“Do not spend time counting others gifts while neglecting your own.” Too often we see people who seem to have it all, who say they have clarity in life, that they have grown and are free of emotional burden. That they can “heal” us so we can be the same... maybe they preach a nearly perfect life full of adventure and friends... I’ve come to realize that the people who seem to have it all, the ones that brag about their life are usually the ones who need to take their own advice. They are the ones that are fake... have no real friends because if people knew the truth they wouldn’t want to be friends. Remember that when you get jealous of what you see or hear as most of it is fake. Count your blessings and enjoy your life, really better yourself and surround yourself with real people who want you to know their soul. #mytwocents#life#fakepeople#iseeyou#fitmom#love#happy#real#lucky
La consistencia mental de lo que se cree que somos, el esquema enigmático que no entienden los intolerantes a la lectura, la patología del sadista, la burocracia empeñada en la creencia de un libro escrito por hombres donde la inspiración es desconocida pero tragiversada por los pastores condenados a pecar con la ignorancia del creyente que detesta tomar un libro para cultivarse y conocer lo que en verdad se esconde en cada caso, la investigación que ilustra las historias raras e ilógicas de la Biblia tomando en cuenta como blasfemia por el hecho de buscarle el sentido a que un hombre que caminara sobre las aguas para luego y después esquematizar por condena referida por una escritura que la brujería y el ocultismo es un pecado, las pocas ganas de querer comprender que la mierda en el mundo es importante y la angurriosa satisfacción de comprender que el homosexual a mas de un hoterosexual le hace dudar de su orientación. - Realidad!
This is a long sad post #real 💔
I’m not going to lie. I got my stage photos back and burst into tears thinking how awful I looked on show day. ❌
Most people don’t know that two weeks out from show day my relationship came to an end.
The body is a an amazing thing.
It responds to everything you put it through, both negative and positive. Pushing the the heartbreak deep down into my subconscious made my body react badly, instantly holding onto a lot of water and stress. I felt as though my body was heavy and every step was hard.
I kept it to myself because of course it’s my personal life but if I’m truely honest I just wanted to get through the last two weeks without dealing with it! What a huge mistake!
Show day it hit me! Hit me so very hard and I got to the event and my eyes stayed watery for a vast majority of the day.
The sadness reflected in my stage presence that morning. The awful feeling of how I felt was clear all over my face.
After a conversation with my family and friends I enjoyed the night show a lot more. I smiled and loved the stage as I did last time. I wish I could go back and redo those two weeks again. It may not mean a different outcome but it definitely would mean a different perspective.
The plan was to compete in GC October but my heart needs to heal. My body is not responding with how I’m feeling right now, It’s feeling the sadness for me while I try to hold it together!
So after a chat with my coach and a turn off in the path my new show date is @wbff_official April LA 2019.
I look at these two photos and I am proud of my transformation because how can I not be!
But I’m so desperate to beat myself, so currently still in prep I will be reversing my calories up, to begin a 20 week prep to April followed by some travel around the USA 🇺🇸 I can’t thank those who knew and didn’t share my story, it’s you who held me up for weeks!
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📸 by M.E. -- backstory: I was inspired by someone saying something about not filtering themselves... & It's true. In real life, I DO NOT filter myself whatsoever. I say what I feel compelled to say, whether it be brash, smart, or indifferent. This stems from years of being silenced and overridden because of my tempered and reserved demeanor. I'll never let another MF silence me again. At the moment, however, I'm comflicted about the way that I want to present myself to the world; but not so much. I dress pretty homelessy (lmfao) by choice of course, because I kinda wanna go unnoticed and fly under the radar... I found that when I used to wear make-up (never alot, only lashes and a lip maybe) and stunt on these niggas with my impeccable dressing abilities, I got waaaayy too much attention... It made me feel super uncomfortable. I didn't want THAT kind of attention; just for someone, not even alot of people, to notice M.E. for M.E. The me deep down inside, not that artificial shit. So yeah, I scrapped that and now I'm ugly. Not to myself of course, but to the WORLD. It's alot better being ignored somewhat than to receive all that fake love anyways. You wanna know what's crazy though? The "homelessy" charade got people starting to look again now, too. I guess my light is gon shine through regardless, huh?! 🤷 #Truth#Diary#Words#NoFilter#Freedom#Bare#Naked#Motivation#Black#Blackisbeautiful#Blackwomen#African#Dreads#Dreadlocs#locs#natural#naturalhair#real#cowash#oil#photography#selfportrait#ugly#beautiful#selflove#creativewriting#selfexpression#choice