Shawn and I explained everything to Jane, Mark and Kate. We didn't know how this long distance relationship would work, but we would try it. I wasn't sure if it would work. Shawn was amazing. There were a lot of girls falling for him. Could I really force him to still be together with me, when he would see me maybe twice a year?
But Shawn didn't want to talk about this. He kissed me even more than he used to before. Almost every second he was hugging me or touching me in any way. But every time I wanted to talk about how our relationship should work, he just started kissing me and made me forget what I wanted to talk about.
I had send my commitment to the school in London a few days ago per E-mail. Shawn came into his room, when I was looking for a flat on the internet. "Hey, What are you doing Moonlight?", he asked. "I'm just looking for a cheap flat, you know. Trying to find one with a renter that doesn't have a crazy son.", I joked.
Shawn came up to me, wrapping his arms around my shoulders. "Have you heard something from Max?", he asked. I shook my head. "His dad talked to him. I don't think he will get close to me again.", I explained.
Shawn started kissing my neck. "It's better if he doesn't." I let out a little moan. "Why are you always doing this?" He frowned. "What do you mean?" I turned around. "Why are you always changing the topic with kissing me when I want to talk about how we should continue. When I want to talk about our relationship when I'm gone." I saw pain in his eyes. Raw pain, that made my heart hurt even more. "Maybe I don't want to think about when you're gone.", he admitted, breaking my heart once more. "We have to Shawn. We can't go on like this and start making out every time someone brings up this topic.", I stood up. "Why can't we?", he made a little break before he continued. "I don't want to think about what will happen when you are gone. I can't live without you. But I don't want to hold you back from living a life! I'm scared that..." He suddenly stopped. "What Shawn? You're scared about what?", I asked, being angry in some sort of way.
EDIT: So because I was in a rush, I just took a picture of the screen with my phone since it’s only a WIP instead of transferring it without realizing that the colors have a lot less depth in contrast, so the tree especially look horrible! I apologize, and will try to get a better picture next time!
Hey guys, it’s Sophia! I started a piece yesterday that I was pretty excited for, and it’s going ok so far! There was this one point though where I realized I drew the whole tree, background and sketch of the girl on the same layer so I had to click undo like 800 times until only the sketch was left and redid all of it ;-; hopefully I won’t do that again haha. Stay tuned for next week’s progress!