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Hey, guys. I haven't been posting for a while. There's a lot of things going on and I am struggling a lot these days so I am trying to do some new stuff and take care of myself. My body is changing and everything around me... I hope you guys are doing well!! Ly. 💞
This is an ice cream I had a few weeks ago with my family. 🍨

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Hey, guys. I haven't been posting for a while. There's a lot of things going on and I am struggling a lot these days so I am trying to do some new stuff and take care of myself. My body is changing and everything around me... I hope you guys are doing well!! Ly. 💞 This is an ice cream I had a few weeks ago with my family. 🍨 #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiarecoverymeal  #anorexiawarrior  #fuckanorexia  #recoverywin  #recoverywarrior  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryisworthit  #beatana  #recoveryispossible  #anorexiafight 
UPDATE 2;
ik it sounded like i was getting worse in my previous post, but i ended up getting worse. last night i was rushed to emergency in the hospital, and i stayed there until 4am. i have a very severe case of gastro. i am home now and have been bedridden all day, and i am on meds which reduce the stomach pain and nausea. i managed to have a bit of an appetite and ate some food, but ofc not enough, but the nurses said to focus on meds and fluid. i am going try eat a bit more each day as i get better and hopefully can get back on track with recovery. might not be too active, keep fighting❤️
UPDATE 2; ik it sounded like i was getting worse in my previous post, but i ended up getting worse. last night i was rushed to emergency in the hospital, and i stayed there until 4am. i have a very severe case of gastro. i am home now and have been bedridden all day, and i am on meds which reduce the stomach pain and nausea. i managed to have a bit of an appetite and ate some food, but ofc not enough, but the nurses said to focus on meds and fluid. i am going try eat a bit more each day as i get better and hopefully can get back on track with recovery. might not be too active, keep fighting❤️
SUSHI!!!! Super glad to be more free of ana now, don’t have the desire to intensively exercise / compensate and am instead listening more to my body and eating just right :-)))) rly worried about gg for a Doctors appointment this Wednesday which is like 2 days later bc I’m still currently a little underweight and I’m rly scared they send me inpatient but I swear to god I can see my progress and i know i don’t need whatever inpatient treatment there is which would ALSO ruin my studies and holiday plans but my parents are adamant to listen to whatever the doctor has said so I’m damn scared😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥 if anyone has anyone advice on the inpatient admission criterias pls sound out bc I really DONT WANT to go inpatient I’m so nervous and scared honestly oh my god 😩😩😩😩 #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #nourishtoflourish #anorexiarecovery #anorexiatipsforrecovery #fuckana #sushi #livetoeat #eattolive #anorexiawarrior #mentaldisorder #inpatient #scared #anorexiafighter #edfighter #eatingdisordersrecovery #foodisfuel #fuckana #fucked
SUSHI!!!! Super glad to be more free of ana now, don’t have the desire to intensively exercise / compensate and am instead listening more to my body and eating just right :-)))) rly worried about gg for a Doctors appointment this Wednesday which is like 2 days later bc I’m still currently a little underweight and I’m rly scared they send me inpatient but I swear to god I can see my progress and i know i don’t need whatever inpatient treatment there is which would ALSO ruin my studies and holiday plans but my parents are adamant to listen to whatever the doctor has said so I’m damn scared😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥 if anyone has anyone advice on the inpatient admission criterias pls sound out bc I really DONT WANT to go inpatient I’m so nervous and scared honestly oh my god 😩😩😩😩 #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #nourishtoflourish  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiatipsforrecovery  #fuckana  #sushi  #livetoeat  #eattolive  #anorexiawarrior  #mentaldisorder  #inpatient  #scared  #anorexiafighter  #edfighter  #eatingdisordersrecovery  #foodisfuel  #fuckana  #fucked 
Day 🔟 of #hansleighsan ❄️🤶🏼🎅🏽❄️ 2 toasts with 2 different spreads 🍯🍞 Some recent DM’s: ❄️“How do you do it?”
❄️“I’m jealous of your bravery”
❄️“How are you managing to challenge yourself every day?”
❄️“Aren’t you scared?” 🤨😯😮 Yes I’m scared. Yes every time I reach into that bloody calendar I sigh when I see another huge fear food on that piece of paper 😅. I don’t find it easy at all. But I do it regardless. I’ve given myself no option not to. Sometimes you need that tough love otherwise it’s too easy to just back out.
E.G.
➡️“Not today Han, I’m too tired to challenge”
➡️“Tough shit Han, you’re doing it”😂 And the thing is- if you REALLY wanted to and REALLY pushed yourself, you could too. There’s no difference between me and you.  SERIOUSLY what are you waiting for? There will never feel like a good day to challenge.

If I can-you can too ❄️ You are SO much stronger than you know ❤️
Day 🔟 of #hansleighsan  ❄️🤶🏼🎅🏽❄️ 2 toasts with 2 different spreads 🍯🍞 Some recent DM’s: ❄️“How do you do it?” ❄️“I’m jealous of your bravery” ❄️“How are you managing to challenge yourself every day?” ❄️“Aren’t you scared?” 🤨😯😮 Yes I’m scared. Yes every time I reach into that bloody calendar I sigh when I see another huge fear food on that piece of paper 😅. I don’t find it easy at all. But I do it regardless. I’ve given myself no option not to. Sometimes you need that tough love otherwise it’s too easy to just back out. E.G. ➡️“Not today Han, I’m too tired to challenge” ➡️“Tough shit Han, you’re doing it”😂 And the thing is- if you REALLY wanted to and REALLY pushed yourself, you could too. There’s no difference between me and you. SERIOUSLY what are you waiting for? There will never feel like a good day to challenge. If I can-you can too ❄️ You are SO much stronger than you know ❤️
#supper I had 1 Fish, Sweet Potato Fries, Mixed Veggies and Half a Christmas Muffin ❤
This dish was a little hard as I dislike fish! I don't like the smell or taste of fish at all. But as i was playing up my plate mum told be more!! And when I was doing the veggies she said it again something else was said and I quickly stopped and I said IM A NOT A PERSON NO MORE IM A PROBLEM! I didn't mean to say that but it just came out so I ate my dinner and tried to make it up but suprising my mum with Half a muffin😱 but I don't think she cared.. oh well I tried
#anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #recovery #edwarrior #anafighter #edrecovery #anxiety #anorexiarecoverymeal #edsoilder #edfigher #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior #anasucks #fightanorexia
#supper  I had 1 Fish, Sweet Potato Fries, Mixed Veggies and Half a Christmas Muffin ❤ This dish was a little hard as I dislike fish! I don't like the smell or taste of fish at all. But as i was playing up my plate mum told be more!! And when I was doing the veggies she said it again something else was said and I quickly stopped and I said IM A NOT A PERSON NO MORE IM A PROBLEM! I didn't mean to say that but it just came out so I ate my dinner and tried to make it up but suprising my mum with Half a muffin😱 but I don't think she cared.. oh well I tried #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #recovery  #edwarrior  #anafighter  #edrecovery  #anxiety  #anorexiarecoverymeal  #edsoilder  #edfigher  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anasucks  #fightanorexia 
22/09/18 - Tried this Limited Edition New York Cheesecake @kitkat chunky... It was okay, but tbh not going to rush out to buy anymore .

#recovery #chocolate #anorexiawarrior #kitkat
21/09/18 - Finally the day ended in my first seasonal drink @starbucksuk Pumpkin Spiced Hot Chocolate.... Lush #recoveryisworthit .

#hotchocolate #starbucks #pumpkimspiced #recovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexia
Monday morning 😴 remember recovery is not just a sprint, it’s a marathon. It’s going to take time but it will be worth it in the end when you cross that finish line 💪🏻. Have a fab week everyone 💕 #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthmatters #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfam #edfamiliy #edwontwin #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexiawarrior #eatittobeatit #selflove #quotestoliveby #depression #depressionrecovery #anxiety #quoteoftheday #recovery #prorecovery #inspirationalquotes #motivationalquotes #mondaymorning #mondaymotivation
Monday morning 😴 remember recovery is not just a sprint, it’s a marathon. It’s going to take time but it will be worth it in the end when you cross that finish line 💪🏻. Have a fab week everyone 💕 #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealthmatters  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ed  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #edfam  #edfamiliy  #edwontwin  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #eatittobeatit  #selflove  #quotestoliveby  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #anxiety  #quoteoftheday  #recovery  #prorecovery  #inspirationalquotes  #motivationalquotes  #mondaymorning  #mondaymotivation 
Oats again for #breakfast with half a 🍌 I wish everyone a good day! ✨ #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdissorder #porridge #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #staypostive
The moment where recovery feels 
The most painful are often the ones you are making the most progress,because it indicates you are actively challenging your demons.
Keep on pushing forward even when the eating disorder voice 
Screams at you. Things ten to scream when dying ✨-Amalie Lee
#eatingdisorder #ed #eatingdisordered #anorexiasucks #anorexiasoldier #anorexiasurvivor #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexiabattle #beatanorexia #fuckanorexia #foodismedecine #foodisfuel #anorexianervousa #anorexianervosarecovery #make2018great #make2018shine #make2018count 
#vegan
The moment where recovery feels The most painful are often the ones you are making the most progress,because it indicates you are actively challenging your demons. Keep on pushing forward even when the eating disorder voice Screams at you. Things ten to scream when dying ✨-Amalie Lee #eatingdisorder  #ed  #eatingdisordered  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiasoldier  #anorexiasurvivor  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiabattle  #beatanorexia  #fuckanorexia  #foodismedecine  #foodisfuel  #anorexianervousa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #make2018great  #make2018shine  #make2018count  #vegan 
Dinner tonight. Got into a rough fight with my dad after some OCD stuff came up tonight. He started screaming and throwing all my food out of the fridge which made my anxiety even worse. My dad has always thought my eating disorder is a choice. He thinks that if I want to get better I should just “do it”. He thinks I do all of this stuff on purpose. It’s really frustrating honestly. #ed #edrecovery #edfam #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #exerciseaddiction #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexiafight #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #beateatingdisorders #2fab4ana #strongnotskinny #prorecovery #recovery
Dinner tonight. Got into a rough fight with my dad after some OCD stuff came up tonight. He started screaming and throwing all my food out of the fridge which made my anxiety even worse. My dad has always thought my eating disorder is a choice. He thinks that if I want to get better I should just “do it”. He thinks I do all of this stuff on purpose. It’s really frustrating honestly. #ed  #edrecovery  #edfam  #eatingdisorders  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #exerciseaddiction  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiafight  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #beateatingdisorders  #2fab4ana  #strongnotskinny  #prorecovery  #recovery 
This was my larger than usual night snack that I ate while watching Christmas movies. (Only had half the pint and half the bag of pretzels though.) Is there even a better combination for making up cals? 😍 I think these 2 flavors of One bars are honestly my favorite protein bars on Earth. ☺️💕 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #beatingana #fightingana #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #edrecovery #edwarrior #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #foodporn #foodie #fooddiary #balancednotclean #edfam #edfamily #nightsnack #snack #makedecembersparkle
This was my larger than usual night snack that I ate while watching Christmas movies. (Only had half the pint and half the bag of pretzels though.) Is there even a better combination for making up cals? 😍 I think these 2 flavors of One bars are honestly my favorite protein bars on Earth. ☺️💕 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #anorexiawarrior  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #food  #foodporn  #foodie  #fooddiary  #balancednotclean  #edfam  #edfamily  #nightsnack  #snack  #makedecembersparkle 
Dinner was shrimp-mushroom-pesto pasta with parm and two cresent rolls. 
I didnt work out today whciy made dinner stressful after I had eaten lunch and breakfast AND a snack. 
But I ate it. 
I was painting for seven-eight hours (swipe). I really like Space, like a lot more than any normal person so I painted it today from noon until my mum got home at eight. I did add lights around it after this photo was taken and this photo isn't the best but. 
Btw, one of the planets is Pluto (dont care if its not a real planet)
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 #anorexia #ed #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdissorder #anrecovery #anorexiarecovery #recovery #anorexiawarrior #edwarrior #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior #edfighter #anorexiafighter
Dinner was shrimp-mushroom-pesto pasta with parm and two cresent rolls. I didnt work out today whciy made dinner stressful after I had eaten lunch and breakfast AND a snack. But I ate it. I was painting for seven-eight hours (swipe). I really like Space, like a lot more than any normal person so I painted it today from noon until my mum got home at eight. I did add lights around it after this photo was taken and this photo isn't the best but. Btw, one of the planets is Pluto (dont care if its not a real planet) × × × #anorexia  #ed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #anrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #anorexiawarrior  #edwarrior  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthwarrior  #edfighter  #anorexiafighter 
This was lunch earlier which I completely forgot to post. 
It was a scrambled egg with onion and green pepper and cheese and mayo and ham wrap, 2 yogurts with honey, a cookie and an apple. 
It was pretty hard as I wasn't sure if I was gonna be able to work out hut lets be honest, I hate working out. It used to be something i actually enjoyed but now I drag my body to do it. I force myself. 
I haven't taken a day off in probably 5 or 6 months. ×
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This was lunch earlier which I completely forgot to post. It was a scrambled egg with onion and green pepper and cheese and mayo and ham wrap, 2 yogurts with honey, a cookie and an apple. It was pretty hard as I wasn't sure if I was gonna be able to work out hut lets be honest, I hate working out. It used to be something i actually enjoyed but now I drag my body to do it. I force myself. I haven't taken a day off in probably 5 or 6 months. × × × #anorexia  #ed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #anrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #anorexiawarrior  #edwarrior  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthwarrior  #edfighter  #anorexiafighter 
Update time:
I’m sicker than a dog. Strep throat got me down for the count and I’ve barely left my bed in 3 days. Does that make my ED brain scream? A little bit. Do I listen to it? Oh hell no. I’ve learned that a little time and rest for your body is necessary when you’re sick and definitely also when it’s your time of the month, like it is for me now.
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I go back to work tomorrow and work 5 days this week. I needed these two days off work and rest before my finals tomorrow and Tuesday and I know what’s best for my body. Drinking lots of water, staying hydrated, rest, and sleep. So that’s what I’ll be doing tonight, eating, sleeping, taking antibiotics and making sure I’m still fueling my body. I’m feeling pretty crappy but Jared has been taking wonderful care of me and that’s why he’s the best boyfriend in the world 😊❤️
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I hope everyone has a wonderful week, does AMAZING on their finals and has a GREAT start to Christmas break because you all deserve it and the holidays are wonderful. Also I was thinking of doing a live video soon so leave me some topics down below to talk about! 🙃
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#eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #bodypositivity #mentalhealthawareness #weightrestored #edrecovery #edwarrior #edawareness #realrecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoverywarrior #intuitiveeating #anxietywarrior #anxietyawareness #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior
Update time: I’m sicker than a dog. Strep throat got me down for the count and I’ve barely left my bed in 3 days. Does that make my ED brain scream? A little bit. Do I listen to it? Oh hell no. I’ve learned that a little time and rest for your body is necessary when you’re sick and definitely also when it’s your time of the month, like it is for me now. —— I go back to work tomorrow and work 5 days this week. I needed these two days off work and rest before my finals tomorrow and Tuesday and I know what’s best for my body. Drinking lots of water, staying hydrated, rest, and sleep. So that’s what I’ll be doing tonight, eating, sleeping, taking antibiotics and making sure I’m still fueling my body. I’m feeling pretty crappy but Jared has been taking wonderful care of me and that’s why he’s the best boyfriend in the world 😊❤️ —— I hope everyone has a wonderful week, does AMAZING on their finals and has a GREAT start to Christmas break because you all deserve it and the holidays are wonderful. Also I was thinking of doing a live video soon so leave me some topics down below to talk about! 🙃 —— #eatingdisorderawareness  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bodypositivity  #mentalhealthawareness  #weightrestored  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edawareness  #realrecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recoverywarrior  #intuitiveeating  #anxietywarrior  #anxietyawareness  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior 
#lunch I had a Lettuce,Cheese and Hummus Sandwich, Pepper Crackers and Fruit also a mocha ❤
I got the Sandwich idea from @jaymerecovery123 and boi it yum as❤🎉 Mondays are for a new start a new beginning! You can always start fresh and rest you mind and go for your goal❤ I promise you start fresh is always a positive thing and it might be hard but you can push though it and reach it in the end.
#anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #recovery #edwarrior #anafighter #edrecovery #anxiety #anorexiarecoverymeal #edsoilder #edfigher #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior #anasucks #fightanorexia
#lunch  I had a Lettuce,Cheese and Hummus Sandwich, Pepper Crackers and Fruit also a mocha ❤ I got the Sandwich idea from @jaymerecovery123 and boi it yum as❤🎉 Mondays are for a new start a new beginning! You can always start fresh and rest you mind and go for your goal❤ I promise you start fresh is always a positive thing and it might be hard but you can push though it and reach it in the end. #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #recovery  #edwarrior  #anafighter  #edrecovery  #anxiety  #anorexiarecoverymeal  #edsoilder  #edfigher  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anasucks  #fightanorexia 
🥄 s n a c k / 8 : 3 0 p m
* mix de almendras y maní
* dos galletas de quinoa sin azúcar
* un plátano
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☕ o n c e / 7 : 4 9 p m
* batido proteico de chocolate
* pan de molde con mermelada de mora
* tres frutillas picadas
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#anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anorexia #recovery #edfighting #prorecovery #strongnotskinny #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edwarrior #recoveryisworthit #foodislife #staystrong #eatingdisorder #healthyweight #nofoodnolife #youcandoit #fighting #recover
🌸🌼🌸Bonsoir tardif 🌃🌸🌼🌸Pas sûre qu'il y ait encore grand monde ici 😅 J'espère que vous avez passé un bon dimanche. Pour beaucoup les dimanches riment avec détente et famille. Il en est de même pour  moi 😊
🌸Du coup, j'ai réussi à me détendre et maîtriser mon hyperactivité. Je n'ai pas été marcher. La culpabilité est là... Mais je me dis que j'ai arraché un oeil à l'anorexie. 👊
🌸Ces derniers temps je marchais, je faisais des courses à droite à gauche et beaucoup de ménage (vu que je suis privée de sport) pour éliminer un maximum de calories. 🙄 Même la marche m'est interdite. Mais ... 🤐
🌸Je ne l'ai même pas encore quittée qu'elle est toujours là. Elle me demande de rester de ne pas l'abandonner. Pourtant je n'ai même pas encore réussi à stabiliser mon poids. Mais elle me dit sans cesse : "Anya, tu peux faire mieux. Maigris encore. Tu seras plus belle. Plus forte."
🌸Comme si en étant à deux doigts de la mort, encore plus faible physiquement, nous rendait surpuissant mentalement. C'est ça l'anorexie. 💀
🌸Une drogue.
🌸Ce soir j'ai mangé une demie patate douce grillée, un oignon rouge et 1/4 de pomme au curry. C'était bon. Mais ça me rendait malade de manger. J'en avais une boule à la gorge. Comme dessert obligatoire j'ai opté pour un yaourt pour que ça glisse... J'en aurais pleuré...
🌸Maintenant je vais dormir, rever qu'elle fait ses valises et qu'elle s'en va ... 💀🖕
#anorexiarecovery #fuckanorexia #anorexiadiary #anorexie #anorexia #anorexiementale #anorexierecovery #anorexierestrictive #anorexiemoncombat #anorexiefight #recoveryanorexie #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #fightanorexia #curry #meals #mealsdiary #onion #apple #sweetpotato #eatingdisorder #healthy
🌸🌼🌸Bonsoir tardif 🌃🌸🌼🌸Pas sûre qu'il y ait encore grand monde ici 😅 J'espère que vous avez passé un bon dimanche. Pour beaucoup les dimanches riment avec détente et famille. Il en est de même pour moi 😊 🌸Du coup, j'ai réussi à me détendre et maîtriser mon hyperactivité. Je n'ai pas été marcher. La culpabilité est là... Mais je me dis que j'ai arraché un oeil à l'anorexie. 👊 🌸Ces derniers temps je marchais, je faisais des courses à droite à gauche et beaucoup de ménage (vu que je suis privée de sport) pour éliminer un maximum de calories. 🙄 Même la marche m'est interdite. Mais ... 🤐 🌸Je ne l'ai même pas encore quittée qu'elle est toujours là. Elle me demande de rester de ne pas l'abandonner. Pourtant je n'ai même pas encore réussi à stabiliser mon poids. Mais elle me dit sans cesse : "Anya, tu peux faire mieux. Maigris encore. Tu seras plus belle. Plus forte." 🌸Comme si en étant à deux doigts de la mort, encore plus faible physiquement, nous rendait surpuissant mentalement. C'est ça l'anorexie. 💀 🌸Une drogue. 🌸Ce soir j'ai mangé une demie patate douce grillée, un oignon rouge et 1/4 de pomme au curry. C'était bon. Mais ça me rendait malade de manger. J'en avais une boule à la gorge. Comme dessert obligatoire j'ai opté pour un yaourt pour que ça glisse... J'en aurais pleuré... 🌸Maintenant je vais dormir, rever qu'elle fait ses valises et qu'elle s'en va ... 💀🖕 #anorexiarecovery  #fuckanorexia  #anorexiadiary  #anorexie  #anorexia  #anorexiementale  #anorexierecovery  #anorexierestrictive  #anorexiemoncombat  #anorexiefight  #recoveryanorexie  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #fightanorexia  #curry  #meals  #mealsdiary  #onion  #apple  #sweetpotato  #eatingdisorder  #healthy 
#Eveningsnack earlier was a bowl of Cheerios 🥣xx
Had this whilst sat with mum watching vampire diaries, distracted me a lot from eating which was good! Also managed to not do all of my sort of rituals whilst eating it, just the usual where I have to stir it all around a certain amount of times or I can’t eat it. Distractions are a very good way to limit my behaviours which I’ve now realised x
Did start feeling really guilty after especially with not doing all of my rituals/routines, but took my medication which helped a little although I’ve started to feel really bad again (ill wise). So I’m now in bed, one second absolutely freezing and the next boiling 🤦🏼‍♀️ Mum is thinking of taking me to the doctors tomorrow as I just haven’t gotten any better. My immune system is absolute shit so it’s to be expected really, once I’ve caught something it takes ages to fight it off. For the most part I complied with my plan today though which is good as the past two days I refused and the other was too ill to x
Goodnight x
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#Eveningsnack  earlier was a bowl of Cheerios 🥣xx Had this whilst sat with mum watching vampire diaries, distracted me a lot from eating which was good! Also managed to not do all of my sort of rituals whilst eating it, just the usual where I have to stir it all around a certain amount of times or I can’t eat it. Distractions are a very good way to limit my behaviours which I’ve now realised x Did start feeling really guilty after especially with not doing all of my rituals/routines, but took my medication which helped a little although I’ve started to feel really bad again (ill wise). So I’m now in bed, one second absolutely freezing and the next boiling 🤦🏼‍♀️ Mum is thinking of taking me to the doctors tomorrow as I just haven’t gotten any better. My immune system is absolute shit so it’s to be expected really, once I’ve caught something it takes ages to fight it off. For the most part I complied with my plan today though which is good as the past two days I refused and the other was too ill to x Goodnight x — { #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recovering  #foodisfuel  #foodporn  #food  #fooddiary  #fdoe  #yummy  #gainingweightiscool  #gaininglife  #slayingana  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #foodislife  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryforlife  }
Lunch today. Anxiety has been bad again. My mom took me shopping and we went to Starbucks to hangout which was nice, but I still feel that tightening in my chest even tho there isn’t anything to be anxious about. #2fab4ana #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiafight #beateatingdisorders #edrecovery #ed #edfam #eatingdisorders #exerciseaddiction #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #strongnotskinny #prorecovery #recovery
Lunch today. Anxiety has been bad again. My mom took me shopping and we went to Starbucks to hangout which was nice, but I still feel that tightening in my chest even tho there isn’t anything to be anxious about. #2fab4ana  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiafight  #beateatingdisorders  #edrecovery  #ed  #edfam  #eatingdisorders  #exerciseaddiction  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #strongnotskinny  #prorecovery  #recovery 
Oh hey Sunday.... PTW ⚠️
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Ugh, the worst day mentally in 48 hours at least. I’ve been really trying with my hydration levels and food intake, especially Friday and yesterday, but today it all went wrong! I’ve had a massive dip again, now I’ve got major kidney and rib pain again😫.
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Anyway, some positivity is calling this post, right?! I had another day fundraising today, and we raised an incredible £81 in just ONE DAY!! I’m in genuine shock, I’ve been exhausted today, but it’s made it all worth it🙈.
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On a side note, I’ve made a deal with @ameliaealson to try my best not to relapse with SH, before I see her in a few weeks! It’ll be difficult and I don’t know if I’ll make it, but I’ll give it a go for sure! Thank you for being so amazing today👯‍♂️.
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As always, @niamh_fights_ has been incredible. The support you continuously show me, since we started speaking means so much to me! You make me so proud too😘
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My DMs are open, I’ll reply ASAP but it might not be as fast as it normally is, because I’m exhausted! Stay strong lovelies, this is your Sunday evening reminder that you can get through this next week! Lots of love💚
(P.S, who else it’s gutted that it’s the I’m A Celeb final tonight, because I am! Who’s your king/queen?🕷🐛)
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Oh hey Sunday.... PTW ⚠️ • Ugh, the worst day mentally in 48 hours at least. I’ve been really trying with my hydration levels and food intake, especially Friday and yesterday, but today it all went wrong! I’ve had a massive dip again, now I’ve got major kidney and rib pain again😫. • Anyway, some positivity is calling this post, right?! I had another day fundraising today, and we raised an incredible £81 in just ONE DAY!! I’m in genuine shock, I’ve been exhausted today, but it’s made it all worth it🙈. • On a side note, I’ve made a deal with @ameliaealson to try my best not to relapse with SH, before I see her in a few weeks! It’ll be difficult and I don’t know if I’ll make it, but I’ll give it a go for sure! Thank you for being so amazing today👯‍♂️. • As always, @niamh_fights_ has been incredible. The support you continuously show me, since we started speaking means so much to me! You make me so proud too😘 • My DMs are open, I’ll reply ASAP but it might not be as fast as it normally is, because I’m exhausted! Stay strong lovelies, this is your Sunday evening reminder that you can get through this next week! Lots of love💚 (P.S, who else it’s gutted that it’s the I’m A Celeb final tonight, because I am! Who’s your king/queen?🕷🐛) #mentalhealthrecovery  #ieshasmentalhealthrecovery  #stopthestigma  #psychiatricdayhospital  #psychiatricpatient  #eatingdisorderstruggle  #anorexiaimcomingforyou  #anorexiawarrior  #onemouthfulatatime  #foodisfuel  #depressionsucks  #anxiety  #emotinallyunstablepersonalitydisorder  #eupd  #baddayshappen  #itsokaynottobeok #relapseisinevitable  #challengingmythoughts  #challenginganorexia  #anorexiavoice  #fightingthosethoughts  #letsdothis  #anorexiabattle  #recoveryisntlinear  ✨
Happy Sunday🙌🏻! Hope you all had a lovely weekend 😊💜. I had a lovely one, after a few days in St Lucia last week it was nice to relax and obviously have some drinks 🥂🍸😁
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Managed to get 2 decent workouts in as well💪🏻👌🏻. Aaaand tomorrow I’m back to St Lucia! So ready for the 28degree heat and that sun😍🌴✈️
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Happy Sunday🙌🏻! Hope you all had a lovely weekend 😊💜. I had a lovely one, after a few days in St Lucia last week it was nice to relax and obviously have some drinks 🥂🍸😁 . Managed to get 2 decent workouts in as well💪🏻👌🏻. Aaaand tomorrow I’m back to St Lucia! So ready for the 28degree heat and that sun😍🌴✈️ . . . . . . . . . #crew  cabincrew #travelling  #airhostess  #stewardess  #traveller  #travel  #stronglife  #anorexiawarrior  #bodypositivewomen  #fitnesbloggeruk  #lovelife  #happylife  #fitnessbloggers  #personaltrainer  #fatlossworkout  #girlswholiftweights  #girlswholiftheavy  #smile  #happiness  #toneup  #eatingdisorderwarrior  #stronglife  #glutestraining  #modelgirl  #bootymotivation  #workoutmotivation  #vacation  #holiday  #sea  #travelblogger 
#pintparty with @lp.recovers ❤️ This pint was good, i loved the big chunks of peanutbutter! But i felt the almondmilk a little too much. It was very filling though, so i had half of it earlier today and the rest as #nightsnack 🐄 Ben & Jerry's P.B & Cookies 🐄 7/10! 🌟 #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdissorder #benandjerrys #icecream #fearfood #recoverywin #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #staypostive
#breakfast A bowl of Just Bran, Slice of Toast with Peanut Butter and Banana 
Growing up I never really cared what I ate as long as I was satisfied. But now things have definitely changed I went vegetarian and then vegan now to only eating white meat. I will go back vegan when I can, because I enjoyed that a d I ate want I wanted. But another thing is i got sick a lot growing up but that never stopped my from eating but now it does!
Life chances and the way you used to do things also changes. No one is perfect we are all different in our own little ways ❤
#anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #recovery #edwarrior #anafighter #edrecovery #anxiety #anorexiarecoverymeal #edsoilder #edfigher #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior #anasucks #fightanorexia
#breakfast  A bowl of Just Bran, Slice of Toast with Peanut Butter and Banana Growing up I never really cared what I ate as long as I was satisfied. But now things have definitely changed I went vegetarian and then vegan now to only eating white meat. I will go back vegan when I can, because I enjoyed that a d I ate want I wanted. But another thing is i got sick a lot growing up but that never stopped my from eating but now it does! Life chances and the way you used to do things also changes. No one is perfect we are all different in our own little ways ❤ #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #recovery  #edwarrior  #anafighter  #edrecovery  #anxiety  #anorexiarecoverymeal  #edsoilder  #edfigher  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anasucks  #fightanorexia 
Lunch is some shrimp soup !!🥰 I was craving soup due to cold weather and I had it 🤷🏽‍♀️ proud of myself for choosing to make something different 🙏
#anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #lunch #soup #soupseason #makedecembersparkle #fuckanorexia #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel
C h o o s i n g  L I F E ✨⁣
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I’ve gotten some distressing messages lately from people asking me how I made the choice to recover. I remember not wanting to recover, wanting to just stay in my anorexia. But I never not wanted to recover, just not in that moment. I wanted to postpone it as long as I could. Wait for the ‘right’ moment. ⁣
When I think about it now I can almost not believe how someone would not want to recover. ⁣
Why? Your asking. Why did I choose to disobey the thoughts, how did I fight it? Well to be honest I could write a whole book about that. But mainly, because I realised something;⁣
It will never, ever be enough. ⁣
You will never have lost ‘enough’ weight. ⁣
You will never have been ‘the sickest’.⁣
You will never be inpatient ‘enough’ times. ⁣
You will never have burnt ‘enough’ calories. ⁣
At least, according to your eating disorder. ⁣
You gotta make the disicion to stop. It’s either that or die. Think about it like this:⁣
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Recover, and if you still think life’s better with your ed, fine do your thing. You can always go back! But at least give it a chance!! ⁣
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I have never in my life thought I was thin. But when I look back now, to old pictures, I just can’t believe how I wasn’t able to see that??!! ⁣
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I just want you all to know, life is sooooooo friggin beautiful. And happiness cAn be found! You just can’t give up, that’s the only rule. Fall down, stand back up again, repeat. I honestly believe 100% recovery is possible and I WILL proof it to all of you. I promise 💛 ⁣
Do you promise to me never to give up???! 👇🏼
C h o o s i n g L I F E ✨⁣ ⁣ I’ve gotten some distressing messages lately from people asking me how I made the choice to recover. I remember not wanting to recover, wanting to just stay in my anorexia. But I never not wanted to recover, just not in that moment. I wanted to postpone it as long as I could. Wait for the ‘right’ moment. ⁣ When I think about it now I can almost not believe how someone would not want to recover. ⁣ Why? Your asking. Why did I choose to disobey the thoughts, how did I fight it? Well to be honest I could write a whole book about that. But mainly, because I realised something;⁣ It will never, ever be enough. ⁣ You will never have lost ‘enough’ weight. ⁣ You will never have been ‘the sickest’.⁣ You will never be inpatient ‘enough’ times. ⁣ You will never have burnt ‘enough’ calories. ⁣ At least, according to your eating disorder. ⁣ You gotta make the disicion to stop. It’s either that or die. Think about it like this:⁣ ⁣ Recover, and if you still think life’s better with your ed, fine do your thing. You can always go back! But at least give it a chance!! ⁣ ⁣ I have never in my life thought I was thin. But when I look back now, to old pictures, I just can’t believe how I wasn’t able to see that??!! ⁣ ⁣ I just want you all to know, life is sooooooo friggin beautiful. And happiness cAn be found! You just can’t give up, that’s the only rule. Fall down, stand back up again, repeat. I honestly believe 100% recovery is possible and I WILL proof it to all of you. I promise 💛 ⁣ Do you promise to me never to give up???! 👇🏼
Omg guess who is wearing a skirt again ??(sorry for the bad lighting by the way )
Yes it's ME
The last time I was wearing a skirt was when I was underweight 
No skirt ever really fit though this time
 because of my underweight body 
And now I finally can wear one again and it FITS !!
My anorexia wasn't happy about it and gave me a feeling of looking fat because my legs are thicker and my body is healthy and the skirt is fitting 
BUT WHO CARES 
Yes I gained weight but I also gained More freedom 
More happiness 
More memories 
A more feminine body 
And SO MUCH more 
So fuck off anorexia I'm not gonna listen to your lies !!
I hate this about anorexia that she tries to make me feel fat and I should go back to my underweight body 
That I was happier there 
But NO I wasn't happy at all 
I felt disgusting and not comfortable !!
I was just  existing and I forced myself  to follow my anorexic rules and rituals 
I WASN'T HAPPY AT ALL 
Now I am happy 
I have a body to be proud of 
I CAN eat and ENJOY my life !! NEVER listen to anorexia and her lies she just wants you to die !!
But I want you to be happy !!
Now you can choose for yourself what do you want ?
Being happy and mentally free or a slave of anorexia .
I love you all so much and keep fighting!!❤️❤️
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Omg guess who is wearing a skirt again ??(sorry for the bad lighting by the way ) Yes it's ME The last time I was wearing a skirt was when I was underweight No skirt ever really fit though this time because of my underweight body And now I finally can wear one again and it FITS !! My anorexia wasn't happy about it and gave me a feeling of looking fat because my legs are thicker and my body is healthy and the skirt is fitting BUT WHO CARES Yes I gained weight but I also gained More freedom More happiness More memories A more feminine body And SO MUCH more So fuck off anorexia I'm not gonna listen to your lies !! I hate this about anorexia that she tries to make me feel fat and I should go back to my underweight body That I was happier there But NO I wasn't happy at all I felt disgusting and not comfortable !! I was just existing and I forced myself to follow my anorexic rules and rituals I WASN'T HAPPY AT ALL Now I am happy I have a body to be proud of I CAN eat and ENJOY my life !! NEVER listen to anorexia and her lies she just wants you to die !! But I want you to be happy !! Now you can choose for yourself what do you want ? Being happy and mentally free or a slave of anorexia . I love you all so much and keep fighting!!❤️❤️ __________________ #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior   #Recovery  #mentalhealthawareness  #fuckcalories  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia   #selflove  #gainingweightiscool  #recoveryispossible  #edrecovery  #transformation  #beforeandafter  #prorecovery  #strongnotskinny  #recoverywin  #anorexianervosa  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryiswothit  #beatingana  #ana  #anorexia  #treansformation 
Ughh, so I unintentionally slept in way too late today, which is something I deeply despise. Haven’t accomplished anything yet and didn’t even get to do my usual short workout, but surprisingly I still pushed myself to actually make something hot for lunch; so chicken, green beans, & carrots it was. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #beatingana #fightingana #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #edrecovery #edwarrior #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #foodporn #foodie #fooddiary #balancednotclean #edfam #edfamily #lunch
Ughh, so I unintentionally slept in way too late today, which is something I deeply despise. Haven’t accomplished anything yet and didn’t even get to do my usual short workout, but surprisingly I still pushed myself to actually make something hot for lunch; so chicken, green beans, & carrots it was. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #anorexiawarrior  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #food  #foodporn  #foodie  #fooddiary  #balancednotclean  #edfam  #edfamily  #lunch 
Today my mum and I spontaneously decided to watch the nutcracker 10 minutes before the performance started. It was beautiful 🙏🏼💃🏼
After that, on our way home, I decided to challenge myself with a chocolate covered apple on the Christmas market!! My mum asked me if I want one, I have to admit that I wouldn’t have said something or bought one if she wouldn’t have asked me. That’s anorexia in my head telling me I‘m not allowed to say that I‘m hungry or that I want to eat a specific food, like for example this apple. Well anyways I‘m glad that I ate it, because it was really good! 
I hope you all had a fun and relaxing weekend! xx ♥️ #eatingdisorderawareness #recoverisworthit #recoverywin #recoverysayings #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexia #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecovery #healing #mentalhealthmatters
Today my mum and I spontaneously decided to watch the nutcracker 10 minutes before the performance started. It was beautiful 🙏🏼💃🏼 After that, on our way home, I decided to challenge myself with a chocolate covered apple on the Christmas market!! My mum asked me if I want one, I have to admit that I wouldn’t have said something or bought one if she wouldn’t have asked me. That’s anorexia in my head telling me I‘m not allowed to say that I‘m hungry or that I want to eat a specific food, like for example this apple. Well anyways I‘m glad that I ate it, because it was really good! I hope you all had a fun and relaxing weekend! xx ♥️ #eatingdisorderawareness  #recoverisworthit  #recoverywin  #recoverysayings  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiarecovery  #healing  #mentalhealthmatters 
#dinner war heute wieder ein Paprika kidneybohnen-paprika-salat mit Käse und #nightsnack eine Tafel #milkaschokolade , eine Tüte @got7nutrition sour cream and onion Chips und eine Quarkcreme 😋
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Heute war wieder Recht entspannt...der 2. Advent war Recht gemütlich 😄... morgen geht wieder die Schule weiter...ich bin gespannt auf den Aufsatz den ich zurück bekomme😲...naja ich hoffe das beste
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Wie war euer 2. Advent?was habt ihr heute gemacht?😮😇
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#recoverylose #recovery #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eattolive #strongnotskinny #anorexia #anorexialoses #anorexianervosa #anorexiawontwin #anorexianervosarecovery #ana #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter
#dinner  war heute wieder ein Paprika kidneybohnen-paprika-salat mit Käse und #nightsnack  eine Tafel #milkaschokolade  , eine Tüte @got7nutrition sour cream and onion Chips und eine Quarkcreme 😋 . Heute war wieder Recht entspannt...der 2. Advent war Recht gemütlich 😄... morgen geht wieder die Schule weiter...ich bin gespannt auf den Aufsatz den ich zurück bekomme😲...naja ich hoffe das beste . Wie war euer 2. Advent?was habt ihr heute gemacht?😮😇 . #recoverylose  #recovery  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eattolive  #strongnotskinny  #anorexia  #anorexialoses  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiawontwin  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ana  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter 
#Dinner earlier was Roast pork, roast potatoes, cauliflower and a bit of gravy then pud was rice pudding x
I’m aware this isn’t enough but we didn’t cook enough roast potatoes so had to make do, and also didn’t cook much veg. This was still a huge challenge though as pork is a major fear for me, but it was really nice!! I had it all other than I refused a bit of the rice pudding after. As I didn’t completely follow my plan yesterday and had a few refusals today has been even harder which is to be expected, but I’m trying my hardest x
Now just chilling with mum watching vampire diaries, she doesn’t feel too well either so guessing it’s the same thing. Good distraction from dumb thoughts x
Enjoy your evening xx
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#Dinner  earlier was Roast pork, roast potatoes, cauliflower and a bit of gravy then pud was rice pudding x I’m aware this isn’t enough but we didn’t cook enough roast potatoes so had to make do, and also didn’t cook much veg. This was still a huge challenge though as pork is a major fear for me, but it was really nice!! I had it all other than I refused a bit of the rice pudding after. As I didn’t completely follow my plan yesterday and had a few refusals today has been even harder which is to be expected, but I’m trying my hardest x Now just chilling with mum watching vampire diaries, she doesn’t feel too well either so guessing it’s the same thing. Good distraction from dumb thoughts x Enjoy your evening xx — { #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recovering  #foodisfuel  #foodporn  #food  #fooddiary  #fdoe  #yummy  #gainingweightiscool  #gaininglife  #slayingana  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #foodislife  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryforlife  }
Hey lovely people 💗 How has your day been? 🌻 
I spent another amazing day in Helsinki with my boyfriend exploring the city, the national museum and eating yummy food. I already feel better, the decision not to attend university anymore as long as I’m feeling unwell seemed to be a good one. I feel relieved and more time for #SelfCare also means more time for recovery. Today I kicked EDs butt. I was anxious all morning because I didn’t know what I would eat for lunch since we hadn’t planned anything out yet but when lunch time came and I was to choose a place to eat at I somehow regained my strength and faith in recovery and decided to choose the most challenging option: A Brunch buffet. First of all, I used to love brunch, I would ask to brunch on every occasion possible until restricting behaviors began taking over my life. So today was a little breakthrough. And secondly- and most importantly- I had all the damn stuff I wanted. I tried EVERYTHING and I didn’t purge it. I did feel uncomfortably full for hours and hours afterwards but I made it through. I’m so unbelievably proud of myself. Every day is a new chance to choose recovery over this horrible illness and today I made the right choice. 😍 
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Quote of the day: “There is no magic cure, no making it go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn’t matter anymore.” -Laurie Halse Anderson 🌺
Hey lovely people 💗 How has your day been? 🌻 I spent another amazing day in Helsinki with my boyfriend exploring the city, the national museum and eating yummy food. I already feel better, the decision not to attend university anymore as long as I’m feeling unwell seemed to be a good one. I feel relieved and more time for #SelfCare  also means more time for recovery. Today I kicked EDs butt. I was anxious all morning because I didn’t know what I would eat for lunch since we hadn’t planned anything out yet but when lunch time came and I was to choose a place to eat at I somehow regained my strength and faith in recovery and decided to choose the most challenging option: A Brunch buffet. First of all, I used to love brunch, I would ask to brunch on every occasion possible until restricting behaviors began taking over my life. So today was a little breakthrough. And secondly- and most importantly- I had all the damn stuff I wanted. I tried EVERYTHING and I didn’t purge it. I did feel uncomfortably full for hours and hours afterwards but I made it through. I’m so unbelievably proud of myself. Every day is a new chance to choose recovery over this horrible illness and today I made the right choice. 😍 _ Quote of the day: “There is no magic cure, no making it go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn’t matter anymore.” -Laurie Halse Anderson 🌺
Einen wunderschönen zweiten #advent wünsche ich euch 🙊❄️🎅🏼 Ich hoffe ihr habt euren Tag mit euren Lieben verbracht. Ich hab mich heute mit einer Freundin/Arbeitskollegin auf einen Tee getroffen. Wir haben uns super Unterhalten und sie hat sehr viel Verständnis gezeigt was meine Krankheit angeht. Außerdem habe ich heute eine ganze Salat Tasche vom Dönermann gegessen 🙊💭 Aber mit Abstand das schönste heute war es mit meinem Baby meinem ein und alles. Mit dem Mann meines Lebens 🥰 Plätzchen zu backen 🍪 Morgen beginnt dann wieder der Ernst des Lebens 😔 Arzt Termin... #eatingdisorder #ed #fightagainstana #strongnotskinny #loveyourself #recovery #edrecovery #selflove #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #noana #prorecovery #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #beatana #foodisyourfriend #staystrong #anorexiawarrior #recoveryisworthit #progress #mentalhealth #relaps #healthy
Einen wunderschönen zweiten #advent  wünsche ich euch 🙊❄️🎅🏼 Ich hoffe ihr habt euren Tag mit euren Lieben verbracht. Ich hab mich heute mit einer Freundin/Arbeitskollegin auf einen Tee getroffen. Wir haben uns super Unterhalten und sie hat sehr viel Verständnis gezeigt was meine Krankheit angeht. Außerdem habe ich heute eine ganze Salat Tasche vom Dönermann gegessen 🙊💭 Aber mit Abstand das schönste heute war es mit meinem Baby meinem ein und alles. Mit dem Mann meines Lebens 🥰 Plätzchen zu backen 🍪 Morgen beginnt dann wieder der Ernst des Lebens 😔 Arzt Termin... #eatingdisorder  #ed  #fightagainstana  #strongnotskinny  #loveyourself  #recovery  #edrecovery  #selflove  #edfighter  #anorexiarecovery  #noana  #prorecovery  #eatittobeatit  #edwarrior  #beatana  #foodisyourfriend  #staystrong  #anorexiawarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #progress  #mentalhealth  #relaps  #healthy 
Hello ^^ #breakfast was #muesli with soy yogurt and an apple🍎 today i baked the biscuits with my sister and tmw where're going to go out for lunch😳 i'm so stressed atm but i know that i'll make it💪🏻 #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiawarrior #fightinganorexia #beatanorexia #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #recovery #tryingtorecover #tryingmybest #staystrong #food #eating #recoveryisworthit #mentalillness #weightgain #healthy #health #positivity #eatittobeati
Hello ^^ #breakfast  was #muesli  with soy yogurt and an apple🍎 today i baked the biscuits with my sister and tmw where're going to go out for lunch😳 i'm so stressed atm but i know that i'll make it💪🏻 #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #fightinganorexia  #beatanorexia  #nourishtoflourish  #edwarrior  #recovery  #tryingtorecover  #tryingmybest  #staystrong  #food  #eating  #recoveryisworthit  #mentalillness  #weightgain  #healthy  #health  #positivity  #eatittobeati 
yesterday was one of the best days i’ve had in a very long time✨ i actually felt like a normal teenager. i was laughing and LIVING, not just being present and surviving. me and my best friend went to the jingle bell ball and had the best time! yes we got matching christmas shirts🤣 all the acts were so good, especially Halsey😉😍
here are my food challenges from the day !! ya girl had PIZZA and DESSERT !! i was absolutely bricking it but i rose above anorexia (for the most part) and ordered what I wanted. i say “for the most part” because i did choose one of the light pizzas that were the low cal ones...i couldn’t fully commit to a proper pizza. but nevertheless i still ate a freaking pizza which is a HUGE fear. but the dessert, that was the biggest challenge. i haven’t ordered a dessert in a restaurant in AGES like i couldn’t even tell you😦 but yesterday i did and i enjoyed every mouthful !! it wasn’t a low cal option, i just ordered it because I WANTED IT🤩 the pure freedom was amazing. and i was too distracted by being with my friend and watching the concert to even feel guilty!
i’m so proud of myself and that is okay. you should never be embarrassed or feel bad about being proud of yourself, even if it’s for something so small. i hope this inspires all of you to challenge yourself a little today and everyday because you are all so strong, and if i can do it, so can you💪🏼 my dms are always open and i’m always here if anyone ever needs a friend to talk to. ily all💗
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yesterday was one of the best days i’ve had in a very long time✨ i actually felt like a normal teenager. i was laughing and LIVING, not just being present and surviving. me and my best friend went to the jingle bell ball and had the best time! yes we got matching christmas shirts🤣 all the acts were so good, especially Halsey😉😍 here are my food challenges from the day !! ya girl had PIZZA and DESSERT !! i was absolutely bricking it but i rose above anorexia (for the most part) and ordered what I wanted. i say “for the most part” because i did choose one of the light pizzas that were the low cal ones...i couldn’t fully commit to a proper pizza. but nevertheless i still ate a freaking pizza which is a HUGE fear. but the dessert, that was the biggest challenge. i haven’t ordered a dessert in a restaurant in AGES like i couldn’t even tell you😦 but yesterday i did and i enjoyed every mouthful !! it wasn’t a low cal option, i just ordered it because I WANTED IT🤩 the pure freedom was amazing. and i was too distracted by being with my friend and watching the concert to even feel guilty! i’m so proud of myself and that is okay. you should never be embarrassed or feel bad about being proud of yourself, even if it’s for something so small. i hope this inspires all of you to challenge yourself a little today and everyday because you are all so strong, and if i can do it, so can you💪🏼 my dms are always open and i’m always here if anyone ever needs a friend to talk to. ily all💗 #edrecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodismedicine  #anorexiawarrior  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #youarevalid  #edfighter  #recoverywarrior  #recoverywarriors  #fuckanorexia  #foodphotography 
Day 9️⃣ of #hansleighsan ❄️🤶🏼🎅🏽❄️ Supermarket salted caramel and chocolate chip cookie 🍪 Slightly warmed in the micro omd 🤤 
AN is sneaky af. She’s one of those cookies which you bite into thinking it’s chocolate chip, and turns out to be raisin 💔😛 Stay present in your recovery and check if AN is sneakily intervening in your daily choices. Soon these challenges won’t even be ‘wins’- they’ll be just normal ❤️
Day 9️⃣ of #hansleighsan  ❄️🤶🏼🎅🏽❄️ Supermarket salted caramel and chocolate chip cookie 🍪 Slightly warmed in the micro omd 🤤 AN is sneaky af. She’s one of those cookies which you bite into thinking it’s chocolate chip, and turns out to be raisin 💔😛 Stay present in your recovery and check if AN is sneakily intervening in your daily choices. Soon these challenges won’t even be ‘wins’- they’ll be just normal ❤️
Morning snack: pickle, milk, meats, cheese 🧀, and crackers (with cheese in the middle). Where all my pickle lovers at?!!!! #ana #anorexia #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #anorexiawarrior #anorexicgirl #eatingdisorderawareness #edfam #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfamiliy #edfamilyrecovery #edfamilyeatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edrecover #morningsnack #foodpics
Breakfast: half banana, orange, milk, potatoes ham and egg thingy. Were going out snowmobiling!!! So excited cause my parents are allowing me to do this!! Also I will be probably posting my 100 followers challenge sometime this week! 💕✨#ana #anorexia #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #anorexiawarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexicgirl #eatingdisorderawareness #edfam #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfamiliy #edfamilyrecovery #edrecovery #edrecover #breakfast #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdissorder #eatingdisorter #ibelieveinyou #eatittobeatit #foodpics
Breakfast: half banana, orange, milk, potatoes ham and egg thingy. Were going out snowmobiling!!! So excited cause my parents are allowing me to do this!! Also I will be probably posting my 100 followers challenge sometime this week! 💕✨#ana  #anorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexicgirl  #eatingdisorderawareness  #edfam  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edfamiliy  #edfamilyrecovery  #edrecovery  #edrecover  #breakfast  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #eatingdisorter  #ibelieveinyou  #eatittobeatit  #foodpics 
Bonjour mes battantes 🖖

Voici le goûter du jour 💪

Je vous laisse deviner 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔  ceux que j'ai mangé indice 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 c'est trop bon 😍 😍 😍 😍 😘 😋 😙 😋 😘 😘 😘 😘 😙 😚 😗 #chocolat #anorexiemental #recover #teamwarrior #warriors #instagram #instafood #anorexie #eating #eat #vivre #instagram #combattre #combat #anorexie #anorexiarecovering #anafight #teamsharpe #fuckana #anorexiemental #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianerviosa #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edrecovery #gouter #gourmandises #anorexierecovery #anorexiarecover #accepter #sebattre #defi  #ano
Bonjour mes battantes 🖖 Voici le goûter du jour 💪 Je vous laisse deviner 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔 ceux que j'ai mangé indice 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 c'est trop bon 😍 😍 😍 😍 😘 😋 😙 😋 😘 😘 😘 😘 😙 😚 😗 #chocolat  #anorexiemental  #recover  #teamwarrior  #warriors  #instagram  #instafood  #anorexie  #eating  #eat  #vivre  #instagram  #combattre  #combat  #anorexie  #anorexiarecovering  #anafight  #teamsharpe  #fuckana  #anorexiemental  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #edrecovery  #gouter  #gourmandises  #anorexierecovery  #anorexiarecover  #accepter  #sebattre  #defi  #ano 
#Lunch way earlier was a ham and cucumber sandwich, side salad and Greek honey yoghurt with two digestives xx
Forgot to picture the yoghurt and digestives but I did have it, this was so difficult as I got full so quickly and not only that my appetite has got even worse with being unwell. Finished it though despite that x
Again sorry posting is all over the place at the moment, hopefully it will be normal again soon x
Keep fighting 🍃xx
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#Lunch  way earlier was a ham and cucumber sandwich, side salad and Greek honey yoghurt with two digestives xx Forgot to picture the yoghurt and digestives but I did have it, this was so difficult as I got full so quickly and not only that my appetite has got even worse with being unwell. Finished it though despite that x Again sorry posting is all over the place at the moment, hopefully it will be normal again soon x Keep fighting 🍃xx — { #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recovering  #foodisfuel  #foodporn  #food  #fooddiary  #fdoe  #yummy  #gainingweightiscool  #gaininglife  #slayingana  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #foodislife  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryforlife  }
💫y’all it has been 8 whole days of freEDom from crh!!
💫it’s not very much but i’m so happy because it’s the longest i’ve been home in more than 6 months! :)
💫 i feel so great. ed has been trying to be a meanie, and sunday night was SO bad, but i’m here and i’m stronger!!
💫there’s this custard place in my town, and i went there recently for the first time. i was so surprised to not have ANY ed thoughts, so that was amazing aah!!
💫it’s been so great to be home and i can’t wait for a life outside of hospitals.
#anarecovery #fuckanorexia #fuckana #loveyourself #nomorehospital #anorexiarecovery #anawarrior #anorexiawarrior
💫y’all it has been 8 whole days of freEDom from crh!! 💫it’s not very much but i’m so happy because it’s the longest i’ve been home in more than 6 months! :) 💫 i feel so great. ed has been trying to be a meanie, and sunday night was SO bad, but i’m here and i’m stronger!! 💫there’s this custard place in my town, and i went there recently for the first time. i was so surprised to not have ANY ed thoughts, so that was amazing aah!! 💫it’s been so great to be home and i can’t wait for a life outside of hospitals. #anarecovery  #fuckanorexia  #fuckana  #loveyourself  #nomorehospital  #anorexiarecovery  #anawarrior  #anorexiawarrior 
Hey ihr Lieben! ☺️
Ich habe mir überlegt, dass ich meine Seite gerne auf Deutsch umstellen möchte. Mein Englisch reicht zwar für die Basics aus, aber so richtig gut kann ich meine Gedanken und Gefühle damit nicht formulieren. Ich hoffe, dass das für die meisten hier okay ist 🙈
Bei mir ist im Moment ziemlich viel los.. Vor allem was Klausuren angeht 🙄 Es befindet sich einiges im Umschwung und ich merke auch, wie sich das in meinem Essverhalten widerspiegelt. Da heißt es echt jeden Tag aufs neue wieder: Kämpfen, kämpfen, kämpfen! 💪
Und ich bin unglaublich froh, dass ich meine Familie und meine Freunde an meiner Seite habe und weiß, dass sie mich unterstützen ❤️
#ana #recovery #recoveryanorexia #anorexia #anorexianerviosa #anorexianervousa #anorexiarecovery #ed #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdissorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #breakfastbowl #fuckana #keepfighting #nevergiveup #fruitlover #bettereveryday #anorexiafighter #anorexiafight #anorexiawarrior #magersuchtrecovery
Hey ihr Lieben! ☺️ Ich habe mir überlegt, dass ich meine Seite gerne auf Deutsch umstellen möchte. Mein Englisch reicht zwar für die Basics aus, aber so richtig gut kann ich meine Gedanken und Gefühle damit nicht formulieren. Ich hoffe, dass das für die meisten hier okay ist 🙈 Bei mir ist im Moment ziemlich viel los.. Vor allem was Klausuren angeht 🙄 Es befindet sich einiges im Umschwung und ich merke auch, wie sich das in meinem Essverhalten widerspiegelt. Da heißt es echt jeden Tag aufs neue wieder: Kämpfen, kämpfen, kämpfen! 💪 Und ich bin unglaublich froh, dass ich meine Familie und meine Freunde an meiner Seite habe und weiß, dass sie mich unterstützen ❤️ #ana  #recovery  #recoveryanorexia  #anorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexianervousa  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #anorexianervosarecovery  #eatingdissorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #foodisfuel  #breakfastbowl  #fuckana  #keepfighting  #nevergiveup  #fruitlover  #bettereveryday  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiafight  #anorexiawarrior  #magersuchtrecovery 
Lunch- 6 chicken nuggets from MCDONALD’S and a medium diet coke😁 we’re leaving for the Christmas market now, wish me look for dinner❤️❤️
Lunch- 6 chicken nuggets from MCDONALD’S and a medium diet coke😁 we’re leaving for the Christmas market now, wish me look for dinner❤️❤️
Bedtime snack: chips, guac and a smoothie! Sorry the pic isn’t that great was watching a movie with the fam and didn’t want to disturb them.  Btw didn’t get a pic of dinner but it was dinner, roll, soup, mangoes with whip cream, and milk. #foodpics #nightsnack #bedtimesnack #dinner #anorexia #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #anorexiawarrior #anorexianervosarecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #edfam #edfamiliy #edfamilyrecovery #edrecovery #prorecovery #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery
Bedtime snack: chips, guac and a smoothie! Sorry the pic isn’t that great was watching a movie with the fam and didn’t want to disturb them. Btw didn’t get a pic of dinner but it was dinner, roll, soup, mangoes with whip cream, and milk. #foodpics  #nightsnack  #bedtimesnack  #dinner  #anorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edfamiliy  #edfamilyrecovery  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #recovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery 
Earliers #Morningsnack was an apple, a satsuma and 3 Rich teas 🍏xx
Posting it a little late as I’ve just been resting, still feel so ill and my throat hurts so badly now too. I hate feeling ill as it makes eating even harder but I’m doing my best x
Keep fighting xx
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Earliers #Morningsnack  was an apple, a satsuma and 3 Rich teas 🍏xx Posting it a little late as I’ve just been resting, still feel so ill and my throat hurts so badly now too. I hate feeling ill as it makes eating even harder but I’m doing my best x Keep fighting xx — { #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recovering  #foodisfuel  #foodporn  #food  #fooddiary  #fdoe  #yummy  #gainingweightiscool  #gaininglife  #slayingana  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #foodislife  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryforlife  }
There’s not enough to keep me going. If I am to be honest, my depression is an all time low, I’ve been pushed away by many friends, I am alone, and I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. No one seems to care, and the care I have for myself is slowly going
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There’s not enough to keep me going. If I am to be honest, my depression is an all time low, I’ve been pushed away by many friends, I am alone, and I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. No one seems to care, and the care I have for myself is slowly going - #anorexic  #anorexia  #anarecovery  #anorexicrecovery  #anorexiarecoverysoldier  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderfighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bulimia  #bulimiafree  #bulimicgirl  #bulimiarecover  #anorexiafight  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #eatittobeatit  #fooddiary  #positivity  #positivethinking  #icandothis  #vegan  #veganism  #veganforlife  #eatingdisorderawareness  #eatingdisorder  #positivity  #positivevibes  #positivethinking  #wecandoit  #kickanasass 
🍶 d e s a y u n o / 8 : 5 4 a m
* avena con un cuarto de manzana picada
* una taza de ensure
* medio plátano
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Snack after breakfast was crackers, strawberries and cucumber. 
I had some before I took the picture btw. 
This was hard for two things; I had just had breakfast and I was still hungry despite the amount of food. And I really dont want to eat, ive been gaining a ton of weight recently. 
I'm gonna try and distract myself but.. I dont know. ×
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Snack after breakfast was crackers, strawberries and cucumber. I had some before I took the picture btw. This was hard for two things; I had just had breakfast and I was still hungry despite the amount of food. And I really dont want to eat, ive been gaining a ton of weight recently. I'm gonna try and distract myself but.. I dont know. × × × #anorexia  #ed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #anrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #anorexiawarrior  #edwarrior  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthwarrior  #edfighter  #anorexiafighter 
Кабачки в томатном соусе и булгур
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⛔️TW ⛔️
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Я нахожусь в шаге от того, чтобы снова отказаться от вареной еды, потому что я просто больше не могу, черт возьми 
Мой живот разрывается от боли после каждого приема пищи
Я чувствую, что сильно переедаю из-за того, что раньше сильно ограничивала себя 
Стыдно есть перед кем-то, потому что я вижу, что ем намного больше, чем они
Вес растёт .. я не знаю, как отреагирую, когда увижу на весах 30 кг
Сейчас мой вес - 29,5 
Придушите меня, пожалуйста 🙂
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Zucchini in tomato sauce and bulgur
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I'm on the verge of refusing thermally processed food again, because I just can't take it anymore
My stomach breaks with pain after every meal.
I feel that I overeat very much because I used to severely limit myself.
I am ashamed to eat in front of someone because I see that I eat a lot more than they 
The weight is growing .. I don’t know how I will react when I see 30 kg on the scales
Now my weight is 29.5
Strangle me, please 🙂
Кабачки в томатном соусе и булгур ⠀ ⛔️TW ⛔️ ⠀ Я нахожусь в шаге от того, чтобы снова отказаться от вареной еды, потому что я просто больше не могу, черт возьми Мой живот разрывается от боли после каждого приема пищи Я чувствую, что сильно переедаю из-за того, что раньше сильно ограничивала себя Стыдно есть перед кем-то, потому что я вижу, что ем намного больше, чем они Вес растёт .. я не знаю, как отреагирую, когда увижу на весах 30 кг Сейчас мой вес - 29,5 Придушите меня, пожалуйста 🙂 ⠀ Zucchini in tomato sauce and bulgur ⠀ ⛔️TW⛔️ I'm on the verge of refusing thermally processed food again, because I just can't take it anymore My stomach breaks with pain after every meal. I feel that I overeat very much because I used to severely limit myself. I am ashamed to eat in front of someone because I see that I eat a lot more than they The weight is growing .. I don’t know how I will react when I see 30 kg on the scales Now my weight is 29.5 Strangle me, please 🙂
Breakfast was a very large bowl of cheerios, banana and honey. 
It was a little stressful because I didn't work out but I'll work out later. 
I'm really tired still since ive only been up for like twenty minutes. ×
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#lunch ...der Abstand von Instagram und co hat mir Mal gut getan😇...jetzt Versuche ich wieder mehr zu Posten 😄....ich hoffe ihr habt einen schönen 2. Advent 💞
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little reminder! 💗 
hopefully you’ll have a lovely day <3
little reminder! 💗 hopefully you’ll have a lovely day <3
#Breakfast earlier was porridge, two slices toast with jam, and a glass of water 🍓xx
Would’ve had cranberry juice but we’ve run out and so when mum and stepdad go to the shop to get more I’ll have it then. Sorry for not being active for two days, I’m just really not well and haven’t felt like posting. I have a constant headache that painkillers won’t get rid of, but I’m drinking loads and mostly complying with my plan, I feel sick, exhausted no matter how much I sleep, I’m even weaker than usual and I just feel awful.
I stayed at my dads on Friday night and it went okay, my mums and stepdad picked me up at around 22:30 (late as they were out). I complied with my plan as best I could and he made all my food for me, I did refuse a slice of toast at breakfast, some chips at dinner and didn’t have dessert or evening snack. We got along pretty well though which is a big change as I can’t remember the last time we didn’t argue when I stayed at his x
Will try my best to keep on top of posting today x
Enjoy your Sunday 🌟xx
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#Breakfast  earlier was porridge, two slices toast with jam, and a glass of water 🍓xx Would’ve had cranberry juice but we’ve run out and so when mum and stepdad go to the shop to get more I’ll have it then. Sorry for not being active for two days, I’m just really not well and haven’t felt like posting. I have a constant headache that painkillers won’t get rid of, but I’m drinking loads and mostly complying with my plan, I feel sick, exhausted no matter how much I sleep, I’m even weaker than usual and I just feel awful. I stayed at my dads on Friday night and it went okay, my mums and stepdad picked me up at around 22:30 (late as they were out). I complied with my plan as best I could and he made all my food for me, I did refuse a slice of toast at breakfast, some chips at dinner and didn’t have dessert or evening snack. We got along pretty well though which is a big change as I can’t remember the last time we didn’t argue when I stayed at his x Will try my best to keep on top of posting today x Enjoy your Sunday 🌟xx — { #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #beatingana  #fightingana  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #recovering  #foodisfuel  #foodporn  #food  #fooddiary  #fdoe  #yummy  #gainingweightiscool  #gaininglife  #slayingana  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #foodislife  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryforlife  }
Breakfast is 35g chili peanuts🥜 and some halva 🍯 being BRAVE the motto of this sunday💫
Breakfast is 35g chili peanuts🥜 and some halva 🍯 being BRAVE the motto of this sunday💫
Breakfast- weetabix topped with banana, strawberries and blueberries🍌 AND MY ADVENT CHOCOLATE 
I’m going to a Christmas market today with most of my family and after we are going OUT for a meal.(kinda nervous)😬
I hope you all have a good day x
Breakfast- weetabix topped with banana, strawberries and blueberries🍌 AND MY ADVENT CHOCOLATE I’m going to a Christmas market today with most of my family and after we are going OUT for a meal.(kinda nervous)😬 I hope you all have a good day x
Good morning! Part one of breakfast is Choc Shot almond milk got chocolate and raspberry fruit Yo-Yos 😌 part two will be 60g of fresh raspberries and porridge made with almond milk 💕 today we’re putting up and decorating the Christmas tree and I’m so excited! We’re gonna have a super festive day and watch some Christmas films too - what should we watch? 🎄✨🎅🏻 I hope you all have a great day! 💖✨🌈
Good morning! Part one of breakfast is Choc Shot almond milk got chocolate and raspberry fruit Yo-Yos 😌 part two will be 60g of fresh raspberries and porridge made with almond milk 💕 today we’re putting up and decorating the Christmas tree and I’m so excited! We’re gonna have a super festive day and watch some Christmas films too - what should we watch? 🎄✨🎅🏻 I hope you all have a great day! 💖✨🌈
Christmas cake baked oats for breakfast!! I really love recovery sometimes... everyone says baked oats taste like cake, and oh my goodness I’ve been missing out! And it literally tasted like Christmas cake (without the brandy maybe) but better!! Probably because I don’t like actual Christmas cake that much haha
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So I made these by boiling down a pear, a lot of mixed dried fruit, a satsuma and zest, cinnamon, nutmeg and treacle (it smelt like Christmas 😍), then added oats, chia seeds and hazelnut milk, ‘baked’ in the microwave and topped with the most festive things I could find... silver balls, jellies and my advent calendar chocolate! And this is the first time I’ve been able to do both @tffwfoodfight challenges, and both of them were incredible and 100% worth it 😍👌
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(TW) Anyway... back to real life unfortunately. If you saw my stories (around my literal story because I plonked my photos from this year in the middle of it) yesterday evening I had pretty bad heart pain for ages... I’ve had heart pain before and pretty regularly (one of ana’s fun gifts) but never like this, this was full on properly painful and pretty scary. It first came about 12 hours ago and was still there in the morning which was even scarier tbh because if it carried on I think I would have had to tell my parents who would then probably take me to hospital because they’d overreact (or maybe I’m overreacting idk... or underreacting...) and I’d also miss my interview and probably a lot of the music stuff I have at school next week but that’s less important. But fortunately I’m feeling a lot better now... so providing it doesn’t get worse again I think I’ll be okay.
Christmas cake baked oats for breakfast!! I really love recovery sometimes... everyone says baked oats taste like cake, and oh my goodness I’ve been missing out! And it literally tasted like Christmas cake (without the brandy maybe) but better!! Probably because I don’t like actual Christmas cake that much haha - - So I made these by boiling down a pear, a lot of mixed dried fruit, a satsuma and zest, cinnamon, nutmeg and treacle (it smelt like Christmas 😍), then added oats, chia seeds and hazelnut milk, ‘baked’ in the microwave and topped with the most festive things I could find... silver balls, jellies and my advent calendar chocolate! And this is the first time I’ve been able to do both @tffwfoodfight challenges, and both of them were incredible and 100% worth it 😍👌 - - (TW) Anyway... back to real life unfortunately. If you saw my stories (around my literal story because I plonked my photos from this year in the middle of it) yesterday evening I had pretty bad heart pain for ages... I’ve had heart pain before and pretty regularly (one of ana’s fun gifts) but never like this, this was full on properly painful and pretty scary. It first came about 12 hours ago and was still there in the morning which was even scarier tbh because if it carried on I think I would have had to tell my parents who would then probably take me to hospital because they’d overreact (or maybe I’m overreacting idk... or underreacting...) and I’d also miss my interview and probably a lot of the music stuff I have at school next week but that’s less important. But fortunately I’m feeling a lot better now... so providing it doesn’t get worse again I think I’ll be okay.
ok so here’s the story about this ice cream...yes it’s massive i have more pics with it looking even bigger but no this is not mine

i wimped out EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends got one except for me cause i got “scared” don’t be bout that life like i was back then JOIN IN and ENJOY 😊

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ok so here’s the story about this ice cream...yes it’s massive i have more pics with it looking even bigger but no this is not mine i wimped out EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends got one except for me cause i got “scared” don’t be bout that life like i was back then JOIN IN and ENJOY 😊 #anorexia  #ed  #edwarrior  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #battles  #recovery  #fuckana  #fuckmyed  #strong  #strongerthanmyillness  #recoverywarriors  #icecream  #melt  #sunny  #fighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery