Looking up and talking about ideas for my future home has got me so geeked lately. I know it will take ahwhile due to finances, salvaging, and reusing/building many things, I’ll get there ! It’s also kinda scary, being only half way through my twenties it’s a big step. Buying property, starting a little community with orchards, gardens/food forests, a big kitchen, building/art/medical shops, self sustaining ponds, a big green house, bamboo gardens, animal homes, and so on I want it all. 😅 I think it’s the right time tho, I’ve wanted it my whole life and in a few months time the beginning will begin. Thinking about finally having/designing my own home is such an exciting thing. A sacred space just how I want it, a visually stimulating, comfortable home I’ll maybe have forever. Such a beautiful step. Life’s crazy man but I’m ready for this new adventure. Ofcourse I’ll still travel just less. I know I will be fulfilled and engulfed by such a lifestyle that will not only be for myself I won’t wanna leave! It’s also gonna be a shit ton of work so I’ll be busy, in a good way. I had big dreams that are now goals, can’t wait. 💪🏻 I’ve shared some of my exterior inspirations here are some interior.
I have spent so much of my life wishing I was at the end of my journey.
I’ve always wanted to be the girl that gets to post the amazing “before and after” pictures.
What I’ve come to realize is this - everyone starts somewhere, and my beginning is always going to look different from someone else’s beginning. I have also come to realize that I can’t compare my beginning to someone else’s middle or “end.”
Also, don’t ever let yourself have an “end.” This should be a lifestyle change and your health should be something you take care of for your entire life.
I’m so happy my beginning is over. Now I can focus on my during❤️
When you’re ready to stop having countless beginnings, drop your email and we can get you started on the right track👇🏼
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PS: I start a book -- a really good book -- first, by sitting comfortably on a chair (or a couch) while making sure my breath catches its quiet, rhythmic pace. Then I stare into space for a minute or two as I try to empty my mind, turning the voices down in my head gradually, carefully, mindfully. I've learned not to shut them off abruptly, these voices in my head, because they can be vicious sometimes, when all you want is for them to stop talking just for a while or would they rather please take leave, and they feel that the door has been slammed shut in their faces. So when I think they're ready to be quiet for me, I take a deep breath and open the book. The rest of the time after that are short visitations by a few of these voices who have learned to knock softly on the door to say hello, stay for some time, then leave.
We’ve introduced ourselves to colleagues with a page in DW’s magazine, and now we’re introducing ourselves to you! Hello from the DW Volos 2018-2020 👋 Please have fun following our adventures 😊 Pic: @alexmatthews7
What a talent, what a heart. I remember meeting Oribé at his product launch and it was such a pleasure to not only meet him but to work with him and learn from him first hand. Thank you for blessing my career and my journey. May you rest in power. ❤️
In your hustle to make your mark in this world, try not to neglect those who brought you into it. Those special few who have been with you literally from the beginning.
Do you remember? The time we became mates, you were calm. But now? I can't say that and now my trust levels are fucked. I helped you when you desperately needed it but fuck, I didn't realise that my naivety would be vulnerable to your games. You just wanted quick money and I got trapped in your game so cleverly that I was able to free myself, but only when it was too late.
My phone would always be going off with your calls, you putting up this facade that we're family but little did I know, you were playing a dangerous game and I was your victim. My trust was a delicate feather and sharing it with you? It got burnt and the burning lasts for so long that I'll still feel it when I get older. The biggest lesson of 2018 is that whoever you meet, you can't trust them so easily because trust takes a lot to develop but can take seconds to go up in flames. But you become stronger with experience which is Allah's gift and so next time, I'll be more conscious. "It is what it is"
• If you think it's time to make a change, a new impact in your life around others then do it. Allow yourself to be successful and seek the hereafter not just the dunya. Grant yourself endless opportunities and grant yourself happiness. Not just that, you can even grant yourself the beautiful meaning of life. We aren't here forever so don't just focus on the money and the luxuries because in the hereafter, you might not even find a glimpse of them expect a piece of charcoal. Educate yourself in religion and help spread the word as you carry on travelling down and I pray to Allah to renew the lost imam in my heart for I feel like I'm gradually falling apart
• Please let me walk the streets alone. And please let me find peace from within, you need to stop expecting that I'm gonna answer every text and call. My life, it's like a volleyball. One day I'll be in the comfortable court and then without the blink of the eye, I'm deprived of that fort. You see my illumined expression, it's just a facade. I know you're wondering where I am now but I don't care about anyone sorry, I just feel betrayed. When I was at my lowest, my life fed me with lies and when I reached my highest my life filled my lungs with enough carbon monoxide to take me off my feet any day. Life has chucked grenades towards my safest corners and now I have no retreat zone, I'm out here walking for miles on wishing hope drops ever so eloquently into my life again like the rain that surrounds me but you see, if I don't answer your phone, it's not because I hate you, it's because I'm on my way and I don't know how to find the solution to this crisis. I could really do with a cigarette now but it's not possible. I fear burning the soon to be found safe zones. I know you're still trying to call me and I'm so sorry; I just don't know how much longer I can pull off this cleverly defined masquerade.
• Tonight, just another one of them nights, I'll wait for your text. For us to chuck aside our worries, our anxieties and just go for a drive. A drive with no destination, let's just go anywhere and when we come to a halt, we shall push our seats back and watch the sky glow with its beautiful stars. And when I hold onto the back of your hand, only then will we enjoy this moment of serenity within the toxic air. I tried, believe me to proclaim our love to my parents. But they turned their back and forced me to route another track. Because I'm not giving up on us now, I yearn your presence and your reason to let me sleep sound. The broken pieces of our hearts, they fit together so well. Doesn't that ring a bell? So let's ignore my parents excuse for "culture" and look for the shooting star. Because you are all I need and l'll be your knight in armour ready to come by your side when I see my princess in despair. - Hushedakh
You could be a stranger in this world,
Who keeps to themself,
Through the day and night,
Or maybe you're the one passing through,
Enduring a breathtaking tour of the world,
Creating memories and seeking opportunities,
Or simply just exploring the beauty of Allah's work.
Whatever it is,
I hope you remain pleased,
Yes the world is in a madness,
But don't forget the world is nothing like the hereafter,
Where the life separate of deception,
And the surreal enjoyment for life,
Begins with Allah right beside you
• Here is a reminder for you. Don't dismiss it as you matter. You may be the few of the many, but you do matter. Don't let anyone shatter you and it's ok to feel down because Allah will pick you up and it's fine to express your thoughts or to disclose them because whatever your heart says, it has already been written in advance for you. You've made it this far and you should feel proud. Don't feel proud for the broken Dunya, but that you've overcome the battles you've never thought you would ever succeed with. Not everyone has made it this far and we need to remember them. May they be granted serenity in Jannah and for their families the same. But do remember the suffering for they have made it this far but they battle more hardships then many of us. Switch off and go into sujood and pray to the Lord for our dearest brothers and sisters in this cruel world.
Also give yourself time to converse with Allah about what you've achieved and what you wish to see in the upcoming future. Once you feel satisfied that you're moment with the Lord has been fulfilled, you can switch back on to this life. Drink some water and tidy your room. The smallest changes can lead to the biggest successes and putting your hand out to help those at disadvantage will only help you strengthen as a soldier in the eyes of Allah, the all knowing and the most wise - Hushedakh