It was the year 2008 when I first stepped into the world of baking. What started out as a fun casual activity soon turned into a hobby.
My friends, family and colleagues would know me a baker, occasionally churning out cakes and other sweet treats. I would jump at the chance to bake during birthdays and festive seasons like Lunar New Year and Christmas.
As I baked more, I decided to blog and document my baking adventures. It was fun and I enjoyed the process of sharing and penning my thoughts. I also got to know other like-minded foodies and bakers.
One day, my best friend decided to tease me and called me "Bakertan", with Tan being my surname ( Last name). Thus my baking persona was born and I stuck to it ever since.
It has been years since I blogged. I have moved on, no longer a self-taught baker but as a pastry student. Being a self-taught baker was fun. But it was slow and I was not disciplined enough to constantly learn new things and experiment. I even shyed away from the candy thermometer.
I figured that I needed a wholesome enviroment to give me that momemtum where I can fully immerse myself in to just...bake!
So goodbye to my old blog and this marks the start of my new baking journey here. New experiences and new beginnings.
When in doubt, just bake =)
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What an amazing turn out! The beginning of something new! Women Empowering Women - "Pink Ladies Group"
Thank you to all present, all who participated and worked in organizing it..thank you to our beautiful inside and out guest speaker Sabrina @buzzanca1414 .
It was amazing!
The joy of working with an amazing group of women who I call my sisters, my friends. Making a difference in other womens lives. If you feel like you would like to also be part of this new journey, let us know. It's only the beginning.
“The urge to destroy is also a creative urge.”
~ Mikhail Bakunin
had fun smashing up this old typewriter for my performance of Lee in Sam Shepard’s ‘True West’
Austin: I love beginnings
Lee: I’ve always been kind of partial to endings myself .
In Hinduism, the Lord Siva is said to destroy the Universe in order to recreate it anew.
With endings always come bright new beginnings, tho, maybe less so for this typewriter :)
It’s time for new beginnings. November and December will be a period of great transition, internal transformation, spiritual breakthroughs, new ideas, new vision, closing of past chapters, opening up of new paths and awakening to your truth. Be ready and be patient with yourself.#DSEN
Don't wait for it to happen, go make it happen.
Never lose hope. Never lose faith.
Silence says a lot more than you think.
Do the best you can with what you have.#DSEN
What have you #learned recently that will help you in the future?
POOR = Passing Over Opportunities Repeatedly Don't be #POOR . Get educated. #financialeducation
RICH = REGULAR INVESTING OF CAPTIAL HABIT 😁😁 I WANT AND WILL BE RICH 👍👍 Tell yourself this every morning to open yourself up to new #opportunities and #beginnings .
CodeofHonor #Integrity ,
Authenticity, Responsibility and Enriching#SNS #
and enforce it#.#DSEN#entrepreneur#author#DSEN
We're building a culture of accountability, trust, and togetherness. Entitlement will not be tolerated.#DSEN #
Dato Seri Dr Edward
Business Coach for Changemakers.#
There are three types of people in the world: those who make things happen, those who watch things happen and those who wonder what happened...#
Acknowledge your successes by making a list and saying them out loud. You will realize your goals, even the ones that were not achieved, created success in their pursuit.#
A thousand disappointments in the past cannot equal the power of one positive action right now. Go ahead & go for it.#
Opportunity follows struggle.
It follows effort.
It follows hard work.
It doesn't come before.#DSEN
If you really want to do something, you'll find a way. If you don't, you'll find an excuse.#DSEN
To maximize growth, develop strategies." Strategies are nothing more than systems for obtaining specific results, they are like freeways. They can help you quickly get to where you want to go.#DSEN#Gratitude really does pave the road to #happiness . Keep focusing on being #grateful for all the good things in your life, both big and small.#
This card represents a fresh start, with all the excitement that brings. The fool sets out new adventures with a joyful spirit. You should take a risk and think out of the box because your soul is asking you to follow a new direction. You've got all the energy to achieve your dreams. Just trust the process and take a leap of faith. #fool#optimism#beginnings#openness#trust#innocence#soul#experience#dreams
Let’s go back. Back to the beginning.
I was overweight. I was insecure.
I didn’t like what I saw in the mirror. I didn’t know a thing about health and fitness. Not.a.thing.
At the end of the day, I was scared. So scared.
I decided to become a health coach 49 lbs ago. I still have more to lose. I took a leap, all I knew was that my fitness programs, meal plan, and nutritional supplements were WORKING.
I conquered my fears…and still work through those today, and I can’t imagine if I didn’t.
I chat with ladies everyday who want to join me. They are in the same place I was. Lost. Scared. Lacking motivation. Not sure where to start or what to do.
I get it. Been there, done that. Why wait a moment longer feeling that way though?
I am in THE best shape of my life. I’m growing a business and helping others do the same. Helping ladies gain confidence and live their best lives. I’ve got a circle of ladies that support me through and through, every.single.day. Everyday.
Because I just love what I do, I’m opening 10 spots in my coach mentorship! If you have a can-do attitude, are curious about what I do or maybe you’ve been following my journey for a while, drop me a private message or comment below.
Let’s chat ASAP!
Does the blank canvas freak you out? The beginning of a pattern or just the start of a project in general? I can’t say these days that the blank canvas scares me (not sure it ever really has), however I think that’s because I have a process and when I am fiddling with the start of a project I fall back on that process. If you head on over to IG TV you can hear me talk a bit about that process - its a mega part of how I function as mum and artist. ❄️
P.S. these really great Mirrix Looms (@mirrixlooms ) are available on my website as of today! DM with any questions and you can order now to get yours in time for Christmas! (They drop ship and I deal with all customs stuff!) I will be posting about how drop ship works and what it means to have items clear customs in the next few days so I can clear up any ick feelings about that too! #tapestry#beadweaving#mirrixlooms#blankcanvas#beginnings
on monday lotus attended her year 12 formal.
she and her friends walked down the stairs and before i could speak the words, noah spoke them, ‘lotus, you look beautiful’. she radiated.
as each and everyone of her friends arrived i watched her. i was on the edge holding my camera with my eyes filled with tears. she would look over and smile. i was disarmed more each and every time.
her glow was intoxicating. it wasn’t her make-up and dress, it was an intoxicating glow that her friends witness everyday, and i was witnessing it in that context. i was love-filled, proud and inspired of the woman she is becoming. uniquely her, and what a gift.
when she left to go to her formal and we packed away, i went upstairs and sat on my bed. my emotions were mixed. i marco polo (video app) a girlfriend and i cried. i really, at that time didn’t have the words to articulate what i was feeling, i knew when she received it, she would hold space for me and that’s what i needed.
lotus gifted me motherhood. she came through me and we have parented her joyously for almost 18 years.
society tells us that when your child is 18, they’re an adult and they can be legally responsible for themselves. i then started thinking about the next 18 years. letting go made me feel uneasy as we both start transitioning. i will always be her mama, although my parenting journey is changing. we have always embraced her voice, autonomy and her fulfillment within her own life, however now her wings are truly on and she will fly.
lotus has shared her first (almost) 18 years of life on my journey and now i share the rest of my life time on hers. her becoming. her being. her belonging.
B R E A K T H R O U G H S , E N D I N G S & B E G I N N I N G S
So as you can see from this picture one of my crystals broke today. Not only did it break in the most dramatic way and shattered into more pieces than i could salvage😂 but after the initial omg moment a calmness and relief came over me and I was happy. •
The energy changes and shifts these last few weeks have really hit me in various areas of my chart and also phsyically (thank you Mars, Venus and Mercury!) I say all this to say that this crystal is broken into pieces right? But its golden inside. This broken crystal symbolises a culmination of breakthroughs, endings and beginnings and its been a long time coming. I had to break apart to find the beauty, power and strength inside. I did the work but i also didn't let it take over my life.
Rx can be a time of pure bullshit lets be real but it can also be a time to revisit things make them better or remove them and so on. So my question to you is what's it gonna be? Are you gonna let life fuck you over or are you gonna take control of what you can? After endings there's always a beginning. After a breakthrough there's always opportunities. And after a new beginning, well the possibilites are endless.
16/11/18 P.S: I'll be cutting back my time on here for a bit to reconnect, realign and just get focused. Reading for the week ahead on Sunday still and any messages that come through you best believe I will be posting. Stay hydrated. Stay safe. Love. Love. Love. X
They came in the mail y'all! I'm so excited. I've been wanting to buy acting books and guides for a while now. They both got a lot of good reviews so hopefully they will help me on my journey as an actress. 🎬🎭👑 #acting#novice#beginnings
The great thing about beginnings is the endless potential. They’re full of questions and possibilities and hope and fear, all at the same time. But the best thing, the absolute best thing, is that they’re the furthest thing from endings 💫⠀
Nov 16th - Venus Retrograde ends and Mercury Retrograde begins on the same day.
This delivers a dramatic shift where we will suddenly see our lives through new lenses. The rose tints are off and our relationships & circumstances are perceived with crystal clarity.
This means that we will be ending relationships that have fallen out of alignment and we’ll be walking away from anything that our soul is screaming a resounding “No” to. No more listening to either our heart or head, we will now be paying closer attention to our inner soul voice and following our intuition and instinctive knowing, trusting that it will lead us closer towards the exact life we’ve been trying to create.
As some doors close, new ones will be opening, offering far more rewarding opportunities, possibilities and pleasure than every before.
Venus took us through a period of intense and extremely deep refinement. We rinsed & released so much of what caused conflict, dysfunction and harm, mostly involving karmic relationships, and we are now feeling cleansed and cleared and ready to take on much more healthier dynamics, of all kinds - eg. friendships, soul mates, new challenges, commitments and goals.
Mercury Retrograde has arrived with divine timing, on the exact same day that Venus goes direct, so it is going to be testing our strength and resolve on everything we’ve gone through recently, particularly since Oct 5th when Venus Retrograde began.
We will notice that people from our past will be unexpectedly reappearing, some to sincerely make amends or for genuine connection, while others will be seeing if our boundaries have weakened and if we’re quick to forget about the turmoil they caused and the mess they left behind.
Choose wisely who is allowed back in, as not everyone revisits for pure intentions. Some people pop back up solely to serve their own agenda - maybe for attention, validation or for gain of some type - but whatever the reasoning, just be sure to listen carefully to your inner voice and notice how your energy feels when you’re in contact with them and also when you're away from them.
When I feel like I don't have enough space
I look up and picture myself up there
Where no one can reach me
Hear me nor see me
I forget the road not far from where I stand
The car that just passed
And the end of the trail coming soon
I forget that I am limited
And start to reach a deeper truth
I wish the woods were infinite
And the river was pure
I wish nature was everywhere
And still intact as it once was
When I feel like I don't have enough space
I look up and picture myself up there
Where no one can reach me
I listen to the birds and ignore everything else
I smell the wet grass and focus on the wind caressing the trees
I close my eyes and become nature
I reach a deeper part of myself
Up there but still standing on the ground
I am finally home