"Feels like falling" Growing up I felt like people were saying my problems were not really as bad as I was making them out to be, like really, is it really that bad? With starving kids in China? I was an emotionally impulsive child, probably not a shocker #adhdgirls . I once jump-kicked my cousin kung fu style because she was being irreverent about princess Diana's death. I was also a very pious child. Sorry Ang @lularoeangelawalle your the actual best! So sympathy sometimes triggers all of my #shame If I'm honest about my pain will I be a drama queen, maybe it is just me, I don't need help, "I'm okay" AKA not actually dying when what I want to say is, my first thoughts of the day are: 1.Nooooooo! 2. I hate my life 3. No! You love your life and you can go back to bed after you get these girls to school 4. Okay fine I do love my life, here we go, Jesus be near. I have a new and intense respite for anyone who has ever been through drug withdrawals. It's like pop rocks in my brain with shooting pain and numbness down my entire body, blurry vision, nausea, Brain fog, migraines, all while being too dizzy to stand still. Basically, you feel like you're gonna die but that's not a very socially excepted response when someone asks how are you feeling. There is something about falling. You can't fight a fall. You can thrash around but it's not gonna change anything but your own anxiety level. So if you ask me how I'm doing maybe I would say, I have grieved and I'm at peace with this fall but it is a fall. I'm learning and loving my life however it is given each day regardless of my feelings. Help, yes I will take all the help and if I refuse that's just my insecurity talking. Im learning that vulnerability is healthy when it's honest and doesn't need understanding to be valid. When there is understanding it feel like a soft place to land. #falling#potssyndrome#potsawareness#vulnerability#etsy#etsyartist#rawartists @rawartists #etsyportraits#portrait#watercolor#watercolorpainting#watercolor_art#watercolorartist#art#artist#journaling#journal#watercolorpaint#oilpastel#oilpastelart#oilpasteldrawing#arttherapy#artjournal#savingmylife#howareyou
Happy Saturday! I thought I’d tell the new faces around here a little more about myself. I’m Hannah and I live in Washington State, I grew up surrounded by the beautiful mountains and a love for drives in the hills and the smell of pine trees. 😍 I’m a big fan of Jesus, He’s the reason behind my whole life, spontaneous adventures, good coffee, long talks, music, summer sunsets, missions work and (this might be an obvious one) art! 😉 I’m so thankful for each of you & your support!
“If God can use a man without arms and legs to be His hands and feet, then He can certainly use any willing heart.” I love this quote by @nickvujicic . A couple years ago I got to meet Nick, he has an amazing story and heart for Jesus! His family is so precious and I loved painting this picture of them.
When Claire was little I went to bed nearly every night feeling like a failure. She was a medically fragile, failure to thrive... baby with Down syndrome in foster care and I was the nurse, visit supervisor, social worker, counselor, therapist, feeding specialist, diatition... busting my butt yet always behind. I wasn't prioritizing our relationship over my caregiving roles, my own identity. No wonder I was feeling bitter and exhausted. I rarely took time to enjoy just being with my daughter. Instead I focused on the next thing to do for her. I found myself in a group conversation this week being asked, "what can you do for God?" There were a lot of good ideas thrown around but if I am asking myself this question shouldn't I first consider making space for simply being with God? If I do not first remember my need for him, my desperation, I'm just guessing at what He wants. Not only that but I am doing it out of my own moral muscle and missing the overflow of love I have to give out of when I first take time to receive from my relationship with God. I love this portrait of my youngest daughter Alice. She is such an observer, a beauty finder. “We live for seventy years or so (with luck we might make it to eighty), And what do we have to show for it? Trouble. Toil and trouble and a marker in the graveyard... “Oh! Teach us to live well! Teach us to live wisely and well!... Surprise us with love at daybreak; then we’ll skip and dance all the day long. Make up for the bad times with some good times; we’ve seen enough evil to last a lifetime. Let your servants see what you’re best at— the ways you rule and bless your children... let the lovelyness of the Lord rest on us." Psalm 90 MSG this Psalm says "tell us the bad news." That's the best place to start, our brokenness and His mercy. Pick the thing that brings you to your knees. Choose the one that reminds you who God is. #psalm90#etsyshop#etsyartist#etsyportraits#etsysellersofinstagram#etsyseller
Forever changing the way I paint digital portraits. I'm not a big fan of realism and love to let my imagination lead. The initial sketch was completely different than what you see now! I'm trying at my free time to study my own work, see what I can practice more and what I can learn. Push myself out of my comfort zone and paint things that I'm not really used to. Different hair types, skin tones and features are the first on my list! I've made a list of lovely people I want to paint, planning to start very soon. We're all so different so lovely in the way we were created 💕race has always been a fascination for me. I believe that the beautiful array of colours and features came first from creating Adam from different types of earth soil.
عمري مانقدر نستقر فترة طويلة علي ستايل معين لرسم البورتريه. احسن شي لقيته أني نحاول ندرس اَي شغل سابق ليا. نحاول نغير فيه ونطلع من اللي في العاده نرتاح فيه وساهل عليا رسمه. مانحبش الرسم الحقيقي بكل، نحب نتخيل ونستخدم مخيلتي أكثر، نكون شي مني أنا. عندي ليسته حاجات نبي نتعلم نرسمها، ألوان البشره والشكل بإختلاف الأعراق من الحاجات اللي ديما نحب نتأملها ونركز فيها. سبحان الله كيف كلنا مختلفين. والمعروف بأن اختلاف ألواننا وأشكالنا أصلها من قبضة التراب اللي خُلق منها سيدنا آدم. وهذا علاش سُميت ولدي آدم من حبي لمعنى الإسم 💕
YOU GUYS BIG NEWS! I’m now on Etsy! 🎉 This all wouldn’t have been possible if it wasn’t for all your support, orders and encouragement that gave me the extra push to do this! 💛 It will be so much easier for ordering! Right now I just have my custom portraits listed, but more will come soon! Go check it out and let me know what you think, the link is in my bio. 😊