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This breakfast was the bomb 🤭🥰 Oats cooked with chia seeds and unsweetened almond milk, then topped with half a banana, some granola and some homemade apple sauce (so underrated!!) 💛 I had a presentation at school today and I was so nervous and talked really clumsy ugh 😫 I hate it sooo much 😭
This breakfast was the bomb 🤭🥰 Oats cooked with chia seeds and unsweetened almond milk, then topped with half a banana, some granola and some homemade apple sauce (so underrated!!) 💛 I had a presentation at school today and I was so nervous and talked really clumsy ugh 😫 I hate it sooo much 😭
Good afternoon lovelies 💗💗 - lunch today is a TUNA MAYONNAISE (100g +15ml) whole wholemeal wrap!! With lettuce in along side raspberries and a ROLO MOUSSE👊🏼 🌟
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That 20% of you that don’t like mousses don’t know what your missing out on😉 feeling quite positive today, anyone ever get days where they just feel ‘fuck it’ and want to live like a ‘normal’ person?! Got my little sweet tooth problem fixed, so keep an eye out👀🌟 that yogurt on cereal was amazing for first time, definitely preferred over milk🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️ Thankyou for inspiring me all💗
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This weather is so hit and miss don’t you think, one minute raining one minute sunny? Like what do you wear? I went out the house with scarf and hat came back with them not on😂🤦🏼‍♀️ I really want to start going back to work guys once I’m discharged from hospital and I’m at university 3 days a week aswell so work would only be weekends but I really just want all my routines back, I hate having unstructured days😶🌟
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Me and my sister are back on good terms and we have a few sister days planned coming up all if fingers crossed by cpa goes okay coming up🌟
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Be kind to yourself all, whatever you manage today is enough, be proud of yourself, no one got there over night- off to watch neighbours (little secret lover😉) and eat lunch, see ya💗 have a lovely afternoon🌟
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#ana #fuckyouana #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiafight #anorexic #hydrated #health #gainingweightiscool #gainingweight #stronger #fighting #love #support #ed #edrecovery #ed #sectioned #inpatient #hospitalised #mentalillness #fearfood #revoverywin #foodchallenge
Good afternoon lovelies 💗💗 - lunch today is a TUNA MAYONNAISE (100g +15ml) whole wholemeal wrap!! With lettuce in along side raspberries and a ROLO MOUSSE👊🏼 🌟 ~ That 20% of you that don’t like mousses don’t know what your missing out on😉 feeling quite positive today, anyone ever get days where they just feel ‘fuck it’ and want to live like a ‘normal’ person?! Got my little sweet tooth problem fixed, so keep an eye out👀🌟 that yogurt on cereal was amazing for first time, definitely preferred over milk🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️ Thankyou for inspiring me all💗 ~ This weather is so hit and miss don’t you think, one minute raining one minute sunny? Like what do you wear? I went out the house with scarf and hat came back with them not on😂🤦🏼‍♀️ I really want to start going back to work guys once I’m discharged from hospital and I’m at university 3 days a week aswell so work would only be weekends but I really just want all my routines back, I hate having unstructured days😶🌟 ~ Me and my sister are back on good terms and we have a few sister days planned coming up all if fingers crossed by cpa goes okay coming up🌟 ~ Be kind to yourself all, whatever you manage today is enough, be proud of yourself, no one got there over night- off to watch neighbours (little secret lover😉) and eat lunch, see ya💗 have a lovely afternoon🌟 ~ #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
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Good morning you beautiful people💗💗 - breakfast today is 50g of cereal!! Not 45😉 of cookie crisp and all bran👊🏼 with a Granny Smith Apple🍏 AND A ACTIVIA VANILLA YOGURT🌟🌟
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increased cereal so would be the same as my usual breakfasts as no skimping allowed🙅🏼‍♀️ yogurt on cereal is something I have wanted to try for months! And after that amazing yogurt Saturday night this gal just could not resist🙅🏼‍♀️🌟
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Oh my I cannot thank you all enough for all of your support last night, you guys are incredible and I tryely believe that you are all capable of it also🌟 I actually still cannot get over I HAD A WHOLE PINT😭😭 and I didn’t wake up bloated!! Guys hot water bottles are the trick I swear😉😉
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I woke up absolutely starving, I swear I feel like a bottomless pit😶 got a really big sweet tooth today could do with a cookie or creams challenge but I’m quite nervous to ask my dad as I’m scared he’ll think I’m greedy😓anyone else struggle with asking others for food?i would just prefer to get my own food but I need a little holding hand with this one... let’s just see what today brings I guess🤷🏼‍♀️but that hot chocolate at 6am did not do my sweet tooth🙅🏼‍♀️🌟
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Got a little challenge again today for dinner with the lovely @leandrasroadtorecovery which I’m excited for, just found out I am home alone for dinner tonight as-well, so gunna get my Netflix sorted out I think for a distraction tonight 🌟
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Have a lovely morning, off to try my first ever yogurt and cereal, see yah💗💗
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#ana #fuckyouana #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiafight #anorexic #hydrated #health #gainingweightiscool #gainingweight #stronger #fighting #love #support #ed #edrecovery #ed #sectioned #inpatient #hospitalised #mentalillness #fearfood #revoverywin #foodchallenge
NEW BREAKFAST CHALLENGE ALERT🚨 ~ Good morning you beautiful people💗💗 - breakfast today is 50g of cereal!! Not 45😉 of cookie crisp and all bran👊🏼 with a Granny Smith Apple🍏 AND A ACTIVIA VANILLA YOGURT🌟🌟 - increased cereal so would be the same as my usual breakfasts as no skimping allowed🙅🏼‍♀️ yogurt on cereal is something I have wanted to try for months! And after that amazing yogurt Saturday night this gal just could not resist🙅🏼‍♀️🌟 - Oh my I cannot thank you all enough for all of your support last night, you guys are incredible and I tryely believe that you are all capable of it also🌟 I actually still cannot get over I HAD A WHOLE PINT😭😭 and I didn’t wake up bloated!! Guys hot water bottles are the trick I swear😉😉 - I woke up absolutely starving, I swear I feel like a bottomless pit😶 got a really big sweet tooth today could do with a cookie or creams challenge but I’m quite nervous to ask my dad as I’m scared he’ll think I’m greedy😓anyone else struggle with asking others for food?i would just prefer to get my own food but I need a little holding hand with this one... let’s just see what today brings I guess🤷🏼‍♀️but that hot chocolate at 6am did not do my sweet tooth🙅🏼‍♀️🌟 - Got a little challenge again today for dinner with the lovely @leandrasroadtorecovery which I’m excited for, just found out I am home alone for dinner tonight as-well, so gunna get my Netflix sorted out I think for a distraction tonight 🌟 - Have a lovely morning, off to try my first ever yogurt and cereal, see yah💗💗 • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
#breakfast was bran flakes with strawberry alpro yogurt and some apple juice .
I didn't manage any of it 😞 I'm having a bad morning I'm feeling so horrible about myself I feel so selfish all the time I feel so guilty when I try and do the right thing and I feel so fat. I know I need to just push past and eat it it's not easy I wish it was because I know it's worth it.😖😟😞💪🏼🙂😃😱🤯
#breakfast  was bran flakes with strawberry alpro yogurt and some apple juice . I didn't manage any of it 😞 I'm having a bad morning I'm feeling so horrible about myself I feel so selfish all the time I feel so guilty when I try and do the right thing and I feel so fat. I know I need to just push past and eat it it's not easy I wish it was because I know it's worth it.😖😟😞💪🏼🙂😃😱🤯
MY FIRST EVER PINT PARTY!! FIRST TIME EVER HAVING THIS ICE CREAM!! TONIGHTS NIGHT SNACK IS FUCK HALO TOP SALTED CARAMEL TUB!! •
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I’m so excited, I’m so scared, I’m so nervous, I’m shaking, I’m crying, I’m smiling, I don’t know what I am feeling! •
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First challenge ever with @leandraroadtorecovery !! And I cannot thank her enough for joining me on my first one!! I have followed this girl from the start of my account when I was dying in the grips of ana, through all my admission in hospital, she has been my biggest inspiration going and I still look up to her to this day! I always look through your page for inspiration on meal ideas, you have such a great impact on many and I cannot thank you enough!
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Keep these concepts in mind: You’ve failed many times, although you don’t remember. You fell down the first time you tried to walk. You almost drowned the first time you tried to swim. Don’t worry about failure. My suggestion to each of you: Worry about the chances you miss when you don’t even try, let’s make the changes now while we can!🌟
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No more watching my life go pass, no more. Mary get your life back. IS THIS OK? THIS IS OK? Ana get out of my head, you’re not invited to this party🙅🏼‍♀️ I will challenge myself and I will complete this, ice cream used to be my favourite as a child and I will bring this back, Ana no more, I will turn this around I HAVE TO. I WILL💪🏼
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Ah I’m so nervous😓😓 but ice cream in front of TV is perfectly normal, bye ana💪🏼 we cannot stay within this clause forever, it’s either living or dying and I’m not choosing a death bed at 19 years old!!
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#ana #fuckyouana #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiafight #anorexic #hydrated #health #gainingweightiscool #gainingweight #stronger #fighting #love #support #ed #edrecovery #ed #sectioned #inpatient #hospitalised #mentalillness #fearfood #revoverywin #foodchallenge #pintparty
MY FIRST EVER PINT PARTY!! FIRST TIME EVER HAVING THIS ICE CREAM!! TONIGHTS NIGHT SNACK IS FUCK HALO TOP SALTED CARAMEL TUB!! • • I’m so excited, I’m so scared, I’m so nervous, I’m shaking, I’m crying, I’m smiling, I don’t know what I am feeling! • • First challenge ever with @leandraroadtorecovery !! And I cannot thank her enough for joining me on my first one!! I have followed this girl from the start of my account when I was dying in the grips of ana, through all my admission in hospital, she has been my biggest inspiration going and I still look up to her to this day! I always look through your page for inspiration on meal ideas, you have such a great impact on many and I cannot thank you enough! • • Keep these concepts in mind: You’ve failed many times, although you don’t remember. You fell down the first time you tried to walk. You almost drowned the first time you tried to swim. Don’t worry about failure. My suggestion to each of you: Worry about the chances you miss when you don’t even try, let’s make the changes now while we can!🌟 • No more watching my life go pass, no more. Mary get your life back. IS THIS OK? THIS IS OK? Ana get out of my head, you’re not invited to this party🙅🏼‍♀️ I will challenge myself and I will complete this, ice cream used to be my favourite as a child and I will bring this back, Ana no more, I will turn this around I HAVE TO. I WILL💪🏼 • Ah I’m so nervous😓😓 but ice cream in front of TV is perfectly normal, bye ana💪🏼 we cannot stay within this clause forever, it’s either living or dying and I’m not choosing a death bed at 19 years old!! • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge  #pintparty 
Today didn’t go as planed, no details but this is night snack combined with dinner🙃
I had planned some challenges, one got canceled and two I didn’t manage 🤦‍♀️
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I’ve still had a great day, and recovery has once again proven it’s advantages 🙌
The fact that I could join my family at grandmas all night, without hiding in a room to deal with my thoughts ☺️
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Everyday isn’t perfect, everyday isn’t a win but everyday count!
When you get through a though day and keep fighting next day, you’ve proven that you are in charge, that you can beat this💪
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Recovery isn’t easy but it’s always worth it❤️
Today didn’t go as planed, no details but this is night snack combined with dinner🙃 I had planned some challenges, one got canceled and two I didn’t manage 🤦‍♀️ • I’ve still had a great day, and recovery has once again proven it’s advantages 🙌 The fact that I could join my family at grandmas all night, without hiding in a room to deal with my thoughts ☺️ • Everyday isn’t perfect, everyday isn’t a win but everyday count! When you get through a though day and keep fighting next day, you’ve proven that you are in charge, that you can beat this💪 • Recovery isn’t easy but it’s always worth it❤️
Sunday's #lunch 🍴 [Baked potatoes with onion and turkey meat🍗 along with with peas, cucumber + corn🌽 = my favorite simple meal😋] Today's day was good, my sister had her birthday🎂 We were celebrating with our family and I quite enjoyed it...😀 My sister looked happy and that was important👧 I love her and wish her the best💋 
Good night, guys...💕 Tommorow is monday so be sure to have a good sleep😴💤 -
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Sunday's #lunch  🍴 [Baked potatoes with onion and turkey meat🍗 along with with peas, cucumber + corn🌽 = my favorite simple meal😋] Today's day was good, my sister had her birthday🎂 We were celebrating with our family and I quite enjoyed it...😀 My sister looked happy and that was important👧 I love her and wish her the best💋 Good night, guys...💕 Tommorow is monday so be sure to have a good sleep😴💤 - - - #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexiasucks  #fuckanorexia  #edfighter  #eatingdissorder  #fighting  #youcandothis  #beatthis  #youareworthy  #youarebrave  #fuelyourbody  #nourishtoflourish  #beatingana  #loveyourbody  #strongnotskinny  #foodstyling 
#nightsnack is 2 pikelets with strawberry jam a chocolate digestive and a cup of tea.
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I'm just making it now. I will update in my story how I do I'm feeling pretty rubbish just feel so bad for eating but I know I have to I just have to keep pushing past all the negative thought 😊😟💪🏼💪🏼😓😞😃😱👊🤯
#nightsnack  is 2 pikelets with strawberry jam a chocolate digestive and a cup of tea. . I'm just making it now. I will update in my story how I do I'm feeling pretty rubbish just feel so bad for eating but I know I have to I just have to keep pushing past all the negative thought 😊😟💪🏼💪🏼😓😞😃😱👊🤯
GOOD EVENING💗💗dinner tonight is an INCREASED portion of beef mince by 20g extra😉 which is mixed with onions, chopped tomatoes and peppers along side couscous and cucumber💪🏼👊🏼🌟
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This isn’t unhealthy is it? Not greasy? Not too much? I wish my head would give me a break I wish it would, each day it gets louder, each day the restriction urges get louder, each day urges of behaviours get louder but each day I turn to avoid them. Each day I argue against this. Each day I will cry during and over meals. But why? Because I am choosing to live. I am choosing to have some sense of freedom. I am choosing a life out of hospital. •
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I get many messages saying ‘I want to but I cant’ or ‘I’m increasing but increasing behaviours’. There is no such thing as can’t, and the more you increase behaviours the more you’ll have to keep increasing yourself. I learnt that the hard way and so will you. Your eating disorder is not your friend, your comfort or your associate.  It is your worst enemy. •
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This illness is competitive. It’s manipulative. And you know what? This illness is greedy. You are not but this illness is. This illness takes away everything you got and I would love to hear one good thing it has ever said to you because I doubt it ever has. You step on that scale it gives you abuse. You look into that mirror it gives you abuse. You eat one grape and your the worst person alive according to it. Well let me to tell you something, it’s all lies. •
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I’m not perfect and I’m not trying to be. I’m struggling but so are we all. I choose to fight this day in day out. Have a good evening, got a lil challenge coming up with the lovely @leandraroadtorecovery soon, see ya💗💗
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#ana #fuckyouana #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiafight #anorexic #hydrated #health #gainingweightiscool #gainingweight #stronger #fighting #love #support #ed #edrecovery #ed #sectioned #inpatient #hospitalised #mentalillness #fearfood #revoverywin #foodchallenge
GOOD EVENING💗💗dinner tonight is an INCREASED portion of beef mince by 20g extra😉 which is mixed with onions, chopped tomatoes and peppers along side couscous and cucumber💪🏼👊🏼🌟 • • This isn’t unhealthy is it? Not greasy? Not too much? I wish my head would give me a break I wish it would, each day it gets louder, each day the restriction urges get louder, each day urges of behaviours get louder but each day I turn to avoid them. Each day I argue against this. Each day I will cry during and over meals. But why? Because I am choosing to live. I am choosing to have some sense of freedom. I am choosing a life out of hospital. • • I get many messages saying ‘I want to but I cant’ or ‘I’m increasing but increasing behaviours’. There is no such thing as can’t, and the more you increase behaviours the more you’ll have to keep increasing yourself. I learnt that the hard way and so will you. Your eating disorder is not your friend, your comfort or your associate. It is your worst enemy. • • This illness is competitive. It’s manipulative. And you know what? This illness is greedy. You are not but this illness is. This illness takes away everything you got and I would love to hear one good thing it has ever said to you because I doubt it ever has. You step on that scale it gives you abuse. You look into that mirror it gives you abuse. You eat one grape and your the worst person alive according to it. Well let me to tell you something, it’s all lies. • • I’m not perfect and I’m not trying to be. I’m struggling but so are we all. I choose to fight this day in day out. Have a good evening, got a lil challenge coming up with the lovely @leandraroadtorecovery soon, see ya💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
#dinner was a fajita pizza and chips. For after was a yogurt and a banana .
I managed most of it I ate the chips and left one slice of the pizza because it was really spicy this makes me look back to before recovery because a few months back there would have been no way I would have ate the pizza it was one of my biggest fear foods at one point yes I still get nervous about it and I still get a little feeling of guilt but it is nowhere near as bad as it was. I ate the yogurt but not the banana i dont really like banana that much I know I still should have ate.😊😞😟😖💪🏼😁😃😱🤯👊
#dinner  was a fajita pizza and chips. For after was a yogurt and a banana . I managed most of it I ate the chips and left one slice of the pizza because it was really spicy this makes me look back to before recovery because a few months back there would have been no way I would have ate the pizza it was one of my biggest fear foods at one point yes I still get nervous about it and I still get a little feeling of guilt but it is nowhere near as bad as it was. I ate the yogurt but not the banana i dont really like banana that much I know I still should have ate.😊😞😟😖💪🏼😁😃😱🤯👊
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So yesterday evening a thought hit me. I thought about how much I‘m eating and even if it’s a lot, my dietician says that a girl my age should eat even more. So I thought why not do this ? Yes I‘m afraid but if I want to be normal again I should try, don’t I ? So today it started. I don’t want to mention certain amounts of calories but it’s a huge increase !! Today I tried it for the first time and I honestly felt so full all day 😂😂 I feel like I would be pregnant. But anyways it’s worth it ! I’m so sick of losing my hair, being weak.... I just want to be normal 😣

So for dinner I had potato dumplings with a selfmade vegan Hühnerfrikassee. I think it’s a very German dish. 
I also had a second bowl with the Hühnerfrikassee. And for dessert I had this huge Alpro Joghurt. It’s a limited edition and it tastes really good !! 😆 I‘m exited and a Little Bit afraid. I know that I now gave fully  in to recovery. It took long, but I finally did it. So we‘ll see how it will go 😆🍀💓 #recoverywin #edrecovery #recovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #recoverfromanorexia #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #anorexiarecover #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #fightagainstana #beatanorexia #edrecoveryarmy #weightgain #edsucks #anorexiasucks #fightagainstanorexia #anorexiafight #anorexiarecovering #fuckanorexia #fightanorexia #vegan
Hey 👋 So yesterday evening a thought hit me. I thought about how much I‘m eating and even if it’s a lot, my dietician says that a girl my age should eat even more. So I thought why not do this ? Yes I‘m afraid but if I want to be normal again I should try, don’t I ? So today it started. I don’t want to mention certain amounts of calories but it’s a huge increase !! Today I tried it for the first time and I honestly felt so full all day 😂😂 I feel like I would be pregnant. But anyways it’s worth it ! I’m so sick of losing my hair, being weak.... I just want to be normal 😣 So for dinner I had potato dumplings with a selfmade vegan Hühnerfrikassee. I think it’s a very German dish. I also had a second bowl with the Hühnerfrikassee. And for dessert I had this huge Alpro Joghurt. It’s a limited edition and it tastes really good !! 😆 I‘m exited and a Little Bit afraid. I know that I now gave fully in to recovery. It took long, but I finally did it. So we‘ll see how it will go 😆🍀💓 #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #recoverfromanorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiarecover  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #fightagainstana  #beatanorexia  #edrecoveryarmy  #weightgain  #edsucks  #anorexiasucks  #fightagainstanorexia  #anorexiafight  #anorexiarecovering  #fuckanorexia  #fightanorexia  #vegan 
Don’t usually post afternoon snack but the message here is important🌟 afternoon snack is a cadbury high light with 20ml milk, mini marshmallows, one minstrel(offered by dad😂) and a millionaire shortbread bite !! (First one ever😉)💗
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None of this goes together none but what does go together within this post is this snack is followed by cravings. Cravings is your body’s and mind way of telling you that you need something. Cravings is your body’s way of saying it is lacking something in some way. And why do we ignore such intellegence? Ignoring your cravings is another way of feeding your eating disorder. You are giving into that voice saying you cannot have something. That you are not worthy of having what you want. Can you not hear that negativity? That voice is bullying you. Your eating disorder is bullying you. You are depriving yourself. You are ignoring yourself. For what? A few pounds which you won’t gain from your cravings? A chance of being more locked and trapped. The more you listen to your eating disorder within all these little ways you are still complying and playing with it. •
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Say fuck you and close your eyes,Love yourself unconditionally, just as you love those closest to you despite their faults, see you later 💗💗
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#ana #fuckyouana #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiafight #anorexic #hydrated #health #gainingweightiscool #gainingweight #stronger #fighting #love #support #ed #edrecovery #ed #sectioned #inpatient #hospitalised #mentalillness #fearfood #revoverywin #foodchallenge
Don’t usually post afternoon snack but the message here is important🌟 afternoon snack is a cadbury high light with 20ml milk, mini marshmallows, one minstrel(offered by dad😂) and a millionaire shortbread bite !! (First one ever😉)💗 • None of this goes together none but what does go together within this post is this snack is followed by cravings. Cravings is your body’s and mind way of telling you that you need something. Cravings is your body’s way of saying it is lacking something in some way. And why do we ignore such intellegence? Ignoring your cravings is another way of feeding your eating disorder. You are giving into that voice saying you cannot have something. That you are not worthy of having what you want. Can you not hear that negativity? That voice is bullying you. Your eating disorder is bullying you. You are depriving yourself. You are ignoring yourself. For what? A few pounds which you won’t gain from your cravings? A chance of being more locked and trapped. The more you listen to your eating disorder within all these little ways you are still complying and playing with it. • • Say fuck you and close your eyes,Love yourself unconditionally, just as you love those closest to you despite their faults, see you later 💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
GOOD AFTERNOON💗💗 Lunching today is two slices of chicken with salad and mayonnaise (15ml) in two slices of hovis bread💪🏼 with sliced strawberries, 3 dried apricots and a ROLO MOUSSE🌟🌟
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can you tell why I’m happy? I got more mousses today ah one way to my heart😍😉 lunch is tough today as it looks like a ‘lot’ to me but what is a lot to an eating disorder patient is probably not a lot for a normal person and I just need to rationalise that🙅🏼‍♀️
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Me and my sister have not spoken all day, she hasn’t eaten all day but you know what?! I’m past caring, if she wants to end up how I have then that’s her life and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone this life. One in hospitals. One restricted. One with all the negatives of this illness. But I need to focus on myself at end of day🤷🏼‍♀️
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My friend has came home from her university last night! As she is having a rough time so I may go and see her in a bit and go for a walk this afternoon, pretty chilled nothing major planned but I am cooking tonight for me and my dad and I’m thinking of facing a fear food, not sure yet🤷🏼‍♀️
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If we are ready to tear down the walls that confine us, break the cage that imprisons us, we will discover what our wings are for, Have a lovely afternoon all💗💗
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GOOD AFTERNOON💗💗 Lunching today is two slices of chicken with salad and mayonnaise (15ml) in two slices of hovis bread💪🏼 with sliced strawberries, 3 dried apricots and a ROLO MOUSSE🌟🌟 • can you tell why I’m happy? I got more mousses today ah one way to my heart😍😉 lunch is tough today as it looks like a ‘lot’ to me but what is a lot to an eating disorder patient is probably not a lot for a normal person and I just need to rationalise that🙅🏼‍♀️ • Me and my sister have not spoken all day, she hasn’t eaten all day but you know what?! I’m past caring, if she wants to end up how I have then that’s her life and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone this life. One in hospitals. One restricted. One with all the negatives of this illness. But I need to focus on myself at end of day🤷🏼‍♀️ • My friend has came home from her university last night! As she is having a rough time so I may go and see her in a bit and go for a walk this afternoon, pretty chilled nothing major planned but I am cooking tonight for me and my dad and I’m thinking of facing a fear food, not sure yet🤷🏼‍♀️ • If we are ready to tear down the walls that confine us, break the cage that imprisons us, we will discover what our wings are for, Have a lovely afternoon all💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
Today’s lunch at Pita was a wrap with soya beans, chickpeas, salad, kale, feta cheese and bbq-sauce😳
And I actually had some chips!!!!
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Eating out two days in a row felt impossible.
I didn’t think I could do it.
Here I am, choosing what I crave and even tasting some chips🙊
I haven’t had chips for years, I’ve told myself I don’t like them, but I do🤭
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Our ED convinces us that we don’t like food because it’s classifies as unhealthy.
To recover we have to face these foods, because we can’t be sure that we don’t like it.
It may feel wrong, impossible and unnecessary, but it’s needed and we can do it💪
Today’s lunch at Pita was a wrap with soya beans, chickpeas, salad, kale, feta cheese and bbq-sauce😳 And I actually had some chips!!!! • Eating out two days in a row felt impossible. I didn’t think I could do it. Here I am, choosing what I crave and even tasting some chips🙊 I haven’t had chips for years, I’ve told myself I don’t like them, but I do🤭 • Our ED convinces us that we don’t like food because it’s classifies as unhealthy. To recover we have to face these foods, because we can’t be sure that we don’t like it. It may feel wrong, impossible and unnecessary, but it’s needed and we can do it💪
#lunch was a chicken toastie some apple juice a cereal bar and a yogurt.
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I managed it all.😊 I'm feeling really really guilty about it I'm going to cinema today which means I'm going to be sitting for a long time which is making me stress out I just need to push past it I know I do it just really difficult and I feel so horrible.😊😟😖💪🏼😞😇😁😱😃
#lunch  was a chicken toastie some apple juice a cereal bar and a yogurt. . I managed it all.😊 I'm feeling really really guilty about it I'm going to cinema today which means I'm going to be sitting for a long time which is making me stress out I just need to push past it I know I do it just really difficult and I feel so horrible.😊😟😖💪🏼😞😇😁😱😃
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(To all my German speaking followers)
Also Leute! Es ist soweit! Ich darf, in Kooperation mit der lieben @laurapapeautor , eine Ausgabe von der erweiterten Version ihres Buches „Lebenshungrig“ verlosen. 💕
Ich selbst habe die alte Version des Buchs schon 2017 in der Klinik gelesen und es hat mir sehr geholfen. 
In dieser gibt es nun ein weiteres, viertes Kapitel. 
Ich hoffe, dass es dem Gewinner genauso gut gefällt wie mir ❤️ 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀
Nun zu den Teilnahmebedingungen: 
1. folge @laurapapeautor und mir ( @blackvioletworld )
2. Markiere mind. zwei Freunde
3. Du musst aus Deutschland sein! (Sorry an die Schweizer und Österreicher)
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❣️G I V E A W A Y❣️ (To all my German speaking followers) Also Leute! Es ist soweit! Ich darf, in Kooperation mit der lieben @laurapapeautor , eine Ausgabe von der erweiterten Version ihres Buches „Lebenshungrig“ verlosen. 💕 Ich selbst habe die alte Version des Buchs schon 2017 in der Klinik gelesen und es hat mir sehr geholfen. In dieser gibt es nun ein weiteres, viertes Kapitel. Ich hoffe, dass es dem Gewinner genauso gut gefällt wie mir ❤️ 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀 Nun zu den Teilnahmebedingungen: 1. folge @laurapapeautor und mir ( @blackvioletworld ) 2. Markiere mind. zwei Freunde 3. Du musst aus Deutschland sein! (Sorry an die Schweizer und Österreicher) ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ ❣️❣️Für eine #doppelte  Gewinnchance reposte das Bild in deiner Story! Für eine vierfache als Post auf deinem Account. ❣️❣️Teilnehmen könnt ihr bis nächste Woche Sonntag (18.11.18) ☺️ Ich wünsche allen Teilnehmern viel Glück 🌸☀️ #anorexiasucks  #recoverywin  #bingehaul  #giveaway  #lebenshungrig  #book  #verlosung  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #fearfood  #fearfoodchallenge  #fuckanorexia  #magersuchtrecovery  #bulimierecovery  #foodporn  #schönklinik  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #recoveryanorexia  #anarecovery  #anafighter  #countthememoriesnotthecalories  #laurapape  @laurapapeautor
I just came home from a friend 😅 I stayed overnight at her place and yesterday evening we met up with some boys and drank alcohol and smoked and I felt a bit uncomfortable because almost all of them were drunk or high and I was pretty much sober (because I can drink pretty much if I want to 😅). I didn‘t know any of them besides my friend and I was afraid that nobody was going to talk to me, but today one boy from yesterday who I find kind of cute messaged me via Snapchat and said that my face was pretty whaaaaat ?? 🙇🏻‍♀️ And another boy from yesterday (who I absolutely don‘t fancy) messages me, too and said that I was pretty? I have like 0 contact with the boys from my school, because I think I isolated myself for too long due to anorexia and that they‘re maybe afraid of me? 😂
I just came home from a friend 😅 I stayed overnight at her place and yesterday evening we met up with some boys and drank alcohol and smoked and I felt a bit uncomfortable because almost all of them were drunk or high and I was pretty much sober (because I can drink pretty much if I want to 😅). I didn‘t know any of them besides my friend and I was afraid that nobody was going to talk to me, but today one boy from yesterday who I find kind of cute messaged me via Snapchat and said that my face was pretty whaaaaat ?? 🙇🏻‍♀️ And another boy from yesterday (who I absolutely don‘t fancy) messages me, too and said that I was pretty? I have like 0 contact with the boys from my school, because I think I isolated myself for too long due to anorexia and that they‘re maybe afraid of me? 😂
#breakfast was bran flakes with strawberry alpro yogurt and some apple juice.
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I managed it all 🙂 I'm not really sure how I feel I'm just so fed up with doing the same thing day in day out and I get frustrated because I know it's only me that can change it. I just need to keep fighting it's not easy but I know I want to do it even if it's hard I have to push through it I know I do.😖😟😞💪🏼😁😃🙂😱🤯👊
#breakfast  was bran flakes with strawberry alpro yogurt and some apple juice. . I managed it all 🙂 I'm not really sure how I feel I'm just so fed up with doing the same thing day in day out and I get frustrated because I know it's only me that can change it. I just need to keep fighting it's not easy but I know I want to do it even if it's hard I have to push through it I know I do.😖😟😞💪🏼😁😃🙂😱🤯👊
GOOD MORNING💗💗 breakfast today is 45g of cereal mixed honey Cheerios and cookie crisp😍 with 200ml HOT milk and a green Granny Smith Apple 🍏 🌟🌟
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Not going to lie my night snack last night has proper got me wanting to try yogurt with cereal, can anyone suggest any good yogurts to use?!
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I hope you all had a better night then me, I have had 3 hours sleep due to my sister coming in from clubbing at 4am screaming and throwing my things. We agreed if she tidied her room I’ll go in there as she has single bed and she can use my room with double bed with her friend, reasonable right?! But she didn’t tidy her room and messy rooms cause me to have breakdowns, so obviously I didn’t go in there but that led to her shouting throwing my things and waking up the whole house and I haven’t been back to sleep since😴
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Last thing I want to do is eat breakfast but even when you don’t want to eat not eating is never an option🤷🏼‍♀️
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Been waiting for everyone to start breakfast as didn’t finish night snack till 11:30pm so didn’t want to be last to eat and first to eat just makes me feel like a pig 🐷 •
Have a good morning lovelies 💗💗
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GOOD MORNING💗💗 breakfast today is 45g of cereal mixed honey Cheerios and cookie crisp😍 with 200ml HOT milk and a green Granny Smith Apple 🍏 🌟🌟 • Not going to lie my night snack last night has proper got me wanting to try yogurt with cereal, can anyone suggest any good yogurts to use?! • I hope you all had a better night then me, I have had 3 hours sleep due to my sister coming in from clubbing at 4am screaming and throwing my things. We agreed if she tidied her room I’ll go in there as she has single bed and she can use my room with double bed with her friend, reasonable right?! But she didn’t tidy her room and messy rooms cause me to have breakdowns, so obviously I didn’t go in there but that led to her shouting throwing my things and waking up the whole house and I haven’t been back to sleep since😴 • Last thing I want to do is eat breakfast but even when you don’t want to eat not eating is never an option🤷🏼‍♀️ • Been waiting for everyone to start breakfast as didn’t finish night snack till 11:30pm so didn’t want to be last to eat and first to eat just makes me feel like a pig 🐷 • Have a good morning lovelies 💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
Delicious mud cake with geisha and ice cream for yesterday’s night snack 😳🤤
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I did restrict myself from having more ice cream than this, and through eating it my thoughts were set on having more🙊
It took a while before I had enough.
I WANT TO LIVE!
So I added more ice cream, and I enjoyed it💪
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Guilt is high but it was a step forward.
Today is full of challenges but I can make it💕
Delicious mud cake with geisha and ice cream for yesterday’s night snack 😳🤤 • I did restrict myself from having more ice cream than this, and through eating it my thoughts were set on having more🙊 It took a while before I had enough. I WANT TO LIVE! So I added more ice cream, and I enjoyed it💪 • Guilt is high but it was a step forward. Today is full of challenges but I can make it💕
🍎🍰Apple Pie🍰🍎 ♡Ingredients:♡ • 2 eggs
• sugar - 100 g.
• sour cream - 150 g.
• vinegar baking soda - 1 tsp. with top • flour - 1,5 cup
• farina - 0,5 cup
• butter - 150 g.
• 2 apples ♡To do:♡ 1. Grind eggs with sugar.
2. Add sour cream, melted butter, soda, sifted flour and farina. Mix well.
3. Wash apples, clean them from skin and cut.
4. Round piepan smear with oil, sprinkle with a flour. 
5. Inundate 1/3 of dough in a form, lay out apples, inundate dough from above.
6. Bake in oven till it ready.
🍎🍰Apple Pie🍰🍎 ♡Ingredients:♡ • 2 eggs • sugar - 100 g. • sour cream - 150 g. • vinegar baking soda - 1 tsp. with top • flour - 1,5 cup • farina - 0,5 cup • butter - 150 g. • 2 apples ♡To do:♡ 1. Grind eggs with sugar. 2. Add sour cream, melted butter, soda, sifted flour and farina. Mix well. 3. Wash apples, clean them from skin and cut. 4. Round piepan smear with oil, sprinkle with a flour. 5. Inundate 1/3 of dough in a form, lay out apples, inundate dough from above. 6. Bake in oven till it ready.
🌯 Comida 🥙
Sope. Era enorme, traía frijoles, queso Oaxaca (de hebra) y lechuga y mucho queso rayado encima (otro fearfood). Antes me comía un sope y una quesadilla de ese tamaño, ahora con la mitad o menos ya estaba llena. ☹️ Siempre soy la que decide que comer, hoy dejé a mi papá y eso resultó. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Ahora me remuerde un poco la conciencia, además comí helado y en un puesto donde compramos la fruta nos dieron muchas pruebas... 🍊🍐🍈
#anorexiarecovery #diariodecomidas #fooddiary #recoverywin #tcarecovery #edfighter #fuckyouana #edrecovery #comidamexicana #antojitosmexicanos #cheatmeal #sope #anorexiasucks
🌯 Comida 🥙 Sope. Era enorme, traía frijoles, queso Oaxaca (de hebra) y lechuga y mucho queso rayado encima (otro fearfood). Antes me comía un sope y una quesadilla de ese tamaño, ahora con la mitad o menos ya estaba llena. ☹️ Siempre soy la que decide que comer, hoy dejé a mi papá y eso resultó. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Ahora me remuerde un poco la conciencia, además comí helado y en un puesto donde compramos la fruta nos dieron muchas pruebas... 🍊🍐🍈 #anorexiarecovery  #diariodecomidas  #fooddiary  #recoverywin  #tcarecovery  #edfighter  #fuckyouana  #edrecovery  #comidamexicana  #antojitosmexicanos  #cheatmeal  #sope  #anorexiasucks 
#dessert for dinner was this big cookie shared with sister xx
tw:i feel so bad and full right now 😭 my stomach is hurting so much omg
keep fighting xx
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#dinner was this burger(+the other 2 things i had posted) it has friend egg,bacon,cheese,sauce and grilled chicken meat 😓💪🏽
tw:feeling so full and ed is so loud now :( i wanna use laxatives but mom hidden them ...
by the way,keep fighting xx💗
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #fightingana #recovering #edfighter #beatingana #edwarrior #strongnotskinny #recovery #fearfood #food #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecover #anorexiasucks #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianerviosa
#dinner  was this burger(+the other 2 things i had posted) it has friend egg,bacon,cheese,sauce and grilled chicken meat 😓💪🏽 tw:feeling so full and ed is so loud now :( i wanna use laxatives but mom hidden them ... by the way,keep fighting xx💗 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #fightingana  #recovering  #edfighter  #beatingana  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #recovery  #fearfood  #food  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiasucks  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexianerviosa 
goodnight! dinner out with my family was great but also so fucking filling 😱 ❗️tw:my stomach hurts sooo bad 😓
by the way,as first dish we ordered this! it’s filled w cheese and i had 3 and half (omg im such a fat pig😭) shared with mom xx
posting the rest of the dinner now :)
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #fightingana #recovering #edfighter #beatingana #edwarrior #strongnotskinny #recovery #fearfood #food #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecover #anorexiasucks #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianerviosa
goodnight! dinner out with my family was great but also so fucking filling 😱 ❗️tw:my stomach hurts sooo bad 😓 by the way,as first dish we ordered this! it’s filled w cheese and i had 3 and half (omg im such a fat pig😭) shared with mom xx posting the rest of the dinner now :) #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #fightingana  #recovering  #edfighter  #beatingana  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #recovery  #fearfood  #food  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiasucks  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexianerviosa 
🍦 Postre (antes de la comida) 😂
A veces vamos a un tianguis donde todo está súper barato pero nos queda muy lejos. 💔
Ese helado es de gansito, café y cereza. Lo compartimos mi mamá y yo, la dejé escoger los sabores y yo solo pedí cereza. La verdad los helados de crema son un gran #fearfood comí a lo mucho una bola. ☹️
#anorexiarecovery #tcarecovery #recoverywin #edfighter #helado #icecream #postre #noesdieta #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #fearfoodchallenge #norestrictions #cheatmeal
🍦 Postre (antes de la comida) 😂 A veces vamos a un tianguis donde todo está súper barato pero nos queda muy lejos. 💔 Ese helado es de gansito, café y cereza. Lo compartimos mi mamá y yo, la dejé escoger los sabores y yo solo pedí cereza. La verdad los helados de crema son un gran #fearfood  comí a lo mucho una bola. ☹️ #anorexiarecovery  #tcarecovery  #recoverywin  #edfighter  #helado  #icecream  #postre  #noesdieta  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #fearfoodchallenge  #norestrictions  #cheatmeal 
Night snack is a OREO SPLIT YOGURT (vanilla yogurt with Oreo cookie chunks😍) and red grapes!🌟🌟
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Can you ask for anything better then this?HELL NO
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First time trying this yogurt and ow my fucking goodness it’s amazing! Better then just cookies, it’s heaven😍go and get yourself one! Better then cadbury yogurts! Had this in my fridge for a while but been to scared to have it but thanks to the lovely @nourisht0flourish who decided for me out of two tonight here we goo!🌟
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My bloating has got so much better guys, I don’t know if it’s because I drink a heck of a lot or because my body is getting used to everything but wow guys please eat through your bloat guys, trust your body and trust yourself don’t trust your head🌟
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Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow’🌟
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From a yogurt to cookie to grapes, sweet dreams all💗💗
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#ana #fuckyouana #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiasupport #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiafight #anorexic #hydrated #health #gainingweightiscool #gainingweight #stronger #fighting #love #support #ed #edrecovery #ed #sectioned #inpatient #hospitalised #mentalillness #fearfood #revoverywin #foodchallenge
Night snack is a OREO SPLIT YOGURT (vanilla yogurt with Oreo cookie chunks😍) and red grapes!🌟🌟 • Can you ask for anything better then this?HELL NO • First time trying this yogurt and ow my fucking goodness it’s amazing! Better then just cookies, it’s heaven😍go and get yourself one! Better then cadbury yogurts! Had this in my fridge for a while but been to scared to have it but thanks to the lovely @nourisht0flourish who decided for me out of two tonight here we goo!🌟 • My bloating has got so much better guys, I don’t know if it’s because I drink a heck of a lot or because my body is getting used to everything but wow guys please eat through your bloat guys, trust your body and trust yourself don’t trust your head🌟 • Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, ‘I will try again tomorrow’🌟 • From a yogurt to cookie to grapes, sweet dreams all💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
Dinner! 🍟
An Ikea kids menu with fries, swedish meatballs and some bell peppers
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A double challenge for dinner😁
(1)Eating in a restaurant!!! I’m still terrified for eating in a  restaurant But I did it!!!! (feeling guilty af but trying to ignore that)
(2)I ate fries!!!!!! I’m am so fucking scared of fries but they’re so good🤤🤤 And I know it’s not a full meal because it’s a kids menu but it was really challenging for me so I’m still proud☺️
Did some grocery shopping with my mom this morning and we bought some really awesome things like @nakd_nederland bars and some low calorie ice cream (forgot the name of it). Looking forward to try it☺️
I’m so sorry I don’t post very much but my telephone is doing really weird and I’m probably have to buy a new one😕 But going to post as much as possible Xx
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Dinner! 🍟 An Ikea kids menu with fries, swedish meatballs and some bell peppers ———————— A double challenge for dinner😁 (1)Eating in a restaurant!!! I’m still terrified for eating in a restaurant But I did it!!!! (feeling guilty af but trying to ignore that) (2)I ate fries!!!!!! I’m am so fucking scared of fries but they’re so good🤤🤤 And I know it’s not a full meal because it’s a kids menu but it was really challenging for me so I’m still proud☺️ Did some grocery shopping with my mom this morning and we bought some really awesome things like @nakd_nederland bars and some low calorie ice cream (forgot the name of it). Looking forward to try it☺️ I’m so sorry I don’t post very much but my telephone is doing really weird and I’m probably have to buy a new one😕 But going to post as much as possible Xx • • #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiarecover  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiafight  #anorexiasucks  #fuckanorexia  #anorexiarecovering  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #recoveringdutchie  #recovery  #recoveryanorexia  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryishard  #recoveryispossible  #mentalhealthrecovery  #ikea  #dinner  #fries 
Dinner at a restaurant earlier was ciabatta (!) with feta cheese (!!), dried tomatoes (!), spinach and salad with vinaigrette (!!!)🙊
It was tasty, sounded scarier on the menu than it turned out🤷‍♀️
At least I followed my cravings💪🙌
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I’ve had an amazing day🤭
Watching series in the bed with Marcus, went on a short walk, played tennis for the first time (it was noticeable 😅), eaten at a restaurant and now waiting on our chocolate mud cakes to be ready 😋
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Sure my body image haven’t been great, I’ve wanted to hide and restrict.
The vice has kept telling me to choose the “healthier” choice and move more.
I’ve been feeling guilty over every meal I’ve eaten.
But I’ve ignored it.
I chooses to simply live. And I like it.
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Today it really hit me, I’m so afraid of letting go of my ED but far more afraid of living like this forever 😳
I’m not doing that, so here’s to adding as much ice cream as I want to my delicious mud cake 🙌
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Tomorrow is also full of challenges, but rather challenges than restriction ❤️
Dinner at a restaurant earlier was ciabatta (!) with feta cheese (!!), dried tomatoes (!), spinach and salad with vinaigrette (!!!)🙊 It was tasty, sounded scarier on the menu than it turned out🤷‍♀️ At least I followed my cravings💪🙌 • I’ve had an amazing day🤭 Watching series in the bed with Marcus, went on a short walk, played tennis for the first time (it was noticeable 😅), eaten at a restaurant and now waiting on our chocolate mud cakes to be ready 😋 • Sure my body image haven’t been great, I’ve wanted to hide and restrict. The vice has kept telling me to choose the “healthier” choice and move more. I’ve been feeling guilty over every meal I’ve eaten. But I’ve ignored it. I chooses to simply live. And I like it. • Today it really hit me, I’m so afraid of letting go of my ED but far more afraid of living like this forever 😳 I’m not doing that, so here’s to adding as much ice cream as I want to my delicious mud cake 🙌 • Tomorrow is also full of challenges, but rather challenges than restriction ❤️
#lunch today is super simple but super delicious. Vegan tortilla soup with added avocado, plain toast, and carrots. It’s cold as hell today, so soup was the natural choice. Who doesn’t love comfort food during winter? .
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I struggled with this meal even though it’s one of my most favorite things to eat. My stomach started hurting, the anorexia was whispering its sweet nothings to me, and I’m going on about 3 hours of sleep... I just straight up didn’t have the energy to fight back. Here’s hoping dinner will be different. .
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#lunch  today is super simple but super delicious. Vegan tortilla soup with added avocado, plain toast, and carrots. It’s cold as hell today, so soup was the natural choice. Who doesn’t love comfort food during winter? . . . . I struggled with this meal even though it’s one of my most favorite things to eat. My stomach started hurting, the anorexia was whispering its sweet nothings to me, and I’m going on about 3 hours of sleep... I just straight up didn’t have the energy to fight back. Here’s hoping dinner will be different. . . . . . . . . . . #anorexiasucks  #mentalillnessrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #nourishtoflourish  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #adultswitheds  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #mealplan  #weightrestoration  #recoveryisworthit  #fuckanorexia  #endthestigma  #anawho  #ed  #edstruggles  #beatingeatingdisorders  #eatingdisorder  #bopo  #foodie 
#nightsnack is 2 pikelets with strawberry jam a chocolate digestive and a cup of tea.
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My day has been a bit stressful just because ana has been giving me so much grief this is the last thing to eat today and the digestive is hard for me but I will try my best I will update on my story.😚🤷‍♀️💕💕😟💪🏼💪🏼😁😃😍😱🤯
#nightsnack  is 2 pikelets with strawberry jam a chocolate digestive and a cup of tea. . My day has been a bit stressful just because ana has been giving me so much grief this is the last thing to eat today and the digestive is hard for me but I will try my best I will update on my story.😚🤷‍♀️💕💕😟💪🏼💪🏼😁😃😍😱🤯
GOOD EVENING💗💗 dinner tonight ah; two slices of hovis bread (toasted), with flora (10g) on top eek😶 with baked beans💪🏼 one scrambled egg with milk👊🏼and cucumber🌟🌟
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Tonight is actually what I wanted. One thing anorexia has taken away for me is my loving for eggs, my loving for warm buttery toast and my childhood loving of baked beans, so tonight we are bringing that right back🌟
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I have my toast fairly toasted under the grill cannot be trusting these toasters these days they either burn them black (like my dad likes YUCK) or just don’t light up🤷🏼‍♀️😂
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Guys, I have done half of my university to do list!! I am so happy! I feel so much less stressed but god damn I’m so tired now😴was meant to go out earlier but it poured with rain so hard I couldn’t which sucks😓always tomorrow🤷🏼‍♀️
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My mood is actually okay tonight feeling quite happy and comfy, in trackies and messy hair, food has been tough as today guilt is hitting but it’s been the food I WANT which is helping a little😳
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My dad and his girlfriend are out for dinner, my sister and her friend are out clubbing so it’s just me and my grandad tonight ow and my uncle as he’s home but time morning comes it’s going to be 7 of us here😓so chaotic dreading it already🙄
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Off to eat this and watch xfactor with my grandad, any xfactor fans in the house tonight? See ya later with pudding, have a lovely evening💗💗
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GOOD EVENING💗💗 dinner tonight ah; two slices of hovis bread (toasted), with flora (10g) on top eek😶 with baked beans💪🏼 one scrambled egg with milk👊🏼and cucumber🌟🌟 • Tonight is actually what I wanted. One thing anorexia has taken away for me is my loving for eggs, my loving for warm buttery toast and my childhood loving of baked beans, so tonight we are bringing that right back🌟 • I have my toast fairly toasted under the grill cannot be trusting these toasters these days they either burn them black (like my dad likes YUCK) or just don’t light up🤷🏼‍♀️😂 • Guys, I have done half of my university to do list!! I am so happy! I feel so much less stressed but god damn I’m so tired now😴was meant to go out earlier but it poured with rain so hard I couldn’t which sucks😓always tomorrow🤷🏼‍♀️ • My mood is actually okay tonight feeling quite happy and comfy, in trackies and messy hair, food has been tough as today guilt is hitting but it’s been the food I WANT which is helping a little😳 • My dad and his girlfriend are out for dinner, my sister and her friend are out clubbing so it’s just me and my grandad tonight ow and my uncle as he’s home but time morning comes it’s going to be 7 of us here😓so chaotic dreading it already🙄 • Off to eat this and watch xfactor with my grandad, any xfactor fans in the house tonight? See ya later with pudding, have a lovely evening💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
Very HUUUGE #dinner !🙊
[Roasted bread 🍞 with garlic (something like garlic toast) one half is with chicken ham 🐔, the other half is with cheese 'hartzer with caraway' (really good cheese, it wasn't that bad!), vegetables🍲 (yellow pepper, green beans, baby carrot and tomatoes 🍅) with cottage cheese💪]
It was another #recoverywin  in another day and that's 100% okay! It's okay to challenge yourself because that's the right way to recovery👏

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Very HUUUGE #dinner  !🙊 [Roasted bread 🍞 with garlic (something like garlic toast) one half is with chicken ham 🐔, the other half is with cheese 'hartzer with caraway' (really good cheese, it wasn't that bad!), vegetables🍲 (yellow pepper, green beans, baby carrot and tomatoes 🍅) with cottage cheese💪] It was another #recoverywin  in another day and that's 100% okay! It's okay to challenge yourself because that's the right way to recovery👏 Have a nice Saturday's night, dear warriors, and sleep well 🌜💕 - - - #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edrecovery  #mentalillness  #eatingdissorder  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anorexiasucks  #fuckanorexia  #fighting  #beatthis  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #youcandothis  #youareworthy  #youarebrave  #bestrong  #beyou  #nourishtoflourish  #nevergiveup  #foodstyling  #loveyourself 
#dinner was sweet chilli chicken wraps and for after a yogurt and a apple.
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I manage it all 🙂 I'm feeling okay just a bit full and uncomfortable I just need to push past it. As usual I put some yogurt with  my apple if you haven't try it you should it nice I do it so I feel like I'm not eating as much and it helps me.💪🏼😃😁😟😞😖😊🙄😱🤯👊💪🏼
#dinner  was sweet chilli chicken wraps and for after a yogurt and a apple. . I manage it all 🙂 I'm feeling okay just a bit full and uncomfortable I just need to push past it. As usual I put some yogurt with my apple if you haven't try it you should it nice I do it so I feel like I'm not eating as much and it helps me.💪🏼😃😁😟😞😖😊🙄😱🤯👊💪🏼
#snack was a latte and 2 chocolate brownies at asda cafe.
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I managed it all😊 I'm feeling full and a bit sick but I need to push through the main thing is I managed it.😊😟😖💪🏼😞😃😁😱🤯
#snack  was a latte and 2 chocolate brownies at asda cafe. . I managed it all😊 I'm feeling full and a bit sick but I need to push through the main thing is I managed it.😊😟😖💪🏼😞😃😁😱🤯
I FUCKING DONE IT! I GAVE MYSELF PERMISSION!🌟🌟
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Lunch today is a TUNA MAYONNAISE WHOLEMEAL FLIPPING WRAP with mixed leaf lettuce in (tuna drained 100g and light mayonnaise 15ml) with 3 dried apricots and a green Granny Smith Apple🍏 🌟
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Good afternoon all💗💗now this is two fears in one! A whole wrap!! And TUNA!! I brought these tuna tins four weeks ago when I first went on leave, I love tuna but I’m so scared of it.. this would be my all time favourite at hospital, I would order it every day it was on menu, but the calorie content is way higher then my usual filling calorie and it reminds me of hospital! I have been planning to have tuna mayonnaise for so many days each week but when it got to the day I always freaked out but today FUCK IT! I am having it ana AND IN A WRAP🙅🏼‍♀️👊🏼😍
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Feeling really emotional today crying at everything, and I mean everything! I have never been this emotional for a while😶think I just need to take it easy and do some self care🤷🏼‍♀️
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2:30 lunch but that’s okay, eating this with the comfort and company of my dad and cat which hates me!! Always goes to bite me but likes my tuna as hovering me🙄
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have a lovely afternoon and give yourself that permission to eat the foods you like and want and if you can’t give it to yourself then I give it to you💗💗
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I FUCKING DONE IT! I GAVE MYSELF PERMISSION!🌟🌟 • Lunch today is a TUNA MAYONNAISE WHOLEMEAL FLIPPING WRAP with mixed leaf lettuce in (tuna drained 100g and light mayonnaise 15ml) with 3 dried apricots and a green Granny Smith Apple🍏 🌟 • Good afternoon all💗💗now this is two fears in one! A whole wrap!! And TUNA!! I brought these tuna tins four weeks ago when I first went on leave, I love tuna but I’m so scared of it.. this would be my all time favourite at hospital, I would order it every day it was on menu, but the calorie content is way higher then my usual filling calorie and it reminds me of hospital! I have been planning to have tuna mayonnaise for so many days each week but when it got to the day I always freaked out but today FUCK IT! I am having it ana AND IN A WRAP🙅🏼‍♀️👊🏼😍 • Feeling really emotional today crying at everything, and I mean everything! I have never been this emotional for a while😶think I just need to take it easy and do some self care🤷🏼‍♀️ • Going food shopping with dad to get some food challenges I have planned in next few days with the lovely @leandrasroadtorecovery 💗 • 2:30 lunch but that’s okay, eating this with the comfort and company of my dad and cat which hates me!! Always goes to bite me but likes my tuna as hovering me🙄 • have a lovely afternoon and give yourself that permission to eat the foods you like and want and if you can’t give it to yourself then I give it to you💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
Lunch 🍴 
Today is a #fearfood day. I started my day with a big bowl of chocolate cereal this morning 💪 and for lunch I had this amazing potato pancakes (are they called like this ???). I used to love them and ate them like everyday before I had my ed ... but then I got so scared because you have to fry them ... now I finally challenged them. I thought about that for weeks !! Every time I thought about what I could eat I knew they are in the fridge. But I was so scared. But today I finally did it and I’m so proud !!! They taste good. With them I had apple compote and cinnamon. And for dessert I had a mango. I love mangos 😆 
I have to say that it wasn’t as frightening as I thought. I used to be so afraid of challenging them, but it wasn’t even difficult to eat them. I think that really is a #recoverywin 
So to all of you out there. Challenge your fear foods and try to have fun while doing this. Don’t focus on your fear, focus on how tasty these things are. That makes it a lot easier. Do you have any fear foods you already challenged? Or do you plan on challenging something? 
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Lunch 🍴 Today is a #fearfood  day. I started my day with a big bowl of chocolate cereal this morning 💪 and for lunch I had this amazing potato pancakes (are they called like this ???). I used to love them and ate them like everyday before I had my ed ... but then I got so scared because you have to fry them ... now I finally challenged them. I thought about that for weeks !! Every time I thought about what I could eat I knew they are in the fridge. But I was so scared. But today I finally did it and I’m so proud !!! They taste good. With them I had apple compote and cinnamon. And for dessert I had a mango. I love mangos 😆 I have to say that it wasn’t as frightening as I thought. I used to be so afraid of challenging them, but it wasn’t even difficult to eat them. I think that really is a #recoverywin  So to all of you out there. Challenge your fear foods and try to have fun while doing this. Don’t focus on your fear, focus on how tasty these things are. That makes it a lot easier. Do you have any fear foods you already challenged? Or do you plan on challenging something? #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #recoverfromanorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiarecover  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #fightagainstana  #beatanorexia  #edrecoveryarmy  #weightgain  #edsucks  #anorexiasucks  #fightagainstanorexia  #anorexiarecovering  #kartoffelpuffer  #potatopancakes  #yummy  #
#lunch was out at asda cafe I had a egg and watercress sandwich a cup of tea and a little bit of caramel shortbread.
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I manage all the sandwich but couldn't manage the shortbread. I'm feeling so so horrible now the thing I wanted originally they didn't have it so I had to get this instead but I felt okay because It is less calories. But now I'm feeling supper supper horrible and guilty about it i feel so greedy all ana is telling me is people will be looking at you thinking you are horrible eating it and that I am going to get fat for eat it I know it all lies I just feel so horrible I really do feel like people are looking at me thinking I'm horrible for eating it. Even though I know in reality they really don't care. I just hate myself so much I don't want to be like this anymore but I really feel like I can't get away from it.😖😟😞💪🏼😊😁😃🙂😱👊🤯💪🏼😟
#lunch  was out at asda cafe I had a egg and watercress sandwich a cup of tea and a little bit of caramel shortbread. . I manage all the sandwich but couldn't manage the shortbread. I'm feeling so so horrible now the thing I wanted originally they didn't have it so I had to get this instead but I felt okay because It is less calories. But now I'm feeling supper supper horrible and guilty about it i feel so greedy all ana is telling me is people will be looking at you thinking you are horrible eating it and that I am going to get fat for eat it I know it all lies I just feel so horrible I really do feel like people are looking at me thinking I'm horrible for eating it. Even though I know in reality they really don't care. I just hate myself so much I don't want to be like this anymore but I really feel like I can't get away from it.😖😟😞💪🏼😊😁😃🙂😱👊🤯💪🏼😟
Heyy, a little update for you about what is my goal now, which I'd love to achieve in the future..📝 In the past few days, I'm thinking a lot about how I had a great life before. I ate what I wanted, I didn't even exercise. I spent a lot of time  in bed and watching my favorite anime. But, what was best of all, was, that I didn't focus on my weight or my body's look. I was happy and had a good life. I'm asking myself now: 'What happend that I changed my mind in one day and started to dislike myself? Why did I started to think that I should be doing something with myself when my parents and friends told me that my body's looks are ok and liked them?' All I want right now, is to get back into that life, get him back and keep going! I believe that every day I move at least a little closer. I want to get into that life - to my new goal and I promise, that I will do my best for it!👊 Thank you all for an incredible support, you are wonderful people and I am really grateful for all of your help. I love you and we can all beat this!💪 -
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Heyy, a little update for you about what is my goal now, which I'd love to achieve in the future..📝 In the past few days, I'm thinking a lot about how I had a great life before. I ate what I wanted, I didn't even exercise. I spent a lot of time in bed and watching my favorite anime. But, what was best of all, was, that I didn't focus on my weight or my body's look. I was happy and had a good life. I'm asking myself now: 'What happend that I changed my mind in one day and started to dislike myself? Why did I started to think that I should be doing something with myself when my parents and friends told me that my body's looks are ok and liked them?' All I want right now, is to get back into that life, get him back and keep going! I believe that every day I move at least a little closer. I want to get into that life - to my new goal and I promise, that I will do my best for it!👊 Thank you all for an incredible support, you are wonderful people and I am really grateful for all of your help. I love you and we can all beat this!💪 - - - #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdissorder  #mentalillness  #edrecovery  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anorexiasucks  #recovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #beatthis  #nevergiveup  #youareworthy  #youcandothis  #youarebrave  #loveyourself  #staystrong  #mydream  #fuckanorexia  #fighting  #beyou 
Breakfast earlier was banana and cherry cream with a small banana bread🤤
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Been laying in bed all morning watching series and cuddling with Marcus 😍🙊
I won’t say I don’t feel guilty over it, but I’m so so tired and there is nothing wrong with allowing yourself to rest🙌
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I will keep working on stoping my body checking, I feel so much better even though I really want to look🙈
I’m not managing to not body checking at all but much less🙏
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Tips on how to stop body checking ✨Wear baggy cloths
✨Turn your back to the mirror or change in rooms without a mirror ✨Concentrate on other things when you shower (what’s written on the soap? etc)
✨Focus on other, more important things in life (family, friends, passions)
✨Think of how much time you will have over by not spending it in front of the mirror
✨Remind yourself that you feel better not knowing and there is nothing you can do about your look anyway ✨Remember that what you see isn’t the truth anyway
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Breakfast earlier was banana and cherry cream with a small banana bread🤤 • Been laying in bed all morning watching series and cuddling with Marcus 😍🙊 I won’t say I don’t feel guilty over it, but I’m so so tired and there is nothing wrong with allowing yourself to rest🙌 • I will keep working on stoping my body checking, I feel so much better even though I really want to look🙈 I’m not managing to not body checking at all but much less🙏 • Tips on how to stop body checking ✨Wear baggy cloths ✨Turn your back to the mirror or change in rooms without a mirror ✨Concentrate on other things when you shower (what’s written on the soap? etc) ✨Focus on other, more important things in life (family, friends, passions) ✨Think of how much time you will have over by not spending it in front of the mirror ✨Remind yourself that you feel better not knowing and there is nothing you can do about your look anyway ✨Remember that what you see isn’t the truth anyway • Have a wonderful day, and make some recovery wins❤️
morning lovelies💗💗breakfast is TWO apple and raisin weetabix with strawberries 🍓(100g)🍓 and 200ml HOT milk🌟
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Woke up feeling pretty icky just felt pretty full but then I showered and done my teeth and feel okay again?! Shower is the trick😉
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Been up since 6am but I have finally completed two of my things on my to do list for the weekend with university work, so I guess that’s one good thing of waking up early automatically☺️ seems really nice out so may go for a walk before lunch, still really indecisive on what to have😓
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Cried all way through breakfast and still am, As much as I appreciate it, guys please stop saying increase or moaning about my weight- I am gaining quite enough and I do not post everything I eat may I just clarify so you cannot judge😶 just really starting to get to me all these comments and pressure of everyone, when there is clearly people on here posting one grape as intake for their whole day🙄
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morning lovelies💗💗breakfast is TWO apple and raisin weetabix with strawberries 🍓(100g)🍓 and 200ml HOT milk🌟 • Can’t beat hot weetabix😍 • Woke up feeling pretty icky just felt pretty full but then I showered and done my teeth and feel okay again?! Shower is the trick😉 • Been up since 6am but I have finally completed two of my things on my to do list for the weekend with university work, so I guess that’s one good thing of waking up early automatically☺️ seems really nice out so may go for a walk before lunch, still really indecisive on what to have😓 • Cried all way through breakfast and still am, As much as I appreciate it, guys please stop saying increase or moaning about my weight- I am gaining quite enough and I do not post everything I eat may I just clarify so you cannot judge😶 just really starting to get to me all these comments and pressure of everyone, when there is clearly people on here posting one grape as intake for their whole day🙄 • 💗💗have a good morning💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
#breakfast was a slice of toast with strawberry jam and some apple juice.
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I managed it all🙂 I'm feeling okay about it I'm really wanting today to be a good day it's going to be really hard but I've been letting ana win and I can't keep doing that I can't let the guilty take over me it won't help me at all.😊🙂😃😁😂🤯😱💪🏼
#breakfast  was a slice of toast with strawberry jam and some apple juice. . I managed it all🙂 I'm feeling okay about it I'm really wanting today to be a good day it's going to be really hard but I've been letting ana win and I can't keep doing that I can't let the guilty take over me it won't help me at all.😊🙂😃😁😂🤯😱💪🏼
#nightsnack is 2 pieces of plain toast and 1/2 cup cottage cheese... I hate that I’m eating this at 4am, but when you don’t get home from work until super late, you adapt. #dinner this evening was my usual and I had about 80% of it. .
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**PTW** I don’t want to say that I’ve been restricting, but I feel like I have. I don’t know why, though. Actually, I probably do know why, I just don’t want to admit it... I feel like at my age, I should have my shit together by now. What I didn’t realize, for the longest time, is that this is something I’ll have to deal with for a lifetime. Battling an eating disorder is something I’d never wish upon my worst enemy. This is absolute hell. .
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***TW*** My daughter was watching some Bill Nye on prime earlier and somehow a music video called, “no more food” by funnel vision came on and I flipped out. I mean, give it a listen and tell me it couldn’t be the theme song of eating disorders... I deadass did not know how to respond. I’ll be honest with y’all, my daughter is exhibiting signs of anorexia, but between my team and I, I think we’ll be able to put a stop to it. If this isn’t a reason for me to keep fighting and moving forward, I don’t know what is... .
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#nightsnack  is 2 pieces of plain toast and 1/2 cup cottage cheese... I hate that I’m eating this at 4am, but when you don’t get home from work until super late, you adapt. #dinner  this evening was my usual and I had about 80% of it. . . . . **PTW** I don’t want to say that I’ve been restricting, but I feel like I have. I don’t know why, though. Actually, I probably do know why, I just don’t want to admit it... I feel like at my age, I should have my shit together by now. What I didn’t realize, for the longest time, is that this is something I’ll have to deal with for a lifetime. Battling an eating disorder is something I’d never wish upon my worst enemy. This is absolute hell. . . . . ***TW*** My daughter was watching some Bill Nye on prime earlier and somehow a music video called, “no more food” by funnel vision came on and I flipped out. I mean, give it a listen and tell me it couldn’t be the theme song of eating disorders... I deadass did not know how to respond. I’ll be honest with y’all, my daughter is exhibiting signs of anorexia, but between my team and I, I think we’ll be able to put a stop to it. If this isn’t a reason for me to keep fighting and moving forward, I don’t know what is... . . . . . . . . . . . . #anorexiarecovery  #adultswitheds  #anorexia  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edfam  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edstruggles  #foodie  #bopo  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorder  #edawareness  #beatingeatingdisorders  #nourishtoflourish  #mealplan  #weightrestoration  #fuckanorexia  #anawho  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #mentalillness  #mentalhealthmatters  #mentalillnessrecovery  #endthestigma 
Breakfast looking good 😏
Breakfast looking good 😏
- 1/2 pumpkin
- vegan meat - mushrooms, onions, garlic, celery - chili powder, paprika, oregano, salt, pepper, ginger

I am not feeling good about going to my dad's so I am staying home😔 I feel so selfish and I hate that I am probably hurting my dad but this week was so hard and I feel like it's too much... #feelbad #fuckanorexia #vegan #veganmeal #veganmeat #orthorexia #anorexiasucks #fighting #foodisfuel #anafighter #anorexia #anorexianervosa #keepgoing #anxiety #recovery #challengingmyself #edrecovery
- 1/2 pumpkin - vegan meat - mushrooms, onions, garlic, celery - chili powder, paprika, oregano, salt, pepper, ginger I am not feeling good about going to my dad's so I am staying home😔 I feel so selfish and I hate that I am probably hurting my dad but this week was so hard and I feel like it's too much... #feelbad  #fuckanorexia  #vegan  #veganmeal  #veganmeat  #orthorexia  #anorexiasucks  #fighting  #foodisfuel  #anafighter  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #keepgoing  #anxiety  #recovery  #challengingmyself  #edrecovery 
Pudding tonight was just too good not to share😍milky bar mousse with strawberries🍓🌟
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Pudding tonight was just too good not to share😍milky bar mousse with strawberries🍓🌟 • Though no one can go back and make a new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new end. You are not your pass but you are you’re future. Yesterday is not today and today isn’t tomorrow. This minute isn’t the next minute. And you are not your enemy. Every second we change. Every breath we take. We are changing 24/7. We are developing and creating new starts day to day. You have the power. You have the control. And if you really want a new ending you have to take the leap, make the change and trust the change. You have to build and start from that fundamental base. You have a lot more control then you think. • 💗💗Sleep well lovelies💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
Yay my 100th post! And that means a challenge !! 🌟
As you can see it’s quite a big dinner for me with a mushroom omelette, a salad and a cooked potato and I decided to face a huge fear food, an egg. I don’t know why I’m so afraid for it but it just scares me. So I decided to eat it because ana can fuck off. And it was delicious!! Feeling pretty okay today, still not happy but just okay😁 Enjoy your weekend and do some challenges !!❤️
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Yay my 100th post! And that means a challenge !! 🌟 As you can see it’s quite a big dinner for me with a mushroom omelette, a salad and a cooked potato and I decided to face a huge fear food, an egg. I don’t know why I’m so afraid for it but it just scares me. So I decided to eat it because ana can fuck off. And it was delicious!! Feeling pretty okay today, still not happy but just okay😁 Enjoy your weekend and do some challenges !!❤️ • • #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiarecover  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiafight  #anorexiasucks  #fuckanorexia  #anorexiarecovering  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #recoveringdutchie  #recovery  #recoveryanorexia  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryishard  #recoveryispossible  #mentalhealthrecovery  #omelette  #dinner  #mushrooms 
For breakfast today I had a bowl of oats I never thought I would here myself say this but I no longer like oats... the last few days iv been forcing myself to have them so I think I might switch it up a bit and go back to my good ol weetabix. 
Iv had a really rough day today I got two test back home ec and history I got 88% in history which was ok I guess but for home ec I studied so hard for the consumer chapter but it was so hard and I only got 43% my mum was raging at me today I’ve spent eight hours doing homework and studying I’m so worn out but I have a science and French test coming up and I have to do good I also got so much homework
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For breakfast today I had a bowl of oats I never thought I would here myself say this but I no longer like oats... the last few days iv been forcing myself to have them so I think I might switch it up a bit and go back to my good ol weetabix. Iv had a really rough day today I got two test back home ec and history I got 88% in history which was ok I guess but for home ec I studied so hard for the consumer chapter but it was so hard and I only got 43% my mum was raging at me today I’ve spent eight hours doing homework and studying I’m so worn out but I have a science and French test coming up and I have to do good I also got so much homework #eatingdisorder  #ed  #eatingdisordered  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiasoldier  #anorexiasurvivor  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiabattle  #beatanorexia  #fuckanorexia  #foodismedecine  #foodisfuel  #anorexianervousa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #make2018great  #make2018shine  #make2018count  #vegan 
#nightsnack is a @grenadeofficial Jaffa quake protein bar and a cup of tea.
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I'm about to eat it now I'm going to heat in up as well since it's cold outside. It's later on than what I usually have it and my head is going crazy but I'm just going to have to push past it I've restricted too much today I can't restric anymore and let anna win. I will update on my story 😓😟😟💪🏼💪🏼😊😊😊😓😲😁😃😱
#nightsnack  is a @grenadeofficial Jaffa quake protein bar and a cup of tea. . I'm about to eat it now I'm going to heat in up as well since it's cold outside. It's later on than what I usually have it and my head is going crazy but I'm just going to have to push past it I've restricted too much today I can't restric anymore and let anna win. I will update on my story 😓😟😟💪🏼💪🏼😊😊😊😓😲😁😃😱
spontaneous #dinner at ikea was a kids menu: pasta with tomato and meat sauce🍝+fruit(melon and kiwi) 🍈🥝
❗️ptw:this was so hard bc pasta is such a huuuge fear food 💪🏽😔feeling quite really bad right now...
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spontaneous #dinner  at ikea was a kids menu: pasta with tomato and meat sauce🍝+fruit(melon and kiwi) 🍈🥝 ❗️ptw:this was so hard bc pasta is such a huuuge fear food 💪🏽😔feeling quite really bad right now... keep fighting xx #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #fightingana  #recovering  #edfighter  #beatingana  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #recovery  #fearfood  #food  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiawarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecover  #anorexiasucks  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexianerviosa 
Arrêter de compter. 
Aujourd’hui sa fait environ une semaine que j’anime arrêter de compter les calories et c’est vraiment un pur bonheur, je mange ce dont j’ai vraiment envie et pas ce que j’ai prévu pour la journée, je suis moins obsédé par sa. C’est difficile au début car on ne sait pas combien on a manger etc mais c’est tellement mieux ! Sa serais vous mentir de dire que j’essaye pas inconsciemment en rester dans le même nombre de calories mais je j’essaye vraiment de lâcher prise, de manger ce dont j’ai 100% envie. Mais ce qui a de bien c’est que j’écoute enfin ma faim, et sa c’est vraiment top. Alors n’hésite pas, lâcher cette application de comptage et vivais, oublier tout sa ! Il faut passez le cape et c’est dure j’en suis consciente, j’ai était aider grâce a mon voyage à Disney mais sa en vaut tellement la peine ! On est tellement plus heureux sans tout sa ! •
Hello ! J’espère que ça va ! Moi super ! Ce début de semaine a été super ! Juste mardi à était compliquer en TP bovin car j’ai appris qu’une des vache que l’on manipuler se faisait engraisser, et sa ma réconforter dans le fait d’être végétarienne, aussi un moment une vache m’a « bloquer » j’ai un peu paniquer mais à par sa c’était tellement bien ! En plus mercredi on a eu une soirée d’halloween c’était trop cool ! Ce matin rendez vous au psy sa ma fait du bien de parler un peu ! 
Mon prochain objectif est de lâcher vraiment prise des calories, et diminuer le sport un peu mais chaque chose en sont temps comme on dit ☺️ bonne soirée !
Arrêter de compter. Aujourd’hui sa fait environ une semaine que j’anime arrêter de compter les calories et c’est vraiment un pur bonheur, je mange ce dont j’ai vraiment envie et pas ce que j’ai prévu pour la journée, je suis moins obsédé par sa. C’est difficile au début car on ne sait pas combien on a manger etc mais c’est tellement mieux ! Sa serais vous mentir de dire que j’essaye pas inconsciemment en rester dans le même nombre de calories mais je j’essaye vraiment de lâcher prise, de manger ce dont j’ai 100% envie. Mais ce qui a de bien c’est que j’écoute enfin ma faim, et sa c’est vraiment top. Alors n’hésite pas, lâcher cette application de comptage et vivais, oublier tout sa ! Il faut passez le cape et c’est dure j’en suis consciente, j’ai était aider grâce a mon voyage à Disney mais sa en vaut tellement la peine ! On est tellement plus heureux sans tout sa ! • Hello ! J’espère que ça va ! Moi super ! Ce début de semaine a été super ! Juste mardi à était compliquer en TP bovin car j’ai appris qu’une des vache que l’on manipuler se faisait engraisser, et sa ma réconforter dans le fait d’être végétarienne, aussi un moment une vache m’a « bloquer » j’ai un peu paniquer mais à par sa c’était tellement bien ! En plus mercredi on a eu une soirée d’halloween c’était trop cool ! Ce matin rendez vous au psy sa ma fait du bien de parler un peu ! Mon prochain objectif est de lâcher vraiment prise des calories, et diminuer le sport un peu mais chaque chose en sont temps comme on dit ☺️ bonne soirée !
Si hay algo que he aprendido con mi maternidad es a prestarle menos importancia a las apariencias.
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Tener un hijo que luzca “diferente” fue bien retador pero me ha enseñado muchísimo sobre todo a darle importancia a lo que no se ve. .
Ayer estaba viendo un programa y tocaron el tema de la bulimia y la anorexia, el 20% de las jóvenes que caen en esta condición mueren, es una enfermedad mental y nuestros jóvenes están muy propensos a ella ya que cada día le damos más importancia como sociedad a las apariencias.
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Es preocupante la cantidad de información e incluso las páginas web que existen para enseñarles a los jóvenes a ser Anorexicas o bulímicas. Es increíble el detalle con el que explican.
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Me ha llevado a preguntarme:
¿Qué puedo hacer cómo madre, cómo mujer, cómo adulto para evitar que los jóvenes crezcan pensando que lo valioso es la apariencia?
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¿Qué tanto valor le doy a la opinión de los demás?
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Si hay algo que he aprendido con mi maternidad es a prestarle menos importancia a las apariencias. . Tener un hijo que luzca “diferente” fue bien retador pero me ha enseñado muchísimo sobre todo a darle importancia a lo que no se ve. . Ayer estaba viendo un programa y tocaron el tema de la bulimia y la anorexia, el 20% de las jóvenes que caen en esta condición mueren, es una enfermedad mental y nuestros jóvenes están muy propensos a ella ya que cada día le damos más importancia como sociedad a las apariencias. . Es preocupante la cantidad de información e incluso las páginas web que existen para enseñarles a los jóvenes a ser Anorexicas o bulímicas. Es increíble el detalle con el que explican. . Me ha llevado a preguntarme: ¿Qué puedo hacer cómo madre, cómo mujer, cómo adulto para evitar que los jóvenes crezcan pensando que lo valioso es la apariencia? . ¿Qué tanto valor le doy a la opinión de los demás? . ¿Qué puedo hacer para enseñarle a mis hijos que nada es más importante que su salud y su bienestar? . #anorexiasucks  #bulimiarecovery  #juntasesmasfacil  #cafeparamamas  #wellness 
McFlurry again 😍 I just love it!! I remember my thought when I had it the first time two years ago. I told myself I could only have one once a year ... so stupid !! Now I just had 4 in 3 weeks or so, because I just really like the taste of it. Anyways today I had my appointment with my new dietician and it was awesome !! I love her. She’s so kind and nice and everything felt so easy with her. I’m really motivated to challenge lots of more things. 
I‘m so happy about that !! 😊 
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McFlurry again 😍 I just love it!! I remember my thought when I had it the first time two years ago. I told myself I could only have one once a year ... so stupid !! Now I just had 4 in 3 weeks or so, because I just really like the taste of it. Anyways today I had my appointment with my new dietician and it was awesome !! I love her. She’s so kind and nice and everything felt so easy with her. I’m really motivated to challenge lots of more things. I‘m so happy about that !! 😊 #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #recoverfromanorexia  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiarecover  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #fightagainstana  #beatanorexia  #edrecoveryarmy  #weightgain  #edsucks  #anorexiasucks  #fightagainstanorexia  #fuckanorexia  #anorexiarecovering  #mcflurry  #mcdonalds 
Heya, fighters!👊
For today's #afternoonsnack I decided to try this Protein Bar🍫 from @nutrendbodybuilding with flavor Creamy Peanut Butter🌰 and omg... It was sooo delicious!😍 The peanut's taste was really amazing to feel and thanks to that, my tongue was totally in heaven of Creamy Butter mixed with Peanuts👼 11/10 points! I totally fell for this bar... 🙈💗 So, let's be honest now. I won't lie, this new protein bar for me was challenging - she had more calories and more fat, than the ones I've ever had. But actually, I don't mind now. Why? Because when I remember the taste and realize that the taste of the bar was the only thing I thought at that moment when I ate it, I don't have anything to feel guilty about. That bar was great, I have another one at home with this flavor, and one more with the flavor of tiramisu, and you know what? I'm really looking forward to taste her and there's nothing bad about it! What I really want to say is that the whims are in our recovery normal. None of us like them, so we just have to overcome them! Focus more on taste! Not on fats or sugars... The taste in our journeys heals so let her come across!👊💕 Sweet dreams, dears 💋 -
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Heya, fighters!👊 For today's #afternoonsnack  I decided to try this Protein Bar🍫 from @nutrendbodybuilding with flavor Creamy Peanut Butter🌰 and omg... It was sooo delicious!😍 The peanut's taste was really amazing to feel and thanks to that, my tongue was totally in heaven of Creamy Butter mixed with Peanuts👼 11/10 points! I totally fell for this bar... 🙈💗 So, let's be honest now. I won't lie, this new protein bar for me was challenging - she had more calories and more fat, than the ones I've ever had. But actually, I don't mind now. Why? Because when I remember the taste and realize that the taste of the bar was the only thing I thought at that moment when I ate it, I don't have anything to feel guilty about. That bar was great, I have another one at home with this flavor, and one more with the flavor of tiramisu, and you know what? I'm really looking forward to taste her and there's nothing bad about it! What I really want to say is that the whims are in our recovery normal. None of us like them, so we just have to overcome them! Focus more on taste! Not on fats or sugars... The taste in our journeys heals so let her come across!👊💕 Sweet dreams, dears 💋 - - - #anorexia  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #ed  #mentalillness  #eatingdissorder  #anxiety  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #recovery  #nourishtoflourish  #strongnotskinny  #beatthis  #bestrong  #youareworthy  #youarebrave  #fighting  #anorexiasucks  #youcandothis  #nevergiveup 
GOOD EVENING💗💗 CHALLENGE of change of carbohydrates again? HELL YA👏🏼💪🏼
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Dinner tonight is 4 Linda McCartney vegetarian meatballs with ‘light’ tomato and herb pasta sauce (50g), COUSCOUS (55g) ...😳followed by cucumber and onions🌟🌟
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So dinner tonight is not what I planned or wanted at all at all... what I originally planned was spiced kidney beans BUT my first lot of couscous went everywhere in the microwave it came out the bowl and everything so then time I made some more but then my kidney beans went mushy and looked so unappetising😓 so I had to make myself something else so ‘meat’balls we have😶 and now I have sauce which terrifies me😓 I only had this two nights ago so my head is screaming😭I feel like I’m punishing myself here but restricting is not an answer and food going wrong is not an excuse not to eat🙄
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I just feel like all I have done is waste food?! And I finally slept for an hour and half so now I feel even more guilty😶
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Full house tonight so pretty chaotic in this house as can imagine, least it’s a distraction I guess, need to do some university work and cheer myself up I think🌟key worker still not got back to me and she finishes shift in 15...
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GOOD EVENING💗💗 CHALLENGE of change of carbohydrates again? HELL YA👏🏼💪🏼 • Dinner tonight is 4 Linda McCartney vegetarian meatballs with ‘light’ tomato and herb pasta sauce (50g), COUSCOUS (55g) ...😳followed by cucumber and onions🌟🌟 • So dinner tonight is not what I planned or wanted at all at all... what I originally planned was spiced kidney beans BUT my first lot of couscous went everywhere in the microwave it came out the bowl and everything so then time I made some more but then my kidney beans went mushy and looked so unappetising😓 so I had to make myself something else so ‘meat’balls we have😶 and now I have sauce which terrifies me😓 I only had this two nights ago so my head is screaming😭I feel like I’m punishing myself here but restricting is not an answer and food going wrong is not an excuse not to eat🙄 • I just feel like all I have done is waste food?! And I finally slept for an hour and half so now I feel even more guilty😶 • Full house tonight so pretty chaotic in this house as can imagine, least it’s a distraction I guess, need to do some university work and cheer myself up I think🌟key worker still not got back to me and she finishes shift in 15... • Accept your flaws, We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
#dinner was a steak pie from the bakers with mashed potatoes for after was a apple and a yogurt.
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I managed it all 🙂 I did leave a little bit of mashed potato because I didn't have any pie left.
I'm feeling really full and horrible now my head is giving me so much grief because I know that the mashed potatoes had a lot of butter in it and I'm feeling so so guilty because it and because I feel so full it doesn't help.💪🏼😁🙂😲😱😃🤯😞😟😖😊🙄👊.
#dinner  was a steak pie from the bakers with mashed potatoes for after was a apple and a yogurt. . I managed it all 🙂 I did leave a little bit of mashed potato because I didn't have any pie left. I'm feeling really full and horrible now my head is giving me so much grief because I know that the mashed potatoes had a lot of butter in it and I'm feeling so so guilty because it and because I feel so full it doesn't help.💪🏼😁🙂😲😱😃🤯😞😟😖😊🙄👊.
#snack was a homemade latte with one sugar and milk and 2 chocolate digestive.
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I didn't manage the biscutes I know I should have pushed myself I know I should have ate them. I just couldn't chocolate is so scary and so are the calories 2 things that scare me the most in one thing.😞😟😖💪🏼😱🙂🙄🤯
#snack  was a homemade latte with one sugar and milk and 2 chocolate digestive. . I didn't manage the biscutes I know I should have pushed myself I know I should have ate them. I just couldn't chocolate is so scary and so are the calories 2 things that scare me the most in one thing.😞😟😖💪🏼😱🙂🙄🤯
2 toasted bread with red beats, cottage cheese and salad for lunch🤤
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Today started of quite bad, my body image was crappier than crap and urges to restrict huge😐
I reminded myself that these are just feelings and restriction is not an option. I’m sticking to my meal plan and that’s it💪
Also made myself a promise to stop body checking as much, and it has went pretty well🙌
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My mood has turned to way better, I actually feel good. 
And as long as I don’t think about all challenges, I’m looking forward to the weekend ☺️
It has been hard to eat and I’ve thought of all possible ways to skip, but I’ve still eaten everything🙊
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Even if you would be fat, that’s okay. You’re still beautiful 💕
If you want to change your body, checking it every hour won’t help you.
Body checking will lead to a bigger obsession and fixation on your look.
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2 toasted bread with red beats, cottage cheese and salad for lunch🤤 • Today started of quite bad, my body image was crappier than crap and urges to restrict huge😐 I reminded myself that these are just feelings and restriction is not an option. I’m sticking to my meal plan and that’s it💪 Also made myself a promise to stop body checking as much, and it has went pretty well🙌 • My mood has turned to way better, I actually feel good. And as long as I don’t think about all challenges, I’m looking forward to the weekend ☺️ It has been hard to eat and I’ve thought of all possible ways to skip, but I’ve still eaten everything🙊 • I haven’t got this far to give up. I haven’t got this far to not go further. I’m fighting, no matter how hard it is✨ • Pleas try to stop body checking, it won’t get you anywhere 🤷‍♀️ You can’t see the truth, your ED makes your body bigger than it it. Even if you would be fat, that’s okay. You’re still beautiful 💕 If you want to change your body, checking it every hour won’t help you. Body checking will lead to a bigger obsession and fixation on your look. • Treat your body with respect, fees it, rest it and take care of it❤️
Good afternoon you beautiful people💗💗 lunch at university today is a WHOLE WHOLEMEAL DELI WRAP! With 3 slices of chicken, cucumber and mayonnaise along side some extra cucumber, red grapes and a Costa mini double chocolate chip muffin👊🏼🌟🌟
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So, I’m facing a wrap again today as why not?why should I fear a wrap?it is a carbohydrate nothing more nothing less😳not going to lie it doesn’t look as overwhelming as my last wrap but I guess that’s how our eyes deceive us?as a wrap does not change depending on filling it’s just how we see it🌟
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Okay I was meant to have keywork at 12pm but hey you guessed it the phone line is engaged😴secretly I reckon they pulled the plug out so I couldn’t get through😂so looks like I’m going to be spending all day trying to get through inbetween seminars and lectures🙄we are talking about breakdowns in lectures and stress hormones+ cycles, what a coincident with yesterday ay🙄😶
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Still feeling pretty girly, made myself a ‘to do’ list for this weekend to help me feel more organised and less stressed🌟really fancy a hot shower and to be wrapped up in my dovet on my sofa aswell since this weather can’t make up its mind, so may do that when get in🤷🏼‍♀️🌟
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I woke up craving hot rice pudding with jam on, so I am kind of tempted to get some on way home🤷🏼‍♀️anyone else get random cravings? Like I’ve only ever had it twice but woke up wanting it?maybe this is a sign I should just move to porridge and jam, or do I just want jam? Or something sweet? I don’t know🤷🏼‍♀️😂
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Have a lovely afternoon, The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live so make some changes even the smallest ones will do, make Friday yours!💗💗
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Good afternoon you beautiful people💗💗 lunch at university today is a WHOLE WHOLEMEAL DELI WRAP! With 3 slices of chicken, cucumber and mayonnaise along side some extra cucumber, red grapes and a Costa mini double chocolate chip muffin👊🏼🌟🌟 • So, I’m facing a wrap again today as why not?why should I fear a wrap?it is a carbohydrate nothing more nothing less😳not going to lie it doesn’t look as overwhelming as my last wrap but I guess that’s how our eyes deceive us?as a wrap does not change depending on filling it’s just how we see it🌟 • Okay I was meant to have keywork at 12pm but hey you guessed it the phone line is engaged😴secretly I reckon they pulled the plug out so I couldn’t get through😂so looks like I’m going to be spending all day trying to get through inbetween seminars and lectures🙄we are talking about breakdowns in lectures and stress hormones+ cycles, what a coincident with yesterday ay🙄😶 • Still feeling pretty girly, made myself a ‘to do’ list for this weekend to help me feel more organised and less stressed🌟really fancy a hot shower and to be wrapped up in my dovet on my sofa aswell since this weather can’t make up its mind, so may do that when get in🤷🏼‍♀️🌟 • I woke up craving hot rice pudding with jam on, so I am kind of tempted to get some on way home🤷🏼‍♀️anyone else get random cravings? Like I’ve only ever had it twice but woke up wanting it?maybe this is a sign I should just move to porridge and jam, or do I just want jam? Or something sweet? I don’t know🤷🏼‍♀️😂 • Have a lovely afternoon, The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live so make some changes even the smallest ones will do, make Friday yours!💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
#lunch was a ham toastie with a yogurt a cereal bar and some apple juice.
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I've not done great I only managed the toastie and the apple juice. I'm going o my nana'sfor dinner tonight which is scaring me and i know even if I go somewhere else for dinner it doesn't mean I can restrict. I know I shouldn't have I know I should have ate it😖😟💪🏼😞🙄😓🤯😱
#lunch  was a ham toastie with a yogurt a cereal bar and some apple juice. . I've not done great I only managed the toastie and the apple juice. I'm going o my nana'sfor dinner tonight which is scaring me and i know even if I go somewhere else for dinner it doesn't mean I can restrict. I know I shouldn't have I know I should have ate it😖😟💪🏼😞🙄😓🤯😱
Why is this week so hard? I lost the power I usually have in the morning and now, I wake up all depressed while I used to feel so great and ready to fight the day.

I am going to my dad's tonight and I can't think of anything else. I am so afraid. Afraid that I will restrict by fear, or that I will have to eat things I don't want to because I am there and I am always so out of my comfort zone there, that I always have panic attacks alone in my room... #anxious #anxiety #stressed #anorexia #anorexianervosa #orthorexia #keepfighting #anorexiasucks #fighting #foodisfuel #anafighter #fightingforhappiness #porridge
Why is this week so hard? I lost the power I usually have in the morning and now, I wake up all depressed while I used to feel so great and ready to fight the day. I am going to my dad's tonight and I can't think of anything else. I am so afraid. Afraid that I will restrict by fear, or that I will have to eat things I don't want to because I am there and I am always so out of my comfort zone there, that I always have panic attacks alone in my room... #anxious  #anxiety  #stressed  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #orthorexia  #keepfighting  #anorexiasucks  #fighting  #foodisfuel  #anafighter  #fightingforhappiness  #porridge 
My sweet chocolate dream🍫🐼
My sweet chocolate dream🍫🐼
Breakfast!🥛
The usual crackers and a peach flavoured glass of milk (I don’t like ‘normal’ milk also pre ed). Following my meal plan is really hard but I know one it’s going to be worth it. So I’m going to fight until then. Enjoy your Friday! Xx
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Breakfast!🥛 The usual crackers and a peach flavoured glass of milk (I don’t like ‘normal’ milk also pre ed). Following my meal plan is really hard but I know one it’s going to be worth it. So I’m going to fight until then. Enjoy your Friday! Xx • • #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiarecover  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiafight  #anorexiasucks  #fuckanorexia  #anorexiarecovering  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #recoveringdutchie  #recovery  #recoveryanorexia  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryishard  #recoveryispossible  #mentalhealthrecovery  #breakfast 
GOOD MORNING💗💗 breakfast today is TWO Apple & raisin weetabix with a green Granny Smith Apple + 200ml hot milk🍏 🌟🌟
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Honestly starting to become a fan of these apples which is weird since a few days ago I was fearing having apples at breakfast as thought of them as ‘heavy’🤷🏼‍♀️🌟
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Been up since 4am as couldn’t get back to sleep😓having university is so stressful in mornings I always seem to run out of time😂got out of bed at 6, made lunch for university and breakfast and the time I’ve got dressed and put all my kitchen things away and ate breakfast bam it’s time to leave😴
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Woke up feeling quite girly and body positive so wearing a skirt today☺️ wore a dungaree on Tuesday and leggings the other day and it’s nice to actually start accepting my own skin. I have not wore a full face of makeup lately even though I like to, I want to embrace me for me. I haven’t spent hours on hair, I have been going for the frizzy hair half up half not look. And I feel okay? I don’t feel ugly and I don’t feel like shit, I feel comfortable🤷🏼‍♀️ keep getting stared at by strangers at my legs but I’m getting used to that, did shout at one this morning though ‘saying do you mind’ but haters gunna hate👊🏼swipe to see🌟
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Currently on my way to university🌟 remember all a bad in recovery is way better then a good day in relapsing in the hands controlled by Ana. Yesterday was tough but no way would I have preferred a good day in relapse because that isn’t a life. •
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GOOD MORNING💗💗 breakfast today is TWO Apple & raisin weetabix with a green Granny Smith Apple + 200ml hot milk🍏 🌟🌟 • Honestly starting to become a fan of these apples which is weird since a few days ago I was fearing having apples at breakfast as thought of them as ‘heavy’🤷🏼‍♀️🌟 • Been up since 4am as couldn’t get back to sleep😓having university is so stressful in mornings I always seem to run out of time😂got out of bed at 6, made lunch for university and breakfast and the time I’ve got dressed and put all my kitchen things away and ate breakfast bam it’s time to leave😴 • Woke up feeling quite girly and body positive so wearing a skirt today☺️ wore a dungaree on Tuesday and leggings the other day and it’s nice to actually start accepting my own skin. I have not wore a full face of makeup lately even though I like to, I want to embrace me for me. I haven’t spent hours on hair, I have been going for the frizzy hair half up half not look. And I feel okay? I don’t feel ugly and I don’t feel like shit, I feel comfortable🤷🏼‍♀️ keep getting stared at by strangers at my legs but I’m getting used to that, did shout at one this morning though ‘saying do you mind’ but haters gunna hate👊🏼swipe to see🌟 • Currently on my way to university🌟 remember all a bad in recovery is way better then a good day in relapsing in the hands controlled by Ana. Yesterday was tough but no way would I have preferred a good day in relapse because that isn’t a life. • Have a lovely morning💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge 
#breakfast was bran flakes with alpro vanilla yogurt and some apple juice.
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I managed it all 🙂 I'm feeling so so horrible my body image is really bad and all I can think about is where I can restrict I'm trying not to but it's so hard not to.🙁🙄😞😟😖💪🏼😲😁😃😱🤯👊
#breakfast  was bran flakes with alpro vanilla yogurt and some apple juice. . I managed it all 🙂 I'm feeling so so horrible my body image is really bad and all I can think about is where I can restrict I'm trying not to but it's so hard not to.🙁🙄😞😟😖💪🏼😲😁😃😱🤯👊
Super simple breakfast this morning ☁️
Super simple breakfast this morning ☁️
#dinner this evening is 1/2 vegan turkey sandwich (plain), 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1/2 avocado, and vegan tortilla soup. I was able to eat everything on the plate, but unable to finish the soup. I skipped labs again this morning, but apparently my doctor is okay with me doing them bi-weekly now. Yay! .
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***TW*** All of my team members are in agreement that the weight that I’m at right now is still not healthy. Although everything has stabilized... I straight up don’t want to gain anymore weight. My therapist brought up going inpatient/residential today and she hasn’t done that in a while. It scared the shit outta me... I don’t know what else to say. That’s where I’m at. Potentially on the verge of going inpatient again... Well, I’m not going to let that happen. #fuckanorexia .
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#dinner  this evening is 1/2 vegan turkey sandwich (plain), 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1/2 avocado, and vegan tortilla soup. I was able to eat everything on the plate, but unable to finish the soup. I skipped labs again this morning, but apparently my doctor is okay with me doing them bi-weekly now. Yay! . . . . ***TW*** All of my team members are in agreement that the weight that I’m at right now is still not healthy. Although everything has stabilized... I straight up don’t want to gain anymore weight. My therapist brought up going inpatient/residential today and she hasn’t done that in a while. It scared the shit outta me... I don’t know what else to say. That’s where I’m at. Potentially on the verge of going inpatient again... Well, I’m not going to let that happen. #fuckanorexia  . . . . . . . . . . . . . #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #adultswitheds  #edfam  #edfamily  #edstruggles  #edcommunity  #anawho  #ed  #mentalillness  #endthestigma  #mentalillnessawareness  #edawareness  #edwarrior  #bopo  #mealplan  #weightrestoration  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiasucks  #beatinged  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywarrior  #anorexiawontwin  #nourishtoflourish 
GOOD EVENING💗💗 dinner tonight is comfort food meaning 2 cod fish fingers with a ‘high fibre’ 5 seed deli roll, along side cucumber, tomatoes and mayo🌟🌟
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Dinner at 9pm as I finished lunch at 4:30 then went to sleep for an hour but the main thing is I’m still having all my meals, timings and breakdowns are okay but they don’t give you an excuse not to eat🙅🏼‍♀️ my dad can’t eat due to his operation but my dads girlfriend is being the cutie she is said she will eat with me so she came over☺️🌟
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Woke up and went to cry to my dad, had a bath to comfort me and now in my favourite shirt pj set🌟 I’m allowed to rest, I’m allowed to be comfy, it’s okay not to be okay😶
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This is my childhood favourite, I would always come home and ask for 4 fish fingers in a sandwich with unmeasured ketchup but for now this is the closest I can do and that’s okay👊🏼 feeling hella guilty with food today but I deserve to nourish myself and nourishing yourself is a essential🙅🏼‍♀️nothing is unhealthy okay Mary?okay
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Got university tomorrow but going to see how I feel in morning🌟
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Watching a film with dads girlfriend and dad tonight, thankyou to everyone for being there today especially the lovely @sasharecoveryxx and @nourisht0flourish you two are so incredible and deserve the world please follow the advice you give to others, you two are gems, I love you both so much and can’t thank you enough💗💗💗
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have a lovely evening/night, be kind and patient to yourself, you are not your worst enemy💗💗
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GOOD EVENING💗💗 dinner tonight is comfort food meaning 2 cod fish fingers with a ‘high fibre’ 5 seed deli roll, along side cucumber, tomatoes and mayo🌟🌟 • Dinner at 9pm as I finished lunch at 4:30 then went to sleep for an hour but the main thing is I’m still having all my meals, timings and breakdowns are okay but they don’t give you an excuse not to eat🙅🏼‍♀️ my dad can’t eat due to his operation but my dads girlfriend is being the cutie she is said she will eat with me so she came over☺️🌟 • Woke up and went to cry to my dad, had a bath to comfort me and now in my favourite shirt pj set🌟 I’m allowed to rest, I’m allowed to be comfy, it’s okay not to be okay😶 • This is my childhood favourite, I would always come home and ask for 4 fish fingers in a sandwich with unmeasured ketchup but for now this is the closest I can do and that’s okay👊🏼 feeling hella guilty with food today but I deserve to nourish myself and nourishing yourself is a essential🙅🏼‍♀️nothing is unhealthy okay Mary?okay • Got university tomorrow but going to see how I feel in morning🌟 • Watching a film with dads girlfriend and dad tonight, thankyou to everyone for being there today especially the lovely @sasharecoveryxx and @nourisht0flourish you two are so incredible and deserve the world please follow the advice you give to others, you two are gems, I love you both so much and can’t thank you enough💗💗💗 • have a lovely evening/night, be kind and patient to yourself, you are not your worst enemy💗💗 • • #ana  #fuckyouana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiasupport  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiasucks  #anorexiafight  #anorexic  #hydrated  #health  #gainingweightiscool  #gainingweight  #stronger  #fighting  #love  #support  #ed  #edrecovery  #ed  #sectioned  #inpatient  #hospitalised  #mentalillness  #fearfood  #revoverywin  #foodchallenge