Yesterday morning, trying to get on the bus and get to school, it was not our finest hour. Autism is HARD!! There was no negotiating, no listening, no compromising. Ellie refused to get on the bus and in fact ran when she saw it coming. All she wanted was to take her ENTIRE collection of her Disney princess and prince dolls to school. So many dolls! Not happening. There was heartbreak, tears and acts of rage (by her). I finally got her to get in the car so that I could drive her to school. I was mad! My plan was not working despite my best efforts!! 2 minutes before I dropped her off she said “I’m sorry mom. I really messed up!” 😲 You Guys, that’s HUGE!!! A perfectly thought out apology and perfectly pronounced. I could not believe it. After I let her go with her teacher I calmly walked back to my car, sat down, and voice messaged two of my dearest friends. I bawled and even when I got on the phone with one of them I was still a crying hot, hot mess! I was feeling trapped, alone, HOT and SWEATY, and at my lowest point, I cursed the Universe because I felt like I was being punished in some way!! All three of my girls have really tested me, and there are so many minutes of my day where I feel like I am failing, I feel like I will never experience freedom, I’ll never truly know the ‘golden years’, I’ll never be able to not worry, I just was in the worst state imaginable! But you GUYZZZZZZZ, I needed to breakdown!! I NEEDED TO CRY! Find those friends that will sit with you and hold space for you and let you cry. Friends that will remind you that you were made perfectly and that your life is unfolding exactly as it should. Let them tell you how wonderful you are and how not alone you are!!! Cry ALL THE TEARS. Be grateful. And then pick yourself up and CARRY ON!! Because tomorrow is a new day. ~xo .
Végre idén léptünk fel az ördögkatlanan.. mindig volt valami a naptár vagy munka vagy ilyesmi, viszont idén perfekt volt, köszi! Ördögkatlan.. ahol van kb. 5 ezer ember, de legfeljebb 10 melltartó az egész fesztiválon #hippyfest#love#andpeace#ördögkatlan @ordogkatlanfesztival @mongoozandthemagnet
My grandma passed away back when i arranged my thesis. It feels so broke, sad and made me have no determination at all, but i know that's not what my grandma wants from me.
I remember when my mom said
"Go take a look to your grandma"
Without caring i said
"Just send my greetings, im so close to the deadline"
Now i realize that nothing can't replace your times for your family because no matter how busy you are and how far you are, family will always comes first to you. Period.
I have my degree today and I'm dedicating this for my grandma. I know regret is pointless right now but i hope you smile up there 😇
Bauallah, the Bahai leaders tomb, they believe that Eastern Religion must meet Western Religion, to have peace in the world. There no Israeli can be a Bahaii as the Holyland is viewed as a land of religious nutters, I must agree.