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I haven’t been doing so well lately. I have been restricting, purging absolutely everything I eat, trying to burn as much as I can, fasting, etc. I broke down today because my boyfriend and I were considering ordering pizza, but I couldn’t do it. I knew I’d just purge it afterwards, plus I was already panicking about tea. Yeah, I’ve been losing weight, and I love it. But I hate it too because I can’t help what I’m doing and I feel this is the only way I can keep losing weight has diets and exercise plans never worked. I’m in a full relapse and don’t have any plans to try and recover again. .
I have this sick, disordered, thin and bony image of what I want to look like, and the weight I want to reach which is a lot less then what my LW was. I know I’m letting people down, but again, I can’t help it. I went out the other day and not even an hour of being out, I left and walked home because I felt hideous. I went to try on clothes but cried looking at my body and how disgusting I see it, picking at all the fat. I can’t handle being the size I am and I just want to lose it all...
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Massive TW . I haven’t been doing so well lately. I have been restricting, purging absolutely everything I eat, trying to burn as much as I can, fasting, etc. I broke down today because my boyfriend and I were considering ordering pizza, but I couldn’t do it. I knew I’d just purge it afterwards, plus I was already panicking about tea. Yeah, I’ve been losing weight, and I love it. But I hate it too because I can’t help what I’m doing and I feel this is the only way I can keep losing weight has diets and exercise plans never worked. I’m in a full relapse and don’t have any plans to try and recover again. . I have this sick, disordered, thin and bony image of what I want to look like, and the weight I want to reach which is a lot less then what my LW was. I know I’m letting people down, but again, I can’t help it. I went out the other day and not even an hour of being out, I left and walked home because I felt hideous. I went to try on clothes but cried looking at my body and how disgusting I see it, picking at all the fat. I can’t handle being the size I am and I just want to lose it all... . #recovery  #anarecovery  #depression  #depressed  #anorexia  #anorexic  #fat  #ugly  #bulimia  #bulimic  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexianervosa  #bulimianervosa  #mentaldisorder  #relapse  #fit  #gym  #weightloss  #goalweight  #losingweight  #anorexicgirl  #mentalhealth  #anorexicgirl 
I didn’t have wifi this weekend so I couldn’t update, but I spent my time at a private beach on Koh Rong Samleon. It was so chill, people just sat around in bathers, and I’m so incredibly proud I managed to do the same. It’s great to have a bit of confidence back and to be a bit more relaxed around food, starting with my pictured 11am beer 😂 this is the life I want #eatingdisorderrecovery #veganedrecovery #vegananorexiarecovery #anasoldier #anafighter #edrecovery #edwarrior #edsoldier #veganeatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #fuckana #recoverywin #bootyoverbones #strongnotskinny #nourishtoflourish #recoveryisworthit #prorecovery #weightgainjourney #proedrecovery #nourishtoflourish #beatingana #anawho #proanarecovery #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthjourney #edsucks #oppositeactions
I didn’t have wifi this weekend so I couldn’t update, but I spent my time at a private beach on Koh Rong Samleon. It was so chill, people just sat around in bathers, and I’m so incredibly proud I managed to do the same. It’s great to have a bit of confidence back and to be a bit more relaxed around food, starting with my pictured 11am beer 😂 this is the life I want #eatingdisorderrecovery  #veganedrecovery  #vegananorexiarecovery  #anasoldier  #anafighter  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #veganeatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #fuckana  #recoverywin  #bootyoverbones  #strongnotskinny  #nourishtoflourish  #recoveryisworthit  #prorecovery  #weightgainjourney  #proedrecovery  #nourishtoflourish  #beatingana  #anawho  #proanarecovery  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealthjourney  #edsucks  #oppositeactions 
Evening all!

I hope your week is off to a great start🙂 what crazy weather, it was cold and foggy this morning and it was bright and sunny in the afternoon 😐 you just never know what you’re gonna get at the moment! 
Today is #meatfreemonday and tonight I’ve made a Tofu Pad Thai style stir fry 😊 
I have never tried tamarins paste before so this was quite the experiment! And for a first attempt I must say I found it to be a success! I used some @niulife Fysh sauce, tamarind paste and @conimex_official Sambal Oelek to make my sauce😁 I love it when a stir fry comes together ☺️
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I hope you have a great day/evening 😘❤️
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Evening all! I hope your week is off to a great start🙂 what crazy weather, it was cold and foggy this morning and it was bright and sunny in the afternoon 😐 you just never know what you’re gonna get at the moment! Today is #meatfreemonday  and tonight I’ve made a Tofu Pad Thai style stir fry 😊 I have never tried tamarins paste before so this was quite the experiment! And for a first attempt I must say I found it to be a success! I used some @niulife Fysh sauce, tamarind paste and @conimex_official Sambal Oelek to make my sauce😁 I love it when a stir fry comes together ☺️ . . I hope you have a great day/evening 😘❤️ ————————————————————————- #dinner  #homemade  #vegetarian  #vegan  #plantbased  #stirfry  #tofu  #padthai  #ricenoodle  #noodles  #tamarind  #fyshsauce  #cocomino  #capsicum  #beansprouts  #corn  #snappeas  #garlic  #onion  #nofoodguilt  #meatfree  #givemeallthevegetables  #healthyeating  #foodporn  #foodisfuel  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #thenotfancycook  #καληορεξη 
#breakfast this morning is a @warburtonsuk toasting muffin topped with @marksandspencerfoodpr crunchy peanut butter and sliced strawberries with a cinnamon hazelnut @beaniescoffee with milk☕ .

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Hello ! Vous allez bien ? 
Aujourd'hui je vous retrouve autour d'un pudding de chia ! Le tout accompagné de kaki, d'amande et de sarrasin ! (Oui oui j'ai besoin de fibres 😂 qui m'ont trop manqué pendant ces 10jours en Italie 😶) bref bref bref, la recette :
- 2 CAS de graines de chia
- 100ml de lait végétal (soja ici)
- 1 yaourt végétal (soja ici)
- 1 CAC de poudre de maca - 1 CAC de cannelle - 1 CAC de lucuma
Voilà on mélange, on laisse le tout une nuit au frigo et on savoure bordel 😍 
Passez une journée en or 👑❤
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#healthylifestyle #healthybreakfast #healthyfood #cleanfood #vegetalien #vegan #végétarien #confortfood #lucuma #macapowder #cinnamon #soja #soya #chiapudding #chiaseed #puddingdechia #chia #kaki #fights #fightana #anarecovery #anorexierecovery #anorexiarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #freedom #hollidays #work #sciencespo #automne
Hello ! Vous allez bien ? Aujourd'hui je vous retrouve autour d'un pudding de chia ! Le tout accompagné de kaki, d'amande et de sarrasin ! (Oui oui j'ai besoin de fibres 😂 qui m'ont trop manqué pendant ces 10jours en Italie 😶) bref bref bref, la recette : - 2 CAS de graines de chia - 100ml de lait végétal (soja ici) - 1 yaourt végétal (soja ici) - 1 CAC de poudre de maca - 1 CAC de cannelle - 1 CAC de lucuma Voilà on mélange, on laisse le tout une nuit au frigo et on savoure bordel 😍 Passez une journée en or 👑❤ . . . #healthylifestyle  #healthybreakfast  #healthyfood  #cleanfood  #vegetalien  #vegan  #végétarien  #confortfood  #lucuma  #macapowder  #cinnamon  #soja  #soya  #chiapudding  #chiaseed  #puddingdechia  #chia  #kaki  #fights  #fightana  #anarecovery  #anorexierecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #freedom  #hollidays  #work  #sciencespo  #automne 
Oats and PB2 🥣🥣
Oats and PB2 🥣🥣
{photo from this summer} I never officially introduced myself—my name is Jessica, but one of my dance teachers starting calling me Jess and it stuck... I’m 16 years old, and I have been dancing since I was 3–training  in ballet, contemporary, pointe, modern, lyrical, jazz, tap and hip hop. •
I started struggling with signs of anorexia nervosa, anxiety, depression, and self-harm when I was 12 during a life crisis, and it hit hardest when I was around 13 and should have been gaining weight. I want to have a family someday, and kids of my own...and hate to say it, but that requires consistent periods. I’m fighting to gain enough to solidify that possibility.
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Other reasons to recover are I love learning, I’ve been dual-enrolling at two different colleges and already have 27 college credits! (How the heck that happened while I was starving myself I’ve no idea) and the more I eat, the more I’m getting back my life and dreams and abilities to pursue academic excellence. •
Recovery is a (LONG) process, not perfection. It’s definitely not linear, but I’m all in this time. My therapist reminded me, “It takes a whole lot of determination to starve yourself. You need to take that determination and direct it towards taking control of your recovery.” And today, tomorrow, and for the rest of my life, I’m going to fight daily for recovery. 💕 •
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{photo from this summer} I never officially introduced myself—my name is Jessica, but one of my dance teachers starting calling me Jess and it stuck... I’m 16 years old, and I have been dancing since I was 3–training in ballet, contemporary, pointe, modern, lyrical, jazz, tap and hip hop. • I started struggling with signs of anorexia nervosa, anxiety, depression, and self-harm when I was 12 during a life crisis, and it hit hardest when I was around 13 and should have been gaining weight. I want to have a family someday, and kids of my own...and hate to say it, but that requires consistent periods. I’m fighting to gain enough to solidify that possibility. • Other reasons to recover are I love learning, I’ve been dual-enrolling at two different colleges and already have 27 college credits! (How the heck that happened while I was starving myself I’ve no idea) and the more I eat, the more I’m getting back my life and dreams and abilities to pursue academic excellence. • Recovery is a (LONG) process, not perfection. It’s definitely not linear, but I’m all in this time. My therapist reminded me, “It takes a whole lot of determination to starve yourself. You need to take that determination and direct it towards taking control of your recovery.” And today, tomorrow, and for the rest of my life, I’m going to fight daily for recovery. 💕 • • • #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiafighter  #recoverywin  #win  #foodisfuel  #anoreixa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #realrecovery 
Cheesy popcorn yes please and thankyou 😋
Cheesy popcorn yes please and thankyou 😋
#lunch from 2 days ago🌟two meat tacos 🌮 at a Mexican restaurant.
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I’m staying home today cuz I don’t wanna go to school cuz if I would go to school my dad would come and pick me up before school-lunch and then I would just be home 🏠 
So it’s so unnecessary to go to school anymore.
I hate this.
So much.
I have my disgusting weight in today🙈❌
#edfam #atypicalanorexia #edfighter #anafighter #edrecovery #ed #recovery #ana #fuckana #disorder #mealplan #weightgain #foodphotography #sweden #teen #anxiety #taco #foodisfuel #recoveryishard #fooddaily #strongnotskinny #anarecovery #food
#lunch  from 2 days ago🌟two meat tacos 🌮 at a Mexican restaurant. • [TW] I’m staying home today cuz I don’t wanna go to school cuz if I would go to school my dad would come and pick me up before school-lunch and then I would just be home 🏠 So it’s so unnecessary to go to school anymore. I hate this. So much. I have my disgusting weight in today🙈❌ #edfam  #atypicalanorexia  #edfighter  #anafighter  #edrecovery  #ed  #recovery  #ana  #fuckana  #disorder  #mealplan  #weightgain  #foodphotography  #sweden  #teen  #anxiety  #taco  #foodisfuel  #recoveryishard  #fooddaily  #strongnotskinny  #anarecovery  #food 
Dinner is steak, broccoli and potatoes 🥔 today was pretty good but I had zero energy 😢 feeling really tired and like I could sleep for hours and hours!!
Dinner is steak, broccoli and potatoes 🥔 today was pretty good but I had zero energy 😢 feeling really tired and like I could sleep for hours and hours!!
this was the first time i had a proper meal all weekend. long grain rice with black beans & lemon pepper salmon. this meal has been on my feed a lot now lol, but it's simple and good 🙈. •••••••••••••••••••••• 👻•••••••••••••••••••••• i hit a really bad low yesterday. probably the worst i had ever been, which is crazy because i had been in such a better place than i was in august. it was a really scary wake up call. i'm hoping it pushes me to commit to recovery. i want that terrifying experience to mean something so there's something beyond trauma behind it. •••••••••••••••••••••• 👻•••••••••••••••••••••• #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #edrecovery #recovery #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #anarecovery #edwarrior #prorecovery #recoverywin #anarecovery #edwarrior #mentalhealth #bodypositive #recoveryisworthit #anasoldier #beatana #edfighter #anarecovery #anawho #eatittobeatit #foodjournal
this was the first time i had a proper meal all weekend. long grain rice with black beans & lemon pepper salmon. this meal has been on my feed a lot now lol, but it's simple and good 🙈. •••••••••••••••••••••• 👻•••••••••••••••••••••• i hit a really bad low yesterday. probably the worst i had ever been, which is crazy because i had been in such a better place than i was in august. it was a really scary wake up call. i'm hoping it pushes me to commit to recovery. i want that terrifying experience to mean something so there's something beyond trauma behind it. •••••••••••••••••••••• 👻•••••••••••••••••••••• #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #foodisfuel  #foodismedicine  #anarecovery  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #recoverywin  #anarecovery  #edwarrior  #mentalhealth  #bodypositive  #recoveryisworthit  #anasoldier  #beatana  #edfighter  #anarecovery  #anawho  #eatittobeatit  #foodjournal 
Recovery is a process. Be patient with yourself ❣️
Recovery is a process. Be patient with yourself ❣️
Really fighting awful ed thoughts and trying not to feel guilty after #extremehunger and eating this whole bag AFTER all my meals, snacks, and dessert today😭😭
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Lunch out was a veggie pattie with salad and sauce 🥗 this was scary as I didn’t know what was in the patty but I know it had Quinoa in it and there was also Cous Cous salad which I haven’t had in years!!
Lunch out was a veggie pattie with salad and sauce 🥗 this was scary as I didn’t know what was in the patty but I know it had Quinoa in it and there was also Cous Cous salad which I haven’t had in years!!
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i remember; i finally remember something. × nothing heals the past like time, but in the present i can’t breathe × it’s been 2 years. i’m not healing. i’m still scared. he had brown hair.
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↓ i remember; i finally remember something. × nothing heals the past like time, but in the present i can’t breathe × it’s been 2 years. i’m not healing. i’m still scared. he had brown hair. || #cerebralpalsy  #cp  #physicaldisability  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #anorexia  #bulimia  #osfed  #ednos  #arfid  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edsolider  #edwarrior  #arfidrecovery  #osfedrecovery  #anarecovery  #miarecovery  #ocd  #obsessivecompulsivedisorder  #depression  #anxiety  #suicide  #selfinjury  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #ptsd  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #dissociativeidentity 
Three years ago, a mute, scared, timid teenager created a blog post to share the thoughts of my weird little mind, crying out for someone who understands.
Today, I got the absolute honour of meeting 150 beautiful ladybugs who I’m not only so proud to call my supporters, but my family.
I’m so thankful for every single one of you.
Three years ago, a mute, scared, timid teenager created a blog post to share the thoughts of my weird little mind, crying out for someone who understands. Today, I got the absolute honour of meeting 150 beautiful ladybugs who I’m not only so proud to call my supporters, but my family. I’m so thankful for every single one of you.
Afternoon snack is three (!!) toblerones. Set myself a 200 followers challenge and completed it!! Feeling very guilty now but I’m doing okay
Afternoon snack is three (!!) toblerones. Set myself a 200 followers challenge and completed it!! Feeling very guilty now but I’m doing okay
Aforementioned night snack: peanut butter toast, Nutella/cookie butter toast, and yogurt 💓 it is only 8:20pm and I am going to bed. Good night 🌙
Aforementioned night snack: peanut butter toast, Nutella/cookie butter toast, and yogurt 💓 it is only 8:20pm and I am going to bed. Good night 🌙
hi everyoneee! 🐝🌻
Once again traveling so I couldn’t take a pic of everything xox 
today I had ~ pasta *i know it’s weird for breakie but it works!* with 2 rice cakes
~ half of a quest bar
~ 6 chicken tenders and the whole fry container I got from Wendy’s which was such a huge challenge for me since that meal was much bigger in calories than my usual ~ bag of chips ~ a soft taco
~ cinnamon twists from Taco Bell lol they tasted good but they remind me of Cinnamon Toast Crunch 😂💕
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Today was super boring because all I did was eat, sleep, and drive back home for 9+ hours lol. But yesterday was SOOOOO much fun! I got a new phone so yassss, and I went to the mall and got such cute clothes! It was kinda a eye opener for me too, because when I went to one of the stores, I tried on some clothes and almost all of them were smalls and extra smalls. If I lost anymore weight, I wouldn’t even been able to wear the cute clothes from that store! Plus everyone shopping in that store, they didn’t have thigh gaps of their check bones protruding out of their face, they look normal, healthy and so beautiful! I also went to dinner after that and also realized as I was eating, there were some super pretty waitresses but they weren’t stick thin, they were normal and healthy! I need food if I want to heal my gut and I need food most importantly, to survive and enjoy and be free! I’ve been eating enjoying recovery quite a lot 😊🙈💗💗 #beatingana #beatanorexia #recoverycommunity #edrecoverywarrior #edrecoverycommunity #bodypositive #bodypositivity #foodismedicine #recoverywin #recoveryjourney #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #beatana #eatingdisorderrecovery #edcommunity #eatittobeatit #foodismedicine #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #recoveryfood #realrecovery #carbsarefuel
hi everyoneee! 🐝🌻 Once again traveling so I couldn’t take a pic of everything xox today I had ~ pasta *i know it’s weird for breakie but it works!* with 2 rice cakes ~ half of a quest bar ~ 6 chicken tenders and the whole fry container I got from Wendy’s which was such a huge challenge for me since that meal was much bigger in calories than my usual ~ bag of chips ~ a soft taco ~ cinnamon twists from Taco Bell lol they tasted good but they remind me of Cinnamon Toast Crunch 😂💕 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Today was super boring because all I did was eat, sleep, and drive back home for 9+ hours lol. But yesterday was SOOOOO much fun! I got a new phone so yassss, and I went to the mall and got such cute clothes! It was kinda a eye opener for me too, because when I went to one of the stores, I tried on some clothes and almost all of them were smalls and extra smalls. If I lost anymore weight, I wouldn’t even been able to wear the cute clothes from that store! Plus everyone shopping in that store, they didn’t have thigh gaps of their check bones protruding out of their face, they look normal, healthy and so beautiful! I also went to dinner after that and also realized as I was eating, there were some super pretty waitresses but they weren’t stick thin, they were normal and healthy! I need food if I want to heal my gut and I need food most importantly, to survive and enjoy and be free! I’ve been eating enjoying recovery quite a lot 😊🙈💗💗 #beatingana  #beatanorexia  #recoverycommunity  #edrecoverywarrior  #edrecoverycommunity  #bodypositive  #bodypositivity  #foodismedicine  #recoverywin  #recoveryjourney  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #beatana  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edcommunity  #eatittobeatit  #foodismedicine  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryfood  #realrecovery  #carbsarefuel 
Messed up and didn’t eat lunch? No excuse- increase your next meal. I felt so guilt-ridden after skipping lunch and ended up making a quesadilla AND rice & beans for dinner. Was still hungry after the fact so I had my night snack immediately after. Hiked a really steep and difficult trail today with my boyfriend and am absolutely exhausted now.. ready to sleep a ton before another week of work.
Messed up and didn’t eat lunch? No excuse- increase your next meal. I felt so guilt-ridden after skipping lunch and ended up making a quesadilla AND rice & beans for dinner. Was still hungry after the fact so I had my night snack immediately after. Hiked a really steep and difficult trail today with my boyfriend and am absolutely exhausted now.. ready to sleep a ton before another week of work.
A crap-ton of Chinese noodles 🥡
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Last time I saw my therapist, we decided I was going to stop logging my meals. This is really helped my mind improve because I’m not obsessing over photos of each meal, not touching it at all until every piece is prepared, or using my pictures to tack up the day’s calories. I feel a lot freer and natural. But, I’ll also have less pictures of my food to share with you guys. (Obvs I’m still gonna take some to show you though!) Just thought I’d let y’all know. •
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Stay strong 💪🏼✨
A crap-ton of Chinese noodles 🥡 • • Last time I saw my therapist, we decided I was going to stop logging my meals. This is really helped my mind improve because I’m not obsessing over photos of each meal, not touching it at all until every piece is prepared, or using my pictures to tack up the day’s calories. I feel a lot freer and natural. But, I’ll also have less pictures of my food to share with you guys. (Obvs I’m still gonna take some to show you though!) Just thought I’d let y’all know. • • Stay strong 💪🏼✨
Dinner tonight. Got into a rough fight with my dad after some OCD stuff came up tonight. He started screaming and throwing all my food out of the fridge which made my anxiety even worse. My dad has always thought my eating disorder is a choice. He thinks that if I want to get better I should just “do it”. He thinks I do all of this stuff on purpose. It’s really frustrating honestly. #ed #edrecovery #edfam #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #exerciseaddiction #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexiafight #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #beateatingdisorders #2fab4ana #strongnotskinny #prorecovery #recovery
Dinner tonight. Got into a rough fight with my dad after some OCD stuff came up tonight. He started screaming and throwing all my food out of the fridge which made my anxiety even worse. My dad has always thought my eating disorder is a choice. He thinks that if I want to get better I should just “do it”. He thinks I do all of this stuff on purpose. It’s really frustrating honestly. #ed  #edrecovery  #edfam  #eatingdisorders  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #exerciseaddiction  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiafight  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #beateatingdisorders  #2fab4ana  #strongnotskinny  #prorecovery  #recovery 
Dinner was tofu🌱, rice🍚, and strawberries🍓. Dinner was really stressful today because my mom gave me noodles, but they were in soup made from boiling chicken🤦🏻‍♀️😬. Obviously I’m not down for that, but they kept trying to convince me that it doesn’t actually have meat in it so it’s ok🙄. I finally affirmed my boundary and explained how my morals do not allow me to eat it, even if there is no actual meat. They relented and made me something else, but it was still a stressful experience. This is why I can’t wait until I can make my own food😞...
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Dinner was tofu🌱, rice🍚, and strawberries🍓. Dinner was really stressful today because my mom gave me noodles, but they were in soup made from boiling chicken🤦🏻‍♀️😬. Obviously I’m not down for that, but they kept trying to convince me that it doesn’t actually have meat in it so it’s ok🙄. I finally affirmed my boundary and explained how my morals do not allow me to eat it, even if there is no actual meat. They relented and made me something else, but it was still a stressful experience. This is why I can’t wait until I can make my own food😞... #anorexia  #anorexia  recovery #ana  #anarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #prorecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryjourney  #food  #healthy  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #vegetarian  #treatment  #healthyfood  #nourish  #strongnotskinny  #mentalillnessrecovery  #dinner  #vegan  #veganeats  #veganfood 
Boy am I tired. It’s been a long day haha. For lunch, I had yogurt with raspberries, granola, and some chocolate chips! Yum. 
Then I worked for a long time and was starving by the end haha. But my store had an event where I could bring two guests in and shop with them! So I brought my mom and sis and it was lots of fun(: and made me forget how hungry I was haha. 
Afterwards though, we went out to iHop! I got banana Nutella crepes and hash browns and finished most of it(: But I shared the hash browns with Ab cause it was toooo much haha. Anyway. 
Yeah. So. Long day. I’m real tired. But. Yeah. Don’t want to go to work tomorrow haha. I’m tired. But. Oh well. Hahah
Boy am I tired. It’s been a long day haha. For lunch, I had yogurt with raspberries, granola, and some chocolate chips! Yum. Then I worked for a long time and was starving by the end haha. But my store had an event where I could bring two guests in and shop with them! So I brought my mom and sis and it was lots of fun(: and made me forget how hungry I was haha. Afterwards though, we went out to iHop! I got banana Nutella crepes and hash browns and finished most of it(: But I shared the hash browns with Ab cause it was toooo much haha. Anyway. Yeah. So. Long day. I’m real tired. But. Yeah. Don’t want to go to work tomorrow haha. I’m tired. But. Oh well. Hahah
#supper :Yogurt & granola, fruit, carrots, banana, goldfish, crackers & peanut butter. 🔆
My mom made this whole supper for me because I was so tired and I didn’t eat it till 7:30! I really did not want to eat anything but I had to and it was hard but I did it. 
Getting back on track from my trip is really hard, I need to find that motivation to recover again. 🔆
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#supper  :Yogurt & granola, fruit, carrots, banana, goldfish, crackers & peanut butter. 🔆 My mom made this whole supper for me because I was so tired and I didn’t eat it till 7:30! I really did not want to eat anything but I had to and it was hard but I did it. Getting back on track from my trip is really hard, I need to find that motivation to recover again. 🔆 #ed  #edsucks  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #edisnotachoice  #ana  #anasucks  #anafighter  #anarecovery  #anaisnotmyfriend  #eattolive  #eatwhatyouwant  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderecovery  #allfoodisgoodfood  #foodisfuel  #foodislife  #foodismedicine  #foodisnottheenemy  #foodisgood  #food  #instafood  #foodphotography  #foodstagram 
can y’all tell i love john mulaney? swipe to see my legs lololol 
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What's your favorite Christmas movie?🎄
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Spending Self-Care Sunday watching Christmas movies, drinking hot chocolate, and crocheting some Christmas presents. Oh, and doing a little bit of studying for tomorrow's final.❤
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Tonight's Christmas movies so far have been Fred Claus, The Santa Clause, and Santa Baby.🎅
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What's your favorite Christmas movie?🎄 • Spending Self-Care Sunday watching Christmas movies, drinking hot chocolate, and crocheting some Christmas presents. Oh, and doing a little bit of studying for tomorrow's final.❤ • Tonight's Christmas movies so far have been Fred Claus, The Santa Clause, and Santa Baby.🎅 • #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #recovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ed  #anorexiarecovery  #anawho  #anarecovery  #selfcare  #selflove  #reallife  #realtalk  #mentalhealth  #nofilter  #embracethereal  #christmas  #holiday  #santa  #selfcaresunday  #happy  #college  #chocolate  #hotchocolate 
I've been waiting for this and it finally came!✨
@so_delicious mousse!
I love it so much 😭💛
Swipe for a little action 😏

I'd rate this a 9/10
Overall, this is a very good flavor and the texture is great.
However; the pb is a bit strange¿ I'm not a PB expert or anything, but like lol 😅
I've been waiting for this and it finally came!✨ @so_delicious mousse! I love it so much 😭💛 Swipe for a little action 😏 I'd rate this a 9/10 Overall, this is a very good flavor and the texture is great. However; the pb is a bit strange¿ I'm not a PB expert or anything, but like lol 😅
Breakfast:
Pancakes ~
Brunch:
A pint party ~
Lunch:
Smoothie bowl (banana, avocado, yogurt, oats, cacao powder)
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Dinner:
Chicken breast (paprika & rosemary on top) sweet potato, cinnamon, & tomato ~
Snack:
Quest bar, hot chocolate, dark chocolate, & crackers ~
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Breakfast: Pancakes ~ Brunch: A pint party ~ Lunch: Smoothie bowl (banana, avocado, yogurt, oats, cacao powder) ~ Dinner: Chicken breast (paprika & rosemary on top) sweet potato, cinnamon, & tomato ~ Snack: Quest bar, hot chocolate, dark chocolate, & crackers ~ ~ Tags: #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #recovery  #recovering  #ed  #fearfood  #the  #ana  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #food  #eating  #breakfast  #lunch  #dinner  #delicious  #health  #healthyrecovery  #healthy  #foodie 
Dinner was a cheese sandwich and apple sauce and cottage cheese. It’s been a boring day....but I am dying to lose weight. I can’t even figure out why this urge is so strong. Maybe I’m not “sick enough”... Eating disorders are so mean! .
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Dinner was a cheese sandwich and apple sauce and cottage cheese. It’s been a boring day....but I am dying to lose weight. I can’t even figure out why this urge is so strong. Maybe I’m not “sick enough”... Eating disorders are so mean! . . . #EdFam  #EdRecovery  #Anorexia  #Depression  #Transman  #LGBT #NoHate  #Fighting  #Anxiety  #PTSD  #EdWarrior  #EatingDisorder  #AnorexiaRecovery  #Ed  #Ana  #ProRecovery  #AnaFighter  #Trans  #FTM  #Food  #EatingDisorderRecovery  #TransGuy  #MentalHealth  #Transgender  #LoveIsLove  #Trauma  #AnaRecovery 
Credit: unknown, dm me.
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Major Trigger Warning(please don’t read if you could be triggered):💖
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I’m relapsing really badly. I don’t care about life anymore. It’s never worked out for me and it never will. I restricted calories today and I probably will tomorrow too. I also relapsed on SH and the suicidal thoughts are back. (I’m not actively planning suicide btw🧡). I don’t see a point anymore. My family is always arguing. I fail at everything I do. I need to lose weight. I don’t wanna do this anymore. I don’t know how to live anymore.
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Credit: unknown, dm me. • Major Trigger Warning(please don’t read if you could be triggered):💖 • • I’m relapsing really badly. I don’t care about life anymore. It’s never worked out for me and it never will. I restricted calories today and I probably will tomorrow too. I also relapsed on SH and the suicidal thoughts are back. (I’m not actively planning suicide btw🧡). I don’t see a point anymore. My family is always arguing. I fail at everything I do. I need to lose weight. I don’t wanna do this anymore. I don’t know how to live anymore. • • #edrecovery  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #eatingdisorder  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #ed  #mentalhealth  #depression  #food  #anxiety  #recoveryisworthit  #ana  #anarecovery  #foodisfuel  #bulimia  #edfighter  #prorecovery  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #foodie  #edfamily  #OCD  #edfam  #selflove  #recoveryispossible  #foodporn  #hope 
Fecha:08/12/18 🍁DESAYUNO🍁
Hora:8.16
🍎Avena de manzana
🍌1platanito
🍇Arandanos
🍉Sandia
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🌼SNACK🌼
Hora:toda la mañana
🍪galletas integrales(comi mas)
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🌻ALMUERZO🌻
Hora:12.28
🍗Pechuga de pollo hervida
🍟1papa
🍳1huevo y una clara
🍕empanada de pollo
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🌼SNACK🌼
Hora:toda la tarde
🍪2Galletas caseras de platano y avena
🍌Platano sancochado
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🌿CENA🌿
Hora:7.42
🍗Pechuga de pollo
🍠1camote
🍳1clara

Hoy solo tome 1.100ml de agua! :"), y cada que en verdad tuve hambre comi ♡.Antes tomaba algo de 4 a 6litros sin exageras :"v
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Fecha:08/12/18 🍁DESAYUNO🍁 Hora:8.16 🍎Avena de manzana 🍌1platanito 🍇Arandanos 🍉Sandia . 🌼SNACK🌼 Hora:toda la mañana 🍪galletas integrales(comi mas) . 🌻ALMUERZO🌻 Hora:12.28 🍗Pechuga de pollo hervida 🍟1papa 🍳1huevo y una clara 🍕empanada de pollo . 🌼SNACK🌼 Hora:toda la tarde 🍪2Galletas caseras de platano y avena 🍌Platano sancochado . 🌿CENA🌿 Hora:7.42 🍗Pechuga de pollo 🍠1camote 🍳1clara Hoy solo tome 1.100ml de agua! :"), y cada que en verdad tuve hambre comi ♡.Antes tomaba algo de 4 a 6litros sin exageras :"v #fearfood  #recoverywin  #anorexianerviosa  #edrecovery  #recoveryishard  #eatrecovery  #fuckana  #warriorrecovery  #edfighter  #alamierdaanaymia  #warriordiet  #foodhealthy  #anorexiafight  #eatforhealth  #recoverylife  #anarecovery  #recoverywarriors  #warriorfight  #recoveryfighter  #fooddiary  #recoveryispossible  #recoverymeal  #eatdisorderrecovery  #tca  #recoveryworthit  #eatforlife  #eatdisorder  #recoveryfood  #recoverymotivation 
Lunch is crackers, cheese, strawberries and skittles 🍭
Lunch is crackers, cheese, strawberries and skittles 🍭
NIGHT SNACK 🍓
For my night snack I tried something new and I advise you to do it even if you are afraid of chocolate.
I tried the ovomaltine bar and they just taste so GOOOOD 😍
I’m in LOVE 
They melt in the mouth 😍
Tomorrow I have to increase my intake and reduce my hyperactivity... I am a little less it is for my good. 
Have you got any ideas to increase my intake/calories ?
Keep fighting and if you want to talk DM are open ❤️
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NIGHT SNACK 🍓 For my night snack I tried something new and I advise you to do it even if you are afraid of chocolate. I tried the ovomaltine bar and they just taste so GOOOOD 😍 I’m in LOVE They melt in the mouth 😍 Tomorrow I have to increase my intake and reduce my hyperactivity... I am a little less it is for my good. Have you got any ideas to increase my intake/calories ? Keep fighting and if you want to talk DM are open ❤️ - - - - #ed  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #tca  #anorexiementale  #anorexia  #fearfood  #food  #recovery  #eatingdisorders  #troublesducomportementalentaire  #orthorexia  #edwarrior  #recoveryispossible  #mealplan  #foodchallenge  #dailyfights  #anarexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #minniemaudrecovery  #minniemaud 
december has been a very crappy month for me; fluctuations in my weight, drug binges, very low mood & losing someone to anorexia has really affected me but after 16 hours sleep today, i’m back on track! i’m not going to let the last few weeks define me and going to work on myself this week and challenge myself in POSITIVE ways(yes, the pint party will be happening sometime this week!).❤️
recovery isn’t perfect but i’m not ruining my amazing progress 💪
december has been a very crappy month for me; fluctuations in my weight, drug binges, very low mood & losing someone to anorexia has really affected me but after 16 hours sleep today, i’m back on track! i’m not going to let the last few weeks define me and going to work on myself this week and challenge myself in POSITIVE ways(yes, the pint party will be happening sometime this week!).❤️ recovery isn’t perfect but i’m not ruining my amazing progress 💪
L U N C H 🥙
Hey guys I didn’t sleep last night and I’m a little bit tired but I’m gonna have a little nap later 🙃
For my lunch I had :
- konjac noodles with tomato sauce 🍚
- lettuce 🥬 - cheese stick 🧀
After lunch I went to the cinema and I watched the Grinch with my little mom 😍
I loved it , it was funny 😁 
I hope so you keep fighting because it's very important not to relax your efforts.
I know it's hard, you're fed up, but you can do it.
Have a nice night ❤️
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L U N C H 🥙 Hey guys I didn’t sleep last night and I’m a little bit tired but I’m gonna have a little nap later 🙃 For my lunch I had : - konjac noodles with tomato sauce 🍚 - lettuce 🥬 - cheese stick 🧀 After lunch I went to the cinema and I watched the Grinch with my little mom 😍 I loved it , it was funny 😁 I hope so you keep fighting because it's very important not to relax your efforts. I know it's hard, you're fed up, but you can do it. Have a nice night ❤️ - - - - #ed  #edfamily  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #tca  #anorexiementale  #anorexia  #fearfood  #food  #recovery  #eatingdisorders  #troublesducomportementalentaire  #orthorexia  #edwarrior  #recoveryispossible  #mealplan  #foodchallenge  #dailyfights  #anarexianervosa  #anorexiarecovery  #minniemaudrecovery  #minniemaud 
Dinner tonight was leftovers from lunch. More lasagna and some more salad. After dinner I'm still feeling really hungry so I guess I will have a snack later . But so sad and confused on why I'm still hungry
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i’ve been distancing myself from ed insta so i’m two days behind. will catch up with yesterdays advent also but i think i’ve been using it less as i’ve been struggling with my intake. i don’t want to claim everything is fine when sometimes it’s not or post restrictive meals. also been going though a super low mood and just been sleeping loads, it’s monday however so i’m going to try my best to get back on track with my challenges and recovery! 💪
i’ve been distancing myself from ed insta so i’m two days behind. will catch up with yesterdays advent also but i think i’ve been using it less as i’ve been struggling with my intake. i don’t want to claim everything is fine when sometimes it’s not or post restrictive meals. also been going though a super low mood and just been sleeping loads, it’s monday however so i’m going to try my best to get back on track with my challenges and recovery! 💪
Failing your eating disorder means winning at life...delicious teriyaki tofu and broccoli on *white* rice for dinner🍚🥦❣️ I’m super bloated, which is so triggering, especially as I’m a ballerina and training involves full length mirrors on every wall...I’m really looking forward to weight redistribution!!! :) •
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Failing your eating disorder means winning at life...delicious teriyaki tofu and broccoli on *white* rice for dinner🍚🥦❣️ I’m super bloated, which is so triggering, especially as I’m a ballerina and training involves full length mirrors on every wall...I’m really looking forward to weight redistribution!!! :) • • • #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #recovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexiafighter  #recoverywin  #foodisfuel  #anoreixa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #realrecovery  #fearfood  #fearfoodchallenge  #glutenfree  #dairyfree  #lactosefree  #rice  #dinner  #tofu  #brocoli  #teriyaki  #teriyakitofu 
Hola! Hoy después de las malas noticias de ayer fui a tomar un helado con mi mejor amiga @carohealthyrecovery a @iltrovatorehelados Nos pedimos un cucurucho el cual disfrutamos como nadiee 🤤 hablamos un montón, conectadisimas como siempre ❤️ los dejo con los gustos:
-amarena - chocolate “Cabsha”

#anorexianerviosa #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatforlife #eatingdisorder #fight #fightforrecovery #beatingana #beatana #fuckana #fuckyouana #fearfood #foodstagram #foodporn #eat #beatinganorexia #nomeloprohibo #nodiet #nofit #bodyrecovery #body #norestrictions #recoverywin
#icecream #helado #dulcedeleche #amarena
Hola! Hoy después de las malas noticias de ayer fui a tomar un helado con mi mejor amiga @carohealthyrecovery a @iltrovatorehelados Nos pedimos un cucurucho el cual disfrutamos como nadiee 🤤 hablamos un montón, conectadisimas como siempre ❤️ los dejo con los gustos: -amarena - chocolate “Cabsha” #anorexianerviosa  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatforlife  #eatingdisorder  #fight  #fightforrecovery  #beatingana  #beatana  #fuckana  #fuckyouana  #fearfood  #foodstagram  #foodporn  #eat  #beatinganorexia  #nomeloprohibo  #nodiet  #nofit  #bodyrecovery  #body  #norestrictions  #recoverywin  #icecream  #helado  #dulcedeleche  #amarena 
Dinner this evening was a baked potato with veggie sausages and beans 🌟 absolutely shattered after last night and have spent the day cleaning, going for a walk with the girls and then working in the library 📚 got really shaken up about something that happened last night that we only found out about this afternoon and it’s really put things into perspective. Make sure you guys stay safe during nights out, never let anyone leave alone and never go out anywhere without telling people where you are. Treasure those close to you. Have a lovely evening everyone and tell your family and friends you love them 💗
Dinner this evening was a baked potato with veggie sausages and beans 🌟 absolutely shattered after last night and have spent the day cleaning, going for a walk with the girls and then working in the library 📚 got really shaken up about something that happened last night that we only found out about this afternoon and it’s really put things into perspective. Make sure you guys stay safe during nights out, never let anyone leave alone and never go out anywhere without telling people where you are. Treasure those close to you. Have a lovely evening everyone and tell your family and friends you love them 💗
This- my friends- is a near perfect piece of cheesecake. I did not have to do anything to deserve it nor did I have to do anything because I ate it. I didn’t have to plan ahead for it, make up excuses to why I couldn’t eat it, or figure out how to get rid of it. I saw it. I wanted it. And I enjoyed every damn bite of it. THIS is recovery and it’s worth every drop of blood, sweat, and tears it took to get here! #edrecovery #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit #recoveryisreal #recoveryislove #recoverywarrior #riseup #anarecovery #miarecovery #realrecovery #prorecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #trust #allow #believe #wegotthis #losethehatenottheweight #losehatenotweight #eatthedamncake
This- my friends- is a near perfect piece of cheesecake. I did not have to do anything to deserve it nor did I have to do anything because I ate it. I didn’t have to plan ahead for it, make up excuses to why I couldn’t eat it, or figure out how to get rid of it. I saw it. I wanted it. And I enjoyed every damn bite of it. THIS is recovery and it’s worth every drop of blood, sweat, and tears it took to get here! #edrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryisreal  #recoveryislove  #recoverywarrior  #riseup  #anarecovery  #miarecovery  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #trust  #allow  #believe  #wegotthis  #losethehatenottheweight  #losehatenotweight  #eatthedamncake 
✨ Night Snack - Halo Top + Gingerbread Cookie + GF UNICORN 🦄 CUPCAKE 🧁 -
This is a huge challenge for me! As to my ed this is an unnecessary added extra! But to Emma I know this is not unnecessary because I crave and want it and most importantly need it! -
I choose these cupcakes when I was shopping on Friday, even though Ana was convincing me to put it back I didn’t listen to her and put them in the trolly, I know for a fact a couple of months ago even weeks ago I would of refused but this time I choose what Emma wanted! -
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✨ Night Snack - Halo Top + Gingerbread Cookie + GF UNICORN 🦄 CUPCAKE 🧁 - This is a huge challenge for me! As to my ed this is an unnecessary added extra! But to Emma I know this is not unnecessary because I crave and want it and most importantly need it! - I choose these cupcakes when I was shopping on Friday, even though Ana was convincing me to put it back I didn’t listen to her and put them in the trolly, I know for a fact a couple of months ago even weeks ago I would of refused but this time I choose what Emma wanted! - Anyway this cupcake was amazing! 😍 Well done asda! - Tags: #anorexianervosarecovery  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #fearfoodchallenge  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #fooddiary  #anorexianervosarecovery  #gf  #minniemaud  #minniemaudrecovery  #healthy  #recoverywin  #recovery  #cupcake . #glutenfree  #ed  #edwontwin  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #nightsnack  #foodreview  #foodie  #recoverywins  #prorecovery  #snacks  #fearfoodchallenge 
Finally putting up some lights! 🎄 Decorating for the holidays always makes me smile. It was a good weekend, and I got most of what I wanted to do done.  Tonight, it’s going to be an early night since I have to be up early early tomorrow. I have to go back to MGH for some GI X-rays/imaging.  Tomorrow’s tests are for a GI doctor that specializes in Gastroparesis. My appointment is at the end of the month and I’m hopeful this doctor will be a good addition to the team. For now, I’m going to get my things ready for tomorrow and get some much needed rest! 💤😴 Good night!
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#edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #recovery #edwarrior #gastroparesis #potssyndrome #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome #dysautonomia #healing #tubefeeding #ngtube #chronicillness #health #mentalhealth #anxiety #ptsd #ocd #prorecovery #positivity #staystrong
Finally putting up some lights! 🎄 Decorating for the holidays always makes me smile. It was a good weekend, and I got most of what I wanted to do done. Tonight, it’s going to be an early night since I have to be up early early tomorrow. I have to go back to MGH for some GI X-rays/imaging. Tomorrow’s tests are for a GI doctor that specializes in Gastroparesis. My appointment is at the end of the month and I’m hopeful this doctor will be a good addition to the team. For now, I’m going to get my things ready for tomorrow and get some much needed rest! 💤😴 Good night! . . . . . . #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #recovery  #edwarrior  #gastroparesis  #potssyndrome  #posturalorthostatictachycardiasyndrome  #dysautonomia  #healing  #tubefeeding  #ngtube  #chronicillness  #health  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #ptsd  #ocd  #prorecovery  #positivity  #staystrong 
Tea tonight was a roasted veg garden bowl with rice skewers and roasted potatoes, onions, carrots, squash, turnip and broccoli in a raspberry vinaigrette😍so amazing! Went to a cute little pub to exchange my first Xmas prezzies with some friends I won’t see until new year😊had a lovely evening then came back and watched I’m a celeb final, so glad Harry won!!!🥗🥕🥔🥦🍽
Tea tonight was a roasted veg garden bowl with rice skewers and roasted potatoes, onions, carrots, squash, turnip and broccoli in a raspberry vinaigrette😍so amazing! Went to a cute little pub to exchange my first Xmas prezzies with some friends I won’t see until new year😊had a lovely evening then came back and watched I’m a celeb final, so glad Harry won!!!🥗🥕🥔🥦🍽
Finals week has begun😶 I only have two finals this year- one tomorrow (Monday) and the other on Friday. Super awkward gap in between which is frustrating because I just want to get out of here and go home! // Good luck to those of you who are taking finals!! ❤️
Finals week has begun😶 I only have two finals this year- one tomorrow (Monday) and the other on Friday. Super awkward gap in between which is frustrating because I just want to get out of here and go home! // Good luck to those of you who are taking finals!! ❤️
☺ Hi guys. Today was a black and white kind of day. I had so much breakout during it ... but i tried my best to enjoy my day at the Christmas market.
---- 🍎 Breakfast : One apple + fat-free yogurt + cereals (!!!). (10AM)
😐 My bf made me eat this meal even tho I knew I had to eat a lot after ... tried those new cereals and I like them! ---- 🎄 Christmas market :
- Four saucisson (saysage) sticks (!!!!)
Those one were the start of the hostilities. I always loved a good saucisson but .... it's so full of fat it's so scary ...but I still ate 4 yeah. While walking. Win. 😆
- One bite of bf's chocolate covered apple. (!!)
😣 I know it might seems like nothing but it does matter ! Unplanned snacking is something I'm trying to beat!
- One glass of hot cider. (!!!!)
LIQUID CALORIES! SO MUCH FEAR FOR  such a great and warming taste. Such a waste of energy to try and avoid those ffs...
- One pretzel. (!!!)
😄 First time I had a pretzel! (I mean like a baked one) I liked it even tho I wanted to chew and spit. Again and again. I struggled to eat it.
- One baked potato (!!) Covered with onions, chicken, camembert sauce (!!!!) And grated cheese (!!!!). SO MUCH FEARS !! 😥 It was though to eat it all. I had to take some kind of breaks and .. I struggled. It was so good tho!...
- Three bites of my bf's sausage sandwich (!!!!).
I was planning on having only one bite. But I challenged myself. I just wanted to chew and spit again so hard ... yah. 😩
---- 🍪 Afternoon snack : One candy apple (!!) + approximately 6 biscuits (!!!) + lemon curd (!!!). (6PM)
ANOTHER ROUND OF YUMMY BUT TERRIFYING ITEMS! 😫 I was with my bf and I had so much breakout ... I cried so much about those ... I'm sorry...
---- 🍜 Dinner : One cup of soup + one egg. (11PM)
😣 I was feeling so full so I tried my best to eat at least something.
---- 😔 Hopefully I won't restrict in the few next day ...
Good night ⛼

#ed #edrecovery #recovery #ana #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianevrosa #ednos #recover #thinspo #fearfood #meals #food #anafighter #anawarrior #prorecovery #recoveryishard #anarecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #bodyimage #struggle #challenginged #fdoe #breakfast #lunch #dinner #christmasmarket
☺ Hi guys. Today was a black and white kind of day. I had so much breakout during it ... but i tried my best to enjoy my day at the Christmas market. ---- 🍎 Breakfast : One apple + fat-free yogurt + cereals (!!!). (10AM) 😐 My bf made me eat this meal even tho I knew I had to eat a lot after ... tried those new cereals and I like them! ---- 🎄 Christmas market : - Four saucisson (saysage) sticks (!!!!) Those one were the start of the hostilities. I always loved a good saucisson but .... it's so full of fat it's so scary ...but I still ate 4 yeah. While walking. Win. 😆 - One bite of bf's chocolate covered apple. (!!) 😣 I know it might seems like nothing but it does matter ! Unplanned snacking is something I'm trying to beat! - One glass of hot cider. (!!!!) LIQUID CALORIES! SO MUCH FEAR FOR  such a great and warming taste. Such a waste of energy to try and avoid those ffs... - One pretzel. (!!!) 😄 First time I had a pretzel! (I mean like a baked one) I liked it even tho I wanted to chew and spit. Again and again. I struggled to eat it. - One baked potato (!!) Covered with onions, chicken, camembert sauce (!!!!) And grated cheese (!!!!). SO MUCH FEARS !! 😥 It was though to eat it all. I had to take some kind of breaks and .. I struggled. It was so good tho!... - Three bites of my bf's sausage sandwich (!!!!). I was planning on having only one bite. But I challenged myself. I just wanted to chew and spit again so hard ... yah. 😩 ---- 🍪 Afternoon snack : One candy apple (!!) + approximately 6 biscuits (!!!) + lemon curd (!!!). (6PM) ANOTHER ROUND OF YUMMY BUT TERRIFYING ITEMS! 😫 I was with my bf and I had so much breakout ... I cried so much about those ... I'm sorry... ---- 🍜 Dinner : One cup of soup + one egg. (11PM) 😣 I was feeling so full so I tried my best to eat at least something. ---- 😔 Hopefully I won't restrict in the few next day ... Good night ⛼ #ed  #edrecovery  #recovery  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexic  #anorexianevrosa  #ednos  #recover  #thinspo  #fearfood  #meals  #food  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #prorecovery  #recoveryishard  #anarecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #bodyimage  #struggle  #challenginged  #fdoe  #breakfast  #lunch  #dinner  #christmasmarket 
•9.12• #foodbook
👋🏼breakfast was same oatmeal as usual: with half of a banana and peanut butter🤩
👋🏼snack: honey-praline latte with coconut milk
👋🏼brunch: two avocado toasts, some goat cheese and veggies
👋🏼lunch: baguette with hummus, roasted sweet potatoes and Brussels sprouts with ketchup, tomatoes and goat cheese
👋🏼dinner: oatmeal and cereals mix with hazelnut milk
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👋🏼śniadanie: owsianka taka jak zawsze: z połową banana i masłem orzechowym
👋🏼przekąska: latte miód pralina z mlekiem kokosowym
👋🏼II śniadanie: dwa tosty z awokado, ser kozi i warzywa
👋🏼obiad: bagietka z hummusem, pieczone bataty i brukselki z ketchupem, pomidorami i serem kozim
👋🏼kolacja: owsianka i mix płatków z mlekiem z orzechów laskowych

#anorexia#anorexianervousa#anorexiarecovery#anorexianervousarecovery#recovery#prorecovery#ana#anarecovery#anorexic#anorexiafighter#bulimiarecovery#bulimianervousarecoveryanorexiawarrior#fightinganorexia#ed#edfamily#edfamilyrecovery#edrecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#depressionrecovery#anoreksja#anoreksjarecovery#zaburzeniaodżywiania#oatmeal#breakfast#avocadotoast#peanutbutter
•9.12• #foodbook  👋🏼breakfast was same oatmeal as usual: with half of a banana and peanut butter🤩 👋🏼snack: honey-praline latte with coconut milk 👋🏼brunch: two avocado toasts, some goat cheese and veggies 👋🏼lunch: baguette with hummus, roasted sweet potatoes and Brussels sprouts with ketchup, tomatoes and goat cheese 👋🏼dinner: oatmeal and cereals mix with hazelnut milk ——————————————— 👋🏼śniadanie: owsianka taka jak zawsze: z połową banana i masłem orzechowym 👋🏼przekąska: latte miód pralina z mlekiem kokosowym 👋🏼II śniadanie: dwa tosty z awokado, ser kozi i warzywa 👋🏼obiad: bagietka z hummusem, pieczone bataty i brukselki z ketchupem, pomidorami i serem kozim 👋🏼kolacja: owsianka i mix płatków z mlekiem z orzechów laskowych #anorexia #anorexianervousa #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervousarecovery #recovery #prorecovery #ana #anarecovery #anorexic #anorexiafighter #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervousarecoveryanorexiawarrior #fightinganorexia #ed #edfamily #edfamilyrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #depressionrecovery #anoreksja #anoreksjarecovery #zaburzeniaodżywiania #oatmeal #breakfast #avocadotoast #peanutbutter 
well hello! This is me checking in letting you all know that I’ve still got my smug I’m-kicking-your-ass-anorexia look about me and I’m doing great at university. I also wanted to reassure you that my reduction in food posts IS NOT because I’m eating less because I’m doing great with food, it’s more that with deadlines and socialising posting my food sometimes slips lower down the list...maybe that’s a good thing, I don’t know. Anyway hope you’re all doing well, keep smiling sassily and keep fighting xx (also photo creds to @thebroadwaystudios thanks for the free shoot!) #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery #kickass #transformation
well hello! This is me checking in letting you all know that I’ve still got my smug I’m-kicking-your-ass-anorexia look about me and I’m doing great at university. I also wanted to reassure you that my reduction in food posts IS NOT because I’m eating less because I’m doing great with food, it’s more that with deadlines and socialising posting my food sometimes slips lower down the list...maybe that’s a good thing, I don’t know. Anyway hope you’re all doing well, keep smiling sassily and keep fighting xx (also photo creds to @thebroadwaystudios thanks for the free shoot!) #recovery  #recovering  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recoverywarrior  #beatana  #fuckana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #edfam  #mentalhealthawareness  #orthorexia  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #prorecovery  #kickass  #transformation 
Lunch today. Anxiety has been bad again. My mom took me shopping and we went to Starbucks to hangout which was nice, but I still feel that tightening in my chest even tho there isn’t anything to be anxious about. #2fab4ana #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiafight #beateatingdisorders #edrecovery #ed #edfam #eatingdisorders #exerciseaddiction #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #strongnotskinny #prorecovery #recovery
Lunch today. Anxiety has been bad again. My mom took me shopping and we went to Starbucks to hangout which was nice, but I still feel that tightening in my chest even tho there isn’t anything to be anxious about. #2fab4ana  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiafight  #beateatingdisorders  #edrecovery  #ed  #edfam  #eatingdisorders  #exerciseaddiction  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexiafighter  #anorexiawarrior  #strongnotskinny  #prorecovery  #recovery 
Two posts on the same day, that can only mean one thing: my mind is playing up. 🤦🏻‍♀️
I know that I haven't eaten too much, but that Laguna completely turned my day upside down. Don't get me wrong, it was delicious, but I felt like a flipping balloon all afternoon and evening. And I managed to still have my afternoon snack, dinner and dessert because I know I shouldn't restricts just because I had a bigger lunch than expected.
Now I feel like I'm about to pop, and my leggings feel tighter and it hurts. 🎈
So I'm just going to go to bed instead of letting my mind think those bad thoughts and tomorrow will be a better day. ✨😊 Good night my lovelies ❤️
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderecovery #eatittobeatit #ed #edrecovery #recoverywin #anorexianerviosa #anorexianervosarecovery #ana #anarecovery #healing #mentalhealthmatters #bloating #nourishtoflourish #stronger #fighting #anorexiafighter #edwarrior
Two posts on the same day, that can only mean one thing: my mind is playing up. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I know that I haven't eaten too much, but that Laguna completely turned my day upside down. Don't get me wrong, it was delicious, but I felt like a flipping balloon all afternoon and evening. And I managed to still have my afternoon snack, dinner and dessert because I know I shouldn't restricts just because I had a bigger lunch than expected. Now I feel like I'm about to pop, and my leggings feel tighter and it hurts. 🎈 So I'm just going to go to bed instead of letting my mind think those bad thoughts and tomorrow will be a better day. ✨😊 Good night my lovelies ❤️ #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderecovery  #eatittobeatit  #ed  #edrecovery  #recoverywin  #anorexianerviosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #healing  #mentalhealthmatters  #bloating  #nourishtoflourish  #stronger  #fighting  #anorexiafighter  #edwarrior 
Nightsnack.

Three crackers with wendsleydale cheese with cranberries and cranberry sauce. A pink lady apple with a tablespoon of peanut butter. Two frubes. A portion of cheese and chutney flavoured crisps and another entry into the @thefoodie_farmerswife @tffwfoodfight #tffwfoodfight challenge this week with a slice of cinamon and gingerbread cheesecake.

Always move forward; because you can.

#recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #recovering #recover #edwarrior #anarecovery #bullimia #bullimiarecovery #prorecovery #bullimic #bullimicanorexia #bullimicana #bullimicanorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderhelp #proudofmyself #realcovery #ednos #edrecovery #ednosrecovery #anorexiarecovery #adultswitheds #edfam #fooddiary #eatittobeatit
Nightsnack. Three crackers with wendsleydale cheese with cranberries and cranberry sauce. A pink lady apple with a tablespoon of peanut butter. Two frubes. A portion of cheese and chutney flavoured crisps and another entry into the @thefoodie_farmerswife @tffwfoodfight #tffwfoodfight  challenge this week with a slice of cinamon and gingerbread cheesecake. Always move forward; because you can. #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryispossible  #recovering  #recover  #edwarrior  #anarecovery  #bullimia  #bullimiarecovery  #prorecovery  #bullimic  #bullimicanorexia  #bullimicana  #bullimicanorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderhelp  #proudofmyself  #realcovery  #ednos  #edrecovery  #ednosrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #adultswitheds  #edfam  #fooddiary  #eatittobeatit 
{Totally unpointed pic from Vienna where i was on Saturday 🌈}
So..i think i have just made a BIG decision. I will move out. 
No,i still dont have enough money for a whole flat. But finding a small room in a bigger flat sounds realistic. 
I will have to work my guts out and wont have any free time. But it will worth it. 
I dont want to live here anymore. Where thay dont want me to be. Where i feel stomach ache all the time when i am not alone. So you understand it,right?
I will try to spend as little money as i can after christmas. And work a lot,i mean A LOT. And i hope i can move out in like 2 or 3 months.
Wish me luck please 😳
{Totally unpointed pic from Vienna where i was on Saturday 🌈} So..i think i have just made a BIG decision. I will move out. No,i still dont have enough money for a whole flat. But finding a small room in a bigger flat sounds realistic. I will have to work my guts out and wont have any free time. But it will worth it. I dont want to live here anymore. Where thay dont want me to be. Where i feel stomach ache all the time when i am not alone. So you understand it,right? I will try to spend as little money as i can after christmas. And work a lot,i mean A LOT. And i hope i can move out in like 2 or 3 months. Wish me luck please 😳
Breakfast is 2 egg fry up with ham, pumpkin, tomatoes and spinach + berocca and green tea 🍳🍅🎃🍵 last day in Adelaide then going back home 👍 don’t wanna leave but then at the same time I do because I’ll go back to my regular foods but it’s been really good challenging heaps of foods 👍
Breakfast is 2 egg fry up with ham, pumpkin, tomatoes and spinach + berocca and green tea 🍳🍅🎃🍵 last day in Adelaide then going back home 👍 don’t wanna leave but then at the same time I do because I’ll go back to my regular foods but it’s been really good challenging heaps of foods 👍
Snack is 3 gingerbreads and hot chocolate with marshmallows 💫
Snack is 3 gingerbreads and hot chocolate with marshmallows 💫
Good evening!✨
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Today I saw a best friend of mine which was nice, we sang songs and untangled Christmas tree lights :) .
Anyways here are today’s bites xx
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Breakfast
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Pear oats! The cinnamon shape is supposed to be a candy-cane lol🍐
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Morning snack
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Mini @soreenhq malt loaf🍞
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Lunch
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Couscous and homemade tomato sauce with 2 slices of ham and broccoli. Pudding was a red currant and raspberry @alpro yoghurt🥦
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 Afternoon snack
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Vanilla peach protein shake🍑🥛
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Supper
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Chicken breast, stock potatoes and spiced red cabbage with a @alpro blackberry yoghurt for pudding🍖🥔
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Night snack (unpictured)
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Mini portion of carrot cake oats🥕
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Here’s to a positive week everyone!❤️
Good evening!✨ . Today I saw a best friend of mine which was nice, we sang songs and untangled Christmas tree lights :) . Anyways here are today’s bites xx . Breakfast . Pear oats! The cinnamon shape is supposed to be a candy-cane lol🍐 . Morning snack . Mini @soreenhq malt loaf🍞 . Lunch . Couscous and homemade tomato sauce with 2 slices of ham and broccoli. Pudding was a red currant and raspberry @alpro yoghurt🥦 . Afternoon snack . Vanilla peach protein shake🍑🥛 . Supper . Chicken breast, stock potatoes and spiced red cabbage with a @alpro blackberry yoghurt for pudding🍖🥔 . Night snack (unpictured) . Mini portion of carrot cake oats🥕 . Here’s to a positive week everyone!❤️
omg - a MASSIVE #makedecembersparkle challenge!! Night Snack (!) of weetabix with warm milk topped with cinnamon, half a small banana (!!), some natural fat free yoghurt and an advent calendar chocolate (!!)... so the huge fear for me is having cereal / breakfast foods in the evening... and I haven't had banana by choice in like... a year... so here I am beating those fears... despite feeling so so guilty...
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(TW) Update... my eating is okay... but my organs are aching as are all my muscles... my heart is pounding and getting worse... my stomach is churning and pounding and it feels like the whole of my abdomen is about to give up due to the pain... my whole body just feels like it's giving up... the only thing making it feel better occasionally is eating... so I might have to have a little snack later to help me sleep idk... I feel so fat though and anorexia is screaming at me telling me that I'm in pain due to eating normally... but at least this covers the fact I didn't have breakfast I guess... and I can have something later if I need to I hope... but I just feel so fat and fake and guilty and I need to lose weight and I didn't deserve this and I should exercise and ahhhh... it's so overwhelming... but I'm trying to keep going... even though I need to lose weight really... (TWE) ~
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Keep fighting lovelies 💛✨
omg - a MASSIVE #makedecembersparkle  challenge!! Night Snack (!) of weetabix with warm milk topped with cinnamon, half a small banana (!!), some natural fat free yoghurt and an advent calendar chocolate (!!)... so the huge fear for me is having cereal / breakfast foods in the evening... and I haven't had banana by choice in like... a year... so here I am beating those fears... despite feeling so so guilty... ~ (TW) Update... my eating is okay... but my organs are aching as are all my muscles... my heart is pounding and getting worse... my stomach is churning and pounding and it feels like the whole of my abdomen is about to give up due to the pain... my whole body just feels like it's giving up... the only thing making it feel better occasionally is eating... so I might have to have a little snack later to help me sleep idk... I feel so fat though and anorexia is screaming at me telling me that I'm in pain due to eating normally... but at least this covers the fact I didn't have breakfast I guess... and I can have something later if I need to I hope... but I just feel so fat and fake and guilty and I need to lose weight and I didn't deserve this and I should exercise and ahhhh... it's so overwhelming... but I'm trying to keep going... even though I need to lose weight really... (TWE) ~ ~ Keep fighting lovelies 💛✨
La giornata era iniziata bene, ero davvero felice che la sorpresa per R. fosse riuscita: i regali 🎁, il biglietto, le colazioni per tutti. Al solito non ha mangiato tutte le sue crêpes, ma ho cercato di non pensarci più di tanto. Poi ho iniziato ad accusare i primi sintomi di stanchezza, e, di conseguenza, anche l'umore è precipitato. Il pranzo non è andato benissimo: mi ha fatto venire in mente brutti ricordi, è durato troppo e quello che ho mangiato non era quello che volevo davvero. Tra alti e bassi ho cercato di tenere duro e di non rovinare la giornata. Ho retto abbastanza bene, ma solo fino a stasera, fino a quando non mi sono preparata per il compleanno: mi sono vestita, mi sono vista enorme e mi sono dovuta cambiare. Mi veniva da piangere e ammetto che ancora il nodo è alla gola. Mi sento sola e a disagio, mi vedo uno schifo e non faccio che ripeterlo a me stessa non appena mi ritrovo davanti a uno specchio. Stasera sono un pesce fuor d'acqua. E si sa che il pesce, fuori dall'acqua, muore. [Nella prima foto la colazione preparata per mia sorella, nella seconda quella per mia mamma, nella terza quella per mio papà e nell'ultima la mia. Vi interesserebbe se mettessi le ricette nelle storie?]
La giornata era iniziata bene, ero davvero felice che la sorpresa per R. fosse riuscita: i regali 🎁, il biglietto, le colazioni per tutti. Al solito non ha mangiato tutte le sue crêpes, ma ho cercato di non pensarci più di tanto. Poi ho iniziato ad accusare i primi sintomi di stanchezza, e, di conseguenza, anche l'umore è precipitato. Il pranzo non è andato benissimo: mi ha fatto venire in mente brutti ricordi, è durato troppo e quello che ho mangiato non era quello che volevo davvero. Tra alti e bassi ho cercato di tenere duro e di non rovinare la giornata. Ho retto abbastanza bene, ma solo fino a stasera, fino a quando non mi sono preparata per il compleanno: mi sono vestita, mi sono vista enorme e mi sono dovuta cambiare. Mi veniva da piangere e ammetto che ancora il nodo è alla gola. Mi sento sola e a disagio, mi vedo uno schifo e non faccio che ripeterlo a me stessa non appena mi ritrovo davanti a uno specchio. Stasera sono un pesce fuor d'acqua. E si sa che il pesce, fuori dall'acqua, muore. [Nella prima foto la colazione preparata per mia sorella, nella seconda quella per mia mamma, nella terza quella per mio papà e nell'ultima la mia. Vi interesserebbe se mettessi le ricette nelle storie?]
BREAKFAST: 1/2 a banana, flaxseed, chia seed quaker oats made with water served with raspberries, blackberries, goji berries and pumpkin seeds. super yummy !!!
BREAKFAST: 1/2 a banana, flaxseed, chia seed quaker oats made with water served with raspberries, blackberries, goji berries and pumpkin seeds. super yummy !!!
In recovery
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Broken vase once full of flowers,
My life was shattered, pieces apart.
The missing fractions I am seeking,
But what if they can be replaced…?
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Instead of gluing up the vase,
I use clay and make one from scratch.
Instead of analyzing how I got here,
I focus on the destination I want to get at.
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Dammed river once flowing freely,
My living was obstructed, barriers around.
The solid blocks I try to demolish,
But what if there is a less walked path…?
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Instead of tearing down the barriers,
I release water out of the reservoir.
Instead of failing at too hard a task,
I embrace, for now, a different line of attack.
In recovery . Broken vase once full of flowers, My life was shattered, pieces apart. The missing fractions I am seeking, But what if they can be replaced…? . Instead of gluing up the vase, I use clay and make one from scratch. Instead of analyzing how I got here, I focus on the destination I want to get at. . Dammed river once flowing freely, My living was obstructed, barriers around. The solid blocks I try to demolish, But what if there is a less walked path…? . Instead of tearing down the barriers, I release water out of the reservoir. Instead of failing at too hard a task, I embrace, for now, a different line of attack.