I want people to know that I don't discuss my health issues for pity, sympathy or attention. I talk about it because it's a HUGE part of my life, whether I want it to be or not. I discuss it to help others who are dealing with the same hurdles. To inform. To educate. To explain. To vent. Not to be pitied, babied, looked down upon or judged. ••• That being said, I had a rough doctor appointment this morning. We aren't sure the stelara is actually working. I should be seeing some improvements or results by now and I'm not. So my gastroenterologist ordered some non-invasive tests to determine the next steps in my Crohn's journey. I will go over all my options next month with the specialist from UofM and we're hoping that doesn't mean surgery, but at this point it's a very real possibility. And honestly, I'll do it if it means feeling better... 😞😔 ••• I've had this disease for 12 years now and I have never achieved remission.... I've forgotten what "normal" feels like.
I'm tired of fatigue.
I'm tired of pain.
I'm tired of pills and meds that don't work.
I'm tired of doctors.
I'm tired of stress.
I'm tired of always being sick.
I'm.Just.Tired. 😧😩 •••
BUT I have an amazingly supportive husband and the sweetest little boy that need me. I have to keep going. I have to keep fighting. And I will.