Arrived home in YVR just past 7am and we are wrecked! Dogs did well at boarding (ie, Emma didn’t get sicker or die, even though I worried she would), laundry’s on and groceries are done. Time for a nap. #homesweethome#yvr#vacation#sunrise
Recent readings and feelings, have been beautiful reminders to align with self, vibration, vortex... to be in a state of gratitude for what is, despite when what is, is not exactly to my liking.
I absolutely get that this can be a challenge.
As we grow, shift and change, our desires shift also. When then want for things to be different from the external world that we can see.
I've wanted things in my outer world to be different for some months now, at times it's been super tough to accept where I am, and maintain a sense of gratitude - it's been a real dance.
It's a reconfiguration of the brain, to remember that our external world isn't where our focus should lay, as when we do, we can fall into the pattern of recreating what already is. Seeing what we see, circulating those thoughts in our minds, and recreating the same again.
It's not necessarily a 'bad' thing, more the way that we've been taught to live. Our external life being what derives happiness.
When all things that are to our liking are flowing = we are happy.
But when our external life isn't giving us what we want, it has the ability to take us out of our happiness state, so it is short lived and conditional. Meaning, we're always chasing something external in order to feel happy, or other xyz emotion.
An example in my life, having recently caught myself in the pattern of constant expenses showing up, feeling like I never get ahead, only to have more expenses show up.
A super frustrating pattern to be in.
I know we get thrown experiences in life that teach us, make us grow, can be dark and challenging. These are necessary. They invite us to appreciate life, make us grow, expand our consciousness for all beings and things outside of ourselves.
I am just feeling so bloody grateful to be remembering this again. That my connection to self is all I need. That this is where it all begins. Not from my external, but from within.
My breathe, my energy, my thoughts, my amazing physical body carrying me through day by day.