Man I wish I'd gotten this concept earlier in my life. But either way, I get it now. Even in my darkest moments I feel like *something* will come from my unhappiness.
And you know what? Something ALWAYS has!
We go through the crap to learn, grow and evolve. We can't have the light without the dark, we can't have the happy without the sad, we can't have the rising without the fall.
Even when you’re unhappy, it’s good for you💙.
Super random side note, do you ever follow the "Behind the Lyrics" on Spotify? Such awesome backstory and insight into some of your favorite songs and song-writers.
A pretty roundabout way to get a meme today, but while listening to the Chainsmokers in preparation for the concert tonight (woot), they shared this, Chris Martin's take away from Rumi's "The Guest House" and boy if I don't love it!
How’s that for random?!😉 Happy Sunday Funday!❤️
~Full body yes to experiencing life authentically and as raw as it comes. ~ Full body yes to the feeling it all. ~ Full body yes to sitting and being with it all. ~Full body yes to the fullness, to the light, to the heaviness and to the darkness. ~ Full body yes to being with the contraction because then follows the expansion. ~ Full body yes to it all, to the messiness and to the unraveling of that mess, to the tears, to the laughter, to the joy to to the heartache. ~Full BODY YES to it and for it all life~.... ✖️✖️
Welcher Große Schritt ist in deinem Leben der nächste? Befindet sich gerade eine Herausforderung vor dir die es zu meistern gilt? Hast du dir ein gewisses Ziel gesetzt welches du erreichen möchtest? Oder ist es dein Wunsch komplett alle Vorstellungen über die Zukunft loszulassen zu können um tiefer im jetztigen Moment einzutauchen?
Viele Wege wurden in meinem Leben beschritten aus einem Gefühl von Mangel und dem Gedanken nicht gut genug zu sein. Mein Ziel war es noch besser zu werden und mehr zu erreichen, weil ich dachte dann kommt die Erfüllung nach der ich mich sehne. Doch jetzt herrscht eine Klarheit und das Wissen darüber das ich mich geirrt habe. Ich suchte Erfüllung und Glück immer in den Unständen des Lebens. Doch jetzt findent ein sich immer vertiefenderes Erkennen statt, dass sie auch niemals in den Dingen dieser welt finden zu finden sind, ganz gleich wie sehr man dort danach sucht. Meine Erfahrung hat mir gezeigt, dass das nachdem ich immer gestrebt habe bereits in mir vorhanden ist, als erkenntnis dessen was was ich bin / nicht bin.
Aus welchem Grund suchst du nach deinem Glück was lässt dich glauben immer weiter gehen zu müssen um das zu finden was du suchst?
Welche vorstellung willst du nicht loslassen, die daran festhält eines Tages das zu finden was du suchst um erst dann im Frieden mit allem sein zu können?
Bleibe stehen, erkenne das leben als Ausdruck des so Seins dieses Moments an und sieh, dass der nächste Schritt von ganz alleine geschieht.
tb to when I was floating in my parents’ pool, watching the clouds. These days, watching is pretty much my full time job. Specifically, watching and witnessing my feelings. Distraction isn’t an option anymore, because one by one God has removed those options. I used to use work to forget about my loneliness. Then once I was in a relationship, I could stop thinking about my declining health. Then once my relationship and job ended and my health crashed, I clung to hobbies that put me in a state of nonthinking flow. Now, recent medication has created wrist pain that prevents me from knitting or making music or even much writing, typing, or scrolling. God is getting REALLY clear. It is time to sit with all. My. Feelings. Every single messy glorious one of them. The ones you can barely look in the eye, because they’re the scary ones that sit underneath the obvious, easy-to-fix ones. The ones that, if you are lucky enough, you are forced to encounter and wait with and talk to until you know them so intimately that they’re no longer terrifying, just that awkward friend you connect with and understand better than anyone else, and who comes out with the most uncanny, accurate insights into who you are, where you’ve been, where you’re going, and what parts of your life need to light up and evolve and release to get there. So, for now I watch. And sometime soon those fearful feelings will be my friends. Message received loud and clear, God. And thank you.
Nothing gets resolved in impulsive reaction. We just re-wound and exhaust ourselves as we feel the jab of new and deeper thorns and react from that hurt. What if instead, you sat with it. You created space for the wave of emotion to move through you. Holding loving space for all that you are. A calm ease as the earthquake surfaces and then releases. Your “problem” may not be solved at the end of the wave, but now you can see it. Now you have the space and energy to observe it and respond from your higher self. You can meet it face to face and realize it’s just as scared as you are (or that you once were). It’s safe to be in your body. To feel. To sense. It’s time to reintroduce yourself to your self, with a deep breath, soothing touch, and open heart: “Hello old friend, I’m here for you and I love you.” Ride the wave to remove the thorn. ✨
Fresh out of my Yoga Life Coaching course and in awe of the simple power of embodiment. I have been focused on understanding more and more about Compulsions so that I can be better at coaching myself and others in these vulnerable and activating moments. And this course feels like the exact manifestation of the puzzle piece that brings it all together. I have shifted from this experience. I was triggered last night in what is my deepest thorn - body issues around my belly and how I connect it to my self worth. I felt the wave arise. I opened up to it. I expressed out loud to the person who triggered me “I don’t know what to say to that. I feel a deep hurt and sadness in me right now.” That non-violent and honest expression of my current state invited in an important conversation that allowed me to process my feelings and dive in to talk around boundaries, perception, and confusion. It was beautiful. I could see my own stories around my body and how this other person has very different stories and thorns and wounds. I’m not perfect and I love my imperfections. And I know that I am so ready to rise up from that old played out story.
I’d be honored to share more with you and be a support in your inner-journey. Reach out to schedule a session with me. 🙌🏽❤️
Deeply committed to following gut wisdom so we can offer clients support that is embodied and truthful to its core. Listening to gut isn’t always easy, often it’s not. Gut parses through logic or politeness. But gut freely channeled has grace, grace like a handful of smooshed ripe blackberries. Grace like gumboots in August. Grace like a raw heart bravely still beating. It’s okay if your gut doesn’t “make sense” to everyone else. It’s okay to look weird or be uncool, to not match or fit in. Gut doesn’t understand all those constructs anyway. Gut probably doesn’t have Instagram 😂🤷🏻♀️ Once upon a time a witch in a red canyon said to me “The reason you feel this way around me is because I don’t give from a well I have to dip down into. I walk around like a jewel encrusted chalice splashing it’s abundant joy everywhere- you can’t help but feel that when you’re near me.” GOALS. I think about that all the time. (I should mention this person was not actively parenting small children 😂😂😂) GOALS. Sending out some cosmic blackberries to anyone who needs it today. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 #livethework#doulawork#birthwork#embodiment#workingonit#messytruth#bewithit#parenthood#embodiedmindfulness#embodiedmotherhood#availablejoy
What do this quote and that face 😍 have in common?
I’ve noticed that we exert a lot of energy trying NOT to feel hard emotions.
We distract, ignore, cover up, run away from, or soothe with food or other substances- anything but FEEL IT.
The fastest. And easiest. Way through any difficult emotion is to acknowledge it, feel it, and let it sit with you for a while. Until you do- it will keep at you. It won’t go away, won’t resolve.
Kinda like this cute kittty face. She loves to ask for attention at 4am. Sometimes she is quite persistent. (I have cat scratches on my nose to prove it.😑)
If I notice her, give her a quick pat, she settles down fast, becomes quiet, or gets bored and wanders off.
Hard feelings will do the same. Notice them. Validate them. Allow them to just sit and be with you. They might feel uncomfortable, but they can’t hurt you. You may find they become quiet or just wander off on their own.
Like a swimmer you move with the water.
Whatever your goals, whatever your desires, whatever your ideal dream life looks like, one thing is for sure:
It's not always going to be easy.
But it's your decision to make it easeful.
To swim with the water. To move with the stream.
Yes, it will take you strenght.
BUT apart from that, it will also take your willingness and ability to be with what whatever task, challenge etc. is on front of you and FULLY BE WITH IT.
With all your your FOCUS & HEART.
Others fell that & that's when magic happens. .
Holy shaboli. The utter simplicity & complexity of what we must allow to experience the whole. I find myself squirming a lot lately. What is that about? Remaining curious. Asking myself what if I staying in the experience instead of trying to squirm away. There is something deep within that desires to be seen & be known & be loved. By others, yes, but most deeply by myself. Hiding, dodging, covering with the experience of others is so alluring & enticing. Asking how I can turn my gaze inward. And this big heart, how can I keep some for myself. I’m here. I’m here. Like a child, yearning for love from its mother, I must allow the love to go in. Save some for myself. What a tricky thing. #loveyourself#donthide#sqirmy#thewholeshabang#allow#bewithit
Swimming, cleansing and taking extra care with this wild blood moon energy to stay in a state of flow. And you know what they say, 108 frogs a day keeps the doctor away. Lighter now 🙏🏼🔮 @withtlovers @marclawsii @mindfulmillee @kwalikumara @zoelvh •
If you felt it too, it helped reading this...
Moon in Aquarius: erratic energy, transformation
Lunar eclipse: heightened emotion, idea of ‘losing your mind’
Eclipses are a bit dramatic. An eclipse is not tender. Eclipses aid in guiding us on our life path, which is a good thing, but they can be extra AF about it! They hurry up what is meant to be, but while they're happening this can be painful.
Full moons tend to bring out the emotional side in everyone, and Aquarius isn't great at handling too many emotions with grace. While the eclipse is making you more emotional than usual, the fact that it's happening in Aquarius will make you feel unsure of exactly how to handle those emotions. ••
The UPSIDE - it’s also Leo season which brings the positivity, the happy vibes, the confidence, and the strength to get through whatever this event throws your way. So even if you feel extra emotional and you're unsure of how to deal with that, soak up the Leo season vibes to ensure that you get through this in one piece. 🦁
Incoming full moon lunar eclipse energies...😳🤨😶 Three things:
1. Cry, tantrum, rage, grieve, feel, and SAY IT OUT LOUD. (Notice I did not say blame, shame, or guilt. We are tantrumming like the adults we are. In a safe container, and doing no harm.) 2. Flourish and Bloom. Pray for it. With Passion.
3. Humor, bring the fucking humor.
It’s the LIGHT and DARKNESS
My yoga sucks sometimes ... it fucking hurts... it’s scary.. it’s dark.. it’s raw .. it’s heartbreaking.. it’s intense..
it’s the muck the lotus flower 🌺 sits in
the cocoon the butterfly 🦋 dwells in
the storm ⛈ before the rainbow 🌈
There’s no sugar coating.. numbing it out.. pill popping .. avoiding.. shading over.. There’s things that surface that I don’t want to feel |hear | acknowledge... but I do anyway.
Because that’s what YOGA is to me.
There’s the theory and then there’s PRACTICE ... it’s a daily commitment for me.
What’s YOUR YOGA?
My last baby moved out of my room today. And it’s a bitter sweet shift. There’s nothing in the world like sleeping with your very own angel at your bedside, feeling their pure energy, listening to rhythmic inhalations and exhalations, breathing in the smell of soft baby skin and silky hair. It’s special— so very once-in-a-lifetime-savor-this-before-it’s-gone kind of special. And it has come to an end over here. But I’m also feeling the oh-so-subtle anticipation of a new chapter upon us, and am trusting that it’s all good. That the next chapter will deliver its own kind of magic. Really, it’s more than good. It’s perfect. I get to witness and experience this messy perfection of family life as it grows and evolves over and over again while we move ever forward. I’ve always wished I could find a way to slow the speeding snowball of time, and I’m realizing that the only way to do this is by all the way, deep down, being in it. Presence is the answer. And it’s tough. Super tough to do a lot of the time, especially with a racing, anxious mind and doer mentality. But after a difficult year, I’m finally practicing again— and when I’m able to tap into full presence for a fleeting moment, I feel how beautiful it all is. Mindfulness, through the good and the difficult. It’s about tapping into the part of yourself that feels and is, instead of the part that moves and does. It takes work, but it brings peace and trust and and the ability to see (and be with) your path more clearly. Deep breaths and lots of reflecting over here, but my heart is full and thankful and growing with motherhood, each step of the way.
I'm learning that when I'm all but clear on my next steps, the only right thing to do for me is not to rush into action with the sole purpose of alleviating the discomfort of not knowing.
It quietly freaks me out - I tell you.
But silence, English countryside, alone time & good friends can make it all much more bearable. And oh the magic & light of this place 😍
Somewhere between sleep and awakening there is an edge. Sometimes it comes with a dull throbbing in the head, at others it manifests as a clear concise ring - like a sacred bell on a clear night. Neither of these transition spaces is right or wrong. Both are an opportunity. We are alive in transformative times, my friends. If you feel clarity, follow it... breathe with it... see where it takes you. Often these moments of clarity come with ease. Elevating. Be present with it. Not labeling it with good or bad, as all things shift, and instead notice where the spaciousness in your body resides. If you find yourself, instead, feeling numb or clogged, dull or unable to breathe fully... these too are spaces full of potential growth. The murky stuff is fertile if we give ourselves permission to be present with it. In the same way, explore the dullness with a curious mind. Where does the sensation reside? And listen to it, with acceptance and recognition... everything changes and learning to flow between wakefulness and rest, ease and discordance, motivation and numbness; to strip back ideas of "good" and "bad" and merely explore what "is", we give our innerworld (and through it, our outer world) the opportunity to transcend its current edges. #accept#transcend#numb#thewoundedhealer#thewoundiswherethelightentersyou#dull#ache#release#letgo#dichotomy#goodandbad#acceptance#bewithit#shadow#darkandlight#selfacceptance
🌊Anyone else notice when you hang out in, near or around water you feel more *something*☔️
Water is the element of emotion. So this makes sense 😉 But also it’s useful to actually USE this knowledge.
Many people I know automatically find themselves gravitating towards water for grounding and calm🌊
Others need forest, jungle or mountain time 🌴🌳🌵🏔🏕
I’d love to know your “go to”! 🙌🏼🌸❤️
You can hold space even in your grief. .
You can be in spaces of joy and rage simultaneously. .
Dichotomies can coexist. That is simply life. .
We are not just one flavor of human being. We are not just honey + peonies, stomps + glares, tears + introspection. We are allowed to be all of it. .
Teaching Embody this week, this is the message that came forward: “You can hold space even in your grief.”
There is strength + vulnerability within you. You can still create structures for getting done what you’ve committed to. You can still be there for others. You can still be a pillar allowing your own emotions to seep out. .
We are multifaceted gemstones. All different lenses into the same whole. It’s what makes us human babe. .
Yes! The darkest times of my life have led to the biggest openings to freedom, power, compassion and wisdom and I'm here to help you turn your darkest night into your brightest day. I used to avoid suffering/fear/pain, but realized it takes a lot of energy to resist what I'm afraid of. When we face these things that provide opportunities to learn great lessons, we have more energy to redirect to those things we really care about. This is true alchemy and we are all alchemists. Knowing you have this capacity is true power. I'm not saying it's easy but it's totally do-able and I'm here to help! #painhasapurpose#healer#turnshitintoflowers#digdeep#leanin#letgo#freedom#bewithit#dontavoidlife#dontavoidpain#painisagiftuseit