So I recently saw a couple of posts chatting about how the outside doesn't always match the inside when people are all dressed up, or wearing make up, and I think it's the start of really important grassroots campaign #makeupandasmile that you should check out
People don't always feel their best when they "look their best", and I say that in air quotes because it's often more about what society deems our best. Pretty dress, nice make up, maybe some heels, these are all stereotypical connotations of us looking beautiful, and of course that must mean we feel beautiful too right? Naturally that's not always how it goes, and often people can use that make up as a mask between them and the world, or as a boost to their failing self confidence or worth.
The first picture is me 5 years ago, dressed up for an event at school. I felt heaps uncomfortable wearing a dress, and even more uncomfortable in heels. That doesn't even begin to compare to how uncomfortable I felt in front of the camera, or how I was beginning to feel inside, a battle with mental health that would continue through uni and out the other side. Even though a wonderful friend took this, and I went on to have a good night, the image here does not display properly the thoughts and worries inside.
The second photo is actually two years ago now, makeup free and tired from a week's work and camping. I was about to embark on a week's living in a replica saxon Hall, no heating, no shower, just saxon clothing and a fireside. Yet somehow I was excited, looking forward to the prospect, and despite also wearing a dress in this picture, I'm supremely more comfortable in this clothing, and in what I'm about to do. This ultimately led to my meeting the reenactment group @herigeas_hundas, and whilst my brain is by no means always friends with me now, I really enjoy the time that I spend with them away from the modern hustle and bustle.