About two years ago in the hey of my pregnancy with Juliet some really life-changing events happened. I’ve never spoken about them and to this day my now ex-therapist is the only one who knows the ins and outs. But I will tell you this: I felt so fucked up. Pregnancy depression spiraled to a whole new level and I retreated. I didn’t talk to any of my friends and I completely shut them out. The people who were once my go-to and my everything were suddenly brushed aside. I’ve never come clean so it haunts me every single day.
I made the choice to shut them out and it’s been a very difficult journey since then. When you don’t expect your life to be rocked you don’t know how to plan, and you don’t know how to handle it. The rug was pulled out from underneath my feet. I’m not saying I handled it poorly...but I did make those choices to alienate people I loved. I HATE keeping secrets but I had to protect.
Something that I’m working on utilizing is .
• To understand, than to be understood
• To love, than to be loved
• It is by forgiving that one is forgiven
Pretty powerful words 👆🏻 It isn’t easy and the guilt sits HEAVILY on my shoulders, but I’m working on this every day.