Positively Living... Take 3... 👐🏼Bilateral Breast Capsule Exchange w/ Implant Reconstruction and Abdominal Scar Revision✔️ Well the next chapter in my journey has come and gone. I'm so grateful to have such an amazing and supportive family! They had me laughing all the way into the surgery room. Unfortunately, as I was coming out it wasn't as funny 😂 ~>swipe to see the joy on my face! Nevertheless, I'm in recovery at Scripps La Jolla hospital and feeling excited to have this part of the journey behind me. 💞Can't wait to see the final results 😬😁 #brca2#brcasisterhood#brcapositive#empoweredwomen#foobs#previvor#journey#beatcancer#scrippsmemorial#positivelybrca#survivor
It’s hard to put into words what this weekend was for me. It was inspiring. It was uplifting. It was full of laughs, dancing, and fun. It was about mindset changes. Yes, I went there to gain tools to help build my business, but I left with so much more.
You see, that’s the funny this about this business. It’s so much more than skincare. (Yes the skincare is FABULOUS - Hello, #1 ) But it’s helped me grow personally. It has helped me find my way when I was struggling to find it. This isn’t just a side-gig for me anymore. It’s my business. That I’M building. And each step that is a success, I hold highly.
As I sit here writing this, I am sitting in an oncology office, because you know — #BRCApositive — to figure out my plan of action to prevent any future cancer. The fact that this business is allowing more financial freedom, and more options for our family is something that I can’t put a price on. I am able to stay home with my babies and enjoy every moment. With the unknowns that life can throw our way, I don’t want to look back and regret. For that, I am truly grateful.
So my two cents: You want more for yourself? Figure out a way. You want to travel the world? Figure out a way to DO IT. You want to stay home with your babies? Figure out a way to DO IT. You want to pay off your student loans? Figure out a way to DO IT. Maybe Rodan+Fields isn’t for you. But maybe, just maybe, it’s everything you’ve needed. #rfmama#findawaytogiveyourselfmore
⚠️Do not swipe the photos if you dont want to see how breast amputation looks like!⚠️
7 months out precisely today♥️ #throwbackthursday
I hesitated a long time before posting this raw last photo.
Cutting your (•)(•) is a decision that is threatening, hard and life changing. However i had the chance to choose to do that preventively instead of waiting for cancer to show up.
I experienced this process as a new start, a new chapter.
It showed me which people were true, present, who didnt ask for explanations as they knew i was mentally off track and didnt know how to keep social contact the way i normally do in that roller coaster of emotions, even if i really wanted to. By not giving up on me. By listening. dropping by. By giving me a caring hand to take at any time of the day or night, a loving shoulder to lean on, helping me do simple things as groceries, going for a car ride or braiding my hair every single week. You guys have no idea how much this meant to me.
My life cleared itself up from toxic boobs, people, and projects as i reviewed my priorities and shifted my focus.
Talking with a lot of dear women whove had the same, i realised this was not unique but pretty much what we all go through.
To all women who are on the path of getting this invasive surgery, it is rough but it is worth it.
It is raw but it is real.
Let people help you, accept the help of those who are offering and truly caring for you, even if it is hard.
They will all have a special spot in your hearts forever.
The real one's will stick around no matter what.
Let in only loving vibes and dont be scared to say that you have no energy for bullshit or negativity.
Hereby some photos of right before the surgery to during my expanding proces.
Don't forget who was there and who showered you with love even when you had absolutely nothing to give being as vulnerable as you could possibly be.
In that i include all the women i met through here with who i have talked daily.
You can all do it and never hesitate to reach out! I am feeling so thankful for ao many kind souls in my life. Never forget who was there♥️
After months of putting it off, I finally got around to finishing #dangerousboobies by @caitybrodnick. Besides learning about silicone nipples (srsly where do I get those that aren't 500$), it was just nice to read a story about another young woman going through this who also thinks farts are funny. So if you are like, "Why does Alex keep talking about boobs she is OBSESSED!" Or want to learn more about this process for yourself/others (or you just think farts are funny too), I definitely encourage you to read. @caitybrodnick also has documentary called #screwcancer that is probably awesome too, but I will pass due to my aversion of viewing medical stuff. Now excuse me as continue to browse through a gallery of prosthetic nipples.
The thought of me being cut off a body part was the worst. 🎀 Seit gestern ist meine Geschichte auf dem Brustkrebsportal auf BILD.de online: Es war so schön, dass mich meine Schwester @kati_dd dabei begleiten konnte. Wenn man ein Interview führt, reflektiert man noch mal alles extrem. Man erlebt hautnah, wie berührt die Menschen von Deiner eigenen Lebensgeschichte sind. Das, was mich mein ganzes Leben lang bereits begleitet hat, wird hinterfragt. Tränen fallen und ich musste weinen. Aber durch das Erzählen geraten Dinge nicht in Vergessenheit. Wir müssen uns nicht verstecken. Wir - kleine LebensHelden (Danke Ihr tollen Frauen von @lebensheldin 🌸). Wir stellen uns den Widrigkeiten des Lebens und lassen uns nicht so leicht aus der Bahn werfen. Wir wollen einfach l e b e n ! #bild#bildonline#brustkrebsportal#cancerfighter#cancerwoman#cancergirl#mastektomie#mastectomy#brca1#brcapositive#brca2#thinkpositive 🎀 DANKE an @jana_kolbe
•Happy Monday! •Growing up I was always that girl who was full of confidence and fire. I believed I could be the best at everything I did. Somewhere in college I lost that feeling. I doubted myself, my worth and my ability to the point where I didn’t even try because of the fear that I would fail. •As I start my new health journey I hope to change those fears. I hope to regain that fire I once I had, try new things, remember that I can do anything. Hopefully by stepping out of my comfort zone and be proud of the skin I’m in, I hope to encourage others to do the same!
🚨Sexy pic alert!🚨
Let me show you the PG-13 version of what I’m working with these days...
• Surgical compression bra - hook & eye closures in the back AND front for an extremely snug fit before the front zip locks in all final lung expansion - comes in a hot lacey nude finish, not to be confused by your grandma’s Friday night Karaoke garb. I thought I would go crazy wearing a tight bra 24/7, but it actually feels much better to have it on, compressing everything as it heals, than the moments it’s undone to shower or clean the drain sites. The hospital sent me home in this, with a spare.
• Drains - I have 2 drains (one on each side) with a rubbery tubing that outputs fluid into a bulb. Drainage output needs to be less than 30mL in a 24 hour period for two days before they can be removed. Most women have them in for 1-3 weeks. They don’t really hurt me (although some women complain of pain) - they’re just more of a nuisance to deal with (plus they’re what’s stopping me from getting my heart rate back up and being able to start PT). The catch is, the less you move, the lower levels of output. REST.IS.SO.HARD. 😳 The pockets sewn into the inside of this sweater are able to hold and conceal them when out and about. Otherwise, I have them safety pinned to my beautiful bra or attached to a lanyard while in the shower. Some women wear a serving apron tied around their waist, which works too.
• Zip/Button-up shirts! I’m not supposed to raise my arms higher than shoulder height at this point, and even when I break the rules, it doesn’t feel good. Putting on shirts over the head is still a dream, and I need help into most of the ones that zip/button-up still when reaching the second arm back. Ouch.
As far as reconstruction goes, I have not had that yet. I have expanders in, that were placed during surgery, where I will receive injections weekly starting next week to slowly expand my pectoral muscle away from my chest wall to make room for an implant. I don’t have any breast tissue left, so the little humps you’re seeing in the pic are from the medical pads/gauze and a little fill my plastic surgeon surprised me with.
Feeling beautiful is a personal achievement 🖤
I know a lot of us have been struggling with finding themselves sexy after (and in the process) breast reconstruction.
Let me get this straight - a woman who wants to feel sexy has nothing to do with her trying to get the attention of men.
Feeling beautiful, sexy, is something personal.
Dressing up and feeling pretty and beautiful is for us.
Dont you guys think that we all want to get your attention, set your egos aside and let us do what we want to do without thinking it has anything to do with you.
Let me get something else straight- if we choose(/can!) to go bigger with our reconstruction, it does not give anyone the right to tell you that you are having a boob job. (a lot of us have heard that more times than not)
It is barely a way to have something to say and to choose in a process that is already hard enough.
One more thing - I have nothing against boob jobs AT ALL.
It is just plane different than a reconstruction.
BUT women who do have boob jobs are doing it for themselves and nobody else.
And they should be proud of it! I know enough beautiful women who have done it and they are killing it as they should! - we already have such a pressure about how we look in this society... so y'all who think that way should cut some slack to the women who are willingly taking measures to feel good in their bodies.
If it takes a boob job, sports, a new cream, anything.
Nobody has the right to tell you who you are and why you are doing certain things.
Be proud ! And dont let people bully you with their narrow closed minds.
You are beautiful, unique, and a beautiful work always in progress.
This photo was taken 4 weeks after my exchange surgery, trying on bikini tops for the first time since surgery.
And oh I felt good. And pretty. And that, i did it for myself. As always💖
favorite bikini brand (my next one WILL be @anaonointimates )?✍🏼👇🏼
DAY 4 Post-Mastectomy:
First shower and boob cookies! Today was good - aside from dozing off randomly (usually in the middle of returning a text), I’m weaning off the Oxycodone and leaving the pain relief up to Extra Strength Tylenol and a muscle relaxer, which has been tolerable.
The shower was tricky with the drains coming out each side of my chest and not letting the water hit the incisions, but we managed well with the simple use of a lanyard to attach my drains, wearing them around my neck. Still no mobility of my arms above my shoulders per the request of my surgeon, but I couldn’t imagine trying to wash my hair at this point anyways. I tried stick deodorant today - OUCH! Quickly switched to spray deodorant, which I am very happy to have purchased in advance. Looking forward to an even stronger tomorrow.
DAY 3 Post-Mastectomy:
No complaints! I feel really great, given everything. I’m staying at my dad and his wife’s house this week, which has been fantastic so far. My dad’s wife, Amy @sunluv66, is an amazingly healthy cook so I’ve had nutritient-packed, high veggie/high protein meals and snacks at my fingertips. My sister-n-law, Kelsey @kelseyhuebsch, is a nurse practitioner and together they’ve been tag-teaming my care around the clock.
You can see my drains peeking out the bottom of my PJ top as I took a walk around the block. Per my doctors’ suggestion, I’ve been up and moving quite a bit these past 24 hours, and feeling great doing it. I’m just supposed to limit arm mobility and restrict range above my shoulders (shout out to Kelsey for throwing my hair up into a pony tail).
I have a whole list of Netflix series that I’ve been collecting from everyone’s recommendations, but I can only manage to get through the first 5-10 min of a show before I conk out. 😴
DAY 1 Post-Mastectomy:
I made it! Surgery went well. 4 hours - expectation was 5-6...assuming the lack of breast mass helped play a part in that. 😜 I was up joking around and chatting with the nurses during my first hour of post-op, before being sent back to my room.
Pain is being managed well in multiple ways. Honestly, I expected a lot worse, accompanied by tears; but instead, I found myself in tears of laughter per usual in the company of Blake and my family. Breasts look great! Incisions are small and blood flow look good.
I’m up, walking around gradually and eating full meals. The surgeons said I could be discharged today, but gave me the option of staying another night, which I am happily taking them up on! THANK YOU again for all of the positive thoughts. I am reading every single one of them and am blown away by the love and support of people near and far, at all stages throughout my life. ❤️
Here’s my story why I started my breast cancer and BRCA journey. Thank you for encouraging me Dawn. #knowyourfamilyhistory#BRCApositive#savesecondbase#stagefourdeservesmore
My dad had breast cancer and was stage4 mets to the bone. He was in the hospital for over a month. I didn’t know how serious it was and my parents didn’t tell me. It was 1989 and treatment for cancer was different then. I decided one night, and mom agreed, to go out to the movies with friends. I came home to a voicemail telling me to get back to the hospital. Daddy died less than an hour later. I don’t know if he knew I was there. I’ll always feel that guilt. No therapist has been able to wipe that away. I was 29! An adult. Almost 30 years have gone by. But he’s my guardian angel who’s at my side, all the time.
My uncle did a family tree and saw the trend of breast and ovarian cancers on his mom’s side of the family. It was riddled with it. At the same time, Dr. Mary Daly at Fox Chase Cancer Center had started the BRCA genetic mutation study. Our family became part of that important study. It led me to 11th Annual Joining FORCEs Against Hereditary Cancer® Conference and being educated, informed and supported throughout my journey and beyond! (Info at facingourrisk.org) @basserbrca @facingourrisk @foxchasecancercenter @cancercenter
Hope. It’s a feeling of trust. .
I’ve lived the last three years on this word.
I have hoped for so many things and not all of them have turned out the way I would have written them but I trust God’s pen. .
Here I am again. Standing in hope. Trusting the journey. Whatever that may be.
CT scan tomorrow. And this is all too familiar. .
Hope with me.
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When I found out I was #BRCA1positive in January, I flooded myself with information. Everything from books to news articles to podcasts- I could not stop obsessing over trying to, all the sudden, become an expert on everything about my diagnosis and double mastectomies and where research is at and where it is going and so on.
I had to slow that down for my sanity, but I still make sure to fit in to my regular reading books and articles that pertain to #BRCA .
This book is different than all the rest because it is a fictional story and takes a rather humorous approach to looking at what it’s like to get a BRCA diagnosis.
Lacey gets her diagnosis and sets out to make a bucket list of things to do before having her double mastectomy. Although her bucket list is much different and her personality is a compete 180 from what mine would be, I loved how relatable her emotions leading up to such a thing can be. Although I know I already plan to go through with a double mastectomy myself, this book reminded me that it’s ok to take my time with that decision, choosing when is best and keep up an open mind to changing that plan if I decide another one is actually better.
Bravo to @georgialouclark on this one- for letting me laugh while also crying my way through Lacy’s journey and my own.
Me trying to catch up on sleep from surgical menopause and just general breakneck speed stress. I have a 1 1/2 hour round trip commute to a full time ad job doing strategy for Church’s Chicken, 2 amazing beautiful thriving smart funny daughters, a rocky love life, and live pretty far outside my element. I had 3 major surgeries this year - down 2 natural breasts and a reproductive system - and I just completed a kickass writing workshop where I wrote the bones of my first literary horror story.
I’m coaching creatives now and feel this is my calling. I have been in many a trench and I know marketing. This year, I studied the wide breadth of issues facing creatives in business, life, and with their emotions - and the principles of creative coaching with the great, insightful and prolific, #ericmaisel ✨
I’ve augmented this framework with tips, exercises, and actionable strategies of my own to make all my work with you result in clear progress and self-actualization customized to your life and art. ✨
If you want help from a life long writer / creative entrepreneur / strategist / survivor, get at me. ❤️😘 #singlemom#brcaprevivor#brcapositive#brca#creativecoach#creativitycoach#previvor#twinmom#creativesofinstagram#creativeentrepreneurs#authorpreneur#entrepreneurlife#authorproblems#illustratorsofinstagram#artistsproblems#dothework#soulpreneur Quote via @breaktheweight
I’ve always been an advocate of boob checking, especially with my mum having two breast cancer diagnosis. Strangely and somewhat ironically though since my own BRCA2 diagnosis I’ve found myself scared to check. Perhaps it’s because admiring your tattas in the mirror is a bit bizarre, but probably because I’ve now been told I’m 88% more likely to find something. So now I have strategies. I always check early and on days I could book a doctors appointment, never late at night and never on weekends or if I have something nice planned. That way I know if I do find anything I can do something pretty quick and not be sat worrying (more than I would be anyway). But most importantly I DO check, regularly and thoroughly, because I have seen first hand how it can save a life. What’s your strategies? #brca#brcapositive#booblover#previvor#coppafeel#boobcheck#health#journaling#feelyourboobies#brca1#brca2positive
(FL part 2/2) 🙋🏻♀️ Taking Kernel on my FL trip is so important to me. Next Wednesday marks 10 years since my mom died. She was #BRCA positive and fought ovarian/breast/melanoma cancers for 5 years. It started when I was 12 and it ended in absolute hell for 3 torturous months in ICU. I was traumatized by so many parts of this experience and the idea of being anywhere near FL grew dreadful. I left once I finished school and have hardly gone back. But this fall, WE’RE going together!!!!!! And that changes everything. My perspective, my role, my focus... it feels clear and positive when Kernel’s with me. For the first time in a decade, I’m excited about FL! That’s a big breakthrough for me, all thanks to the dog who changed the way I see and live life. #PTSDDog#WorkingDog#KernieGFlyHighhh#JetBluePlzHookMeUp
Unlike my mama, my aunts, survivors, those currently fighting the battle, and the estimated 260k women who will be diagnosed with breast cancer this year, who didn’t and will not have the opportunity to be proactive...I did. There has been no room for self pity or regret for my gene mutation, what I chose to do, or the physical changes I’m going through. All I could feel is blessed and very fortunate.
I thought I would cry my eyes out at the sight of my chest fresh out of surgery...but I didn’t, I couldn’t, I haven’t and maybe it was the pain I was in that didn’t allow me to feel sad. No, it was the strength I had gained watching my mom weather the storm of her breast cancer...like a boss. It was the strength I gained from doing research, reading medical journals, and talking...and talking...and talking with my amazing doctors. And, it was the strength I gained following and reading the stories of all my resilient previvor sisters. 😌 I was mentally prepared. .
The girls? I didn’t lose them...I’m getting them replaced with brand new boobs, my foobs...the ones that won’t try to kill me, the ones that will remain perky FOR-EVAH! 😝 Even when I’m 60, I’ll be the mom with perky breast, the one who previved and thrived! .
Czasem zastanawiam się ile z mojej choroby pamięta mój syn. Miał wtedy 3 latka. Ciągle mam wyrzuty sumienia, że jednak to jego dzieciństwo zostało bez powrotnie zabrane przez MOJĄ chorobę. Że były momenty, w których nie miałam siły iść z Nim na spacer, pójść na basen, pokopać piłkę. Dużo rzeczy było nieosiagalne dla Nas wtedy. Bo chemia, operacja, słaby dzień... Minęło 2 lata, mój Filu mało pamięta z tych gorszych chwil, co mnie cieszy, myślę, że mało tez rozumiał co się dzieje. Dziś pamięta jak zdejmowałam perukę i mówiłam, że mam super moce bo nikt inny nie umie zdejmować włosów, pamięta, że dostawałam lek, pamięta, że czas jeździłam do szpitala i mnie troche nie było.
Może kiedyś nie będę miała pretensji do samej siebie, że moje dziecko musiało mieć troche inne dzieciństwo niż Jego rówieśnicy. Podporządkowane leczeniu. Może kiedyś zapomne Jego smutne oczy jak musiałam jechać na oddział. Może kiedyś nauczę się od Niego zapominania takich momentów, bo On nie ma żalu, nie pamięta a nawet jak coś pamięta to mówi, że to było dawno i to nieważne.
Chcę umieć zapominać jak dziecko i bawić się życiem tu i teraz.
Zostaje padawanem swego syna:) #madrosci#syna#Filip#moj#rycerz#zostaje#twym#padawanem#mama#syn#kochamcie#przepraszam#rak#rakpiersi#breastcancer#breastcancerwarriors#brca1#brcapositive#amazonka#zycieporaku#matczynamilosc#najwazniejszy#synus#aletojuzbylo#niewroci#dzieci#sa#niesamowite#instamama#mamaisyn
"Zdjęcie z czasów chemii. Znalazłam je w telefonie męża. Zapytałam po co mu takie foto mnie - łysej, zmęczonej, bladej, po chemii? Powiedział, że wyglądałam ślicznie, że musiał to uwiecznić. Dojrzewałam do tego tekstu... Jestem pełna szacunku dla partnerów, którzy trwają przy osobie chorej. Mój Mąż zawsze powtarzał, że On wie, że będzie dobrze, że damy radę. Mówił zawsze, że wiara to Jego broń. Zawsze był i zawsze jest. Wspierał, pomagał i kochał. Tak samo przed chorobą, jak w trakcie i teraz po. Ostatnio powiedziałam pewnemu młodemu mężczyźnie, że dla mnie jest wielkim ideałem męstwa, tak jak mój Mąż, czy jeszcze kilku takich egzemplarzy, których znam. Nie sztuką jest być kiedy jest dobrze, sztuką jest być kiedy cały świat Ci się sypie. I, kurden na prawdę jesteście ideałami. Wy, faceci, którzy jesteście z nami w tych chwilach. Chemia, operacja i depresja. Dla mnie jesteście MegaMocnymi Superbohaterami, wartościowymi osobami. To jest miłość. Nie zapominajmy o tym.
Prawdziwy mężczyzna jest i kocha Cię nawet bez rzęs i brwi, łysą, bez cycka. Prawdziwy mężczyzna powie: "Jesteś piękna!" Chociaż wyglądasz tak jak, na tym zdjęciu. Prawdziwy mężczyzna po prostu będzie zawsze: wsparciem, siłą, miłością, nadzieją.
Dziękuję prawdziwym facetom, którzy nie uciekają jak tchórze. Dziękuję, że widzimy w Waszych oczach miłość i pożądanie, nawet jeśli choroba zabrała nam cały pakiet kobiecości. Ogromny szacunek dla Was, nasi partnerzy. Kochamy Was, jesteśmy wdzięczne na zawsze." - @zycieporaku ▫#zycie#zycieporaku#miłość#akceptacja#kocham#wspieram#wsparcie#rakpiersi#breastcancer#brca1#brcapositive#wyznanie#podziękowanie#mąż#mężczyzna#bezinteresowność#cancerfighter#onkologia#depresja#przeżycia
"Podczas rozmów z Wami na Różowej Plaży, zaczęłam temat "Lęk po zakończeniu leczenia, depresja - jak to u mnie było". Nie zamierzam ukrywać, że dużo zajęło mi czasu ogarnięcie siebie, swojego nastawienia, podejścia do życia, po tym wszystkim co mnie spotkało. Nie ukrywam przed Wami depresji łącznie z myślami samobójczymi - tak byłam w taki dołku, aż takim... Takim, że mój mąż musiał wychodzić wcześniej z pracy, bo bałam się samej siebie.
To było straszne piekło. Po schemacie leczenia nagle odzyskałam wolność(?), ale strach, że teraz już nic mnie nie chroni (co jest błędnym myśleniem), chodzi o chemię, naświetlania itd., odbił ogromne piętno na mojej psychice. Ciągle myślałam, że zaraz znowu to wszystko wróci, że będę cierpieć, że umrę, że co z moją rodziną, synem, mężem. Myśli, które skupiały się jedynie na złych momentach, żalu do losu i tyle. Zero pozytywów. Wtedy myślałam, że uniknę cierpienia jak zadecyduje sama, kiedy odejdę. Nie mogłam przestawić się na opcję "i żyła długo i szczęśliwie po raku". Aż w końcu coś się stało w mojej głowie, że wróciłam. Jestem znowu sobą, mimo tego, że byłam na dnie, obecnie jest super. Boję się oczywiście, ale wiesz co? Każdy dzień jest Twój - nie marnuj Go.
Tak, jestem taka jak Ty." - @zycieporaku ▫ Autorkę tego tekstu poznałam tutaj, na Instagramie. Jestem pełna podziwu z jaką odwagą mówi głośno o tym, o czym wiele osób się boi/odczuwa lęk/obawę. Jeżeli są wśród Was Kobiety z podobnymi przeżyciami, zachęcam Was do rozmowy z Alicją - bohaterką, fighterką, megapozytywną dziewczyną! ❤❤❤ #depresja#rak#rakpiersi#choroba#chorobanowotworowa#zalamanie#pacjentonkologiczny#pacjent#breastcancer#breastcancerwarriors#niepoddawajsie#zycieporaku#brcapositive#brca1#jestemkobieta#jestem#takajakty#takajestmojahistoria#pozytywnemyslenie
Podczas rozmów z Wami na Różowej Plaży, zaczełam temat "lęk po zakończeniu leczenia, depresja- jak to u mnie było". Nie zamierzam ukrywać, że dużo zajęło mi czasu ogarnięcie siebie, swojego nastawienia, podejścia do życia, po tym wszystkim co mnie spotkało. Nie ukrywam przed Wami depresji łącznie z myślami samobójczymi-tak byłam w taki dołku, aż takim... Takim, że mój mąż musiał wychodzić wcześniej z pracy bo bałam się samej siebie.
To było straszne piekło. Po schemacie leczenia nagle odzyskałam wolność(?) ale strach, że teraz już nic mnie nie chroni (co jest błednym myśleniem), chodzi o chemie, naświetlania itd, odbił ogromne piętno na mojej psychice. Ciągle myślałam, że zaraz znowu to wszystko wróci, że będę cierpieć, że umre, że co z moją rodziną; synem, mężem. Myśli, które skupiały się jedynie na złych momentach, żalu do losu i tyle. Zero pozytywów. Wtedy myślałam, że uniknę cierpienia jak zadecyduje sama kiedy odejdę. Nie mogłam przestawić się na opcje" i żyła długo i szczęśliwie po raku" Aż w końcu coś się stało w mojej głowie, że wróciłam. Jestem znowu sobą, mimo tego, że byłam na dnie, obecnie jest super. Boję się oczywiście ale wiesz co? Każdy dzień jest Twój nie marnuj Go.
Tak, jestem taka jak Ty.