hakunamatata  #menssanaincorporesano  #healthydiet  #beatana  #eatbetternotless  #eatittobeatit  #saturday  #fuel  #foodaddict  #foodblog  #foodporn  #edrecovery 
2 years difference. I’ve come a long way in these past 2 years. Even though I’m currently struggling, I need to remember that I don’t want to go back there. I need to fight. I need to pull myself out of this. I need to try and find even an ounce of self belief that I can do this without ending up in hospital or with a more intense ed service. Keep fighting loves💖 #anorexiarecovery #depressionrecovery #recovery #nourishtoflourish #chooserecovery #believeinyourself
2 years difference. I’ve come a long way in these past 2 years. Even though I’m currently struggling, I need to remember that I don’t want to go back there. I need to fight. I need to pull myself out of this. I need to try and find even an ounce of self belief that I can do this without ending up in hospital or with a more intense ed service. Keep fighting loves💖 #anorexiarecovery  #depressionrecovery  #recovery  #nourishtoflourish  #chooserecovery  #believeinyourself 
De Sint is weer in het land! En ‘tis koud genoeg om de oven aan te zetten😉 Paleo & Vegan kruidnoten🤤 Recept? Link in bio!
De Sint is weer in het land! En ‘tis koud genoeg om de oven aan te zetten😉 Paleo & Vegan kruidnoten🤤 Recept? Link in bio!
⬇️REZEPT⬇️Anzeige
nach dem ich gestern mal einen instafreien Tag hatte und die Zeit mit @freemyself_isa und @anna.brsr genossen habe, kommt hier heute mal wieder ein Rezept für einen winterlichen, proteinreichen Käse-Apfel-Zimtkuchen 😍. Der schmeckt warm zum Frühstück oder als Snack zwischendurch und macht schon ein bisschen Weihnachtsstimmung 🙈🎄❤.
Ihr braucht dafür:
•25 Gramm Vollkornmehl •30 Gramm Buchweizenmehl oder Buchweizengrütze
•80 ml Mandelmilch
•20 Gramm Apfelmark
•3-5 Gramm Backpulver
•Süße nach Wahl
•50 Gramm Äpfel
•Zimt
•100 Gramm Sojajoghurt
•15 Gramm Vanille-Proteinpulver von @nutritionplus.de * (oder 10 Gramm Vanillepuddingpulver) - Zunächst mischt ihr das Vollkorn- und das Buchweizenmehl mit dem Backpulver, dem Apfelmark, der Pflanzenmilch und der Süße, die ihr verwendet. Und füllt die Masse schonmal in die Form.
- Darauf kommen dann die kleingeschnittenen Äpfel mit dem Zimt.
- Dann rührt ihr noch einmal den Sojajoghurt mit dem Proteinpulver an und gebt gegebenenfalls noch etwas Wasser dazu und gebt es ebenfalls in die Form.
-Nun backt das Ganze 30 bis 35 Minuten bei 180 Grad und Umluft und danach heißt es genießen 😊😍.
*mit dem Code Miriam10 könnt ihr übrigens seit neuestem 10% auf eure Bestellung bei @nutritionplus.de sparen 🎉

Was ist für euch jetzt eigentlich im Winter eure Lieblingssüßigkeit? 🍫🍬🍭
Außer solche Kuchen, liebe ich ja Spekulatius und Lebkuchen 😍. Zum Glück sind die sogar oft vegan und ich muss mich gar nicht viel umstellen in meinem ersten Winter ohne tierische Produkte 😊❄. #rezept #kuchenrezept #gesundbacken #highprotein #buchweizen #vegan #veganbacken #gesundessen #deutschlandistvegan #fitnessrezepte #vegansnack #kuchen #healthyrecipe #recovery #edrecovery #chooserecovery #käsekuchen  #backen #sophielliebe #winterzeit #breakfast #frühstück #wochenende #breakfastlover #gesundundlecker #gesundersnack
⬇️REZEPT⬇️Anzeige nach dem ich gestern mal einen instafreien Tag hatte und die Zeit mit @freemyself_isa und @anna.brsr genossen habe, kommt hier heute mal wieder ein Rezept für einen winterlichen, proteinreichen Käse-Apfel-Zimtkuchen 😍. Der schmeckt warm zum Frühstück oder als Snack zwischendurch und macht schon ein bisschen Weihnachtsstimmung 🙈🎄❤. Ihr braucht dafür: •25 Gramm Vollkornmehl •30 Gramm Buchweizenmehl oder Buchweizengrütze •80 ml Mandelmilch •20 Gramm Apfelmark •3-5 Gramm Backpulver •Süße nach Wahl •50 Gramm Äpfel •Zimt •100 Gramm Sojajoghurt •15 Gramm Vanille-Proteinpulver von @nutritionplus.de * (oder 10 Gramm Vanillepuddingpulver) - Zunächst mischt ihr das Vollkorn- und das Buchweizenmehl mit dem Backpulver, dem Apfelmark, der Pflanzenmilch und der Süße, die ihr verwendet. Und füllt die Masse schonmal in die Form. - Darauf kommen dann die kleingeschnittenen Äpfel mit dem Zimt. - Dann rührt ihr noch einmal den Sojajoghurt mit dem Proteinpulver an und gebt gegebenenfalls noch etwas Wasser dazu und gebt es ebenfalls in die Form. -Nun backt das Ganze 30 bis 35 Minuten bei 180 Grad und Umluft und danach heißt es genießen 😊😍. *mit dem Code Miriam10 könnt ihr übrigens seit neuestem 10% auf eure Bestellung bei @nutritionplus.de sparen 🎉 Was ist für euch jetzt eigentlich im Winter eure Lieblingssüßigkeit? 🍫🍬🍭 Außer solche Kuchen, liebe ich ja Spekulatius und Lebkuchen 😍. Zum Glück sind die sogar oft vegan und ich muss mich gar nicht viel umstellen in meinem ersten Winter ohne tierische Produkte 😊❄. #rezept  #kuchenrezept  #gesundbacken  #highprotein  #buchweizen  #vegan  #veganbacken  #gesundessen  #deutschlandistvegan  #fitnessrezepte  #vegansnack  #kuchen  #healthyrecipe  #recovery  #edrecovery  #chooserecovery  #käsekuchen  #backen  #sophielliebe  #winterzeit  #breakfast  #frühstück  #wochenende  #breakfastlover  #gesundundlecker  #gesundersnack 
SHAME

The sun comes up
I come down
The party’s over
There’s no one around
The new dawn brings death
To the wasted me
My eyes are open
I’m forced to see
I’ve done again
What I promised not to do
I really meant it when
I said I’d only have two
I hate myself...
As much as you hate me
I'm fucking broken, can’t you see?
This is no life
I’m a terrible wife
Will I ever get it right?
Will I always fight?
I wish this was over
I just want to sleep
Instead, I cry, beg, plead and weep
I scream in the silence of my own mind
Dear God can you help me?
Please help me find
My purpose in life, because I am blind
I cross the threshold, on tiptoes, I am home
My families inside, but I am alone.

Lorelie Rozzano
www.jaggedlittleedges.com

#ChooseLife 
#ChooseRecovery 
#DitchYourDopeDealer 
#DoingItSober 
#EmbraceYourPain 
#FuckDrugs 
Gratefultobealive 
#ILoveMySoberLife 
#justdoit 
#JaggedNoMore 
#LoveYourLife 
#NotOneMore 
#ODAAT 
#PartySober 
#qualitylife 
#RehabRockstar 
#RecoveryWarrior 
#SheRecovers
SHAME The sun comes up I come down The party’s over There’s no one around The new dawn brings death To the wasted me My eyes are open I’m forced to see I’ve done again What I promised not to do I really meant it when I said I’d only have two I hate myself... As much as you hate me I'm fucking broken, can’t you see? This is no life I’m a terrible wife Will I ever get it right? Will I always fight? I wish this was over I just want to sleep Instead, I cry, beg, plead and weep I scream in the silence of my own mind Dear God can you help me? Please help me find My purpose in life, because I am blind I cross the threshold, on tiptoes, I am home My families inside, but I am alone. Lorelie Rozzano www.jaggedlittleedges.com #ChooseLife  #ChooseRecovery  #DitchYourDopeDealer  #DoingItSober  #EmbraceYourPain  #FuckDrugs  Gratefultobealive #ILoveMySoberLife  #justdoit  #JaggedNoMore  #LoveYourLife  #NotOneMore  #ODAAT  #PartySober  #qualitylife  #RehabRockstar  #RecoveryWarrior  #SheRecovers 
Top 2 pictures is me now, clean a little over 6 months. Below 3 is me high as fuck in my addiction. I'm so grateful I chose recovery. Tradition 3: "The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop using" I thank my higherpower for having me hit rock bottom and bringing me into the rooms of NA. My life has changed drastically for the best and it's a beautiful life worth living now. #gratefulrecoveringaddict #recovery #grateful #addiction #narcoticsanonymous #na #basictext #traditons #spiritualprinciples #justfortoday #chooserecovery
Top 2 pictures is me now, clean a little over 6 months. Below 3 is me high as fuck in my addiction. I'm so grateful I chose recovery. Tradition 3: "The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop using" I thank my higherpower for having me hit rock bottom and bringing me into the rooms of NA. My life has changed drastically for the best and it's a beautiful life worth living now. #gratefulrecoveringaddict  #recovery  #grateful  #addiction  #narcoticsanonymous  #na  #basictext  #traditons  #spiritualprinciples  #justfortoday  #chooserecovery 
Enjoy the little things in life. (Especially the little puppies!) 🥰
So grateful to my loving family. Thanks @rgilmore5 for taking me to play with this precious baby Scooter!
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#recoverywin #healthyfood #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #chooserecovery #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #edfamily #edfam #prorecovery #edrelapse #strong #faith #foodchallenge #fearfood #copingskills #edsoldier #anasoldier #realrecovery
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Giving myself 10 days off from work.
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I’m so thankful to be able to take 10 days off without having to worry about my finances.
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I am very grateful to be able to do what I love for a living.
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This week I’m going to spend time with the people I care about...
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#selfcare #compassion #selfcompassion #job #calling #therapist #emdrtherapy #emdrtherapist #emdr #trauma #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisordertherapist #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #thanksgiving #chooserecovery #recovery #blessed #mindfulness #haes #healthateverysize #intuitiveeating #antidiet
: Giving myself 10 days off from work. . I’m so thankful to be able to take 10 days off without having to worry about my finances. . I am very grateful to be able to do what I love for a living. . This week I’m going to spend time with the people I care about... . AND eat lots and lots of food. 🙌👏❤️ . . . #selfcare  #compassion  #selfcompassion  #job  #calling  #therapist  #emdrtherapy  #emdrtherapist  #emdr  #trauma  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisordertherapist  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #thanksgiving  #chooserecovery  #recovery  #blessed  #mindfulness  #haes  #healthateverysize  #intuitiveeating  #antidiet 
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So sad, yet so true.
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Fight back and fight back hard. You're worth so much more than this ✨💖💫
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n.b. author unknown
#anaisnotmyfriend #analies #eatingdisorderskill #anawantsmedead #anorexiaisnotmyfriend #mydemons #demonsinmyhead #prisonerofmyownmind
I didn’t wake up one day and decide to be an alcoholic and addict. It kind of happened while I was distracted by my highs. It happened in between the arrests and the deaths of friends to drugs.  It progressed in intensity and duration as I sought refuge in the same substances that were pulling me under. And I deteriorated as it grew stronger.
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#addictionstories #recovery #addictionrecovery #addictionawareness #sobriety #sober #soberlife #downwardspiral #overdoseawareness #rabbithole #cycleofaddiction #soberissexy #sobermovement #soberisbetter #soberisthenewblack #soberisthenewshitfaced #lookwithin #healingjourney #selfhelp #getsomehelp #theoldladywhoswallowedafly #nofear #chooserecovery #everydamnday #everydamntime #sobercelebs #recoverycommunity #healthandwellness
I didn’t wake up one day and decide to be an alcoholic and addict. It kind of happened while I was distracted by my highs. It happened in between the arrests and the deaths of friends to drugs. It progressed in intensity and duration as I sought refuge in the same substances that were pulling me under. And I deteriorated as it grew stronger. • • #addictionstories  #recovery  #addictionrecovery  #addictionawareness  #sobriety  #sober  #soberlife  #downwardspiral  #overdoseawareness  #rabbithole  #cycleofaddiction  #soberissexy  #sobermovement  #soberisbetter  #soberisthenewblack  #soberisthenewshitfaced  #lookwithin  #healingjourney  #selfhelp  #getsomehelp  #theoldladywhoswallowedafly  #nofear  #chooserecovery  #everydamnday  #everydamntime  #sobercelebs  #recoverycommunity  #healthandwellness 
“Even if you are a small forest surviving off of moon alone, your light is extraordinary” -#nayyirahwaheed #chooserecovery #quotes #lovethis 🌗
Today my therapist complimented me and it made me realise something super fucked up. In august she told me that she wants to admit me to inpatient care and I felt proud that I am finally ‘sick enough’ ‘skinny enough’. Which is soo fucked up. And today after the compliment (that I have come a long way in terms of ED) I took it as an insult and that now I’m super fat. Therefore, I decided to write down 5 things that are better now then before, because I have been nourishing my body more. 
1. I remember, remember things that happened, that people have said, I can make memories 🙏
2. I can see a future for myself 👩🏻
3. I enjoy food because it TASTES amazing 🌟
4. I can do a full gym lesson and enjoy every second of it because I am stronger and don’t feel like I will pass out 💪
5. I can connect with people a lot better since my mind is less occupied with food 💕👯‍♀️ #recoverylife #vegetarianrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiawarrior #prorecovery #anorexiafighter #fearfood #recoverwin #beatana #edfam #anorexiarecovery #chooserecovery #chooserecoveryeveryday #fuckanorexia #edhope #healthyeating #radiatepositivity #kindness #eatwelllivewell #mindfuleating #vegetarianfoodporn #bekindtoyourmind #bekindtoyourself #happybodyhappymind #happiness #yummyfood #veggiefood #heyhappiness #fearfoodfriday
Today my therapist complimented me and it made me realise something super fucked up. In august she told me that she wants to admit me to inpatient care and I felt proud that I am finally ‘sick enough’ ‘skinny enough’. Which is soo fucked up. And today after the compliment (that I have come a long way in terms of ED) I took it as an insult and that now I’m super fat. Therefore, I decided to write down 5 things that are better now then before, because I have been nourishing my body more. 1. I remember, remember things that happened, that people have said, I can make memories 🙏 2. I can see a future for myself 👩🏻 3. I enjoy food because it TASTES amazing 🌟 4. I can do a full gym lesson and enjoy every second of it because I am stronger and don’t feel like I will pass out 💪 5. I can connect with people a lot better since my mind is less occupied with food 💕👯‍♀️ #recoverylife  #vegetarianrecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #prorecovery  #anorexiafighter  #fearfood  #recoverwin  #beatana  #edfam  #anorexiarecovery  #chooserecovery  #chooserecoveryeveryday  #fuckanorexia  #edhope  #healthyeating  #radiatepositivity  #kindness  #eatwelllivewell  #mindfuleating  #vegetarianfoodporn  #bekindtoyourmind  #bekindtoyourself  #happybodyhappymind  #happiness  #yummyfood  #veggiefood  #heyhappiness  #fearfoodfriday 
Tai nutiko ir man. Kodėl būtent man..dažnai aš paklausdavau savęs. Todėl,kad tai gali nutikti bet kam. Valgymo sutrikimais gali susirgti bet kas, neskiriant lyties ar amžiaus. Dažnai anoreksija siejama su dėmesio trūkumu ar tiesiog “dideliu troškimu” būti kuo smulkesniam- sverti kuo mažiau kilogramų. Tačiau tai nėra tai,kaip atrodo iš šalies. Žmonės nesupranta,kol nepajaučia to savo kailiu. Kol nesirgau ir neturėjau ryškaus įsivaizdavimo apie anoreksiją, maniau kad tai tiesiog nesugebėjimas įsidėti maisto į burną/ apetito praradimas. Tačiau realybė kiek kitokia. Valgymo sutrikimai yra rimtas sutrikimas ,pasiglemžiantis mūsų mokėjimą normaliai valgyti, meilę sau, mūsų laiką ir tiesiog gyvenimą. Nebeslepiu savo ligos, nebeslepiu savo sutrikimų ir netobulumų. Kiekvienas turime savų demonų,su kuriais kovojame kasdien,vieniems tai valgymo sutrikimai, kitiems tai depresija o dar kitiems tai gali būti tiesiog pasitikėjimo savimi ir drąsos trūkumas. Būkime atlaidesni ir malonesni kitiems,niekada nežinome, ką išgyvena žmogus savo gyvenime, kurį galbūt skubotai nuteisiame ir palaikome “kokiu keistuoliu” ar silpnu žmogumi. O aš dalinuosi savo istorija,nes tikiu, kad norint pradėti spręsti tokias problemas, reikia pirmiausia išdrįsti kalbėtis ir dalintis! Mano istorija čia - @feedinghopelt ✨ (ačiū Jums,kad darote tokius didelius darbus!)
#lithuaniangirl #lithuania #positivevibes #onlygoodvibes #chooserecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #beautifulboy #valgymosutrikimai #confident #brave #confidentwomen #lifequotes #bekind #kindness #healthiswealth #behappy
Tai nutiko ir man. Kodėl būtent man..dažnai aš paklausdavau savęs. Todėl,kad tai gali nutikti bet kam. Valgymo sutrikimais gali susirgti bet kas, neskiriant lyties ar amžiaus. Dažnai anoreksija siejama su dėmesio trūkumu ar tiesiog “dideliu troškimu” būti kuo smulkesniam- sverti kuo mažiau kilogramų. Tačiau tai nėra tai,kaip atrodo iš šalies. Žmonės nesupranta,kol nepajaučia to savo kailiu. Kol nesirgau ir neturėjau ryškaus įsivaizdavimo apie anoreksiją, maniau kad tai tiesiog nesugebėjimas įsidėti maisto į burną/ apetito praradimas. Tačiau realybė kiek kitokia. Valgymo sutrikimai yra rimtas sutrikimas ,pasiglemžiantis mūsų mokėjimą normaliai valgyti, meilę sau, mūsų laiką ir tiesiog gyvenimą. Nebeslepiu savo ligos, nebeslepiu savo sutrikimų ir netobulumų. Kiekvienas turime savų demonų,su kuriais kovojame kasdien,vieniems tai valgymo sutrikimai, kitiems tai depresija o dar kitiems tai gali būti tiesiog pasitikėjimo savimi ir drąsos trūkumas. Būkime atlaidesni ir malonesni kitiems,niekada nežinome, ką išgyvena žmogus savo gyvenime, kurį galbūt skubotai nuteisiame ir palaikome “kokiu keistuoliu” ar silpnu žmogumi. O aš dalinuosi savo istorija,nes tikiu, kad norint pradėti spręsti tokias problemas, reikia pirmiausia išdrįsti kalbėtis ir dalintis! Mano istorija čia - @feedinghopelt ✨ (ačiū Jums,kad darote tokius didelius darbus!) #lithuaniangirl  #lithuania  #positivevibes  #onlygoodvibes  #chooserecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #beautifulboy  #valgymosutrikimai  #confident  #brave  #confidentwomen  #lifequotes  #bekind  #kindness  #healthiswealth  #behappy 
This is today's big #fuckyou to Ana 🖕🏼 I ate a lot of sugary foods yesterday, and by default, Ana tried forcing me to restrict my sugar and calorie intake today. In all honesty, she won me over for breakfast. I didn't finish everything I put out for myself, and I didn't even have coffee. But when I got back from class I felt like garbage physically because I hadn't eaten enough to get me through classes, so I grabbed this @califiafarms PSL from the fridge and some pretzels 🥨 from my snack tub. It was difficult, and I've barely made a dent in the coffee yet, but I'm working on it. I know that allowing what I ate yesterday to dictate what I eat today is a dangerous cycle, and I refuse to let Ana continue to rule my life. So #fuckyouana ~
#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #vegan #eatittobeatit #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #nourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
This is today's big #fuckyou  to Ana 🖕🏼 I ate a lot of sugary foods yesterday, and by default, Ana tried forcing me to restrict my sugar and calorie intake today. In all honesty, she won me over for breakfast. I didn't finish everything I put out for myself, and I didn't even have coffee. But when I got back from class I felt like garbage physically because I hadn't eaten enough to get me through classes, so I grabbed this @califiafarms PSL from the fridge and some pretzels 🥨 from my snack tub. It was difficult, and I've barely made a dent in the coffee yet, but I'm working on it. I know that allowing what I ate yesterday to dictate what I eat today is a dangerous cycle, and I refuse to let Ana continue to rule my life. So #fuckyouana  ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #vegan  #eatittobeatit  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #nourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
two pieces of dark chocolate with mint filling and tea as a dessert❤ sorry for not being very active today. i've tried to rest and take it easy because my anxiety has been really bad today. luckily only a few hours of this day left
#realrecovery #recovering #edrecovery #edfighter #edfamily #edwarrior #edcommunity #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #recoveryisworthit #food #mentalhealth #anarecovery #foodisfuel #prorecovery #foodie #nourishtoflourish #honoryourhunger #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #gainingweightiscool #eatittobeatit #recoveryispossible #chooserecovery
two pieces of dark chocolate with mint filling and tea as a dessert❤ sorry for not being very active today. i've tried to rest and take it easy because my anxiety has been really bad today. luckily only a few hours of this day left #realrecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edcommunity  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #mentalhealth  #anarecovery  #foodisfuel  #prorecovery  #foodie  #nourishtoflourish  #honoryourhunger  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #gainingweightiscool  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryispossible  #chooserecovery 
(Photo taken summer 2016) The thing about my anorexia was desire for perfection. I was very much the dictator of my own life: If I said I was going to do something, I did it. I figured surviving on less was making me smarter, stronger, more powerful. I thought things had to just be hard if you wanted to be great. If you have this sort of thought pattern, be careful. Push yourself too hard and it will be your downfall. 
You can’t be great until you’re at peace. You can’t succeed without the chemistry of your body working to its best ability. And that’s not going to happen if you’re not treating yourself with kindness. It doesn’t equate with laziness or failure - it equates to success in the highest form. I see that now! And I’m so proud of myself. #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anawarrior edwarrior #edrecovery #chooserecovery #its inevitable #recover #eatingdisorder #exerciseaddiction #neda #selflove #selfcare #selflovery #ISMELLGOOD
(Photo taken summer 2016) The thing about my anorexia was desire for perfection. I was very much the dictator of my own life: If I said I was going to do something, I did it. I figured surviving on less was making me smarter, stronger, more powerful. I thought things had to just be hard if you wanted to be great. If you have this sort of thought pattern, be careful. Push yourself too hard and it will be your downfall. You can’t be great until you’re at peace. You can’t succeed without the chemistry of your body working to its best ability. And that’s not going to happen if you’re not treating yourself with kindness. It doesn’t equate with laziness or failure - it equates to success in the highest form. I see that now! And I’m so proud of myself. #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anawarrior  edwarrior #edrecovery  #chooserecovery  #its  inevitable #recover  #eatingdisorder  #exerciseaddiction  #neda  #selflove  #selfcare  #selflovery  #ISMELLGOOD 
I sat down this morning and instead of journaling, a poem started to pour itself out onto my page. Poetry played a very healing role in my eating disorder recovery journey, but the urge hasn’t struck me in a while. It felt really good to experience it again. ✨✨
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Soft pages
lightly worn
There is the shadow
Here comes the thorn
Energy flowing
Letting go of concern
Letting go of not knowing
How my body will unlearn
Expanding, contracting
Unfolding, relaxing
Melting and cooling
I feel my body dueling
My awareness ever growing
Of the instability I’ve been holding
Polarities flowing
Effortlessly
Come take the rest of me
My ego, intuition, & master
Fight to push past her
Waves of release
Beauties & Beasts 
Once hiding parts of myself
Now accepting all of me
Trusting this hand of healing
Layers of tension unpeeling
New fields of gold
What beauty to behold
Think I’ll stay a while, soak it in
Watch my life from within
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#livelifebeautifully #higherpower #spiritualawakening #letitstartwithme #thepowerofnow #alwaysgrowing #lovingwhatis #beherenow #liveinthenow #presentliving #iamenough #awakenmysoul #spiritualgangster #choosejoy #chooserecovery #practicecompassion #selfgrowthjourney #saywhatyoumean #boundrysetting #easydoesit #letitflow #poetryofinstagram #whatdoIneed #itsajourney #dreamersanddoers #liveyourbestlife #selfawareness #fromwhereistand #sheisnotlost #momentsofmine
I sat down this morning and instead of journaling, a poem started to pour itself out onto my page. Poetry played a very healing role in my eating disorder recovery journey, but the urge hasn’t struck me in a while. It felt really good to experience it again. ✨✨ . Soft pages lightly worn There is the shadow Here comes the thorn Energy flowing Letting go of concern Letting go of not knowing How my body will unlearn Expanding, contracting Unfolding, relaxing Melting and cooling I feel my body dueling My awareness ever growing Of the instability I’ve been holding Polarities flowing Effortlessly Come take the rest of me My ego, intuition, & master Fight to push past her Waves of release Beauties & Beasts Once hiding parts of myself Now accepting all of me Trusting this hand of healing Layers of tension unpeeling New fields of gold What beauty to behold Think I’ll stay a while, soak it in Watch my life from within . #livelifebeautifully  #higherpower  #spiritualawakening  #letitstartwithme  #thepowerofnow  #alwaysgrowing  #lovingwhatis  #beherenow  #liveinthenow  #presentliving  #iamenough  #awakenmysoul  #spiritualgangster  #choosejoy  #chooserecovery  #practicecompassion  #selfgrowthjourney  #saywhatyoumean  #boundrysetting  #easydoesit  #letitflow  #poetryofinstagram  #whatdoIneed  #itsajourney  #dreamersanddoers  #liveyourbestlife  #selfawareness  #fromwhereistand  #sheisnotlost  #momentsofmine 
A lot of things. 🌱
@mollybcounseling
A lot of things. 🌱 @mollybcounseling
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Gather all of your inner strength and courage and take that first step today.
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It doesn't matter what it is you're working towards, taking that first step can be the hardest part. Just remember, this is your life, your plans and your dreams so don't keep putting it off.
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It's up to you whether it's baby steps or a gigantic stride, just go at the pace you're comfortable with. Every step takes you closer towards your destination and could change your life.
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The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step ✨💖💫
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#takethefirststep #babysteps #takeastepintherightdirection #thejourneyofathousandmilesbeginswithasinglestep #stopputtingitoff #dontputitoff #followyourdreams #chaseyourdreams #onestepcloser
. . Gather all of your inner strength and courage and take that first step today. . It doesn't matter what it is you're working towards, taking that first step can be the hardest part. Just remember, this is your life, your plans and your dreams so don't keep putting it off. . It's up to you whether it's baby steps or a gigantic stride, just go at the pace you're comfortable with. Every step takes you closer towards your destination and could change your life. . The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step ✨💖💫 . . . #takethefirststep  #babysteps  #takeastepintherightdirection  #thejourneyofathousandmilesbeginswithasinglestep  #stopputtingitoff  #dontputitoff  #followyourdreams  #chaseyourdreams  #onestepcloser 
Start your morning by reading our new blog - link in bio ☝🏻 Celebrate Recovery 12 steps and Biblical Comparisons 📖
It works if you work it! .
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#celebraterecovery #recoveryworld #recoverycommunity #recoverytribe #dontdoitalone #chooserecovery #recoverybrand
Lunch ✨
Lunch ✨
Morning snack was a mini mars with a lemon green tea!
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I’m at home currently as my sixth form director gave me permission to work at home this morning as I have no lessons... so this was a lot easier than it would have been at school. Struggling a little with thoughts but I’m really exhausted this morning so... I think that makes it okay :)
Morning snack was a mini mars with a lemon green tea! - - I’m at home currently as my sixth form director gave me permission to work at home this morning as I have no lessons... so this was a lot easier than it would have been at school. Struggling a little with thoughts but I’m really exhausted this morning so... I think that makes it okay :)
Fri-Yay! ▪️ Mornin’ guys! ❄️ It’s bloody freezinng out, literally! 😯 Nothing a nice spring-like brekkie won’t fix😉
Fri-Yay! ▪️ Mornin’ guys! ❄️ It’s bloody freezinng out, literally! 😯 Nothing a nice spring-like brekkie won’t fix😉
Breakfast in bed 🌄🥛 🍊 
Happy Friday everyone 🌝 💫 
Bc it was sooo good once again.. here's my daily ☝️ beloved porridge with peanutbutter & ☝️ a glass of (super delish) ff milk 🤤😍 #cravings
I'm staying at home today bc I'm feeling worse today..so it fits well that I have my appointment today
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#breakfastinbed #breakfastpost #breakfast #foodpost #porridge #fruits #peanutbutter #oatmeal #nourish #healthyfood #balanceiskey #foodisfuel #recovery #chooserecovery #recoveryispossible
Breakfast in bed 🌄🥛 🍊 Happy Friday everyone 🌝 💫 Bc it was sooo good once again.. here's my daily ☝️ beloved porridge with peanutbutter & ☝️ a glass of (super delish) ff milk 🤤😍 #cravings  I'm staying at home today bc I'm feeling worse today..so it fits well that I have my appointment today . . . . . #breakfastinbed  #breakfastpost  #breakfast  #foodpost  #porridge  #fruits  #peanutbutter  #oatmeal  #nourish  #healthyfood  #balanceiskey  #foodisfuel  #recovery  #chooserecovery  #recoveryispossible 
Breakfast :) I know it’s not loads, but it’s an increase... and I’m more trying to eat every meal for now than worry about how much there is - though that will have to come soon.
Breakfast :) I know it’s not loads, but it’s an increase... and I’m more trying to eat every meal for now than worry about how much there is - though that will have to come soon.
the usual breakfast🌄 i slept so poorly and woke up feeling super anxious. so yay a good start to this day😑 really didn't want to eat breakfast but i had it anyways. i was okay preparing it but when it came to actually eating i was a mess, sitting in my pj's crying (oh so glamorous)😂 luckily i only have only class so i can maybe try and sleep some more after school... #realrecovery #recovering #edrecovery #edfighter #edfamily #edwarrior #edcommunity #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #recoveryisworthit #food #mentalhealth #anarecovery #foodisfuel #prorecovery #foodie #nourishtoflourish #honoryourhunger #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #gainingweightiscool #eatittobeatit #recoveryispossible #chooserecovery
the usual breakfast🌄 i slept so poorly and woke up feeling super anxious. so yay a good start to this day😑 really didn't want to eat breakfast but i had it anyways. i was okay preparing it but when it came to actually eating i was a mess, sitting in my pj's crying (oh so glamorous)😂 luckily i only have only class so i can maybe try and sleep some more after school... #realrecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edcommunity  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #mentalhealth  #anarecovery  #foodisfuel  #prorecovery  #foodie  #nourishtoflourish  #honoryourhunger  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #gainingweightiscool  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryispossible  #chooserecovery 
So my night challenge did not go as planned...My plan was to get a cupcake and a pumpkin spice latte, but the café was out of cupcakes. I ordered a slice of coffeecake, which was not nearly as satisfying, and my latte isn't as good as it usually is either...😔 I have such a hard time justifying eating (and spending money) when the taste of the food doesn't seem worth the calories. Today has just been a huge pain in my ass and I'm ready for this week to be over right now.
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In lighter news, my snack, however disappointing, did settle my queasy stomach after dinner. For some reason I continue to eat Chinese food even though it makes me sick every single time 😂
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I hope everybody has a good night and gets a solid night's sleep 🌠
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #vegan #eatittobeatit #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
So my night challenge did not go as planned...My plan was to get a cupcake and a pumpkin spice latte, but the café was out of cupcakes. I ordered a slice of coffeecake, which was not nearly as satisfying, and my latte isn't as good as it usually is either...😔 I have such a hard time justifying eating (and spending money) when the taste of the food doesn't seem worth the calories. Today has just been a huge pain in my ass and I'm ready for this week to be over right now. ~ In lighter news, my snack, however disappointing, did settle my queasy stomach after dinner. For some reason I continue to eat Chinese food even though it makes me sick every single time 😂 ~ I hope everybody has a good night and gets a solid night's sleep 🌠 ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #bodytrust  #vegan  #eatittobeatit  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
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It took me a long time to accept this but it's the truth. You CANNOT recover from anorexia UNLESS you can fully restore your minimum healthy weight and more.
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You don't achieve recovery by gaining just enough to be discharged from inpatient. You don't recover by gaining just enough to move outside of the BMI criteria for anorexia. You don't even recover by achieving a minimum healthy BMI of 18.5 or 20, depending upon which criteria you use.
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True recovery and freedom from your eating disorder will only come when you find the courage to stop micromanaging your intake and weight. You have to let go and allow your body to decide what a healthy weight is for you. We're all different and that's why healthy BMI is a range. Not to say that the minimum is unhealthy for everyone, but that the minimum BMI might be healthy for a few people but there's a healthy set point for everyone within that range. Some at the top, some at the bottom, but most somewhere in the middle.
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The thing I found hardest in recovery, and I'm sure it's the same for everyone, was seeing my weight go up and up. My body keep growing and growing. And my dress size go up and up. Each week my head screamed ENOUGH! I thought I'd gained enough to be okay and get on with life but I was wrong. I though I was humongous at my lowest BMI and I'm not happy at my current highest weight (pregnancy aside). BUT I feel way happier than I did at my lowest.
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Anorexia recovery is a long, lengthy process. Weight restoration is the first and most essential step but, if you're able to get that far, it doesn't end there. Weight maintenance is a struggle at first. Body acceptance and body positivity take far longer. The key is to trust your body and to trust those around you.
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But when you feel like giving up, trust in the process. You DO need each and every one of those lbs/kgs. You really do. Your body and mind can't function in a healthy way without them. Therapy doesn't stand a chance until you get there and stay there.
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It'll take time to get used to your 'new' weight restored body but sticking with it will be the best decision you ever make.
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Choose recovery ✨💖💫
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#weightrestoration #healthybmi
. . It took me a long time to accept this but it's the truth. You CANNOT recover from anorexia UNLESS you can fully restore your minimum healthy weight and more. . You don't achieve recovery by gaining just enough to be discharged from inpatient. You don't recover by gaining just enough to move outside of the BMI criteria for anorexia. You don't even recover by achieving a minimum healthy BMI of 18.5 or 20, depending upon which criteria you use. . True recovery and freedom from your eating disorder will only come when you find the courage to stop micromanaging your intake and weight. You have to let go and allow your body to decide what a healthy weight is for you. We're all different and that's why healthy BMI is a range. Not to say that the minimum is unhealthy for everyone, but that the minimum BMI might be healthy for a few people but there's a healthy set point for everyone within that range. Some at the top, some at the bottom, but most somewhere in the middle. . The thing I found hardest in recovery, and I'm sure it's the same for everyone, was seeing my weight go up and up. My body keep growing and growing. And my dress size go up and up. Each week my head screamed ENOUGH! I thought I'd gained enough to be okay and get on with life but I was wrong. I though I was humongous at my lowest BMI and I'm not happy at my current highest weight (pregnancy aside). BUT I feel way happier than I did at my lowest. . Anorexia recovery is a long, lengthy process. Weight restoration is the first and most essential step but, if you're able to get that far, it doesn't end there. Weight maintenance is a struggle at first. Body acceptance and body positivity take far longer. The key is to trust your body and to trust those around you. . But when you feel like giving up, trust in the process. You DO need each and every one of those lbs/kgs. You really do. Your body and mind can't function in a healthy way without them. Therapy doesn't stand a chance until you get there and stay there. . It'll take time to get used to your 'new' weight restored body but sticking with it will be the best decision you ever make. . Choose recovery ✨💖💫 . . . #weightrestoration  #healthybmi 
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Home alone tonight as hubby's out with clients so I went for a quick and easy dinner.
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I absolutely adore Higgidy products 😍This one is spinach, feta and red pepper quiche. It's seeded shortcrust pastry, spinach, sautéed onions and aromatic nutmeg in a free-range egg filling, scattered with Greek feta and red peppers.
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I served it with baby potatoes in butter, Mediterranean cous cous, coleslaw and a big mixed salad.
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I'm feeling really happy tonight as I've had some exciting news! More of that to come over the next few weeks 😉
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Enjoy the rest of your evening.
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#dinner #dinnertime #quiche #couscous #babypotatoes #coleslaw #feta #higgidy #quickdinner #eatingalone
. . Home alone tonight as hubby's out with clients so I went for a quick and easy dinner. . I absolutely adore Higgidy products 😍This one is spinach, feta and red pepper quiche. It's seeded shortcrust pastry, spinach, sautéed onions and aromatic nutmeg in a free-range egg filling, scattered with Greek feta and red peppers. . I served it with baby potatoes in butter, Mediterranean cous cous, coleslaw and a big mixed salad. . I'm feeling really happy tonight as I've had some exciting news! More of that to come over the next few weeks 😉 . Enjoy the rest of your evening. 🧀🍅🥒🥚🥕🍚🥔🥗 . . . #dinner  #dinnertime  #quiche  #couscous  #babypotatoes  #coleslaw  #feta  #higgidy  #quickdinner  #eatingalone 
A snack of Corn Flakes, granola, and almond milk 🥛 I craved this as soon as I finished eating lunch and I tried to push it out of my mind because I knew I wasn't hungry but I ended up giving in anyways. Sometimes I have such a difficult time discerning between my own hunger and cravings and Ana's hunger and cravings. I barely even know what foods I actually like because I've spent so long as a slave to Ana. Feeling pretty hopeless at the moment...😞
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #vegan #veganfood #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
A snack of Corn Flakes, granola, and almond milk 🥛 I craved this as soon as I finished eating lunch and I tried to push it out of my mind because I knew I wasn't hungry but I ended up giving in anyways. Sometimes I have such a difficult time discerning between my own hunger and cravings and Ana's hunger and cravings. I barely even know what foods I actually like because I've spent so long as a slave to Ana. Feeling pretty hopeless at the moment...😞 ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #bodytrust  #vegan  #veganfood  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
Even when things are tough - notice the small things that make you smile 🥰 Today, I saw a blind man and multiple people approached him to help him to the bus stop - so sweet 🌹

#recoverylife #vegetarianrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiawarrior #prorecovery #anorexiafighter #fearfood #recoverwin #beatana #edfam #anorexiarecovery #chooserecovery #chooserecoveryeveryday #fuckanorexia #edhope #healthyeating #radiatepositivity #kindness #eatwelllivewell #mindfuleating #vegetarianfoodporn #bekindtoyourmind #bekindtoyourself #happybodyhappymind #happiness #yummyfood #veggiefood #coffee #banana
Even when things are tough - notice the small things that make you smile 🥰 Today, I saw a blind man and multiple people approached him to help him to the bus stop - so sweet 🌹 #recoverylife  #vegetarianrecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #prorecovery  #anorexiafighter  #fearfood  #recoverwin  #beatana  #edfam  #anorexiarecovery  #chooserecovery  #chooserecoveryeveryday  #fuckanorexia  #edhope  #healthyeating  #radiatepositivity  #kindness  #eatwelllivewell  #mindfuleating  #vegetarianfoodporn  #bekindtoyourmind  #bekindtoyourself  #happybodyhappymind  #happiness  #yummyfood  #veggiefood  #coffee  #banana 
Lunch today was veggie bean soup 🥣 and a bagel with butter on half. Been a rough day so far. All I've been able to think about is food, and I have this inexplicable urge to cry even though nothing is wrong. I skipped my first class of the day and I'm tempted to skip the next one too, but my next class is a chemistry lab and I need all the points I can get in that class. I hate this. I wish there was at least a reason that I'm feeling crappy, because then I'd at least be able to talk to someone about it. But there is no reason, so I have nothing to talk about. I just feel awful. ~
On the brighter side, we got a lot of snow last night, so I'm finally getting into the holiday spirit! ❄⛄🎄
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #vegan #veganfood #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
Lunch today was veggie bean soup 🥣 and a bagel with butter on half. Been a rough day so far. All I've been able to think about is food, and I have this inexplicable urge to cry even though nothing is wrong. I skipped my first class of the day and I'm tempted to skip the next one too, but my next class is a chemistry lab and I need all the points I can get in that class. I hate this. I wish there was at least a reason that I'm feeling crappy, because then I'd at least be able to talk to someone about it. But there is no reason, so I have nothing to talk about. I just feel awful. ~ On the brighter side, we got a lot of snow last night, so I'm finally getting into the holiday spirit! ❄⛄🎄 ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #bodytrust  #vegan  #veganfood  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
night snacking on some bread: one with banana and cinnamon and the other with lettuce, a slice of ham, cucumber and cottage cheese (and some chili seasoning cause i love my spices.) oh and a couple of cherry tomatoes! i'll have to have an apple and something else after this because i'm a bit behind on calories🙄 so yeah this is what's up rn. thank goodness tomorrow is friday, i'm so done with this week... i have only one class tomorrow so it's gonna be a chill day. hope everyone has had a nice day, or if not nice then atleast tolerable!
#realrecovery #recovering #edrecovery #edfighter #edfamily #edwarrior #edcommunity #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #recoveryisworthit #food #mentalhealth #anarecovery #foodisfuel #prorecovery #foodie #nourishtoflourish #honoryourhunger #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #gainingweightiscool #eatittobeatit #recoveryispossible #chooserecovery
night snacking on some bread: one with banana and cinnamon and the other with lettuce, a slice of ham, cucumber and cottage cheese (and some chili seasoning cause i love my spices.) oh and a couple of cherry tomatoes! i'll have to have an apple and something else after this because i'm a bit behind on calories🙄 so yeah this is what's up rn. thank goodness tomorrow is friday, i'm so done with this week... i have only one class tomorrow so it's gonna be a chill day. hope everyone has had a nice day, or if not nice then atleast tolerable! #realrecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edcommunity  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #mentalhealth  #anarecovery  #foodisfuel  #prorecovery  #foodie  #nourishtoflourish  #honoryourhunger  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #gainingweightiscool  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryispossible  #chooserecovery 
Having an eating disorder isn’t a choice but recovering from it is. It’s been a tough couple of weeks where I felt recovery was impossible and gave in a lot to the eating disorder. The fainting and chest pain came back with it and my anxiety was sky high. I’m trying to draw a line today. There are so so many reasons why I’m choosing recovery. One example: Yesterday my nurse reminded me that when I recover and learn to love and accept myself at whatever size I am, I will free myself from ever having to count syns, points, yums, calories, macros etc ever again. And to be honest, that sounds so fucking amazing!! So far so good today- been feeding my body because it needs energy and in less than a day I already feel so much better. I was able to get out and about, actually enjoy a walk with lex, chat to neighbours and friends and just generally feel more relaxed. Choosing to recover doesn’t mean that it’s easy, in fact it’s one of the most painful and definitely THE most confusing recovery journeys I’ve ever had from all my illnesses. But I believe that it’s gonna be worth it! 
#edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimiarecovery #anarecovery #mentalhealth #recovery #chooserecovery #effdietculture #effdiets #nomorecaloriecounting
Having an eating disorder isn’t a choice but recovering from it is. It’s been a tough couple of weeks where I felt recovery was impossible and gave in a lot to the eating disorder. The fainting and chest pain came back with it and my anxiety was sky high. I’m trying to draw a line today. There are so so many reasons why I’m choosing recovery. One example: Yesterday my nurse reminded me that when I recover and learn to love and accept myself at whatever size I am, I will free myself from ever having to count syns, points, yums, calories, macros etc ever again. And to be honest, that sounds so fucking amazing!! So far so good today- been feeding my body because it needs energy and in less than a day I already feel so much better. I was able to get out and about, actually enjoy a walk with lex, chat to neighbours and friends and just generally feel more relaxed. Choosing to recover doesn’t mean that it’s easy, in fact it’s one of the most painful and definitely THE most confusing recovery journeys I’ve ever had from all my illnesses. But I believe that it’s gonna be worth it! #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #anarecovery  #mentalhealth  #recovery  #chooserecovery  #effdietculture  #effdiets  #nomorecaloriecounting 
Edit: had a whole cookie after this because I was feeling faint and still hungry. Trying not to feel like a complete failure.
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Afternoon snack because I’m hungry and it’s okay to honour that! (Or so I tell myself...) my dad got me some chocolate soya milk last week which I opened but had hardly any of so I had a bit in here with light soya milk - plus cornflakes and muesli below this :) trying to see this as a good thing, because I discovered when I was having lunch (a win in itself) that my body really isn’t responding well to food :/ ana wants that to be an excuse not to increase, but... I need to do the opposite, right? And not compare myself to others who are struggling...? And put my health above what other people think...? I’m really scared to eat in front of my parents now (they weren’t home when I had this) because they’ll probably find out about all of this in the next couple of weeks... and I think that I need to eat as little as possible around them so that they believe me... which I know is wrong, but...
Edit: had a whole cookie after this because I was feeling faint and still hungry. Trying not to feel like a complete failure. - - Afternoon snack because I’m hungry and it’s okay to honour that! (Or so I tell myself...) my dad got me some chocolate soya milk last week which I opened but had hardly any of so I had a bit in here with light soya milk - plus cornflakes and muesli below this :) trying to see this as a good thing, because I discovered when I was having lunch (a win in itself) that my body really isn’t responding well to food :/ ana wants that to be an excuse not to increase, but... I need to do the opposite, right? And not compare myself to others who are struggling...? And put my health above what other people think...? I’m really scared to eat in front of my parents now (they weren’t home when I had this) because they’ll probably find out about all of this in the next couple of weeks... and I think that I need to eat as little as possible around them so that they believe me... which I know is wrong, but...
“Everything I’ve learned about life, I learned in an A.A. meeting.” I heard these words spoken on a podcast I was listening to about a year ago.
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I remember being a young girl hearing my mother talk about A.A. meetings she would attend that were designed to help her begin healing from addiction. I’ll be honest - she wasn’t a fan. In fact for twenty five years I, too, have had a negative view of the A.A. community for reasons that I will get into at another time. That is until now.
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About a year ago a job found me that I most certainly wouldn’t have gone looking for myself. As an entrepreneur, I actually thought I was selling my soul by accepting a full time job. Thank all the gods and goddesses that I desperately needed health insurance and a steady income. Here I am one year later and I couldn’t be more grateful for the job I was so afraid to take.
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In addition to my career as a Motivational Speaker and Life Coach, I work as a Health Educator for a non-profit. A large portion of the work I do is around addiction and recovery. When I first started working, I attended a lecture at Sheppard Pratt where for the first time in my life I was introduced to the concept of recovery not only for addicts but for anyone who has been affected by addiction (which statistically is so many of us). The speaker could have dropped the 🎤 when she said this, I was in such awe.
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“I, too, need recovery?” I asked myself. To which my inner wisdom responded, “No shit!” (She loves the curse words for dramatic effect, that one). But seriously, this news has changed my life in the last 12 months because the TRUTH is the main ingredient in the recipe to healing is CONNECTION. True, validating, authentic connection, both with our truest selves and the truest selves of others. Community is what we are ALL craving, addicted or sober.
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My loves, I have become so freakin’ curious about recovery and the conversations that take place in the rooms of A.A. SO MUCH that I’ve poured my heart and soul into learning and practicing as much as I possibly can in order to share it in my work (and feed) with you all.
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Are you interested in learning about recovery for HUMANS? Double tap if YES! ❤️
“Everything I’ve learned about life, I learned in an A.A. meeting.” I heard these words spoken on a podcast I was listening to about a year ago. • I remember being a young girl hearing my mother talk about A.A. meetings she would attend that were designed to help her begin healing from addiction. I’ll be honest - she wasn’t a fan. In fact for twenty five years I, too, have had a negative view of the A.A. community for reasons that I will get into at another time. That is until now. • About a year ago a job found me that I most certainly wouldn’t have gone looking for myself. As an entrepreneur, I actually thought I was selling my soul by accepting a full time job. Thank all the gods and goddesses that I desperately needed health insurance and a steady income. Here I am one year later and I couldn’t be more grateful for the job I was so afraid to take. • In addition to my career as a Motivational Speaker and Life Coach, I work as a Health Educator for a non-profit. A large portion of the work I do is around addiction and recovery. When I first started working, I attended a lecture at Sheppard Pratt where for the first time in my life I was introduced to the concept of recovery not only for addicts but for anyone who has been affected by addiction (which statistically is so many of us). The speaker could have dropped the 🎤 when she said this, I was in such awe. • “I, too, need recovery?” I asked myself. To which my inner wisdom responded, “No shit!” (She loves the curse words for dramatic effect, that one). But seriously, this news has changed my life in the last 12 months because the TRUTH is the main ingredient in the recipe to healing is CONNECTION. True, validating, authentic connection, both with our truest selves and the truest selves of others. Community is what we are ALL craving, addicted or sober. • My loves, I have become so freakin’ curious about recovery and the conversations that take place in the rooms of A.A. SO MUCH that I’ve poured my heart and soul into learning and practicing as much as I possibly can in order to share it in my work (and feed) with you all. • Are you interested in learning about recovery for HUMANS? Double tap if YES! ❤️
Kurkuma ▪️Twee jaar terug ben ik begonnen met dagelijks een kop kurkuma thee te drinken, om mijn immuunsysteem een handje te helpen. In de herfst en winter 🍂 drink ik ook regelmatig Golden Milk✨en sindsdien ben ik veel minder vaak verkouden (en minder lang als het wel gebeurt)🤧 Seriously, goed spul!😁 Ik ben dan ook heel blij dat @healthcaps ook capsules met kurkuma in hun pakket hebben opgenomen! 👍 En zeg nou zelf, de kleurtjes van deze kurkuma en blauwe bes capsules zijn toch ook om supervrolijk van te worden?😍 Gebruik jij wel eens kurkuma? En hoe is jou dat bevallen?
Kurkuma ▪️Twee jaar terug ben ik begonnen met dagelijks een kop kurkuma thee te drinken, om mijn immuunsysteem een handje te helpen. In de herfst en winter 🍂 drink ik ook regelmatig Golden Milk✨en sindsdien ben ik veel minder vaak verkouden (en minder lang als het wel gebeurt)🤧 Seriously, goed spul!😁 Ik ben dan ook heel blij dat @healthcaps ook capsules met kurkuma in hun pakket hebben opgenomen! 👍 En zeg nou zelf, de kleurtjes van deze kurkuma en blauwe bes capsules zijn toch ook om supervrolijk van te worden?😍 Gebruik jij wel eens kurkuma? En hoe is jou dat bevallen?
Oh baby! ▪️ These cute mini pumpkins are back in stores again!😍 They’re not just cute, mind you. They taste awesome, too! 🎃 I like to roast them whole, and stuff them with other veggies🥦 How ‘bout you pumpkin’ ?
Oh baby! ▪️ These cute mini pumpkins are back in stores again!😍 They’re not just cute, mind you. They taste awesome, too! 🎃 I like to roast them whole, and stuff them with other veggies🥦 How ‘bout you pumpkin’ ?
Cookie and Bakewell tart fudge.... because why just have one when you really want both?! 🤷🏼‍♀️ They were both delish so anorexia can fuck right off 🖕🏻
#anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #edrecovery #edfam #edfighters #edwarrior #fuckanorexia #anawho #nourishtoflourish #allfoodisgoodfood #eatittobeatit #realrecovery #realrecoveryfood #effyourbeautystandards #recoveryisworthit #chooserecovery #loveyourself #screwdietculture #loveyourbody #2fab4ana #beatingana #nomoreana
Cookie and Bakewell tart fudge.... because why just have one when you really want both?! 🤷🏼‍♀️ They were both delish so anorexia can fuck right off 🖕🏻 #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #edrecovery  #edfam  #edfighters  #edwarrior  #fuckanorexia  #anawho  #nourishtoflourish  #allfoodisgoodfood  #eatittobeatit  #realrecovery  #realrecoveryfood  #effyourbeautystandards  #recoveryisworthit  #chooserecovery  #loveyourself  #screwdietculture  #loveyourbody  #2fab4ana  #beatingana  #nomoreana 
Actually had a good doctors appointment yesterday which is a start! For years I’ve only ever been able to talk about anxiety, I’ve always been too scared to mention my other mental health symptoms and feelings, I’ve mentioned depression then pushed it away since I was so terrified to talk about it. But Monday night I had a bit of a breakdown and decided enough is enough, wrote everything down on a piece of paper - how I’m feeling, things I haven’t been able to mention myself. And I know I’d be way too scared to physically say it so I gave the doctor the piece of paper to read and she’s gonna help 💪🏻 -

For years I’ve always known there was something more than just anxiety and depression, I am in no means diagnosing myself with anything or saying I have this that and the next thing, but I just know anxiety isn’t the only thing going on, and at least if I can put a name on it it may help me understand more and cope more -

She’s given me new meds as the ones I was on just made everything 10x worse, so I’ve to not take anything and detox today and start my new meds tomorrow. She mentioned a lot of my symptoms point to a mental illness which I’m not going to name until I’m diagnosed with anything, if I am, but she also mentioned if I did have it that would be why my meds weren’t working and making everything worse - so the new ones may not work either but it’s worth a try. She’s gonna send the piece of paper I gave her to psychiatry to hopefully get a faster referral through as well (I was seeing CAMHS since I was 11/12 but they discharged me since I’m 18 and the adult services waiting list is so long) - for once I feel like someone has actually listened to me and it’s like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders 😌💕 -

Hope everyone is well🤞🏻🥰 -

#depression#anxiety#mentalhealth#autism#awareness#staystrong#livelife#help#newmedsfml#itsokaynottobeokay#iwillbeokay#goodday#chooserecovery#personalblog
Actually had a good doctors appointment yesterday which is a start! For years I’ve only ever been able to talk about anxiety, I’ve always been too scared to mention my other mental health symptoms and feelings, I’ve mentioned depression then pushed it away since I was so terrified to talk about it. But Monday night I had a bit of a breakdown and decided enough is enough, wrote everything down on a piece of paper - how I’m feeling, things I haven’t been able to mention myself. And I know I’d be way too scared to physically say it so I gave the doctor the piece of paper to read and she’s gonna help 💪🏻 - For years I’ve always known there was something more than just anxiety and depression, I am in no means diagnosing myself with anything or saying I have this that and the next thing, but I just know anxiety isn’t the only thing going on, and at least if I can put a name on it it may help me understand more and cope more - She’s given me new meds as the ones I was on just made everything 10x worse, so I’ve to not take anything and detox today and start my new meds tomorrow. She mentioned a lot of my symptoms point to a mental illness which I’m not going to name until I’m diagnosed with anything, if I am, but she also mentioned if I did have it that would be why my meds weren’t working and making everything worse - so the new ones may not work either but it’s worth a try. She’s gonna send the piece of paper I gave her to psychiatry to hopefully get a faster referral through as well (I was seeing CAMHS since I was 11/12 but they discharged me since I’m 18 and the adult services waiting list is so long) - for once I feel like someone has actually listened to me and it’s like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders 😌💕 - Hope everyone is well🤞🏻🥰 - #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #autism #awareness #staystrong #livelife #help #newmedsfml #itsokaynottobeokay #iwillbeokay #goodday #chooserecovery #personalblog 
I ate morning snack!!!! This doesn’t seem massive but I’ve really been struggling recently... -
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(TW weight) So I’ve just had a fun little weigh in/bp check/chat with one of the school nurses. Turns out I am a teeny bit taller and a teeny bit heavier than I’d realised - but that doesn’t make much difference. Apparently though I’m only 2 kg heavier than I was over 3 years ago (when I was 14), which... although I wasn’t exactly that thin then, I was still healthy... puts it into perspective really. And... yeah... although I know I should really jump into proper recovery, for now at least I’m going to just work on stabilising a slightly healthier routine... not skipping meals and bringing snacks back in. Then I guess I can go from there... I guess I need to see what the school are going to do too, but that will at least improve things slightly.
I ate morning snack!!!! This doesn’t seem massive but I’ve really been struggling recently... - - (TW weight) So I’ve just had a fun little weigh in/bp check/chat with one of the school nurses. Turns out I am a teeny bit taller and a teeny bit heavier than I’d realised - but that doesn’t make much difference. Apparently though I’m only 2 kg heavier than I was over 3 years ago (when I was 14), which... although I wasn’t exactly that thin then, I was still healthy... puts it into perspective really. And... yeah... although I know I should really jump into proper recovery, for now at least I’m going to just work on stabilising a slightly healthier routine... not skipping meals and bringing snacks back in. Then I guess I can go from there... I guess I need to see what the school are going to do too, but that will at least improve things slightly.
At times it’s been really hard to not be bitter towards the people who were around you (or not around but you wanted/needed them to be). I mean that, it’s been tricky replying to people who were absent, who drifted and who I hid from. It’s hard to admit that you have an illness that you hid so well that nearly everyone thought it was just a phase, or you were having a bit of a tough time, or worse still didn’t even notice your absence. To the people that knew your history it’s difficult to forgive and understand the reasons they have for not being there, whether it’s because they don’t understand why you can’t just pull it together and be happy or because they feel they’ve had it worse or even simply they had their own life with their own shit going. 
What I’m thankful for to help me understand is the lovely messages I’ve had sent to me on here or Facebook...the ones where you’ve asked for help, told me I’m not alone, told me a bit about you and unbelievably that I’m someone you are proud of and thankful for me creating this page, for you, your loved one or even because you care about me.
What I understand a little better is that everyone is busy, everyone is in this mad whirlwind of stresses, pain, sadness along with the excitment, happiness and life that this worlds gives us. 
That is not a reflection on who I am as a person! I’m a good person, who for years had everyone else’s hearts before mine...now I can continue to try and be at peace with my own as that’s what makes me approachable, honest, kind and caring. Maybe not all the time but enough for me to have a family that loves me and would miss me being around! 
Yes, I deserve someone to love, care and support me the way I have others...and I have that in my parents/sister and gorgeous little boy. 
For whatever reasons, I might not have the people I thought I needed...but I’m doing pretty ok...that’s enough for me.

#recovery #mentalhealth #awareness #itsoknottobeok #herestolove #itsoktobejustok
#chooserecovery 
#suicideawareness #selfharmrecovery #youarestrong #bebrave #nightmares #ptsd
#mentalhealthawareness #celebraterecovery #celebrateyourself #smallvictories #notaburden
At times it’s been really hard to not be bitter towards the people who were around you (or not around but you wanted/needed them to be). I mean that, it’s been tricky replying to people who were absent, who drifted and who I hid from. It’s hard to admit that you have an illness that you hid so well that nearly everyone thought it was just a phase, or you were having a bit of a tough time, or worse still didn’t even notice your absence. To the people that knew your history it’s difficult to forgive and understand the reasons they have for not being there, whether it’s because they don’t understand why you can’t just pull it together and be happy or because they feel they’ve had it worse or even simply they had their own life with their own shit going. What I’m thankful for to help me understand is the lovely messages I’ve had sent to me on here or Facebook...the ones where you’ve asked for help, told me I’m not alone, told me a bit about you and unbelievably that I’m someone you are proud of and thankful for me creating this page, for you, your loved one or even because you care about me. What I understand a little better is that everyone is busy, everyone is in this mad whirlwind of stresses, pain, sadness along with the excitment, happiness and life that this worlds gives us. That is not a reflection on who I am as a person! I’m a good person, who for years had everyone else’s hearts before mine...now I can continue to try and be at peace with my own as that’s what makes me approachable, honest, kind and caring. Maybe not all the time but enough for me to have a family that loves me and would miss me being around! Yes, I deserve someone to love, care and support me the way I have others...and I have that in my parents/sister and gorgeous little boy. For whatever reasons, I might not have the people I thought I needed...but I’m doing pretty ok...that’s enough for me. #recovery  #mentalhealth  #awareness  #itsoknottobeok  #herestolove  #itsoktobejustok  #chooserecovery  #suicideawareness  #selfharmrecovery  #youarestrong  #bebrave  #nightmares  #ptsd  #mentalhealthawareness  #celebraterecovery  #celebrateyourself  #smallvictories  #notaburden 
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Mistakes aren't the disaster that you might think they are. They're evidence that you're trying. They're an opportunity to learn valuable lessons. They give you a chance to come back stronger and wiser.
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Just be kind to yourself. You're only human and none of us are perfect. Mistakes happen. They're part of life.
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Remember, it's better to have tried and not succeeded than never to have had the courage to try in the first place. Just get back up and try again ✨💖💫
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#morningmotivation #theworstmistakeistonotmakeany #mistakes #bettertohavetried #tryagain #youreonlyhuman #learnfromyourmistakes #weallmakemistakes #noneofusareperfect #getbackupandtryagain
. . Mistakes aren't the disaster that you might think they are. They're evidence that you're trying. They're an opportunity to learn valuable lessons. They give you a chance to come back stronger and wiser. . Just be kind to yourself. You're only human and none of us are perfect. Mistakes happen. They're part of life. . Remember, it's better to have tried and not succeeded than never to have had the courage to try in the first place. Just get back up and try again ✨💖💫 . . . #morningmotivation  #theworstmistakeistonotmakeany  #mistakes  #bettertohavetried  #tryagain  #youreonlyhuman  #learnfromyourmistakes  #weallmakemistakes  #noneofusareperfect  #getbackupandtryagain 
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I’m 3 years old in this picture
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I’m at my grandparents’ house
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I loved being there because I felt so safe
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My grandmother was the light of my life
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Words cannot express how much I miss her
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I recently wrote a song called: “Child, It’s Okay”
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Part of it is in my Instagram highlights under Song #2
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Tonight I miss my grandmother very very much
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I hope you can find some comfort in my song tonight
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Cherish the people you love because life is just too short not to do so
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Sending love to all of you ❤️
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#love #loveoneanother #bekind #bekindtoyourself #selfcompassion #compassion #grandparents #grandmother #grandfather #unconditionallove #hope #healing #mindfulness #inspiration #recovery #choosekindness #chooserecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #trauma #traumarecovery #therapist #traumatherapist #emdr #emdrtherapy #emdrworks #mentalhealthawareness
: I’m 3 years old in this picture . I’m at my grandparents’ house . I loved being there because I felt so safe . My grandmother was the light of my life . Words cannot express how much I miss her . I recently wrote a song called: “Child, It’s Okay” . Part of it is in my Instagram highlights under Song #2  . Tonight I miss my grandmother very very much . I hope you can find some comfort in my song tonight . Cherish the people you love because life is just too short not to do so . Sending love to all of you ❤️ . . . #love  #loveoneanother  #bekind  #bekindtoyourself  #selfcompassion  #compassion  #grandparents  #grandmother  #grandfather  #unconditionallove  #hope  #healing  #mindfulness  #inspiration  #recovery  #choosekindness  #chooserecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #therapist  #traumatherapist  #emdr  #emdrtherapy  #emdrworks  #mentalhealthawareness 
Breakfast ▪️ Always a reason to get out of bed, right? 😇
Breakfast ▪️ Always a reason to get out of bed, right? 😇
did i have an actual breakfast or just a bowl milk? based on this picture it looks like just a bowl of milk but trust me there's porridge somewhere in there! anyways, we have this kind of formal event at school today which means dressing up! yikess i haven't worn a dress in ages because i basically live in leggings and sweatpants😬 i did choose a somewhat comfy dress to make myself feel a bit better but i'm still kinda struggling. i just don't want to show my legs, uknow? oh well, i just better get used to people actually seeing my body🤷🏻‍♀️ and honestly i know that no one really gives a shit about my legs except for me😂 people have more important things to worry about, right?
#realrecovery #recovering #edrecovery #edfighter #edfamily #edwarrior #edcommunity #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #recoveryisworthit #food #mentalhealth #anarecovery #foodisfuel #prorecovery #foodie #nourishtoflourish #honoryourhunger #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #gainingweightiscool #eatittobeatit #recoveryispossible #chooserecovery
did i have an actual breakfast or just a bowl milk? based on this picture it looks like just a bowl of milk but trust me there's porridge somewhere in there! anyways, we have this kind of formal event at school today which means dressing up! yikess i haven't worn a dress in ages because i basically live in leggings and sweatpants😬 i did choose a somewhat comfy dress to make myself feel a bit better but i'm still kinda struggling. i just don't want to show my legs, uknow? oh well, i just better get used to people actually seeing my body🤷🏻‍♀️ and honestly i know that no one really gives a shit about my legs except for me😂 people have more important things to worry about, right? #realrecovery  #recovering  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edcommunity  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #mentalhealth  #anarecovery  #foodisfuel  #prorecovery  #foodie  #nourishtoflourish  #honoryourhunger  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #gainingweightiscool  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryispossible  #chooserecovery 
OMG! It's done! I just finished edits on book 2 Jagged Little Lies :) Jagged Little Lies

Written by Lorelie Rozzano

Dear Reader,

Substance Use Disorder is a disease that affects one in seven families. Many think addiction is a singular illness, meaning only the addicted person gets sick. However, that has not been my experience. As the daughter of an alcoholic and working in the field of mental health and addiction these past 18 years, I’ve come to understand we are all equally affected. 
You may find some passages in this book shocking. You might wonder 'is this true?' Although I have changed the names and events, rest assured, in addicted families, scenes like the ones you’re about to read play out every day.
May the Jagged series give you the glasses you need to see clearly; Addiction Is A Family Illness. I hope you find the strength and courage to reach out for help. Please know the only way you can fail at recovery is to quit trying. 
Much love, 
Lorelie Rozzano.

#ABookSeriesOnAddictionAndRecovery 
#ADayInMySoberLife 
#allyougottadoistry 
#BeAHeroInYourOwnLife 
#BeThePersonYourDogThinksYouAre 
#BeAHeroInYourOwnLife 
#BreakFree 
#ChooseLife 
#ChooseRecovery 
#DitchYourDopeDealer 
#DoingItSober 
#EmbraceYourPain 
#FamiliesInRecovery 
#findyourtribe 
#GratefulToBeAlive 
#HealThroughReading
#ILoveMySoberHusband 
#IlovemysoberLife
#MySoberLife 
#metoo 
#NoMore 
#JaggedSeries 
#ODAAT 
#PartySober 
#putdownthedope 
#qualitylife 
#RecoveryRocks 
#RecoveryWarrior 
#RehabRockstar 
#SheRecovers
OMG! It's done! I just finished edits on book 2 Jagged Little Lies :) Jagged Little Lies Written by Lorelie Rozzano Dear Reader, Substance Use Disorder is a disease that affects one in seven families. Many think addiction is a singular illness, meaning only the addicted person gets sick. However, that has not been my experience. As the daughter of an alcoholic and working in the field of mental health and addiction these past 18 years, I’ve come to understand we are all equally affected. You may find some passages in this book shocking. You might wonder 'is this true?' Although I have changed the names and events, rest assured, in addicted families, scenes like the ones you’re about to read play out every day. May the Jagged series give you the glasses you need to see clearly; Addiction Is A Family Illness. I hope you find the strength and courage to reach out for help. Please know the only way you can fail at recovery is to quit trying. Much love, Lorelie Rozzano. #ABookSeriesOnAddictionAndRecovery  #ADayInMySoberLife  #allyougottadoistry  #BeAHeroInYourOwnLife  #BeThePersonYourDogThinksYouAre  #BeAHeroInYourOwnLife  #BreakFree  #ChooseLife  #ChooseRecovery  #DitchYourDopeDealer  #DoingItSober  #EmbraceYourPain  #FamiliesInRecovery  #findyourtribe  #GratefulToBeAlive  #HealThroughReading  #ILoveMySoberHusband  #IlovemysoberLife  #MySoberLife  #metoo  #NoMore  #JaggedSeries  #ODAAT  #PartySober  #putdownthedope  #qualitylife  #RecoveryRocks  #RecoveryWarrior  #RehabRockstar  #SheRecovers 
4 years self-harm free 🥂✨
A day that I at one point couldn’t have imagined in my wildest of dreams. Cheers to choosing me, and to all the people in my life who stood by me through the thick and thin
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#recovery #chooserecovery #clean #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #selflove #celebrationtime
“Process reveals potential. Recovery is a process...therefore, recovery reveals potential.” 👊 #chooserecovery #edrecovery #edawareness #edsoldier #beatingeatingdisorders #prorecovery #recoverymovement #edfree #freedom #empowerment #faithwalk #trusttheprocess #progressnotperfection #believe #smallsteps #changeisgood #growth #purpose
Night snack. Today started off alright but the last 5 hours have been absolute garbage. I'm not present. I'm here physically, but not mentally or emotionally. I'm completely out of touch with everything going on around me. I feel like I've become so overwhelmed with everything going on around me as well as inside my brain that I'm just starting to shut down. Luckily there are only 2 days of classes left before Thanksgiving break. Hopefully 9 days away from school without responsibility will help me reset.
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #vegan #veganfood #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
Night snack. Today started off alright but the last 5 hours have been absolute garbage. I'm not present. I'm here physically, but not mentally or emotionally. I'm completely out of touch with everything going on around me. I feel like I've become so overwhelmed with everything going on around me as well as inside my brain that I'm just starting to shut down. Luckily there are only 2 days of classes left before Thanksgiving break. Hopefully 9 days away from school without responsibility will help me reset. ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #bodytrust  #vegan  #veganfood  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery 
There’s something I have been wanting to tell you, but haven’t yet. And I don’t exactly know where the “right” place is to start is. Because quite honestly, I’ve just begun on this  journey and I by no means have any answers. .
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Historically I haven’t shared about things until I feel like I’ve “completely” processed them.  TBH at first I felt unsure about sharing this, for fear of it not “aligning with my brand”, or maybe it would fall on deaf ears, or it would come across as “too much”. .
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But what trumped all these fears was the fact that I want you to know you have options. I want you to have the tools you may need [& may not have known even existed - because I sure didn’t]. And despite the fact that I am still very much in the trenches, I hope that my story gives you the permission slip you may have been waiting for.
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Listen to the latest podcast episode no. 86 on itunes, spotify, stitcher & at link in bio!
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📷: @mike_latina .
#livelifebeautifully #higherpower #spiritualawakening #letitstartwithme #thepowerofnow #alwaysgrowing #lovingwhatis #beherenow #liveinthenow #presentliving #iamenough #awakenmysoul #spiritualgangster #choosejoy #chooserecovery #practicecompassion #selfgrowthjourney #saywhatyoumean #boundrysetting #setboundries #recoveringpeoplepleaser #gvlpersonaltrainer #whatdoIneed #itsajourney #dreamersanddoers #liveyourbestlife #selfawareness #fromwhereistand #sheisnotlost #momentsofmine
There’s something I have been wanting to tell you, but haven’t yet. And I don’t exactly know where the “right” place is to start is. Because quite honestly, I’ve just begun on this journey and I by no means have any answers. . . Historically I haven’t shared about things until I feel like I’ve “completely” processed them. TBH at first I felt unsure about sharing this, for fear of it not “aligning with my brand”, or maybe it would fall on deaf ears, or it would come across as “too much”. . . But what trumped all these fears was the fact that I want you to know you have options. I want you to have the tools you may need [& may not have known even existed - because I sure didn’t]. And despite the fact that I am still very much in the trenches, I hope that my story gives you the permission slip you may have been waiting for. . Listen to the latest podcast episode no. 86 on itunes, spotify, stitcher & at link in bio! . 📷: @mike_latina . #livelifebeautifully  #higherpower  #spiritualawakening  #letitstartwithme  #thepowerofnow  #alwaysgrowing  #lovingwhatis  #beherenow  #liveinthenow  #presentliving  #iamenough  #awakenmysoul  #spiritualgangster  #choosejoy  #chooserecovery  #practicecompassion  #selfgrowthjourney  #saywhatyoumean  #boundrysetting  #setboundries  #recoveringpeoplepleaser  #gvlpersonaltrainer  #whatdoIneed  #itsajourney  #dreamersanddoers  #liveyourbestlife  #selfawareness  #fromwhereistand  #sheisnotlost  #momentsofmine 
PLAY! .
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When life is busy with to do’s, with conversations and most of all with noise. I find my internal chatter racing, scattered, and forgetful ( I even just forgot what word I was looking for ) .
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Sometimes it’s best to just take a break, reboot and play! 
This afternoon I couldn’t leave the house. I had responsibilities to stay which meant I couldn’t take part in the list a mile long that I had made myself to fit into two hours. So I decided to step outside and play. Better yet to swing! .
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It’s been years since I’ve been on a swing set but they always call me, something about the freedom that comes with flying, trying to beat my personal best by going higher but not sad if I don’t make it. Simply more, just the memories that a swing set brings, being pushed by a loved one. Hanging out with friends at the park, just enjoying life.
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I want to know, when was the last time you put down what you were doing and just went outside and played?
Is it something you want to invite more into you life?
I give you permission to try if. ✨🙌🏼
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#playtime #swingset #ohhappydays #awakemysoul #newperspectives #peacebestill #mentalhealthawareness #meditation #breathefreshair #getoutside #clearyourmind #befree #besilly #beyou #vulnerability #embraceyourlife #havefun #remembertolaugh #retrainthebrain #mentalhealth #anxiety #ownit #recovery #freedom #recoverywarriors #chooserecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #speakup #standout #letgo
PLAY! . . When life is busy with to do’s, with conversations and most of all with noise. I find my internal chatter racing, scattered, and forgetful ( I even just forgot what word I was looking for ) . . Sometimes it’s best to just take a break, reboot and play! This afternoon I couldn’t leave the house. I had responsibilities to stay which meant I couldn’t take part in the list a mile long that I had made myself to fit into two hours. So I decided to step outside and play. Better yet to swing! . . It’s been years since I’ve been on a swing set but they always call me, something about the freedom that comes with flying, trying to beat my personal best by going higher but not sad if I don’t make it. Simply more, just the memories that a swing set brings, being pushed by a loved one. Hanging out with friends at the park, just enjoying life. . . I want to know, when was the last time you put down what you were doing and just went outside and played? Is it something you want to invite more into you life? I give you permission to try if. ✨🙌🏼 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ____________________________ #playtime  #swingset  #ohhappydays  #awakemysoul  #newperspectives  #peacebestill  #mentalhealthawareness  #meditation  #breathefreshair  #getoutside  #clearyourmind  #befree  #besilly  #beyou  #vulnerability  #embraceyourlife  #havefun  #remembertolaugh  #retrainthebrain  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #ownit  #recovery  #freedom  #recoverywarriors  #chooserecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #speakup  #standout  #letgo 
Little impromotu snack - Corn Flakes with 🍌 and 🥛 I spent almost an hour debating whether or not to eat this because I 'wasn't hungry enough' and 'need to restrict my sugar intake,' plus I've been eating wayyyyy more calories than I'm comfortable with lately, so Ana fought long and hard to keep me away from this snack. But after an hour of thinking about nothing else than food, I decided it was more unhealthy to obsess so much about food than it was to just eat the damn cereal, so I buckled down and ate it 💪🏼 Definitely feeling guilty right now, and since I don't have much to do today, it'll probably haunt me all day long, but in the end, I know it's for the better
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#edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #bipolarrecovery #recovery #recoverywin #prorecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #recoverymeal #recoverysnack #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #fuckdietculture #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #vegan #veganfood #foodisnottheenemy #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #gottanourishtoflourish #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #keepfighting #chooserecovery
Little impromotu snack - Corn Flakes with 🍌 and 🥛 I spent almost an hour debating whether or not to eat this because I 'wasn't hungry enough' and 'need to restrict my sugar intake,' plus I've been eating wayyyyy more calories than I'm comfortable with lately, so Ana fought long and hard to keep me away from this snack. But after an hour of thinking about nothing else than food, I decided it was more unhealthy to obsess so much about food than it was to just eat the damn cereal, so I buckled down and ate it 💪🏼 Definitely feeling guilty right now, and since I don't have much to do today, it'll probably haunt me all day long, but in the end, I know it's for the better ~ #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bipolarrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #prorecovery  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #recoverymeal  #recoverysnack  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckdietculture  #bodyacceptance  #bodytrust  #vegan  #veganfood  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #gottanourishtoflourish  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #keepfighting  #chooserecovery