Exactly one year ago I signed a contract to commit to my biz plan for 12 months and report to the system. How bizarre but also how VERY TYPICAL of my numbers that this anniversary is today on Bright Pink Lipstick Day, Friday 21 September! What are the chances???
Around this time last year I also committed to curating In The Pink for @thouartmum, a group pink art exhibition and fundraiser for @pinkhopeaus in May 2018. In The Pink and BPLD add up to a year of back-to-back fundraising, sometimes as a side show and sometimes as the main show. Despite how pretty it might look from the outside, it’s been another incredibly hard year for me, testing my absolute limits on every front! Starting a biz is not easy at any time, much worse on the financial and health back foot, and fundraising is not easy either. I have such respect for the people who are passionate for their cause every day.
My story is just one for hereditary breast and ovarian cancer awareness and it’s taken me four long-slow years. I’m so sorry about that. I never knew it would take me so long. I didn’t plan any of it! I have not had breast cancer; I am a previvor. I come with different baggage, mainly grief related, and I will probably never get past my sadness which has affected most of my behaviours in life and work, as a mother and a woman. The experience has kept me in a simmering emotional state for a long time, which has been both helpful and draining. I am not ashamed of needing so much at 40 years old or of telling anyone.
If by writing my story I have helped just one person TO KNOW YOUR RISK AND CHANGE YOUR FUTURE then I say it is a job worth doing. In the process of being mouthy I have reached a place which is both challenging and comforting. I have many paintings and words (yes, still!) in my head and want to improve at both. If this is empowerment then gimme! Post a lippy selfie today to let people know that health is not just about downing green smoothies or going to the gym. It’s about the stuff you are made of and talking about it, openly and confidently, to get the answers you need about your own family’s health. And that really is all y’all.