Here's why today, it feels amazing to wear jeans now. Finally...in my 30's.
In high school I hid my body in boy jeans - YES, boy jeans only. My poor Mama hated it, and everyone just thought I was a tom-boy (which I am). But I would never tell a soul that I was literally trying to hide my body, my curvy figure, in baggy clothes. I'd even go the extra mile and cover my baggy boy jeans with oversized tops and sweathshirts.
I was embarrassed that I did not look like the other girls. That I was teased in Elementary school for being the tallest girl, who also developed first - great combo! We all went through this in some form or another, right?
In college I was a Studio Art Major - which meant I lived in sweat pants and my iconic paint shirt known around campus. I don't recall wearing jeans more than a handful of times throughout those college years.
It's not that I didn't own any. I had PLENTY. That no longer fit me. So I never wore them.
And I was too cheap to buy more - because someday I'll lose those 50lbs I put on that one year. And I was too ashamed to shop in fear of what size I was now. I honestly did not want to know. Dealing with not being able to wear half my closet was already hard enough.
Here's where I want to encourage you if you're the old me!! Size doesn't matter - the numbers DO NOT matter. We were all created with one, amazing, beautiful body. It's so easy to get caught up in the vanity of things. Succumbing to the idea that striving to be fit or healthy is completely vain, self-centered, and all about looks.
But I can tell you right now - until I started working on my fitness, I wasn't ready to start working on my mindset and decide to address the pain I felt surrounding how uncomfortable I was in my clothes AND in my skin. I'm so so thankful I choose the pain of change rather than stay the same. But I had to start taking actions towards loving who I was FIRST.
No matter where you're at on your journey, please please please don't get caught up in the numbers or what society tells us we should look like. Please believe that you are beautiful, and that you can love the skin you're in and seek your BEST LIFE. Boy jeans and all 😂