Went to the doctor today and the nurse who took my blood pressure said “oh you must be a runner, most runners have low blood pressure” jokes on me cuz this is where I spend my free time. #amiokay#walkedthemileruninmiddleschool
in all honesty i’m super bummed out after yesterday’s appointment. I was in an emotional high yesterday morning which I always feared I’d be in when seeing a professional. After an hour of talking.. I felt brushed off. She said it “seems” like I have bipolar disorder and maybe depression. She left it at that and gave me a piece of paperin order to call other therapists MYSELF to set something up. No diagnosis, no nothing. I felt okay walking away from that yesterday, but starting last night my feelings began fluctuating like no other and I feel so empty rn. I’m so confused; I like to think that i’m normal and that my state of mind is something I can change, but other days I feel so helpless and so alone that I can’t dig myself out of that rut. Am I okay? Am I not okay? I don’t like this constant feeling of not being sure. #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#mentalillness#amiokay#confused#unsure#health#bipolar#bipolardisorder#falsediagnosis
I take care of A LOT in my daily life, someone else's schedule, making sure clothes are clean before scheduled work time, making the first batch of coffee my in-laws and I share. Sometimes I watch a kid, even when all the other adults are in the house. I do all this with, and through, a lot of pain. I am by NO MEANS saying, "Look at me, I'm Super Wife/Daughter-in-law/Aunt/Girl, but what I AM saying is take time for you, and if you're sharing a life with someone, whether they have aches and pains, health issues, or just too much on their plate, please help them out, ask them how they are, do what you can to make things better for them; sometimes a "labor of love" type of life physically hurts.
Also, I'm taking time to wear makeup today, for the first time in months. I'm pretty sure I'm not going anywhere but I think it'll help my outlook...
I LOVE MY NEIGHBOURHOOD! But walking my dog this morning I saw this sight around the corner. It really saddens me to see how some humans deal with their suffering. It's easy to become judge-mental to these kind of acts, but be honest - what is your 'drug' to numb your suffering? Over consuming clothes, food, wine, Netflixing or keeping yourself to busy to feel anything? Can you honestly say you don't have any dependencies? Mine has been filling the closet with too much stuff that momentarily can help me dress up and pretend that I'm in control of my shit...trying this way to convince my self that I am enough! But when I remember that I AM...my truest being...then my self inflicted suffering evaporates...momentarily. How do you deal with suffering? #suffering#dependence#yogapractice#shadowwork#beinghuman#rasayoga#rasayogatribe#vesterbro
I absolutely adore this millions ahhhh. I seriously can't stop watching it! Your both amazing honestly and soooo JEXY and cuteeeee AWWWWW. Look at YOUUUU. I can't even Handle your Jexyness. #fangirl#amiokay ? Haha #jedward @jepicpics @worldofblaze xxxxxx #jedward#johngrimes#edwardgrimes#jepic#fijimouse#worldofblaze
Also my Halloween make up (Frankenstein JEDWARD) before I went out trickle treating with @sally_ultimate_mini_misty_ and her mates. Happy Halloween 👻✨🎃
So I got out of a two hour hot spa... which was quite lovely actually... and was initially just testing some colours and brushes and just happened to make some unconscious art.... which rather amused me! Couldn't have thought that up myself, but it's given me an idea for a new piece. 🙂 Might have to partake in more mindless play time.