"Das passiert gerade wirklich" 💭😲 - der Augenblick, bei dem ich realisiere, dass das alles real ist & ich Teil von etwas Großem bin... 👀🚀
Hört nicht auf zu träumen, nur, weil es leichter ist! ❤️🍀🌞
The boys gave new meaning to the saying “chasing sunsets”. It was our first night in Newport, Rhode Island, and as soon as I mentioned the sun starting to set, one at a time they took off and RAN to the little beach/park around the corner. #bestillmyheart (When I say “Newport” I know many of my west coast people automatically think I’m referring to Newport Beach, Ca...🤔 Both are beautiful, yes... however Newport’s magic captured my heart years ago and still has it.) I’ve been coming here since I was born, many moons ago... and it makes me so very happy that my boys enjoy it and appreciate this little hidden gem almost as much as I do. 😉
I have seen countless sunsets in many places, countries, towns, cities, and dreams...and I have never seen a sunset as magical as the sunsets here...the beauty I have seen over the years is the reason why sunset is my favorite color.
This week was weird to say the least.
Sometimes it’s weird how the past can creep into your present and bring up all kinds of different emotions. That’s what the past is for though right? To show us where we are now, remind us of how we got there, teach us some pretty big lessons, and give us the gift of now.
So many gifts.
My past has definitely shaped who I am and I think I needed reminding of that, even in a weird way. Ya feel me?
That being said, Thank goodness it’s my Friday 💃🏼👙☀️
I’ve had enough peopling for the week ✌🏻 #adultingisstupid
This persons’ courage and bravery is why she is going to be our first winner🦋 It takes a lot to open up and talk about these things, and she did it gracefully. @emilytheriotlara you are an AMAZING lady, and an inspiration of many others. Thank you so much for telling your story, I’m sure so many people can relate to this..🙏🏻
This is what she wrote: 👇🏽👇🏽
“I have contemplated suicide.
I have lost several loved ones to suicide.
Most people don't know that I suffer from anxiety. Anxiety that prevents me from reaching out when I need it most. It steals my ability to socialize. It robs me of my ability to leave my house to go visit a friend. It creates a misconception of who I am to other people because I'm not always able to be as friendly as I'd like, so I may come off rude or snobby to some. I have mastered detaching myself from people. This has made it extremely hard for me to connect with new people and sometimes maintain relationships.
I have been through some pretty painful, traumatic, life changing, situations. My childhood is like a foggy mixture of fantastic memories and a vivid nightmare of emotions. I have so many wonderful things that I've taken from my youth and so many things I've had to unlearn and in a lot of ways I've had to rewire my entire way of thinking.
One of the most painful experiences in my life was losing my baby sister to drug addiction. Then a year later my brother overdosed from abusing prescription medicine. My family is riddled with addiction. I have someone I love like a sibling currently suffering from alcoholism. I'm so sick with anxiety that I can't even pick up the phone to call this person. I have someone in my family that is on her final days of life because she has terminal cancer. I can't seem to dig deep enough to go see her. There's an article I read that's titled, "I'm not an addict but I live as one." That's me!! I've allowed the people in my life that I love, addictions and life choices to consume me to a point that at times it's affected my relationship with my husband and my ability to be a good mom.” (Finish reading in comments....)👇🏽👇🏽👇🏽