Today I feel weird. I went to the midwives office yesterday to find out I am 3cm dilated. I’ll be 35 weeks tomorrow, which is also my birthday; which for twins really is great. If I can make it one more week we’ll be out of any risky phases; although even at 35 weeks chances are big they will be totally ready, with fully developed lungs. Because of the slight risk of underdeveloped lungs though; there is a chance that if I go into labor now or within the next few days the babies would have to stay in NICU for a little bit. Something you’d just rather avoid. So one thing you can do is get steroid shots; that will promote faster development of the lungs of the babies. As a holistic health freak and someone who hasn’t taken any pharmaceuticals for over 10 years, I am always reluctant to accepting anything like that. But then there is that moment you have to make a choice; the one and o my goal is the well-being of the babies. So I decided to get the shot. As soon as I got to the car my face got red, any achyness or sore spots in my body got 10x more painful, I felt the stimulation very strongly, got a head ache, my hands started tingling and swelled up, my legs felt extremely exhausted like I already gave birth, I felt extremely hot and a few more things. I was unable to get any sleep last night at a time I feel sleep is essential to prepare for birth, especially if it may happen very soon. This morning I was still red and hot, achy, sore, stimulated yet exhausted with a headache and more pain in my body and an overall feeling of discomfort. Now there are all common side effects for steroid shots; but having those reactions so strongly and not being able to rest made me feel like the next choice that felt best for me and my babies was not to go back in today for the second shot. The twins have been growing very well and are already at a great birth weight, and I trust that they will come out ready. It’s not easy making these choices, being informed about risks and obviously wanting to protect the babies and have them be as healthy as possible. * continues is comments
Happy Fryay😊🙏🏼 Yesterday, i had someone observe my class, and at the end what she told me was 'how great i handled my mistakes'. Not my sequencing, or my pace, or even my music, just that i was able to smile eveytime i goofed up. This is something i take for granted now, but it took me many years of going up on stage and making mistakes to get over that fear. It's an ongoing battle we all struggle with, so this meant so much to me, because i had spent the whole day just "vedgin' out l", so it definitely reflected in my class and each time i was faced with a decision:
panic or let go.
Rather than attach to my mistakes, i simply laughed, made joke, and showed my class my vulnerability, and what makes me human.
There wasn't anything related to Yoga (my opinion at the time) she seemed nervous about, but there she was telling me that she was inspired nonetheless by something we all struggle with: being in front of others. Something every teacher deals with.
That's all she needed to see.
We all stuggle with what we think people think about us, but what others (sometimes oursleves) think of us is not our burden to carry everywhere, we must continue weightless to truly experience the present moment and be our best self.
There is no reason to stress over, whether you put in enough work or that you the said the right or wrong thing at the right or wrong time. There is no such thing.
You put in work, that's enough.
You said or didn't say something, so what?
Just smile, and move forward. The show must go on🙏🏼😊 Have a beautiful weekend, get upside down, and thank you for reading!
@carsonclaycalhoun is teaching Saturday at 10am for a 90 minute Rocket Yoga flow! $20 suggested donation, minimum $5.
This class is an all levels power vinyasa with arm balances and inversions thrown in.