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learned about this bad boy in group on thursday. we always talk about self care, but candles and bubble baths are just the tip of the iceberg!!! what other areas of your life could use self care? maybe personal— calling a friend you haven’t seen in a while and catching up over coffee. or emotional— going to therapy! the opportunities for self care are endless. don’t limit yourself to caring for your physical body!!
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what are your favorite methods of self care? lmk!!
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learned about this bad boy in group on thursday. we always talk about self care, but candles and bubble baths are just the tip of the iceberg!!! what other areas of your life could use self care? maybe personal— calling a friend you haven’t seen in a while and catching up over coffee. or emotional— going to therapy! the opportunities for self care are endless. don’t limit yourself to caring for your physical body!! ✨ what are your favorite methods of self care? lmk!! ✨ #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #positivity  #optimism  #encouragement  #motivation  #motivationalquotes  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #selfcompassion  #selfcare  #selflove  #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #diary  #ana  #dbt 
Pretty cool to hear the news this morning that Toowoomba Municipal won best band for the Toowoomba Carnival of Flowers Parade over the weekend! 🎉 🎺
Pretty cool to hear the news this morning that Toowoomba Municipal won best band for the Toowoomba Carnival of Flowers Parade over the weekend! 🎉 🎺
Tw(slide for meme)------> Everytime I feel like it’d be okay to eat something, I go out into public and all of my insecurites crash right back😑

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#edmemes #eatingdisordermemes #eatingdisordermeme #OSFED #EDNOS #atypicalbulimia #anorexia #bulimia #atypicalanorexia #mentalhealthmemes #mentalhealthmeme
Had my first proper Wagamama last night before going to uni and it was fab 😍 slightly terrified about this next step, and sorry to anyone I’ve been distant from, but I will get there I promise 💪🏼 I’ll do a proper update when I’m properly settled in I’m sure... sending you all my love ❤️ #anorexia #ednos #anorexianervosa #atypicalanorexia #depression #anxiety #bpd #recovery #recover #health #strongnotskinny #operationnotgiveafuck #recoveryqueen #anorexiarecovery #balancednotclean #recoveryisworthit #anawho #ed #edrecovery #realrecovery #prorecovery
Had my first proper Wagamama last night before going to uni and it was fab 😍 slightly terrified about this next step, and sorry to anyone I’ve been distant from, but I will get there I promise 💪🏼 I’ll do a proper update when I’m properly settled in I’m sure... sending you all my love ❤️ #anorexia  #ednos  #anorexianervosa  #atypicalanorexia  #depression  #anxiety  #bpd  #recovery  #recover  #health  #strongnotskinny  #operationnotgiveafuck  #recoveryqueen  #anorexiarecovery  #balancednotclean  #recoveryisworthit  #anawho  #ed  #edrecovery  #realrecovery  #prorecovery 
Gooooood morning everybody! Today is going to be an exciting sunday because I’m going to walk to a local vegetarian cafe to meet up with some of my new coursemates! We’ve been talking online and I’m really enjoying talking to them. It’s been a real bonus to get to know them before my course starts because I would be too shy and overwhelmed to talk to anyone on the first day 😭 So yeah!! I’m pretty excited. I need to make more iced coffee too... And buy milk. So many things to think about!

#eatingdisorderrecovery #atypicalanorexia #adultswitheds #edwarrior #edfamily #edsoldier #anorexia #ednos #quotes #qotd #dailyquotes
Gooooood morning everybody! Today is going to be an exciting sunday because I’m going to walk to a local vegetarian cafe to meet up with some of my new coursemates! We’ve been talking online and I’m really enjoying talking to them. It’s been a real bonus to get to know them before my course starts because I would be too shy and overwhelmed to talk to anyone on the first day 😭 So yeah!! I’m pretty excited. I need to make more iced coffee too... And buy milk. So many things to think about! #eatingdisorderrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #adultswitheds  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edsoldier  #anorexia  #ednos  #quotes  #qotd  #dailyquotes 
I am keeping my weight steady, I am maintaining. Today I am at the exact weight that I was when my ED started. And I am keeping it there. I would call that an accomplishment☺  #awareness #realrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #recoveryroad #bulimia #anxiety#eatingdisorder #depressed #edrecovery #atypicalanorexia #strongnotskinny #mentalhealth #mentalhealthjourney #bpd #borderline #eupd #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor #prorecovery #beingborderline #socialmediainfluencer #influencer #creator #stopthestigma #faceofdepression
I am keeping my weight steady, I am maintaining. Today I am at the exact weight that I was when my ED started. And I am keeping it there. I would call that an accomplishment☺ #awareness  #realrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorders  #recoveryroad  #bulimia  #anxiety #eatingdisorder  #depressed  #edrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #strongnotskinny  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthjourney  #bpd  #borderline  #eupd  #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor  #prorecovery  #beingborderline  #socialmediainfluencer  #influencer  #creator  #stopthestigma  #faceofdepression 
Einen wundervollen Sonntagmorgen ihr Lieben💕
Hier seht ihr, das Resultat der gestrigen Umräumaktion und ich liebe es.😍🏠
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Heute werde ich einfach nur den Sonntag genießen und habe mir erlaubt heute mal nichts zu machen.🙈💖
Später geht es dann noch zu Freunden zum Kaffee trinken.🍰💞🍂
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Genießt den Sonntag und nehmt euch mindestens einen kleinen Moment für euch.😘
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Eure Anna👱🏻‍♀️
Einen wundervollen Sonntagmorgen ihr Lieben💕 Hier seht ihr, das Resultat der gestrigen Umräumaktion und ich liebe es.😍🏠 ————————————— Heute werde ich einfach nur den Sonntag genießen und habe mir erlaubt heute mal nichts zu machen.🙈💖 Später geht es dann noch zu Freunden zum Kaffee trinken.🍰💞🍂 ————————————— Genießt den Sonntag und nehmt euch mindestens einen kleinen Moment für euch.😘 ————————————— Eure Anna👱🏻‍♀️
First choir gig today since high school 🎼
First choir gig today since high school 🎼
Tomorrow marks 22 years ago that my mum went into labour at 24 weeks. If I ever needed an example that mistakes or unplanned circumstances can lead to perfect provision, regardless of the trials, this is it for me. On paper my birth date was not September 96, it was January 97. Unseen circumstances made way for a perfect plan. I am so thankful that things happened in the timing that they did, because my whole life with the people I know and the places I’ve been would have been completely different had I come 4 months later. I’ve learnt to trust in the unknown and have faith in the unforeseen. 22 years ago at 600 grams there was a high chance that I wouldn’t make it. Today I’m thankful and glad that I did. The world awaits before me and I can’t wait to take it on 🎉🌺
#birthdayweek #nearing22
Tomorrow marks 22 years ago that my mum went into labour at 24 weeks. If I ever needed an example that mistakes or unplanned circumstances can lead to perfect provision, regardless of the trials, this is it for me. On paper my birth date was not September 96, it was January 97. Unseen circumstances made way for a perfect plan. I am so thankful that things happened in the timing that they did, because my whole life with the people I know and the places I’ve been would have been completely different had I come 4 months later. I’ve learnt to trust in the unknown and have faith in the unforeseen. 22 years ago at 600 grams there was a high chance that I wouldn’t make it. Today I’m thankful and glad that I did. The world awaits before me and I can’t wait to take it on 🎉🌺 #birthdayweek  #nearing22 
Hey Sunday morning ☺️💕
Hey Sunday morning ☺️💕
Bin heute nach Mannheim gefahren und hab die liebe @atypisches.leben & @recovery_relapsing endlich wieder getroffen. :) tut echt gut mal von zuhause weg zu sein. Zufahrt war mega lang und anstrengend, aber hat sich schon jetzt gelohnt. 💕 .
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Gehen morgen wahrscheinlich nochmal live. :)
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Wie ist euer Wochenende? :)
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#borderline #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #fighter #edfighter #atypicalanorexia #ana #selfharm #selfhatered #svv #scars #mentalillness #recovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryishard #recoveryisworthit #instaselfie #dreadlocks #dreads #friendshipgoals
Bin heute nach Mannheim gefahren und hab die liebe @atypisches.leben & @recovery_relapsing endlich wieder getroffen. :) tut echt gut mal von zuhause weg zu sein. Zufahrt war mega lang und anstrengend, aber hat sich schon jetzt gelohnt. 💕 . . Gehen morgen wahrscheinlich nochmal live. :) . . Wie ist euer Wochenende? :) . . #borderline  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #depression  #fighter  #edfighter  #atypicalanorexia  #ana  #selfharm  #selfhatered  #svv  #scars  #mentalillness  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryishard  #recoveryisworthit  #instaselfie  #dreadlocks  #dreads  #friendshipgoals 
sooo this is a photograph of me when i was a little kid, probably 4 or 5.
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i get really emotional when it comes to my inner child, because the thought of putting her through the kind of pain i have put myself through/been put through by others is so heartbreaking. she deserves more than that!!! she’s a sweet, kind, intelligent, creative little kid whose biggest dream in life is to write books. we really aren’t all that different— for some reason, though, i have so much hatred for the grown up version of me.
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it’s easier to be kind to myself if i imagine the little version of me. would i be telling HER that she’s too fat to eat x y or z?? no way!!! imagine her face if i said that to her!!! i would let her eat whatever she wanted and would still be compassionate and loving towards her. so that’s how i must be with myself NOW.
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love u lil me!!! ur mad cute!!
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexia #positivity #optimism #encouragement #motivation #motivationalquotes #depression #depressionrecovery #selfcompassion #selfcare #selflove #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #prorecovery #diary #ana
sooo this is a photograph of me when i was a little kid, probably 4 or 5. ✨ i get really emotional when it comes to my inner child, because the thought of putting her through the kind of pain i have put myself through/been put through by others is so heartbreaking. she deserves more than that!!! she’s a sweet, kind, intelligent, creative little kid whose biggest dream in life is to write books. we really aren’t all that different— for some reason, though, i have so much hatred for the grown up version of me. ✨ it’s easier to be kind to myself if i imagine the little version of me. would i be telling HER that she’s too fat to eat x y or z?? no way!!! imagine her face if i said that to her!!! i would let her eat whatever she wanted and would still be compassionate and loving towards her. so that’s how i must be with myself NOW. ✨ love u lil me!!! ur mad cute!! ✨ #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #positivity  #optimism  #encouragement  #motivation  #motivationalquotes  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #selfcompassion  #selfcare  #selflove  #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #diary  #ana 
One week till 22! 🎉
One week till 22! 🎉
who else curls their hair, for it to fall out??✌️✌️✌️ the first day of autumn is tomorrow🎃💛 anyone have any spooky plans, this season??👻🔪
#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderaeawareness#mentalillness#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#anorexia#anorexic#anorexianervosa#atypicalanorexia#selflove#worthy#youtube#bpd#borderlinepersonalitydisorder#bodydysmorphia#youtuber#ed
Hallo meine lieben Wegbegleiter 👋🏼💖 Wie war euer Start ins Wochenende?
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Meine Mama und ich sind heute ein bisschen shoppen gefahren. Eigentlich wollten wir etwas besichtigen, aber der Weg dort hin war so kompliziert, das wir uns dann dagegen entschieden haben, weil wir es nicht gefunden haben.
Auf dem Bild seht ihr auch eins meiner neuen Teile. In meiner Story könnt ihr bis morgen die restlichen Sachen sehen.
Mama und ich waren dann noch Kaffee trinken. Es war wirklich ein schöner, entspannter Tag. Kein Stress, kein Streit.
Die Zeit mit meiner Mama habe ich total genossen.
Übrigens gefällt ihr die Bluse, die ich auf dem Bild anhabe total gut. Und im Laden gab es die leider nicht mehr in Ihrer Größe. Das gute war das die Bluse reduziert war. Als wir dann daheim waren, habe ich mich an den Laptop gesetzt und die Bluse für Mama direkt bestellt. Als kleine Überraschung, weil es mir so doll leid tat das sie die nicht mehr in ihrer Größe hatten. Und Mama hat sich voll gefreut, als ich ihr erzählt habe das ich sie bestellt habe. ⚠️Tw!!
Da wir heute unterwegs waren, habe ich sehr wenig gegessen. Keine Zeit gehabt und da es nicht meine Essenszeiten waren, hatte ich natürlich auch Angst vor dem Essen und den Lebensmitteln.
Naja, das ist jetzt nicht so schlimm. Solange ich die nächsten Tage wieder regelmäßig und gesund esse.. Das heißt jetzt nicht das ich gehungert habe und weiter wenig essen werden. TW Ende!! ⚠️
Hallo meine lieben Wegbegleiter 👋🏼💖 Wie war euer Start ins Wochenende? ________ Meine Mama und ich sind heute ein bisschen shoppen gefahren. Eigentlich wollten wir etwas besichtigen, aber der Weg dort hin war so kompliziert, das wir uns dann dagegen entschieden haben, weil wir es nicht gefunden haben. Auf dem Bild seht ihr auch eins meiner neuen Teile. In meiner Story könnt ihr bis morgen die restlichen Sachen sehen. Mama und ich waren dann noch Kaffee trinken. Es war wirklich ein schöner, entspannter Tag. Kein Stress, kein Streit. Die Zeit mit meiner Mama habe ich total genossen. Übrigens gefällt ihr die Bluse, die ich auf dem Bild anhabe total gut. Und im Laden gab es die leider nicht mehr in Ihrer Größe. Das gute war das die Bluse reduziert war. Als wir dann daheim waren, habe ich mich an den Laptop gesetzt und die Bluse für Mama direkt bestellt. Als kleine Überraschung, weil es mir so doll leid tat das sie die nicht mehr in ihrer Größe hatten. Und Mama hat sich voll gefreut, als ich ihr erzählt habe das ich sie bestellt habe. ⚠️Tw!! Da wir heute unterwegs waren, habe ich sehr wenig gegessen. Keine Zeit gehabt und da es nicht meine Essenszeiten waren, hatte ich natürlich auch Angst vor dem Essen und den Lebensmitteln. Naja, das ist jetzt nicht so schlimm. Solange ich die nächsten Tage wieder regelmäßig und gesund esse.. Das heißt jetzt nicht das ich gehungert habe und weiter wenig essen werden. TW Ende!! ⚠️
Mal ein Update von mir: mir geht es im Moment schwankend. Nachdem mir letzten Freitag ein Mitpatient zweimal ins Gesicht geschlagen hat und ich dadurch ins Krankenhaus musste, geht es mir schon besser. Ich hab nicht mehr soviel Kopfschmerzen. Nur dass ich seitdem kein Sport mehr machen dar, habe ich so einen starken Bewegungsdrang . TW: Ich kann seit drei Tagen nicht mehr richtig schlafen, abgesehen von davon, dass ich seit zwei Wochen eh Alpträume habe. Flashbacks, Erinnerungen an früher, Suchtdruck sind auch Thema TWE. 
Aber ich schlage mich schon durch. Und gut, wie die Pfleger sagen. Aber manchmal kann ich das Lob nicht annehmen. .
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Aber meine Mutter war gestern und heute da. Es war sehr schön. Ich konnte auch ganz gut essen. Wir waren in der Stadt und mal wieder rauszukommen war gut. 
Euch einen schönen Abend! #clinic #city #inpatient #trauma #atypicalanorexia #edsucks #ed #bpd #bpdpatient #borderline #inpatient
Mal ein Update von mir: mir geht es im Moment schwankend. Nachdem mir letzten Freitag ein Mitpatient zweimal ins Gesicht geschlagen hat und ich dadurch ins Krankenhaus musste, geht es mir schon besser. Ich hab nicht mehr soviel Kopfschmerzen. Nur dass ich seitdem kein Sport mehr machen dar, habe ich so einen starken Bewegungsdrang . TW: Ich kann seit drei Tagen nicht mehr richtig schlafen, abgesehen von davon, dass ich seit zwei Wochen eh Alpträume habe. Flashbacks, Erinnerungen an früher, Suchtdruck sind auch Thema TWE. Aber ich schlage mich schon durch. Und gut, wie die Pfleger sagen. Aber manchmal kann ich das Lob nicht annehmen. . . . Aber meine Mutter war gestern und heute da. Es war sehr schön. Ich konnte auch ganz gut essen. Wir waren in der Stadt und mal wieder rauszukommen war gut. Euch einen schönen Abend! #clinic  #city  #inpatient  #trauma  #atypicalanorexia  #edsucks  #ed  #bpd  #bpdpatient  #borderline  #inpatient 
6pm- Dinner! Pasta and pesto with a bit of parmesan. What a mouthful 😂 Today has been really really busy- I walked like 5 miles into town, tried to get my conch pierced, forgot my ID so couldn’t, came back and did a load of laundry, went up and down the 3 flights of stairs to my flat like a gazillion times, and now I’m knackered!! Tired, but happy. 
#eatingdisorderrecovery #atypicalanorexia #adultswitheds #anorexia #edwarrior #edsoldier
6pm- Dinner! Pasta and pesto with a bit of parmesan. What a mouthful 😂 Today has been really really busy- I walked like 5 miles into town, tried to get my conch pierced, forgot my ID so couldn’t, came back and did a load of laundry, went up and down the 3 flights of stairs to my flat like a gazillion times, and now I’m knackered!! Tired, but happy. #eatingdisorderrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #adultswitheds  #anorexia  #edwarrior  #edsoldier 
Treating myself today. Really nervous about eating this. Might only eat half. Sooooo many calories.

#ednos #edfam #eatingdisorder #anafam #anorexia #adultswitheds #notinrecovery #edrelapse #osfed #atypicalanorexia #foodlog
Einen wundervollen Samstagabend ihr Lieben💕
Heute bin ich mit der Hilfe meiner Mutter und meines Bruders auf unseren Dachboden gezogen und habe ihn eingerichtet und es mir gemütlich gemacht.😊🏠
Der Herbst ist nun seit gestern endgültig eingekehrt🙈💞🍂
Ich liebe es bei dem Wetter eine schöne Runde rauszugehen und war eben zusammen mit meiner Mama mit dem Hund Gassi.💖🐶
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Meine Mama wird mich nun auf Wunsch hin beim Essen unterstützen und ich bin mal gespannt, ob das funktioniert und ich mich darauf einlassen kann, da sie mir dadurch zwar eine Last abnimmt, ich aber gleichzeitig auch ein Teil meiner Kontrolle abgegeben habe.😕🤭
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Was habt ihr heute so gemacht und mögt ihr den Herbst?😇
Ich wünsche euch noch einen wundervollen Abend😘
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Eure Anna👱🏻‍♀️
Einen wundervollen Samstagabend ihr Lieben💕 Heute bin ich mit der Hilfe meiner Mutter und meines Bruders auf unseren Dachboden gezogen und habe ihn eingerichtet und es mir gemütlich gemacht.😊🏠 Der Herbst ist nun seit gestern endgültig eingekehrt🙈💞🍂 Ich liebe es bei dem Wetter eine schöne Runde rauszugehen und war eben zusammen mit meiner Mama mit dem Hund Gassi.💖🐶 ————————————— Meine Mama wird mich nun auf Wunsch hin beim Essen unterstützen und ich bin mal gespannt, ob das funktioniert und ich mich darauf einlassen kann, da sie mir dadurch zwar eine Last abnimmt, ich aber gleichzeitig auch ein Teil meiner Kontrolle abgegeben habe.😕🤭 ————————————— Was habt ihr heute so gemacht und mögt ihr den Herbst?😇 Ich wünsche euch noch einen wundervollen Abend😘 ————————————— Eure Anna👱🏻‍♀️
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I came across one of my only body check pictures from when I first got sick, and I though about whether or not I should post this on here. I've decided to post this comparison, standing in the same mirror, posing the same way - 7 years apart. This is for me, but also for you to maybe understand how fucked your body image gets. It might be "raw", it's the body I've tortured and hated for years but the body that's still keeping me alive. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
On the left side I am 13 years old, it was at the beginning of my eating disorder and I had lost a few kilos. I had just hit puberty, that's when you're supposed to gain weight, not starve yourself and lose your period. I never really developed hips and I will never know for sure if that's because of my ED or just the way my body is built.
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On the right I am 20 years old. My weight has been up and down, higher and lower through out the years. Now I'm back - pretty much looking like the 13 year old me. I, a grown ass woman is looking like I did when I was 13 years old - and I still feel like I am way too big, that I need to lose at least 10 more kilos. That just proves how fucked your brain gets.
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It's just a never ending battle with your mind, your biological instincts and your own body and I'm just trying to understand it, trying to keep it under control - to see the reality and not listen to the disordered thinking. I might not be severly underweight but years with this sure fucks up the entire way you see yourself. I don't know how I *really* look.
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I don't want to keep all focus on my body and weight, but body dysmorphia is a huge part of my life and I wanted to adress it and show it. Also important to keep in mind, this is just 1 picture, my arm is up so that will automatically make me look a bit smaller, lightning also plays a role. Haha the more I look at the picture, the more I feel like I'm actually 2x bigger in real life. #bodydysmorphia #eatingdisorder #atypicalanorexia
❗Possible trigger warning on the text and the next picture. Do no swipe if seeing bones/weightloss triggers you.❗RE - uploading cuz I got too anxious the first time lol. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I came across one of my only body check pictures from when I first got sick, and I though about whether or not I should post this on here. I've decided to post this comparison, standing in the same mirror, posing the same way - 7 years apart. This is for me, but also for you to maybe understand how fucked your body image gets. It might be "raw", it's the body I've tortured and hated for years but the body that's still keeping me alive. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ On the left side I am 13 years old, it was at the beginning of my eating disorder and I had lost a few kilos. I had just hit puberty, that's when you're supposed to gain weight, not starve yourself and lose your period. I never really developed hips and I will never know for sure if that's because of my ED or just the way my body is built. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ On the right I am 20 years old. My weight has been up and down, higher and lower through out the years. Now I'm back - pretty much looking like the 13 year old me. I, a grown ass woman is looking like I did when I was 13 years old - and I still feel like I am way too big, that I need to lose at least 10 more kilos. That just proves how fucked your brain gets. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It's just a never ending battle with your mind, your biological instincts and your own body and I'm just trying to understand it, trying to keep it under control - to see the reality and not listen to the disordered thinking. I might not be severly underweight but years with this sure fucks up the entire way you see yourself. I don't know how I *really* look. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I don't want to keep all focus on my body and weight, but body dysmorphia is a huge part of my life and I wanted to adress it and show it. Also important to keep in mind, this is just 1 picture, my arm is up so that will automatically make me look a bit smaller, lightning also plays a role. Haha the more I look at the picture, the more I feel like I'm actually 2x bigger in real life. #bodydysmorphia  #eatingdisorder  #atypicalanorexia 
Writing on a bench before school. Thinking about how safe inpatient felt and how back home, I went back to lying about how I am. I am not good. I am just okay. Scared of relapse. Scared of being okay, even. #awareness #realrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #recoveryroad #bulimia #anxiety#eatingdisorder #depressed #edrecovery #atypicalanorexia #strongnotskinny #mentalhealth #mentalhealthjourney #bpd #borderline #eupd #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor #prorecovery #shame #shameless #socialmediainfluencer #influencer #creator #stopthestigma #faceofdepression
Writing on a bench before school. Thinking about how safe inpatient felt and how back home, I went back to lying about how I am. I am not good. I am just okay. Scared of relapse. Scared of being okay, even. #awareness  #realrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorders  #recoveryroad  #bulimia  #anxiety #eatingdisorder  #depressed  #edrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #strongnotskinny  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthjourney  #bpd  #borderline  #eupd  #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor  #prorecovery  #shame  #shameless  #socialmediainfluencer  #influencer  #creator  #stopthestigma  #faceofdepression 
Had such a great time playing cornet in the Carnival parade today.The floats looked amazing! 🌺
Had such a great time playing cornet in the Carnival parade today.The floats looked amazing! 🌺
[weetabix with cinnamon and brown sugar || topped with shredded coconut, chia seeds & smooth biscoff spread🍯]
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good morning!🌞
feeling quite overwhelmed today, but im going to write it off as guilt from last night - even though i know i shouldn't be guilty.
all of this was completely unmeasured, which was so scary but i smashed it! 💪🏻 i had a snack after breakfast, which i usually never do but i was really craving a peanut bar, so i had one. im feeling really guilty and restriction thoughts are loud but not going to listen to them, especially considering how well i did yesterday. 💛
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q: what's your favourite nut butter?
#fearfood #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryaccount #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #ana #anorexianervosa #eatittobeatit #foodporn #foodie #recoveryjourney #ednos #mentalhealth #beatinganorexia #beatinged #anorexianervosarecovery #atypicalanorexia #recoverychallenge
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[weetabix with cinnamon and brown sugar || topped with shredded coconut, chia seeds & smooth biscoff spread🍯] - good morning!🌞 feeling quite overwhelmed today, but im going to write it off as guilt from last night - even though i know i shouldn't be guilty. all of this was completely unmeasured, which was so scary but i smashed it! 💪🏻 i had a snack after breakfast, which i usually never do but i was really craving a peanut bar, so i had one. im feeling really guilty and restriction thoughts are loud but not going to listen to them, especially considering how well i did yesterday. 💛 - q: what's your favourite nut butter? #fearfood  #recovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recoveryaccount  #recoveryisworthit  #edwarrior  #ana  #anorexianervosa  #eatittobeatit  #foodporn  #foodie  #recoveryjourney  #ednos  #mentalhealth  #beatinganorexia  #beatinged  #anorexianervosarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #recoverychallenge  - filter used: @polarrpresets
My best friend and I- carnival parade ready 🌺
My best friend and I- carnival parade ready 🌺
Carnival cornet 🌺🌺🌺
Carnival cornet 🌺🌺🌺
hey hunnies💛💛 i’M WORKING FOR MY FAVE HORROR ATTRACTION THIS FALL I AM SO FUCKING STOKED❤️❤️❤️ i’m at work right now. uuhhhh. nothin else to update you on. i have a new vlog in my bio, too. i was in 30+ moods. anyway. luv you guys💖💖💖 whatcha doin this weekend??? doing nothing counts. doing nothing is where it’s at, honestly
#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderaeawareness#mentalillness#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#anorexia#anorexic#anorexianervosa#atypicalanorexia#selflove#worthy#youtube#bpd#borderlinepersonalitydisorder#bodydysmorphia#youtuber#ed
hey hunnies💛💛 i’M WORKING FOR MY FAVE HORROR ATTRACTION THIS FALL I AM SO FUCKING STOKED❤️❤️❤️ i’m at work right now. uuhhhh. nothin else to update you on. i have a new vlog in my bio, too. i was in 30+ moods. anyway. luv you guys💖💖💖 whatcha doin this weekend??? doing nothing counts. doing nothing is where it’s at, honestly #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderaeawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianervosa #atypicalanorexia #selflove #worthy #youtube #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bodydysmorphia #youtuber #ed 
Lauren Muhlheim and I collaborated on this blog to create a list of people with various identities who posts photos of themselves...because #representationmatters so much when recovering from an eating disorder. Tap post for some accounts that are listed in the blog. Repost from @eatingdisordertherapyla using @RepostRegramApp - "If we don’t see bodies like our own represented, we may come to believe “my body doesn’t matter”. Often, this can turn into “I don’t matter”. This means that for people whose bodies are marginalized in any way, it is essential to see images of people that look like them.
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We have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on the journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. What follows are some Instagram accounts that show body-positive images that celebrate diverse bodies in ways that mainstream media does not."
- Written by Sarah Thompson ( @resilientfatgoddess ) and Lauren Muhlheim, PsyD
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They have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on your journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. Their hope is that you find someone in this list that has a similar body to yours as this tends to not happen for people who do not fit the ideal beauty type.
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Just some of the amazing people on the list: @fatwomenofcolor , @adydelvalle_ , @nalgonapositivitypride , @300poundsandrunning , @bigboysarecute , @madeonagenerousplan , @shesallfatpod , @fatlippodcast , @shooglet , @thirdwheeled , @gidget3304 , @lamplight.space , @rollettes_la , @spookyfatbabe , @dietitiananna , @decolonizingfitness , @fatkiddanceparty , @melissadtoler and @bopolena .
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If you'd like to see what changing your Instagram feed can do for you, just click the link our bio!
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryispossible #fbt #familybasedtreatment #treatmentworks #edawareness #edwarrior #edsurvivor #nofoodsofflimit #antidiet #nondiet #haes #healthateverysize #EDTLA #eatingdisordertherapyLA #prorecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bodypositive #fatpositive #atypicalanorexia #atypicalanorexianervosa #atypicalanorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bodyimage #agepo #nonbinarypositivity #fatandfree
Lauren Muhlheim and I collaborated on this blog to create a list of people with various identities who posts photos of themselves...because #representationmatters  so much when recovering from an eating disorder. Tap post for some accounts that are listed in the blog. Repost from @eatingdisordertherapyla using @RepostRegramApp - "If we don’t see bodies like our own represented, we may come to believe “my body doesn’t matter”. Often, this can turn into “I don’t matter”. This means that for people whose bodies are marginalized in any way, it is essential to see images of people that look like them. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ We have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on the journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. What follows are some Instagram accounts that show body-positive images that celebrate diverse bodies in ways that mainstream media does not." - Written by Sarah Thompson ( @resilientfatgoddess ) and Lauren Muhlheim, PsyD . They have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on your journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. Their hope is that you find someone in this list that has a similar body to yours as this tends to not happen for people who do not fit the ideal beauty type. . Just some of the amazing people on the list: @fatwomenofcolor , @adydelvalle_ , @nalgonapositivitypride , @300poundsandrunning , @bigboysarecute , @madeonagenerousplan , @shesallfatpod , @fatlippodcast , @shooglet , @thirdwheeled , @gidget3304 , @lamplight.space , @rollettes_la , @spookyfatbabe , @dietitiananna , @decolonizingfitness , @fatkiddanceparty , @melissadtoler and @bopolena . . If you'd like to see what changing your Instagram feed can do for you, just click the link our bio! . . . . #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fbt  #familybasedtreatment  #treatmentworks  #edawareness  #edwarrior  #edsurvivor  #nofoodsofflimit  #antidiet  #nondiet  #haes  #healthateverysize  #EDTLA  #eatingdisordertherapyLA  #prorecovery  #bingeeatingdisorder  #bodypositive  #fatpositive  #atypicalanorexia  #atypicalanorexianervosa  #atypicalanorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #bodyimage  #agepo  #nonbinarypositivity  #fatandfree 
Hey ihr Lieben.💕 heute hatte ich zum Glück nicht so lange Praktikum. War danach noch mein Tattoo nachstechen lassen. .
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Psychisch geht's mir heute den ganzen Tag gar nicht gut. Dauerhaft Angstzustände, völliger Realitätsverlust. SV-Gedanken so präsent, kaum auszuhalten. Hatte jetzt abends zum Glück noch Besuch, das hat etwas abgelenkt. Und jetzt noch Film schauen und schlafen gehen. Körpergefühl ist heute auch sehr schlimm, kann mich nicht anschauen, fühle mich ekelhaft..Aber der Tag ist ja zum Glück fast vorbei. .
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Freue mich schon morgen auf Mannheim. :) tut bestimmt gut mal wieder weg zu fahren. .
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Wünsche euch eine gute Nacht. 💕 🌘 .
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#borderline #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #fighter #edfighter #atypicalanorexia #ana #selfharm #selfhatered #svv #scars #mentalillness #recovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryishard #recoveryisworthit #instaselfie #dreadlocks #dreads
Hey ihr Lieben.💕 heute hatte ich zum Glück nicht so lange Praktikum. War danach noch mein Tattoo nachstechen lassen. . . Psychisch geht's mir heute den ganzen Tag gar nicht gut. Dauerhaft Angstzustände, völliger Realitätsverlust. SV-Gedanken so präsent, kaum auszuhalten. Hatte jetzt abends zum Glück noch Besuch, das hat etwas abgelenkt. Und jetzt noch Film schauen und schlafen gehen. Körpergefühl ist heute auch sehr schlimm, kann mich nicht anschauen, fühle mich ekelhaft..Aber der Tag ist ja zum Glück fast vorbei. . . Freue mich schon morgen auf Mannheim. :) tut bestimmt gut mal wieder weg zu fahren. . . Wünsche euch eine gute Nacht. 💕 🌘 . . #borderline  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #depression  #fighter  #edfighter  #atypicalanorexia  #ana  #selfharm  #selfhatered  #svv  #scars  #mentalillness  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryishard  #recoveryisworthit  #instaselfie  #dreadlocks  #dreads 
part of why this instagram account is so helpful for me is because it forces me to think and write positively, even if i’m not feeling that way. the more i force myself into that positive mindset about recovery and my body (even if it feels fake sometimes) the more natural it will become.
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexia #positivity #optimism #encouragement #motivation #motivationalquotes #depression #depressionrecovery #selfcompassion #selfcare #selflove #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #prorecovery #diary #ana
part of why this instagram account is so helpful for me is because it forces me to think and write positively, even if i’m not feeling that way. the more i force myself into that positive mindset about recovery and my body (even if it feels fake sometimes) the more natural it will become. ✨ #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #positivity  #optimism  #encouragement  #motivation  #motivationalquotes  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #selfcompassion  #selfcare  #selflove  #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #diary  #ana 
Over the past few months, weeks and days I’ve made so much progress mentally in so many areas of my life. I realised that the conditions needed for me to move forward in my life began with me. I realised that I had a duty to take care of myself, and in doing that I could start to outwork the life that I wanted to live. I’m 6 weeks clean from self harm because I made an intentional choice that I would experience each moment as a new moment rather than filtering the experience of the present through the lens of my past. The past shaped who I am today, but my behaviours, thoughts and motivations shape the person I will be tomorrow. I want to live a life that continues to overcome the challenges with hope, victory, motivation, passion, drive, purpose and expectancy. Letting myself experience each new day with the intention of creating new habits, learning new things and continually shaping the way I think with the way that I want to be, I become a new person in the present. Yesterday doesn’t control or define me, the future doesn’t scare me. Each day holds an expectancy and an intention to shape the day carefully so that I can grow through it and experience tomorrow in a better position than I was in yesterday. Intention breeds creativity, creativity breeds hope and innovation meaning tomorrow holds a better day. I’ve made progress because I’ve sought after it and made it happen. Change begins with me, and I’m making it happen 💕
Over the past few months, weeks and days I’ve made so much progress mentally in so many areas of my life. I realised that the conditions needed for me to move forward in my life began with me. I realised that I had a duty to take care of myself, and in doing that I could start to outwork the life that I wanted to live. I’m 6 weeks clean from self harm because I made an intentional choice that I would experience each moment as a new moment rather than filtering the experience of the present through the lens of my past. The past shaped who I am today, but my behaviours, thoughts and motivations shape the person I will be tomorrow. I want to live a life that continues to overcome the challenges with hope, victory, motivation, passion, drive, purpose and expectancy. Letting myself experience each new day with the intention of creating new habits, learning new things and continually shaping the way I think with the way that I want to be, I become a new person in the present. Yesterday doesn’t control or define me, the future doesn’t scare me. Each day holds an expectancy and an intention to shape the day carefully so that I can grow through it and experience tomorrow in a better position than I was in yesterday. Intention breeds creativity, creativity breeds hope and innovation meaning tomorrow holds a better day. I’ve made progress because I’ve sought after it and made it happen. Change begins with me, and I’m making it happen 💕
"If we don’t see bodies like our own represented, we may come to believe “my body doesn’t matter”. Often, this can turn into “I don’t matter”. This means that for people whose bodies are marginalized in any way, it is essential to see images of people that look like them.
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We have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on the journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. What follows are some Instagram accounts that show body-positive images that celebrate diverse bodies in ways that mainstream media does not."
- Written by Sarah Thompson ( @resilientfatgoddess ) and Lauren Muhlheim, PsyD
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They have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on your journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. Their hope is that you find someone in this list that has a similar body to yours as this tends to not happen for people who do not fit the ideal beauty type.
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Just some of the amazing people on the list: @fatwomenofcolor , @adydelvalle_ , @nalgonapositivitypride , @300poundsandrunning , @bigboysarecute , @madeonagenerousplan , @shesallfat , @fatlippodcast , @shooglet , @thirdwheeled , @gidget3304 , @lamplight.space , @rollettes_la , @spookyfatbabe , @dietitiananna , @decolonizingfitness , @fatkiddanceparty , @melissadtoler and @bopolena .
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If you'd like to see what changing your Instagram feed can do for you, just click the link our bio!
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryispossible #fbt #familybasedtreatment #treatmentworks #edawareness #edwarrior #edsurvivor #nofoodsofflimit #antidiet #nondiet #haes #healthateverysize #EDTLA #eatingdisordertherapyLA #prorecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bodypositive #fatpositive #atypicalanorexia #atypicalanorexianervosa #atypicalanorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bodyimage #agepo #nonbinarypositivity #fatandfree
"If we don’t see bodies like our own represented, we may come to believe “my body doesn’t matter”. Often, this can turn into “I don’t matter”. This means that for people whose bodies are marginalized in any way, it is essential to see images of people that look like them. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ We have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on the journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. What follows are some Instagram accounts that show body-positive images that celebrate diverse bodies in ways that mainstream media does not." - Written by Sarah Thompson ( @resilientfatgoddess ) and Lauren Muhlheim, PsyD . They have developed a roundup of Instagram accounts to help you on your journey. While it is not comprehensive, it is a starting point. Their hope is that you find someone in this list that has a similar body to yours as this tends to not happen for people who do not fit the ideal beauty type. . Just some of the amazing people on the list: @fatwomenofcolor , @adydelvalle_ , @nalgonapositivitypride , @300poundsandrunning , @bigboysarecute , @madeonagenerousplan , @shesallfat , @fatlippodcast , @shooglet , @thirdwheeled , @gidget3304 , @lamplight.space , @rollettes_la , @spookyfatbabe , @dietitiananna , @decolonizingfitness , @fatkiddanceparty , @melissadtoler and @bopolena . . If you'd like to see what changing your Instagram feed can do for you, just click the link our bio! . . . . #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fbt  #familybasedtreatment  #treatmentworks  #edawareness  #edwarrior  #edsurvivor  #nofoodsofflimit  #antidiet  #nondiet  #haes  #healthateverysize  #EDTLA  #eatingdisordertherapyLA  #prorecovery  #bingeeatingdisorder  #bodypositive  #fatpositive  #atypicalanorexia  #atypicalanorexianervosa  #atypicalanorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #bodyimage  #agepo  #nonbinarypositivity  #fatandfree 
This is the bench where we first talked about our feelings. Where I first accepted my bisexuality and that I liked this girl. Its an emotional bench for me and she is an emotional memory- I will never forget her and even though we never got together and we fought, I will always be grateful to the girl that helped me come out. #awareness #realrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #recoveryroad #bulimia #anxiety#eatingdisorder #depressed #edrecovery #atypicalanorexia #strongnotskinny #mentalhealth  #bpd #borderline #eupd #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor #prorecovery #shame #shameless #socialmediainfluencer #influencer  #faceofdepression #gaycontent #instagay #gaystagram #gay #lesbian #bisexual #comingout
This is the bench where we first talked about our feelings. Where I first accepted my bisexuality and that I liked this girl. Its an emotional bench for me and she is an emotional memory- I will never forget her and even though we never got together and we fought, I will always be grateful to the girl that helped me come out. #awareness  #realrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorders  #recoveryroad  #bulimia  #anxiety #eatingdisorder  #depressed  #edrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #strongnotskinny  #mentalhealth  #bpd  #borderline  #eupd  #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor  #prorecovery  #shame  #shameless  #socialmediainfluencer  #influencer  #faceofdepression  #gaycontent  #instagay  #gaystagram  #gay  #lesbian  #bisexual  #comingout 
Hey guys ✨ 
I’m sorry I haven’t been posting all that much. With how busy I am exploring the city I haven’t found the time to write proper captions for my posts. The perfectionist in me thinks that its better to not post at all than post something rushed 😂🙄 The last few days have been good. I’ve been slowly expanding my comfort zone and I’ve been getting to know my way around the city centre. It’s actually been really good for my self confidence! I have been relying on google maps to find my way to places and it’s been really fun. It’s almost like a video game at this point 😂 But yeah. Things are going good. I’m a lot more active now because I’m walking a lot and thats been really good for my mental health!
#eatingdisorderrecovery #atypicalanorexia #adultswitheds #anorexia #ednos #edwarrior #edfamily #edsoldier
Hey guys ✨ I’m sorry I haven’t been posting all that much. With how busy I am exploring the city I haven’t found the time to write proper captions for my posts. The perfectionist in me thinks that its better to not post at all than post something rushed 😂🙄 The last few days have been good. I’ve been slowly expanding my comfort zone and I’ve been getting to know my way around the city centre. It’s actually been really good for my self confidence! I have been relying on google maps to find my way to places and it’s been really fun. It’s almost like a video game at this point 😂 But yeah. Things are going good. I’m a lot more active now because I’m walking a lot and thats been really good for my mental health! #eatingdisorderrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #adultswitheds  #anorexia  #ednos  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edsoldier 
Einen wundervollen Tag ihr Lieben💕
Ich werde mit dieser Seite noch einmal ganz von vorne anfangen.🙈
Ich möchte es endlich schaffen!💖
Ich möchte meine Essstörung hinter mir lassen.
Ich möchte meine Vergangenheit aufarbeiten und Beziehungen klären.
Ich möchte rausfinden wer ich bin und lernen mich zu akzeptieren und zu lieben.
Ich möchte Selbstbewusst werden und Selbstvertrauen bekommen.
Ich möchte endlich glücklich werden und leben.
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Seit mittlerweile über zweiundeinhalb Jahren lebe ich in einem Teufelskreis aus Hungern und Fressattacken.
Ich lebe mit der ständigen Angst nicht gut genug zu sein, mit der Angst was andere von mir denken und es nicht allen recht machen zu können.
Und noch vieles mehr...
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Heute hatte ich dann die Erkenntnis, dass die Fressattacken immer dann kommen, wenn ich nicht weiß was ich fühlen soll, wenn ich Stress oder einen Streit habe/hatte und/oder negative Gefühle/Gedanken habe...
Ich weiß nun, dass ich meine Essstörung erst hinter mir lassen kann, wenn ich meine Vergangenheit kläre, lerne mit schwierigen Situationen umzugehen, mich kennenlerne und es schaffe mich selbst zu akzeptieren und zu lieben.
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Ich will es endlich schaffen❣️
Mit Hilfe meiner Therapie, die ich im Mai begonnen habe, mit Hilfe der Ernährungsberatung und mit Hilfe meiner Familie und Freunde (@anna.len.a_ , @lou.isi100 und @neydn_ )😘
Auch wenn ich weiß, dass ich es nur schaffe wenn ich es selbst will und es schaffe nicht wieder aufzugeben.😥
Ich weiß, dass es noch ein langer, anstrengender Weg wird,😔 aber ich will es schaffen; ich will leben!
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Auf dem Bild seht ihr meinen Ernährungsplan, den ich mir anhand der Vorgaben von der Ernährungsberatung erstellt habe und angepasst habe...ich weiß, dass es noch zu wenig ist, aber ich finde es einen Anfang und hoffe , dass ich es schaffe mich daran zu halten.😝
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Ich werde nun täglich ein Ziel in die Story posten.😇
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Genießt das Wochenende.🍂💞
Ich habe euch lieb.❤️
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Eure Anna👱🏻‍♀️
Einen wundervollen Tag ihr Lieben💕 Ich werde mit dieser Seite noch einmal ganz von vorne anfangen.🙈 Ich möchte es endlich schaffen!💖 Ich möchte meine Essstörung hinter mir lassen. Ich möchte meine Vergangenheit aufarbeiten und Beziehungen klären. Ich möchte rausfinden wer ich bin und lernen mich zu akzeptieren und zu lieben. Ich möchte Selbstbewusst werden und Selbstvertrauen bekommen. Ich möchte endlich glücklich werden und leben. ———————————— Seit mittlerweile über zweiundeinhalb Jahren lebe ich in einem Teufelskreis aus Hungern und Fressattacken. Ich lebe mit der ständigen Angst nicht gut genug zu sein, mit der Angst was andere von mir denken und es nicht allen recht machen zu können. Und noch vieles mehr... ———————————— Heute hatte ich dann die Erkenntnis, dass die Fressattacken immer dann kommen, wenn ich nicht weiß was ich fühlen soll, wenn ich Stress oder einen Streit habe/hatte und/oder negative Gefühle/Gedanken habe... Ich weiß nun, dass ich meine Essstörung erst hinter mir lassen kann, wenn ich meine Vergangenheit kläre, lerne mit schwierigen Situationen umzugehen, mich kennenlerne und es schaffe mich selbst zu akzeptieren und zu lieben. ———————————— Ich will es endlich schaffen❣️ Mit Hilfe meiner Therapie, die ich im Mai begonnen habe, mit Hilfe der Ernährungsberatung und mit Hilfe meiner Familie und Freunde (@anna.len.a_ , @lou.isi100 und @neydn_ )😘 Auch wenn ich weiß, dass ich es nur schaffe wenn ich es selbst will und es schaffe nicht wieder aufzugeben.😥 Ich weiß, dass es noch ein langer, anstrengender Weg wird,😔 aber ich will es schaffen; ich will leben! ———————————— Auf dem Bild seht ihr meinen Ernährungsplan, den ich mir anhand der Vorgaben von der Ernährungsberatung erstellt habe und angepasst habe...ich weiß, dass es noch zu wenig ist, aber ich finde es einen Anfang und hoffe , dass ich es schaffe mich daran zu halten.😝 ———————————— Ich werde nun täglich ein Ziel in die Story posten.😇 ———————————— Genießt das Wochenende.🍂💞 Ich habe euch lieb.❤️ ———————————— Eure Anna👱🏻‍♀️
I thought I should introduce myself! I'm Sieanna I'm 16 from California and currently struggling/relapsing from An eating disorder called OSFED (AAN)for 2 years now. I was just recently in treatment for 6 months and got discharged 2 months ago but still struggling just as much as I first started. I've lost alot of weight from my ED in less than a year. As a young child I've always been bigger and taller than most kids my age so I would try dieting and would end up binge eating which would cause me to gain the weight that I lost back or even more and me being my heaviest in middle school which led me to end up being depressed and my depression didnt get as bad as last year to the point were i stopped eating because i felt numb and tired all the time and sad and angry which caused me to loose some weight. I started seeing a therapist for a few months and she reccomend that I should try exercising to help with my depression and mind u I wasnt eating for days at a time. So once i started I couldn't stop I got addicted and just ended up losing more and more weight rapidly. Eventually my parents and family found out and I was sent into treatment. This is my little back story on my ED just a short version tho. The top two photos are old and the other ones are new But this account is gonna be a meme account to help me cope and so others know they are not alone/relate as well. I'm currently in therapy so please do not report my account I am getting help! I had two meme account prior from this one (edmemesthathelpmelive)but it ended up getting deleted because I got reported to many time
#edmemes #eatingdisorder #eatingdisordermemes #edmeme #mentalhealthmemes #OSFED #anorexia #bulimia #atypicalanorexia #EDNOS #atypicalbulimia #depressionmemes #depression #depressedmemes
I thought I should introduce myself! I'm Sieanna I'm 16 from California and currently struggling/relapsing from An eating disorder called OSFED (AAN)for 2 years now. I was just recently in treatment for 6 months and got discharged 2 months ago but still struggling just as much as I first started. I've lost alot of weight from my ED in less than a year. As a young child I've always been bigger and taller than most kids my age so I would try dieting and would end up binge eating which would cause me to gain the weight that I lost back or even more and me being my heaviest in middle school which led me to end up being depressed and my depression didnt get as bad as last year to the point were i stopped eating because i felt numb and tired all the time and sad and angry which caused me to loose some weight. I started seeing a therapist for a few months and she reccomend that I should try exercising to help with my depression and mind u I wasnt eating for days at a time. So once i started I couldn't stop I got addicted and just ended up losing more and more weight rapidly. Eventually my parents and family found out and I was sent into treatment. This is my little back story on my ED just a short version tho. The top two photos are old and the other ones are new But this account is gonna be a meme account to help me cope and so others know they are not alone/relate as well. I'm currently in therapy so please do not report my account I am getting help! I had two meme account prior from this one (edmemesthathelpmelive)but it ended up getting deleted because I got reported to many time #edmemes  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisordermemes  #edmeme  #mentalhealthmemes  #OSFED  #anorexia  #bulimia  #atypicalanorexia  #EDNOS  #atypicalbulimia  #depressionmemes  #depression  #depressedmemes 
Living my best life- 2 movie nights in 3 days 😍
Living my best life- 2 movie nights in 3 days 😍
[chocolate mug cake || topped with smooth biscoff spread 🍫]
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good morning! 🌞
yaaay!! it's my birthday! ✨
who says you can't have cake for breakfast? (probably no one)
this was a recipe from @chocolatecoveredkatie 's blog, it tasted far better than it looks!
my birthday is going great so far!🌻
have a great day🌱
q: do you like cake?
#fearfood #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryaccount #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #ana #anorexianervosa #eatittobeatit #foodporn #foodie #recoveryjourney #ednos #mentalhealth #beatinganorexia #beatinged #anorexianervosarecovery #atypicalanorexia #recoverychallenge
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[chocolate mug cake || topped with smooth biscoff spread 🍫] - good morning! 🌞 yaaay!! it's my birthday! ✨ who says you can't have cake for breakfast? (probably no one) this was a recipe from @chocolatecoveredkatie 's blog, it tasted far better than it looks! my birthday is going great so far!🌻 have a great day🌱 q: do you like cake? #fearfood  #recovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recoveryaccount  #recoveryisworthit  #edwarrior  #ana  #anorexianervosa  #eatittobeatit  #foodporn  #foodie  #recoveryjourney  #ednos  #mentalhealth  #beatinganorexia  #beatinged  #anorexianervosarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #recoverychallenge  - filter used: @polarrpresets
Cute afternoon tea date 💕
Cute afternoon tea date 💕
Lunch date with this little cutie 😍
Lunch date with this little cutie 😍
hi i’m so sorry i’ve been so inactive, school is really kicking my ass right now 😣
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REAL QUICK RANT...like it honestly makes me so mad that a lot of school systems these days often times don’t give a crap about their students wellbeing. it’s super frustrating, because i feel like i can’t take a mental health day BECAUSE THE TEACHERS ARE NOT SUPPORTIVE IN YOUR MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES. even if it’s not mental health, for example JUST STRESS, it’s still not a fun place to be at and adding more homework or tests or whatever DON’T HELP. i understand that teachers have their curriculum and oftentimes can’t control the school system, BUT they can still put forth an extra effort to make sure their students are being safe. if they see a student with obvious self injury, giant bags under their eyes, super underweight, or they just look unhealthy, it would be really really appreciated to NOT BE NOSY but to just check in!! ok, i’m done but 85% of my mental illnesses stem from school, and it makes me so frustrated that i know i’m not the only teen who deals with that. •
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ok that was my rant, i’m trying to be more active but it’s hard trying to juggle school and sports!! i hope you all are living your best lives because y’all deserve the best. 💚💙💚💙
hi i’m so sorry i’ve been so inactive, school is really kicking my ass right now 😣 • • • REAL QUICK RANT...like it honestly makes me so mad that a lot of school systems these days often times don’t give a crap about their students wellbeing. it’s super frustrating, because i feel like i can’t take a mental health day BECAUSE THE TEACHERS ARE NOT SUPPORTIVE IN YOUR MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES. even if it’s not mental health, for example JUST STRESS, it’s still not a fun place to be at and adding more homework or tests or whatever DON’T HELP. i understand that teachers have their curriculum and oftentimes can’t control the school system, BUT they can still put forth an extra effort to make sure their students are being safe. if they see a student with obvious self injury, giant bags under their eyes, super underweight, or they just look unhealthy, it would be really really appreciated to NOT BE NOSY but to just check in!! ok, i’m done but 85% of my mental illnesses stem from school, and it makes me so frustrated that i know i’m not the only teen who deals with that. • • • ok that was my rant, i’m trying to be more active but it’s hard trying to juggle school and sports!! i hope you all are living your best lives because y’all deserve the best. 💚💙💚💙
4.5 months I started experiencing a whole range of physical health issues caused by my eating disorder. I had a bowel prolapse which is normally experienced if at all, by people in their 50s, not at 21 years of age. That was the worst and most agonising physical pain I have ever experienced. Following that I was told my intestines are no longer working as they’re meant to, and I’ve been in enduring physical pain very very frequently. I’ve presented to a Emergency many times in almost debilitating pain and have been sent away with no answers quite dismissively. This morning I had an ultrasound sound of my abdomen with more scans to follow to see if it’s my gallbladder not functioning properly & spasming all the time to see if that could be the cause of my pain. It’s been a defeating season at times but also one where I’ve grown immensely mentally in my recovery and the drive to move forward. Hopefully this latest round of tests lead to some answers. I guess one thing I’ve come to see this past week has been not to give up when something’s not right, regardless of how many times you may be turned away. Looking forward.. 🌺
4.5 months I started experiencing a whole range of physical health issues caused by my eating disorder. I had a bowel prolapse which is normally experienced if at all, by people in their 50s, not at 21 years of age. That was the worst and most agonising physical pain I have ever experienced. Following that I was told my intestines are no longer working as they’re meant to, and I’ve been in enduring physical pain very very frequently. I’ve presented to a Emergency many times in almost debilitating pain and have been sent away with no answers quite dismissively. This morning I had an ultrasound sound of my abdomen with more scans to follow to see if it’s my gallbladder not functioning properly & spasming all the time to see if that could be the cause of my pain. It’s been a defeating season at times but also one where I’ve grown immensely mentally in my recovery and the drive to move forward. Hopefully this latest round of tests lead to some answers. I guess one thing I’ve come to see this past week has been not to give up when something’s not right, regardless of how many times you may be turned away. Looking forward.. 🌺
Why does dinner have to be so damn stressful? #eatingdisorder #atypicalanorexia #feellikescreaming
f u c k  y o u  a n a. 
crop tops are for everyone. get mad at that ed voice telling you you're the exception and tell it to leave you the heck alone. 
#ana #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recover #recovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryisnotlinear #fuckthinnereatdinner #fuckana #bodypositive #selfies #edwarrior #ednos #osfed #atypicalanorexia #anorexia #anorexiarecovery
Alles geschafft gestern und heute. Bin froh, dass alles gut gelaufen ist.
Heute trotzdem viele alte Gedankenmuster.. unangebrachte Emotionen. Mit Skills arbeiten. Check the Facts. Hilfs-Skill. Man weiß ja, dass alles nicht so ist, wie es sich für sich selbst anfühlt.Trotzdem. Schwierig. SV-Gedanken geistern durch den Kopf, wieder vermehrt die letzten Tage. Trigger. Erinnerungen. -.-
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Morgen ist die Woche ja dann zum Glück bald wieder vorbei. Am Wochenende geht's nach Mannheim, die liebe @atypisches.leben besuchen. 💕
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#borderline #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #depression #fighter #edfighter #atypicalanorexia #ana #selfharm #selfhatered #svv #scars #mentalillness #recovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryishard #recoveryisworthit #instaselfie #dreadlocks #dreads
Alles geschafft gestern und heute. Bin froh, dass alles gut gelaufen ist. Heute trotzdem viele alte Gedankenmuster.. unangebrachte Emotionen. Mit Skills arbeiten. Check the Facts. Hilfs-Skill. Man weiß ja, dass alles nicht so ist, wie es sich für sich selbst anfühlt.Trotzdem. Schwierig. SV-Gedanken geistern durch den Kopf, wieder vermehrt die letzten Tage. Trigger. Erinnerungen. -.- . . Morgen ist die Woche ja dann zum Glück bald wieder vorbei. Am Wochenende geht's nach Mannheim, die liebe @atypisches.leben besuchen. 💕 . . Habt ihr schon Pläne? :) 💕 💕 . . #borderline  #bpd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #depression  #fighter  #edfighter  #atypicalanorexia  #ana  #selfharm  #selfhatered  #svv  #scars  #mentalillness  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryishard  #recoveryisworthit  #instaselfie  #dreadlocks  #dreads 
today’s “exposure outfit” inspired by the lovely and beautiful @audge_spenca !! i have always shied away from wearing tank tops, ESPECIALLY tank tops with spaghetti straps. they reveal the areas of my body i usually hide and avoid— my arms, back, and chest.
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so today’s goal was to stop 👏🏻 body 👏🏻 avoiding 👏🏻 by challenging myself to wear this tank top. and guess what! it’s been like eight hours and i haven’t died yet! which is important to remember when i feel frozen in fear by the concept of wearing something more “revealing” than i would like: the world will not stop!!!!
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(i also was waffling about whether or not to post this picture because my ed brain keeps picking out flaws. guess what! FUCK YOU ED BRAIN!)
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexia #positivity #optimism #encouragement #motivation #motivationalquotes #depression #depressionrecovery #selfcompassion #selfcare #selflove #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #prorecovery #diary #ana #exposure
today’s “exposure outfit” inspired by the lovely and beautiful @audge_spenca !! i have always shied away from wearing tank tops, ESPECIALLY tank tops with spaghetti straps. they reveal the areas of my body i usually hide and avoid— my arms, back, and chest. ✨ so today’s goal was to stop 👏🏻 body 👏🏻 avoiding 👏🏻 by challenging myself to wear this tank top. and guess what! it’s been like eight hours and i haven’t died yet! which is important to remember when i feel frozen in fear by the concept of wearing something more “revealing” than i would like: the world will not stop!!!! ✨ (i also was waffling about whether or not to post this picture because my ed brain keeps picking out flaws. guess what! FUCK YOU ED BRAIN!) ✨ #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #positivity  #optimism  #encouragement  #motivation  #motivationalquotes  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #selfcompassion  #selfcare  #selflove  #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #diary  #ana  #exposure 
slept dreadfully last night 😞 
Had ED review this afternoon and it didn't go great, so once again I'm on my own and not sure what to try next 😢

#anorexianervosa #atypicalanorexia #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #mumof3 #allbymyself #nevergoodenough #bodyimage #bodyimagestruggles #tryingtofindmyself #tryingtostaypositive #nevergiveup #keepfighting #justkeepswimming #justbreathe #shattered #needsleep😴
i swear bojack horseman is great show
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I found an article some time ago, that the same alcoholic behavior can protect your relationship. Like if you drink a bottle of wine every evening and your partner looks at you like you have an addiction - you will never have a strong relationship with this person. What do you think about ? 📷 @ryann_wave
I found an article some time ago, that the same alcoholic behavior can protect your relationship. Like if you drink a bottle of wine every evening and your partner looks at you like you have an addiction - you will never have a strong relationship with this person. What do you think about ? 📷 @ryann_wave
Hallo meine lieben Wegbegleiter 👋🏼💖 Als Themen Wunsch wurde sich gewünscht das ich nochmal auf das Thema Selbstverletzungen eingehe. Dazu habe ich bereits einen Beitrag geschrieben, lest ihn euch durch dort habe ich alles ausführlich geschrieben. Hier gehe ich nur kurz darauf ein.

Bei mir ist es so das ich mich schon seit meiner Kindheit selbst verletze.
In der Pubertät fing es dann richtig schlimm an. Meine Lehrerin der ich damals sehr vertraut habe hat es meiner Mama erzählt.
Ich konnte und kann bis heute damit nicht aufhören.

Ich verletze mich auf unterschiedliche Art selber. Und oft habe ich auch selbstschädigende Verhaltensweisen.
Oft ist es so das ich den Tag nur einigermaßen gut schaffe, wenn ich mich verletzt habe. Wie eine Sucht einfach.
Aber bei mir spielt auch die große LUST mir zu schaden und mich zu verletzen eine Rolle.
Ich habe enorme Lust darauf und empfinde dabei Glücksgefühle.
Manchmal verletze ich mich aber auch, wenn ich eine Dissoziation habe.
Für mehr Informationen sucht euch in meinem Profil den ausführlichen Text zu diesem Thema.
Hallo meine lieben Wegbegleiter 👋🏼💖 Als Themen Wunsch wurde sich gewünscht das ich nochmal auf das Thema Selbstverletzungen eingehe. Dazu habe ich bereits einen Beitrag geschrieben, lest ihn euch durch dort habe ich alles ausführlich geschrieben. Hier gehe ich nur kurz darauf ein. Bei mir ist es so das ich mich schon seit meiner Kindheit selbst verletze. In der Pubertät fing es dann richtig schlimm an. Meine Lehrerin der ich damals sehr vertraut habe hat es meiner Mama erzählt. Ich konnte und kann bis heute damit nicht aufhören. Ich verletze mich auf unterschiedliche Art selber. Und oft habe ich auch selbstschädigende Verhaltensweisen. Oft ist es so das ich den Tag nur einigermaßen gut schaffe, wenn ich mich verletzt habe. Wie eine Sucht einfach. Aber bei mir spielt auch die große LUST mir zu schaden und mich zu verletzen eine Rolle. Ich habe enorme Lust darauf und empfinde dabei Glücksgefühle. Manchmal verletze ich mich aber auch, wenn ich eine Dissoziation habe. Für mehr Informationen sucht euch in meinem Profil den ausführlichen Text zu diesem Thema.
Hallo meine lieben Wegbegleiter 👋🏼💖 Ich habe die Wochentermine endlich hinter mir!
Heute morgen bin ich kaum aus dem Bett gekommen. Heute hatte ich Nachmittags kurz einen Termin im Büro meiner Betreuerin.
Ansonsten bin ich wirklich so froh jetzt alle Termine hinter mir zu haben. Es war für mich einfach viel zu anstrengend und ich bin jetzt total erschöpft, ausgelaugt, kraftlos und müde. Ich merke richtig wie eine große Last von mir fällt, beim Gedanken daran die nächsten Tage keine Termine zu haben.
Ich merke aber das die Tage zu anstrengend waren und ich nun noch antriebsloser bin und entkräftet. Ich habe das Gefühl die Depression legt sich wie ein schwarzer Schleier um mich herum und zieht mich immer tiefer nach unten.

Nach den für mich anstrengenden Tagen habe ich ehrlich gesagt auch wieder sehr hohen SV druck. Weil ich irgendwie jetzt wo die Termine vorbei sind nicht richtig abschalten kann und nicht wirklich zur Ruhe komme.

Aber ich möchte jetzt nicht so viel negatives verbreiten und schreiben. Ich habe die Tage geschafft. Mehr oder weniger gut. Und bitte schreibt jetzt nicht das ich das toll gemacht habe oder sonst was. Ich weiß ihr Lieben meint es nur gut, aber es kommt nicht bei mir an. Vor allem weil ich es auch nicht gut gemacht habe und auch nicht gut überstanden habe, weil wie gesagt es mir jetzt danach noch schlechter geht, weil es zu viel war.

Aber ich sehe jetzt das positive daran. Ich habe es hinter mir und die nächsten Tage erstmal nichts großartig an Terminen.
Und ich kann versuchen etwas ruhiger zu werden.
Hallo meine lieben Wegbegleiter 👋🏼💖 Ich habe die Wochentermine endlich hinter mir! Heute morgen bin ich kaum aus dem Bett gekommen. Heute hatte ich Nachmittags kurz einen Termin im Büro meiner Betreuerin. Ansonsten bin ich wirklich so froh jetzt alle Termine hinter mir zu haben. Es war für mich einfach viel zu anstrengend und ich bin jetzt total erschöpft, ausgelaugt, kraftlos und müde. Ich merke richtig wie eine große Last von mir fällt, beim Gedanken daran die nächsten Tage keine Termine zu haben. Ich merke aber das die Tage zu anstrengend waren und ich nun noch antriebsloser bin und entkräftet. Ich habe das Gefühl die Depression legt sich wie ein schwarzer Schleier um mich herum und zieht mich immer tiefer nach unten. Nach den für mich anstrengenden Tagen habe ich ehrlich gesagt auch wieder sehr hohen SV druck. Weil ich irgendwie jetzt wo die Termine vorbei sind nicht richtig abschalten kann und nicht wirklich zur Ruhe komme. Aber ich möchte jetzt nicht so viel negatives verbreiten und schreiben. Ich habe die Tage geschafft. Mehr oder weniger gut. Und bitte schreibt jetzt nicht das ich das toll gemacht habe oder sonst was. Ich weiß ihr Lieben meint es nur gut, aber es kommt nicht bei mir an. Vor allem weil ich es auch nicht gut gemacht habe und auch nicht gut überstanden habe, weil wie gesagt es mir jetzt danach noch schlechter geht, weil es zu viel war. Aber ich sehe jetzt das positive daran. Ich habe es hinter mir und die nächsten Tage erstmal nichts großartig an Terminen. Und ich kann versuchen etwas ruhiger zu werden.
Having a loved one or relative with an eating disorder or eating concerns can be scary, frustrating, and difficult – but you are not alone.
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We want to let you know about an online summit starting October 13th, developed for people who are supporting a loved one in their eating disorder recovery.
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The @helping_hands_summit is a collection of 13 highly informative and applicable videos you can watch at your own pace. You'll gain valuable insight and hear and learn from leading experts in the eating disorder field as well as respected caregiver advocates who have supported someone they care about through recovery.
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This information will provide you with many keys to recovery that only experience can teach. You’ll also have the chance to ask questions to the experts. Registration is now open.
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#helpinghandssummit #eatingdisorderrecovery #caregivers  #fbt #familybasedtreatment #treatmentworks #edawareness #edwarrior #edsurvivor #nofoodsofflimit #antidiet #nondiet #haes #healthateverysize #EDTLA #eatingdisordertherapyLA #prorecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #bodypositive #fatpositive #atypicalanorexia #atypicalanorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery
Having a loved one or relative with an eating disorder or eating concerns can be scary, frustrating, and difficult – but you are not alone. . We want to let you know about an online summit starting October 13th, developed for people who are supporting a loved one in their eating disorder recovery. . The @helping_hands_summit is a collection of 13 highly informative and applicable videos you can watch at your own pace. You'll gain valuable insight and hear and learn from leading experts in the eating disorder field as well as respected caregiver advocates who have supported someone they care about through recovery. . This information will provide you with many keys to recovery that only experience can teach. You’ll also have the chance to ask questions to the experts. Registration is now open. . Lauren Muhlheim, PsyD is a speaker! Link in bio to register. . . . . . . #helpinghandssummit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #caregivers  #fbt  #familybasedtreatment  #treatmentworks  #edawareness  #edwarrior  #edsurvivor  #nofoodsofflimit  #antidiet  #nondiet  #haes  #healthateverysize  #EDTLA  #eatingdisordertherapyLA  #prorecovery  #bingeeatingdisorder  #bodypositive  #fatpositive  #atypicalanorexia  #atypicalanorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery 
Breakfast yogurt 90 cals.

All I ate yesterday was 1 yogurt. 1 can of tuna. 1 serving of wheat thins. 1 tbsp of mayo. One can of French cut green beans (the beans are like 75 cals total) 
I wasn't even hungry. I didn't even want food. Idk what is wrong with me. I don't get hungry most days at all. I eat on a schedule. Breakfast lunch snack. Usually no dinner. I'm not taking ephedrine or diet pills right now either.
I'm in this weird head space I'm not even... I dont know what's going on.
#ednos #edfam #eatingdisorder #anafam #anorexia #adultswitheds #notinrecovery #edrelapse #osfed #atypicalanorexia #foodlog #whatimeating #restricting #lowcallife #lowcal
Breakfast yogurt 90 cals. All I ate yesterday was 1 yogurt. 1 can of tuna. 1 serving of wheat thins. 1 tbsp of mayo. One can of French cut green beans (the beans are like 75 cals total) I wasn't even hungry. I didn't even want food. Idk what is wrong with me. I don't get hungry most days at all. I eat on a schedule. Breakfast lunch snack. Usually no dinner. I'm not taking ephedrine or diet pills right now either. I'm in this weird head space I'm not even... I dont know what's going on. #ednos  #edfam  #eatingdisorder  #anafam  #anorexia  #adultswitheds  #notinrecovery  #edrelapse  #osfed  #atypicalanorexia  #foodlog  #whatimeating  #restricting  #lowcallife  #lowcal 
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**possible tw** I woke up this morning at 5am with insane anxiety about how much I ate yesterday.. and I don’t know why. I ate three full meals, with snacks in between, and I was doing it because I felt B E T T E R when I was eating throughout the day. I had energy. I wasn’t ready to burst out in tears when I went to sleep 😴 
This picture is to remind me that I can eat and enjoy it. That eating keeps my body strong enough to do the things I love with my people. That eating is GOOD - if it’s not used to cope with life. This picture was taken by my bf at a BBQ place and I was happy y’all. Like legit happy. I couldn’t be more than two steps away from Brenn and I picked the table farthest away from anyone else, but I ate HIS mac & Cheese and some onion tanglers, and I thoroughly enjoyed myself 😌
I didn’t feel any guilt until I laid down to sleep last night... and this morning it hit like hurricane force winds in my chest and gut. I don’t know why I’m being so hard on myself... I’m feeling so much better after writing this post and if you made this far please comment a 💙 You’re the best 😭 // #atypicalanorexia #bpd #adultswitheatingdisorders #recovery #youreworthit #socialanxiety #blue #bekindtoyourself #slowprogressisstillprogress #selfcare #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealthblog #s #dinnertime #lastnight #fightingyourmindisexhausting
✨ S A T I S F I E D ✨ _________________________________ **possible tw** I woke up this morning at 5am with insane anxiety about how much I ate yesterday.. and I don’t know why. I ate three full meals, with snacks in between, and I was doing it because I felt B E T T E R when I was eating throughout the day. I had energy. I wasn’t ready to burst out in tears when I went to sleep 😴 This picture is to remind me that I can eat and enjoy it. That eating keeps my body strong enough to do the things I love with my people. That eating is GOOD - if it’s not used to cope with life. This picture was taken by my bf at a BBQ place and I was happy y’all. Like legit happy. I couldn’t be more than two steps away from Brenn and I picked the table farthest away from anyone else, but I ate HIS mac & Cheese and some onion tanglers, and I thoroughly enjoyed myself 😌 I didn’t feel any guilt until I laid down to sleep last night... and this morning it hit like hurricane force winds in my chest and gut. I don’t know why I’m being so hard on myself... I’m feeling so much better after writing this post and if you made this far please comment a 💙 You’re the best 😭 // #atypicalanorexia  #bpd  #adultswitheatingdisorders  #recovery  #youreworthit  #socialanxiety  #blue  #bekindtoyourself  #slowprogressisstillprogress  #selfcare  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthwarrior  #mentalhealthblog  #s  #dinnertime  #lastnight  #fightingyourmindisexhausting 
Making videos is really calming and takes my mind off of shit, I love it😊 New video on my channel: SH*T NEUROTYPICALS TELL ME😋😝😉 link in biooooo#awareness #realrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #recoveryroad #bulimia #anxiety#eatingdisorder #depressed #edrecovery #atypicalanorexia #strongnotskinny #mentalhealth #mentalhealthjourney #bpd #borderline #eupd #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor #prorecovery #shame #shameless #socialmediainfluencer #influencer #creator #stopthestigma #faceofdepression
Making videos is really calming and takes my mind off of shit, I love it😊 New video on my channel: SH*T NEUROTYPICALS TELL ME😋😝😉 link in biooooo#awareness  #realrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorders  #recoveryroad  #bulimia  #anxiety #eatingdisorder  #depressed  #edrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #strongnotskinny  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthjourney  #bpd  #borderline  #eupd  #mentalhealthyoutuber  #edsurvivor  #prorecovery  #shame  #shameless  #socialmediainfluencer  #influencer  #creator  #stopthestigma  #faceofdepression 
‘Maybe it’s not always trying to fix something broken. Maybe it’s about starting over and creating something better’ 
Somedays are a little more difficult where food is almost all that’s on my mind and it feels like a war zone where I can’t take ground. For now, maybe today is just getting through as effectively as I can, and letting that be enough... 💜
‘Maybe it’s not always trying to fix something broken. Maybe it’s about starting over and creating something better’ Somedays are a little more difficult where food is almost all that’s on my mind and it feels like a war zone where I can’t take ground. For now, maybe today is just getting through as effectively as I can, and letting that be enough... 💜
[carrot cake chia seed oats🐰 || topped with smooth pb, raisins and golden syrup]
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it's my birthday tomorrow, im so excited!
q: do you like dried fruit?
#fearfood #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryaccount #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #ana #anorexianervosa #eatittobeatit #foodporn #foodie #recoveryjourney #ednos #mentalhealth #beatinganorexia #beatinged #anorexianervosarecovery #atypicalanorexia #recoverychallenge
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[carrot cake chia seed oats🐰 || topped with smooth pb, raisins and golden syrup] - good morning! 🌞 it's my birthday tomorrow, im so excited! q: do you like dried fruit? #fearfood  #recovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recoveryaccount  #recoveryisworthit  #edwarrior  #ana  #anorexianervosa  #eatittobeatit  #foodporn  #foodie  #recoveryjourney  #ednos  #mentalhealth  #beatinganorexia  #beatinged  #anorexianervosarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #recoverychallenge  - filter used: @polarrpresets
“I’m like the trunk of a cactus... I take in a dose of culture and time with friends, then I retreat and go live on it for awhile until I get thirsty again” - Nancy Horan 🌵💙
*** I’m trying really really hard to avoid isolating myself from my loved ones.. when I’m in my low points and I’m struggling emotionally, I don’t WANT to smile. I don’t want to be seen. I don’t want people around to cheer me up or sit with me in gloom... ✨BUT TODAY WAS DIFFERENT ✨ Even though my head was a mess this morning I showered first thing 🚿 talked with my dad over coffee ☕️ and sat down in a restaurant with my boyfriend and ATE WITH OTHER PEOPLE AROUND 😍 I’m so glad that I chose to push myself because today actually turned out pretty great.. It may seem sad to some people that days like this excite me, but I want to be as real as I can with y’all and show you that these days are few and far between for me. I may have not done much, but I can’t remember the last time I was this exhausted but in a good way 💛 // #introvert #socialanxiety #atypicalanorexia #bpd #selfcare #chronicpain #myillnessisnotyourjoke #quotesaboutlife #cactus #mentalhealthblog #mentalhealthjourney #recoverywarrior #mentalhealthawareness #takecareofyourself #gooddays #feelinggrateful #relaxed
“I’m like the trunk of a cactus... I take in a dose of culture and time with friends, then I retreat and go live on it for awhile until I get thirsty again” - Nancy Horan 🌵💙 *** I’m trying really really hard to avoid isolating myself from my loved ones.. when I’m in my low points and I’m struggling emotionally, I don’t WANT to smile. I don’t want to be seen. I don’t want people around to cheer me up or sit with me in gloom... ✨BUT TODAY WAS DIFFERENT ✨ Even though my head was a mess this morning I showered first thing 🚿 talked with my dad over coffee ☕️ and sat down in a restaurant with my boyfriend and ATE WITH OTHER PEOPLE AROUND 😍 I’m so glad that I chose to push myself because today actually turned out pretty great.. It may seem sad to some people that days like this excite me, but I want to be as real as I can with y’all and show you that these days are few and far between for me. I may have not done much, but I can’t remember the last time I was this exhausted but in a good way 💛 // #introvert  #socialanxiety  #atypicalanorexia  #bpd  #selfcare  #chronicpain  #myillnessisnotyourjoke  #quotesaboutlife  #cactus  #mentalhealthblog  #mentalhealthjourney  #recoverywarrior  #mentalhealthawareness  #takecareofyourself  #gooddays  #feelinggrateful  #relaxed 
PSA: YOU DESERVE NEW CLOTHES, EVEN IF YOU HATE YOUR BODY!!!! /// i can’t trust my reflection. i had a shit body image day (per usual) and i absolutely hate trying on clothes and dealing with sizes and stuff, but i live in leggings and band tees, so i picked up a few things, including the romper. body dysmorphia is still a dumb bitch, but things get a little bit easier when you actually wear clothes that aren’t just casual pajamas. you are worth more than your clothing size, i promise💕💕💕
#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderaeawareness#mentalillness#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#anorexia#anorexic#anorexianervosa#atypicalanorexia#selflove#worthy#youtube#bpd#borderlinepersonalitydisorder#bodydysmorphia#youtuber#ed#charlotterusse#redhead
PSA: YOU DESERVE NEW CLOTHES, EVEN IF YOU HATE YOUR BODY!!!! /// i can’t trust my reflection. i had a shit body image day (per usual) and i absolutely hate trying on clothes and dealing with sizes and stuff, but i live in leggings and band tees, so i picked up a few things, including the romper. body dysmorphia is still a dumb bitch, but things get a little bit easier when you actually wear clothes that aren’t just casual pajamas. you are worth more than your clothing size, i promise💕💕💕 #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderaeawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianervosa #atypicalanorexia #selflove #worthy #youtube #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bodydysmorphia #youtuber #ed #charlotterusse #redhead 
'Losing weight is not your life's work, and counting calories is not the call of your soul. You surely are destined for something much greater, much bigger, than shedding 20 pounds or tallying calories. What would happen if instead of worrying about what you had for breakfast, you focused instead on becoming exquisitely comfortable with who you are as a person? Instead of scrutinising yourself in the mirror, looking for every bump and bulge, you turned your gaze inward?' -Lisa Turner 
My thighs may be bigger than they once were but so is my passion for life, my drive to work hard, my motivation to keep reaching for something bigger than me. My thighs may be bigger, but so is my life 💪🏻🌺
'Losing weight is not your life's work, and counting calories is not the call of your soul. You surely are destined for something much greater, much bigger, than shedding 20 pounds or tallying calories. What would happen if instead of worrying about what you had for breakfast, you focused instead on becoming exquisitely comfortable with who you are as a person? Instead of scrutinising yourself in the mirror, looking for every bump and bulge, you turned your gaze inward?' -Lisa Turner My thighs may be bigger than they once were but so is my passion for life, my drive to work hard, my motivation to keep reaching for something bigger than me. My thighs may be bigger, but so is my life 💪🏻🌺
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📖 PSA: Eating disorders are not harmless.

While they are often minimized and dismissed for a variety of (inaccurate) reasons, the fact is that eating disorders can be deadly. 
Dr. Gaudiani's book, Sick Enough: A Guide to the Medical Complications of Eating Disorders, strives to change the narrative by bringing compassionate AND evidence-based knowledge to the medical complications of eating disorders..
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#sickenough #edrecovery #mentalhealth #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #atypicalanorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #gaudianiclinic #diet #orthorexia #bingeeating #bulimia #eatingdisordersdoctor
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#Repost  @gaudianiclinic • • • • • 📖 PSA: Eating disorders are not harmless. While they are often minimized and dismissed for a variety of (inaccurate) reasons, the fact is that eating disorders can be deadly. Dr. Gaudiani's book, Sick Enough: A Guide to the Medical Complications of Eating Disorders, strives to change the narrative by bringing compassionate AND evidence-based knowledge to the medical complications of eating disorders.. . #sickenough  #edrecovery  #mentalhealth  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #atypicalanorexia  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorders  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #gaudianiclinic  #diet  #orthorexia  #bingeeating  #bulimia  #eatingdisordersdoctor  #eatingdisorderfamilysupportnetwork 
📖 PSA: Eating disorders are not harmless.

While they are often minimized and dismissed for a variety of (inaccurate) reasons, the fact is that eating disorders can be deadly. 
Dr. Gaudiani's book, Sick Enough: A Guide to the Medical Complications of Eating Disorders, strives to change the narrative by bringing compassionate AND evidence-based knowledge to the medical complications of eating disorders. 👇
Link in bio to pre-order your copy today! •
#sickenough #edrecovery #mentalhealth #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #atypicalanorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #gaudianiclinic #diet #orthorexia #bingeeating #bulimia #eatingdisordersdoctor
📖 PSA: Eating disorders are not harmless. While they are often minimized and dismissed for a variety of (inaccurate) reasons, the fact is that eating disorders can be deadly. Dr. Gaudiani's book, Sick Enough: A Guide to the Medical Complications of Eating Disorders, strives to change the narrative by bringing compassionate AND evidence-based knowledge to the medical complications of eating disorders. 👇 Link in bio to pre-order your copy today! • #sickenough  #edrecovery  #mentalhealth  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #atypicalanorexia  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorders  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #gaudianiclinic  #diet  #orthorexia  #bingeeating  #bulimia  #eatingdisordersdoctor 
Hell yeah. Two slices of toast with half a can of beans and garlic mushrooms!! Not being able to weigh myself has brought with it a lot of anxiety, but also a sense of freedom. I can only judge my body on its appearance (which I can’t trust) which sucks. 
#eatingdisorderrecovery #atypicalanorexia #adultswitheds #anorexia
Hell yeah. Two slices of toast with half a can of beans and garlic mushrooms!! Not being able to weigh myself has brought with it a lot of anxiety, but also a sense of freedom. I can only judge my body on its appearance (which I can’t trust) which sucks. #eatingdisorderrecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #adultswitheds  #anorexia 
it’s super difficult not to beat yourself up when you “fuck up” in recovery. you want to be able to recover PERFECTLY. but guess what?? there is no perfect recovery!! there’s only YOUR recovery.
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so if you encounter a slip-up or even a relapse, give yourself some grace. speak to yourself like you would speak to a friend: with empathy and compassion.
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shit happens, AND you can can back on your feet and keep going.
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexia #positivity #optimism #encouragement #motivation #motivationalquotes #depression #depressionrecovery #selfcompassion #selfcare #selflove #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #prorecovery #diary #ana
it’s super difficult not to beat yourself up when you “fuck up” in recovery. you want to be able to recover PERFECTLY. but guess what?? there is no perfect recovery!! there’s only YOUR recovery. ✨ so if you encounter a slip-up or even a relapse, give yourself some grace. speak to yourself like you would speak to a friend: with empathy and compassion. ✨ shit happens, AND you can can back on your feet and keep going. ✨ #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #positivity  #optimism  #encouragement  #motivation  #motivationalquotes  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #selfcompassion  #selfcare  #selflove  #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #diary  #ana 
Die Zeit im Wohnheim begann direkt nach der Entlassung der Klinik. Ich zog im Januar 2017 in das Wohnheim ein, in ein Einzelzimmer. Das habe ich mir gewünscht. Da ich mich in der Klinik sehr runter gehungert hatte, wurde ich im Wohnheim von den Betreuern beim Essen begleitet. Dadurch nahm ich nach einiger Zeit wieder zu. Und dann war es so das ich hungerte, teils normal aß und wieder hungerte. Es war ein auf und ab genau wie mein Gewicht. Im Wohnheim bin ich dann in eine andere Wg gezogen, da in meiner alten Wg wir 3 Leute mit einer Essstörung waren und das funktionierte einfach nicht. Zu meiner Bezugsbetreuerin entwickelte ich ein sehr inniges Verhältnis und auch mit ihren Töchtern bin ich mittlerweile befreundet.
Im Wohnheim hatten wir tagsüber Module (sowas wie Therapien) und wir hatten dort eine Therapeutin mit einem Therapie Hund. Ich war bei der Therapeutin im Wohnheim und zusätzlich bin ich weiterhin zu meiner ambulanten Therapeutin hier zu Hause gefahren.
Im Wohnheim entschied ich mich dann Januar 2018 auszuziehen, aus verschiedenen Gründen. Und seit dem wohne ich wieder zu Hause.
Die Zeit im Wohnheim begann direkt nach der Entlassung der Klinik. Ich zog im Januar 2017 in das Wohnheim ein, in ein Einzelzimmer. Das habe ich mir gewünscht. Da ich mich in der Klinik sehr runter gehungert hatte, wurde ich im Wohnheim von den Betreuern beim Essen begleitet. Dadurch nahm ich nach einiger Zeit wieder zu. Und dann war es so das ich hungerte, teils normal aß und wieder hungerte. Es war ein auf und ab genau wie mein Gewicht. Im Wohnheim bin ich dann in eine andere Wg gezogen, da in meiner alten Wg wir 3 Leute mit einer Essstörung waren und das funktionierte einfach nicht. Zu meiner Bezugsbetreuerin entwickelte ich ein sehr inniges Verhältnis und auch mit ihren Töchtern bin ich mittlerweile befreundet. Im Wohnheim hatten wir tagsüber Module (sowas wie Therapien) und wir hatten dort eine Therapeutin mit einem Therapie Hund. Ich war bei der Therapeutin im Wohnheim und zusätzlich bin ich weiterhin zu meiner ambulanten Therapeutin hier zu Hause gefahren. Im Wohnheim entschied ich mich dann Januar 2018 auszuziehen, aus verschiedenen Gründen. Und seit dem wohne ich wieder zu Hause.