I love you BC
You do it without knowing
I love you BC
It’s genuine and nothing I have to ask for
You show me a different kind of love
Patience you didn’t know you had
And unfailing understanding
You wrap your arms around me
I know you’re worth having
Ready to stand by me in any path
I love you for being the Queen I need when my strong mask is cracking
A queen that makes sure she have the ointment of words
So the new skin can grow in without any malfunctions
I love when you give me loving
Taking the time out to do the things no one has ever done
Connecting your spirit to mine
I don’t have to guess it
I don’t have to question it
My baby loves me
She is mine
And I love you
Because you never kept me wondering how you felt
You showed me with your actions
I can’t say that we’re perfect
But you’re something I’ve never experienced I know the moment we’re disconnected.
Like the perfect piece to my puzzle is missing
That’s the only time I wonder
where did it go
And will she come back
I know I have my own shit with me
That’s a fact
I love you BC
You know that I’m strong
And not just on the exterior
You allow me to pour out my insecurities
Without any judgement
You’re not looking for ways to break me
You are comfort
You are home
My safe haven #IloveyouBC#love#patientlove#kindlove#poet#poetsofinstagram 😍👑 #Queen#Worth#InspiredbymyWCW#WCW#WCE#writer#healer#worthy#home#safehaven#domesticviolencesurvivor#peace#unfailing#LGBT#healeachother#unconditional#noconditions 💋💋💋
Because I have been there and I know someone needs this today. •You can’t change him
•He WILL hit you again •He WILL cheat on you again • IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT • You are beautiful and special • You deserve so much more • This is not what love looks like • you deserve support • You will find love again ((I did ❤️)) • you are worth so much more • being called stupid, a bitch or worse is not love
•you are strong enough to leave • YOU ARE NOT ALONE
Just wanted to take a moment to say THANK YOU.
Thank you to everyone for your support on my post last night. Your messages truly mean the world to me.
Have an amazing Wednesday my friends. ❤️
TW - Domestic Abuse
2 years ago today was one of the hardest days I faced. My once invisible abuse (other methods) was now visible and it was entirely heartbreaking.
I felt SO ashamed of myself. I was due to see my women's aid worker that afternoon and I knew that she could have predicted this would happen months previously and I was terrified of telling her even though she was amazing.
I spoke to her on the phone about something else and she was all "I'll see you in an hour" and I realised, I had to tell her. So I text her - I APOLOGISED for being assaulted. She rang me straight away and told me she was coming over now.
She got to the door and I just cried so hard, she hugged me and kept telling me I had nothing to be sorry for. She told someone else who was due for an appointment that she needed to go, that I needed hospital treatment.
She couldn't take me so another of my support workers from a different agency took me. Again, she was gutted. She had been with me that morning but the bruising had barely come out and I covered the rest. She stayed the whole time and was a life saver.
I found people visibly being able to see harder on me than the actual assault but I also found for ME, being physically hurt was easier than the mental and sexual because no one could see those.
The pictures aren't too gruesome as the bruising and swelling didn't come out super bad at that point but they are my then and now.
They are me recognising how far forward I have come because I really didn't think I'd ever get past it and it's been a LONG road. Some days I'm still back there but others I'm thriving. & more than anything, I'm not silenced anymore.
You think when they abuse you in other ways that they'll never hit you and maybe they won't but it can change. Any abuse is wrong. As I said my support worker was literally just waiting for me to get physically hurt - experienced enough in her job to know it would happen.
Luckily for me, after the incident I have never seen him again aside from driving past him a couple of times and I'm very happy to keep it that way.
Stay safe lovelies ❤️
Something I posted on my fb page. I don't have them connected because my friends and family know all the shit I have been thru. After all the domestic violence went by, then family comes home after years of being away and, Bam..... it's like the emotional and mental abuse all over again !!! When some of your family and friends know they can get anything out of you, make you cry with no remorse and still not care how they treat you or your home. It's time to come to reality and put your foot down. Of Course they don't like it. Of course when you tell them the truth of their own actions and give them a taste of how you are treated, you become the bitch. They really cannot understand what they have done to you. Their Narcissistic personality will never let them see. They set themselves at a higher standard and put you below them. Meanwhile draining you of all your natural strentgh and energy and truthfully, that is why they come to you...You are the strong one... until they drain that all out of you. Then they have no use for you anymore. The blame and accusations comes full blast you once again. How many times are you going to let them keep doing this until you finally come to your senses. @tigerwolf143_documentyourabuse #domesticviolencesurvivor#domesticviolenceawareness#npd#narcissistabuse#takingadvantage#timetogo#emotionallydrained#mentallyexhausted#realitysucks#empathy#blameshifting#reflecting#dontmeanidontloveyou#seperatemyself
I'm at a loss for words when I watch this. It's so heartbreaking, and sadly so beautiful.
If you'd like to watch the entire video check out the link:
It may no longer be in the month of October. However it should not take one month to bring awareness to #DomesticViolence . The fact that this is still prevalent in today's day and age is beyond words. My heart goes out to those who fell for someone so weak that they saw the need to bring harm to someone that they claim to love. Thank you @katedurocher for sharing with @b.eautifully_c.onflicted 🤗💝 ~
October is National Domestic Violence Awareness Month —
I’ve said before how this is a weird month for me because it’s both the month my sister was born and it’s the month my best friend, Jenna, passed away.
What I don’t talk about as much is that October is also the month that my ex boyfriend, who I was in an abusive relationship with for 5 years, also passed away. -
This post may make many who knew him as a friend angry, but my truth still remains- so here goes: I started dating this ex when I was 15 and until I was 20, I endured physical and emotional abuse. I was young and thought I was in love, so I became brainwashed and took years to leave. -
The only reason I did finally leave is because God intervened on my behalf and I got accepted into USC- a school I was not qualified for, knew nothing about and don’t even remember applying for. That is how I know it was God removing me from toxicity and moving me into a new life. -
Then a year after being in LA, I got a call telling me my abusive ex had passed away. His death brought up mixed emotions in me, but mainly ones you wouldn’t normally expect to arise from such a loss. I was confused and mostly angry- mad that he got to leave this world while I was stuck with the scars he left behind. -
It’s taken me years to heal from this abuse and today I still struggle, but I’ve become stronger and grown in ways I never thought possible since then. @bailyzubel made me realize that it’s no coincidence that October is National Domestic Violence Awareness Month, along with being the month my ex passed in, and Baily and this fact has inspired me to share this story. -
If you or someone you love is trapped in such a relationship, it’s time to take action. I am no longer a victim and you don’t have to be either.
So you really want this relationship to work hey?
You want it to work for you kids, family and all the time you have put into this. All the effort and patience.
So you think about counselling….. why not get the narcissist to see a councillor/ therapist? Sounds good, quick fix maybe… WRONG
If you suggest a councillor to a narcissist a few things could happen
1. They say “no, I think you need to go see a councillor not me”
2. They say "we both need to go so they can tell you about your issues". 3. They go but don’t want to
So option 3 sounds good right?
See the thing is you should never have to push someone to go and seek therapy. If they really believe they need to change then they will agree and should say “I am doing this for us, I know I have a problem.
If they go because they have been forced to or they are wanting to “keep you happy for now” then they won’t get any value out of it. They believe they haven’t done anything wrong and a councillor/therapist ➡️WONT change their mind.
So if they haven’t already suggested this then they DON’T and WONT change. Don’t waste your time and energy on toxic people. Once you let them go you start to See what life is really about and really worth. You start to love yourself again and you start to be able to your own person. You begin to smile at the most simple things!
Thing that passed you by so quickly before because YOU were too worried about how to act and how to alter your behaviour to keep your abuser happy. So breathe, leave and believe!
Oh my GOSH! It has been one of those days! 🤦🏼♀️
I had the video on my phone set up and ready to record BUT...I forgot to hit play! 🤪
For those of you who have been following me for some time now, you know I am not lying when I say I really did get my workout in! 😊
Hopefully tomorrow I will get my act together since it’s my rest day and I will be good to go for Thursday! 😜
Getting to know me Tuesday! Things you might not know about me; 👉🏻🧡I like Rain bc it reminds me that all things can be renewed in our lives. 🧡I am a night owl but love to get up before others in the house. 🧡I married into a blended family: yours, theirs, ours type of thing 🧡I am a Free spirit 🦅 🧡 I paint and decorate 🧡 I started fitness because I wanted to live a healthier life in all aspects of my life and also lead by example to my 4 kids. 🧡I am a survivor of Domestic Violence. 🧡I became Vegan a Year and half ago for health reasons- now I also do for the animals. 🧡I am more of a lover than fighter but will not put up with bs 🧡I love poems and read often 🧡I have anxiety & PTSD from my abusive past but working out has helped immensely 🧡I am an adrenaline junkie 🧡 I am a busy body bc I like challenges and don’t like staying in one place too long 🧡I love having deep convos about quantum theory and all things relative. 🧡I one day will do a bikini & fitness competition 🧡When I started my journey almost 2yrs ago, not only did I lose 40lbs but I also found Myself. 🧡my spirit animal is a Jaguar bc they are mysterious majestic creatures of the night. #justgettingtoknowme#funfacts#domesticviolencesurvivor#veganbaby#freespirit#grit_for_it#weareallevolving
It’s almost Wednesday, and you know what that means— it’s HEAL time! @enactearts is facilitating our theatre workshop tomorrow at Fremont Cultural Arts Council 10am-12pm 🎭 Email firstname.lastname@example.org to reserve your spot now!
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Quiero ser muy claro, yo no tengo nada en contra de mi idioma, ni la musica, y especialmente mi origen costenuela, gitana. Pero si me molesta como se le olvide nuestra historia. Tanto que vayan en contra de la verdad, lo que es facto, y es que tainos existia antes de el invasion. Nosotros teniamos nuestra idioma, nuestro costumpres, y religion. Pero, nos dejaron con muy poco. Nos mataron, trajieron los Africanos en contra de su voluntad, y a puto de pistola hicieron que violaran a nustra mujeres, para reproducir mas escalvos. Si no adherimos a su religion, nos mataron, si no adotamos su idioma, nos mataron. Los conquistadores nos ha aniquilado, tanto que si yo qiero ir a boriken, y buscar, algun pueblo que sigue vivo y presente de los indigena no lo voy a encontrar. A si que porfavor, entiendes que yo respeto, nuestra mescla puertorriquena, pero se quien soy, se mi historia, y endonde empezo mi origen. Y soy muy orgullosa de ser una taina boricua, puertorriquenia. Que no se te olvide tu historia 🇵🇷✊🏾.♏ #tribotaino#boriken#boricua#puertorico#puertorriquenia#orgullo#orgulloindigena#guazabaras#domesticviolencesurvivor#mentalhealthwarrior