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Heute waren wir essen und es gab einen vegetarischen Burger mit Avocado und Ziegenkäse 🍔🥑 dazu gab es noch ein paar Kartoffelchips 🥔 ——— wenn sich jetzt nicht das schlechte Gewissen melden würde, wäre alles perfekt 🌸 #burger #veggieburger #foodblogger #foodblog #foodpic #eatingdisorder #fighting #anorexiarecovery
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И так за сегодня дохулиард ккал тк какао пила дебильное... Думаю с сентября носить лифчик реже и бороться с комплексами. Сделать так чтобы тело нравилось(не такое какое оно есть,а улучшать) перестать стесняться себя! И стать стабильнее психически, быть более позитивной все дела
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#худею#рпп#булимия#анорексиядневник#анорексияприди#анорексия#та#типичнаяанарексичка#питьеваядиета#питьевая#диета#худею#срывы#мотивация#0кг#дневник#непп#жирная#жируха#хочухудыеляжки#яхудею#худеемвместе#anorexìa#ana#anorexi#anorexiarecovery#anorex#rpp#япохудею#докостей#мотивация#мотивациякпохудению#рпп
Ой снова моя фото4ка И так за сегодня дохулиард ккал тк какао пила дебильное... Думаю с сентября носить лифчик реже и бороться с комплексами. Сделать так чтобы тело нравилось(не такое какое оно есть,а улучшать) перестать стесняться себя! И стать стабильнее психически, быть более позитивной все дела (для привлечения внимания) #худею #рпп #булимия #анорексиядневник #анорексияприди #анорексия #та #типичнаяанарексичка #питьеваядиета #питьевая #диета #худею #срывы #мотивация #0кг #дневник #непп #жирная #жируха #хочухудыеляжки #яхудею #худеемвместе #anorexìa #ana #anorexi #anorexiarecovery #anorex #rpp #япохудею #докостей #мотивация #мотивациякпохудению #рпп 
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dinner:
jalfrezi curry w/ chickpeas, lentils, spinach & red pepper.🍛🌶🌽
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good evening! ❤️
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❌MTW❌
honestly, today was really hard. i try to be as positive as i can be on this account, but some days you just feel so shit that you can't act positive and plaster a smile on. my body image was so bad today, and a lot of things were triggering me. 
i didn't finish my dinner. i ate the curry and about 2/3 of the rice, but i just couldn't bear eating the rest of it because it felt like i was eating too much everyday. 😣
i didn't hit my calorie minimum today, but i don't think i'll be having a night snack because i feel too guilty.
❌MTW OVER❌
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i hope you've all had a brilliant day! ☕️
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#fearfood #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryaccount #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #ana #anorexianervosa #eatittobeatit #foodporn #foodie #recoveryjourney #ednos #mentalhealth #beatinganorexia #beatinged #anorexianervosarecovery #atypicalanorexia #recoverychallenge
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🍂 - dinner: jalfrezi curry w/ chickpeas, lentils, spinach & red pepper.🍛🌶🌽 - good evening! ❤️ - ❌MTW❌ honestly, today was really hard. i try to be as positive as i can be on this account, but some days you just feel so shit that you can't act positive and plaster a smile on. my body image was so bad today, and a lot of things were triggering me. i didn't finish my dinner. i ate the curry and about 2/3 of the rice, but i just couldn't bear eating the rest of it because it felt like i was eating too much everyday. 😣 i didn't hit my calorie minimum today, but i don't think i'll be having a night snack because i feel too guilty. ❌MTW OVER❌ - i hope you've all had a brilliant day! ☕️ - #fearfood  #recovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recoveryaccount  #recoveryisworthit  #edwarrior  #ana  #anorexianervosa  #eatittobeatit  #foodporn  #foodie  #recoveryjourney  #ednos  #mentalhealth  #beatinganorexia  #beatinged  #anorexianervosarecovery  #atypicalanorexia  #recoverychallenge  - filter used: @polarrpresets
How can something so small, so normal and insignificant to most people seem so scary? How does that switch flip in your head? And how the hell do you flip it back?!the only way from here HAS to be up, there’s no choice now... so man up Anna and get it done 😣 #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatit #keepfighting #edwarrior #eatittobeatit
this #tranformationtuesday is to show that mental illness isn’t always visible. on the left, I was being fed by anorexia and a month away from hitting the lowest physical and emotional point in my life. in today’s picture on the right, I’m in the deepest depression I’ve ever encountered.
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when I was physically declining as shown on the left, I was constantly being showered with attention and care because my anorexia was visible. people would come up to me and ask how they could help, or if I needed more support since they could see how I was hurting.
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on the right, my body is almost completely restored, but yet I’m still submerged in my anorexia and in the deepest depression of my life. no one can see my pain.
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the point of the matter is that restoring your body does not measure your healing, and it certainly does not guarantee happiness. mental illness is invisible.
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this #tranformationtuesday  is to show that mental illness isn’t always visible. on the left, I was being fed by anorexia and a month away from hitting the lowest physical and emotional point in my life. in today’s picture on the right, I’m in the deepest depression I’ve ever encountered. ✰ when I was physically declining as shown on the left, I was constantly being showered with attention and care because my anorexia was visible. people would come up to me and ask how they could help, or if I needed more support since they could see how I was hurting. ✰ on the right, my body is almost completely restored, but yet I’m still submerged in my anorexia and in the deepest depression of my life. no one can see my pain. ✰ the point of the matter is that restoring your body does not measure your healing, and it certainly does not guarantee happiness. mental illness is invisible. - - -
go-to meal🍠🥦🍅
go-to meal🍠🥦🍅
Nom nom nom, guten Abend von der Schnupfenfront. Triiiiefnase... Ja, nein es ist noch nicht besser, aber ich lass mich da jetzt auch nicht unter kriegen und jammern bringt da eh nix. 🤧
Heut hab ich mir wieder mal seit langem ein Kartoffelbrötchen geholt. Das weckt total die Kindheitserinnerungen, weil ich das damals als einzige in meiner Family geliebt habe. ☺
Das gabs dann gerade mit etwas Gemüse und Aufstrich. Ich esse ja immer reaktiv spät Abends weil sich das auch mit meinen Freund nicht anders ausgeht, und drum brauche ich auch nach der Arbeit immer was schnelles zwischen die Zähne.😋 Wenn ihr mich jetzt fragt wie viele "Mahlzeiten" ich am Tag esse - keine Ahnung erblich gesagt. Ich Snacke irgendwie so den ganzen Tag (belegte Brötchen, Müsli, Haferflocken,  Kuchen, Obst, Schoki, Kekse, Joghurt... Das is alles "Snack" in meinem Verständnis)  und großes, warm gekochtes dann  eigentlich nur 1x am Abend und dann noch ein Butterhonigbrötchen und Süßes im Bett 😅🍫🍪
Ob das jetzt "falsch" oder schlimm ist hab ich mir auch  nie so Gedanken gemacht, weils für mich einfach gut funktioniert. Klar, ne Ernährungsberatung würd den Speiseplan jetzt anders aufstellen, aber ich denk mir solang ich damit gut fahre und glücklich bin, warum nicht? 😉🤷
Zunehmen brauch echt ich nicht mehr, abnehmen muss auch nicht wirklich sein, also passt schon oder?
Wie ist das bei euch? Habt ihr so klassisch morgens, mittags, Abends oder auch eher durcheinander?
Nom nom nom, guten Abend von der Schnupfenfront. Triiiiefnase... Ja, nein es ist noch nicht besser, aber ich lass mich da jetzt auch nicht unter kriegen und jammern bringt da eh nix. 🤧 Heut hab ich mir wieder mal seit langem ein Kartoffelbrötchen geholt. Das weckt total die Kindheitserinnerungen, weil ich das damals als einzige in meiner Family geliebt habe. ☺ Das gabs dann gerade mit etwas Gemüse und Aufstrich. Ich esse ja immer reaktiv spät Abends weil sich das auch mit meinen Freund nicht anders ausgeht, und drum brauche ich auch nach der Arbeit immer was schnelles zwischen die Zähne.😋 Wenn ihr mich jetzt fragt wie viele "Mahlzeiten" ich am Tag esse - keine Ahnung erblich gesagt. Ich Snacke irgendwie so den ganzen Tag (belegte Brötchen, Müsli, Haferflocken, Kuchen, Obst, Schoki, Kekse, Joghurt... Das is alles "Snack" in meinem Verständnis) und großes, warm gekochtes dann eigentlich nur 1x am Abend und dann noch ein Butterhonigbrötchen und Süßes im Bett 😅🍫🍪 Ob das jetzt "falsch" oder schlimm ist hab ich mir auch nie so Gedanken gemacht, weils für mich einfach gut funktioniert. Klar, ne Ernährungsberatung würd den Speiseplan jetzt anders aufstellen, aber ich denk mir solang ich damit gut fahre und glücklich bin, warum nicht? 😉🤷 Zunehmen brauch echt ich nicht mehr, abnehmen muss auch nicht wirklich sein, also passt schon oder? Wie ist das bei euch? Habt ihr so klassisch morgens, mittags, Abends oder auch eher durcheinander?
Mi niña preciosa saca a la venta su primer libro “si me sigues te pierdes” un libro que no te puedes perder porque te encantará!!!! A mi me cautivó. Si quieres abrir boca, puedes mirar su perfil de Instagram si me sigues te pierdes, dónde encontrarás fragmentos que te enamorarán . Aquí os dejo la sinopsis. TODOS CON @veromf90 , eres la mejor, te mereces que todo vaya genial con el libro, porque lo vale, lo vales y porque te quiero muchísimo mi pequeña!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍 “Si me sigues, te pierdes” Héctor y Duna irán viviendo una serie de experiencias que les enseñarán a vivir en un mundo que no está hecho para ellos....lucharán por superarse día a día, conociéndose a sí mismos, reencontrándose. Amistad, amor, libertad, superación.... sentimientos a flor de piel!! No te la pierdas!! #simesiguestepierdes #writer #borderline #disorder #dreams #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #tlp #autolesiones #libro #newbook #book #new #news #instabook #instagram #instapic #instaquotes #love #depresion #friends #loveislove #juntassomosmaisfortes #luchadoras #superación #amazon #books #notelopierdas #booksgram
Mi niña preciosa saca a la venta su primer libro “si me sigues te pierdes” un libro que no te puedes perder porque te encantará!!!! A mi me cautivó. Si quieres abrir boca, puedes mirar su perfil de Instagram si me sigues te pierdes, dónde encontrarás fragmentos que te enamorarán . Aquí os dejo la sinopsis. TODOS CON @veromf90 , eres la mejor, te mereces que todo vaya genial con el libro, porque lo vale, lo vales y porque te quiero muchísimo mi pequeña!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍 “Si me sigues, te pierdes” Héctor y Duna irán viviendo una serie de experiencias que les enseñarán a vivir en un mundo que no está hecho para ellos....lucharán por superarse día a día, conociéndose a sí mismos, reencontrándose. Amistad, amor, libertad, superación.... sentimientos a flor de piel!! No te la pierdas!! #simesiguestepierdes  #writer  #borderline  #disorder  #dreams  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimia  #tlp  #autolesiones  #libro  #newbook  #book  #new  #news  #instabook  #instagram  #instapic  #instaquotes  #love  #depresion  #friends  #loveislove  #juntassomosmaisfortes  #luchadoras  #superación  #amazon  #books  #notelopierdas  #booksgram 
I had muesli with currants, raspberries and soymilk for dinner :) my day wasn’t special, I just did some things for school and watched a movie and I made lunch for my family :) I Should habe had therapy today but my therapist postponed it to tomorrow so I have therapy and group therapy tomorrow :/ we‘ll see 🙈 _____________________________________________________ #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #ana #anorexie #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimia #bulimie #recoveryisworthit #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervousa #mia #ocd #recovery
I had muesli with currants, raspberries and soymilk for dinner :) my day wasn’t special, I just did some things for school and watched a movie and I made lunch for my family :) I Should habe had therapy today but my therapist postponed it to tomorrow so I have therapy and group therapy tomorrow :/ we‘ll see 🙈 _____________________________________________________ #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #ana  #anorexie  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bulimia  #bulimie  #recoveryisworthit  #bulimiarecovery  #bulimianervousa  #mia  #ocd  #recovery 
Today I am going to attempt to eat exactly my meal plan. I could really use some encouragement from you guys and I hope I can encourage you too by kicking Ana / ED’s ass 💕 #anorexiarecovery #bulemiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #defeatana #kickanasass
Swipe to the left 👈 to see the inside shot 📸. I had this bar the other day for a snack and it was really good! I actually put it in the freezer and that made it even better 👍! I tasted more chocolate than peanut butter but I like the texture and it’s nice if you want something different than your normal protein bar texture. I’d give it a 7/10 and I’d get it again. I still have more flavors to try so I’ll let you know how those are 😉! ••• I had a super hard but super awesome lower body workout today at the gym. Let’s just say that I won’t be walking that much later on today 😂. I have a couple of doctors appointments today and then I need to really buckle down and get my work done because I’m leaving for college in less than two weeks 😳!!! So just have to stop procrastinating and get working! It’s scary and I’m nervous but also so so excited to go to college this fall 😊. Anyway, have a good Tuesday everyone 😘!
Swipe to the left 👈 to see the inside shot 📸. I had this bar the other day for a snack and it was really good! I actually put it in the freezer and that made it even better 👍! I tasted more chocolate than peanut butter but I like the texture and it’s nice if you want something different than your normal protein bar texture. I’d give it a 7/10 and I’d get it again. I still have more flavors to try so I’ll let you know how those are 😉! ••• I had a super hard but super awesome lower body workout today at the gym. Let’s just say that I won’t be walking that much later on today 😂. I have a couple of doctors appointments today and then I need to really buckle down and get my work done because I’m leaving for college in less than two weeks 😳!!! So just have to stop procrastinating and get working! It’s scary and I’m nervous but also so so excited to go to college this fall 😊. Anyway, have a good Tuesday everyone 😘!
Sooo..hi 👋🏼 I’m not really that sure what I’m doing creating this account or what I plan to post, but I’m hoping it might help being part of the recovery community? 🤷🏽‍♀️ I’m Charlotte, and I was diagnosed with anorexia about 3 years ago now, and right now I think I’m struggling ngl. I’ve definitely been in a much better place recovery wise, I’ve completed a year of uni but now I’m home for the summer I’ve slipped...a lot I think 😕 I’ve been stuck in recovery for a long time so maybe this account will help, we’ll see! I hope I can get to know a few people, we can share experiences and maybe help each other? I’d love that 😊 On another note, how good does this pina colada I had on holiday look? It was so good 😍
Sooo..hi 👋🏼 I’m not really that sure what I’m doing creating this account or what I plan to post, but I’m hoping it might help being part of the recovery community? 🤷🏽‍♀️ I’m Charlotte, and I was diagnosed with anorexia about 3 years ago now, and right now I think I’m struggling ngl. I’ve definitely been in a much better place recovery wise, I’ve completed a year of uni but now I’m home for the summer I’ve slipped...a lot I think 😕 I’ve been stuck in recovery for a long time so maybe this account will help, we’ll see! I hope I can get to know a few people, we can share experiences and maybe help each other? I’d love that 😊 On another note, how good does this pina colada I had on holiday look? It was so good 😍
Yes Ana, that is cooking sauce🤭 and it’s NOT low fat🙊🙊🙊!!! So dinner is 50/50 fusilli pasta🍝 topped with mushroom cooking sauce🥫 along with a chicken breast🍗 a slice of turkey bacon(don’t ask😂), mushrooms and red peppers🍄🌶 -
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I may or may not have burned one of my mums pans while cooking my chicken😕 nevermind, I’ll buy her a new one😂🙊🤦🏻‍♀️ take it from me; I can’t cook😳😂 -
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Erm, I’m not sure what to write here if I’m honest😕 im abit lost and out of it this afternoon...im not sure what’s going on if im honest! I could kick myself however...I was SOOOO close to have a jam filled croissant for afternoon snack that my stepdad bought me before they went away🙃 but I just couldn’t fucking do it!!!!! AHHHHH! So I just had the packet of crisps I normally have with my lunch because I couldn’t eat then at work😶 FUCK YOU ANA! I’m tired of this! I’m tired of it! Why couldn’t I do it?! Why did I just get the damn croissant and sit and fucking eat it?! Because I DONT KNOW! My ugly head convinced me it would have been better to have eaten my crisps that I missed rather than skip them and have something completely different! IM SO ANNOYED WITH MYSELF!!!! Someone help!!?? I can’t do it!!! WHY CANT I JUST DO IT!!!!!!😭😭😭 -
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My boss has changed my work hours for tomorrow too! So instead of working 2pm-5:30pm, I’m now working 2pm-8pm😦😧😮!!! Which means dinner at work! God SAKEEEEE! Think of the money sash, think of the money! I’m angry too because that means I won’t be able to go to the gym tomorrow night so I want to go tonight...SOMEONE PLEASE, just take me away somewhere without this anorexia bullshit and free from everything!!?? I’m begging you! -
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As you can probably sense, I’m pretty annoyed at myself and SORRY FOR ranting but I need to let it out! I’ve been bottling it up! I have no one to talk to and I’m lonely, so fucking lonely!😞 maybe it’s my own fault? I don’t know. But I’m going to sit and eat my dinner now so, I love you guys! Stay safe❤️❤️❤️❤️
Yes Ana, that is cooking sauce🤭 and it’s NOT low fat🙊🙊🙊!!! So dinner is 50/50 fusilli pasta🍝 topped with mushroom cooking sauce🥫 along with a chicken breast🍗 a slice of turkey bacon(don’t ask😂), mushrooms and red peppers🍄🌶 - - I may or may not have burned one of my mums pans while cooking my chicken😕 nevermind, I’ll buy her a new one😂🙊🤦🏻‍♀️ take it from me; I can’t cook😳😂 - - Erm, I’m not sure what to write here if I’m honest😕 im abit lost and out of it this afternoon...im not sure what’s going on if im honest! I could kick myself however...I was SOOOO close to have a jam filled croissant for afternoon snack that my stepdad bought me before they went away🙃 but I just couldn’t fucking do it!!!!! AHHHHH! So I just had the packet of crisps I normally have with my lunch because I couldn’t eat then at work😶 FUCK YOU ANA! I’m tired of this! I’m tired of it! Why couldn’t I do it?! Why did I just get the damn croissant and sit and fucking eat it?! Because I DONT KNOW! My ugly head convinced me it would have been better to have eaten my crisps that I missed rather than skip them and have something completely different! IM SO ANNOYED WITH MYSELF!!!! Someone help!!?? I can’t do it!!! WHY CANT I JUST DO IT!!!!!!😭😭😭 - - My boss has changed my work hours for tomorrow too! So instead of working 2pm-5:30pm, I’m now working 2pm-8pm😦😧😮!!! Which means dinner at work! God SAKEEEEE! Think of the money sash, think of the money! I’m angry too because that means I won’t be able to go to the gym tomorrow night so I want to go tonight...SOMEONE PLEASE, just take me away somewhere without this anorexia bullshit and free from everything!!?? I’m begging you! - - As you can probably sense, I’m pretty annoyed at myself and SORRY FOR ranting but I need to let it out! I’ve been bottling it up! I have no one to talk to and I’m lonely, so fucking lonely!😞 maybe it’s my own fault? I don’t know. But I’m going to sit and eat my dinner now so, I love you guys! Stay safe❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Ihr lieben, ich melde mich auch mal wieder. Es tut mir leid, dass es momentan sehr still um mich ist, aber es geht mir momentan nicht besonders gut. Ich versuche aber alles irgendwie positiv zu sehen. Ich habe was ich brauche. Einen besten Freund, der mit mir die Schule durchzieht & mich nie hängen lässt. Auch wenn mich der Rest total nervt. Der Inhalt der Ausbildung ist nach wie vor ziemlich leicht. Das ist absolut nicht arrogant gemeint aber im letzten Jahr habe ich mindestens 1 mal die Woche gefehlt und es ohne große Mühen mit einem echt guten Schnitt geschafft. Wenn ich mich jetzt nur ein wenig rein hänge, wird das schon klappen. Ich habe den besten Mann an meiner Seite 💏 und durch ihn eine so wichtige Stütze. Morgen kommt er endlich wieder, er war nämlich ein paar Tage in Oberhausen.
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Was soll ich sonst noch sagen ? Ich bin ziemlich genervt, da ich wegen der Praktikas keine Rückmeldung erhalte, weil die Klasse mich nervt, ich mich allein und wertlos fühle und die ES halt noch scheiß präsent ist. Naja, aber es ist schon besser als es die ersten Tage an der Schule war. Ich hoffe einfach, dass alles einen guten Lauf nimmt und ich mich irgendwann (möglichst bald) besser fühle.
(Werbung) . Ihr lieben, ich melde mich auch mal wieder. Es tut mir leid, dass es momentan sehr still um mich ist, aber es geht mir momentan nicht besonders gut. Ich versuche aber alles irgendwie positiv zu sehen. Ich habe was ich brauche. Einen besten Freund, der mit mir die Schule durchzieht & mich nie hängen lässt. Auch wenn mich der Rest total nervt. Der Inhalt der Ausbildung ist nach wie vor ziemlich leicht. Das ist absolut nicht arrogant gemeint aber im letzten Jahr habe ich mindestens 1 mal die Woche gefehlt und es ohne große Mühen mit einem echt guten Schnitt geschafft. Wenn ich mich jetzt nur ein wenig rein hänge, wird das schon klappen. Ich habe den besten Mann an meiner Seite 💏 und durch ihn eine so wichtige Stütze. Morgen kommt er endlich wieder, er war nämlich ein paar Tage in Oberhausen. . Was soll ich sonst noch sagen ? Ich bin ziemlich genervt, da ich wegen der Praktikas keine Rückmeldung erhalte, weil die Klasse mich nervt, ich mich allein und wertlos fühle und die ES halt noch scheiß präsent ist. Naja, aber es ist schon besser als es die ersten Tage an der Schule war. Ich hoffe einfach, dass alles einen guten Lauf nimmt und ich mich irgendwann (möglichst bald) besser fühle.
Cutting calories? This sandwich is 160 calories and very filling!! I use @flatoutbread , turkey, lettuce, and mustard. quinoa #iifym #nutrition #fitness #flexibledieting #pizza #onlinecoach #fitnessmotivation #diettips #weigtlosstips #motivation #pizzahut #keto #lowcarb #lowcal #healthy #pizzahut #foodielife #nutritioncoach #coach #love #gym #weightwatchers #gym #motivation #weightloss #anorexiarecovery
Меня так долго не было.
 Родители стали меня откармливать и заперать туалет (14 дней ела дофига). Я не знаю, что у меня с весом или объемами (весов тут нет, а сантиметр забыла, наверно куплю новый) К тому же я разбила телефон и это главная причина отсутствия. Думаю сесть на любимую, потом на пп. Но я точно знаю, что тело сильно испортилось (наконец-то начну занимаеться) Сегодня прошла всего 2 км, но т.к. вообще не ела, думаю что сойдет. 
Вы как? Расскажите о своих успехах)
Всех люблю и желаю стройных ног🌌

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Меня так долго не было. Родители стали меня откармливать и заперать туалет (14 дней ела дофига). Я не знаю, что у меня с весом или объемами (весов тут нет, а сантиметр забыла, наверно куплю новый) К тому же я разбила телефон и это главная причина отсутствия. Думаю сесть на любимую, потом на пп. Но я точно знаю, что тело сильно испортилось (наконец-то начну занимаеться) Сегодня прошла всего 2 км, но т.к. вообще не ела, думаю что сойдет. Вы как? Расскажите о своих успехах) Всех люблю и желаю стройных ног🌌 #анорексия  #булимия  #похудение  #анорексичка  #типичнаяанорексия  #анорексиядневник  #анорексички  #худеемвместе  #худею  #дневникпитания  #рпп  #правильноепитание  #идеал  #любисебя  #люби  #ябудулучше  #дневник  #ана  #ан  #красиво  #красивая  #стройная  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorex  #срыв  #отвес  #зажор  #45кг  #бордовый 
I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS ✨ 
Learning to love yourself through the progress and during the journey is hard-but it gets easier I promise. .I used to say “i’ll love myself when I’m back at my goal weight”  from where I started I’m half way there. H O W E V E R...I have come to love my body for what it is right now, for how strong it’s become and how it it can handle what I put it through. 
When I was 12 years old I developed anorexia & I have only really started to talk about it in the last couple years. Honestly I was embarrassed and felt like no one would believe me cause I wasn’t super skinny. And then when I gained all my weight I felt even more ashamed & honestly frustrated w/myself. How could I go from being so disciplined that I endangered my life to so out of control that I couldn’t stop eating and gaining weight?!?! Now my mindset around food is healthy and more focused on fueling my body for my workouts vs eating whatever I want whenever I can. I can’t help but feel like I got a second chance at life and caring for my body. . .
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#fitness #fit #fitnessmotivation #fitwomen #stronglegs #strong #strongnotskinny #anorexiarecovery #recovery #healthy #healthylifestyle #healthymindset #mindset #workinprogress #progressnotperfect #progress #tattoo #tattooedwomen #halfsleevetattoo #edmonds #lynnwood #pnwlife #pnw
I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS ✨ Learning to love yourself through the progress and during the journey is hard-but it gets easier I promise. .I used to say “i’ll love myself when I’m back at my goal weight” from where I started I’m half way there. H O W E V E R...I have come to love my body for what it is right now, for how strong it’s become and how it it can handle what I put it through. When I was 12 years old I developed anorexia & I have only really started to talk about it in the last couple years. Honestly I was embarrassed and felt like no one would believe me cause I wasn’t super skinny. And then when I gained all my weight I felt even more ashamed & honestly frustrated w/myself. How could I go from being so disciplined that I endangered my life to so out of control that I couldn’t stop eating and gaining weight?!?! Now my mindset around food is healthy and more focused on fueling my body for my workouts vs eating whatever I want whenever I can. I can’t help but feel like I got a second chance at life and caring for my body. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #fitness  #fit  #fitnessmotivation  #fitwomen  #stronglegs  #strong  #strongnotskinny  #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #healthy  #healthylifestyle  #healthymindset  #mindset  #workinprogress  #progressnotperfect  #progress  #tattoo  #tattooedwomen  #halfsleevetattoo  #edmonds  #lynnwood  #pnwlife  #pnw 
◾НАЧАЛО МОЕГО РПП◾

уже с детства я пыталась похудеть, но это не было помешанностью и мысли о диетах приходили редко(похудеть перед летом, больше заниматься спортом, кататься на велосипеде и тд).
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вообще, тема рпп есть и у меня в семье. моя тётя болеет орторексией(вечное пп и тренировки, считает себя жирной и часто изводит спортом). бабушка, которая помешана на еде, то есть она вечно хочет что-то приготовить и кого-то накормить, при этом сама не ест и следит за своим весом.
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начальная точка моего рпп была в 2017 году в январе. я точно помню как искала видео и группы про анорексию, мечтала ей заболеть(только вот я тупая не учла, что это психическое заболевание). сидела на пп до 1200кк и занималась спортом. весов кухонных не было и я считала калории как-то странно (типа определяла на глаз размер порции). за месяц похудела с 51 до 48. после узнала, что такое таблетки и начала пить мочегонные и слабительные.
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дальше я узнаю, что такое рпп и понимаю, что я в полной жопе. вспоминаю, что начало было уже давно (я в 2016 году винила себя за еду и каждый день говорила, что завтра надо на диету). я худею до 42 килограмм(рост тогда был 167), держу этот вес около месяца, но вскоре начинаю набирать. набрала до 48, потом опять похудела до 43 и так по кругу было много раз.
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считаю, что рпп в моей жизни не просто так, назову основные причины:
🔴наследственность(историю про семью я рассказала)
🔴мой перфекционизм(всегда хотела везде быть лучшей и первой)
🔴тяжёлая ситуация в семье( мама привела жить к нам отчима, который вечно пил и приводил своих друзей, спаивал маму). я рвала на себе волосы и резала руки, чтобы как-то абстрагироваться от этой ситуации. может быть анорексия и была селфхармом для меня, я заменяла моральную боль на физическую. голод и таблетки делали больно и мне это нравилось, ведь на моральную боль уже не оставалось сил, если можно так сказать.
🔴худая подруга (да, до похудения я была худой, но подруга ниже меня и мне было как-то стыдно за своё тело и якобы "жир").
◾НАЧАЛО МОЕГО РПП◾ уже с детства я пыталась похудеть, но это не было помешанностью и мысли о диетах приходили редко(похудеть перед летом, больше заниматься спортом, кататься на велосипеде и тд). . вообще, тема рпп есть и у меня в семье. моя тётя болеет орторексией(вечное пп и тренировки, считает себя жирной и часто изводит спортом). бабушка, которая помешана на еде, то есть она вечно хочет что-то приготовить и кого-то накормить, при этом сама не ест и следит за своим весом. . начальная точка моего рпп была в 2017 году в январе. я точно помню как искала видео и группы про анорексию, мечтала ей заболеть(только вот я тупая не учла, что это психическое заболевание). сидела на пп до 1200кк и занималась спортом. весов кухонных не было и я считала калории как-то странно (типа определяла на глаз размер порции). за месяц похудела с 51 до 48. после узнала, что такое таблетки и начала пить мочегонные и слабительные. . дальше я узнаю, что такое рпп и понимаю, что я в полной жопе. вспоминаю, что начало было уже давно (я в 2016 году винила себя за еду и каждый день говорила, что завтра надо на диету). я худею до 42 килограмм(рост тогда был 167), держу этот вес около месяца, но вскоре начинаю набирать. набрала до 48, потом опять похудела до 43 и так по кругу было много раз. . считаю, что рпп в моей жизни не просто так, назову основные причины: 🔴наследственность(историю про семью я рассказала) 🔴мой перфекционизм(всегда хотела везде быть лучшей и первой) 🔴тяжёлая ситуация в семье( мама привела жить к нам отчима, который вечно пил и приводил своих друзей, спаивал маму). я рвала на себе волосы и резала руки, чтобы как-то абстрагироваться от этой ситуации. может быть анорексия и была селфхармом для меня, я заменяла моральную боль на физическую. голод и таблетки делали больно и мне это нравилось, ведь на моральную боль уже не оставалось сил, если можно так сказать. 🔴худая подруга (да, до похудения я была худой, но подруга ниже меня и мне было как-то стыдно за своё тело и якобы "жир").
UPDATE 🕊️🕊️🕊️
So heute hatte ich einen Termin im Forum. Wir haben letzte Woche mit meinem Betreuer ausgemacht, dass ich mein Gewicht die nächsten 4 bis 6 Wochen mein Gewicht halten darf. Mit der Bedingung 3 richtige Mahlzeiten zu essen. Das ist schonmal mega gut und entlastend. Ich bin zwar noch unter dem Startgewicht, aber ich habe von letzter Woche zu dieser gehalten und sogar manchmal mit Meinen Mitbewohnern gegessen. Nächste Woche beginnt die Ernährungsberatung und im September Gruppen, Körperbild und Kunsttherapie, wenn das Jugendamt die Kosten übernimmt.💰💰💰💰💰💰💰 Heute war ich das erste Mal alleine im Forum und ich habe das für die Schule mitbekommen(siehe Bild 1)ich bin immer so müde und schlafe im Unterricht ein und habe Konzentrationsprobleme und bin einfach nicht gerne in der Schule. Ich darf jetzt früher gehen, wenn es zu viel wird und später kommen, wenn die Nacht schlimm war oder der Kreislauf verrückt spielt. Das entlastet mich total! Hab nur Angst wie die Schule reagiert.😌😌😌😌😌😌😌 An sich war Schule okay durfte um 12 gehen. Nur ich hab mich ja getraut mich umzusetzen, aber heute hat da jemand anderes gesessen... Ich glaube die wollen mich an dem Tisch irgendwie nicht haben. Das hat mich traurig gemacht. Joa vorhin habe ich mit meinem anderen Bezugsbetreuer bisschen Papirkram gemacht.🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸 Wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend abend🕊️💪💗🤗
UPDATE 🕊️🕊️🕊️ So heute hatte ich einen Termin im Forum. Wir haben letzte Woche mit meinem Betreuer ausgemacht, dass ich mein Gewicht die nächsten 4 bis 6 Wochen mein Gewicht halten darf. Mit der Bedingung 3 richtige Mahlzeiten zu essen. Das ist schonmal mega gut und entlastend. Ich bin zwar noch unter dem Startgewicht, aber ich habe von letzter Woche zu dieser gehalten und sogar manchmal mit Meinen Mitbewohnern gegessen. Nächste Woche beginnt die Ernährungsberatung und im September Gruppen, Körperbild und Kunsttherapie, wenn das Jugendamt die Kosten übernimmt.💰💰💰💰💰💰💰 Heute war ich das erste Mal alleine im Forum und ich habe das für die Schule mitbekommen(siehe Bild 1)ich bin immer so müde und schlafe im Unterricht ein und habe Konzentrationsprobleme und bin einfach nicht gerne in der Schule. Ich darf jetzt früher gehen, wenn es zu viel wird und später kommen, wenn die Nacht schlimm war oder der Kreislauf verrückt spielt. Das entlastet mich total! Hab nur Angst wie die Schule reagiert.😌😌😌😌😌😌😌 An sich war Schule okay durfte um 12 gehen. Nur ich hab mich ja getraut mich umzusetzen, aber heute hat da jemand anderes gesessen... Ich glaube die wollen mich an dem Tisch irgendwie nicht haben. Das hat mich traurig gemacht. Joa vorhin habe ich mit meinem anderen Bezugsbetreuer bisschen Papirkram gemacht.🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸 Wünsche euch noch einen schönen Abend abend🕊️💪💗🤗
I'll eat this muffin with my coffee even though I have belly rolls and cellulite. Then in an hour I'll eat something with more substance like eggs AND a bagel. That's right two carbs within an hour. Cause it doesn't fucking matter 😎
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#ed #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #exerciseaddiction #boobsnotbones #newme #lifeisgood #lifeiswhatwemakeit #coffee #blogger #myrecovery #journey #coffeeaddict #anxiety #depression #eatingdisorder #anorexia #orthorexia #love #fitgirl #balancednotclean #bopo #positivity #fitgirl #balancednotclean #goodvibes #mentalhealth #sexualassault #survivor #ptsd
I'll eat this muffin with my coffee even though I have belly rolls and cellulite. Then in an hour I'll eat something with more substance like eggs AND a bagel. That's right two carbs within an hour. Cause it doesn't fucking matter 😎 . . . . . #ed  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #exerciseaddiction  #boobsnotbones  #newme  #lifeisgood  #lifeiswhatwemakeit  #coffee  #blogger  #myrecovery  #journey  #coffeeaddict  #anxiety  #depression  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #orthorexia  #love  #fitgirl  #balancednotclean  #bopo  #positivity  #fitgirl  #balancednotclean  #goodvibes  #mentalhealth  #sexualassault  #survivor  #ptsd 
Yum brekkie! So I'm filming a what I eat in a day video and I'm probably gonna post it to YouTube! Would any of you watch it? #veganrecovery #vegan #recovery #recoveryisworthit #anoreixa #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery
Another not feeling well day so Tom Yum Soup it is 😊. #anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery
Hello everyone🌝❤So today was a really good day until I got a lot of messages about I am eating sooooo "unhealthy"........Its really hard.....I think I am not eating so unhealthy but I am not eating like a fittness model.....I am just like eating like A NORMAL CHILD🤷‍♀️Well.....my "bigger" meals are healthier than those snacks I am posting🙃So This is my account and I eat what I want to eat......but THIS PROTEIN BAR IS SOOO GOOD😍#anorexia#anorexiarecovery#proteinbar#love#food#foodporn#edsuck#edrecovery#bulimia
Hello everyone🌝❤So today was a really good day until I got a lot of messages about I am eating sooooo "unhealthy"........Its really hard.....I think I am not eating so unhealthy but I am not eating like a fittness model.....I am just like eating like A NORMAL CHILD🤷‍♀️Well.....my "bigger" meals are healthier than those snacks I am posting🙃So This is my account and I eat what I want to eat......but THIS PROTEIN BAR IS SOOO GOOD😍#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #proteinbar #love #food #foodporn #edsuck #edrecovery #bulimia 
5. Мы наконец приехали на новое место. Отец не прекратил меня гнобить. Ему жалко мне семечки, ибо я их ем «не нормально» с его точки зрения - не чищу одну и сразу ем а сначала очищаю все а потом ем, и это его семечки, его орехи, ибо «я их покупал чтобы расслабляться а не чтобы она их жрала». Этот мат, ругань и непрекращающиеся открытые обсуждения меня при мне в третьем лице доводят меня до состояния когда мне становится плевать на все, и на себя. Я никогда не встреваю в обсуждения себя в третьем лице, мне все равно, ничего нового в поливаемо грязью меня не узнаю.  Я жду осень чтобы может даже в ущерб нового института куда я прошла в 10 бюджетных мест пойти искать новую работу или что угодно но только не жить с ними. Даже если я не буду успешной по жизни и до конца дней (так ли их много при таком раскладе?) проработаю по мелочи, ничего не добьюсь, мне честно мое личное спокойствие без желания спрыгнуть и разбить голову важнее. Как жаль что идея с учебой в другом городе ко мне пришла только сейчас.
#рпп##ed#eddiary#recovery#anorexia#bulimia#анорексия#булимия#anorexianervosa#bulimianervosa#rpp#жир#зажор#diary#дневник#буля#anorexiarecovery#fat#ана#мия#будухудой#похудение#диета#рппдневник#anadiary#фотография#photography
5. Мы наконец приехали на новое место. Отец не прекратил меня гнобить. Ему жалко мне семечки, ибо я их ем «не нормально» с его точки зрения - не чищу одну и сразу ем а сначала очищаю все а потом ем, и это его семечки, его орехи, ибо «я их покупал чтобы расслабляться а не чтобы она их жрала». Этот мат, ругань и непрекращающиеся открытые обсуждения меня при мне в третьем лице доводят меня до состояния когда мне становится плевать на все, и на себя. Я никогда не встреваю в обсуждения себя в третьем лице, мне все равно, ничего нового в поливаемо грязью меня не узнаю. Я жду осень чтобы может даже в ущерб нового института куда я прошла в 10 бюджетных мест пойти искать новую работу или что угодно но только не жить с ними. Даже если я не буду успешной по жизни и до конца дней (так ли их много при таком раскладе?) проработаю по мелочи, ничего не добьюсь, мне честно мое личное спокойствие без желания спрыгнуть и разбить голову важнее. Как жаль что идея с учебой в другом городе ко мне пришла только сейчас. #рпп ##ed #eddiary #recovery #anorexia #bulimia #анорексия #булимия #anorexianervosa #bulimianervosa #rpp #жир #зажор #diary #дневник #буля #anorexiarecovery #fat #ана #мия #будухудой #похудение #диета #рппдневник #anadiary #фотография #photography 
So. Here we go. Me and HEALTHY body. Gonna keep up eating extra as I think to be honest my set point is higher than this and this is my minimum but I guess I’ll just keep following my dietitian and see what happens 🤷‍♀️ #scarystuff
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Ps, before I get any hate, if you have something to say about my wonky arse mirror then go check out my dancing video recently and you’ll see that it really is that wonky!!
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #anorexia #anorexic #anorexiarecovery #EDthoughts #EDrecovery #depression #anxiety #edwarrior #edfighter #recoverywarrior #strongnotskinny #autism #autistic #anorexiabattle #gettingstrong #recovery #realrecovery #hospital #inpatient #inpatientrecovery #selfie #healthybody #healthy
So. Here we go. Me and HEALTHY body. Gonna keep up eating extra as I think to be honest my set point is higher than this and this is my minimum but I guess I’ll just keep following my dietitian and see what happens 🤷‍♀️ #scarystuff  . Ps, before I get any hate, if you have something to say about my wonky arse mirror then go check out my dancing video recently and you’ll see that it really is that wonky!! . #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anorexia  #anorexic  #anorexiarecovery  #EDthoughts  #EDrecovery  #depression  #anxiety  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #recoverywarrior  #strongnotskinny  #autism  #autistic  #anorexiabattle  #gettingstrong  #recovery  #realrecovery  #hospital  #inpatient  #inpatientrecovery  #selfie  #healthybody  #healthy 
Hey there beautiful warriors😊good morning to al the fighters out there🦋 quote of the day: “grow through what you go through”🌱 .... this is a long journey, but we are growing stronger than ever. And it really is all going to be ok.💓 #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #nourishtoflourish #mentalhealthsupport #foodismedicine #anorexiarecovery #inpatienttreatment
It’s time for me to come back to this community. It’s time for me to recover. There’s so much to update, I don’t even know where to begin. In short - I went on an amazing trip (above), learned how to snack, gained to a healthy weight, was food shamed at work, fell back in love with my man who changed completely and treats me like a queen, I laugh a lot, my parents nearly divorced, I got sicker, became a doctor, I love my job and I’m proud of how hard I work and how I connect with patients, now a surgical intern with four interview offers for my dream job next year, broke a rib, had a privacy breach where someone stole my identity, was terrified, shut down my social media, lost a couple of friends, made many new ones, don’t weigh myself anymore, and I’m overall really happy, just not in recovery. I realised that right now I don’t have any worries. I have opportunities. I have six months if I get one of these jobs to become healthy. I fight every day against the mindset of the weight I’ve gained but the healthy me knows I’m still ‘thin enough’, and that it would be OKAY if I wasn’t thin. But right now I just want to connect with someone. Anyone. If you’re listening. Let’s chat. #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdissorder #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #edsoldier #edwarrior #bodypositivity
It’s time for me to come back to this community. It’s time for me to recover. There’s so much to update, I don’t even know where to begin. In short - I went on an amazing trip (above), learned how to snack, gained to a healthy weight, was food shamed at work, fell back in love with my man who changed completely and treats me like a queen, I laugh a lot, my parents nearly divorced, I got sicker, became a doctor, I love my job and I’m proud of how hard I work and how I connect with patients, now a surgical intern with four interview offers for my dream job next year, broke a rib, had a privacy breach where someone stole my identity, was terrified, shut down my social media, lost a couple of friends, made many new ones, don’t weigh myself anymore, and I’m overall really happy, just not in recovery. I realised that right now I don’t have any worries. I have opportunities. I have six months if I get one of these jobs to become healthy. I fight every day against the mindset of the weight I’ve gained but the healthy me knows I’m still ‘thin enough’, and that it would be OKAY if I wasn’t thin. But right now I just want to connect with someone. Anyone. If you’re listening. Let’s chat. #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdissorder  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edwarrior  #bodypositivity 
~ Feeling so weak and tired today in classes but feel physically sick at the thought of eating anything 😫 On the positive this is my new favourite leotard because it makes me feel like a faerie-mermaid 🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️ ~ Be strong beautiful warriors 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋✨💋#recover #recovery #edwarrior #dancefashion #pineappledancestudios #contemporarydance #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #fearfood #prorecovery #recoveryfamily #bodyimage #bodypositive #health #healthy #mentalhealth #selflove #selfcare #strongnotskinny #dance #dancer #ballerina #osfed #ballet
~ Feeling so weak and tired today in classes but feel physically sick at the thought of eating anything 😫 On the positive this is my new favourite leotard because it makes me feel like a faerie-mermaid 🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️ ~ Be strong beautiful warriors 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋✨💋#recover  #recovery  #edwarrior  #dancefashion  #pineappledancestudios  #contemporarydance  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #fearfood  #prorecovery  #recoveryfamily  #bodyimage  #bodypositive  #health  #healthy  #mentalhealth  #selflove  #selfcare  #strongnotskinny  #dance  #dancer  #ballerina  #osfed  #ballet 
#TransformationTuesday. 😍 The transformation of a #CARETAKER. The picture on the left was taken 10 years ago after I had been to hospitals and treatment for my eating disorder and would still go two more times. The picture on the right is my 72 years-young sweet mother NOW. 👀
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Eating disorders are selfish diseases. Who was I to take advantage of my mom’s #LOVE when she was just trying to keep me alive? 🤷🏻‍♀️ I was doing everything in my power to kill myself and in the process I took all the joy, love and life out of my mom as well.  If you are going to self-destruct think about the people around you and make sure to leave them their lives. I will work every day to bring joy and happiness back into my mom’s life. 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩
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**My mom says her hair is an extension of all the LOVE she feels coming out of her head. 🙇🏻‍♀️ What color would you dye your hair to express your personality? ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
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#TransformationTuesday . 😍 The transformation of a #CARETAKER . The picture on the left was taken 10 years ago after I had been to hospitals and treatment for my eating disorder and would still go two more times. The picture on the right is my 72 years-young sweet mother NOW. 👀 • • • - ❤️ - Eating disorders are selfish diseases. Who was I to take advantage of my mom’s #LOVE  when she was just trying to keep me alive? 🤷🏻‍♀️ I was doing everything in my power to kill myself and in the process I took all the joy, love and life out of my mom as well. If you are going to self-destruct think about the people around you and make sure to leave them their lives. I will work every day to bring joy and happiness back into my mom’s life. 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 - ❤️ - **My mom says her hair is an extension of all the LOVE she feels coming out of her head. 🙇🏻‍♀️ What color would you dye your hair to express your personality? ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 -
🏡 La casa può essere un rifugio o una prigione e non dipende sempre da noi 🏡
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🏡 La casa può essere un rifugio o una prigione e non dipende sempre da noi 🏡 Meditation ...
🌸a new decision🌸
I went to the gym today, the first time after my vacation. Normally I do one hour of cardio (30 mins running/30 mins spinning) but today I stopped the treadmill after 15 minutes of running. I didn’t feel like running and it was no fun. Then, after five minutes I felt so f*cking guilty that I almost started crying. That was the moment when I realized that my eating disorder still has the control over a big part of me. It’s no fun for me to run until I get sick. So I decided: no cardio anymore. Not now. I will not allow my eating disorder to control me in this way. I’ve come so far and I really want to do sports to enjoy it, not because I have the feeling that I HAVE to do it.
🌸a new decision🌸 I went to the gym today, the first time after my vacation. Normally I do one hour of cardio (30 mins running/30 mins spinning) but today I stopped the treadmill after 15 minutes of running. I didn’t feel like running and it was no fun. Then, after five minutes I felt so f*cking guilty that I almost started crying. That was the moment when I realized that my eating disorder still has the control over a big part of me. It’s no fun for me to run until I get sick. So I decided: no cardio anymore. Not now. I will not allow my eating disorder to control me in this way. I’ve come so far and I really want to do sports to enjoy it, not because I have the feeling that I HAVE to do it.
It never gets better. My cuts are getting deeper as the voices get louder maybe I should just end it all because then the voices stop right? #mentalhealth #mentalillness #selfharm #suicide #cutting #positive #deppression #depressionquotes #depression #depressed #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #killme #saveme #help #fluoxetine #disgusting #obese #fat #gross #skinny #perfect #bones #anxiety #bdd #ednos #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #suicidal
It never gets better. My cuts are getting deeper as the voices get louder maybe I should just end it all because then the voices stop right? #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #selfharm  #suicide  #cutting  #positive  #deppression  #depressionquotes  #depression  #depressed  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #killme  #saveme  #help  #fluoxetine  #disgusting  #obese  #fat  #gross  #skinny  #perfect  #bones  #anxiety  #bdd  #ednos  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #suicidal 
Day at the zoo🌞💛
Can you see the giraffe in the background ? I tried to take a picture of my ice cream with it, but I don't know how much you can actually tell its there😅 Anyway, I had a Chocolate, Vanilla and Strawberry Ice cream cone, and that's what counts!
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#anorexiarecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #zoo #giraffe #now #ana #anawho #anorexia #edwarrior #foodporn #food #foodie #foods #foodphotography #foody #foodgasm #foodlover #dessert #foodgram #icecreamcone #foodblogger #instagood #candy #instafood #chocolate #caramel #homemade #icecream #icecreamlover
Day at the zoo🌞💛 Can you see the giraffe in the background ? I tried to take a picture of my ice cream with it, but I don't know how much you can actually tell its there😅 Anyway, I had a Chocolate, Vanilla and Strawberry Ice cream cone, and that's what counts! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ #anorexiarecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #zoo  #giraffe  #now  #ana  #anawho  #anorexia  #edwarrior  #foodporn  #food  #foodie  #foods  #foodphotography  #foody  #foodgasm  #foodlover  #dessert  #foodgram  #icecreamcone  #foodblogger  #instagood  #candy  #instafood  #chocolate  #caramel  #homemade  #icecream  #icecreamlover 
Happy Tuesday! My mom, sister and I road tripped 14 hours yesterday to Nashville, so today we are exploring my future home!! I won’t be moving in until next month but it’s fun to walk and bike around where I’ll be living 🤗 having alllll the biscuits and grits today so im sharing this bowl from the other day!
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Spinach with half a roasted sweet potato drizzled with @seedsofcollaboration tahini, roasted broccoli, Mahi burger, avocado, goat cheese, @bienasnacks roasted chickpeas and some cilantro @saucylipsfoods !
Happy Tuesday! My mom, sister and I road tripped 14 hours yesterday to Nashville, so today we are exploring my future home!! I won’t be moving in until next month but it’s fun to walk and bike around where I’ll be living 🤗 having alllll the biscuits and grits today so im sharing this bowl from the other day! . Spinach with half a roasted sweet potato drizzled with @seedsofcollaboration tahini, roasted broccoli, Mahi burger, avocado, goat cheese, @bienasnacks roasted chickpeas and some cilantro @saucylipsfoods !
Happy #toasttuesday everyone! Keeping it classic today with the good old combo of peanut butter, chocolate, and banana! 🥜🍫🍌//Toasted cinnamon raisin english muffin topped with natural peanut butter, @peanutbutterco dark chocolate dreams peanut butter, plus a banana with a drizzle of pb and sprinkle of hemp hearts!
Happy #toasttuesday  everyone! Keeping it classic today with the good old combo of peanut butter, chocolate, and banana! 🥜🍫🍌//Toasted cinnamon raisin english muffin topped with natural peanut butter, @peanutbutterco dark chocolate dreams peanut butter, plus a banana with a drizzle of pb and sprinkle of hemp hearts!
Dinner was couscous with rasins, vegan mince meat, vegetables and some carrots😋

I'll go on a worldtrip next year after my graduation and I'm currently just reading some books about, India, Sri Lanka, Singapore, Thailand, Dubai and Vietnam. I also want to visit Indonesia, Australia, New Zealand, Hawaii and the US. Lots of reading ahead but I can't wait till next year!! I'll probably go for around 6-8 months😍

#anorexianervosa #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexic #eatingdisorder #recovery #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #weightgain #donotgiveup #smallstepsaddup #krachtvoer #foodisfuel #dinner #vegan
Dinner was couscous with rasins, vegan mince meat, vegetables and some carrots😋 I'll go on a worldtrip next year after my graduation and I'm currently just reading some books about, India, Sri Lanka, Singapore, Thailand, Dubai and Vietnam. I also want to visit Indonesia, Australia, New Zealand, Hawaii and the US. Lots of reading ahead but I can't wait till next year!! I'll probably go for around 6-8 months😍 #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexic  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #weightgain  #donotgiveup  #smallstepsaddup  #krachtvoer  #foodisfuel  #dinner  #vegan 
Bring on the orange 🙌🙌 todays snack was unintentionally very colour co-ordinated!! 2 raw carrots 🥕🥕 with a serving of bbq flavour popchips. Something completely new to me, but I'd totally recommend them 😍😋 Swipe for yesterdays project, another birthday cake, this time it's Percy from Thomas and Friends for my littlest brother 🎂🚂 Sticking to my meal plan, despite having been weighed thismorning and knowing I've gained a little, is really hard 😣 It's so difficult to view weight gain as positive, when anorexia is nagging away a whole load of stuff my head... but I keep trying to remind myself - if I don't gain weight I can't get full treatment. I have to carry on restoring to really move forward with the treatment program I'm following with my psychologist. 
Every day we have to make that choice, multiple times a day. Do we choose the living hell that is anorexia, or do we choose life, freedom, and health? 💚 I still don't always choose recovery at a mealtime or when faced with an opportunity to over-exercise 😔 
But it's small steps, recovery buddies! Stay strong and fight to choose life because you deserve it 😙

#anorexia #anorexianervosa #edwarrior #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #weightrestoring #weightgain #recoveryinsta #edfighter #ana #anafighter #beatinged #beatingana #mealplan #balancednotclean #norestricting #mentalhealth #healing #noslackingonsnacking #chooselife
Bring on the orange 🙌🙌 todays snack was unintentionally very colour co-ordinated!! 2 raw carrots 🥕🥕 with a serving of bbq flavour popchips. Something completely new to me, but I'd totally recommend them 😍😋 Swipe for yesterdays project, another birthday cake, this time it's Percy from Thomas and Friends for my littlest brother 🎂🚂 Sticking to my meal plan, despite having been weighed thismorning and knowing I've gained a little, is really hard 😣 It's so difficult to view weight gain as positive, when anorexia is nagging away a whole load of stuff my head... but I keep trying to remind myself - if I don't gain weight I can't get full treatment. I have to carry on restoring to really move forward with the treatment program I'm following with my psychologist. Every day we have to make that choice, multiple times a day. Do we choose the living hell that is anorexia, or do we choose life, freedom, and health? 💚 I still don't always choose recovery at a mealtime or when faced with an opportunity to over-exercise 😔 But it's small steps, recovery buddies! Stay strong and fight to choose life because you deserve it 😙 #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #weightrestoring  #weightgain  #recoveryinsta  #edfighter  #ana  #anafighter  #beatinged  #beatingana  #mealplan  #balancednotclean  #norestricting  #mentalhealth  #healing  #noslackingonsnacking  #chooselife 
Good Afternoon!
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Today for afternoon snack I am having crumpet with @meridianfoods peanut butter and blackberries from my garden🌱🌱🌱.
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#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #ana #anarecovery #anarecovering #edrecovery #ed #food #snack
Day 12-Lunch
-2 tortillas again
-1 sweet potato
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#anorexiarecovery #anorexiatips #edrecovery #ed #whatieat #lunch #tortilla #tomato #sweetpotato #cucumber
In simple terms, binge eating happens to fill an emotional void, yes?
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So then why do we keep trying to fix it with a new diet or work out routine?
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Don’t get me wrong, I get it, I’ve fallen into that trap SO MANY TIMES. I find a new shiny diet, I pump myself up that this will be the last time I ever have to diet, I stick with it for a couple of days and then BOOM! It blows up in my face. 💣
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Maybe you’re familiar with what happens next… Feelings of guilt, regret and shame take over, “I’m so pathetic, I couldn’t even stick to a simple diet; I have no willpower.” And then because we wouldn’t want to experience those uncomfortable emotions, we numb with food, reinforcing the horrible, disempowering beliefs.
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Then we’re left with even more guilt and we think that maybe it was the wrong diet for us so we find a new diet and the cycle repeats itself over and over again.
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The problem here is that no where in this cycle was there an opportunity to check in with ourselves and our emotions! It was all changing behaviours instead of thoughts and beliefs (which actually cause your behaviours).
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Stay tuned for my next post, I’ll talk about what an intuitive eating approach looks like so you can escape this rigid diet/binge cycle.
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In the meantime, if you haven’t already downloaded your copy of “Bye Bye Binge Eating”, my FREE 3 day coaching series, go get yours now! Link is in my bio.👌🏻
In simple terms, binge eating happens to fill an emotional void, yes? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ So then why do we keep trying to fix it with a new diet or work out routine? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Don’t get me wrong, I get it, I’ve fallen into that trap SO MANY TIMES. I find a new shiny diet, I pump myself up that this will be the last time I ever have to diet, I stick with it for a couple of days and then BOOM! It blows up in my face. 💣 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Maybe you’re familiar with what happens next… Feelings of guilt, regret and shame take over, “I’m so pathetic, I couldn’t even stick to a simple diet; I have no willpower.” And then because we wouldn’t want to experience those uncomfortable emotions, we numb with food, reinforcing the horrible, disempowering beliefs. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Then we’re left with even more guilt and we think that maybe it was the wrong diet for us so we find a new diet and the cycle repeats itself over and over again. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The problem here is that no where in this cycle was there an opportunity to check in with ourselves and our emotions! It was all changing behaviours instead of thoughts and beliefs (which actually cause your behaviours). ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Stay tuned for my next post, I’ll talk about what an intuitive eating approach looks like so you can escape this rigid diet/binge cycle. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ In the meantime, if you haven’t already downloaded your copy of “Bye Bye Binge Eating”, my FREE 3 day coaching series, go get yours now! Link is in my bio.👌🏻
Today i saw two of my friends and we baked Rolo cookies and ate pizza and dough balls☺️☺️ #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #ed #edwarrior #edwarriors #edfam #edfamilyeatingdisorderrecovery #edfamilly #strongnotskinny #weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #weightgainiscool #ana
Sorry, no food picture. But I need some help. And not the usual "it is your ed talking, blahblahblah" because right now that really isn't true.
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Okay, what I need help with is: tomorrow I have a talk with my former therapists. It is supossed to be a talk for them to finally listen to me, to what I wanted, because I have demanded that for a long time (people never listen to me). And now they said they want to (yeaahh, sure). But my mom says they will 100% sure tell me they want me in therapy again. Which I REALLY don't want. But my mom thinks they will do. She says that they say I am not "capable of thinking" unless I do what they say (start therapy), only first they said I was capable of thinking at bmi15 which I passed. So I demand that I get a choice in my recovery, which I don't get. But then the thing: my mom always says she won't bother or mix into my recovery again, and will let me do what I see is best. But now she is basically forcing me in therapy again, and she is disguising it as "maybe then, if you do it 3-4 times they will listen, see it doesn't work and help you for your euthanisia wish and maybe then the RM and all the other bullshit will be stopped" and when I tell her that that will happen anyway, and that I don't believe they will help me anymore she says "well, I am getting tired of you too! I can't deal with you anymore! Please make me and them happy for once and just do it!" And I got so mad. Because I really don't want, and I don't want to make them happy AT ALL. But my mom KNOWS how shit I feel if I know I hurt my mom. And her saying this REALLY hurt me. Making me feel like an even worse burden to here and an annoyance. 
And here comes the problem: now I don't know what to do. Because I, as a grown up almost 20 year old capable of thinking person, don't want therapy anymore AT. ALL. And I also don't want to please the therapists and let them think "see, he was faking it all the time. He doesn't want to die" when I really do still want to. BUT I also don't want to be a bigger burden to my mom or disappoint her even further. But I really don't know what to do. The cons are WAY MORE than the pros. But the biggest (and maybe only one) cont ⬇
Sorry, no food picture. But I need some help. And not the usual "it is your ed talking, blahblahblah" because right now that really isn't true. 🍃 Okay, what I need help with is: tomorrow I have a talk with my former therapists. It is supossed to be a talk for them to finally listen to me, to what I wanted, because I have demanded that for a long time (people never listen to me). And now they said they want to (yeaahh, sure). But my mom says they will 100% sure tell me they want me in therapy again. Which I REALLY don't want. But my mom thinks they will do. She says that they say I am not "capable of thinking" unless I do what they say (start therapy), only first they said I was capable of thinking at bmi15 which I passed. So I demand that I get a choice in my recovery, which I don't get. But then the thing: my mom always says she won't bother or mix into my recovery again, and will let me do what I see is best. But now she is basically forcing me in therapy again, and she is disguising it as "maybe then, if you do it 3-4 times they will listen, see it doesn't work and help you for your euthanisia wish and maybe then the RM and all the other bullshit will be stopped" and when I tell her that that will happen anyway, and that I don't believe they will help me anymore she says "well, I am getting tired of you too! I can't deal with you anymore! Please make me and them happy for once and just do it!" And I got so mad. Because I really don't want, and I don't want to make them happy AT ALL. But my mom KNOWS how shit I feel if I know I hurt my mom. And her saying this REALLY hurt me. Making me feel like an even worse burden to here and an annoyance. And here comes the problem: now I don't know what to do. Because I, as a grown up almost 20 year old capable of thinking person, don't want therapy anymore AT. ALL. And I also don't want to please the therapists and let them think "see, he was faking it all the time. He doesn't want to die" when I really do still want to. BUT I also don't want to be a bigger burden to my mom or disappoint her even further. But I really don't know what to do. The cons are WAY MORE than the pros. But the biggest (and maybe only one) cont ⬇
❣️Добрый вечер, ежата 🦔
❣️Наконец, сегодня дочитала Стивена Кинга «Армагеддон». Неожиданная концовка, как и всегда у этого автора. Но у Кинга есть работы и лучше. Ставлю 8/10. ⠀
❣️Тренировка на ноги 2 часа. Ох, не могу теперь ровно ходить, ножки подкашиваются. Такое приятное чувство. 🙃
❣️Всем хорошего вечера, люблю вас. ❤️ ⠀
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🔥Скушала на 650 ккал🔥
❣️Добрый вечер, ежата 🦔 ❣️Наконец, сегодня дочитала Стивена Кинга «Армагеддон». Неожиданная концовка, как и всегда у этого автора. Но у Кинга есть работы и лучше. Ставлю 8/10. ⠀ ❣️Тренировка на ноги 2 часа. Ох, не могу теперь ровно ходить, ножки подкашиваются. Такое приятное чувство. 🙃 ❣️Всем хорошего вечера, люблю вас. ❤️ ⠀ ⠀ 🔥Скушала на 650 ккал🔥
Who you surround yourself with matters! Tag a bestie you admire for their brain and intellectually stimulating conversations. 🧐🤔🤓 #smartypants #mygirl
Who you surround yourself with matters! Tag a bestie you admire for their brain and intellectually stimulating conversations. 🧐🤔🤓 #smartypants  #mygirl 
Reposting this because I know I need this reminder, and I’m sure some of you do too❤️
I’ve been struggling recently, but I’m trying to fight my way through it.
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#shpquote20k #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #recoveryquotes #recovery #recovering #mhquotes #mentalhealthquotes #positivequotes #artistsoninstagram #handlettering #prismacolor
#dinner 🙈👌...das hat meine Mama gemacht 💪...das ist asiatisches Gemüse mit Currysauce 🙏...ich habe es getan und das gegessen was meine Mama zubereitet hat😓...es war echt lecker und ich bin sooooo stolz gerade auf mich dass ich mich getraut habe 😎... obwohl die stimme im Kopf gerade tobt😮
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Die Schule war heute echt lang und 8 Stunden sind echt ermüdend 😥 hoffe morgen wird entspannter
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#anorexia #anorexialoses #anorexianervosa #anorexiawontwin #anorexianervosarecovery #ana #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #recoverylose #recovery #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eattolive #strongnotskinny
#dinner  🙈👌...das hat meine Mama gemacht 💪...das ist asiatisches Gemüse mit Currysauce 🙏...ich habe es getan und das gegessen was meine Mama zubereitet hat😓...es war echt lecker und ich bin sooooo stolz gerade auf mich dass ich mich getraut habe 😎... obwohl die stimme im Kopf gerade tobt😮 . Die Schule war heute echt lang und 8 Stunden sind echt ermüdend 😥 hoffe morgen wird entspannter . #anorexia  #anorexialoses  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiawontwin  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ana  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexiawarrior  #anorexiafighter  #recoverylose  #recovery  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eattolive  #strongnotskinny 
Surround yourself with amazing, beautiful, incredible people who will continue to build you up, never bring you down. 
That’s how to get through life. @ames.recovers
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#anorexia #anorexic #anorexiarecovery #EDthoughts #EDrecovery #depression #anxiety #edwarrior #edfighter #recoverywarrior #strongnotskinny #autism #autistic #aspergers #hospital #fightinghard #anorexiabattle #forwardstep #proudface #positivity #inpatient #inpatientrecovery #hospital #sectioned #messages #reachingout #lovetoyouall
Surround yourself with amazing, beautiful, incredible people who will continue to build you up, never bring you down. That’s how to get through life. @ames.recovers . #anorexia  #anorexic  #anorexiarecovery  #EDthoughts  #EDrecovery  #depression  #anxiety  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #recoverywarrior  #strongnotskinny  #autism  #autistic  #aspergers  #hospital  #fightinghard  #anorexiabattle  #forwardstep  #proudface  #positivity  #inpatient  #inpatientrecovery  #hospital  #sectioned  #messages  #reachingout  #lovetoyouall 
Good morning! I had such a fantastic day yesterday. After I checked in with you all I did some stuff around the house, ate some lunch (swipe to see that deliciousness), went to therapy, and then spent the rest of my day/night with my coworkers. We did chandelyra & I taught a killer silks class, and then we all went out to the lake. We drank wine, had a picnic (I had sushi & beet chips!), watched the meteor shower, and then swam our hearts out until after 3 AM. It was so wonderful. I’m in desperate need of a shower and some coffee, but my heart is so full and happy. I love all of my circus family so much. <3
This morning I woke up and drove home, and was (I think) feeling some hunger, which is rad. So I made this killer breakfast & now I’m just relaxing at home for a bit before my appointment with my RD this afternoon. Fingers crossed that I’ve gained!!
What are you all up to on this lovely Tuesday? Let’s make it a good one.
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breakfast deetz -> homemade hash browns (bc cravings) topped with 2 eggs fried in goat butter with s + p, dried basil, and oregano, avocado, and (after I took the picture) a generous drizzle of Cholula
- sautéed spinach, zucchini, and mushrooms
- a few cherry tomatoes from my plant
- almond milk
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yesterday’s lunch -> a bowl filled to the brim with romaine, sugar snap peas, cherry tomatoes, quinoa, roasted & salted edamame, chicken breast, curry roasted white-flesh sweet potato cubes, roasted carrot, fresh & roasted shiitake mushrooms, roasted zucchini, broccoli, and sautéed spinach
- topped with avocado, toasted pepitas, tamari, and Frank’s original
- almond milk
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#anorexiarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #prorecovery #recoveryfood #recoveryisworthit #recoveryfamily #recoverywarrior #fuckeatingdisorders
Good morning! I had such a fantastic day yesterday. After I checked in with you all I did some stuff around the house, ate some lunch (swipe to see that deliciousness), went to therapy, and then spent the rest of my day/night with my coworkers. We did chandelyra & I taught a killer silks class, and then we all went out to the lake. We drank wine, had a picnic (I had sushi & beet chips!), watched the meteor shower, and then swam our hearts out until after 3 AM. It was so wonderful. I’m in desperate need of a shower and some coffee, but my heart is so full and happy. I love all of my circus family so much. <3 This morning I woke up and drove home, and was (I think) feeling some hunger, which is rad. So I made this killer breakfast & now I’m just relaxing at home for a bit before my appointment with my RD this afternoon. Fingers crossed that I’ve gained!! What are you all up to on this lovely Tuesday? Let’s make it a good one. - breakfast deetz -> homemade hash browns (bc cravings) topped with 2 eggs fried in goat butter with s + p, dried basil, and oregano, avocado, and (after I took the picture) a generous drizzle of Cholula - sautéed spinach, zucchini, and mushrooms - a few cherry tomatoes from my plant - almond milk - yesterday’s lunch -> a bowl filled to the brim with romaine, sugar snap peas, cherry tomatoes, quinoa, roasted & salted edamame, chicken breast, curry roasted white-flesh sweet potato cubes, roasted carrot, fresh & roasted shiitake mushrooms, roasted zucchini, broccoli, and sautéed spinach - topped with avocado, toasted pepitas, tamari, and Frank’s original - almond milk - #anorexiarecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #balancednotclean  #strongnotskinny  #healthynotskinny  #prorecovery  #recoveryfood  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryfamily  #recoverywarrior  #fuckeatingdisorders 
Affirmations 🙌🏼 what are yours today?
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I included puppy man’s to give you an idea 🐶 •
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I absolutely love this quote! It rings so true on a personal level. I can remember people telling me to practice positive affirmations and me laughing about the idea of just saying “fluff” to myself. I didn’t even recognize that the “fluff” I was actually saying to myself was really negative and would put me in a downward spiral. •
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Once I started making this a daily practice, I was able to help my brain form new associations with myself in a positive way and regain the ability to see my strengths. I noticed a huge shift! •
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#recovery #recoveryispossible #ed #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeating #anorexiarecovery #anorexìa #bulimiarecovery #bulimia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisordertreatment #eatingdisorderawareness #affirmations #mindshift #lakewoodcolorado #newdirectionscolorado #positiveselftalk
Affirmations 🙌🏼 what are yours today? • I included puppy man’s to give you an idea 🐶 • • • I absolutely love this quote! It rings so true on a personal level. I can remember people telling me to practice positive affirmations and me laughing about the idea of just saying “fluff” to myself. I didn’t even recognize that the “fluff” I was actually saying to myself was really negative and would put me in a downward spiral. • • Once I started making this a daily practice, I was able to help my brain form new associations with myself in a positive way and regain the ability to see my strengths. I noticed a huge shift! • • #recovery  #recoveryispossible  #ed  #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery  #bingeeatingrecovery  #bingeeating  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexìa  #bulimiarecovery  #bulimia  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisordertreatment  #eatingdisorderawareness  #affirmations  #mindshift  #lakewoodcolorado  #newdirectionscolorado  #positiveselftalk 
Now I know this is what they call transformation Tuesday where everyone posts pictures of their emaciated or out of shape bodies juxtaposed with their newly healthy bodies. Now if you know me, you know I think that’s bullshit. There’s too much grandstanding in that—applaud me for how I look now. Not my vibe. I also have no idea why anyone would take a picture of him or herself when they are in physical or psychic disrepair. Who wants mementos of those horrible days we must leave behind? Burn the memory.
I do believe in celebrating the transformation from a troubled psyche and sad life into a healthy frame of mind and a life filled with creativity, laughter and love. We don’t need to show our bodies to get that point across. The transformation out of the anorexic mindset, or emotional distress, which was what I was devoured by for years to something that approaches happiness (I use approaches because well, as you know, I remain an acolyte of Kafka and Beckett, so we don’t get carried away here do we?) (of course, I’m playing with ya but I do love Kafka). Anyway, we celebrate a life beyond pain (knowing I can get hit by a car tonight), where a St. Louis Cardinal win, a Terence Trent D’arby song, a Joan Didion book, a Kathryn Bigelow film or even a trip to Yogurtland (yup that’s where we are) can bring small epiphanies that help us survive the ludicrous world we are living in and make us forget forsaken pasts. And knowing people around the globe are sharing in the fictional world you created helps also. The thing about life is we are always in a period of transformation. The day we stop changing and growing will be the day things go dark. Maintain the light. #writersofinstagram #change #writing #book #bookstagram #transformationtuesday #author #novel #books #health #callmeanorexic #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery
Now I know this is what they call transformation Tuesday where everyone posts pictures of their emaciated or out of shape bodies juxtaposed with their newly healthy bodies. Now if you know me, you know I think that’s bullshit. There’s too much grandstanding in that—applaud me for how I look now. Not my vibe. I also have no idea why anyone would take a picture of him or herself when they are in physical or psychic disrepair. Who wants mementos of those horrible days we must leave behind? Burn the memory. I do believe in celebrating the transformation from a troubled psyche and sad life into a healthy frame of mind and a life filled with creativity, laughter and love. We don’t need to show our bodies to get that point across. The transformation out of the anorexic mindset, or emotional distress, which was what I was devoured by for years to something that approaches happiness (I use approaches because well, as you know, I remain an acolyte of Kafka and Beckett, so we don’t get carried away here do we?) (of course, I’m playing with ya but I do love Kafka). Anyway, we celebrate a life beyond pain (knowing I can get hit by a car tonight), where a St. Louis Cardinal win, a Terence Trent D’arby song, a Joan Didion book, a Kathryn Bigelow film or even a trip to Yogurtland (yup that’s where we are) can bring small epiphanies that help us survive the ludicrous world we are living in and make us forget forsaken pasts. And knowing people around the globe are sharing in the fictional world you created helps also. The thing about life is we are always in a period of transformation. The day we stop changing and growing will be the day things go dark. Maintain the light. #writersofinstagram  #change  #writing  #book  #bookstagram  #transformationtuesday  #author  #novel  #books  #health  #callmeanorexic  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery 
“Office days” call for working at the local coffee shop (to stay focused and productive 😜), and early(-ier than normal) wake-ups call for giant coffees with TONS of caramel syrup, and none of the sugar free stuff now ya hear? Drink the regular stuff, it’ll kill ya slower than the fake stuff 🙃 Dealing with my lovely monthly friend, and it’s that day or two when your body just completely revolts against everything... but I’m just gonna roll with it and keep reminding myself that this too shall pass (until next month 🤣) and that bloat DOES NOT equal fat and I still need to eat, thank you captain obvious 🙄 So there’s that friendly reminder for anyone else in the same boat today too. Alrighty, off to tackle the day! Have a good one lovies •

#edrecovery#edwarrior#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#anorexia#anorexiarecovery#anorexiaathletica#strongnotskinny#healthynotskinny#prorecovery#bulimia#ana#mia#recovery#fuckanorexia#adultswitheds#mentalhealth#edfighter#edfamily#realrecovery#intuitiveeating#eatittobeatit#foodisfuel#bagel#coffee#allthecoffee#worklife
“Office days” call for working at the local coffee shop (to stay focused and productive 😜), and early(-ier than normal) wake-ups call for giant coffees with TONS of caramel syrup, and none of the sugar free stuff now ya hear? Drink the regular stuff, it’ll kill ya slower than the fake stuff 🙃 Dealing with my lovely monthly friend, and it’s that day or two when your body just completely revolts against everything... but I’m just gonna roll with it and keep reminding myself that this too shall pass (until next month 🤣) and that bloat DOES NOT equal fat and I still need to eat, thank you captain obvious 🙄 So there’s that friendly reminder for anyone else in the same boat today too. Alrighty, off to tackle the day! Have a good one lovies • #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaathletica #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #prorecovery #bulimia #ana #mia #recovery #fuckanorexia #adultswitheds #mentalhealth #edfighter #edfamily #realrecovery #intuitiveeating #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #bagel #coffee #allthecoffee #worklife 
6 MONATE RECOVERY
Vor 6 Monaten lag ich im Krankenhaus mit einem Zugang im Arm und an einem EKG Gerät angeschlossen. Ab da wusste ich, irgendwas muss sich ändern. Viele, viele Tränen, Kilos und Selbstzweifel später stehe ich hier, nach 6 Monaten und 18 Kilo. Ich bin wirklich noch lange nicht gesund und kämpfe wie eine Löwin aber ich habe überlebt! 
6 Dinge die ich in 6 Monaten gelernt habe: 
1. Es ist nicht einfach. 
2. Du bist nicht gesund, nur weil du normal isst und ein normales Gewicht hast. 
3. Die Kommentare von den anderen muss man ausblenden. 
4. Man muss 100% ehrlich zu sich selbst sein. 
5. Es ist wahnsinnig viel stärke notwendig um es zu schaffen. 
6. Es wird besser. 
Ich habe noch einen langen Weg vor mir, aber der Anfang ist gemacht. Ich hoffe ihr schafft es auch, und ich hoffe ihr wollt mich weiter begleiten. ❤
(Bild ist gestern entstanden.)
#weightrestored #fearfood #körperschemastörung #beautiful
#ed #es #edfighter #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorderrecovery
#edwarrior #bulemie #anorexianervosarecovery #magersucht #anorexie #schönheit #essen #bikinifigur #gewicht #recoveryispossible #againstana #Recovery #wunschgewicht  #anorexiarecovery #healthy #essstörung
6 MONATE RECOVERY Vor 6 Monaten lag ich im Krankenhaus mit einem Zugang im Arm und an einem EKG Gerät angeschlossen. Ab da wusste ich, irgendwas muss sich ändern. Viele, viele Tränen, Kilos und Selbstzweifel später stehe ich hier, nach 6 Monaten und 18 Kilo. Ich bin wirklich noch lange nicht gesund und kämpfe wie eine Löwin aber ich habe überlebt! 6 Dinge die ich in 6 Monaten gelernt habe: 1. Es ist nicht einfach. 2. Du bist nicht gesund, nur weil du normal isst und ein normales Gewicht hast. 3. Die Kommentare von den anderen muss man ausblenden. 4. Man muss 100% ehrlich zu sich selbst sein. 5. Es ist wahnsinnig viel stärke notwendig um es zu schaffen. 6. Es wird besser. Ich habe noch einen langen Weg vor mir, aber der Anfang ist gemacht. Ich hoffe ihr schafft es auch, und ich hoffe ihr wollt mich weiter begleiten. ❤ (Bild ist gestern entstanden.) #weightrestored  #fearfood  #körperschemastörung  #beautiful  #ed  #es  #edfighter  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edwarrior  #bulemie  #anorexianervosarecovery  #magersucht  #anorexie  #schönheit  #essen  #bikinifigur  #gewicht  #recoveryispossible  #againstana  #Recovery  #wunschgewicht  #anorexiarecovery  #healthy  #essstörung 
Hi guys🙋‍♀️
Today my friend and I were in the city and did some shopping🛍🎀
Afterwards we ate a #nutella #crepe together🙌🍫
The day was very nice and I hope to see you more often 🌚❤️ @isasbloog
Hi guys🙋‍♀️ Today my friend and I were in the city and did some shopping🛍🎀 Afterwards we ate a #nutella  #crepe  together🙌🍫 The day was very nice and I hope to see you more often 🌚❤️ @isasbloog
Why carry a heavy bag of rocks around when we can just  #letitgo ?
Why carry a heavy bag of rocks around when we can just #letitgo  ?
Afternoon snack was a lot of peas,my favourite food.I told mum that I was craving them so she bought 2kg of frozen peas. They are so good,especially when you have no appetite and force yourself to eat every meal.Hunger can't be followed when underweight.😎
#ed #ana #edrecovery #anarecovery #prorecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #realrecovery #beatana #2fabforana #minniemaud #minniemoud #outpatientrecovery #recovery #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #edfighter #anawarrior #anafighter #nourishtoflourish #healthynotskinny #strongnotskinny #recovery2018 #orthorexia #orthorexiarecovery
Afternoon snack was a lot of peas,my favourite food.I told mum that I was craving them so she bought 2kg of frozen peas. They are so good,especially when you have no appetite and force yourself to eat every meal.Hunger can't be followed when underweight.😎 #ed  #ana  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #prorecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #realrecovery  #beatana  #2fabforana  #minniemaud  #minniemoud  #outpatientrecovery  #recovery  #eatittobeatit  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #nourishtoflourish  #healthynotskinny  #strongnotskinny  #recovery2018  #orthorexia  #orthorexiarecovery 
Et avec ça une déjeunette aux céréales 😋
Cet aprem c’est Chill et Ciné avec une amie 📚 ✏️ J’ai hâte que la rentrée arrive !
💪🏻 Non ce ne sera pas mon seul repas !

#happiness#food#pornfood#egg#ed#edfight#anorexiarecovery#recover#weightrestored
Currently feeling a bit of food guilt and bad body image since I had early birthday celebrations and ate lots of pizza. 
Moving into this apartment is stressful; the construction guys did an awful job and it making it a bit difficult to move in around the things they should’ve done a long time ago. 
On the good note tho, tonight I finally got my period back after two years!!!!🤪
Currently feeling a bit of food guilt and bad body image since I had early birthday celebrations and ate lots of pizza. Moving into this apartment is stressful; the construction guys did an awful job and it making it a bit difficult to move in around the things they should’ve done a long time ago. On the good note tho, tonight I finally got my period back after two years!!!!🤪
There are battles that are not worth our time or energy and we can always choose not to fight them, especially when they won't take us anywhere. We all need to learn to let go. 
Choose to fight the battles that even if they make us feel uncomfortable they are means to a greater end.
There are battles that are not worth our time or energy and we can always choose not to fight them, especially when they won't take us anywhere. We all need to learn to let go. Choose to fight the battles that even if they make us feel uncomfortable they are means to a greater end.