I'm the second choice. I don't matter unless the one that truly does matter is out of the picture, but we all now that they're never fully out of the picture.
You don't care about me unless I'm all you have left, then I'm the most important person in your life. All because you're paying more attention to your needs than anyone else's. I'm sick of being the "back-up friend", I'm sick of being the second choice, I'm sick of having fake friends that always want to be seen with someone, I'm sick of being controlled and people not letting me have the option to make decisions based on what I choose, I'm sick of always relying on other people more than myself. I feel worthless. I'm nothing. For once I'd love to feel like I'm a number one priority, like I matter and like I'm not some back-up.